Baal Is Not My Master

[TelosianEmbrace]

This body has taken me through some pretty difficult times and I thank it and bathe it in healing energies.

I have a few ongoing 'difficulties' when it comes to my body and healing. All through my childhood and into my adulthood my mother worked as a receptionist first at a hospital and then for a number of doctors. She would look to these doctors like gods, and follow their advice as though it was gospel. There was no other way of viewing our health, and our healing, than through the misted glass of medical mediocrity, the slash and burn of the butchers of human body and soul.

From early on I had illnesses that showed me, upon being operated on unsuccessfully and advised unwisely, that these doctors simply had no way of helping me. This sparked a struggle throughout my life to seek alternative cures and remedies to my health issues. I have taken the herbs and advice of Joao de Deus, and so wished to go and see him, but it didn't come off. I also would have booked a trip to the Philippines, but the energy was not right for that trip, either. I have tried reconnective healing, reiki, colour healing, MMS, black salve in tablet form, naturopathy and many other forms of healing but still there remain issues that simply will not go away, after decades. I simply refuse to try mainstream medical routes for this as I sense a tremendous lesson in what these illnesses have to share with me, and if I do not learn from them and understand them, then they will simply reappear in another form at another time.

I will call one illness...hmmm.. Baal. Baal has been with me for many years. I have spoken to him, asked why he is here, and what he has to show me. I observe as he sends me messages, and have tried in so many ways to dislodge him from my body. But no matter what I try, he stubbornly resists, and refuses to either communicate with me or to depart from my body. The breakthrough that I am looking for when it comes to Baal simply hasn't happened. Many, many times over the years he has reduced me to tears, yet he is so stubborn and aloof and disdains from interacting with me or responding to my requests or many searches for healing. How can he continue to be so separate from me, so impervious to my requests and techniques?

The Lord never gives us anything we cannot handle, and there must be a way I can once again feel happy and healthy. It has been so long that I have had these illnesses of the body that I simply have forgotten what it is like to be without them. Oh, just imagine how easy my life would be without Baal and his cohorts!

And so I throw this open to all of you. I humbly ask for your insights and your healing thoughts. I open my physical body, my etheric and other energy fields to any benevolent efforts at healing that any of you might have for any and all of my illnesses.

[Timreh]

TelosianEmbrace I can only share some of what works for me..

Over the years I have learn't to ward off colds and flu..
When I wake up with that fever or tell tale feeling in my throat and have those thoughts "You've got the flu" or "you've got a cold" I simply banish them there and then, throughout the day whenever they try and re-enter my mind I do not allow them in, I do not allow any thoughts whatsoever relating to being unwell to enter my mind, I see myself as being healthy.. and somehow this works for me, it used to be a real "battle of the mind" in developing this skill and now it works pretty much all of the time.

As with all things I think once we learn a new skill we can build it and refine it and so this is a skill I am continually trying to develop.
This may seem insignificant but my point is that I believe we all have the ability to heal ourselves and others if we only knew how.
Just like we all eventually learn to run, I see myself somewhere around the crawling stage?

Fortunately my physical health has been rather good when it comes to illness.

[wavydome]

...........Over the years I have learn't to ward off colds and flu..
When I wake up with that fever or tell tale feeling in my throat and have those thoughts "You've got the flu" or "you've got a cold" I simply banish them there and then, throughout the day whenever they try and re-enter my mind I do not allow them in, I do not allow any thoughts whatsoever relating to being unwell to enter my mind, I see myself as being healthy.. and somehow this works for me, it used to be a real "battle of the mind" in developing this skill and now it works pretty much all of the time..........


I agree with this! As a kid i learned to 'heat up' the thermometer so that mom would suggest i stay home... After she left for work, i'd run off into the valley and the wilds and the ruins of Rome. (We lived just north of Rome in the 1950's)... Often there would be like minded youths, mostly Italians who i befriended. We had great times and ultimately i dropped out of school....
Glad for that ;)

However it became difficult to get over the habit of fostering symptoms... Which after years of delay in my 20s, finally i healed of that too. Onward with many studies of the matrix since... My word how many suppressions exist to suppress humans!

