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Adi
8th July 2011, 23:23
Every day I see, I live, I witness, interact and analyze the negatives that exist. Walking through the city center I see people going about there lives, going to work, shopping, begging, fighting, arguing ect ect ect.

I looked at the national news papers today, I counted more than 7 articles about crime, it included, murder of multiple people, shootings, stabbings, acid attacks and car crashes.

The majority of the people involved where 30 years old or below.

I often wonder what makes people do these things to one another, I ask, why does it have to exist, why does these social systems work the way they do, why do people have to suffer, why do people constantly criticize, argue or fight about such trivial subjects or topics. I ask why does inequality exist, why does it all have to work this way, why does social classes exist, aren't we all the same, don't we all share the same anatomy, the same human existence. So then why should one human be in possession of multiple figures of a large quantity of money and another human who just survives and follows orders from the same anatomical structure as them self's, and posses little or no money.

Since I was really young, well I suppose I sill am, I'm 19 years old, I've hated the way humanity operates.

I don't live in a particularly pleasant neighborhood crime and drugs are bad in this place, I don't " Hang out" with peers of my own age because all I see being gained from doing so is trouble with the law and becoming involved with drugs, alcohol and crime.

I've always felt this way, and have always had a lot of questions as to why humans behave the way they do. I hate it, sometimes I just want out. I just want to get the hell out of this place and never look back, sometimes those bad temptations kick in, what I am talking about hear is the ultimate act I suppose, but when I reflect I think I am here for a purpose, I did come here to be here for what is to come, I have had a deep feeling for quiet a while now that something is going to happen, we're on the edge of it, but I can quiet put my finger on it.

Anyways I just wanted to vent what was in me, I'm kinda lost as to what to do in life, I'm sick of this place, it's so dense and negative, I keep getting a feeling like I want to escape, maybe Ill just ride out the storm and see what's ahead.

Adam

olgraybear
8th July 2011, 23:30
Hang true, hang tough Adi,
things do seem miserable and they are but you are miles ahead of those that you see and read about.
Curious, have you ever thought or felt that you were a walkin?

christian
8th July 2011, 23:51
You don't like to read bad news, now you post bad news here, that's funny.

You ask where all the evil comes from, I guess the rabbit hole appears to go deeper with every effort to explore it further, but how about making a difference?

I'm not suggesting that you should become a martyr in a criminal environment, but simply to focus on what you desire, we still live in a quite slow 3d reality, where results take some time, but it's the best you can do, I figure. Hold the focus, do the little things you can do, that is highly appreciated. You chose to be right where you are, don't worry about things not happening fast enough, as long as you keep your focus, you will manifest - slowly but surely.

I used the word focus quite often now, maybe this thread can give you some inspiration:
Focusing : The Transformational Lense (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?23322-Focusing-The-Transformational-Lens)

There is no shortcut to achieve what you came here for. You are definitly here for a purpose. There is no point in hating something, what you resist persists. It's hard and you gotta face it like it is or repeat the lesson another time. Don't complain, cope, be the change you want to see.

Marikins
9th July 2011, 00:17
Adi,
You're right, the negatives can be very discouraging and sometimes overwhelming. It can also be lonely when no one shares your point of view. It's all part of having a higher perspective and greater awareness. As painful as this awareness may be, it is better than being less aware.
Delores Cannon talks about different waves of lightworkers that have come to help humanity awake. They don't remember that they volunteered to help when the call went out, and they find themselves miserable in this dense world until they find their purpse. Are there any activities you liked to do from a young age? Is there anything you really like? This could give you keys to your special gifts.

You might also feel less alone if you found some other star children. Visit Jessica Mystic's site (http://www.jessicamystic.com/) to connect with other star people.

I know you have a special contribution to make!

Darla Ken Pearce
9th July 2011, 00:43
You may not realize it but it's a real blessing to be able to see how things really are with the hate, violence, wars and contention ~ and here's the clincher: Knowing this isn't how it should be! This is evidence that you came to this life without going through all the veils of forgetfulness that most of us did. You can see this at age 19 years old! Now there is a miracle. Many of us did not realize how terrible things were until living and struggling against the tide, so-to-speak for decades and yet here you are so bright ; )

What you have come to this life for is to help Earth ascend and as many others as possible. To know things must be changed and to add some positive values to help move things in a whole different direction. Each day no matter where we live we are adding to the collective consciousness either good vibrations or dark vibrations. We can add sunshine and positive views even when it is difficult to see any. We can make them up as we go along. Add a word of kindness or a smile to the life of someone walking around us in our own life. It's not hard to do this.

