Feeling un-motivated and quite out of place. And LOTS of paranormal stuff happening!

[2infinityandbeyond]

I'm writing this in the hope that maybe some of you can relate to it. Were going through some amazing times right now, that much is for sure.

Most of my life ive not really been hugely interested in this worldly life other then getting drunk and having fun and various other shenanigans. I just get the feeling that ive 'been there, done that' and there is very little out there that appeals to me in the slightest. Well, apart from girls.. basejumping, skydiving.. drinking.. you know.. the fun stuff. Everything else is just *falls asleep talking about it* *wakes up with 'asdf' printed into his face* where was i..

So right now im just floating in space.. and brown stuff is hitting the fan all around me. People are dying, people are changing, the economy is going belly up.. but, i couldnt care less most of the time. Not about that stuff, i have however been feeling very emotional this past year. Up one day like a cookoo then wallowing in the pits of despair the next. Very few people interest me, i cant talk 'normal' to people anymore.. i dont even feel the slightest urge to talk about mundane stuff like whats on the telly or how Jacks penis fell off in a strange pickle slicing accident.. now metaphysics.. afterlife.. spirituality, they ding my gong - (lol @ cencorship)

I know im not going completely insane because quite a few people here have made it clear that they relate with what im going through (woo!). To be honest I'd much rather log on here rather then go out with the people i used to love chillin with.

Anyone wish to share their experiences of late? Ohh yea, ive been having mental "abnormal" stuff happening every single day. Ranging from intuitive thoughts coming into reality to cups spinning on the table. As nuts as that sounds.. Not so long ago i came back from a healing session, uber weird. The healer and the other people there hit me with an indigo coloured bomb shell and the whole meeting was charged with such amazing energy. It was truly awesome the good energy coming from these guys, when i came home i was so charge up that when i sat down at the computer and touched the glass that was sitting on the table all day it just cracked right down the middle with a loud *ping!* Thats just a very small amount of the weirdness, if i have grandchildren, boy their gonna love my stories!

[Angel in Disguise]

Ha!!! I'm much like you, not feeling like surface conversation anymore. In fact, it almost makes me cringe. I enjoy all the exciting things as well, but as for society as it is... I could do without. I knew when I was 6 that school was not right, then working 5 days a week was not right. I didn't ask for any of it but went along with it because it's what I was taught. It's so exciting to know I was right all along... the lie I've been living is almost at it's final days and I'm SOOOO looking forward to the next phase... WOOHOO!!!

[MartyMcFailure]

I relate completely. actually my listlessness and apathy is extreme this last month. I dont feel like i am part of this world and this pardigm. i was talking to my old friend chuck who i have been thru a lot with since were in highschool..
we spoke about our apathy and how we feel like we we 'built
' for tough times. because we have really seen our fair share of tragedy and its funny how being so apathetic and then something happens and the inner voice says "now move" and ur just on autopilot..

[Bobcat]

I can also relate to you. I have never been able to run with the set system as it didn't make any sence to me. I have also got somewhat cut off from the "sheep" but I do feel a resposability to educate at a gentle rate the people around me " Slowly Slowly Catchy Monkey ".

p.s. I like the exciting things too

Bobcat

[Jacqui D]

I always felt school was alien for me, couldn't understand why we had to learn all the drudge when life experience was what seemed more important.

Never been interested in the whole ambition thing was always happy to let someone else get that promotion so on.
Caring for others have always been my game, i have been a long time foster carer and child minder as well as bringing up my own kids.

Always thought i was different to the other kids, always thinking ahead what to do in case of this or that, always watching my back.
always knew that i could look after myself in a have to stay alive scenario.
And this sounds bad but always knew that i could kill if i had to save myself or anyone close to me.
Is that weird or not for a small kid to be thinking those things.

[2infinityandbeyond]

Originally Posted by Bobcat

but I do feel a resposability to educate at a gentle rate the people around me " Slowly Slowly Catchy Monkey ".

lol. Thanks for that actually. Where trying to 'enlighten' people is concerned ive adopted a "get it down yer" attitude down through the years and it has not worked very well. People just tend to reject great lumps of controversial information (as much as i like to try and put the whole picture into their heads) so im going to try a little bit more of a gentler approach and see what happens.

Cheers for the thought

[Oneness]

I've been feeling extremely alone for the last year, unable to share anything with anyone, for fear of ridicule. There are only one or two close friends that I can share the tiniest with...Not even my own family has a clue.

I've always felt different in some way, and it's intensity has magnified over this last year. Many times I began questioning myself. My girlfriend of 5 years even left because she said my ideas where becoming too extreme, besides other things. Nonsense she said.

Now I know I'm not alone. That there ARE others out there....and this forum has been a wake up call for me.

Thank you for letting me share.

Namaste. All of you.