As to which healing systems are best? Have you tied the study of nutrition and read up on comparisons of nutritional approaches to help? That should include affordability and also fit one's sense of ecology. How should ones diet affect a small planet? What systems of truth and wisdom does one seek. Integrative approaches are the most time saving, IMO. Seek while yet we can.

I can say that many on Avalon work to show ways through the matrix... While others, how shall we say it.... Well we wonder how they may come to heal, such as heal personal responsibility . Bearing readily-verifiable fruits in their life. Let each be their own judge. Let each seek and find good ways.

wav

[markpierre]

This body has taken me through some pretty difficult times and I thank it and bathe it in healing energies.

I have a few ongoing 'difficulties' when it comes to my body and healing. All through my childhood and into my adulthood my mother worked as a receptionist first at a hospital and then for a number of doctors. She would look to these doctors like gods, and follow their advice as though it was gospel. There was no other way of viewing our health, and our healing, than through the misted glass of medical mediocrity, the slash and burn of the butchers of human body and soul.

From early on I had illnesses that showed me, upon being operated on unsuccessfully and advised unwisely, that these doctors simply had no way of helping me. This sparked a struggle throughout my life to seek alternative cures and remedies to my health issues. I have taken the herbs and advice of Joao de Deus, and so wished to go and see him, but it didn't come off. I also would have booked a trip to the Philippines, but the energy was not right for that trip, either. I have tried reconnective healing, reiki, colour healing, MMS, black salve in tablet form, naturopathy and many other forms of healing but still there remain issues that simply will not go away, after decades. I simply refuse to try mainstream medical routes for this as I sense a tremendous lesson in what these illnesses have to share with me, and if I do not learn from them and understand them, then they will simply reappear in another form at another time.

I will call one illness...hmmm.. Baal. Baal has been with me for many years. I have spoken to him, asked why he is here, and what he has to show me. I observe as he sends me messages, and have tried in so many ways to dislodge him from my body. But no matter what I try, he stubbornly resists, and refuses to either communicate with me or to depart from my body. The breakthrough that I am looking for when it comes to Baal simply hasn't happened. Many, many times over the years he has reduced me to tears, yet he is so stubborn and aloof and disdains from interacting with me or responding to my requests or many searches for healing. How can he continue to be so separate from me, so impervious to my requests and techniques?

The Lord never gives us anything we cannot handle, and there must be a way I can once again feel happy and healthy. It has been so long that I have had these illnesses of the body that I simply have forgotten what it is like to be without them. Oh, just imagine how easy my life would be without Baal and his cohorts!

And so I throw this open to all of you. I humbly ask for your insights and your healing thoughts. I open my physical body, my etheric and other energy fields to any benevolent efforts at healing that any of you might have for any and all of my illnesses.

I need to be as direct with this as I can, so please bare with me. Don't imagine that I can't empathize, because I fully do.
I'll put this in sort of a point form to make it even more confronting, but please don't think that's my intention, I just don't know how else to do it.

We chose these conditions. They're not accidents or anomalies or bad luck.
Challenges? Yes. Difficult? Yes. Inhibiting? Yes. Purposeful? YES.

You're not a comparison with healthy bodies. You're you, with an agenda to complete your mission.

A mind that views itself as entitled to anything, has somehow isolated itself from all of the suffering that's apparent around it.
Empathize with everyone you see who have it worse. That'll put your experience of yourself in perspective. They are you, doing their bit with what they've designed for themselves.
How are you helping them with their purpose? A 'well adjusted human' is someone who is disengaged from the whole. That's pathological.
That's what we're all here trying to heal from.

