Experiences since a toddler - all my life.

[m1*]

I have experienced the following things ever since I can remember - from the age of being a toddler. I'll do it in point form, otherwise I'll be typing for too long. I'll try to keep them in order of when the experiences for started and as they happened through my life. Take from this what you will.

Woke up in bed numerous times as a toddler/young child floating above my bed. Upon awakening I would drop back onto by bed. While above the bed, the experience was often accompanied by a feeling of something holding me up by my ribs (or that area), as if being pulled up.

Often woke up to find beings and entities in my room. They weren't always the same. Sometimes one tall entities, sometimes several small ones. Sometimes they were just heads.

I would often wake up, not in my room. I don't know where I was, except that I was most certainly not in my room.

I dreamed of circles in the grass when I was a toddler/young child. I looked at them and said (to myself): "Human beings have been here". I recall asking my mother the next day: "What is a human being?". She explained that I was a human being. I realize this is hard to swallow, that I could remember such a conversation, from that age - but I do, distinctly.

As a young child/toddler, I had recollection of places that I had not been to. I remember thinking about those places and wondering where/when those places were/are. I still do. I don't know the answer - still.

I also recall dreaming of that place. In that dream I was in two places. I was both on the ground and in the sky. I was speaking to "myself". This was at age 4 or 5. I looked up to the sky, as I looked down to myself looking up. I said: "I know I am in a dream". Then I woke up. I distinctly remember this dream.

At about 5, I saw a man standing in front of me. He was transparent and blue. Of course, I screamed my lungs out. This is a very distinct memory.

I often woke up in my bed the wrong way around. ie: Foot to head. Not in my covers, but on my bed.

I would often, as a child, get random thoughts to stop heading in one direction and turn away from where I was heading or where I was going. I would have the urge to go somewhere else. ie: I would be riding my bike, see a line of trees and for one reason or another, I'd have to turn around and go see what was in those trees. I felt strongly that something was there that I would miss if I did not turn around, or go there.

I have had literally thousands of dreams, all my life about world events, places and people. I have so many images of events and places in my head, I don't think I could ever explain them all.

I have woken up hundreds of times frozen in my bed, with my room lit up blue (with no light source, just radiant blue). This was associated with low deep oscillating humming, so deep that I could actually feel it through my entire body. There is also an associated high pitched oscillating sound. Each and every time this happened, I would fight with everything I have to get up from my bed. However, in each and every instance I simply lost consciousness after a short while and woke up later (usually in the morning).

I dreamed of September 11 the day before it happened. I also dreamed of the towers falling months before it happened. I have also had more dreams which have not yet happened: nuclear explosions, martial law and also non-human entities being here on the surface of this earth, associated with the roundup of people. This would take me too long to explain here, but I have dreamed of this scenario and situation dozens of times. I have a great picture in my mind of what is coming in that regard. But of course, I don't have dates - so it's practically useless information (sense my frustration?) anyway.

I have woken up physically injured many times. One particular night, I was having my head crushed in (or, at least, that's how it felt) by some sort of pressure. I woke up the next morning with a swollen neck and face.

I have a hole on the inside of my right calf. It is a piece of missing skin, about the size of a match head. It wasn't there when I want to bed. It remained bruised for several years. The bruising has only recently fully disappeared.

I do not only dream. I also have images and feelings flood into my head and into my consciousness while I am awake. I hear things. Places, names, people, all sorts of things. I plain out don't listen anymore. I've learned to block it out. Long story.

I am a believer in God. I read the Bible. I pray. So, (and I know that I will be told otherwise on a forum like this) I try to block all things out. I do not wish to speak with, inquire of, be influenced by or deal with any entity. I never did want to and I still do not want to. So, I do my best to block it all out and make these things go away. I have been injured attacked and abused by these things all my life. If anyone tells me: "Oh just go with the flow" - then you haven't been through what I have and you don't know what you're talking about so spare me - please.

I am also very intuitive. I often know when danger is close. I often know peoples intentions. I often know what people are thinking (to an extent). This often makes life difficult for me because I often KNOW when someone is lying, or not telling the truth. Then (with an apparent lack of evidence), I am accused of being judgmental or accusive. So, I often have to just say nothing, even though I know better than others in some instances and circumstances because they can't work out why I am so adamant of knowing something without evidence, and: "I'm psychic and I can read your mind" usually doesn't do the trick!

I am not religious. I can't stand religion. I hate religion. earlier I said I believe in God and that I read the Bible. That does NOT make me "religious". So please spare me and not put me in a religious fundamentalist box. I believe what I do because of what I have experienced.

I also have memories of not only being aboard space craft, but also piloting them. I have memories of being in different places, which I can safely say couldn't possibly be earth. Also, I am quite convinced I have visited places both on and off earth that aren't even in this time. I don't know the full story and I wont pretend to.

To conclude everything. Let me say that I have been abused, tortured, messed with and psychologically scarred by the entities that have taken an interest in me since I was a toddler. For this reason: 1). My attitude isn't to great and 2). I have fought with it all my life under great protest and duress.

I have absolutely NO will to discuss these things because "it's cool" or because I am looking for excitement. It's just that once you've been through something for long enough, you begin to accept it and become accustomed to it. So in recent years I've been a little more open to both discussing these things and also trying to find out more information.

I can say one thing. I am not a person who says he has all the answers. I'll tell you - I am flat out confused. In many ways, I am broken. I am ruined -- but I am not looking for sympathy or a shoulder either. I've got my chin up, and all I really want is the truth. I really don't want to get involved in an experience fest.

What I have written above is what has happened with me, the way I see it. I'm not looking for attention. I am most certainly not looking to site here spending the rest of my life discussing on all the weird stuff that happens to people, ie: in search of drama. I've been through enough, so my belly is already full.

I could say more, but where do I stop? You can ask questions if you like. That's guts of it, as written above. My opinions, feelings and openness change from day to day and week to week depending on my mood. One day I'll be willing to talk about it, another day I'll probably tell someone to get lost I don't want to talk about it.

I posted it here just in case maybe, somehow, there might be a benefit. But I don't see how (honestly).. I don't mean to have a bad attitude about it all, but 1). I am pretty ****** off with the whole thing and 2). I'm kind of over it, in the respect that I don't have ANY real answers and I'm kind of sick of looking for them.

..but I am intrigued. If I could find any "REAL" answers at all, I'd be over the moon. No pun intended. But I am not holding my breath.

I'm just annoyed that I don't know who I am. I am annoyed about a lot of things. My head is a mess. But I put on a very good act to appear level headed.

[no caste]

Well, I can't solve your frustrations, but I enjoyed reading about your experiences. Quite a beautiful series of memories. A lot of people are trying to piece things together these days, it seems, and you never know how what you posted may help that process.

Thanks for the post.

[m1*]

Well, to me - it's not beautiful. I can see how a reader might view them as beautiful, but to me they are not.

I will agree that they are interesting, and I am of course intrigued as to many things that have been happening with me. But the most frustrating part is that I don't know so much. It's hard.

I wish I could at least USE what i know, but I can't even do that because I don't know times or dates. I don't know so much. All I have are fragments and flashes and images and INJURIES and PHOBIAS! ..as a result.

Example. I went to the dentist last year. You know what I did? I'll tell you. The dentist leaned over me with his little mirror. I started sweating profusely, breathing heavily and I could not help myself but to sit up in the chair. Then after a moment, I sat back down realizing that I was being silly. Seconds later I sprung up again, pushing him away, and climbed off the chair.

ONLY NUTS do things like that! I don't even know WHY I did it. I didn't even feel that way until I was actually in the chair. I didn't feel bad about going to the dentist, prior. See, what ever is going on with me isn't beautiful. It's causing flashbacks, heart palpitations, stress and deep random nervousness when I least expect it.

[Spregovori]

Your feelings are like of those which parents abused them while young (it is a comparison)

Speaking of parents...did they notice anything? Your behavior? Your words? Did you mention this?

and

Did you ever attempt to communicate with the ET? Do you have any memories of it?

[no caste]

I guess I mean 'beautiful' that you remember them. I mean, you're sharing here right? So, thanks.

There are a lot of people on this site that can probably help things along, like out of the frustration zone. It can't happen without you saying your piece, which you did and are, as I see it.

[m1*]

Your feelings are like of those which parents abused them while young (it is a comparison)

Speaking of parents...did they notice anything? Your behavior? Your words? Did you mention this?

and

Did you ever attempt to communicate with the ET? Do you have any memories of it?

People have suggested this to me before. Actually, it's the first thing most people usually suggest -- but I am quite sure I was not abused in such a manner when I was a child. I'm actually quite positive. If those early memories were the ONLY memories I had, I might lean toward looking into it, but I have had thousands of experiences all my life. Not just while sleeping but also while wide awake.

No I do not try to communicate with ET, because I can do without waking up with my head half crushed in or skin missing from my leg. If anything, I do everything I possibly can to protect myself from any communication or exposure. The only communication I have is prayers, to God.

edit Oh I forgot to answer this:

"Speaking of parents...did they notice anything? Your behavior? Your words? Did you mention this?"...

I can't say there's anything spectacular to mention there. As far as my parents go, they just felt that I had an overactive imagination. My mother isn't overly receptive towards such things. She laughs it off and makes a joke out of anything I have ever tried to say, so I gave up talking to her about it. My dad is more receptive, but he just listens and doesn't seem to have much to say. I've told my parents about such things, but as I got older I pretty much stopped saying anything.

[Spregovori]

I am not saying that your parents abused you....but your emotions are as if they had...they or someone else (ET)...abuse...

Try to communicate with the ET (if you can). It might help you. It is not like you can escape or prevent them from getting to you?

[m1*]

Thanks Spregovori, but I think I'll pass on the communication with ET. I've had enough. But true, yes, it seems I cannot prevent them from showing up whenever they like. However, I will say that my prayers to God seem to be doing the trick. A lot of people seem to think that asking for protection from "guides" helps them. I don't do guides. I just pray to the creator. I have also learned that the name Jesus works wonders. When I first experienced these things, I didn't realise that. However, I have since come to find out that these entities do NOT like the name of Jesus. The only way I can get rid of them (if I am conscious enough to do so) is to call on the name of Jesus. Otherwise, if I am asleep or not fully conscious - stuff still goes on, except there's not much I can do about that except to wake up and have flashbacks.

[akopij]

Hi M1, I m a rookie here like you and have similar feelings. Maybe you have to know the answer to be able to ask the question.

[m1*]

Hi M1, I m a rookie here like you and have similar feelings. Maybe you have to know the answer to be able to ask the question.

I don't know. All I know is that there's a WHOLE lot more to life than meets the average persons eye. I know that much for a fact. I also know that we humans are not the only beings interfacing with this planet. I'm not only referring to physically either.

[eleni]

m1- what do the beings look like ( you mentioned taller and shorter ones when you were younger)?

[beren]

I am a believer in God. I read the Bible. I pray. So, (and I know that I will be told otherwise on a forum like this) I try to block all things out. I do not wish to speak with, inquire of, be influenced by or deal with any entity. I never did want to and I still do not want to. So, I do my best to block it all out and make these things go away. I have been injured attacked and abused by these things all my life. If anyone tells me: "Oh just go with the flow" - then you haven't been through what I have and you don't know what you're talking about so spare me - please.

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Dear friend, some of us here are believing that ET`s and reptilians are actually demons in disguised. Some believe in different things here like theories about andromedans ,pleadians ,tau cetians and reptilians are beings from other galaxies or universes.
I have watched almost all videos related to this on the web, have read many books and explored a lot about this.
The more I was exploring the more the real enemy was revealed to me.
Enemy that is very powerful and can change shapes . Both physically and visually . He can show you visions ,illusions or appear very fleshy if he so choses. he is not alone and he has his own followers and servants who can also do the same thing as he can, above described.
That enemy was once very high angel who obviously had great responsibilities because he was described as "shining one". He also had his hosts given to him in order to fulfill his duties given to him by Creator.
When he tried and actually rebelled against God and deceived first man and woman he was then punished . He was stripped from his previous position. Before ,he was abiding in light realms and didn`t know darkness but now was thrown our to know it. He lost his beautiful form by being cast out along with his hosts who followed him in his transgressions.
Now being out of the light realms and away from light,justice, power,wisdom and love of God he lost his beauty and turn in hideous creature.

