Getting to know you, Avalon...

[Gevaudan]

Hello everyone!

Since I'm a neophyte in terms of posts, I though I would share a bit of who I am and how I arrived here.

First I would like for you to know that the paranormal has been, well, quite normal for me my entire life. I was a child who always asked tough questions and never seemed satisfied with the answers I was receiving. I remember when I was about four years old I looked at my aunt and grandmother and asked, "Where did we come from?" "God created us," replied my grandmother. "Well...what created God?," I immediately asked. My aunt and grandmother just looked at each other like, "Where did this guy come from?"

I was (as I'm sure many of you were) a child who lived inside of his own imagination. While my father wanted to take me fishing, I was usually too busy reading books about the space program or natural philosophy. My mother has told me that I also had 'imaginary friends' (sound familiar, anyone?) and that I would be sitting in my room while staring at the ceiling and talking to something. Although I cannot remember it too well myself, my mother certainly does. I guess she worried that her only child was destined for the looney bin.

As I grew older, I stopped speaking to my 'friends' and had normal childhood in the Western sense of that period of life. Although that stopped, I have never lost the ability to see things clairvoyantly. I have always had 'dreams' that would later manifest. When I was younger, I though this was a normal phenomenon. I would take a nap and awaken to tell my parents that something had happened only to find out a few hours later that it had. Mom and dad have always been hush-hush about this material. I have tried to talk to them about it, but they seem to always dodge the question. I was not raised in a religious household, but my parents believe in something that cannot be described in words (my father is a Freemason, Templar, Shriner but don't worry--I haven't seen decapitated heads or space lizards lying around the house). <--That's a joke, guys and gals.

Anyway, getting back on track...

My childhood was quite agonizing at times. I am a natural empath so my adolescent years were particularly hard. I couldn't stand all of the competition that comes with the ego's big debut. I had love pouring out of me at all times, but often felt rejected and have literally had people spout wickedness at me for no apparent reason. I cannot tell you how many times people have acted hostile toward me for something as simple as smiling at them.

I was raised in a remote region of Kentucky (in the Appalachian part of the state) and felt quite isolated at times. I was interested in chemistry, physics, and mathematics, while my peers were interested in NASCAR and chewing tobacco. Due to the fact that I felt like a fish out of water, I developed an alter ego to survive. I was often seen as a carefree individual, and was named 'class clown' by my peers. It was odd, really. I was the student who often distracted class, while simultaneously making the highest grades. Some of my teachers probably wanted to kill me.

When I was fifteen years old, my aunt Kimberly lost her battle to breast cancer. She was a very loving soul who never said a harsh word to anyone. We shared a special bond, which was quite evident after she passed away. One morning while I was asleep, my aunt appeared at the foot of my bed. She was dressed in a white robe that was so brilliant that it was hard to look upon her. As I began to ask her what she was doing I heard a voice in my head say, "I'm going away, but we'll see each other again. You have something very important to do while you're here, but that will come in time. Just remember no matter how crazy things become, everything will be okay. There is nothing to fear...ever." And with that, she vanished in the pitch black darkness of my room. A moment later, my door opened and my mother entered the room. She said, "...I have something to tell you" "Aunt Kim died, didn't she?" I replied. "How did you know that?" my mother asked with astonishment. "I just spoke to her," I said with a tear in my eye.

I never really knew what she meant by saying that I had a job to do until about four years ago. Synchronicity brought me from Kentucky to Charleston, SC and since I have been here things have been intensifying. I was awakened by a variety of experiences. I remember in 2006 there were about three nights in a row when I would awaken each night at 11:11 and flip open my cell phone (I didn't have a clock in the room) only to see that is was that time. Later in the night, I would awaken at 2:22. Had this only happened one or two nights, I would have thought nothing of it. On the third night, I said, "Ok...you have my attention! What is it that you want?" I remember typing '11:11' into Google and smiling from ear-to-ear when the search results were shown.

Shortly thereafter, I began consuming information like a computer. I would read four or five books simultaneously. From the traditional religious texts to Aleister Crowley, I read it all. I studied every 'ism' that I could find, and gained valuable insight to what is up on this planet. I remember at one point I felt stuck, and didn't know what to do. Once again, it was in my dreams that an answer arrived.

One night I had a dream where I encountered an individual whom I had befriended at work. In the dream he was wearing a dark grey/black robe with a hood over his head. As I asked him what he was doing he held out a book that was colored blood red. Upon the cover of the book a title emerged in an Old English font with gold letters. The title?...The Book of Enoch. Now at this point in my life I had never heard of this book. I awoke and immediately wrote down 'Enoch.' Upon doing a search on the net, I was delighted to see that this was a real book. Well, I went to the bookstore and found the book. It was...uhm....blood red, but with silver letters instead of gold. After reading that book, I can understand why something was pushing me toward it. It certainly opened up another door in my mind.