What are the lessons that your experience has taught you?
How are you different from when this all began? What seemingly 'normal' life do you envy?
Have you learned what you can learn from your experience? Or is there more?
And how does that help you see more than what you could have otherwise? That's the gift. Is there more to learn? To see?
Are you sure?
Learn it. See it. Use what you've learned for the benefit of all.

Human life is transient. You're not 'stuck' here. There will be more bodies, and they'll all be passing through and beyond here too. This particular one for you is an opportunity that will affect everything that comes to follow the trail you blaze.
Happiness is and has always been available to you at any time you choose it. Don't kid yourself about that.

If you feel a grievance with your 'condition', forgive yourself, because you only have yourself to blame. Then get past grievance and blame.
Move on to the gifts that you've gained from it. Don't let the blessing get past you. And don't forget that it comes from you.

Thank God for this opportunity to become so much more of the real you, that no other lesson-work could possibly have arranged for you.
This 'life' is a tiny almost insignificant moment in the totality of 'YOU'. Who and what you are. Life is eternal. This is just a testing ground.
A honing of your Spirit. And an honoring of your real intentions as an aspect of God, doing what God does.
Bringing life into the wilderness.

Have you gotten past the grievance and the 'woe is me'?
Then move on to healing with the intention of sharing what you learn, but also what you've LEARNED already,and the sharing you'll enjoy in the healing of yourself.

Don't hold back anything of what you feel and experience. Everyone you meet in that process with that intention will appear as an angel.
Acknowledge them for who and what they are.
You are NOT here just for you.

The body is designed to be whole and function perfectly.
That you think that it isn't right now is a mistaken belief.
It's serving YOUR purpose perfectly.

If your purpose now is to heal it, it'll obey that intention perfectly too.
Be certain that your illness as part of your self identified 'you', no longer serves a purpose in
the 'you' you now choose to be. Your body is NOT you.

You may not yet want to consider that the role of 'the healed' is to heal others. It's a big responsibility. It could even seem to interfere with your ideas about 'freedom' from malady and the life you thought you'd have without it.
Sorry mate, you're not normal. You're far more important than normal.

All that being said, there are hundreds of methods and modalities and many presented in these threads that will serve you beautifully.
It's your intention to be whole and complete that heals you.
Maybe start with cleansing and detoxing. Get your mind clear so you can identify your real intentions.
Blessing and loving and honoring yourself all the way, and thanking God for the opportunity.
And then, see what else you can do in your time on this crazy rock.

This was stated directly and emphatically to me by a very dependable source;
there is NOTHING that can't be healed.
But decide first on what you want healing to really be. It may be far more than you'd bargain for.

[TelosianEmbrace]

Thanks for your sharing. It helps me feel just a little less alone and a little bit better equipped to understand what is happening to me and why. It is obvious each of you speak from your own experiences, and that helps me to see what's happening from a more expanded perspective. I won't comment individually, but would simply like to expand on my perceptions.

I do know that all illness serves a purpose. I was born in a very dark bloodline with negative practices, and believe Baal to be a manifestation of that negativity in my physical body as something real and tangible and immediate, something that nothing slips by and is remorseless in its feedback to me of what I should and should not be doing, in particular the food I choose to take into my body. Food is a biggie. My father was a cattle farmer, and was very much a meat eater. I remember going up there, a newly self proclaimed vegetarian, and have him force me to eat meat. He sat across from me and said we would not leave the untili had eaten what was in front of me. This when I was in my late twenties. Yet time and again Baal is telling me that meat is not the way to go, and I'm guessing that he will stay with me until any possibility of me reverting to the eating of meat in any form has passed. So I am thankful. It is a fascinating dichotomy, the choice to take on a life of hardship, as well as the choice to take on illness as a pathway to transcending it.

Another thing this illness has taught me is humility. Where my studies and spiritual practices may give me some cause for ego gratification, this is in no way corroborated by an illness that brings me to the level of survival and physical debilitation. It has opened me up to being far more compassionate for others with the choices that they have made in their lives that may bring them similar or greater levels of disease.

