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You are in our hearts, Dear Lady! :heart:
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Abundance of Love and Blessings this day Shadowself and your Beautiful Supporters. :inlove: :grouphug:
Good Morning,
I just did a post on Matisse's thread titled Prostate Cancer.
https://projectavalon.net/forum4/show...=1#post1205036
And here is the best reason I had for starting my thread...so we can get people together on some of this stuff when it arises. Cancer is not a discriminatory disease and can strike at any time as it did with me. I went from ultra healthy to deathly sick in no time flat.
The speed at which this particular kind of cancer spreads is unbelievable. Just in the time from when I left the hospital with my heart attack till I entered the oncologist office was unfathomable. In a weeks time a tumor in one of my lymph nodes started to surface in my neck and it's about an inch and a half wide and a bit soar to the touch. Not to mention the ones in my abdominal area and a few other lymph nodes.
It's overwhelming to say the least when you don't know a thing about what is going on inside your body...you just know it's really bad and needs to be arrested.
The first thing I did after I found out was read up what I could about lung cancer and the various types. While I prayed that they were not the small cell type that is rare was not what i had it ends up exactly what I have. And of course the prognosis in extremely high for recurrence even if I go into complete remission. I cannot have the largest tumor removed as it's inoperable where it sits and I'm just stuck with hoping the chemotherapy kills it.
So on the third day after Chemo I can actually sit down and write this as yesterday it would have been impossible between trips to the bathroom and bouts of sleep I had to do to rest as my body was under attack but this medicine that is supposed to shrink and remove my tumors. Nothing it this world can prepare you for that even if you've taken the 2 hour introductory course before the treatments start which I did.
Stress: I didn't realize how much stress I was under until they finally subscribed me a medicine to relieve the stress which also helps with the nausea. I was a walking ball of stress about everything! I would cry at the drop of a hat and swore I was strong enough to handle this on my own. Well that turned out not to be true. Too many things come at you all at once lest of all the financial aspects when you work and are now not working and depend on that income to live. Fortunately I have temporary and long term disability through my work which will see me through until I can get my social security disability which I now qualify for. It seems Small Cell Cancer is a fast track to getting your disability assured. It's listed under "Compassionate Allowance". It also means they give you this because they expect your life with small cell to be short enough to accommodate this disability. Which to someone with Small Cell cancer means they expect you to die sooner than not and is pretty depressing.
https://www.disabilitybenefitscenter...ity-disability
I sure would like to be the exception to that and outlive their expectancy!
Okay I've said enough today and am still recovering from the chemo I just went through. Next week I get a break...no chemo then the following week we start again.
I'll write more on some of this and the stuff I've personally had to deal with regarding doctors and the various things that I found a bit odd and out of the norm and of course things to watch for.
Take care and thank you all for the prayers and warm thoughts!
Thanks for the update, Dear Lady! You are, as always, in my thoughts & prayers. :heart:
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Cry every time it comes upon you Shadowself as that cleans out the stress too me thinks..............Thank you for finding the strength this day to continue to share your journey Warrior Woman......each step a learning experience ... A Toast to you Dear Soul.................:cocktail:
What Sandy said!!! :highfive: We Love You~~~~~You are an Amazing Person & so brave to share all this with us!! :heart:
Keep up the fight Shadowself...and keep hope...miracles do happen. I found this web page where there is much useful information about many things.. https://cancertutor.com/dirtcheapprotocol. On the web site they say cancer is like a brush fire, the more fire trucks you have the better.
all the best and many blessings...
Gidday Shadowself, Kia Kaha - Be Strong, much love dear one
For you Shadowself and Your Loved ones .....several stories of compasionate understanding, hope and resources others experiencing the journey of a cancer diagnosis.
https://www.livelongerfeelbetter.com/ep0006-cancer/
Thinking of You and Yours while watching this wonderful video.....:bearhug:
Good evening, and welcome Vern! How nice it is to see you! Hope you and the family are well.
So let me tell you a week ago when I did my last post I had just had my second treatment of chemo. Apparently I was overdosed with the chemo and got extremely sick from it. My stomach and intestine were on fire and that is no exaggeration! My blood pressure dropped to 92/79 which is normally 130/89. And in one week I literally lost 8 lbs. for a total now of 15 lbs to date since I entered the hospital with my heart attack.
My next treatment will be next week at a lower dose. and I had to be given some medications to help my stomach and intestinal track get back to normal. It was simply a nightmare of 7 days straight until I got to the oncology office for my blood work.
I'm just starting to feel human again for the first time. Even sleeping was disrupted by the constant extreme bloating and cramping in my belly. I finally got some sleep last night and most of the bad symptoms are fading now but that was rough. It makes you wonder how people lived through chemo when it first came out and how much to dose each particular person...because everyone is different.
My doctor said we want to kill the cancer tumors not you...I said will thank you! Sheesh!
Well at least I can get into my size 8 jeans again! But what a price!
I have noticed that my breathing is not so hard and I'm not wheezing like I was so perhaps the tumor in my lung is shrinking? I sure hope so after all that! If they can shrink the larger tumors I will not have to take the pain medications and that will be a plus. Crossing fingers here!
Anyhow again thank you all for the well wishes and the link Matisse added I will now be able to look into as this past week was just a blur.
Until next time! Bless you all for just being there.
Bless you back, Brook! and thanks for the updates. Keep on keeping, Warrior Woman.Quote:
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Welcome to Avalon, Vern. http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/wave.gifQuote:
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I just made the connection. I watched you in several videos last summer. One of them may have been when Shadowself was a guest. Small world.