As time was passing by and he and his hosts being away from God , they were losing their great might they previously had. Little by little they were losing all remains of beauty they had. Immediately after his casting out and for some centuries more he could transform into many shapes in order to trick,fool and deceive. He was choosing forms of angels of light,beautiful young women or men, God, serpent, enlighten being with bright clothing carrying scepters or staffs ...
Now he and his hosts got only power to annoy, torture and many bad things and they have a hard time presenting themselves as light being because they are way low with their life force.
That is why they are desperately trying ways to enslave humanity forever, to hurt us, eventually kill us.

I was mentioning before that I think they kidnap kids often because kids until age of 4-7 are most purest of all humans today.
Jesus explained that by saying that we could not enter kingdom of heaven unless we be as a child.

I think that by taking kids energy or very often their life they desperately try to suck a bit of purity of that kid.

Kids are left in horror and trauma.

Whatever you believe , you be sure of what you believe. Deception is in full swing world wide. I believe in God and his son Jesus Christ and in their removal of Satan and his hosts forever from the universe.

" a fall of one - a learning lesson for all-forever "

Go find my threads and posts here and let me know what do you think .

Love and blessings,
Beren

[m1*]

beren, I agree with you and believe exactly as you have explained. Thank you. I do believe that the entities I have faced are demonic. That is why I have no wish to communicate with them. If their intentions were good, they would not have done what they did to me all my life. Also, I didn't mention earlier in my posts (because I couldn't be bothered going into too much detail), I can feel the energy of these creatures. It is dark and it stinks. Not a smell from a nose, but a spiritual stench. It is vile and dark and black. Many times I have felt them leeching off me, almost as if becoming one with me and the darkness I feel inside when that happens is indescribable. It is putrid and empty. many times I have felt like I was at deaths door because of these things. I can say for a certainty that they are demonic.

[beren]

beren, I agree with you and believe exactly as you have explained. Thank you. I do believe that the entities I have faced are demonic. That is why I have no wish to communicate with them. If their intentions were good, they would not have done what they did to me all my life. Also, I didn't mention earlier in my posts (because I couldn't be bothered going into too much detail), I can feel the energy of these creatures. It is dark and it stinks. Not a smell from a nose, but a spiritual stench. It is vile and dark and black. Many times I have felt them leeching off me, almost as if becoming one with me and the darkness I feel inside when that happens is indescribable. It is putrid and empty. many times I have felt like I was at deaths door because of these things. I can say for a certainty that they are demonic.


One of the first thing that we all forgot is a build in deep sense that we can feel. That was a gift of our creator.

Satan learned how to bend that and he and his crew are transforming in various things and beings.

But first thing is what do we feel when those entities attack us or are close to us?
Second thing if we don`t feel anything, then what is behind their words?
God NEVER hid anything from us and always explained us whatever we asked him through out the history.
Who is the ones who are mysterious and secretive always cloaking and hiding ? They always have an excuse for that.

I mean come on! God showed his vehicle to Ezekiel and also to whole Israel and 1,5 million of Egyptians who went with Israel in the desert . Approximately 3 million people saw that at once ! And now comes those "ET`s" and wouldn`t dare to show one miserable ship???

Come on!!!

Something is smelling badly in whole this thing

But I don`t blame people. We are curious but we have to remember that playing with fire can get you burned.
Or :original:
remember this line:
Curiosity has killed the cat...

I know that in the future we will inherit bliss and everything prepared for us from the beginning of the world. But first there has to be some universal deep cleaning!!! Along with us if we want all that is prepared for us.

[Oliver]

M1, I think you are very special. I know that most of us can’t truly understand what you are passing through all of your life, but I understand that you are tired of all that is happening to you.

I believe this is not accidentally that you are chosen to see beyond, to experience other dimensions and reality. There IS purpose of all of it. Did you really tried to find what is the purpose? Why you?

I strongly believe you can help humanity with your abilities. Perhaps learning and knowing more about the phenomena that are happens to you will lead you to the point were you can find out what is you mission. And this can liberate you from all of the frustrations, bring you peace, making you happier.
I feel great compassion. A human being is thrown into the vortex of “things” happening around him, he is involved…and he needs answers. He is suffering.

The answers must be find by you. Refusing the reality could make things worst.
It is up to you. You are given with special abilities, the one that gave them to you KNEW that you can deal with them, making them benefit for all.
Please try.

Love & Respect





I have experienced the following things ever since I can remember - from the age of being a toddler. I'll do it in point form, otherwise I'll be typing for too long. I'll try to keep them in order of when the experiences for started and as they happened through my life. Take from this what you will.

Woke up in bed numerous times as a toddler/young child floating above my bed. Upon awakening I would drop back onto by bed. While above the bed, the experience was often accompanied by a feeling of something holding me up by my ribs (or that area), as if being pulled up.

Often woke up to find beings and entities in my room. They weren't always the same. Sometimes one tall entities, sometimes several small ones. Sometimes they were just heads.

I would often wake up, not in my room. I don't know where I was, except that I was most certainly not in my room.

I dreamed of circles in the grass when I was a toddler/young child. I looked at them and said (to myself): "Human beings have been here". I recall asking my mother the next day: "What is a human being?". She explained that I was a human being. I realize this is hard to swallow, that I could remember such a conversation, from that age - but I do, distinctly.

As a young child/toddler, I had recollection of places that I had not been to. I remember thinking about those places and wondering where/when those places were/are. I still do. I don't know the answer - still.

I also recall dreaming of that place. In that dream I was in two places. I was both on the ground and in the sky. I was speaking to "myself". This was at age 4 or 5. I looked up to the sky, as I looked down to myself looking up. I said: "I know I am in a dream". Then I woke up. I distinctly remember this dream.

At about 5, I saw a man standing in front of me. He was transparent and blue. Of course, I screamed my lungs out. This is a very distinct memory.

I often woke up in my bed the wrong way around. ie: Foot to head. Not in my covers, but on my bed.

I would often, as a child, get random thoughts to stop heading in one direction and turn away from where I was heading or where I was going. I would have the urge to go somewhere else. ie: I would be riding my bike, see a line of trees and for one reason or another, I'd have to turn around and go see what was in those trees. I felt strongly that something was there that I would miss if I did not turn around, or go there.

I have had literally thousands of dreams, all my life about world events, places and people. I have so many images of events and places in my head, I don't think I could ever explain them all.

I have woken up hundreds of times frozen in my bed, with my room lit up blue (with no light source, just radiant blue). This was associated with low deep oscillating humming, so deep that I could actually feel it through my entire body. There is also an associated high pitched oscillating sound. Each and every time this happened, I would fight with everything I have to get up from my bed. However, in each and every instance I simply lost consciousness after a short while and woke up later (usually in the morning).

I dreamed of September 11 the day before it happened. I also dreamed of the towers falling months before it happened. I have also had more dreams which have not yet happened: nuclear explosions, martial law and also non-human entities being here on the surface of this earth, associated with the roundup of people. This would take me too long to explain here, but I have dreamed of this scenario and situation dozens of times. I have a great picture in my mind of what is coming in that regard. But of course, I don't have dates - so it's practically useless information (sense my frustration?) anyway.

I have woken up physically injured many times. One particular night, I was having my head crushed in (or, at least, that's how it felt) by some sort of pressure. I woke up the next morning with a swollen neck and face.

I have a hole on the inside of my right calf. It is a piece of missing skin, about the size of a match head. It wasn't there when I want to bed. It remained bruised for several years. The bruising has only recently fully disappeared.

I do not only dream. I also have images and feelings flood into my head and into my consciousness while I am awake. I hear things. Places, names, people, all sorts of things. I plain out don't listen anymore. I've learned to block it out. Long story.

I am a believer in God. I read the Bible. I pray. So, (and I know that I will be told otherwise on a forum like this) I try to block all things out. I do not wish to speak with, inquire of, be influenced by or deal with any entity. I never did want to and I still do not want to. So, I do my best to block it all out and make these things go away. I have been injured attacked and abused by these things all my life. If anyone tells me: "Oh just go with the flow" - then you haven't been through what I have and you don't know what you're talking about so spare me - please.

I am also very intuitive. I often know when danger is close. I often know peoples intentions. I often know what people are thinking (to an extent). This often makes life difficult for me because I often KNOW when someone is lying, or not telling the truth. Then (with an apparent lack of evidence), I am accused of being judgmental or accusive. So, I often have to just say nothing, even though I know better than others in some instances and circumstances because they can't work out why I am so adamant of knowing something without evidence, and: "I'm psychic and I can read your mind" usually doesn't do the trick!

I am not religious. I can't stand religion. I hate religion. earlier I said I believe in God and that I read the Bible. That does NOT make me "religious". So please spare me and not put me in a religious fundamentalist box. I believe what I do because of what I have experienced.

I also have memories of not only being aboard space craft, but also piloting them. I have memories of being in different places, which I can safely say couldn't possibly be earth. Also, I am quite convinced I have visited places both on and off earth that aren't even in this time. I don't know the full story and I wont pretend to.

To conclude everything. Let me say that I have been abused, tortured, messed with and psychologically scarred by the entities that have taken an interest in me since I was a toddler. For this reason: 1). My attitude isn't to great and 2). I have fought with it all my life under great protest and duress.

I have absolutely NO will to discuss these things because "it's cool" or because I am looking for excitement. It's just that once you've been through something for long enough, you begin to accept it and become accustomed to it. So in recent years I've been a little more open to both discussing these things and also trying to find out more information.

I can say one thing. I am not a person who says he has all the answers. I'll tell you - I am flat out confused. In many ways, I am broken. I am ruined -- but I am not looking for sympathy or a shoulder either. I've got my chin up, and all I really want is the truth. I really don't want to get involved in an experience fest.

What I have written above is what has happened with me, the way I see it. I'm not looking for attention. I am most certainly not looking to site here spending the rest of my life discussing on all the weird stuff that happens to people, ie: in search of drama. I've been through enough, so my belly is already full.

I could say more, but where do I stop? You can ask questions if you like. That's guts of it, as written above. My opinions, feelings and openness change from day to day and week to week depending on my mood. One day I'll be willing to talk about it, another day I'll probably tell someone to get lost I don't want to talk about it.

I posted it here just in case maybe, somehow, there might be a benefit. But I don't see how (honestly).. I don't mean to have a bad attitude about it all, but 1). I am pretty ****** off with the whole thing and 2). I'm kind of over it, in the respect that I don't have ANY real answers and I'm kind of sick of looking for them.

..but I am intrigued. If I could find any "REAL" answers at all, I'd be over the moon. No pun intended. But I am not holding my breath.

I'm just annoyed that I don't know who I am. I am annoyed about a lot of things. My head is a mess. But I put on a very good act to appear level headed.

[Truthseeker360]

M1 i notice here on avalon lately that people seem to relate et experiences/new age concepts with jesus and demons


Just as you have done....

I ask myself why is this coming to light....

I ask myself why it is that you initially came with the angle of ET contact the flashing light the blue lite bedroom I have 30 pics of ufo's



Then BAAM jesus christ superstar routine




come on bruv which is it ET or little horned dude ???

Try and open your mind see past the mist


truthseeker

[eleni]

I wish we knew exactly who is doing the abducting- not discounting that they are not *Luciferian* based in origin and designed to fool people (for example some have positive experiences,some are traumatized and there could be a large spin factor involved designed to make some of us claim it's positive) etc; there seem to be different agendas, factions etc;

From what I've been researching lately- there are earth based Annunaki and they appear in conjunction with military in underground bases and elsewhere.

And it is said their main interests are bio based.......could they be the prime faction behind the abductions and cloning? And as our government is scared of them has decided to go along with this?

