jimrich
11th September 2016, 17:00
I am watching a video by Ira Schepetin V-SpMmgbTzw in which he discusses Deep Sleep and how our ego vanishes there. He also demonstrates how the ego is active while we are awake and during a day dream but then vanishes if we intentionally stop or drop the day dream image to enter what might be considered Deep Sleep where there is no ego. I'd call that "clearing my mind" if and when I stop a day dream and momentarily become blank or empty but the main point was that our ego stops or leaves the moment we stop day dreaming and, when my ego stops - for any reason, I automatically enter peace, happiness, love, joy, freedom, relaxation for a few moments anyway, but I never noticed that all of this has something to do with STOPPING the ego - not just the mind - although they seem closely connected.
Thanks to this "insight" I can now see the value and benefits of stopping thought or fantasies, etc. to get away from my EGOIC personality, which seems to be constantly active! It's the ego that is the problem more than disturbing thoughts and feelings or even circumstances but I've been an ego for so long that it just seems to automatically be here and HAVE me!
In the past, I've had some folks, like my 1st wife, tell me to forget myself or get out of myself but I never connected that with getting out of my ego and some of those folks also had pretty BIG egos, so they were not very good "role models". I recall some events where my 1st guru became VERY egotistical and upset and I can see the same egoic patterns with almost every guru/teacher at Youtube and on several audio tapes where the "sage" becomes obviously EGOTISTICAL and either upset or arrogant!
It's becoming more and more amazing to see how the ego in me and many others operates and quite often in an unconscious and automatic way. You'd think that these sages and gurus would be the first to have NO ego or at least have their ego under control but now I can see that they, just like me, are prone to being taken over by their egos just like the "unenlightened". I have a tape where Eli-Jaxson LOOSES it!
The more I learn about and look at the ego, the more obvious it is to realize just how it works and how much effect and impact it has on everyone and everything. Even my dogs and cats had strong, reactive and obvious EGOS so maybe being stuck with an ego is just one of those things! But for me, handling & backing down my ego is becoming a major focus of my attention and process because my ego has been a real troublemaker for a very long time.
I remember now how I built and constructed my ego from early childhood when I just copied the egos around me to go along with whatever special characteristics I was born with to build the one I now have then moved into and became it at a very early age. My ego looked and acted a lot like my parents, older brother and some to my earliest peers. I always thought I was uniquely me but now I can see how I am a mysterious composite of my parents, older brother, little sister and many others plus natural elements.
Why my ego was such a mess and troublesome is a very long story but I've needed to control and back it down for a long time but never even knew it was the problem. I was so lost in and AS my ego that I could never see that it simply needs to be STOPPED and then I'd be OK. The few times my ego did stop, I felt wonderful but never realized my good feelings came from being temporarily relieved of my ego so, my ego slipped right back in shortly after the "wonder" event and I just went on living with and AS AN EGO!
So, today I learned a powerful lesson: Just stop day dreaming which will stop the ego and then peace, happiness and joy, somewhat like what occurs in Deep dreamless sleep, will automatically happen! Lose or suspend the ego, in whatever way possible, and then love and peace will automatically show up.
How's your ego? Can you control it? If yes....how? :bowing:
Thanks to this "insight" I can now see the value and benefits of stopping thought or fantasies, etc. to get away from my EGOIC personality, which seems to be constantly active! It's the ego that is the problem more than disturbing thoughts and feelings or even circumstances but I've been an ego for so long that it just seems to automatically be here and HAVE me!
In the past, I've had some folks, like my 1st wife, tell me to forget myself or get out of myself but I never connected that with getting out of my ego and some of those folks also had pretty BIG egos, so they were not very good "role models". I recall some events where my 1st guru became VERY egotistical and upset and I can see the same egoic patterns with almost every guru/teacher at Youtube and on several audio tapes where the "sage" becomes obviously EGOTISTICAL and either upset or arrogant!
It's becoming more and more amazing to see how the ego in me and many others operates and quite often in an unconscious and automatic way. You'd think that these sages and gurus would be the first to have NO ego or at least have their ego under control but now I can see that they, just like me, are prone to being taken over by their egos just like the "unenlightened". I have a tape where Eli-Jaxson LOOSES it!
The more I learn about and look at the ego, the more obvious it is to realize just how it works and how much effect and impact it has on everyone and everything. Even my dogs and cats had strong, reactive and obvious EGOS so maybe being stuck with an ego is just one of those things! But for me, handling & backing down my ego is becoming a major focus of my attention and process because my ego has been a real troublemaker for a very long time.
I remember now how I built and constructed my ego from early childhood when I just copied the egos around me to go along with whatever special characteristics I was born with to build the one I now have then moved into and became it at a very early age. My ego looked and acted a lot like my parents, older brother and some to my earliest peers. I always thought I was uniquely me but now I can see how I am a mysterious composite of my parents, older brother, little sister and many others plus natural elements.
Why my ego was such a mess and troublesome is a very long story but I've needed to control and back it down for a long time but never even knew it was the problem. I was so lost in and AS my ego that I could never see that it simply needs to be STOPPED and then I'd be OK. The few times my ego did stop, I felt wonderful but never realized my good feelings came from being temporarily relieved of my ego so, my ego slipped right back in shortly after the "wonder" event and I just went on living with and AS AN EGO!
So, today I learned a powerful lesson: Just stop day dreaming which will stop the ego and then peace, happiness and joy, somewhat like what occurs in Deep dreamless sleep, will automatically happen! Lose or suspend the ego, in whatever way possible, and then love and peace will automatically show up.
How's your ego? Can you control it? If yes....how? :bowing: