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    Default Forgive my love, it was genuine!

    ive read everything i can. there is no one! Im at my wits end, there is no help! time is everything and well, i lose! hopefully you do not, i am done, i am done! between the line of organized stalking,my being or place on earth, noone to talk to,too freaked out too, they, whomever they are, im done! before i go, i wanna thank every perp, for a life of illusion, and misguided hope. the rest, you will never miss me!
    eff it! good bye!

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    We seem to get a lot of young members of precarious mental state... Are these the indigo kids who are too sensitive for their own good?

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    Quote Posted by TomKat (here)
    We seem to get a lot of young members of precarious mental state... Are these the indigo kids who are too sensitive for their own good?
    New member #22 told us he was a Targeted Individual (a TI). He started this thread four days ago:
    We have sympathy for TIs, because the phenomenon can be real. There's a great deal about it here...
    and also in this fascinating thread:
    Researcher Dr John Hall has gathered together thousands of very real case studies, and Dr Robert Duncan has laid out how this technology can work.

    Why some individuals are targeted is a different question. Some may not be — there can sometimes be genuine mental wellness issues — but Dr John Hall concluded that many victims are picked randomly for experimental purposes and have done nothing at all to warrant their experiences. Of course, that makes it all the harder for many to take them seriously, because the 'why' question just can't be answered.

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    Default Re: Forgive my love, it was genuine!

    # 22

    my special number is 222 or 22 etc. see it all the time. id like to know why you use it?

    hey can i help you with anything? a sounding board? an open heart and ear. send me a PM lets hash it out
    Last edited by thepainterdoug; 18th September 2019 at 19:45.

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    Default Re: Forgive my love, it was genuine!

    Bless you Doug.

    #22, that is also my special number. Please don't go and take Doug up on his offer. He's very kind. I am trying to stay off the internet for a while, but please know that I, too, was targeted in 2013. Hard. I completely understand how it feels and there are many others here who do also.

    There is a GOOD life after targeting. I promise. Please talk to us.
    "The only true currency in this bankrupt world is what we share with someone when we are uncool." From the movie "Almost Famous""l "Let yourself stand cool and composed before a million universes." Walt Whitman

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    Quote Posted by TomKat (here)
    Are these the indigo kids who are too sensitive for their own good?
    I don't think so, because the "indigo kind" born relatively immune to mental distortions.
    it is very rare to find one "indigo kind", and rarer still to find out who is really one


    Quote Posted by Bill Ryan (here)
    the 'why' question just can't be answered.
    I think, from the point of view of "extra-physical harassment", the question can be answered:

    it starts with self harassment (from itself), and if not dealt with in time,
    the madness sets in, making ones hostage of half crazy animism,
    while the individual Energies are sucked (unaware of this)

    Then, has to struggle to wake up in order to get rid of it

    this can be seen as a gross form of abduction, indeed,
    ( but doesn't mean it's made by ETs )
    Last edited by rogparan; 18th September 2019 at 17:46.
    here I am, but I don't belong to this world
    So, nothing there are here belongs to me.

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    @ # 22 my number is not that, i prefer the 21 or anything that has to do with 3 and 7. Let's go, you're an Avalonian, according to AP's unwritten laws, which is still considered law. I see it as my duty to help if I can. As I read all that you shared with us ... then I see that you are under heavy pressure.

    I'm not so good with targets. I can only tell you, I was very, very long time for many years on the run, especially before the government. I have not experienced what you are currently undergoing, but I can understand it. I know what it means to be hounded as a target. Anyway, you're with Avalon now. I can not offer you much, but what I can offer you.

    A warm sleeping place, food, water, bathroom and shelter. You can stay with me until you are healed. As long as you are no longer a target. It's not a Ritz or Hilton, but you have a bed, a warm blanket and the apartment is warm. It is not big, but enough to sleep well and there is a lot of nature here. Internet is included, nobody will hurt you.

    Whether you want to accept my offer or not, that's up to you. However, I stand by my "word". Sorry but I can not offer you something better. But I see the need, you need help, that's what I can offer to help.

    Dont be afraid, doug will certainly be able to help you too, you just have to accept the hand, that will be handed to you.
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    Godspeed, my friend. May you find peace and well being.
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    #22 CAN YOU FEEL THE LOVE offered you here today? It is genuine and sincere just for you! This is a very special place you have come to at PA. Thank you for joining. Thank you for your openness. You have reached out and we deeply care for your well being.

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    #22,

    Please don't give up. There is, as Valerie mentioned, life & light on the other side of the situation. In my experience, what Rogparan wrote, "starts with self harassment," is true because taking care of your inner self like a child who needs protection, guarding your being vigilantly and mending your heart in whatever way you actively can is a key aspect of not devolving into chaos under the pressure of all you are facing.

    Everyone here is really nice and it's a good sounding board to articulate what you are feeling and going through. I think that is a very important resource to have when you can't be open with people who are physically around you, because it prevents whoever or whatever is behind the targeting from ostracizing you completely. So please stay. Keep posting, keep venting... talk about what is happening so that you do not have to bear it alone.