If so- from history- the reptilians are their enemies.........

And it is said the Kingdom of Annunaki (off planet based) is returning.

[beren]

Eleni-
One thing is sure for me and that is anything is possible.
When Jesus said that he has so much to tell them then BUT THEY COULD NOT BEAR IT in that time ...

We do not know for sure what is actually happening in the space as we know it.

I think Bible refers to the core of the matter . In the mean time who knows what happened behind the curtains and what did the evil entities done over last couple of thousands of years here on this planet, in it or around it in our solar system or further.

My opinion is that we need to fight for our soul and sanity in this turmoil of the time today. All other things will be revealed in their own time ,when we are ready.
But we`re not left alone in all this. Jesus taught us, healed us, helped us by casting out evil entities and was comforting us.
He is doing that also today . I think you saw so far many threads about that on various sites.

Anyways if we open our self for love and truth from the one who IS love and truth , there is no power in the universe who can defeat us!

Love and blessings!
Beren

[eleni]

Thank you Beren for posting that. I am going to reread the bible and see what I can gleam from it.

m1- are you in any way (or family member) connected with the military?

"Anyways if we open our self for love and truth from the one who IS love and truth , there is no power in the universe who can defeat us!"

Yes, exactly what my friend and I were discussing this morning after I had sent him the Hidden Hand article which was filled with justifications on infliction of pain/suffering at the gain of duality based factions.

[Kari Lynn]

Example. I went to the dentist last year. You know what I did? I'll tell you. The dentist leaned over me with his little mirror. I started sweating profusely, breathing heavily and I could not help myself but to sit up in the chair. Then after a moment, I sat back down realizing that I was being silly. Seconds later I sprung up again, pushing him away, and climbed off the chair.

I didn't even feel that way until I was actually in the chair.

Yoohoo Barry! Chair? Trip seat?

[m1*]

M1 i notice here on avalon lately that people seem to relate et experiences/new age concepts with jesus and demons


Just as you have done....

I ask myself why is this coming to light....

I ask myself why it is that you initially came with the angle of ET contact the flashing light the blue lite bedroom I have 30 pics of ufo's



Then BAAM jesus christ superstar routine




come on bruv which is it ET or little horned dude ???

Try and open your mind see past the mist


truthseeker

Is this the best way you can find to communicate?

Firstly, I DO have 30 pics of UFO's, I HAVE had hundreds of experienced involving "entities" - not ONCE did I personally mention "ET's" or infer of them. That's YOUR assumption. Thirdly, I didn't do a bait and switch. I am SICK and tired of when ever I mention God someone find a reason to get offended and becomes patronizing and tries to belittle how I see things. Have you seen what I've seen? The fact of the matter is that I believe what has been occurring with me IS INDEED DEMONIC. I could explain a lot more if you'd be nicer, instead of basically veiling a sentiment of mockery toward me. So YOU try to open YOUR mind, because let me assure you, mine is already open!

[m1*]

Thank you Beren for posting that. I am going to reread the bible and see what I can gleam from it.


I have found that the Bible is not a text to read from beginning to ed like a story book. It is something that should be read to look back over and cross reerence, etc.


m1- are you in any way (or family member) connected with the military?

"Anyways if we open our self for love and truth from the one who IS love and truth , there is no power in the universe who can defeat us!"

Yes, exactly what my friend and I were discussing this morning after I had sent him the Hidden Hand article which was filled with justifications on infliction of pain/suffering at the gain of duality based factions.


My grandfather (on my mothers side) was in the military, but as far as I understand things, he was a cook.

I do believe that there are branches of government (or at least, shadow government) that have technology that has far surpassed what is known and available publicly. I also do not believe that human kind devised this technology. I believe it was given to us. So, I wouldn't be at all surprised if I have been in full, or in part, affected by some sort of earth based secret program of one kind or another.

[Carol]

Hi m1, thank you for sharing your story. You might find Dr. David Jacobs work of interest. He wrote 'The Threat' and it's on PDF where you can google a link to it. I have noticed that many abductees are generational and the family is connected with the military. However I do have some confusion about the hybridization program and the young earth children who are taken. And I'm just unclear as to the whole military component with respect to where they work in concert with the ETs and abduction of children. Personally, I think kidnapping of and experimentaion on children as evil. And I'm most concerned about any US citizen (military or otherwide) engaged in these type of nefarious practices where children (the innocent) are victimized and left with PTS... which is what you experienced while at the dentist. The dental type setting triggered negative unconscious memories which had been blocked from your conscious mind. The problem with these type of ET activities is that they happen when the subject is wide awake and conscious where all of the physical pain and emotional trauma are conscious events... then they block the memory creating a hotbed of unconscious aniexty triggers. It's not like when one enters into the hospital for surgery, discusses it with the doc, is put out with meds and wakes up in recovery with the procedure behind them.

This makes one wonder as to what possible motive is there for so much deliberate pain and suffering through an entire life for abductees who are used for genetic hybridization program. Why is it necessary for children to suffer? Yet this is what the secret government does do to children and has done for the past 50 years plus. So who is really behind the whole abduction scenario? Us, them... a combination of the two?

m1, I'm truly sorry for what you have been through and... you may want to consider that may be a hybrid much like sleeper, lou baldwin, is where he remembered them bringing him to his body after he was born. Your earlier memories are telling.

As with respect to the door to the unconscious opened and your recalling future events... at another level of your awareness you seem to have access to information at the quantom level where there is no sense of time as all exists simultaneously. Time if for 3rd dimension where experiences and events are experienced as linear. When folks sleep that linear time mode is turned off and one experiences dream time or that period just before waking or falling asleep as multi-dimensional. m1, I suspect your conscious awareness is plugged into a bigger sine wave circut then the average human being.

eleni... you tend to raise questions I've also been thinking about throughout the day. I listened to Greers latest interview and what he said made sense up to a point... so of course there are a lot of questions unanswered. Some day I hope to sit down with him and fire away. Thank you for sharing what you have as well. :thumb_yello:

[m1*]

Hi m1, thank you for sharing your story. You might find Dr. David Jacobs work of interest. He wrote 'The Threat' and it's on PDF where you can google a link to it. I have noticed that many abductees are generational and the family is connected with the military. However I do have some confusion about the hybridization program and the young earth children who are taken. And I'm just unclear as to the whole military component with respect to where they work in concert with the ETs and abduction of children. Personally, I think kidnapping of and experimentaion on children as evil. And I'm most concerned about any US citizen (military or otherwide) engaged in these type of nefarious practices where children (the innocent) are victimized and left with PTS... which is what you experienced while at the dentist. The dental type setting triggered negative unconscious memories which had been blocked from your conscious mind. The problem with these type of ET activities is that they happen when the subject is wide awake and conscious where all of the physical pain and emotional trauma are conscious events... then they block the memory creating a hotbed of unconscious aniexty triggers. It's not like when one enters into the hospital for surgery, discusses it with the doc, is put out with meds and wakes up in recovery with the procedure behind them.


Well, regarding the PTS, I'd buy that. I mean, it's blatantly obvious that I was discontent about SOMETHING as someone leaned over me with a metal object. I felt like I wanted to grab him by the neck and strangle him. I really lost the plot that day. I was so embarrassed.

I was having trouble with my wisom teeth, and after that "episode" the dentist recommended that when I had them removed I was to be put to sleep. That was probably a very good idea, because I very likely WOULD have strangled someone.

But you know something peculiar? After that trip, I went to the hospital to have my wisdom teeth removed. I tell no word of a lie, this is what happened:

I was lying on the bed thing what ever it is called in a gown, in a room, ready to be rolled into the theater. A nurse places a blanket over me and also a machine which pumps warm air into another plastic type blanket to raise my body temperature. I noted to them: "Good, because I am very cold blooded". I wasn't trying to reference anything. All I meant was that I feel the cold much more than other people. Then, another guy (don't know what his role was), but he had ONE slit eye, I could see it (and I swear I am not telling fibs), he said: "Like those creatures from the center of the earth?". I looked at him and my eyes opened like saucepans (so to speak). I was speechless. Why did he say THAT? That is NOT a good thing to say to me if they wish me to STAY on that table and not disintegrate everything in the room! However, I didn't say anything or move, because I still felt highly embarrassed about the "dentist" situation and I didn't want to come out of that surgery having dome something even worse. So I just lied there and tried to keep my cool. But I was thinking.. WHY did you say that?

..and why DID he say that? I tell no word of a lie, I looked into his eyes just prior to him saying that and one of them was slit. I thought I was imagining things. See, the whole thing is - I was AWARE (after the dentist situation) that I get a bit over excited when people lean over me with metal objects, so I was trying HARD to just remain calm and not do anything that will cause me embarrassment. That is pretty much the only reason why I didn't jump off that table there and then -- because I was already putting in a great effort to remain calm. But I am still highly confused why he said that.

Maybe it was an inside joke between the staff? Maybe they were told what I did at the dentist? Maybe they know something about people who react that way? Maybe he was trying to get a reaction? I am still left with the question: WHY did he say that?


This makes one wonder as to what possible motive is there for so much deliberate pain and suffering through an entire life for abductees who are used for genetic hybridization program. Why is it necessary for children to suffer? Yet this is what the secret government does do to children and has done for the past 50 years plus. So who is really behind the whole abduction scenario? Us, them... a combination of the two?


Hybridization doesn't really fit the way I see things, but I am not closed minded. I wouldn't be at all surprised if I am a hybrid of some kind. It would certainly make sense. I am very different (not in appearance) but in mindset towards just about everyone around me. I know that EVERYONE is different to one extent or another -- but I M REALLY different in the way that I see and react to things. I am different in what I see as valuable and what is not valuable. I often have great difficulty fitting in with peers, and have to put in a great conscious effort to act as they do -- not because I have low self esteem and want them to like me, but because if I act the way "I" feel I should act, they all think I am weird - so I can do without it. I only ever say a fraction of what I am thinking in social environments. I often look at the way people relate and react to each other and I find myself becoming rather depressed with social situations -- in minutes. So I sit there and smile and fit in, but deep down I am thinking? Is THIS all there is? Is THIS what people find fun? Oh man... I'd prefer to stand in the middle of nowhere and stare at the stars than I would like to sit with a heap of people drinking and telling crude jokes and reciting stupid stories about some immoral thing they did the day before. It's a real chore for me to deal with. So I live alone and I have been single for a decade. I just can't handle being around people for too long. They are very depressing to me.


m1, I'm truly sorry for what you have been through and... you may want to consider that you are a hybrid much like sleeper, lou baldwin, is where he remembered them bringing him to his body after he was born. Your earlier memberies are telling.


I can't say i know - either way. It's possible, I guess. On some level. I just don't know. I don't have evidence to support that, but like I said, I wouldn't be at all surprised. I am most certainly different to 99% of other people and there are few people I can tolerate being around without getting bored or disillusioned with their mindset.


As with respect to the door to the unconscious opened and your recalling future events... at another level of your awareness you seem to have access to information at the quantom level where there is no sense of time as all exists simultaneously. Time if for 3rd dimension where experiences are experienced a linear. When folks sleep that linear time mode is turned off and one experiences as multi-dimensional. I suspect your consciousness is plugged into a bigger circut then the average human being.