Small things mean a lot! They are important and we can build something new and wonderful from the tiniest steps like this. It may not seem like much at all but it adds up quickly. Another thing to do is to get out of yourself and get back into nature. Where are the trees and parks and open lands around where you live? Find them. If you have relatives who live in remote areas ~ visit them. One important goal that makes all the difference in our wellbeing is to get back into areas where you can reconnect with Earth and hear her heartbeat again.

Live where you can walk barefoot and grow deep roots within her body. We used to know how to do this but have forgotten. Whether you are a new walk-in or an ancient spirit come back to assist in the Ascension process, it's what most of us have come for and been here for ~ some of us ~ 13 million years now and counting. Get in touch and stay in tune. Happiness and wellbeing are as close as the nearest tree. Reach out and touch one and you will see what I mean. Much love! xoxoxoxoxo

Adi
9th July 2011, 00:46
Thanks guys for your replys, I really appreciate it, its a nice feeling when people can understand what your writhing about, it gives me a sense of I hope. to Markins, I havent looked at the Dolores Cannon material yet but I certainly will do, it sounds like it makes sense.

Again thanks, Olgraybear, Chiquetet and Marikins

Adi
9th July 2011, 00:53
Thank you so much, everything you said feels very right to me, it makes sense, its not just me who is going through this stuff at my age I know of some other people my age too, they often talk about these things when other peers arent around, there afraid to speak up sometimes, some are very enlightend but mask it, I have often recommened them the work of project camelot and avalon, but am not sure if they have discovered it. Ill try my best to follow through with your recommendations. Thank you very much Darla Ken Jensen Pearse :)

Davidallany
9th July 2011, 01:15
Hello Adi, change is happening and accelerating too, it will become more and more noticeable. I don't watch news, read news or hear news because news just like police are not there to help us at all, but oppress us, every institution represent a bar in a prison cell together they mean to lock us inside the left brain.
There two ways to deal with this, one is to accept everything but no further, not dwelling on it, associating with it or allowing it to leave an impression on your spiritual life. The second way is to abandon hope and fear all together and just focus on yourself, be selfish and tend to your reality without giving any consideration for a single person, create you own reality, this however must be done from pure love and compassion for yourself because you don't wish to see it suffer over and over. You can't be mean to people, at most you only defend yourself from harm, and your ego is not allowed to hi-jack you, you must be the driver of the body for this to work, also physical exercise and meditation will help anchor you. Try to find like minded people to befriend. My thoughts are with you.
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TargeT
9th July 2011, 01:21
we are in a "quickening" time, I'm convinced of it via personal experience and my observation of others..

I personally think the introspective is very important, explore your self, "know thy self" find out who YOU really are

and DEFINETELY continue learning, question everything you think you already know & ensure YOU know it for your self; trust your intuition and be OVERLY empathetic, (at least in thought if not in action)

I understand the frustration of Youth, but from someone who's "been there" trust me, you will want to grow up as fast as you can untill you are grown up, then you will want to be young again... the human affliction of "the grass is always greener" is a complete lie, the grass is what you make it!

Flash
9th July 2011, 01:58
You are seeing part of life as it is. There is tough places, inner places as well as outer. There is also places that are wonderful, inner and outer, naturally wondeful. You will see them because it is what you desire. Hang on a bit longer.

You probably need to know the despair in order to understand it so well later that it will give you the means to help others. Cumulate the experience and

....STOP reading the newspaper. You have quite enough by walking home already.

love to you, from my motherly heart

truth4me
9th July 2011, 02:01
You may not realize it but it's a real blessing to be able to see how things really are with the hate, violence, wars and contention ~ and here's the clincher: Knowing this isn't how it should be! This is evidence that you came to this life without going through all the veils of forgetfulness that most of us did. You can see this at age 19 years old! Now there is a miracle. Many of us did not realize how terrible things were until living and struggling against the tide, so-to-speak for decades and yet here you are so bright ; )

What you have come to this life for is to help Earth ascend and as many others as possible. To know things must be changed and to add some positive values to help move things in a whole different direction. Each day no matter where we live we are adding to the collective consciousness either good vibrations or dark vibrations. We can add sunshine and positive views even when it is difficult to see any. We can make them up as we go along. Add a word of kindness or a smile to the life of someone walking around us in our own life. It's not hard to do this.

Small things mean a lot! They are important and we can build something new and wonderful from the tiniest steps like this. It may not seem like much at all but it adds up quickly. Another thing to do is to get out of yourself and get back into nature. Where are the trees and parks and open lands around where you live? Find them. If you have relatives who live in remote areas ~ visit them. One important goal that makes all the difference in our wellbeing is to get back into areas where you can reconnect with Earth and hear her heartbeat again.

