Starry Knight
16th February 2012, 00:17
...so I'm new around here, having recently reached a point of...critical mass. A time when I simply felt that I had basically two options.
A: Shut down and tune everything out, go back to trying to make the best of my 9-5 zombie job, video games and movies while just watching the world which I had suddenly become disconnected from unfold sort of like a rather grotesque TV show.
or B: Take a further plunge down the proverbial rabbit hole.
My personal tipping point was roundabout 2008 during the election events, upon listening to Ron Paul speak, my first live interest in politics. While I pretty much "lol" at the general political game at this point, RP still has a special meaning for me and I think that at the core of his message are the seeds of the greater change that most would like to see come about. Feeling this in the early stages, but lacking more facts, I was hooked on his every word, and upon witnessing his marginalization in the media while the other marionettes danced as per usual, I quickly came to the conclusion "...something is really wrong here."
In the aftermath of the election, while everyone was celebrating Obama, I was very disillusioned. Disgusted, even. Not feeling as though I had any other recourse save to investigate further and figure out what the heck was going on, I made an innocent, curious click on a youtube video featuring Michael Tsarion.
...maybe if I had known then what I was getting into, I would have shut the door on such things early on.
But no, the next thing I knew I was reading Fingerprints of the Gods, one of my earliest non-fiction reads where previously I had lived for sci-fantasy. I also burned through RP's book, Revolution: A Manifesto, that being my true first, willingly read non-fiction book since high-school days.
On and on it went. Jordan Maxwell, David Icke, the popular Wake Up Call video, Jim Marrs's Alien Agenda, the Holographic Universe, astrology stuff, What the Bleep, akashic records, did Jesus exist or didn't he, Ramtha, Urantia Books...all of this culminating recently in Zeitgest and interest in the Venus Project. I occupied a strange grey area where I felt I knew enough...but only enough to know that I had no IDEA what I knew.
Friends and family and Facebook (lol) proved most unhelpful. I forgive myself for it now, but I began reaching out to people in the earliest stages with very little eloquence. These days I've been much more patient and subtle, but still I've hit brick wall after brick wall, with even my closest friends and family looking at me like I had sprouted another head when I even touch upon the MUNDANE idea of corrupt government. That is to say, SUPER corrupt, i.e them trying to poison us etc, for everyone pretty much acknowledges that they are corrupt in general. But it seems like many people still don't take that idea further than sex scandals.
Anyway, Project Camelot/Avalon were among my adventures while trying to get a handle on things, and with my most recent failure to see eye to eye with someone close to home, I came to that make or break point I first mentioned. It was either keep trying to break down barriers of people still caught up in the Matrix, so to speak, or join a community of people who were further along. So here I am.
I think I've made the right decision...but looking at the thousands of posts and threads and ideas, I'm also quite overwhelmed and have no idea where to start. I have to admit that, as far as I've come in my thinking, beliefs and philosophies, I'm still one of those people who would like a little "proof" of the more extraordinary claims. ETs, past lives, that sort of thing. Saying that however, I still can't do anything but fully and wholly accept that SOMETHING is going on. See my dilemma?
And it seems to me that if I still have trouble believing everything, then it seems little wonder that I've alienated everyone still completely in the box. Little wonder that people stray from these subjects, just hope and do their praying, believing that things will sort themselves out in due course. Which I guess they will, depending on one's idea of what such "sorting out" will entail.
Not even sure I made my point with all this. Guess I'm just giving a shout out to all the people out there who think UFO communities, Tarot, Channeling, Bohemian Grove rituals, Bilderberg and Economic Hit-men are just craziness, fiction and fantasy. I think those people are wrong...but they have my utmost sympathy, empathy and understanding for huddling up in the turtle shell of 9-5 and the new Avengers movie.
In the same breath, I'm grateful for people like the community here who prefer to view what I think of as the full spectrum, people willing to put their time, resources and energy into unraveling this very obvious mess in hopes of getting to closer approximations of the truth...whatever it may be.