I'd buy that. I see a lot of things that I honestly can't even put into words. There just aren't the words. Then, if I try to explain what I see it makes no sense. In my mind I have a whole thought process which runs off images and what is "like" but is not exactly like: feelings. There's no way to verbalize or explain these thoughts. It's kind of like knowing the English language and talking to a dog. All the dog can understand is a few key words. You can relate SOME of what you think to the dog, but it really doesn't understand. It just knows that when you say "FETCH" it need to go and get what ever you threw. It doesn't know what fetch means though. Similarly, I have a whole range of thoughts and feelings and pictures in my mind that I can see but I don't know what they mean. I guess a good analogy would be that I am a caveman. I can make verbal sounds, and I know that certain grunts and moans represent "language" (even though I don't know what language really is), and then someone gave me a radio which links to the year 2009, and although I know that these people (who are speaking fluently and clearly) are using those sounds to say SOMETHING, I haven't been trained in the language so I don't know what they're saying. That is the best way I can describe what's in my head. It's hard to explain..

edit I just thought of another analogy. Imagine someone who was blind from birth. Then all the sudden they wake up one morning and they can see. They can see just like you and me but they have NO idea what they're looking at. That is another suitable analogy. Except I am not speaking of "vision" I am speaking about some thoughts and things in my head. I can't understand it. Sometimes I get so tired of it, I wind up just sitting there and staring for minutes. I have NO idea WHAT I am thinking, except that something is processing and I just can't be bothered looking, so I just wait for it to pass. Imagine being on a spinning wheel on your back at a playground. It's spinning and spinning. You could put in effort to TRY to make sense of what you see, but it's too much of a chore, so you just look straight up and watch the blur. That's the best way I can explain..

[no caste]

So, I wouldn't be at all surprised if I have been in full, or in part, affected by some sort of earth based secret program of one kind or another.

Me neither. Gold Coast, if that where you are, is by:

NHQ South Queensland Brisbane Headquarters for all naval activity south of the Tropic of Capricorn (near Rockhampton).

[m1*]

Me neither. Gold Coast, if that where you are, is by:

NHQ South Queensland Brisbane Headquarters for all naval activity south of the Tropic of Capricorn (near Rockhampton).

I moved here (to the Gold Coast) 10 months ago.

Originally I am from Victoria.

I was born in Preston.

I spent my childhood (up until about 7) growing up in the country (a place called Finley). That is where a LOT of things happened to me.

Then we moved to the city and I lived all over Melbourne ever since.

Funnily enough, a lot of these things stopped once we moved away from the country - but returned (with a vengeance) when I hit about 13/14.

[no caste]

Well - seeing as I'm from the northern hemisphere (Canada) I don't know what the effin (nature) spirits are down under below the equatorial belt - do you have an inner kind of cultural background, like hmmmm dwarves, faeiries, mermaids, mermen, whatever? Your inner genetic background can help if you populate your head with your own stuff... something homespun... comforting. Some of those energies just have no place to roost so they freak and blip of their own accord... Australia has so many fantastic children's authors... seriously. I'm not joking about it.

hey, are you tuned into aboriginal dreamtime and/or stories in any way?

I don't think I have to add that these things are happening to you because you're sensitive to energies. But I did, kind of trying to be on the safe side of it. Are you into aroma therapies at all? It can get your mind into a different zone too, where you maybe can be more at ease. Or heck, are there just smells you like, let's go further, love?

If you're into the aromas, I have a great book that's specifically spiritual and I can check it for you.

[m1*]

I am a nuts and bolts kind of guy. If I had not experienced what I have n my life, I'd PROBABLY be one of those guys responding with something like" "Buahahaha, ET'S? Buahahaha!!! Muahahaha! You CLOWNS!"...

However, I have a life of almost daily experiences, visions, dreams, "visitations", you name it. So that is what I am trying to work out. I try VERY hard not to latch onto any one theory or the other. I try very hard not to put things into boxes. I just try to keep everything floating until something makes sense.

So, having said all that..

Well - seeing as I'm from the northern hemisphere (Canada) I don't know what the effin (nature) spirits are down under below the equatorial belt - do you have an inner kind of cultural background, like hmmmm dwarves, faeiries, mermaids, mermen, whatever? Your inner genetic background can help if you populate your head with your own stuff... something homespun... comforting. Some of those energies just have no place to roost so they freak and blip of their own accord... Australia has so many fantastic children's authors... seriously. I'm not joking about it.


Think of Australia as the 51st state of the US. The only thing missing is a bridge. The culture here is much the same as the US, especially recently. Practically all our TV and radio programming is either straight from the US or based from the US. We've even got little white kids walking around with pants down to their ankles, wearing gold chains and calling each other "bro". We do have our own cultural legends and tales, but I've never been one to pay any such thing great attention. I don't do legends and tales. I don't like fiction. I like truth. I like facts. I involve myself with what ever I can get a hold of that is rooted in truth and facts. My personal experiences are the foundation of everything I acknowledge -- not fairies and elves.


hey, are you tuned into aboriginal dreamtime and/or stories in any way?


No.


I don't think I have to add that these things are happening to you because you're sensitive to energies. But I did, kind of trying to be on the safe side of it. Are you into aroma therapies at all? It can get your mind into a different zone too, where you maybe can be more at ease. Or heck, are there just smells you like, let's go further, love?


Yes, I am most certainly extremely sensitive to energies.

No, I am not involved in aromatherapy or any other kind of therapy. I am only involved in what I can sort out in my head -- which (often) isn't much!

[Kari Lynn]

Well, regarding the PTS, I'd buy that. I mean, it's blatantly obvious that I was discontent about SOMETHING as someone leaned over me with a metal object. I felt like I wanted to grab him by the neck and strangle him. I really lost the plot that day. I was so embarrassed.

I was having trouble with my wisom teeth, and after that "episode" the dentist recommended that when I had them removed I was to be put to sleep. That was probably a very good idea, because I very likely WOULD have strangled someone.

But you know something peculiar? After that trip, I went to the hospital to have my wisdom teeth removed. I tell no word of a lie, this is what happened:

I was lying on the bed thing what ever it is called in a gown, in a room, ready to be rolled into the theater. A nurse places a blanket over me and also a machine which pumps warm air into another plastic type blanket to raise my body temperature. I noted to them: "Good, because I am very cold blooded". I wasn't trying to reference anything. All I meant was that I feel the cold much more than other people. Then, another guy (don't know what his role was), but he had ONE slit eye, I could see it (and I swear I am not telling fibs), he said: "Like those creatures from the center of the earth?". I looked at him and my eyes opened like saucepans (so to speak). I was speechless. Why did he say THAT? That is NOT a good thing to say to me if they wish me to STAY on that table and not disintegrate everything in the room! However, I didn't say anything or move, because I still felt highly embarrassed about the "dentist" situation and I didn't want to come out of that surgery having dome something even worse. So I just lied there and tried to keep my cool. But I was thinking.. WHY did you say that?

..and why DID he say that? I tell no word of a lie, I looked into his eyes just prior to him saying that and one of them was slit. I thought I was imagining things. See, the whole thing is - I was AWARE (after the dentist situation) that I get a bit over excited when people lean over me with metal objects, so I was trying HARD to just remain calm and not do anything that will cause me embarrassment. That is pretty much the only reason why I didn't jump off that table there and then -- because I was already putting in a great effort to remain calm. But I am still highly confused why he said that.

Maybe it was an inside joke between the staff? Maybe they were told what I did at the dentist? Maybe they know something about people who react that way? Maybe he was trying to get a reaction? I am still left with the question: WHY did he say that?
I sometimes wonder if there isn't something written on the computers as to what we are. Or even orders whether to let some people die, or treat others so they'll live. I lost a father in 2005, under some suspicious circumstances to hospital diagnosis, as well as I went to the hospital for "simple" gall bladder surgery that ended up being a 7 month nightmare, and almost dying few times.
Something the doctor told me really alerted me to that feeling.
After the first surgeons botched the surgery, (let it rupture and turn gangrene, and MRSA set in, and almost died) the specialist, told my husband and I that I'll likely not make it. It didn't look very good for me. Etc.. Etc... Then he asked me how old my children were. (I started being a mom late in life) I said 8, 9, and 14. His whole tune changed! Suddenly I was going to make it, everything would be alright.
But yeah, then he botched it too. Forgot to give me antibiotics, and I got a wound abcess, and MRSA again. Almost died again. (MRSA is a wicked disease!) Not to mention from all the medication and Mrsa, I was in a wheel chair for about 3 to 4 months.



Hybridization doesn't really fit the way I see things, but I am not closed minded. I wouldn't be at all surprised if I am a hybrid of some kind. It would certainly make sense. I am very different (not in appearance) but in mindset towards just about everyone around me. I know that EVERYONE is different to one extent or another -- but I M REALLY different in the way that I see and react to things. I am different in what I see as valuable and what is not valuable. I often have great difficulty fitting in with peers, and have to put in a great conscious effort to act as they do -- not because I have low self esteem and want them to like me, but because if I act the way "I" feel I should act, they all think I am weird - so I can do without it. I only ever say a fraction of what I am thinking in social environments. I often look at the way people relate and react to each other and I find myself becoming rather depressed with social situations -- in minutes. So I sit there and smile and fit in, but deep down I am thinking? Is THIS all there is? Is THIS what people find fun? Oh man... I'd prefer to stand in the middle of nowhere and stare at the stars than I would like to sit with a heap of people drinking and telling crude jokes and reciting stupid stories about some immoral thing they did the day before. It's a real chore for me to deal with. So I live alone and I have been single for a decade. I just can't handle being around people for too long. They are very depressing to me.
I've thought about this very subject many times. I don't know how else to bring this up without sounding like I'm "Wierd" so what the heck.
there have been so many times that I will "Feel" someone's emotions. And many times when I run across gifted people, such as yourself, I sense they are looking for an Equal. (along with loneliness many times, and few other emotions thrown in occasionally too.)
If you stop and think about it, If you get into a relationship/friendship with average person, can read their thoughts, feelings, etc.... it would get pretty one sided, and unequal relationship/friendship. But what would happen if you met someone whom had a simular gift, and could BLOCK or psychically defend themselves? you couldn't read their thoughts, know what they're feeling? Kind of puts things on the same playing field then, doesn't it?
Don't know if that's possible. Just a thought.

[no caste]

Whew, not much for me to go on then :original:

What kind of nuts and bolts do you like? Astronomy, electromagnetic theory, pulsars, deep ecology, buddhism, gardening like in the ground with your hands, endangered species, I dunno, cars? corrupt US politics?... ?

For instance, there's a discussion here:

CERN: ATLAS, CIA, Stony Brook/ Brookhaven Nat. Lab
http://projectavalon.net/forum/showthread.php?t=15781

-and-

(My personal favourite) Let's fry Dick Cheney!! (And Karl Rove et al)
Why is Dick Cheney still yapping?...
http://projectavalon.net/forum/showthread.php?p=180577

-and-

[I dunno]

PS Do you swim in the ocean a lot or no?

[m1*]

Whew, not much for me to go on then :original:

What kind of nuts and bolts do you like? Astronomy, electromagnetic theory, pulsars, deep ecology, buddhism, gardening like in the ground with your hands, endangered species, I dunno, cars? corrupt US politics?... ?


"Nuts and bolts" is a figure of speech. It means that I like to deal with the foundational structure of any subject. ie: The "meat and potatoes" (another figure of speech), ie: I like to use factual information as much as possible, and conjecture as little as possible.

I have researched all of the above subjects (least of all, buddhism), and all information plays a part in how I view things. I don't dwell on any one subject. If something is "real" and "true", and if it is important, I am interested in it.


For instance, there's a discussion here:

CERN: ATLAS, CIA, Stony Brook/ Brookhaven Nat. Lab
http://projectavalon.net/forum/showthread.php?t=15781

-and-

(My personal favourite) Let's fry Dick Cheney!! (And Karl Rove et al)
Why is Dick Cheney still yapping?...
http://projectavalon.net/forum/showthread.php?p=180577

-and-

[I dunno]

PS Do you swim in the ocean a lot or no?

I do love the ocean. I must live near the ocean. I love to be close to the ocean. I do swim in it, but I am afraid that something will come and bite my leg off. Too many squid monsters in there. So I prefer to view the ocean and be close it, rather than being in it (and becoming breakfast) -- that's a little too close for my liking. Plus there are stingrays, jellyfish and a lot of other creatures which could do me harm.