Live where you can walk barefoot and grow deep roots within her body. We used to know how to do this but have forgotten. Whether you are a new walk-in or an ancient spirit come back to assist in the Ascension process, it's what most of us have come for and been here for ~ some of us ~ 13 million years now and counting. Get in touch and stay in tune. Happiness and wellbeing are as close as the nearest tree. Reach out and touch one and you will see what I mean. Much love! xoxoxoxoxo You are so right in the sense that the young man realized whats going on so early in life in which I took roughly 45 years to "wake up". The world system about drove me insane and yes it's sad with what's going on with mother earth but change is a coming that's for sure.....

Omni connexae!
9th July 2011, 02:20
Hey Adi,

For what it's worth, I feel I relate to what your sayin alot. I personally grew up in a council estate and got into a lot of dodgy things, that was just the environment I was raised. Although, when I turned 19 my perspective shifted dramatically, I found myself feeling and asking the same questions your now asking, seeing things in the same way your now seeing them: it sorta made everything I ever used to enjoy feel so empty. If it was anything like my expirience: no one understands what your sayin around you, it's nothing to them, it feels like being trapped, or lost. It's like there was people all around but I no longer felt like I was on the same wave.

About the same time, I stopped hangin around on road with people who wern't goin no where, I started stayin in alot more, I felt so disconnected from everything around me. Then, I got into whole conspiracy thing, tryna work out wtf was really going on. Considering the fact your posting on this site, you've most likely got into the same aswell.

If there's one suggestion I could make regarding all that conspiracy stuff: once you learn how everything in the system is almost fully corrupt on every level, the constructive understanding conspiracy theories are able to offer are done. You don't need to look into it any more. If you do: it won't serve any more purpose besides messing with your head, I've been there. Understand we currently find our selves in a dog eat dog world, and move on. It all comes down to profit driven motives.

I dropped out of college when I was 17 and started making money in unacceptable ways, but after my understanding changed at around 19: making money on road wasn't an option for me anymore, I found myself in a hole I thought I'd never get out of. But since then I've started teaching myself how to write (always HATED writing before that, apparently I'm dyslexic), I started studying philosophy, mathematics and science (No UNI, I just use the internet to teach myself), I got back into producing beats, I researched the history of many religions and what not. I basically carried on my quest for understanding, but took it to what I seen as a more possitive/constructive place. I also started looking into spirituality and new age stuff more: I don't meditate or anything, but there is a lot of valuable, timeless wisdom that can be learned, that can be very beneficial psychologically speaking. Just try not to get wrapped up in the bells and whistles.

I just turned 21, and things are looking alot better then when I was 19. My circle of friends has changed dramatically (many of my old mates are in prison now, so I can see where I could have ended up also. However, you're a bright young man, you already see this ;-)), I'm holding down a proper job, and I'm now working on a few projects that I think will help the world be a slightly better place. My understanding has broadened so much, and I now find myself often filled with excitement and wonder rather then despair and anger. I'm sharing this "story", 'cuz I know what it's like being in your position, I guess, and from first hand expirience: I can say with 100% certaintly that there is a bright future ahead in your life if you choose to create it.


I often wonder what makes people do these things to one another, I ask, why does it have to exist, why does these social systems work the way they do, why do people have to suffer, why do people constantly criticize, argue or fight about such trivial subjects or topics. I ask why does inequality exist, why does it all have to work this way, why does social classes exist, aren't we all the same, don't we all share the same anatomy, the same human existence. So then why should one human be in possession of multiple figures of a large quantity of money and another human who just survives and follows orders from the same anatomical structure as them self's, and posses little or no money.

I used to ask these questions ALL THE TIME, it's a headf**k, I know how it feels.

But philosophically speaking, I've learned these questions tend to be dead-ends.

When you ask "why", you unintentionally/intentionally imply intent. And when this is applied to anything outside the realm of 'human' intent (like nature etc.), it would imply that an entity has reason for something to be as it is. This would in the worst case imply the existence of a deity where this was not intended or founded. I think when referring to matters where an intention is not to be implied asking "how" would be more appropriate. So yes: I think it is often flawed or at least tricky to ask "why" certain things are the way they are.

When you ask "how" instead of why, and find the answers, you're able to create a solid understanding: and are therefore now able to do something about it. It's also almost impossible to blame other people and circumstances once you've built a strong understanding about them. =)


Anyways I just wanted to vent what was in me, I'm kinda lost as to what to do in life, I'm sick of this place, it's so dense and negative, I keep getting a feeling like I want to escape, maybe Ill just ride out the storm and see what's ahead.

When I was 19, I actually made a post just like yours, on a forum just like this (really). I needed to vent aswell. I got alot of constructive replies and it helped me move forward, so after reading your post I feel it's my duty to return the favour.

From reading your post, it's clear your bright and compassionate. If your wondering what to do with your life: first ask yourself: What do you enjoy doing? Where is your Joy?

If there's anything you want to talk about, feel free to give me a PM, or reply here: I won't mind; and would be glad to help.

