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manny
6th March 2011, 21:21
the last couple of month have been very demanding.
on a majority of people on avalon.
i came in here like a bull in a china shop.
trying to belong.to be part of something.to learn.

in the process i embarrassed myself and avalon.

but behind the scenes there was much more turmoil.

i have figured out ,we each have to find our ownselfs.
not look up to a deity.

we live our own life.

what will be will be.

now i looked how to unsubcribe myself ,but do not have the knowlegde to do it.
so dale as a mod would you be so kind as to unsubscribe me.
thank you
to all a good luck into finding yourselfs;)

humanalien
6th March 2011, 21:44
What made you decide that you no longer want to be
here, if you don't mind me asking?

Ernie Nemeth
6th March 2011, 21:50
You are not alone.

Peace to you.

manny
6th March 2011, 21:50
my head hurts.
i will find my own path.
too much noise.
i am not educated enough to ehat you guys know.
i have made a fool out of myself.
now i wish to leave and find my own journey.
simples

wheres the mods

bodixa
6th March 2011, 21:53
nooooooooooo pies and vimto! ;)

I've had the wobbles three times!!!!... I'm still figuring out how forums work and to what degree to let it do my head in.

Take a break?

manny
6th March 2011, 21:57
this forum has brought many truths that i am not ready for.
time to go.
i choose the red pill.
now get me the **** out of here

DevilPigeon
6th March 2011, 21:59
my head hurts.
i will find my own path.
too much noise.
i am not educated enough to ehat you guys know.
i have made a fool out of myself.
now i wish to leave and find my own journey.
simples

wheres the mods

If it's any consolation, I know very little either.... It's one of my biggest frustrations, along with the apparent observation that my ability to remember/recall is somewhat lacking.

We've never talked, but I'm open for meeting new friends along the way, I hope you reconsider. Whatever your choice, I wish you luck on your journey.

manny
6th March 2011, 22:03
wheres a mod when you need one

crosby
6th March 2011, 22:14
manny, i hope you reconsider, i'm new here too and there's sooooooo much that i don't know. but each day i learn something new. and you're right, the noise level here is way up above where i'm used too it. but, i've learned too stay out of the noisy frequencies as much as possible. sometimes i tip-toe in, and quickly learn that i don't belong, but hey, i keep trying. stick around, see where this road will take you for a little while longer. we're all here too hold your hand to go along with.
warmest regards, corson

humanalien
6th March 2011, 22:20
If your really set on leaving then just pm bill or one of
the mods and ask them to delete your account.

My advice to you would be to stick around and just
read and learn. You don't have to post anything..

I know some things are really hard to understand or
even believe in and if that's the case, just learn more
about the things you already know something about..

Hope that helps you...

Donna O
6th March 2011, 22:23
Just take a break Manny, you don't have to unsubscribe. Give yourself some space and time to catch up. Just a suggestion, I have been there myself in the past, I'm sure we all have. You are valuable, we all are! x

the last couple of month have been very demanding.
on a majority of people on avalon.
i came in here like a bull in a china shop.
trying to belong.to be part of something.to learn.

in the process i embarrassed myself and avalon.

but behind the scenes there was much more turmoil.

i have figured out ,we each have to find our ownselfs.
not look up to a deity.

we live our own life.

what will be will be.

now i looked how to unsubcribe myself ,but do not have the knowlegde to do it.
so dale as a mod would you be so kind as to unsubscribe me.
thank you
to all a good luck into finding yourselfs;)

crosby
6th March 2011, 22:27
What made you decide that you no longer want to be
here, if you don't mind me asking?

humanalien, i love your new avatar.......not trying to detract from manny, but this is the first time i've seen it.
corson

granny
6th March 2011, 22:35
I hope you decide to stay manny. We need all the great people we can get.