[m1*]

I sometimes wonder if there isn't something written on the computers as to what we are. Or even orders whether to let some people die, or treat others so they'll live. I lost a father in 2005, under some suspicious circumstances to hospital diagnosis, as well as I went to the hospital for "simple" gall bladder surgery that ended up being a 7 month nightmare, and almost dying few times.
Something the doctor told me really alerted me to that feeling.
After the first surgeons botched the surgery, (let it rupture and turn gangrene, and MRSA set in, and almost died) the specialist, told my husband and I that I'll likely not make it. It didn't look very good for me. Etc.. Etc... Then he asked me how old my children were. (I started being a mom late in life) I said 8, 9, and 14. His whole tune changed! Suddenly I was going to make it, everything would be alright.
But yeah, then he botched it too. Forgot to give me antibiotics, and I got a wound abcess, and MRSA again. Almost died again. (MRSA is a wicked disease!) Not to mention from all the medication and Mrsa, I was in a wheel chair for about 3 to 4 months.


I remember watching my grandfather die at his hospital bed. At the time, I felt strongly that the doctors wanted him to die. They put a tube down his mouth and the condensation in the tube settled in his lungs, gave him pneumonia and he died (duh! idiots...). He knew he was going to die. He was pointing at the curtains. I have little faith in doctors or the medical system.

They did the same thing with my grandmother a few years later. They insisted that she was brain dead and needed to turn the machines off. So, the family agreed that is best. Then after watching her convulse and moan for several minutes, I came to the conclusion that she was murdered also.

Going to a hospital is one of the quickest ways to die in my books.

They are home now - in a better place. For that, I am glad.


I've thought about this very subject many times. I don't know how else to bring this up without sounding like I'm "Wierd" so what the heck.
there have been so many times that I will "Feel" someone's emotions. And many times when I run across gifted people, such as yourself, I sense they are looking for an Equal. (along with loneliness many times, and few other emotions thrown in occasionally too.)
If you stop and think about it, If you get into a relationship/friendship with average person, can read their thoughts, feelings, etc.... it would get pretty one sided, and unequal relationship/friendship. But what would happen if you met someone whom had a simular gift, and could BLOCK or psychically defend themselves? you couldn't read their thoughts, know what they're feeling? Kind of puts things on the same playing field then, doesn't it?
Don't know if that's possible. Just a thought.

I can relate to this. I wish the people around me, in my life, were more REAL about things. Most people are way too shallow and put LITTLE effort into understanding ANYTHING. They simply latch to what sounds good to them and makes them feel warm and fuzzy *sigh*. Then, they look at me, a person who THRIVES on learning and understanding and constantly try to convince me how I have everything all wrong, because what I say doesn't fit in their puny little head. So, I go back home - close my front door and sit here alone. Yes I know what I just said isn't very nice, but that's how I feel. Just being honest.

[no caste]

OK, in the meantime here, I read your dreams, visions (am I nuts) post. Well, just so you know, right now I am stuck in 1942 with an almost dead horse I have to rescue. So you tell me. He's (could be a she) is emaciated, can't get up... there are about 6 people with me. It's night. We're being furtive. There are Nazi snipers everywhere. I've gotten as far as getting him (her) on an industrial type of canvas to drag, which incidentally is also quieter to drag/move to a safer corner of the hangar, than say pulling it by the legs.... Because it's so weak, at least it's quiet. Actually, it's hardly breathing, just enough to keep its heart and brain going - it can't move more than that or it might die with the exertion. It's in an air plane hangar.

Have you had any 'insectoid' typology experiences?

[FIIISH]

M1,

Welcome to Avalon.

Thank you for sharing your experiences- as painful as they are for you.

I can relate to many of them, as I have had similar experiences myself.

My suggestion to you is to find a way to reconcile the things that have
happened to you in such a way that they have meaning. Pain and suffering without meaning can be difficult to bear. Feeling like there is a good reason for things happening the way they do can make all the difference.

Since you believe in God, I assume you also believe in angels. Call on them often for guidance and protection-especially Archangel Michael.
Just ask, and they will protect you.

Sincerely,

FIIISH

[m1*]

OK, in the meantime here, I read your dreams, visions (am I nuts) post. Well, just so you know, right now I am stuck in 1942 with an almost dead horse I have to rescue. So you tell me. He's (could be a she) is emaciated, can't get up... there are about 6 people with me. It's night. We're being furtive. There are Nazi snipers everywhere. I've gotten as far as getting him (her) on an industrial type of canvas to drag, which incidentally is also quieter to drag/move to a safer corner of the hangar, than say pulling it by the legs.... Because it's so weak, at least it's quiet. Actually, it's hardly breathing, just enough to keep its heart and brain going - it can't move more than that or it might die with the exertion. It's in an air plane hangar.

Have you had any 'insectoid' typology experiences? It's quirks and quarks all 'round.

I'll have to be honest here. I am utterly confused by your response.

However, there is one question above, so I'll go with that.

I have not had any insectoid type experiences.

[m1*]

M1,

Welcome to Avalon.

Thank you for sharing your experiences- as painful as they are for you.

I can relate to many of them, as I have had similar experiences myself.

My suggestion to you is to find a way to reconcile the things that have
happened to you in such a way that they have meaning. Pain and suffering without meaning can be difficult to bear. Feeling like there is a good reason for things happening the way they do can make all the difference.

Since you believe in God, I assume you also believe in angels. Call on them often for guidance and protection-especially Archangel Michael.
Just ask, and they will protect you.

Sincerely,

FIIISH

Yes, I do pray to God. However, I do not and will not pray to angels. I do ask though, that God send me an angel - whether it be in a dream or while I am awake to help me - because I've concluded that there's nothing I can learn from anyone on this earth. That's not to say that there isn't anything TO learn from people, it's just that I can no longer be bothered dealing with lies and ego and exaggerations and mental instability. I sincerely need a mentor. I really need someone to look up to, that I can communicate with and learn truth from. That's what I want more than anything. I used to look up to adults. But then when I grew up I realized that most of them are insane and I became very disillusioned. Now I look up to children. They're the only ones I find truth, honesty and purity in.

[Kari Lynn]

I remember watching my grandfather die at his hospital bed. At the time, I felt strongly that the doctors wanted him to die. They put a tube down his mouth and the condensation in the tube settled in his lungs, gave him pneumonia and he died (duh! idiots...). He knew he was going to die. He was pointing at the curtains. I have little faith in doctors or the medical system.

They did the same thing with my grandmother a few years later. They insisted that she was brain dead and needed to turn the machines off. So, the family agreed that is best. Then after watching her convulse and moan for several minutes, I came to the conclusion that she was murdered also.

Going to a hospital is one of the quickest ways to die in my books.

They are home now - in a better place. For that, I am glad.
Knowing they're in a better place is all that keeps me going. I've actually seen my father since he's passed. I was sitting on the edge of my bed, listening to the song "Whispering hope" played by I believe Red and Smiley. (Or was it Reno and Smiley? I can't remember their names now. Bummer!)
An Old timey TV show. From like the 60's. (even way before my time. lol)
They played it wonderfully. Tears filled my eyes, and I thought, "Oh dad I wish you could hear this! He laid his hand on my shoulder, and I heard his voice say, "I can hear it, I'm here." And then something about him listening to them on the radio back home when he was young.
I went to my mom, and told her about the experience, and she asked me, "Don't you know who they are?" (well..... NO!) Then she proceeded to tell me they were his favorite singers when they first got married.
My dad's sister lived in the basement apartment of my mom's house, and I went down to tell her. With tears in her eyes, she affirmed to me that, yes they used to listen to it on the radio back home!

I can relate to this. I wish the people around me, in my life, were more REAL about things. Most people are way too shallow and put LITTLE effort into understanding ANYTHING. They simply latch to what sounds good to them and makes them feel warm and fuzzy *sigh*. Then, they look at me, a person who THRIVES on learning and understanding and constantly try to convince me how I have everything all wrong, because what I say doesn't fit in their puny little head. So, I go back home - close my front door and sit here alone. Yes I know what I just said isn't very nice, but that's how I feel. Just being honest.
OH DEFININITELY! Lots of people around here where I live are what I call Vain.
They worry so much about "how they look to other people. Have to "FIT IN" with society. What cloths they wear, how their car looks, how their house looks, etc....
I do have to say, my dad one time told me that he and I didn't have the same life style.
My mom and my brother were very materialistic. Keep up with the Jones' sort of attitude, best cloths, best cars, houses, toys, etc...
My dad, was always the nature person. Or so I thought. He liked to farm, garden, animals, walks in the woods, live off the land, etc..
His phrase that I always heard him say was, "I want to live 60 airmiles from the nearest road."
He never liked civilization. And I have somewhat the same attitude.
So when he told me we didn't have the same life style, I was hurt.

Later, I realized he was talking about me working part time mininum paying job, and living off cash means only. Everything old, patched, broken, etc...

Eventually, I did get a better paying job, got a loan on the house, got a loan on new car, new truck, credit cards out the bum, and in debt up to my eyeballs, (somebody help me! lol)
You know what. I think I was happier when I had nothing, driving an old junker with out AC, but having no bills to have to pay.

[no caste]

I'll have to be honest here. I am utterly confused by your response.

However, there is one question above, so I'll go with that.

I have not had any insectoid type experiences.

My point is: if you think you are nuts - you can always use me as a gauge :thumb_yello: (I am quite sure I am MORE nuts!!! )

You sound level-headed to me. I am currently out of ideas. If something comes to me, I'll let you know - I wanted you to know the source though, kind of like a fair warning. Grain of salt maybe, something like that. Also, it could be that there is a lot going on this weekend in military land or where ever - it's a big universe/s and I don't even know...

Another question: Has the swine flu thing been on your mind at all...? lately..? now...? ever....?

[FIIISH]

Yes, I do pray to God. However, I do not and will not pray to angels.

M1,

Some people believe:

that we ARE God-pieces of the whole.

We are the creator, and there are many creators that make up the One, Infinite Creator. Some are more powerful than we are, some less.
But, we all create.

Therefore, praying to an angel is still praying to a higher power.
Isn't that what you are intending to do?

Sincerely,

FIIISH

[Ross H]

M1,

Some people believe:

that we ARE God-pieces of the whole.

We are the creator, and there are many creators that make up the One, Infinite Creator. Some are more powerful than we are, some less.
But, we all create.

Therefore, praying to an angel is still praying to a higher power.
Isn't that what you are intending to do?

Sincerely,

FIIISH


Yes, "conversations with god" Neale Donald Walsh, (do-not be put of by the title, its not what it seems) says that we are infinite pieces spread through out all that is, experiencing past, present, future, parallel lives all at the same moment (NOW)

In this one piece of existence, this life, this earth, we are experiencing love and fear, tho fear is the dominant emotion, it seems, regardless of one's belief system...I personally can see how fear has bought me to this moment which has ultimately shown me the true nature of love...:original:

It seems we need to understand the duality of all, to understand anything in this one piece of our existence, matrix/hologram or what ever else we wish to call it?:original:

peace always:thumb_yello:

[FIIISH]

"conversations with god" Neale Donald Walsh

I have a friend that forwards his "I Believe God Wants You to Know"
emails to me pretty frequently.

I believe he has some good insight.

[kari]

Yes, I do pray to God. However, I do not and will not pray to angels. I do ask though, that God send me an angel - whether it be in a dream or while I am awake to help me - because I've concluded that there's nothing I can learn from anyone on this earth. That's not to say that there isn't anything TO learn from people, it's just that I can no longer be bothered dealing with lies and ego and exaggerations and mental instability. I sincerely need a mentor. I really need someone to look up to, that I can communicate with and learn truth from. That's what I want more than anything. I used to look up to adults. But then when I grew up I realized that most of them are insane and I became very disillusioned. Now I look up to children. They're the only ones I find truth, honesty and purity in.

Hello, i read the "ringing cedars of russia" series,(9 books) and in the books there is a whole lot about who we are, where we came from and why things are the way they are, it felt genuine, what was in the books, for the first time in my life i felt i found the truth. My grandfather(my mother`s father) was also in the war( second worldwar) and he was also a cook.My parents moved here (Sweden) from Finland in the 1950:s and i am born here, but anyway regarding the books, they talk about children and why it is important that they must explore everything themselves, because they are pure,i guess what i say sounds abit strange, because i jump from this to that, but that`s the way i am, whatever comes in to my head and in the moment, i write it down, i really recomend the books, best i ever read.
Kari

[no caste]

OK. So this is what I mean by the insectoid thingy -

YouTube - Wendy McNeill - Ask Me No Questions

Let me guess. It doesn't do anything for you either.