Kia Kaha! (defined)
Thanks for the video, sandy. I'm about 19 minutes into it where they're talking about a raw vegan diet. I'm multi-tasking at the moment and decided to watch it tomorrow when I can give it my full attention. Many of the beliefs and concepts they're sharing I agree with.Quote:
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LOL hows the coffee delema going, few moons back I bargained with the doc and I chose two a day, back to usual now hehe, kia kaha girl.
You know me too well Vern...I think I cried about the lack of coffee for a whole day! Me without coffee is almost life shattering! :ranger: One of my few vices. LOL But it's just not going to happen with the chemo. Just does not work at all. Someone gave me some tea that supposedly tastes like coffee but it was not even close.Quote:
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Right now it's water and lots of it and I'm able to do some teas that are mild. Another friend is sending me some homemade honey from one of their hives so I'm looking forward to that to flavor my tea.
Perhaps when and if I get off this chemo for awhile I can have some coffee again. A day I will celebrate for sure! :coffee:
So so proactive imo for any human is honey, love the stuff, sorta pickles you in a good way when you have too much But hey whats too much lol
Sending some extra healing love your way today.
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Just checking in to deposit a few hugs & let you know you are ever present in my thoughts & prayers!! :bearhug::bearhug::bearhug:
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Here is a good site that explains various ways that cancer can develop.
http://www.alternative-cancer-care.com/
There is a big discussion about the emotional trauma preceding cancer:
THE THEORY: BY GLEN RUSSELL,
PUNA WAI ORA MIND-BODY CANCER CLINIC
Over the past decades, a number of licensed medical practitioners working in the field of oncology have discovered cancer is preceded by a specific emotional trauma, occurring approximately 2 years prior to the diagnosis of cancer. Two of these practitioners include Dr W Douglas Brodie, founder of the Reno Integrative Medical Center in Nevada, USA and Dr Ryke Geerd Hamer, a German physician and founder of German New Medicine. Both of these practitioners claim to have examined thousands of cancer patients in reaching this conclusion. More specifically, Dr Ryke Geerd Hamer proposes that each cancer in the body has a different emotional cause which he had identified; in other words the emotional cause for cancer of the left breast is different to that of the right breast and to cancer of the colon, etc. In my own personal experience in treating hundreds of cancer patients to heal the root psycho-emotional cause of their disease, it has been my observation that Dr Ryke Geerd Hamer's theory that each cancer has a different and very specific psycho-emotional cause is 100% accurate. For example, I always find a woman presenting with cancer of the left breast has [in line with Dr Hamer's theory] experienced a psychological and emotional conflict / trauma approximately 2 years prior to the diagnosis of cancer involving the "mother, child or home". Similarly, I always find a woman presenting with uterine cancer has experienced a "sexual conflict" 2 years prior to the diagnosis of cancer, and so on. On a personal level, my own mother [who was diagnosed with cancer of the left breast in 1992] experienced a psycho-emotional trauma 2 years prior in 1990 involving the death of her mother, in line with Dr Hamer's theory. I remember her telling me at the time she felt like a zombie for many months. As is typical with patients I see, my mother had a tendency to over-react to most difficulties in life and was always highly stressed, and it is this hypersensitivity to life's stressors that makes one susceptible to cancer. Dr W Douglas Brodie reveals it is not the stressful event that causes cancer, but our inability to cope with life stress.
Good Morning!
Hay there...did I mention that chemo sucks? Well it does. Several people have warned me off of it so far but I do have to say few things. One is I can't afford any treatments that are not approved by my insurance company and because of the nature of that one tumor that is so large and wrapped around my pulmonary artery it was a medical emergency to get it going to shrink it because it is not only causing extreme pain it was causing me problems breathing....let alone the fact that if it pressed any tighter around my pulmonary artery it could kill me quickly.
Now I have to take my third chemo treatment today but at a lower dose as the last dose was just too much as I explained. But here is some good news. I think it's working! I've stopped wheezing so badly and can breathe much better and while the pain is still there, it is not as intense. So this makes me think it is actually shrinking! MY god I hope so! I would hate to have to go through any of this for nothing!
Also due to the nature of this type of cancer (Small cell) and the stage I was in (Stage 4...meaning it has spread everywhere...my abdomen, several lymph nodes in my neck and chest area it was growing extremely fast as this type of cancer is known to be the most aggressive. I didn't have time to think about what to do, I had to act fast to gain some control before is spread to my brain, bones or liver which as of my diagnosis it has not gone there yet.
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Onevoice; that article is quite correct. Trauma and stress is a huge factor in most health problems and I am quite certain that applies to me. Last March a friend of mine who is a therapist and writes for a psychology magazine wrote an article on the effects of PTSD and grief. I read the article and got hold of her and told her she could have been writing that article about me...over the loss of my son who was a friend of hers as well. She said she had no doubt that I might be suffering PTSD over the loss of my son. Then later in that year someone actually told me I needed to clear the block in my heart as it was causing me distress and screwing with my overall energy. So it was no surprise when my heart attack I had December 6th was due to a blocked LAD artery...and I have two other blocks in two other arteries in my heart that are partially blocked and they are watching them as I might have to have another stint put in to clear them if they become a problem.
So thank you Onevoice for adding that article as that is so important to your health and I have no doubt it's is true and very correct. All of this is probably been brought on by the stress of losing my son in 2012....something I just can't seem to shake...but I'm working on it too.
I hear my grandson waking up so I'm going to go spend some time with him before I'm off for my next dose of chemo. ARGH!!!
Thanks for all the hugs and I return them 10 fold!