pilotsimone
19th June 2010, 21:18
I was blessed with an entheogen-induced journey this week that I want to share with my PA family...
I saw everyone (humanity) take a deep, deep breath and then let go. Like a huge collective sigh.
And then we all saw clearly…all the damage we’ve done…to the animals…to the plants…to the water…to each other. I can see that no one can believe their eyes (or hearts). The grieving begins…
My focus then narrowed specifically to kids who have been and are being traumatized by abuse stemming from the rampant darkness over our planet. I was shown the pain we have been inflicting upon them for so many years…specifically children used as sex slaves.
During this time, I was allowed to experience the dissociation kids go into during trauma…where they go during the abuse. It’s so far away. My heart pounds when I write this...because I immediately recognized it as a familiar place. At one point I wanted to know what happened to me, but once I started down the path of knowing I stopped it. I made the decision to just take the life lesson and heal. I said I don’t need to know…since I’m fairly certain it wasn’t in this lifetime.
Whatever the reason for this experience, I remember acknowledging I have a role to play where these kids are concerned.
Next, something came over me where I had no control or input. I experienced being birthed, both physically and energetically. I have no idea what I mean by that rationally speaking, but I know I am new in some way.
As I was recalling these experiences to my husband a few minutes following, I lost complete control of my emotions. There was no way to stop it even if I wanted…which I didn’t. So much pain was leaving my body. It was all coming from somewhere so deep…places I haven’t been or remembered for quite some time.
Strangely enough…despite my intense sobbing, it felt phenomenal! It didn’t feel bad at all…only relief.
I have always been someone to keep my emotions in check, but I’m certain that I will be crying a lot in the future. It just can’t be helped. There are so many amazing beings helping us and I learned without question that they’ve always been there. I truly didn’t know. Even with loving friends and family, I’ve felt completely alone for so long. To consciously feel these beings moving through me…healing me…supporting me…I’ve just never felt a connection with any human being that compares. And the story of our existence that is unfolding before me is far more beautiful than I expected.
Thanks for reading.
I saw everyone (humanity) take a deep, deep breath and then let go. Like a huge collective sigh.
And then we all saw clearly…all the damage we’ve done…to the animals…to the plants…to the water…to each other. I can see that no one can believe their eyes (or hearts). The grieving begins…
My focus then narrowed specifically to kids who have been and are being traumatized by abuse stemming from the rampant darkness over our planet. I was shown the pain we have been inflicting upon them for so many years…specifically children used as sex slaves.
During this time, I was allowed to experience the dissociation kids go into during trauma…where they go during the abuse. It’s so far away. My heart pounds when I write this...because I immediately recognized it as a familiar place. At one point I wanted to know what happened to me, but once I started down the path of knowing I stopped it. I made the decision to just take the life lesson and heal. I said I don’t need to know…since I’m fairly certain it wasn’t in this lifetime.
Whatever the reason for this experience, I remember acknowledging I have a role to play where these kids are concerned.
Next, something came over me where I had no control or input. I experienced being birthed, both physically and energetically. I have no idea what I mean by that rationally speaking, but I know I am new in some way.
As I was recalling these experiences to my husband a few minutes following, I lost complete control of my emotions. There was no way to stop it even if I wanted…which I didn’t. So much pain was leaving my body. It was all coming from somewhere so deep…places I haven’t been or remembered for quite some time.
Strangely enough…despite my intense sobbing, it felt phenomenal! It didn’t feel bad at all…only relief.
I have always been someone to keep my emotions in check, but I’m certain that I will be crying a lot in the future. It just can’t be helped. There are so many amazing beings helping us and I learned without question that they’ve always been there. I truly didn’t know. Even with loving friends and family, I’ve felt completely alone for so long. To consciously feel these beings moving through me…healing me…supporting me…I’ve just never felt a connection with any human being that compares. And the story of our existence that is unfolding before me is far more beautiful than I expected.
Thanks for reading.