-OmniC

annieVee
9th July 2011, 02:34
19 seems to be THE age now a days =]

truthseekerdan
9th July 2011, 03:23
Do not forget for an instant of a day in your life that you are free! That freedom is the most miraculous part of your existence. That freedom has allowed you to establish exactly what you are today and will allow you to establish exactly what you will be tomorrow. That freedom must allow you to obtain what to you is evil as well as good, otherwise it would not be complete freedom. The very essence of man's existence is a determination of what constitutes good and what constitutes evil and the subsequent choice of the good. For the good makes for progress, and the evil retards progress, and the purpose of all mankind is progression and creation! Only by creating both good and evil can mankind judge the good and the road of progress!

Much Love

ghostrider
9th July 2011, 03:25
people and their actions seem alien to you because you are shifting to a deeper level of awareness. remember they are under mind control and don't know it. you can be positive and they will flock to you = that's when you help them become aware of their matrix.

Mike Gorman
9th July 2011, 03:51
Hello Adam, 19 and so much insight-you are blessed with a good brain-remember you have the choice, time is a fleeting commodity
and although it may not seem like it, time moves very quickly indeed. I am now 53 and I remember thinking in a similar vein to your posting,
i would lay on my bed for days in a black mood, unable to take joy. But this passed, like all things must (thanks George). If you do not like
how you are living, only you can change it, and you will be 53 before you know it, so make it count and strive to make your life
a wonderful thing. All the best to you, in the end not much else matters than allowing yourself to truly live-get out there and experience it!

Camilo
9th July 2011, 03:52
Totally agree with Darla and her wisdom!

PixieDust
9th July 2011, 06:40
hey Adi

I've noticed, also being young, that the younger generation here seems to be chomping at the bit to make something change and happen. I have the same feelings as you. I'm tried of being patient and waiting im ready to be proactive and DO something. I've been awake for 2 years now and waking up for even longer and for me that seems like such a long time to know about something and not doing anything. I feel like if theres a problem, those that have the ability to do something about it have the responsibility to do something.

But the older generation is saying wait, be patient, all in good time. It's wise to listen to them. Hard, but wise. they've been at this a lot longer then we have. Its not very smart to fight our own trail when the older generation has already forged one for us.

be with people of like minds. I've stopped watching the news and reading the paper. its just depressing and theres no real news on there anyway. Its all what TPTB deem ok for us to know.

Like others have said, youre here at this time for a reason. that reason will come to light soon and it will be hard to miss. I think another reason we're so unsettled is because its close. whatever "it" might turn out to be.

learn to forgive. release your ego. be ready to lead when the time comes to those who aren't ready. Leadership isn't a place of power mind you. I think other people our age will be more comfortable when we stand up and show its all going to be fine and its a good thing thats happening vs all older people. We need them for parent type figures but what about those who have been hurt too many times and repell authority. I think thats when those of us awoken young are ment for, to lead our generation using the knowlege of those already been here.

Like darla said, reconnect with nature and find things that have always made you happy. root yourself so youre stable and level headed when the sh*t flies.

peace :)

christian
9th July 2011, 08:56
I havent looked at the Dolores Cannon material yet but I certainly will do, it sounds like it makes sense.

She talks about them in her Convoluted Universe series. This is a real page turner anyways, the first volume begins with the story of a young man striving to fulfill his purpose and becoming old, not knowing if he can ever accomplish what he came for, some wondrous turns in that story, very inspirational. Almost all of her information is based upon what her clients in a hypnosis state told her, whether from past lives as in the case mentioned, or from the spirit realm, from the source, from whereever.

TargeT
9th July 2011, 09:16
hey Adi

I've noticed, also being young, that the younger generation here seems to be chomping at the bit to make something change and happen. I have the same feelings as you. I'm tried of being patient and waiting I'm ready to be proactive and DO something. I've been awake for 2 years now and waking up for even longer and for me that seems like such a long time to know about something and not doing anything. I feel like if theres a problem, those that have the ability to do something about it have the responsibility to do something.


This is why we send young people to war, the way the Army is structured, a majority of the "killers" are 18-24, impulsive, feeling the need to prove ones self, these are all mapped weaknesses that are exploited; similar to propensity to focus on "fashion" with teens in high school.

things do seem to slow a bit with age, though you gain the taste of your mortality which can breed caution younger people don't seem to have ( I know I did some ridiculous things when I was younger and am very lucky to to be alive in retrospect) what you posted below speaks volumes to how you have seemingly avoided this; which seems to confirm many people's feeling that what ever IS happening, seems to be happening faster and faster. This idea gives me a lot of hope for the future, especially with ominous dates looming in the short term.