[Noela]

There are so many replies here, m1, and I hope it is not confusing you
further, but I wanted to say something also.

As you see there are many different viewpoints and suggestions,
but basically we do appreciate your sharing your experiences.
I cannot comprehend how devastating it must be for you, not only with the past experiences but the way you describe your life in the present.
It is very true that unless you have experienced something you
cannot really understand it, and that is true for me.

I just want to say that I am so pleased you have found the power
of the name of Jesus, and the help you have experienced from
prayer. There are those who have spoken of similar experiences
here on the Forum (i.e. the power of the name of Jesus) and there
are many more on various websites. I expect you have discovered that.

And - I say hello as a fellow Australian - originally from Brisbane.
I can relate strongly to your comment "Think of Australia as the 51st
state of the U.S." - that's why I hived back to Britain quick smart!!

Love and blessings to you m1. I will join you in prayer for that angel
to come along in the way you describe.

[m1*]

M1,

Some people believe:

that we ARE God-pieces of the whole.

We are the creator, and there are many creators that make up the One, Infinite Creator. Some are more powerful than we are, some less.
But, we all create.

Therefore, praying to an angel is still praying to a higher power.
Isn't that what you are intending to do?

Sincerely,

FIIISH

Some people may believe that, but I am not one of them. I pray only to the most high. If he wants me to talk with anyone less, he will send them. I do not believe that we are "God pieces". I am wholeheartedly convinced that we are the "creat-ION" and that we must conduct ourselves as such.

Yes, "conversations with god" Neale Donald Walsh, (do-not be put of by the title, its not what it seems) says that we are infinite pieces spread through out all that is, experiencing past, present, future, parallel lives all at the same moment (NOW)

In this one piece of existence, this life, this earth, we are experiencing love and fear, tho fear is the dominant emotion, it seems, regardless of one's belief system...I personally can see how fear has bought me to this moment which has ultimately shown me the true nature of love...:original:

It seems we need to understand the duality of all, to understand anything in this one piece of our existence, matrix/hologram or what ever else we wish to call it?:original:

peace always:thumb_yello:

I have many dreams and visions of places that do not seem to be in this reality. I don't know what to make of them, so I don't use them for conclusions. I use them as food for thought. I simply wonder about what I have seen in that regard. I have many dreams which make me feel as though I am living "around" this time on a close "timeline" in a completely different life. The reason it seems this way is that the dreams are so vivid. I don't know ANY of the places or ANY of the people, yet I know them perfectly well and I know my way around some places as though I'd spent a lifetime there. In many instances, the places are VERY similar to "this" reality - yet different, as if I were viewing a branch of time that left off from where we were 50 years ago. For example, I might dream of a place where everything looks totally normal, like any city might look on earth, except that the clothes people are wearing are totally different, or maybe everything is the same but the cars are weird. So, I am open to such suggestions due to my own experiences, but at this time, the whole situation is something to speculate about. I don't have any evidence that it's what I am seeing. All I know is that what I am seeing is NOT from "my" life and sometimes not from "this" time.

Actually, here's an example. I was taking a nap the other day. I wasn't quite asleep and I wasn't quite awake. I was "drifting off". Then I heard loudly in my head: "Baxlor Avenue". So I decided to get out of bed and go look it up online - because I OFTEN hear stuff like this and I never go look it up and by the time I decide to look it up I've either forgotten what was said or forgotten all about it - period. There is no such place on this earth named Baxlor Avenue. So why did I hear it? Is is a future place? Is it a place from a parallel branch of time? It is interesting though. I heard it clearly (no, it wasn't Baxter, it was baxLOR). I often hear names as well. Just out of the blue I will hear a persons name. If I am near a computer when I wake up, I will go to Google news and look it up. I also often dream of people up to mischief, such as murders, people getting injured, etc.

Side note: I just woke up from a nap right now. While I had my eyes closed, I saw a white bus with a blue stripe turning a corner. It lost control and tipped over. Then it slid down a road, went through a rail and came to a halt. Then I saw people climbing out and also pulling out children which were not moving. Some people died on that bus. I looked up "Bus" on Google news, but there was no story about a bus - so I don't know where I got that from.

OK. So this is what I mean by the insectoid thingy -

YouTube - Wendy McNeill - Ask Me No Questions (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9P4lgdS8xaw)

Let me guess. It doesn't do anything for you either.

This seems to me, to be a dream of a devil.

There are so many replies here, m1, and I hope it is not confusing you
further, but I wanted to say something also.

As you see there are many different viewpoints and suggestions,
but basically we do appreciate your sharing your experiences.
I cannot comprehend how devastating it must be for you, not only with the past experiences but the way you describe your life in the present.
It is very true that unless you have experienced something you
cannot really understand it, and that is true for me.


it doesn't bother me per se, if people don't understand or relate. However, what does bother me is if someone related to what I am saying with something to do with drugs, or they want to try to tell me that their "guides" told them this or that. I really can't stand New Age philosophies. I can do without that kind of thing. I don't tell people as such, because it will turn into an argument, so I just say: "Thanks" and shake my head in private. What I mean to say is, it is very difficult to find people who can see that what I am experiencing isn't some vague dream or thought that I am trying to get to sound "cool". Like I said, I've woken up with injuries, swellings, marks, you name it. What I have experiences is as real as real can get, so I just get a bit annoyed if people lose sight of that and bring what I am saying back down to stories and conjecture (or something that simply sounds cool). I find it rather irritating actually. This is the main reason I never said anything at all for years -- because when I did, I just couldn't deal with the responses. However, I am getting better at just biting my tongue these days.


I just want to say that I am so pleased you have found the power
of the name of Jesus, and the help you have experienced from
prayer. There are those who have spoken of similar experiences
here on the Forum (i.e. the power of the name of Jesus) and there
are many more on various websites. I expect you have discovered that.


Yes, many people get offended when I explain that the name of Jesus helps. Some people get outright vicious at the mention of Jesus name. There are a lot of people that can't stand the thought of God and if you mention God or Jesus, they'll do anything they can to either mock you or suggest some other information to try to pull you away from accepting that Jesus is Lord. I've just learned to ignore it. It's usually the same people who believe they ARE Gods, or that they are co creators, or that they get their information from "guides" that will not accept that Jesus is Lord. I plain out don't subscribe to any of that. I know that the Lords name works, because when I have been attacked, I called on the Lord and I was helped. And I'm not talking of a bout of indigestion one night, and then thinking: "Oh the demons are here".. I'm talking room lit up blue, being held to the bed, can't move, something tearing at my very soul and life force. The ONLY thing tat makes this stop is the name of Jesus. I know that to be true and no one is going to convince me of anything different withs stories about guides, pleiadians, insectoids or angels. Hate to sound sarcastic, but I think some people just let their imagination get the better of them.


And - I say hello as a fellow Australian - originally from Brisbane.
I can relate strongly to your comment "Think of Australia as the 51st
state of the U.S." - that's why I hived back to Britain quick smart!!

Love and blessings to you m1. I will join you in prayer for that angel
to come along in the way you describe.

I don't blame you! This country has gone down hill so much in the last 20 years. I'm still glad I live here though. There are much worse places on the earth.

[no caste]

Fine. Do you find any comedians funny?

http://imagecache2.allposters.com/images/pic/73/039_68467~Dean-Martin-Jerry-Lewis-Posters.jpg

Jerry Lewis is insectoid... anything in your fellow man or woman... ? anywhere... that's pleasant... ?

[eleni]

Wow- the dentist/hospital experience is interesting..... I need to read that again.

Carol- I too listened to Greer last night (On Veritas) but I can't agree with him on the no malevolent species- I think there is probably a lot more he doesn't say- not sure why people think he's malevolent himself for saying that- I get the feeling he is doing good for the world etc;

Kari Lynn- glad you got well- so hard when you have children to be told such nonsense by medical *authorities*......

I do think/know they keep data on certain people who are/were part of various genetic breeding programs etc; I am part of one (Lebensborn program) grew up near Brookhaven and Montauk and was given numerous drugs (LSD) as a small child in conjunction with various experiments. Some of the other Montauk survivors have recognized me/I recognized them and we have *reunited* to support each other etc;

What I was told only males were used for trip chair- I disagree with that because I was used recently for time travel.

As a child they had to strap me down to the dentists chair whenever I went to visit the dentist. It's taken me years to get over fear of that and I stay away from medical offices/doctors etc; never been to hospital- had all my babies at home. Medical people *scare* me and I have panic attacks.

M1- you might want to consider therapy for PTSD- or going under regression (I know you mentioned you don't want to) but it may provide you with answers....

When I was 19 it was suggested to me that I was a hybrid (by a well known Indian Guru, my yoga teacher and meditation teacher) at the time I didn't take it too seriously and only years later under hypnosis with Dr. Mack did I discover the truth. It's one reason why my biological mother won't discuss aspects of this nor talk about my father (she only said she became pregnant over very traumatic circumstances) she was then moved out of her country (this particular program used Nordic and German girls) and placed in Nevada for 4 months of her pregnancy before she was moved again to NY to have me. I have the doctors name who ran this ring (he committed suicide) and I was able to do some tracing/investigation around it.

I only add that if you are curious to get to the bottom if it like I was/am (although I am far from getting to the bottom of it) and it has provided me with some comfort (not much though to be honest- this is not an easy subject).

Anyhow-

[Kari Lynn]

Kari Lynn- glad you got well- so hard when you have children to be told such nonsense by medical *authorities*......I'm glad to be feeling better too. Was very hard time, and still had experiences right while I was in the hospital too.

I do think/know they keep data on certain people who are/were part of various genetic breeding programs etc; I am part of one (Lebensborn program) grew up near Brookhaven and Montauk and was given numerous drugs (LSD) as a small child in conjunction with various experiments. Some of the other Montauk survivors have recognized me/I recognized them and we have *reunited* to support each other etc;
It's good that you've found each other.
I don't remember a whole lot from my youth. I know I was born way premature, and had to stay in the hospital for a month before my parents could bring me home. I suspect lots of manipulation and genetic alterations could possibly have taken place during that time.
I remember a school "counselor" taking me out of school to drive me to the dentist. to which my mother said "They don't do that, I took you to all of your dentists and doctors appointments." And she definitely did. I'd never seen the woman again, never knew who she was, nor found any other evidence of her having taken me to the dentist that day.
I do remember the dentist removing two teeth. I was very upset because they pulled two of my "New" teeth. But they've since grown back.
And as M1 states, waking up with injuries several times. I've had Broken toes from kicking the Sh*t out of somebody. A broken shoulder bone, a perferated ear drum. And of course, verious needle tracks, and bruises, and even a sticky shocker mark/tazer on the front of my thigh, above the knee.

What I was told only males were used for trip chair- I disagree with that because I was used recently for time travel.
I agree with you, because I do know of another woman, maybe a couple, who've endured the trip seat.

[eleni]

Kari Lynn- do you have human and alien experiences (as perpetrators)?

[Kari Lynn]

I remember military soldiers much of the time. White coats/lab personel.

Few I've met in person.
CIA agent, and ARV person that would be known as my safety link.

[Ross H]

Dear M1,

I have 2 friends with very similar experiences, One has always had presences in his room at night, physical pressure, ticking sounds, (not clocks) visions, dreams ect,

My other friend was going through a very rough patch and my girlfriend, at the time, gave him a very large crystal,(cant remember the type) to put in his shirt pocket over his heart. He was driving through a storm, had his window down about 100 mill when a bolt of lightening came through the window straight into the crystal over his heart!!! (TRUE STORY) He stopped the car, was in a daze, gathered himself together as best he could and drove home. He did not sleep for 1 week, his energy levels were through the roof...

