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    Hi im getting worried for my mental wellbeing. You can read abput my saga in my profile.
    I feel depersonalisation and im snaoping.
    Iim becoming shouting at the voices daily and being upset.
    They say that this will break her. They still goibg at me.
    Not sure they did 2 years of you are fear non stip after they shattered my brain. Now im thinking how to articulate my ecpetiences.
    Im in soul shock. They making me swear altho i prayed n repented. They possible be demons involved. I keep hearing you are fear so my question is is this mind cobtrol and
    Why why would they say blasthemy and my fears in my head leaving me petrified. Im raging some days im hurt emotionally because i can see them manipulate and i ask god love help.
    One voice says you are in hell. Your guy is in hell. Your a muscle.

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    Prayers going up for you! I am praying to Source to bring you comfort, healing, fortitude, strength, clarity, and balance. You are in my thoughts and my heart.

    Much, Much, Much LOVE to you!
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    Dearest Angel, please do not believe those voices. They are liars.

    Much love, as dear Julia said above, and prayer and clarity being sent to you.

    I prayed the Our Father when they tried to make me doubt, as they are doing to you. Just pray it over and over and DO NOT listen to them.

    Our Father, who art in heaven. Hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us. Lead us not in to temptation and deliver us from evil.

    Or say your own prayer, whatever it is, over and over. Drown them out. Just drown them out. Say it over and over until you can't hear them any more.

    Much love and peace also. MUCH. LOVE AND PEACE.
    "The only true currency in this bankrupt world is what we share with someone when we are uncool." From the movie "Almost Famous""l "Let yourself stand cool and composed before a million universes." Walt Whitman

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    I'm sending everything I have including a healing blanket
    I pray this helps.
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    Default Re: I'm closed down but snapping

    Maybe find something creative to do?
    Anything you like to do just to change the vibe.
    Painting, drawing, singing!, gardening, taking care of any animal, putting up a bird feeder and watch them...
    I send much love to you, a beautiful spirit in a skin suit.

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    A post is a shadow of a real hug and reassurance, though, may you sense it in you heart.



    I would also implore you to heed Valarie's words:

    Quote Posted by Valerie Villars (here)
    Dearest Angel, please do not believe those voices. They are liars.

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    Of course their “voices” are deceptive but they are also thoughts and confusions originating with real people.
    No matter who they are, knowns and unknowns, once you can firmly recognise the pattern it’s important for you to avoid them.

    You have the power to respond in your mind and tell them “what you really think about it” without physical or verbal confrontation and stop them trying to engage you.

    If they’re mean, be meaner. Tell them their time is gone and no person protecting their rights and sanity would ever come anywhere near to where they are.

    “They” may be rich or powerful but foremost, totally superconvinced about their own importance and intelligence or wisdom offering others
    “to help solve their problems” in some manner.
    Of course they prey on vulnerable, younger people, females the most but anyone of any age is good enough to be their “student” and victim,
    as it enhances their own feeling of superiority.

    Once they “fail” in communication with the chosen victim who refuses to be “subdued” they sometimes retreat to “magic thinking”.

    They realise- perhaps painfully- that they’re unwelcome intruder in other people’s minds, not a guest or Big Brother they aimed to be , that’s when they start cursing and swearing and speaking dirty.

    If any of “them” ever opened in front of you in real time you could understand how much of the “bad energy” they’re trying to hold within.
    Themselves are sufferers, demons as you say, holding a pride about being the best in some manner and -too costly to talk to-
    but their inner life is simple in fact, and they are lonely.

    They are predators who feed on the lowest energy spectra, including ( but not limited to) catastrophic world scenarios, violent action movies, addictions, sex and money. No matter who they are on outside they are dangerous on the inside ,
    dangerous in the arrogance of being simple and rude if they “unleash”.


    They won’t be long in my opinion ..ten or twenty years and the influence of their generation will be gone - in some manner,
    and it’s easier to ignore them than to die for how low and bad they can be.

    Of course they pry on self-pity and feelings of sameness and their self image is often distorted while looking to the mirror, not kidding ,
    these people do hallucinate themselves - aa heros or smart toddlers ( in 60 or 70 years of age most people don’t see “smart toddler” in you is reality)

    Sometimes in life it comes handy to disconnect physically and mentally from all those people otherwise life would never go ahead.

    Their parenting, patronizing voices and cliches would stay as long as we can tolerate and when told off they still beg for pity ?