I have so much more to share with everyone over time. As I have seen others say on this forum, it seems that this stuff pours out of my heart when I write about it because it feels like coming home to be in the midst of other kindred souls who have been seeking answers their whole lives. I could write volumes of similar experiences, but it is best to take things slowly. I have been watching this forum since its inception, but hesitated to join because I felt 'blocked' from talking about it until the right time. It has been very enlightening to watch the various people come and go from this place with differing viewpoints and agendas. From dogmatic debacles to doomsday prophecies--it's all here. Folks, with the right set of eyes you can see our consciousness evolve through the debates on Avalon.

It is my belief that we have nothing to fear. I can no longer take the 'end is near' camp seriously. At one time I bought into the fear mongers. I thought, "Oh goodness! I need to stock up on gold and granola!" I was also fascinated by the concept of an elite group masterminding the events in the world. While I do not rule out the possibility of this being true, I generally think people are more comfortable thinking that some sinister group is controlling this circus from behind the scenes, as opposed to accepting that it could possibly be chaos and nothing else. Anyway, I studied this material to the point of exhaustion and at times felt like I was losing my mind. I became numb, and only until the past few weeks I felt a debilitating apathy toward the events in the world. This seems to be a very natural process that accompanies spiritual awakening, but it is unpleasant nonetheless. I was at the point where if someone told me that the world was controlled by demonic girl scouts I wouldn't have been surprised. It's all part of the unraveling that we're all experiencing.

I hope to contribute to the potential that I know this forum has. We're all at the greatest show in the Universe, folks. Keep seeking answers and opening new doors. Dogmatists, atheists, new-agers, free thinkers, ufologists, conspiracy theorists, and illumanists...you are invited! Do not worry about what will happen. You WILL know what to do when the time comes. There is no such thing as death, so continue to awaken which is to truly live.

Smile Avalon...It's your time to shine....

Peace

G

[Zeddo]

what a brilliant, warm and heartfelt intro, i enjoyed every line, thank you. Of course, welcome too !

LL&P

Z

[JesterTerrestrial]

Gevaudan have a wonderful journey through avalon! There are many here whom to connect to that will benefit from your heartfelt connection to this crazy virtual community! Do you think it was just a dream? Probably one of your higher spirit guides! I had what i called a dream once! But as a good friend said while checking it out with the 9th dimensional pleadians...that wasn't a dream! I was handed a glowing crystal book from a cloaked figure and their friend in my own backyard during a "dream"!

The 11:11 codes and related can be rather intense at times when you get them but just go with the flow and know that you are in tune to the cosmos on a level that many are not! The trick is to stay in that groove then things just seem to keep getting wilder peace JT

[WiNaDeYo]

Marvelous, fabulous, wonderful testimony!

Welcome Gevaudan! We are honored to have you amongst us!

Peace and Good Will!

[burgundia]

So welcome once again...

[morguana]

and enjoy
bou x

[Oliver]

Gevaudan, you have made the right move.
Welcome.
Share with us what you think is important.

Love&Respect

[Gevaudan]

Thank you all for the heartfelt replies!

My whole intention in sharing some of my background is to give you a sense of who I am and what I'm all about. I know there are a lot of intuitives on Avalon, and language can reveal a lot about the energy of an individual.

With that said...

Jester:

I have been trying to figure out just what has been contacting me most of my life. The cloaked figure in my 'dream' about the Book of Enoch has been with me for some time. The peculiar part of the figure is that it usually appears in the form of a friend or family member. While it appears to be someone familiar, the energy emitted from the cloaked entity is of a greater frequency than I would consider most mortal men and women.

It's funny that you should mention the crystal book. A couple of years ago I had a dream of being in the presence of a group of people. We were from all walks of life--young, old, women, men. There were clearly people of different faiths present. We all spoke to one another but the communication was strictly telepathic and not based in language. I clearly remember looking to my left and seeing a Buddhist monk sitting in a meditative position hovering above the ground a few feet. I looked at the monk and thought, "Awesome!"

We were at the ruins of an ancient temple, or at least that's what it appeared to be. I held in my hands a crystal disk that had areas of discoloration within it that had the appearance of a circuit board on a computer. Anyway, we held the disk below one of the walls of the temple, then a few seconds later moonlight pierced through the temple, bounced off one of the walls, and shined on the disk. After a moment, characters (in a language I do not consciously know) began emerging from the disk and appeared a few inches above the object in a holographic fashion. We read what was written on the disk as the moonlight slowly faded and the characters disappeared. Once the light was gone, we looked at each other and nodded our heads as if we had just completed something. People began fading away and a moment later I awoke in my bed and began writing the experience down.