After a week or so he seemed to retreat in-to himself, I performed with him 4 nights a week in a band for 15yrs and have known him for 35yrs.

I could see something was very wrong with him but he was reluctant to talk...

He finally came clean and told me what was happening to him...

Entities, voices, remembering past lives and I mean all over the multiverse's, he experienced profound things that would of put most in a state of "looneyness" He could see the dead, he could feel things about to happen...

I tried my best to help him and after 7 years he got to a place of understanding...he can remember sending himself here to this time-line on earth from the 9th dimension, He was warned by fellow 9th beings "are you sure you want to do this" He said yes and I will forget everything when I'm there...so...he now see's for himself what he wanted to do, that was to experience this 3d reality and to be of service to others, He has been my best teacher because of this! He is now in a place of peace opposed to how he was when he first started to remember, He often chats with his 9th dimensional self!!! yes he does...took me a long time to understand this...
The lightening was the catalyst for his awakining, tho he calls it his "remembering"

Anyways he taught me this: if and whenever you are being or feel threatened by other beings/entities you say this:

I AM SOVEREIGN TO MY OWN BEING, I AM NEITHER FOR YOU, NOR AGAINST YOU, SO LEAVE NOW!

Now this works for him whenever he finds himself amongst other beings/entities when he feels THE ENERGY DOES'NT RESONATE WITH HIM! My other friend (as wrote above) adopted this veiw point and the first time he said those words he was left alone.

I will say this: you are not alone M1, there are many who are trying to grasp "WTF', I wanted to share with you my dear friends experience's, hope this is of some help???:original:

Much love to you always

jross

[Peace of mind]

Shortly after my uncle won the lottery he passed away from complications due to asthma. This tore me up because he was a true family guy. This dude kept everyone together. I doubt if he was into religion but he would always do old jobs such as electrical and carpentry work for this well known church in the area. He even donated a sound system to the church (this was before winning the lottery). Out of honor, the church took care of the funeral arraignments and did the same for my grandmother who passed away shortly after her son (my uncle). After the wake I went home and cried, my tears were not so much for my grandmother and uncle but for humanity. I started seeing images of so much pain and sorrow that it eventually overwhelmed me and caused me to shout out about the injustices in life. I demanded to know what this place was we called life. The more I demanded to know what this place was….the angrier I became and the more tears streamed down my face. I ranted for about an hour then fell asleep.

A week or so passed and I became numb to the people around me. I can recall laying in bed thinking about any and everything when suddenly my head started acting weird. My vision became distorted / blurry, as if I was having some trippy dizzy spell or something. I remember hearing a whole lot of static and felt my brain moving around in my head. It felt like something was either growing inside of my brain or it was shriveling up. The feeling and noise was sounding like something frying in grease. I think this lasted for about 1 minute or 2. When it was done I felted as if nothing ever happened, except that I felted clean and energized the whole day. When I went to bed that night the strangest thing happened. I woke up bouncing off of my bed and landing on the floor. I landed far enough from the bed scraping the side of nose on the radiator…leaving a small gash on my face. I was like wt..!?! I never was known for sleep walking or anything like that so I don’t know what happened. What I do know….the gash on my face healed mysteriously fast. A few months later I was in the wrong place at the wrong time. On my way to work, a drive by shooting claimed the lives of a few guys standing on a corner. I remember picking myself up off the ground and feathers were flying everywhere. That’s when I realized my goose down jacket had 9 bullet holes in it. I immediately took it off and was amazed to find no blood or wounds. A cop at the scene said it must be my birthday and joke about angels saving me. But wait….months later I go thru the same thing again. The bullet holes lined up in the exact same places on my shirt as it did on my jacket. This time I was hit in my elbow and suffered a broken arm. It was as if I had 2 joints on one arm and I had to hold my arm to stop it from bending in the broken area...eww. What was strange is that I felt very little pain and the cast was off in less then 2 weeks. Ever since then....I’ve been laying low and pondering the existence of this reality.

I know something is up, but I’ve trained myself to enjoy the ride without worrying…Everyone should…just buckle up.

[Steven]

Hello m1*. I have a question if I may. Do you feel like belonging to Earth or you feel like a misfit here on Earth, and if you do, is this feeling lasting from a long time ago?

Namaste, Steven

[Noela]

Thanks m1 for your reply to my post. Always nice to get a reply.

With regard to what you believe regarding the person of Jesus Christ
and the power of his name - well, it is experience that counts,
isn,t. it? You have proved that having a personal faith in Jesus
and using his name WORKS!!

It has been so gratifying to me to have you and Beren stating
so well what I too believe! I guess I was a bit cowardly in
coming out and stating it as you have done, because, as you say,
it doesn,t go down too well does it?

I believe that the fact that this is being discussed now on this Forum
and people like you and Beren are putting the case for Jesus
Christ as Lord, is giving more and more people the opportunity
to look into this- the whole scenario of evil - how the purpose of the life, death and resurrection of Jesus was to "destroy the works of
the devil" - and see if this is not a rational explanation for the
situation we are in at this present time. "Then cometh the end,
when he (Jesus Christ) shall have delivered up the kingdom to God
(and) hath put all enemies under his feet."

I am sure you are on the right tract, m1, in looking to God, and
asking for his help. I pray it may come speedily.

God bless.

[Ross H]

Thanks m1 for your reply to my post. Always nice to get a reply.

With regard to what you believe regarding the person of Jesus Christ
and the power of his name - well, it is experience that counts,
isn,t. it? You have proved that having a personal faith in Jesus
and using his name WORKS!!

It has been so gratifying to me to have you and Beren stating
so well what I too believe! I guess I was a bit cowardly in
coming out and stating it as you have done, because, as you say,
it doesn,t go down too well does it?

I believe that the fact that this is being discussed now on this Forum
and people like you and Beren are putting the case for Jesus
Christ as Lord, is giving more and more people the opportunity
to look into this- the whole scenario of evil - how the purpose of the life, death and resurrection of Jesus was to "destroy the works of
the devil" - and see if this is not a rational explanation for the
situation we are in at this present time. "Then cometh the end,
when he (Jesus Christ) shall have delivered up the kingdom to God
(and) hath put all enemies under his feet."

I am sure you are on the right tract, m1, in looking to God, and
asking for his help. I pray it may come speedily.

God bless.

I also know of a guy who was having trouble with a naughty entity...he tried lots of things to banish "it" from his home. In the end he said:

IN THE NAME OF JESUS CHRIST, LEAVE THIS PLACE!! he had no further trouble.

So in using his name, for him it worked! :original:

peace always

[beren]

I also know of a guy who was having trouble with a naughty entity...he tried lots of things to banish "it" from his home. In the end he said:

IN THE NAME OF JESUS CHRIST, LEAVE THIS PLACE!! he had no further trouble.

So in using his name, for him it worked! :original:

peace always


That is very good to know!
However I want to make a point here, by saying that what the person said above is looking like a throwing spells on that entity.
What I meant is that we should not use Jesus`s name like a magic thing or you know if nothing else worked then I have a final solution-IN THE NAME OF CHRIST BUZZ OFF!!!

I think the key point is that we should know Christ as a person and get to know him deeply. Get to know God ,his father deeply... Only then those entities would definitely flee. Well Jesus `s name really helps but what happens tomorrow? If you do not wish to listen Jesus`s advices or be close to him and God what is then your true stand? I mean you do what you wish, you play with fire (spiritism,occult ,and all rest in "light" form) and then when you`ve been attacked you cry Jesus HELP ME !!!

I am afraid it does not works like that. People can not fool other people and other people very quickly see them through and shun them. Do you think that Jesus and God would not see when someone is not serious when asking help?
Yes they will help MANY times but do not be surprised that one day a help IS not there because someone who asked help was fooling around with all mentioned above without a desire to really know what is really happening and who`s been attacking them.

We often forgot that when we ask for help from God and Christ ,from whom do we ask that help . God and Christ can not be mocked around . They are not there living 24/7 just in order to instantly send their angles to help "poor" us! So meanwhile we can do as we please. I mean sure we can do all that we please but with our deeds comes responsibility . It means if we play with spiritism surely we will invoke entities and they are evil! God will help us many times in that things but there is a line in that. How many times do we need to play with fire so that we can finally learn not to???

On the other hand the things that M1 is living all days is something very heavy. I can not tell why exactly they are attacking him because they would find a slightest reason to attack somebody.
They would lean on to somebody and will be especially furious when that somebody is searching help from God and Christ as M1 do.

M1
Be strong and always ask guidance and God`s help. This is war my friend and in war against this enemy, there is no mercy ! We will not have mercy for them as they have no mercy for us. We have King of Kings and Lord of Lords a name that has been lifted above any other name but God`s own and he is our helper with holy spirit too.

[beren]

I believe that the fact that this is being discussed now on this Forum
and people like you and Beren are putting the case for Jesus
Christ as Lord, is giving more and more people the opportunity
to look into this- the whole scenario of evil - how the purpose of the life, death and resurrection of Jesus was to "destroy the works of
the devil" - and see if this is not a rational explanation for the
situation we are in at this present time. "Then cometh the end,
when he (Jesus Christ) shall have delivered up the kingdom to God
(and) hath put all enemies under his feet."

I am sure you are on the right tract, m1, in looking to God, and
asking for his help. I pray it may come speedily.

God bless.


Noela, thanks for honesty!

One thing is on my mind, the space is so vast that we can not comprehend it.
There is a strong possibility of ET life out there. Civilization who are way higher than ours or even lower than ours.

The thing is that we DO NOT KNOW that for sure. We can speculate, hear stories about that, "evidences" and many other stuff, but it always comes blurry. Enveloped in a thick mist and not clear.
I believe one day it will be revealed to us everything we want to know, but that comes when we finally prove before God that we will use our free will to do good and to share love,wisdom,peace,and divine knowledge of our creator.

We as humanity are far away from that but as individuals are somewhat close.

One of the things that people do not understand is that actually God-Yahweh has allowed Satan to prove his allegations. You find that in book of Job. Satan basically claimed that we as humanity are serving God selfishly and that he is nurturing us like babies. But as soon as he remove that ,we will like spoiled brats desert him.

God allowed Satan to prove that theory so he can then forever show in universe that he rules with justice, love,wisdom,power. And that his rule is not dictatorial as Satan claimed.

Surely many people chose to abandon God but some chose to love him and stand on his side.

The ultimate evidence that a man can chose God`s side was Christ in flesh.
Bible state that even that he was perfect he had to become as one of us to learn humility and really understand through what do we pass through our earthly life. His temptations were harder than we could even imagine because he was carrying all humanity`s life on a stake. Imagine that he failed, Satan`s point would be valid and all other creatures in the universe would ask the question why should they serve God and why should not they them self choose new paradigms.

Not only Jesus but many showed that they love God honestly without terms...
unconditionally .
And when all this finish up and when all wicked deeds of Satan and his crew are null filed ,all should be made new in entire universe because who knows how many worlds did Satan infected , how many sorrows he sowed in the universe. Pretending to be the one he is not in every different world where he sowed his wickedness.

[eleni]

It's my feeling that the entities/ET's/IT's etc; are the *Gods*(meaning they posed as God and people fell for this deception) who came to earth eons ago- spiritually misaligned peoples......and they have inflicted their will on the populace- only by raising our core vibratory levels do we have means to change this all around and I feel Beren is correct in that just using the name of Jesus may backfire due to intent etc; if the entities know one is just throwing that name around- they are likely to catch on as Beren said.

However there is a chapter in Jim Spark's book which talks about a police officer trying to help Jim by using Jesus and it did not work.

Also Betty Andreasson was a devout Christian.

Not saying it doesn't work- I have no experience with it- I'm paralyzed and can say nothing.

[m1*]

Gee, so much to respond to here! Let me go through it all..

jross,

I AM SOVEREIGN TO MY OWN BEING, I AM NEITHER FOR YOU, NOR AGAINST YOU, SO LEAVE NOW!