I have, in the past compared myself to others who are seemingly healthy and living lives that seem rather removed from any higher understanding and have asked myself how that could be fair. So much seems so back to front and arse side up in this society. Yet this is what I chose, and the lessons these illnesses have to show me, and for me to listen and do something about it, are a far more rewarding life than one lived without challenge and adversity.

Every day I am on the pathway to healing. It may be a long journey, yet the end is tangible and hope is ever present.

[markpierre]

It may be a really short journey. How would that be? Would you be okay with that?

[wavydome]

Strong medicine in the mind may help at times... Reference to Baal sounds like some sort of 'abduction' experience. Avalon has many sorts of abduction experiences reported. I hadn't paid much attention to these experiences before whistle blower forms. The internet makes a big difference as well, as i lived isolated for decades.

Steven Richards' Holographic Kinetics (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?38458-Dreamtime-Healing-Using-Holographic-Kinetics&p=400991&viewfull=1#post400991) has seemed the most effective and straight forward system i've heard of. For removing unwanted abductor or malevolent-entity types... Types of entities which somehow ended up inside one's life. Running all sorts of unwanted programs. Where the host has lost control and just irrationally complies. I got a lot of good insights, just listening through mp3s.

Life can be interesting. I'm thankful to live at such pivotal times, despite any odd difficulties.

[NancyV]

If you haven't yet checked out Pulsed Electro Magnetic Field Therapy (PEMFT) you may want to do some research. You could start by watching this video from the Dr. Oz show which is on the front page of this website: http://electromeds.com/ and also on Youtube.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cZSOKT-IdFE&feature=player_embedded#!
Since I have had personal experience with PEMFT and researched it for at least a year before I used it, I can say that it works for many different illnesses, pain, and mental problems including depression, paranoia and just generally making you feel fantastic.

I had 20 treatments with one of these PEMFT machines and totally cured fairly severe stroke symptoms. My husband also had the treatments and extreme pain he had from two broken legs that hurt constantly for years lessened by at least 75%. He had only about 40% use of his lungs from white lung disease and that increased to at least 80-85%. His graying hair turned black and we both felt mentally and physically better than we had in years.

There are many different types of PEMFT machines and you can see some of them on the website above. I would recommend them in the following order:

1. Medithera
2. QRS Quantron
3. MRS2000
4. Bemer3000

If you want to research this type of therapy there are lots of videos with testimonials of people who have been cured by a huge variety of conditions, including MS, cancer, chronic pain, eye problems, infections, etc etc.

I think I was most excited that the electromagnetic energy really made me feel so good it was almost like being high but without feeling drugged. It really gives your mind clarity and your body a lot of calm but powerful energy. It also helps you sleep like a baby with no pain. Maybe you could find a clinic or chiropractor who gives treatments with one of the machines I've mentioned above.

[9eagle9]

I'm thinking it's just simpler to remover Baal and his co-horts and start from there with some of the suggestion's above.

[Ellisa]

There are a number of illnesses and conditions that come and go and they can swamp the strengths already there. Perhaps identifying Baal would be a place to start. Then as suggested by 9eagle9, having established the perimeters of Baal's influence, it may be possible to overcome and remove him, using the strengths you have aways had, and can now freely access again.

[Unified Serenity]

I need to be as direct with this as I can, so please bare with me. Don't imagine that I can't empathize, because I fully do.
I'll put this in sort of a point form to make it even more confronting, but please don't think that's my intention, I just don't know how else to do it.

We chose these conditions. They're not accidents or anomalies or bad luck.
Challenges? Yes. Difficult? Yes. Inhibiting? Yes. Purposeful? YES.

You're not a comparison with healthy bodies. You're you, with an agenda to complete your mission.



