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    Mike has been our next door neighbor, and "friend", for 14 years, along with his wife and two kids, who are now 18 and 20 years old. We moved into the neighborhood on the same day back in '97. They were special guests at me and Heidi's wedding a year later, and over the years Mike and I have gone back and forth between being blood brothers, and bitter enemies.

    Part of my awakening process in late '09 was a brief, but very intense dark night of the soul period. During the time I was kicked out of the house, I decided it was time to quit cold turkey my years long heavy pain pill habit. I sat alone for a week and a half, no sleep, in the dark, feeling buried alive by the world, and rode it out. I wouldn't wish that experience on the worst person in the world.

    Anyway, things worked out, I went home, and then came December of 2010, right about the time I signed up here. Mike's life was spiraling into oblivion, along with his family's, because of his terrible pain pill habit. Through many tears with him one day at his breaking point, we offered him the use off our weekend trailer where I had done the detox gig 2 years earlier, and he accepted. I drove an hour each way for a week to see him through it, and then he came home ready to start anew.

    Since last January we have held that family's head above water, paying for food, gas, electric, water, tool rentals for his work, bailed him out of jail for past sins, gone to court dates with him, not to mention playing amateur marriage counsellor.

    Then a couple weeks ago, we noticed the money missing...And not for the first time...

    We have been pulling a bit out of the bank here and there for emergencies, and also because of the world economic outlook. First there was the $ 1,000 missing that we thought we must have somehow misplaced, then 2 weeks ago, the $ 1,500 we KNOW we didn't misplace.

    We highly suspected for a week or so, then Mike came over this afternoon to admit it. Turns out cocaine was now the answer to his problems, and he's had no qualms sneaking in the pet door, or however else, to steal from us. Talk about a kick in the stomach...Once the truth was out, there was not much more for us to say but look at him, and say " In think you should go now ".

    Our time with this family is now over, but I would really appreciate it if you all would remember him in your prayers, or whatever it is that you do. It's very likely he's going to soon wind up either in prison or dead, but there's nothing more we can do...

    Thanks for listening...

    Cheers,
    Fred

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    Wow Fred, I know what a kind soul you are and how hard this is for you to do. I'll lift you all up and pray for healing for you and everyone involved.

    Hugs,

    Serenity

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    Fred,

    I know you know this. But you are not powerless.
    Don't believe that lie
    You are the immensely powerful angelic interplanetary being that was just out front power-washing your driveway last week
    Remember?
    There is so much more to do, and you are finally, finally, in a perfect position to do something about it !
    It's not doing in the physical sense. But you know that too, I can see that from some of your posts.
    Your mission.
    Lay pipe for another path-
    Imagine your friend's journey as something surprisingly positive. Imagine you are even surprised. Imagine the powerful effect witnessing this surprisingly positive outcome would have one you. Imagine what deeply held false beliefs would be unearthed in you if this happened. Imagine the prison drama, and the inevitable rocket to the bottom of the barrel,death and pain and all of that, put it in a bubble. Make sure the bubble is secure, tape it shut, seal all the seams with duck tape and staples, glue, whatever you need in your particular and specific imagination, but make sure it is COMPLETELY sealed. Now breathe in, and invite the energy of love to fill the inside of the bubble. Imagine a brilliant flash of white light. Everything inside the bubble is gone.
    Totally gone.

    Imagine an outcome that is not prison or death, but redemption, transformation.
    Offer the energy of your feelings of betrayal to fuel the alchemy of -

    transmutation

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    Dear Fred-

    Mike could not have asked for a better friend than you. He has a serious sickness that he cannot control at this point in his life and you are not responsible for watching over him 24/7 to make sure he stays on course. All you can do is wish him the very best and send him prayers or positive thoughts.

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    Default Re:Let Me Tell You The Story Of A Lost Soul, And Betrayal...

    Fred, you are a kind and courageous man. And a staunch friend. Bless your heart for all you did for your friend and his family. Sometimes it's just time to close the door.
    I will hold everyone in a healing space ... there are many involved here, and I always think of the children. Even grown children, and perhaps especially grown children in this case, are severly impacted by the behavior of their parents and chief role models.

    I envision all involved as whole and healed.

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    Default Re:Let Me Tell You The Story Of A Lost Soul, And Betrayal...

    Allo Fred,

    Was in the chatroom when you first discoverd this. Sorry things turned out the way they did

    Some times people dont want to be helped - and even tho they are helped they will find other ways to get into the hole they are so mind-set on digging.

    Best wishes he's able to make it thru these troubled times and get back on the right track.

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    Default Re:Let Me Tell You The Story Of A Lost Soul, And Betrayal...

    It's tough, sometimes, drawing that line in the sand. Been there myself, once or twice, and it stinks to have to cut people off. Seems to me to be part of the growing pains of being on a spiritual path when the transformation to a higher state brings in changes and sometimes separation from that which stands to keep you down. It's a hard lesson with forgiveness on one side and strength on the other, and I know you've got both in spades.
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    HEY MIKE,
    I appreciate your honesty in your story. It is rare that people are willing to
    relay truths about there lives, especially when it concerns addictions etc..
    We learn alot from hearing other peoples journeys.... All the best my friend.