Lovies to you ,,,


granny

jjl
6th March 2011, 22:42
the last couple of month have been very demanding.
on a majority of people on avalon.
i came in here like a bull in a china shop.
trying to belong.to be part of something.to learn.

in the process i embarrassed myself and avalon.

but behind the scenes there was much more turmoil.

i have figured out ,we each have to find our ownselfs.
not look up to a deity.

we live our own life.

what will be will be.

now i looked how to unsubcribe myself ,but do not have the knowlegde to do it.
so dale as a mod would you be so kind as to unsubscribe me.
thank you
to all a good luck into finding yourselfs;)

I still dont understand why you are leaving...

manny
6th March 2011, 22:45
the last couple of month have been very demanding.
on a majority of people on avalon.
i came in here like a bull in a china shop.
trying to belong.to be part of something.to learn.

in the process i embarrassed myself and avalon.

but behind the scenes there was much more turmoil.

i have figured out ,we each have to find our ownselfs.
not look up to a deity.

we live our own life.

what will be will be.

now i looked how to unsubcribe myself ,but do not have the knowlegde to do it.
so dale as a mod would you be so kind as to unsubscribe me.
thank you
to all a good luck into finding yourselfs;)

I still dont understand why you are leaving...
because my head is ****ed,and this will finalise it for me.
some people are ready for the truth others are not.
simple

crosby
6th March 2011, 22:48
the last couple of month have been very demanding.
on a majority of people on avalon.
i came in here like a bull in a china shop.
trying to belong.to be part of something.to learn.

in the process i embarrassed myself and avalon.

but behind the scenes there was much more turmoil.

i have figured out ,we each have to find our ownselfs.
not look up to a deity.

we live our own life.

what will be will be.

now i looked how to unsubcribe myself ,but do not have the knowlegde to do it.
so dale as a mod would you be so kind as to unsubscribe me.
thank you
to all a good luck into finding yourselfs;)

I still dont understand why you are leaving...
because my head is ****ed,and this will finalise it for me.
some people are ready for the truth others are not.
simple

the truth will come whether we are ready for it or not manny. you should be among friends who can walk with you to a better understanding of it.
warmest regards, corson

jjl
6th March 2011, 23:01
Why dont you just say it please? We have weathered every kind of problem Just PLEASE BE the ONE PERSON who TELLS IT instead of more hints and whispers. What ever it is, I already forgive you.
Don't you think we have the right to know?? And what do you mean "made a fool of youself"?
I have always respected you Manny

humanalien
6th March 2011, 23:02
I think manny is saying that he is afraid
of the truth. Not criticizing you manny.
This is just what i think you are trying
to say. Correct me if i'm wrong, please....

truthseekerdan
6th March 2011, 23:03
I still dont understand why you are leaving...

because my head is ****ed,and this will finalise it for me.
some people are ready for the truth others are not.
simple

Freeing the mind will help you find the truth...

Best regards to you Manny. :love:

Carmody
6th March 2011, 23:36
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DBBxkWTGZRE

Lord Sidious
7th March 2011, 00:38
the last couple of month have been very demanding.
on a majority of people on avalon.
i came in here like a bull in a china shop.
trying to belong.to be part of something.to learn.

in the process i embarrassed myself and avalon.

but behind the scenes there was much more turmoil.

i have figured out ,we each have to find our ownselfs.
not look up to a deity.

we live our own life.

what will be will be.

now i looked how to unsubcribe myself ,but do not have the knowlegde to do it.
so dale as a mod would you be so kind as to unsubscribe me.
thank you
to all a good luck into finding yourselfs;)

I still dont understand why you are leaving...
because my head is ****ed,and this will finalise it for me.
some people are ready for the truth others are not.
simple
Send me a PM.
Let's see if this can be sorted.

slvrfx
7th March 2011, 00:55
Manny...I think the point you're at is the trauma and the desperation we feel when we are that split-second away from a major break-through!

If you can, please stick it out just a tad bit more. It'll make all the difference in your world.

RAKMEiSTER
7th March 2011, 01:06
well manny eitherway i loved your way and comments @ irc / chat so eitherway was good to have chatterd with you. beside being grounded one also has to deattach and that take a rest for it to be given its place, in the hole. some consious more unconscious, you come a hole way on your own so have i and others and we choose to whom we listen to on our way . so talk to you in a couple a days :pizza: peace

RAKMEiSTER
7th March 2011, 06:02
know manny, i might follow ya out.
should i stay or should i go that my q. (@PA).
thinking of 1 good reason not to go..

edit
its ones like Victoria Tintagel and astrid that give me a reason to stay.

Bill Ryan
7th March 2011, 06:32
Don't you think we have the right to know?? And what do you mean "made a fool of youself"?


Maybe not - if the issue is personal.

Manny, thank you for your participation here. I understand the the forum can put quite a demand on all the senses. :)

Bear in mind that you do not have to unsubscribe - you can just take some time out and come back next month (or next year). But we'll be happy to do as you would ask. I know you are already in touch with the mods.

