call for indigo children

Hand up! I'm an Indigo also. I struggle to stay here. I have children to look after. I pick up on everyone else's energies and feel their pain. I had a crap childhood and ran away from school a few times.
My mother recently said that I need to have my DNA checked because I didnt belong to this family.
Sometimes I think I've lost the plot altogether!
I live in the city, trying to fit into the family with 2 kids, happy scenario. It's not working. I would like to take my family to the country, inland or near a rainforrest, home school them and teach them how to really live. But I wouldn't be doing them any favours. They have to live in this fake world too so I have to teach them how.
I am here kicking and screaming, but would rather be back home...