But the older generation is saying wait, be patient, all in good time. It's wise to listen to them. Hard, but wise. they've been at this a lot longer then we have. Its not very smart to fight our own trail when the older generation has already forged one for us.

be with people of like minds. I've stopped watching the news and reading the paper. its just depressing and theres no real news on there anyway. Its all what TPTB deem ok for us to know.

Like others have said, youre here at this time for a reason. that reason will come to light soon and it will be hard to miss. I think another reason we're so unsettled is because its close. whatever "it" might turn out to be.

learn to forgive. release your ego. be ready to lead when the time comes to those who aren't ready. Leadership isn't a place of power mind you. I think other people our age will be more comfortable when we stand up and show its all going to be fine and its a good thing thats happening vs all older people. We need them for parent type figures but what about those who have been hurt too many times and repell authority. I think thats when those of us awoken young are ment for, to lead our generation using the knowlege of those already been here.

Like darla said, reconnect with nature and find things that have always made you happy. root yourself so youre stable and level headed when the sh*t flies.

peace :)

Couldn't agree more with everything above, but add to the emphisised part: movies (if you haven't watched the Hollywood insider documentaries, its a facinating watch: http://www.hollywoodinsiders.net/holly.html ), food, music, damn near anything that is mass produced seems to have SOME way of negatively effecting us.
But really, Omni had some great advice; I guess I'll just add my "+1" to that, as there's no real sense in re typing it.

I will say this, life sure seems to like ballance, so those peaks will have valleys, and visa versa; hang in there and remember these wise words: "this too, shall pass"

gabbahh
9th July 2011, 09:22
I'm kinda lost as to what to do in life, I'm sick of this place, it's so dense and negative, I keep getting a feeling like I want to escape, maybe Ill just ride out the storm and see what's ahead.

Adam
Hi Adam, you are asking a lot of questions, which I want to discuss at a later time, since I don't have much time right now.

Regarding feeling lost and not knowing what to do in life... Had that feeling since I was young untill about a few years ago. It took me that long to know who I really am, and therefore what I should do with this life. A lot of people won't every truly know who they are. Takes quite a few long looks in the mirror, and then there will be things you don't want to see. We all have these "spots of darkness" we need to deal with before we can move on. This forum is a great place to guide you on this yourney.

You will never walk alone.

I'll be back to discuss your questions, not going to promise any real answers.

Much Love, Ton

GlassSteagallfan
9th July 2011, 10:08
Every day I see, I live, I witness, interact and analyze the negatives that exist. Walking through the city center I see people going about there lives, going to work, shopping, begging, fighting, arguing ect ect ect.

I looked at the national news papers today, I counted more than 7 articles about crime, it included, murder of multiple people, shootings, stabbings, acid attacks and car crashes.

The majority of the people involved where 30 years old or below.

I often wonder what makes people do these things to one another, I ask, why does it have to exist, why does these social systems work the way they do, why do people have to suffer, why do people constantly criticize, argue or fight about such trivial subjects or topics. I ask why does inequality exist, why does it all have to work this way, why does social classes exist, aren't we all the same, don't we all share the same anatomy, the same human existence. So then why should one human be in possession of multiple figures of a large quantity of money and another human who just survives and follows orders from the same anatomical structure as them self's, and posses little or no money.

Since I was really young, well I suppose I sill am, I'm 19 years old, I've hated the way humanity operates.

I don't live in a particularly pleasant neighborhood crime and drugs are bad in this place, I don't " Hang out" with peers of my own age because all I see being gained from doing so is trouble with the law and becoming involved with drugs, alcohol and crime.

I've always felt this way, and have always had a lot of questions as to why humans behave the way they do. I hate it, sometimes I just want out. I just want to get the hell out of this place and never look back, sometimes those bad temptations kick in, what I am talking about hear is the ultimate act I suppose, but when I reflect I think I am here for a purpose, I did come here to be here for what is to come, I have had a deep feeling for quiet a while now that something is going to happen, we're on the edge of it, but I can quiet put my finger on it.

Anyways I just wanted to vent what was in me, I'm kinda lost as to what to do in life, I'm sick of this place, it's so dense and negative, I keep getting a feeling like I want to escape, maybe Ill just ride out the storm and see what's ahead.