    To keep these “old toddlers” alive so they can tutor us about relationships and invade our personality profiles and teach their children and followers the same,
    about being self-important and meanly patronizing
    so that the world slows down to where they can catch up

    because being too fast is useless and being different is “scientifically unproven”?


    Let them live and pass in peace together with paradigms they were holding to,

    most of “them” can’t learn much new from 3 younger generations filling the world now. That’s a lot of young minds who will naturally surpass all they “can’t sort out” or do without.

    These people are real, they seek to damage and control world stability they know so little about.

    In worse case scenarios ( and I’ve recognised the danger too late - on my timeline) they have to be named and reported , for whatever sake only to let them know
    they are crossing your privacy and their “magic” is form of evil deed.

    Any of the individual predators involved would have to come to terms with themselves the first and follow the “course of treatment” or curse they implement
    on others, they would have to come to terms with their senses
    in order to recover.

    Of course they do deserve help “like everyone else” and would receive it the first if they ever asked for it.
    This world crouches in pain to help those people out.

    Instead, many of them live in dream about “being a peak of evolution”
    and all their dignity gets lost in fake pity of others
    who they mentally lowered to their shoes
    so themselves could feel still strong.

    How pitiable they are in their ignorance and pretences,
    how disgraceful they are thinking
    that their “old dirty world” will last,

    make your own Mind

    and they will be gone ..


    with their myths about us.


    🙏🥳🙏
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    I am more positive but i have spirit attachments and ive got my own fears. I sincerely apologise my typos are not there when typing. But they appear when i return after the post.
    Ive had blastphemy n making it out as though ive sworecat an archangel. Im devastated. Im trying to focus on creating websires online. Im very isolated abd exhausted.
    I just won my photo in willow woods charity calender for next year. But its something in the right side of my ego being nasty. So im also being told im dying without a guy ive loced for 10 years. The angels want to believe but nothing seems to ever surfice and there seems to always be an upsydaisy to having him or a catch 22.
    I love you all. Im fighting depression but i do have a laugh.
    Im getting overwhemed like unsure if im still being a target or if im failing because its too much. Prolonged.
    Ithey say we surpress you we assault you and yet even a cathedral is ignoring me. Im so intelligent.
    Like i prayed in latin for no evil forces to be allowed into my home. A vouce then said very clever of you.
    I seem to

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    My favorite and most effective prayer Angel, is

    "May the white light of the Holy Spirit surround and protect me, live inside of me and touch everyone and everything I come in contact with."

    In times past, when fear was very real, I would say it over and over and over. Somehow, I don't think they can overwhelm you, when you are in nature.

    Have you a pet? A dog or a cat? Animals are very grounding and my dog was an angel who protected me during dark times. She took many bullets for me, so to speak.

    What Agape says is very true. They are temporary, fleeting and will be gone. You, however, are a child of the Holy Spirit and are loved and protected. Your spirit will live on forever. May peace surround and protect you. Do be meaner to them. Bullies are cowards. You are not.
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    Dearest Angels1981,

    You posted this today on another thread,and it holds your trust and truth.

    “I trust mother nature she protects me in storms and has protexts me with stunning tranquil waters. I love her sooooooo much.”

    🙏🏻💫Golden starlight blessings and protection, dearest angel.💫🙏🏻

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    Its fears generating to obsessed thoyghts on fear of the holy spirit. Its l7ke they plant it there. Like i just woke up to my rodary cross upside down on me at 3am. 3 am i woke up. I dont like it. L ok
    Yes. I got a cathedral deliverance team meeting poss too late. Its the language they repeat. Voices too distant. Yes love mother nature

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    Angels/ i dont know what to say but that i do care, because you are me. And I want to offer the suggestion that you to read theses NDE stories from this site. They will help I believe. you need to see this is a small picture, a rehearsal. There is a grand , larger picture https://www.nderf.org/Archives/exceptional.html

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    Quote Posted by thepainterdoug (here)
    Angels/ i dont know what to say but that i do care, because you are me. And I want to offer the suggestion that you to read theses NDE stories from this site. They will help I believe. you need to see this is a small picture, a rehearsal. There is a grand , larger picture https://www.nderf.org/Archives/exceptional.html
    A few years back I viewed darn near every inch of that nde site. It helped me realize - or confirm- that a religious background is not a prerequisite for the unconditional love of the afterlife. Something I sensed but needed further validation of. And now also realizing we can access this love and assistance if we genuinely ask. It can take time though as it has to sometimes work through the barrier of karma.
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    Angels, you have much love and strength backing you here. Stand in that when needed you are not alone.