A: Shut down and tune everything out, go back to trying to make the best of my 9-5 zombie job, video games and movies while just watching the world which I had suddenly become disconnected from unfold sort of like a rather grotesque TV show.
or B: Take a further plunge down the proverbial rabbit hole.
My personal tipping point was roundabout 2008 during the election events, upon listening to Ron Paul speak, my first live interest in politics. While I pretty much "lol" at the general political game at this point, RP still has a special meaning for me and I think that at the core of his message are the seeds of the greater change that most would like to see come about. Feeling this in the early stages, but lacking more facts, I was hooked on his every word, and upon witnessing his marginalization in the media while the other marionettes danced as per usual, I quickly came to the conclusion "...something is really wrong here."
In the aftermath of the election, while everyone was celebrating Obama, I was very disillusioned. Disgusted, even. Not feeling as though I had any other recourse save to investigate further and figure out what the heck was going on, I made an innocent, curious click on a youtube video featuring Michael Tsarion.
...maybe if I had known then what I was getting into, I would have shut the door on such things early on.
But no, the next thing I knew I was reading Fingerprints of the Gods, one of my earliest non-fiction reads where previously I had lived for sci-fantasy. I also burned through RP's book, Revolution: A Manifesto, that being my true first, willingly read non-fiction book since high-school days.
On and on it went. Jordan Maxwell, David Icke, the popular Wake Up Call video, Jim Marrs's Alien Agenda, the Holographic Universe, astrology stuff, What the Bleep, akashic records, did Jesus exist or didn't he, Ramtha, Urantia Books...all of this culminating recently in Zeitgest and interest in the Venus Project. I occupied a strange grey area where I felt I knew enough...but only enough to know that I had no IDEA what I knew.
Friends and family and Facebook (lol) proved most unhelpful. I forgive myself for it now, but I began reaching out to people in the earliest stages with very little eloquence. These days I've been much more patient and subtle, but still I've hit brick wall after brick wall, with even my closest friends and family looking at me like I had sprouted another head when I even touch upon the MUNDANE idea of corrupt government. That is to say, SUPER corrupt, i.e them trying to poison us etc, for everyone pretty much acknowledges that they are corrupt in general. But it seems like many people still don't take that idea further than sex scandals.
Anyway, Project Camelot/Avalon were among my adventures while trying to get a handle on things, and with my most recent failure to see eye to eye with someone close to home, I came to that make or break point I first mentioned. It was either keep trying to break down barriers of people still caught up in the Matrix, so to speak, or join a community of people who were further along. So here I am.
I think I've made the right decision...but looking at the thousands of posts and threads and ideas, I'm also quite overwhelmed and have no idea where to start. I have to admit that, as far as I've come in my thinking, beliefs and philosophies, I'm still one of those people who would like a little "proof" of the more extraordinary claims. ETs, past lives, that sort of thing. Saying that however, I still can't do anything but fully and wholly accept that SOMETHING is going on. See my dilemma?
And it seems to me that if I still have trouble believing everything, then it seems little wonder that I've alienated everyone still completely in the box. Little wonder that people stray from these subjects, just hope and do their praying, believing that things will sort themselves out in due course. Which I guess they will, depending on one's idea of what such "sorting out" will entail.
Not even sure I made my point with all this. Guess I'm just giving a shout out to all the people out there who think UFO communities, Tarot, Channeling, Bohemian Grove rituals, Bilderberg and Economic Hit-men are just craziness, fiction and fantasy. I think those people are wrong...but they have my utmost sympathy, empathy and understanding for huddling up in the turtle shell of 9-5 and the new Avengers movie.
In the same breath, I'm grateful for people like the community here who prefer to view what I think of as the full spectrum, people willing to put their time, resources and energy into unraveling this very obvious mess in hopes of getting to closer approximations of the truth...whatever it may be.