Adam

Glass Steagall is the flank

toothpick
9th July 2011, 10:38
So young and already so wise.
Don,t give up on us just yet Adi.

toothpick

Daft Ada
9th July 2011, 12:02
Totally agree with you Adi, I felt the same as you at your age and I am nearly 60 now, and nothing changes, if anything I have seen people become more and more selfish and self centred, no one has any respect for anyone anymore, in fact I have just posted in another thread where that has been clearly demonstrated.
What can you do about it? well very little, but I just refuse to become like them and I make sure I am always polite and kind to people, I help people around me when I can, in fact you have just made me realise that in the village where I live I have probably helped just about everyone within ten houses from my house, in all directions, with something or other, as I am very good with electronics and DIY and have a wonderful workshop with loads of tools etc, and yet having recently undergone major surgery only about four of them have knocked on the door and asked my wife to give me their best wishes, only one person visited me during the two weeks I was in hospital, and she wasn't from my village. I received no get well cards. Aren't people wonderful? But will it change me? No most definitely not, I will continue to help them, and indeed I have already started and you wouldn't believe some of the variations of excuses I have received as to why they have totally ignored me.
I ought to write a book. :rolleyes:

sygh
9th July 2011, 15:17
Every day I see, I live, I witness, interact and analyze the negatives that exist. Walking through the city center I see people going about there lives, going to work, shopping, begging, fighting, arguing ect ect ect.

I looked at the national news papers today, I counted more than 7 articles about crime, it included, murder of multiple people, shootings, stabbings, acid attacks and car crashes.

The majority of the people involved where 30 years old or below.

I often wonder what makes people do these things to one another, I ask, why does it have to exist, why does these social systems work the way they do, why do people have to suffer, why do people constantly criticize, argue or fight about such trivial subjects or topics. I ask why does inequality exist, why does it all have to work this way, why does social classes exist, aren't we all the same, don't we all share the same anatomy, the same human existence. So then why should one human be in possession of multiple figures of a large quantity of money and another human who just survives and follows orders from the same anatomical structure as them self's, and posses little or no money.

Since I was really young, well I suppose I sill am, I'm 19 years old, I've hated the way humanity operates.

I don't live in a particularly pleasant neighborhood crime and drugs are bad in this place, I don't " Hang out" with peers of my own age because all I see being gained from doing so is trouble with the law and becoming involved with drugs, alcohol and crime.

I've always felt this way, and have always had a lot of questions as to why humans behave the way they do. I hate it, sometimes I just want out. I just want to get the hell out of this place and never look back, sometimes those bad temptations kick in, what I am talking about hear is the ultimate act I suppose, but when I reflect I think I am here for a purpose, I did come here to be here for what is to come, I have had a deep feeling for quiet a while now that something is going to happen, we're on the edge of it, but I can quiet put my finger on it.

Anyways I just wanted to vent what was in me, I'm kinda lost as to what to do in life, I'm sick of this place, it's so dense and negative, I keep getting a feeling like I want to escape, maybe Ill just ride out the storm and see what's ahead.

Adam

Oh, many of us here can identify with your feelings. Its hard to be a light in the dark. You are a light. Don't forget to shine.

OnyxKnight
9th July 2011, 15:31
Every day I see, I live, I witness, interact and analyze the negatives that exist. Walking through the city center I see people going about there lives, going to work, shopping, begging, fighting, arguing ect ect ect.

I looked at the national news papers today, I counted more than 7 articles about crime, it included, murder of multiple people, shootings, stabbings, acid attacks and car crashes.

The majority of the people involved where 30 years old or below.

I often wonder what makes people do these things to one another

Take out the money and monetary system out of the social equation and the presence of crime will boil down close to 1, maybe 2%. Most crimes are for money, more specifically, the lack of it. Have you seen any of the rich elite do crimes? I mean, beside the obvious other crimes that they do out of their own social conditioning (long story). I mean standard crimes most other people do. No?

Social classes disappear, and as such, if people have other ways to provide themselves with the things they need to have a decent life, crime will drastically (and that is an understatement) fall.

We would be left with crimes conducted by the powers that be, and a small (in global terms) group who are psychologically/sociologically/mentally out of balance. Most have a disturbed energy field, and some have a twisted HSA, which causes them do do unspeakable crimes.

I think we would be able to cope with these if the rest of the crime percentage is gone.

GlassSteagallfan
9th July 2011, 17:26
Children Of Tomorrow

Children of tomorrow
I apologize to you
On behalf of those in my time
For the things we didn't do

We didn't stop the tyrants
So your fate could be prevented
We watched them steal our freedom
By our silence we consented

We didn't choose to circumvent
The doom you've not escaped
While the Bill of Rights was murdered
And the Constitution raped

Some of us were lazy
Others too afraid
To think about our children
The ones we have betrayed

I guess we were too busy
To be concerned or care
To try to ease the burden
Of the chains we made you wear

We could have been good shepherds
When the wolf got in the fold
But we watched the flame of freedom die instead
And left you cold

I'm sorry we were timid
My selfish generation
We left you but a remnant
Of a free and prosperous nation

I'm sorry for our actions
Like cowards we behaved
We could have left you freedom
Instead you are enslaved

Children of tomorrow
Descendants of our land
I'm sorry we allowed this
The fate you now with stand

- Anonymous

percival tyro
9th July 2011, 17:30
Sunny days ahead but don't give away your horse or your waterproofs yet

Hervé
9th July 2011, 18:21
[...]I don't live in a particularly pleasant neighborhood crime and drugs are bad in this place, I don't " Hang out" with peers of my own age because all I see being gained from doing so is trouble with the law and becoming involved with drugs, alcohol and crime.