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    All i hear is blastphemy n it sets me off. They are ultra or demons. They openly admit to who they are.
    They keep saying i forfeit my soul. They unnerve her. Thriugh your fear almost brainwashing. You have no idea. I got rid of a dvil or small black thing vame from me last night. They day its got her mouth. They almost breathe throug me. They say i hace a guy i need to love write gv. They keep changing the actor look a likes.
    I exhausted. Im told non stop i put this guy in hell. Im not loving him. Always an excuse.
    They said they making i hear i hate jc i hate holt spirit the very opposite of how i feel.
    They its like slowly they trying possession or killing me.
    They i never have a nornal life. Im started to resent n bitter at heaven unless thats not me. Im so sad n in emotional pain.
    I did rosary but it must be ultra or a mix because they love doing voices n i wish jesus christ be here. They non stop call me nob or dick. N thid is everyday. Like why wont i shut down. Just like fear
    Im so exhausted. I z in latin that no demons allowed to cross here n a voice said very clever.
    They saying i have to go on run from ultra or fight demons to get a boyfriend. If i ignore them they go louder. They openly admit they asault me. My ego like im done.
    I just wamt to love me. Your so kind. Cabt understand why im like this. Its 15 years im getting tired of fighting

    Love you. Nde very interested because i wondrr if i had one since the attack

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    They done something to me like identity fraud im petrified. In my head they go she a thing in. The past.
    Then they go you are not here. You are in drag you are in your head. You used to love me. Yet if i go in my head to think they go you are in your head. You are not loving non stop.

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    Angels know that we all love you and our love is stronger than the deceptive voices. You are strong because we are all with you. You are not alone.
    If you deeply observe, everything is your teacher.

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    They are demons mixed with tavistock type people. They have openly admited it.
    I feel like im dying inside they saying they are fighting over my soul abd that im their worst nightmare.
    One devil called terror left yesterday. But ive hesrd blasthemy of the hs this leaves me in fear. They just said they defile me on ourpose and im their worst nightmare.
    I need lots of love because im failing in human errir. They call me a chicken but im struggling because they got my soul to ignore my head when making decisions. I feel extreme weak. Im not crazy. Im just need safe zone. They call me it. They think im all fear non stop they brainwashing two years. I hear a voice saying give her a break. They trying to get me isolated. Been to delivery team. If i go to say i love the holy spirit. Something breathing through me saying the opposite.
    The government is creating hell on earth. Thsts the plan. Tvey will make it so you think god the love has condemed us all. I kniw the plan and they dont like it.
    My problem is my identity. They did me.
    Ive not had a social life olay time to laugh. Because these idjits think. Im scsred that im not recognise love voice.
    Im not crazy im too intelligent n they openly stated they want me dead.
    I just want love until fear goes.
    Thank you.
    Dont ask me why this happening to me. Angel

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    I wonder how many people are experiencing something similar these days (but don’t or feel they can’t talk about it except for best friends), in various formats of course,
    some are thinkers with character facing the corruption of every level,
    some are feelers, artists, doctors confronted
    with moral paradigm everyday in their work and decisions,
    people stranded in between the borders “belonging to no one”,
    feeling unwanted,
    even people working in government offices collapsing physically and mentally after years of tolerated abuse and intrigues, decently looking people going after each other’s necks.

    I do know how it feels being confronted by straight lies, some form of dirty lie in your face, being forced image that’s never occurred in your mind ever,
    someone else’s distorted version of reality.
    It’s probably common part of so-called “psychological abuse” and if repeated long enough it’s meant to result in personality dissociation syndrome and psychosis.

    It’s a method used by nasty parents, nasty psychologists, nasty cult leaders and investigation agencies all over the world.


    The sanity - good health of your mind matters for the whole Big Picture of things and in long run, therefor protecting your own sanity is the only defence and the sharpest weapon in your disposal.
    Do not let this to go too far from you 🙏

    Take a break, leave for walks, see good friend, find any comfort zone where you feel better. Start working things out smartly from a comfort zone not from where you feel under attack.

    Unless you want someone else to help you sort it out such as doctors, you have to find your comfort zone and key to yourself and the situation.


    If you can’t, there has to be a healer you can talk to openly.


    Don’t just let it be



    Much love and prayers for you 🙏❤️🌈

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