[clarkkent]

i feel fine and level headed, but i feel like goddamn NEO in the matrix sometimes when i talk to my friends. theyre all liberal progressive people and dont believe whats told them most the time, but with this they are so sold that our way of life CANNOT change, its impossible for the things i talk about to happen.

ive sent countless links to articles and videos given books etc, none of it does much convincing, i really felt like i was amongst the brainwashed when my buddy said we NEED the bailout, and i said "why?" and he said everyone he respected said we needed it, that just struck me as so naive, anybody with half a brain knows that if BUSH is pushing for it, you should look twice.

the energy it takes even for relatively open people to even investigate all this just a little is huge. ive tried and tried and most friends laugh it off and call me mel gibson in conspiracy theory.

very very frustrating, but i guess theyll believe it when they see it. not much else i can do.
its definitely an insane time, keeping a level head or being positive will tough for a lot of people, even here (as this thread suggests)

-"grey skies are gonna clear up...."

[2infinityandbeyond]

Originally Posted by clarkkent

the energy it takes even for relatively open people to even investigate all this just a little is huge. ive tried and tried and most friends laugh it off and call me mel gibson in conspiracy theory.

Ahh that just goes to show you the extent and the effectivness of television brainwashing. Conspiracy theorists are woo woo's! Even though they stick a single generalisation on such an insanly vast topic and completely disregard any information that will follow up after the term 'conspiracy' is mentioned, we are the ones considered moronic tinfoil hat donning cuckoo clocks. Ohh the irony!

[gwynned]

Originally Posted by clarkkent

i feel fine and level headed, but i feel like goddamn NEO in the matrix sometimes when i talk to my friends. theyre all liberal progressive people and dont believe whats told them most the time, but with this they are so sold that our way of life CANNOT change, its impossible for the things i talk about to happen.

I was fortunate to see David Icke this past weekend in Santa Clara and he talked quite a bit about the Matrix. At one point, he said "We are all NEO." "We are all THE ONE."

I don't know what suddenly triggers someone to start looking outside the prescribed dogma for answers, but unless or until they do, there is almost nothing one can do to change their minds. Like many of you, I seem to have woken up one day and a switch went off. In the end, it just takes too much energy and we need all the energy we can muster if we are to advance our spirituality. For myself, I look at almost every activity as either depleting or enriching, and find myself more and more simply not interested in those activities that many here have identified as depleting - watching TV, hanging out and just talking about mundane matters, shopping at the mall. I'm hell bent on throwing out old stuff, cleaning and getting my house in order. Oddly, Icke mentioned he went through the same process, so there appears to be something there.

He also had an insight into escaping the Matrix which I will share. It's rather obvious, but nonetheless, I find it helpful. If one is in a maze, it's very hard to determine the escape route. However, if one can look down on the maze, it's quite easy. The trick is to use one's intuition and tap into the higher self, so that one can use that higher perspective to find one's way out, rather than using one's reptilian ego brain to think one's way out.

Thanks to everyone for their insights. It's very helpful.

[astropsyche]

I wonder if any of you have considered the affects of chem trails? I have been monitoring peoples' moods for some time now and really am convinced that black technologies are being used to affect us all. Depression and lethargy are in the catalogue of desirable negative states the cabal of the military/industrial controllers aim to generate in people.
Also - you may be experiencing blockages of positive, zingy energy because you have not yet found a way to sustain these delightful and precious energies on a daily basis. I suspect in the not too distant future you will encounter the means to give positive expression to these wonderful experiences in your everyday life. Then you will find there is not enough hours in the day for all the things you need to be doing!

[GregorArturo]

Originally Posted by astropsyche

Also - you may be experiencing blockages of positive, zingy energy because you have not yet found a way to sustain these delightful and precious energies on a daily basis. I suspect in the not too distant future you will encounter the means to give positive expression to these wonderful experiences in your everyday life. Then you will find there is not enough hours in the day for all the things you need to be doing!

Yeah, I feel this is sort of my problem at the moment. I'm an avid fire spinner, so I practice my s*** (poi, staff, contact juggling) for at least a half hour everyday if not more. However, exactly a month ago I tripped and sprained my wrist on my dominant hand. After a week, I took it as a sign to focus more on things like THIS over working out and performing all the time (busking is big bucks in my city). However, not doing my daily exercise, which I've been use to for two hours straight, is rather depressing you could say. Yesterday though was the first day I was able to exercise moderately. I felt great

[Bobcat]

No Probs 2infinity,


About 2 years ago I decided to turn off my feelings and stay out of touch with the "extra feelings". So I did just that and I had my kids and went along with the "offness". Then about 6months ago I said to my partner "**** this i'm turning myself back on". i'm happy again
funny how well the switch works :/

[Ali Quadir]

Do you guys feel like maybe you're just not connecting to the world?

How many of you had difficult births? I'm going out on a limb here. But there's your physical body, and your light body and if the two are not connecting fullly (or like astropsyche suggests are otherwise blocked) you get the "Not quite there" feeling. And if that's a pattern from birth then it's a minor miracle you survived childhood. So we'd expect some early childhood, birth related problems. Many people who fail to connect just take off right back into the blue yonder leaving the physical shell for worm food.

