Coming to terms with mistakes

[Humble Janitor]

I recently made several mistakes that may end up costing me my job. They were petty, selfish things that I'm usually not known for. I became apathetic, disillusioned and frustrated with my job to where I would do things that I knew were wrongly, mainly unconsciously. How I was able to shut off my brain and do such things, I'll never know.

I'm trying to make amends but I don't know. I'm not asking for sympathy but I feel that the mistakes went outside of work as well. I ony hope that I can cope and hope for a good outcome next week. I have a lot at stake and not enough strength to fathom a life without a job, etc.

I'll stay strong.

[Unified Serenity]

Hello HJ,

You will weather this possible storm. I'm sure that whatever reason the things happened, you already are addressing the situation. Live, learn, move on to the next step :original:

I'll happily send positive energy your way for the best outcome if you want.

[day]

its a weird thing for sure, especially after all has been said and done and wonder
what in the heck was I thinking....

and everybody can for sure relate to that....but sometimes things work out for the best, and when they do it doesnt seem so at first, exactly the opposite...

whatever happens sending you positive energy!

[mntruthseeker]

deffinately..............I am sure many of us can relate for sure

I will keep you in my prayers. Hang in there and good luck

[waitinginthewings]

HJ: Whatever the outcome, just know that its exactly the outcome that is just perfect for you in this moment of time. Surrender & allow it to unfold, as your soul will guide you (if you let go of fear, & control) We quite often get in our own way & block something better for ourselves, because of fear. Remember, all is well within & without.

[Humble Janitor]

I've decided to make reparations and just brace myself for the outcome. I would not feel right if I did not do anything at all.

[orthodoxymoron]

Just keep trying. If one door closes...another will open. Between incarnations...when we review our lives...I'm sure that I will say 'What the hell was I thinking?' But life moves one...and hopefully we become a bit wiser. Facing the reality of our mistakes is a huge part of learning. Denying our weaknesses and shortcomings is a huge mistake. Why are Egyptians so happy? Because they live in de Nile!

[Humble Janitor]

I certainly hope another door opens but I have renewed hope that this one will not even close. I had to ask myself, "Is fear really what you want?" and I'm getting better at trying to see a positive outcome.

[Stargazer1965]

I recently made several mistakes that may end up costing me my job. They were petty, selfish things that I'm usually not known for. I became apathetic, disillusioned and frustrated with my job to where I would do things that I knew were wrongly, mainly unconsciously. How I was able to shut off my brain and do such things, I'll never know.

I'm trying to make amends but I don't know. I'm not asking for sympathy but I feel that the mistakes went outside of work as well. I ony hope that I can cope and hope for a good outcome next week. I have a lot at stake and not enough strength to fathom a life without a job, etc.

I'll stay strong.

You know soon after I awoke...I followed the same path. Disillusioned with my job...not really caring whether I kept it or not. As I look back I subconsciously did things to ensure I would lose it. After I lost it I thought about the repercussions to my family...to me...to folks that counted on me. And for a long time (9 months) I was looking and looking then one day I was offered 2 jobs within days of each other...for more than I was making before. I'm a computer guy and during xmas to make money I went and loaded trucks in the middle of the night. I think my higher self was showing me there were lessons I needed to learn. After I did that and think I learned that we were all the same no matter what our day jobs are. So I work for a private company with no government affiliations and just plowing along through furthering their capitalistic venture....And trying to wake up everyone I can along the way.

HJ what I'm saying....follow your soul and the purpose will be on the path...J

[tone3jaguar]

Hidden in every mistake is an opportunity to learn. "Turn it into medicine"

[THE eXchanger]

xxx

[Humble Janitor]

Thank you, eXchanger. You've helped me to consider a new perspective on all of this. I'm starting to think of alternatives since the economy is **** and I don't know what I'm going to do if I do lose my job.

I really, really want to do more work in radio and I wish there was a way to get paid for it. I will look into it but regardless, I've put in nearly 20 hours of volunteer work over 3 months and I'm always looking for more ways to get involved. Other than making beer, this is something that I enjoy doing, that I'll never get sick of doing and I want to keep doing it. I don't want to clean anymore.

I've decided to do some things for my co-workers as a way of trying to make up for what I did. Regardless of the outcome, I feel I must do so because (the way I see it) when you make mistakes, if you don't make an attempt to try and rectify them, you are showing people that you really don't care. I don't want to show that. I like my co-workers. I am hoping they will give me another chance.

[Wormhole]

Hey HJ,
Just a big hug. Change is the ONLY CONSTANT IN THE UNIVERSE. That mantra has kept me solid through flood, fire, and really high water. No matter where you are or what you do, change is constant. The only thing as souls we can physically accomplish is to be present and participate. Open the new doors that arise, seek to explore what we fear, and desire to be the best that we can be.

Spiritually these new horizons can lead to everything...

Honestly, that describes you to a tee.

Peace of Mind,
Wormhole

[Humble Janitor]

Spent almost a week on paid leave and found out Thursday that my job was no more.

Which is fine with me. I've never felt so alive in so long. I'm not worried. I thought that I'd panic and lose it without a job. So far, I have not gotten to that point.

I will make my next opportunity and continue to search for an "open door" into a different field or to do something that doesn't completely bore/stress me.

Radio show is still going and that's what I love to do and I will continue to put my energy into it.

[no caste]

Good luck, HJ! In January I made a weird decision (given the economy). There were layoffs at the office. I wasn't on the list, but *elected* to be laid off instead of someone else. Imagine the family's, etc reaction!

It's taken months, penny-pinching, a lot of resourcefulness! to get by and I wondered if I wasn't insane. It's working out in wonderful, unexpected ways now, closer to my own dreaming.

Knock on wood :thumb_yello:

[THE eXchanger]

xxxx

[scanner]

I've decided to make reparations and just brace myself for the outcome. I would not feel right if I did not do anything at all.Hay man I was in the same position in Dec last year I thought my world fell apart , lost my job thought it was over . So what to do I started my own business work from home not saying I'm making millions but enough to live on, So my conclusion was it was meant to be , I'll be thinking of you just remember whatever happens it is meant to be, all the best.

[tone3jaguar]

I was laid off by a bunch of retards and wanted to leave anyway. Thanks for the 6 month vacation ass holes! LOL

Unemployment Compensation is my bail out, milking the system for the first time in my life and loving it.

[BROOK]

When one door closes...there is always another door to open

May that new door be better and more exciting and fulfilling :thumb_yello:

[THE eXchanger]

Xxx

[Humble Janitor]

Good repsonses but for the radio thing, it is college radio and I hate ads.

Otherwise, I'll be fine. I don't like "milking the system" either but gotta get by until something better shows up.

[THE eXchanger]

Xxx

[Humble Janitor]

do NOT overlook responsible advertising ...
as, that can pay you, to do, what you do well !!!

To me, there is no such thing.

I understand where you're coming from but I can see a better way without advertising.

[Ross H]

that sounds 'real' eXciting ;)

all you need is someone with drums, and, rattles :)

i'd like to create a sustainable community - with art/music & spirituality

and, of course - swimming -- got to swim

trying to figure out where the weather is good, all year round ?

canary islands ??? 19;47


The weather is fab here in Queensland Australia...thats why I moved here. Its easy to be self sufficiant, excellent for solar power, plenty of rain water, loads of natural bush...and yes a drummer, bass player and a good woman would be the bee's knee's:roftl:

How you doing today HJ? getting your head around it all?

I send you some good ole OZ energy:original:

[THE eXchanger]

Xxx

[Humble Janitor]

Still looking for another job but honestly, I don't want to work now. I'm just fed up with it in general.