Awesome post Mark. I have given myself illnesses and i daresay even a compound fracture. I know the moment I open myself to something happening and I now examine why I did it and shut if off and get rid of that energy. Seeds are planted within our spirit and body very easily. It's all about energy, and your words were spot on. I can tell you that I struggled for years with excruciating pain from my compound pylon fracture of my right leg just above my ankle. I am lucky to have a foot. Then one day while at work and in tears due to the pain of being on my feet for 8 hours, I stilled my mind and spirit, stopped fighting the pain and embraced it in a place of divine love. I still have moments of shocking pain, but nothing like I used to have. I see my leg healed and look forward to the day it lines up with my mind, heart and spirit.

As for mission, it has taught me a great deal about patience, long suffering, and how wonderful life is no matter where you are. In the darkest of times, we choose.

[Ellisa]

That description is brilliant, Unified Serenity! It is what I was trying to suggest, and, I think that T E should find it helpful. I do hope so, he needs some peace I think.

[TelosianEmbrace]

I do find it helpful. When we share our stories we grow in strength. Particularly poignant are the lessons of patience and long suffering.

Nancy's story is heartening, as well. I remember when my ex girlfriend and I were both working nightshift, and we found it difficult sometimes to get to sleep during the day, and had aches and pains. We bought a magnetic underlay for the bed, and it really did seem to work wonders for both of us. I would have no hesitation in trying some form of magnetic therapy.

As many of you have realised by now, I'm quite an imaginative fellow, and I can imagine waking up one morning and having what remains of Baal being purged from my system. I have heard this type of cure happen before. I befriended a fellow Australian at the Sai Baba ashram in India, and he told me a story about how he was purged of his years of smoking by Sai. One morning, while staying near the ashram, he woke up to find the white sheet covering him was soaked in nicotine/tar that had been purged from his body while he slept. I have no doubt this can happen, and am wondering about the transformational/revelatory moment that would precede and be intrinsically a part of the physical healing process.

As you can see, I've put a lot of thought into this over the years.

[markpierre]

I need to be as direct with this as I can, so please bare with me. Don't imagine that I can't empathize, because I fully do.
I'll put this in sort of a point form to make it even more confronting, but please don't think that's my intention, I just don't know how else to do it.

We chose these conditions. They're not accidents or anomalies or bad luck.
Challenges? Yes. Difficult? Yes. Inhibiting? Yes. Purposeful? YES.

You're not a comparison with healthy bodies. You're you, with an agenda to complete your mission.



Awesome post Mark. I have given myself illnesses and i daresay even a compound fracture. I know the moment I open myself to something happening and I now examine why I did it and shut if off and get rid of that energy. Seeds are planted within our spirit and body very easily. It's all about energy, and your words were spot on. I can tell you that I struggled for years with excruciating pain from my compound pylon fracture of my right leg just above my ankle. I am lucky to have a foot. Then one day while at work and in tears due to the pain of being on my feet for 8 hours, I stilled my mind and spirit, stopped fighting the pain and embraced it in a place of divine love. I still have moments of shocking pain, but nothing like I used to have. I see my leg healed and look forward to the day it lines up with my mind, heart and spirit.

As for mission, it has taught me a great deal about patience, long suffering, and how wonderful life is no matter where you are. In the darkest of times, we choose.

Thanks for that US. There is more to it, when anyone is willing to hear it deeply enough.
As you can see, I'm stating the obvious for anyone 'in the know'. And because everyone already admits to knowing that stuff,
it's always back on to the unending search for the magic cure.
The truth is, any of those remedies would work if they wanted it bad enough.
Sickness is an addiction. An identity. How can anything feel so unloved, that sickness feels better than unworthiness?

I knew a guy named Jesus, oddly enough. He was a famous healer. I knew him mostly through things he wrote and things that were written about him.
But I got to meet him a few times too, and one of the things he told me was that he never 'healed' anyone. That that was all a bit of a fraud.
And though they were apparently healed through him, he said he never once put his hands on anyone without telling them first the truth of the matter.