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    @ arborealis and @ raregem

    A big thank you to you both. I have to say, very warm words from both of you. My respect, simple sentences but content exactly to the point. Now it is up to # 22 whether he accepts the offered help or not. I hope so, I do not really know anyone here. Still, it would hurt to lose someone, no matter how long you know the person. Anyone trying to help # 22 would hit it if we lost him. I hope that Bill and painterdoug contacted # 22 to stop him from leaving.
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    Hi #22,

    There's a saying that goes like "The truth shall set you free, but first it will tick you off" (I toned down the language a bit but you get the idea!)

    I took Sabattical from PA for a while and ended up regretting it, but everyone's situation is different. Maybe you do need a break, but that's for you to decide.

    Some of the best advice I ever got was "Be firm in your decision making". The idea is, when you are FIRM, negative forces have less ability to manipulate you. They mess with your mind, and can make you forget a 'key point' in your decision making, which will essentially set you up for disaster down the road. I've learned to anticipate this.

    For example a few days ago I invited a friend to live with me. I was not thinking clearly when I said that, I made a huge decision quickly without much thought. Thankfully for me I caught myself and explained to him that on second thought, it would be much more logical for him to live somewhere else.

    Quote Posted by thepainterdoug (here)

    my special number is 222 or 22 etc. see it all the time. id like to know why you use it?
    Hi Doug, #22 answered this question already in the nick names thread (link)

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    @ petra, you wrote.

    For example a few days ago I invited a friend to live with me. I was not thinking clearly when I said that, I made a huge decision quickly without much thought. Thankfully for me I caught myself and explained to him that on second thought, it would be much more logical for him to live somewhere else.

    Petra, what was the reason you made this decision? Were it his words that might have manipulated you at this moment? You are not a woman who acts recklessly, yet you will have had a reason. So something must have happened that you have made such a decision. Nevertheless, you have reversed your decision. What was the trigger, the reason to reverse the decision? You do not have to answer, that's your privacy. Nevertheless, it would be very instructive to learn why you first made a decision and then reversed it.

    I am more interested in the reason why you have reversed the decision.
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    It's the 22nd -22.
    Where are you? It's day 5 now since we read your first post on this thread.
    Please, respond here soon. Caring for you much!

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    Quote Posted by Iyakum (here)
    @ petra, you wrote.

    For example a few days ago I invited a friend to live with me. I was not thinking clearly when I said that, I made a huge decision quickly without much thought. Thankfully for me I caught myself and explained to him that on second thought, it would be much more logical for him to live somewhere else.

    Petra, what was the reason you made this decision? Were it his words that might have manipulated you at this moment? You are not a woman who acts recklessly, yet you will have had a reason. So something must have happened that you have made such a decision. Nevertheless, you have reversed your decision. What was the trigger, the reason to reverse the decision? You do not have to answer, that's your privacy. Nevertheless, it would be very instructive to learn why you first made a decision and then reversed it.

    I am more interested in the reason why you have reversed the decision.
    I panicked! All the reasons WHY NOT came back to me in a barrage. I was like "What the heck did I just say?! Panic panic panic...."

    I had my mind made up already (I do NOT want to live with anybody else, I NEED time alone) and just blurted out an invitation without even thinking (so clearly my decision making was not as firm as I thought). I joke sometimes that I have 'chronic foot-in-mouth disorder', and this is a really great example of me putting my foot into my mouth. I still have a guest, but the main thing is, only temporarily

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    Dear person.
    You can live it out. They target you because you are loving and possible angel. I am made to look crazy they do it to you and seed it so you think it is you. They use your own fears against you because they are scared of you.
    You are not a number but a human with loving energy. You are not a thing you can be used. You are real.
    They like to play games but it's getting you risen in love through forgiveness and belief.
    Yes they use frequency and you cannot hear it unless you are risen. They pound my head with sonic bo ms etc. They tell me I'm a evolved person on the run. You are not alone. You watch the words you speak. But they can force you. It is important for you to connect with others. If you are suicide it is important to tell someone you are. Don't be in isolation. Paranoia is a dangerous thing. They use your own paranoia against you. Love you so much that they can't with stand love. Your mind is yours.
    Angel

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    This may help:

    There is this older side of harassment as described by Emanuel Swedenborg (1688-1772) in the 1700s with exact match from modern times:

    How to Deal With Evil Spirits - Swedenborg and Life
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    Are there negative spiritual influences at work in our lives? How do they operate, and what can we do about them? Join us as we discuss Swedenborg's accounts of his spiritual experiences and what he learned through them.

    Listen to an audio-only podcast version of this episode - https://www.youtube.com/redirect?q=h...&v=RmWrAoML2hE

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    Never give up on your silly, silly dreams.

    You mustn't be afraid to dream a little BIGGER, darling.

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