So...yeah...the cloaked individual is a presence that has been in quite a few of the dream visions I have experienced. Just the other night I heard a thunderous voice in my head that said, "The world will starve for days so that America can eat for a night." Any insight into the meaning of this? I assume that this is referring to the greed of the Western world, but could it be foretelling something that is to take place?

[Gevaudan]

Thanks Oliver!

BTW...Did you notice that your last post was your 444th? Nice

[lindabaker]

Ahh, books that appear in dreams...I really liked your telling of the dreams. You have a gift for writing. I know that those of us who've held on to Avalon through some tough times are glad to welcome such new, creative, and intelligent energy. Glad you came out! Also glad to see someone from the Southeast US. I also wake at 2:22 and 3:33 and 4:44 am but not every night, that would be maddening. Any further explanation as to why this is happening to so many people? Are we supposed to meditate, or electronically connect at those times, or is it just a signal of some sort? Anyway, welcome to you. Linda

[lindabaker]

Jester: Re: your dream about the temple and disc. I constantly dream of being one who transports discs from one dimension to another in order for them to be processed, somehow. Also, I think the message in your dream about America is in reference to how much energy and food Americans consume vs. what's left over for the rest of the world. We can solve this, but there are those who would be against it. Still. Even now. But it must be done, because of "the weakest link in the chain," etc. The wake up call for Americans has begun. Leadership in educating Americans as to conservancy must not be too strident. Jester, your sense of humor would be a good example of how to go about this. LB

[Gevaudan]

Thank you, Linda!

From my understanding, the appearance of numbers signifies an expanded awareness of one's surroundings. I feel that the only meaning the numbers possess is that which we give them. In our fragmented waking consciousness, we truly see "through a glass darkly."

It seems that as we awaken from our slumber, we begin to see beyond the limitations of our five senses. I sometimes feel that my waking self is almost a different entity than my subconscious self. When I awaken at night to see numbers such as 1:44, 2:22, 3:33, etc., it is as if my subconscious self is saying to me, "I'm here!...This is happening!...Stop stumbling in ignorance and remember who you are!"

[Gevaudan]

I have to go, everyone. I'll be back on later today. Just wanted everyone to know I'm not blowing them off if I don't answer with haste.

In the bonds of Friendship, Love, and Truth...

G

[Oliver]

Originally Posted by Gevaudan

Thanks Oliver!

BTW...Did you notice that your last post was your 444th? Nice

Yes, 444, and i am 44 years old (or young).
I am noticing number 4 quite often last period...as some others

[Phtha]

Greets Gevaudan, my brain is currently in anti-read mode so... I'll catch up with what you said later.

But I hope you enjoy your visits here.

[illuminate]

Hello!

just wanted to say THANK U for sharing… I landed on your thread, not even realizing it, while I was reading thru Bill's Q + A thread… must have hit the wrong button, but so glad I did.

my so called happening onto your post came on a day when I had just asked the universe to show me others like myself
(I feel quite isolated in this reality at times)

as I read your initial post, I felt as if I could have written it myself!!!
feels great to be able to relate to someone from time to time,
that is a very rare happening for me.
so, for giving me that, I thank u = ))
and welcome!

BLESSINGS!

[Malletzky]

Gevaudan, really a great and in my understanding deep spiritual post. You're really an enlightened soul I must say, and it's good to see that you finaly decided to share your wisdom.

About the "dream" with your Aunt: my mother seem to have this "gift" to know when a loved person is passing away...I can still remember how the phone rang at about 4:30am some 20 years ago. As my room was the closest to the place where the phone was posted, I was just above to get and answer the call, as my mother came out of their bedroom, with tears rolling down her cheecks and just told me: "it's for me, it is your Uncle. Your grandmather (her mother) just died".

Oh boy, how could she know??? This was true...so true. And this was not the last time she knew somene will pass away...

Anyway, I'm happy to see you here around. Maybe you will want to share more of what you know. It will be a pleasure to listen and learn.

With and respect
malletzky

[Carmen]

Welcome Gevaudan, thanks for sharing your story. I love your open-mindedness and your sense of adventure. You truly fit in here very nicely and your contributions will certainly add to this forum.

Love and Light

Carmen.

Ps We are starting to break out of this matchbox!!!!

[Gevaudan]

Thanks for the warm welcome, everyone! I hope to help others realize their innate divinity and unlimited potential. I have much to share, but even more to learn. Always more to learn...

Amicus Humani Generis

G