[...]
Adam


[...]What can you do about it? well very little[...]

There is something that can not only help you but also help your neighborhood without being an ascended master or master light worker.

Check out this article and test it from there:

http://whale.to/b/transforming.html

Recently, the above, applied to Somalia and Soudan, was reported as follows:



Re: Tarifa Ya Mbolea Ya Orgonites Inchini Somalia
Hi Don
That is what Fatuma wrote, she told me that she had posted that message in that ew, of which she had done already and therefore i have done all the translation in English for easy understanding.

First of all we appreciate Mrs O Benedict together with Don Croft who is the pioneer of the orgonites in the Africa. Since we introduce the Orginite in Somali Land, peaceful environment regained its root immediately. Right now even in the city center of Magadishu, people can walk freely do business without fear, even children are going to school without fear something quite different from the previous time.
Even along the Coastal region of Chismayu where pirates were quite notorious in hijacking the Cargo ship right now even if you hear over the international news there is peace if not total peace. So i hope that if we continue distributing this product, in the region total peace will be realized
Mrs O #2 (http://www.ethericwarriors.com/ip/viewtopic.php?p=9986#_Single_Post_View#_Single_Pos t_View) 06 Jul 2011 01:08




http://www.ethericwarriors.com/ip/viewtopic.php?t=3265#_Single_Post_View (http://www.ethericwarriors.com/ip/viewtopic.php?t=3265#_Single_Post_View)
Low Conflict As Orgonite Supply Hiked.
Actually, the present of Orgonite in this region (southern Sudan) has improve the level of peace. Looking at the actual conflict level, it has been realized that the conflict and wars have drastically gone down owing to Orgonite distribution in this area. We hope the conflict over the disputed Abyei region will also come to an end soon. We also sent some more Orgonite to this region so as to influence peace through the Dinka Ngok people.

Christine. #1 (http://www.ethericwarriors.com/ip/viewtopic.php?t=3265#_Single_Post_View#_Single_Pos t_View) 30 May 2011 08:36




Re: Low Conflict As Orgonite Supply Hiked.
I got the following update from Christine:

Hi Don

... Abyei is still a strong war zone to-date, we expected the return of peace in this disputed region in vain. Till date northern forces have captured the region claiming it's ownership. The southern, have decided on the mediation to solve the dispute while the united nation have actually brought soldier to help calm the conflict.
We've also been made captive since we couldn't carry on with our business as usual though we've distributed the Orgonite the areas of our reach within this region of which has contributed to reduced conflicts.
There's very high rate of migration in and displacement that has resulted to low population in Abyei region. This result low demand hence reduced business(Orgonite). Tension has now gone down and we expect the condition to return to normality soon.
I'll ensure the Orgonite is supplied to the maximum and within our capability to ensure the peace prevail in this region as fast as possible.
Christine
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++


Christine--I've been reading about the Abyei situation. Oil is a powerful incentive to wage war, of course. I posted your note in the thread on EW that you started about Abyei.

This will be a good test of orgonite's ability but we might not see immediate progress. Do you reckon those Muslim nomadic people whom you've befriended can distribute your orgonite north of Abyei? You might surround the area of conflict, rather

~Don #5 (http://www.ethericwarriors.com/ip/viewtopic.php?t=3265#_Single_Post_View#_Single_Pos t_View) 18 Jun 2011 11:18


Now, South Soudan is the newest born country without too much birth pain...

Check these sites and give it a try...

http://www.orgonite.info/

http://whale.to/b/orgonite.html

_original_Starlight
9th July 2011, 18:45
Hi there

The WHY questions are very human but hardly answered in human ways. First acknowledge you are seeing and feeling and experiencing this reality. Yes it is there. Then look which tools you have inside to not get sucked in it. JUST see and do not fall in the emotions of interpretations too much. If we want to change our realities we Can work inside. The first step for that is to Open up to that possibity. YES I can work and YES I have tools inside. You are much more then your Human Body with the 5 senses. You live because you have a LIFE FORCE energy! This energy is very forceful and much bigger and very conscious aware. The energy behind the manifestation ( body) is much more real and vast! Like a lamp which can be beautiful in its design and when I light it very functional...it is "nothing"without me pulling the plug from the electricity which feed it. And even behind the socket and plug in the wall...there is a vast network and a Power station etc...
The same is In and around you! Your thoughts and intentions are KEY in this process. They will set of your frequency. Like a radio where we can tune into different frequencies. CHOOSE consciously on WHICH frequency you would like to set your intentions/thoughts. YOU could be a SUN in that way for your surroundings. A walking talking Lighthouse. Even your intentions and thoughts will help lighten up your area. Do not ask for PROOF straight away.....Things happen in realms we do not have insight straight away. CHOOSE, DECIDE and ACT. Train yourself and feed yourselve with this information. ODE is a magazin ( also online) which brings very inspirational information of people who do that and make a change in their communities. Whichever the circumstances. www.bkwsu.com in your neighberhood might be able to help you how to do that. Its all for free! YOU ARE NOT ALONE WE NEED YOU!!!
Think and choose!!! We are on a plane where the Law of free choice will be respected !!

