Great post JAck, thanks for sharing.
I too have had these periods of negativity where it all looked too dark and unreachable. Even got to the stage of having suicidal thoughts . Work was miserable. Clients were not paying their bills. It all looked too difficult. But something 'awkened' in me. I saw the light. Realised it was time for a change, time to move out of the rut that i was in and change.
I became a coach driver. Did all the training, upgraded licenses etc and now i am riding high on a cloud of positive energy. I am having a great time. I have even had very positive influences on other work colleagues.
There is a lot to be said to having a positive state of mind. I can vouch for it 100%.
"When we are given the gift of awareness in life as to our true spiritual nature and purpose as well as expanded awareness of the world around us we are also given greater responsibility. With the knowledge we receive comes the responsibility of using it to the best of our ability in order to progress ourselves along the path which we have chosen to experience for the best growth of our spirit and those around us." Great quote Jack.