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That is good to know. I will take notice on his behavior and if he will try to be alone.

At this moment he mostly desires to eat and he also drinks a lot but I think that water mainly goes into his body system...than out of him.

If I put myself into his skin...than I am:

- old
- I do not feel god
- I have trouble breathing and I cough
- I have trouble laying down unless it is on my hips
- I do not prefer to move much, it tires me, and my legs do nor carry me as they used to
- I do not like to go out, I almost do not want to go out
- I like to eat

If it were me...I think I would prefer to die.

But that is me. I have..."troubled" past behind me...I do not care that much about myself...even now as a "healthy" 26yr and I do not care if I do not wake up tomorrow morning. There is not much reason except him.

His inner being might have a different opinion. I can not communicate with him and now I am in a position of an "executioner".

I try my best to ignore my selfish feelings of sadness and figure out what is best for him. I do not want him to suffer yet I do not know what he wants. Is he now just on a "survival" instinct or is there more? He was always very intelligent. I wish he would somehow tell me what to do.

He is not in pain at the moment...if one does not count trouble breathing as pain....but this might eventually develop into feeling of suffocation - an extremely unpleasant thing