Your flirts with the risky sports and behavior can be seen as ways to connect to the physical. It's only then that you feel alive. Also if you're really risky it's a way to satisfy that internal desire for the blue yonder.

The reason for not connecting is not always easy to point out. But often it's because you just don't feel comfortable being here. And that might be for a more "mundane" reason than really not belonging here. It might just be traumatic death last time round. If you don't connect then the world can't really hurt you.. Because it's not really real after all... On the other hand, it cannot satisfy you either. As a reference, fully connecting feels quite orgasmic.

Think about it... If you do not belong here... Why are you here? Some cosmic accident? Your soul caught the wrong incarnation vortex? Even if you come here from another place, star system or even galaxy. You came HERE so this is where you chose to be. So this is where you belong.

It worked out for me... As a baby I refused to eat and only slept. I survived and felt disconnected the first 25 years of my life like you guys describe until a friend told me to just bloody connect.. So now this planet is my planet and I'm feeling very much alive. It's your state of mind that's causing the effect, not your situation.

You guys are awesome by the way.. I haven't detected one "normal" person on the forum yet... I think I'll feel right at home here :P

[Jacqui D]

I have always said I DID NOT VOLUNTEER TO COME HERE I WAS DRAGGED KICKING AND SCREAMING!!!
I think i was trapped in some vortex or portal, when i entered this earth time, i certainly would never have volunteered.
And if i get a chance of leaving this planet and by the way some of these threads are going it won't be long lol!!
I shall make sure i won't be re entering !!!!!!!!!!

I know how you all feel... its not that everything is mundane, its just that everything is so full of B.S. I cant ignore the smell of the B.S. , and when I try, I just come back to reality. But most people are glad to just ignore the smell, and roll around in it. I just cant do it.

[freekatz]

Glad to see there are so many people who feel the way I do! Why are we stuck in this god forsaken drone-like existance? Perhaps it's the same everywhere else but I have to believe there is more to look forward to than this....

[Racsouran]

all the people on this forum is very probably feeling the same. At least, the "feel out of place" part.


also seems most people aren´t able to handle the energies that are being released inside themselves.


The personal objetive all of you must take very hardly into account is to integrate those energies into yourselves by working willingly on it. Not easy, but not impossible. I´ts a suggestion that could make wonders, cause if you really left those energies to control you, your life could be, as screwed as it is now, or worse.

Have you heard the interview with the Half Past Human guy Kerry and Bill did which was posted yesterday on Project Camelot. This goes into this subject and why we are feeling this way. Give it a listen and let me know what you think. Cheers.

[2infinityandbeyond]

Originally Posted by Tuza

Have you heard the interview with the Half Past Human guy Kerry and Bill did which was posted yesterday on Project Camelot. This goes into this subject and why we are feeling this way. Give it a listen and let me know what you think. Cheers.

I tried to Tuza but i just cant make out what he's saying. The transcript is gonna be out soon, im looking foreward to reading it.

[Skillet]

Feeling very un-motivated mostly toward my work. Seems like such a waste of time now. The harder I work the less I make. What is most motvating right now is getting in closer contact with the spirital relm, findinding a safe place for my family when the s--- hits the fan, and being three miles off La Jolla in a kayak catching dinner. Thinking very seriously about going off the grid and building a hobbit house in the mountains. My friends and neighbors don't have even a clue. Thank God for this forum! No gloom and doom here, just want to be prepared.

[eurosceptic]

yes resonate with that - though in a paradoxical way, society and culture hasnet always provided and obvious framework to do it all in! Culture is the enemy as Terrence Mckenna says.

I'm a big fan of hiking up mountains etc and adventure of course - getting to know the planet a bit better in other words....

I have had 'paranormal' things happen - in the last year a few more things....with less time between them....and recently I have had a surge of very interesting vivid dreams.

[cantaloupe]

Great thread, very comforting to know other thinking, feeling folks are going through this stuff too. I gauge the situation partially by keeping an eye on the willingness to listen of those friends who normally glaze over/ change the subject when I bring up topics like these. The energy/ anxiety/ anticipation that is currently insinuating itself into everyones' heads is causing an opening to the alternate views that I am only just now beginning to see. Don't give up!
Keep trying to tell the people you love that these events are occurring. To do so will help us overcome our own resistance to what's coming. I'm scared. I like the phrase "ascension symptoms" because it helps put the fear in context and enables me to try to move beyond it. . I am trying to foster the belief that these are all just challenges and they will be met -BY US! As the chain keeps clicking us to that first plunge of the roller coaster the only thing that I can think to do is to try to keep a loving heart out in front of it all. Thanks, everyone, for contributing here.

[Bobcat]

Supose this doesnt sound very man like but...Over the last few weeks I have been crying alot. When I watch/read things about the inocent getting hurt can't hold my emotions in very well, it's alomst like i feel the pain too and my private pain for their pain.

Funny old thing for a mentaly strong person eh :P

[Jacqui D]

Well here we go again, go to bed, get up, do the daily grind;

Help i want to get off!!!!