All best wishes, Bill

DianeKJ
7th March 2011, 06:49
Just a kind suggestion Manny for you to contemplate. As human beings we tend to go through intense learning periods followed by an integration period, where we try and really absorb and make sense of what we have uncovered. I think its good to take some breaks, I personally call it "going into my shell" I do this when I just can't take any more or really need to just focus on myself for a bit with no distractions. I think a break is a good idea.

Another thought of mine is that you can't un-ring that bell, you can't close that door that you have opened... it will still be there with you in the background as you are trying to push it away. When you have questions, or just want to connect with people that have similar thoughts, it's good to have a place to go :) Just some things for you to consider before leaving completely. Either way Manny, Namaste and peace be with you on your journey.

With love and understanding,
Di

bashi
7th March 2011, 07:03
too much noise.
i am not educated enough to ehat you guys know.
i have made a fool out of myself.


Hi manny,
you are right with the noise.
Recently we had a shouting competion, but that's not the normal
way of interaction here on this forum. Now this has passed also.

We are all learning here, some a bit further up the road, but one thing for sure:


We are all travelling.

Nobody is perfect, and nobody should be afraid of not being perfect or less knowledgeable than others. There are many good souls here on this forum, who want to give a hand for help - yes, indeed that's why they are here, waiting for the call...

Please give them a chance to be of assistance to your growth.

As an example of not being perfect, let me just present my yesterday's foolish new thread about "The Spiral on Hubble" :

http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?15709-The-Spiral-on-Hubble

These things have happened and will happen. It's a part of the way.

I very much like you to stay and be a part of us on this wonderful journey...

.

MargueriteBee
7th March 2011, 07:08
Fare thee well Manny.

John101
7th March 2011, 07:32
Manny Just hit the log out button top right and take a break mate, no real need to unsubscribe, that
way you can always come back if you feel like it.

I am about to do the same thing. Too much noise,fighting. I took a few days off before and when I got back all hell had broke loose with the mods and such, not what I thought I was getting into when I joined.

So just log out mate and forget it all for a while, you might feel like coming back at another time.

Peace bro.

KosmicKat
7th March 2011, 14:54
To Manny, if you see this, any place where you belong will have room for you, even if you have to elbow your way in at first. And I'm sure you are following a path that is right for you; finding the truth is not a one-size-fits-all solution although I once thought so. I shall look forward to seeing you again.

ulli
7th March 2011, 16:39
I just wanted to point out what is happening in 3 D, in case one forgets.
There is a table, a chair, a computer with a screen, and the self.

The things that trigger our emotions are little images on that screen. I
It's easy to forget that aspect of reality.

Then at the emotional level, there is a far deeper spectrum. Reactions from fear to shyness, to wild laughter....how can little black dots on a computer screen do such a thing to us?

Then last not least, each person's commitment to their own being.
What values do I carry? What am I willing to commit here, to all this great learning experience?

I for one have hated the moderators who tripped me up for breaking the rules. Then I remembered that they have their own stuff to deal with, and from their point of view did nothing wrong.
Now we are friends and I am a different person, as a result.
Normal life would not have provided me with such a lesson unless I wanted to challenge a homeland security officer at the airport.

I haven't had any battles with any members as I never confronted any one about their beliefs, they are free to their opinions.
The tolerance lessons I suffered were pretty harsh when I went through them years ago, but they left their mark.
And so life goes, in spirals, up towards a better connectedness or down towards fragmentation, that is up to oneself.
Each one is dealing with their own challenges, mostly on their own, mostly alone, in private.
Even Bill and Charles, I would imagine.
All one has to do to respond to the challenges of the screen of one's life is re-examine one's previous contract with the self.
And then make the necessary adjustments.

Love to everyone here.

Jendayi
7th March 2011, 17:09
Why dont you just say it please? We have weathered every kind of problem Just PLEASE BE the ONE PERSON who TELLS IT instead of more hints and whispers. What ever it is, I already forgive you.
Don't you think we have the right to know?? And what do you mean "made a fool of youself"?
I have always respected you Manny
i would like to second that... you are no fool....

firstlook
7th March 2011, 17:22
Just remember Manny that while on your own path for truth, never expect to find a perfect answer. ever.

That will make the ride infinitely more enjoyable.

Peace :)