Let me explain something. Earlier in my life, although I had began to read the Bible, I didn't fully comprehend what I was reading. There was a time when I was just learning, and developing a relationship with God, through prayer, didn't blossom until later. But let me assure you, and anyone else, that there was a time where I tried to fight these things off "myself".

Let me assure you (and my intent is not to glorify the power of demons), but they are POWERFUL and they do NOT mess around. They can read your mind. They know what you're thinking. They are masters of telepathy and can create feelings and emotions with the energy it takes for us to blink. Telling one of these monsters to "go away" or to demand that "you are sovereign" will do as much good as standing before a vicious dog and saying: "I am sovereign over you". The dog wont care! It will still be intent on tearing out your throat if it can! More to the point, there's not much you can do about it!

The ONLY thing you can do is call on the name of the OWNER of the dog. Then when the owner yells to the dog to get away from you the dog will listen. So in this analogy, rest assured -- the ONLY thing that will work is to call on the name of Jesus Christ.

I didn't fully understand this until my late 20's But since I found this out (and developed a relationship with Jesus, through prayer), I have MUCH less to deal with these days. The name of Jesus always works.

However, let me give you another analogy (for those who claim that the name of Jesus doesn't work). And I am quite sure that for some reason the name of Jesus does NOT work! But here's why..

..let's say that you were at the "owner of the dog's" house the prior day, while he was at work, out the front of his house screaming to the neighborhood: "This guy in here isn't real. he doesn't really live here. look, I can tear up his flowers and kick his letterbox. Did he come out? NO! Because he isn't here I tell you!".

Now he gets home and he is told how disrespectful you were by some neighbors. Now lets say that later that day, you go into his front yard again, and this ferocious dog is about to attack you -- and you call him. Maybe he wont call the dog away? Maybe he will think that you're getting your just deserves? Think about it.

Steven,

Hello m1*. I have a question if I may. Do you feel like belonging to Earth or you feel like a misfit here on Earth, and if you do, is this feeling lasting from a long time ago?

Let me tell you the truth. I most certainly do feel like a misfit here on this earth. I have great trouble relating to other people. I have felt this way since I was a toddler. I can't say why -- I don't know. Am I from somewhere else? I doubt it. Am I here "on a mission to save the world"? No. There are a lot of people saying such things about themselves. This is ego driven if you ask me. I just basically believe that each person has a bit different spirit, just like we have a bit different personalities that's all. I simply have a spirit and personality that is more different from other people than normal. I am most assuredly very different, but I am still a human, I am still here for the same reason as everyone else -- and that is to learn and grow. Until someone proves to me any different (which I don't think is going to happen), that's how my view will remain.

Noela,

With regard to what you believe regarding the person of Jesus Christ
and the power of his name - well, it is experience that counts,
isn,t. it? You have proved that having a personal faith in Jesus
and using his name WORKS!!

The name of Jesus Christ most certainly does work. However, it works by faith. It works because I have developed a relationship, through prayer, with God. I would say to anyone, that if you want to call on Jesus for help, you should have a relationship with him and display trust in him and love. Otherwise, maybe he will not hear you? Or, if you've been extremely egotistical and self serving, maybe he will decide that you need your just deserves? Jesus isn't in the business of watching people mock him one day and then come to their rescue the next. People should remember that.

jross,


I also know of a guy who was having trouble with a naughty entity...he tried lots of things to banish "it" from his home. In the end he said:

IN THE NAME OF JESUS CHRIST, LEAVE THIS PLACE!! he had no further trouble.

So in using his name, for him it worked!



Of course. I believe it!

beren,

I agree with you wholeheartedly -- in everything you said. Jesus isn't a special word people can just use when they feel like it. Jesus is our Lord, and he is the Lord of all Lords. For those that mock him or deny him -- and for those who claim that they ARE gods and that they are sovereign and do not accept that he is Lord, they should not expect any help by calling his name. If they DO receive help, they should be THANKFUL of his grace and patience with them; because although his grace and patience is bountiful, it's not endless. if it were, that would make him unrighteous.

eleni,

However there is a chapter in Jim Spark's book which talks about a police officer trying to help Jim by using Jesus and it did not work.

Jim Sparks does not recognize Jesus as Lord. I do not doubt that Jim is speaking the truth about his experiences, because much of what he has stated could have come from MY mouth verbatim -- and as for what he's saying, you can't make that stuff up! I don't know of he is exaggerating for attention, but he has most assuredly said many things that made me sit up in my chair and say: "He's not lying here". Nevertheless, I do not agree with all that he says. I don't trust what he says, even as much I do not doubt for a moment that he has most certainly experienced many things. I personally believe that Jim has lost the plot a little. I'd really like to talk with him, but that wont happen any time soon. I've has a coupe of short conversations with him, but I am left the impression that he's after money and not to interested in finding out more information or sharing it (unless of course, there is some sort of remuneration or benefit for him). I would really like to have befriended Jim, but it's not going to happen.

[cloud9]

Dear M1:
After reading all those stories I'm amazed about how much some people have endured, I have never had experiences like that,just a few "minor" incidents which I think are not worth to talk about.
Anyway, a few days ago I was reading the last Mrs. Dolores Cannon interview in Coast to Coast; she is a very experienced regresionist who has been working on the subject of ET for many years and has written several books, one of them, "Keepers of the Garden" relates the story of a young guy who definitely felt he didn't fit here and after regresion sessions he started to discover why he was here.
Mrs. Cannon says she developed a technique which allows her to go directly to the supraconcious mind or collective mind where the concious mind can't interfiere, this contact -which she can access in every person she hypnotizes- allows her to ask about everything, ever aspect of life and she can get the most honest answers because in this very deep level exist all the knowledge and it can't lie.
In her last interview she talks about three different "waves" of people that have come to earth to help the planet to raise its vibration just by them being here, she explains that these people or their souls have not had lives in earth before so for some of them is very hard to adjust to this harsh environment, they're regular human beings as the rest of us but they are on a mission to help the planet. I don't want to make this too long but somehow I feel that you, Jross friends and others that have replied to this thread are this kind of souls, perhaps you'll find it relates to you, her work is amazing and very extensive in regards all these subjects, her books "The Convoluted Universe" are incredible and the 4th one is going to be out pretty soon, in this one she'll be talking about these souls who are here to help humanity.
I also have some of her titles in pdf form, if you are interested I can send them to you.
This is the link for her interview, when I listened to it I thought what a "coincidence" as I think you could be one of those gentle souls.

YouTube - Coast to Coast AM - 22 Oct 2009 - 'Volunteer' Souls & Lost Knowledge part 1/11

God bless you.

[m1*]

Dear M1:
After reading all those stories I'm amazed about how much some people have endured, I have never had experiences like that,just a few "minor" incidents which I think are not worth to talk about.
Anyway, a few days ago I was reading the last Mrs. Dolores Cannon interview in Coast to Coast; she is a very experienced regresionist who has been working on the subject of ET for many years and has written several books, one of them, "Keepers of the Garden" relates the story of a young guy who definitely felt he didn't fit here and after regresion sessions he started to discover why he was here.
Mrs. Cannon says she developed a technique which allows her to go directly to the supraconcious mind or collective mind where the concious mind can't interfiere, this contact -which she can access in every person she hypnotizes- allows her to ask about everything, ever aspect of life and she can get the most honest answers because in this very deep level exist all the knowledge and it can't lie.
In her last interview she talks about three different "waves" of people that have come to earth to help the planet to raise its vibration just by them being here, she explains that these people or their souls have not had lives in earth before so for some of them is very hard to adjust to this harsh environment, they're regular human beings as the rest of us but they are on a mission to help the planet. I don't want to make this too long but somehow I feel that you, Jross friends and others that have replied to this thread are this kind of souls, perhaps you'll find it relates to you, her work is amazing and very extensive in regards all these subjects, her books "The Convoluted Universe" are incredible and the 4th one is going to be out pretty soon, in this one she'll be talking about these souls who are here to help humanity.
This is the link for her interview, when I listened to it I thought what a "coincidence" as I think you could be one of those gentle souls.

YouTube - Coast to Coast AM - 22 Oct 2009 - 'Volunteer' Souls & Lost Knowledge part 1/11 (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AWt2resfyw4)

God bless you.

In all honesty and sincerely, cloud9, I feel that I am just a regular guy - just like everyone else on this planet, doing what I can to understand who I am and who we are, and where we're all going and how to get there. I believe that we're all children of God and that we must look to him for answers. So that's what I do, through prayer, a lot of thought, researching the world - and of course reading the Bible.

I don't personally believe that any one of us have chosen to come here, or are from anywhere else in particular. If that's the case, I would suspect that we're ALL from somewhere else - or none at all. In one respect, I would agree with others to say we're all "one" -- to a point. We're all brothers and sisters on this earth. We're all meant to help and encourage each other, and even give each other a kick in the backside if it's necessary.

I do not subscribe to the new age philosophies that we can create realities. Not in the respect that it is often promoted: that we can just "think stuff up" by being positive and visualizing. We were put in a "physical reality" for a good reason. That's what I believe. If we want change, we need to live the change and use our physical bodies as a tool to create that change. We must use our "lips" to encourage others. We must use our "hands" to bandage the injured. We must use our intellect to solve our problems.

Having said all that, I really know next to nothing. I have diligently researched and studied all my life. I have experienced many things. But I don't know the answers to some very basic questions which still have me stumped. Where was I before I was born? Did I exist? Where am I going? WHO am I?

Many people get over excited and declare that they were a knights templar back in the day, or that they've lived 30 times before, or are from other planets and all kinds of things. At the risk of offending those people, I really must be honest -- I think they're just trippin' for the most part. Maybe there is validity to what they're saying - in one form or another, but for the most part, I sincerely believe that we're simply all children of God and we're here to learn and grow and help each other along the way.

For anyone to declare or say anything more, I believe, is jumping the gun and not overly constructive. I think a lot of people get over excited about things. I have an open mind, and I do take everything into account, but I do put in a GREAT effort to remain as grounded as possible. I think that's what most people should do.

But, of course, that's just me. Someone else might say that I'm the one that's lost the plot. And that's ok -- but the main thing is that we love and respect each other, and treat each other as more than ourselves. We should try not to let our ego rule us.

[cloud9]

M1,
I honestly feel great respect for you and all others participating here. I just want to say that I'm a little bit disappointed that you didn't even mention anything about the link I posted; of course I'm not trying to imposse anything unto you but I thought that perhaps you would be a bit interested in findind out if your experiences have purpose and meaning. I do believe you are a regular guy, all of us are "regular" humans but the fact you have memories, visions and experiences so different from the mayority of us is something worth to comprehend.
Your visions are related to humanity as a whole, perhaps you are given a message that is to be shared and understood. Well, perhaps some day you want to look deeper and discover who you really are, all I can say is you are here in this planet and this reality because is very important it is so.

God bless you.

[m1*]

M1,
I honestly feel great respect for you and all others participating here. I just want to say that I'm a little bit disappointed that you didn't even mention anything about the link I posted; of course I'm not trying to imposse anything unto you but I thought that perhaps you would be a bit interested in findind out if your experiences have purpose and meaning. I do believe you are a regular guy, all of us are "regular" humans but the fact you have memories, visions and experiences so different from the mayority of us is something worth to comprehend.
Your visions are related to humanity as a whole, perhaps you are given a message that is to be shared and understood. Well, perhaps some day you want to look deeper and discover who you really are, all I can say is you are here in this planet and this reality because is very important it is so.

God bless you.

The video has 11 parts. I will watch it. I will comment on it after I watch it. I just wanted to give a response for the time being based on your response. If someone shows me something, I will almost always watch it - to see what they're trying to point out.

And yes, I do have a lot of dreams, visions and experiences which I have great difficulty explaining. I even have (what appear to be) memories of other times and places. However, I don't go around telling people they ARE "memories" because I don't know. Maybe I'm just picking it up off other people? Maybe some entities are placing it in my head? Maybe I am possessed? WHO knows? I don't. I'm just battling along trying to make as much sense of things as I can.