xxx
Starlight

KosmicKat
9th July 2011, 20:16
I've always felt this way, and have always had a lot of questions as to why humans behave the way they do. I hate it, sometimes I just want out. I just want to get the hell out of this place and never look back, sometimes those bad temptations kick in, what I am talking about hear is the ultimate act I suppose, but when I reflect I think I am here for a purpose, I did come here to be here for what is to come, I have had a deep feeling for quiet a while now that something is going to happen, we're on the edge of it, but I can quiet put my finger on it.

Anyways I just wanted to vent what was in me, I'm kinda lost as to what to do in life, I'm sick of this place, it's so dense and negative, I keep getting a feeling like I want to escape, maybe Ill just ride out the storm and see what's ahead.

Adam

Well said Adam! Having been blessed with grandchildren (they're wonderful; should have had them first!) I am sometimes privileged to be allowed a glimpse through their eyes of how the world should be instead of the way it is. And that reminds me that we are here to build the bridge between should be and is.

It sounds as if you might benefit from moving to a "better" area, but if you can hack the pace there is much you can do right where you are. And even if you think you don't really matter that much to most of the people around you I think you would be surprised if you knew how much you would be missed.

Forgive me if this last admonition comes across as preachy, if you find yourself thinking about the "ultimate act" don't underestimate the danger you may be facing. Doctors, pharmacists and just good ol' friends can all help some. If I may, I would like to refer you to a very brief poem (http://kittybriton.deviantart.com/gallery/?offset=24#/dins6g).

panopticon
10th July 2011, 03:18
I hate it, sometimes I just want out. I just want to get the hell out of this place and never look back, sometimes those bad temptations kick in, what I am talking about hear is the ultimate act I suppose


G'day Adam,

OmniC has already posted some excellent advice and though moving from your present situation maybe an option be careful to not go "out of the frying pan".

Just to address your remarks on suicidal feelings. I understand what you are talking about and can only advise look at your surroundings and find reasons to stay alive. If you can't find a reason then start looking at your life and why you are where you are. Review this every month to start with and then, when it all gets easier, change it to once or twice a year. If there is nothing that you can identify as a reason to stay alive then just stay alive to annoy everyone else. All those people who laughed at you, ran you down, made you feel this way. Everyone has a person/group of people who was/is their "nemesis". Whether you blame the ubiquitous powers that be, a childhood bully, a teacher who didn't like you, a boss who treated/treats you bad, an ex who left you, the list goes on. Live to annoy them. I'm not talking about contacting them, confrontation or any form of, what the Americans call, "closure". Just the fact that you are alive and moving onwards is enough. That's all you might need at the start. Then by reviewing and looking at your life, over coming months and years, the reasons to be alive will change and eventually you wont be alive to annoy others, but because you have goals, aims and dreams.

If this doesn't work then talk to your doctor, priest, friends and family.
Sometimes it is best to ask for help and not try to "tough it out".

Kind Regards, :yo:
Panopticon

alsiani
10th July 2011, 17:07
Forever young, Alphaville

Let's dance in style, let's dance for a while
Heaven can wait we're only watching the skies
Hoping for the best, but expecting the worst
Are you gonna drop the bomb or not

Let us die young or let us live forever
We don't have the power, but we never say never
Sitting in a sand-pit, life is a short trip
The music's for the sad men.

Can you imagine when this race is run
Turn our golden faces into the sun
Praising our leaders, we're getting in tune
The music's played by the mad men

Forever young, I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever, forever, forever?
Forever young, I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever, forever, forever?

Some are like water, some are like the heat
Some are a melody, some are the beat
Sooner or later they all be gone
Why don't they stay young?

It is just to tell you that you should try to enjoy being young... one day you'll wake up and you realize that you spent too much time thinking and just a little time trying to be happy.
It happened to me. I had pretty much the same concerns you have. In the end, you know, I felt sad and lonely so many times, and I didn't change things around me, as I wished i could.
Now the world is changing pretty fast and something big is happening. But there is time to relax, be happy and take it easy.