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    G'day Fred,

    This was obviously an utterly devastating realization for you and your family, especially given the overwhelming level of support that you had given. It is an unfortunate reality that sometimes we must withdraw and let others dig their hole and sit in it, knowing that sometimes they will never climb back out. My immediate hope for you is that you do not end up embroiled in Mike's self destructive behaviour. He may well hit out at you, as he will be painfully aware of his failure, and right now you represent all that he has let slip.

    I recently had to withdraw support for a fellow that I work with. Kevin possessed a truck load of spiritually based knowledge, including seven years of Monroe Institute Hemi-Sync meditation, but he did not possess the ability or perhaps just the will to apply any of it in his life; to live by it. He has been spinning out of control on alcohol and sex for a while now, and after many lengthy talks about the consequences of his behaviour, nothing has changed. He admits to it all, and knows that he may be dead soon, but I am powerless to help, save a prayer of course.

    I would not for a minute pretend to be able to give you advice, and I am sure that you do not ask for, or need it. My main wish for you is inner peace, in the knowing that you have done all and more that anyone could have possibly done.

    Best Wishes and a prayer for both you and Mike,

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    Fred, I salute you.
    I echo what Heyoka_11 says ..
    I admire your courage in telling us this, I can imagine how you and your wife feel.
    From your post I know that you know you have to step aside and yet somehow hold him in love and pray (or whatever) that he can sort himself out.
    Power to you brother.

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    Fred, your post is saturated with the Fragrance of the heart.
    May it always envelop you - and Mike [and - everyone else].

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    Totally admirable actions on your part Fred. 'Tis a pity he couldn't run with the kindness you offered.
    I do know you have a warrior's heart and that you know this is just 'slings and arrows'.
    I hope (and pray) that Mike can turn it around and very well may because of his association with you over the years and nourishment that represents.
    Good for you braveheart!

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    Default Re:Let Me Tell You The Story Of A Lost Soul, And Betrayal...

    What a timeless story. You just cannot help people, who are not willing to help themselves. If you proceed anyways, they will take advantage of everyone, who is naive enough, not to see that. I want to help everybody, but in some cases this means allowing someone to grow or fail on his or her own.

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    Wow Fred S.

    This reminds me of my friend Andrew. We grew up together and he was one of the most pleasant and shyest persons you could meet.

    Andrew lived with his mum and step dad. Then one day they got a call and Andrew had to go and identify his dad. His dad was an alcoholic and had died from alcohol poisoning and was found in his own mess (How sad) which couldnt of been nice for Andrew to see

    At first Andrew didn’t seem to have a problem with drinking me and his friend’s just thought because he was so shy this was his way of being more confident. He had everything going for him.

    Andrew was a manager of a carpet shop and at the weekends he opened up but was soon drinking on the job he got caught and was sacked. Andrew soon spiralled out of control and ended up in prison, starting trouble all the time and now lives in a bedsit all by himself.

    Me and my friends tried numerous times to help him, we even arranged for him to go to rehab which he agreed to but then didn’t turn up. Who would have thought this pleasant shy boy would turn out like this. I lost count how many times his mum asked me to help especially when he was being awful and aggressive. The drink also seemed to make Andrew hallucinate as well.

    At first i tried to understand maybe it was seeing his dad that made him go down this path, but then I thought surely he would want better for himself.

    I tried to help him so so much and lost count how many times i got him out of trouble. Andrew also stole from me. I soon came to realise that the only person who can help Andrew was himself. Until he decides he wants help there was nothing more I could do and shortly after that we lost contact.

    It’s now been over 10 years since I last saw Andrew and i do sometime wonder what he’s doing. So thank you Fred for your story. Certainly bought back a lot of memories for me. I am definitely going to be preying for Mike and Andrew today

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    Default Re:Let Me Tell You The Story Of A Lost Soul, And Betrayal...

    Fred
    You must feel very betrayed and hurt. Some people need to go on thier own journeys and sometimes by intervening (although of course your intentions were and continue to be only good) people don't get to really experience their soul journey fully and therefore by sometimes helping people ............ youre not.
    I have learned that sometimes, although it really hurts, the best thing to do with some people is to let them get on with life and have them find out life's lessons for themselves. A difficult thing to do for sure.
    Bless you for being such a good friend to Mike - now you need to let him 'go'.
    LOVE & peace to you.
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    Sometimes we help people and they turn around and do something we don't like.
    This then hurts our feelings.
    But it isn't about us, it is about them.
    Their whole intention is them, not us and our feelings are not part of the equation/s.
    They may come back later and try to make it right, or they may not, but this isn't about you Fred, this is about Mike.
    So, although you feel betrayed, let down and disappointed, try and let that go.
    Remember the judgement thing I have to let go of?
    We all do.

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    Fred,
    thank you for sharing this with the community here.
    You have my deepest respect and I am humbled by your decision.
    It takes a very wise soul to recognise when it is time to let go.

    You have been through a similar situation, as you said here :-
    Quote Posted by Fred S. (here)
    Part of my awakening process in late '09 was a brief, but very intense dark night of the soul period. During the time I was kicked out of the house, I decided it was time to quit cold turkey my years long heavy pain pill habit. I sat alone for a week and a half, no sleep, in the dark, feeling buried alive by the world, and rode it out. I wouldn't wish that experience on the worst person in the world.
    and even though you say you wouldn´t wish it upon the worst person in the world, you obviously learnt from that experience and came out of it a whole lot wiser.
    It seems that Mike was "sent" as a reflection and you had a choice to either nurture the situation or "starve" it (for want of a better word).
    I think a true friend will call out that which needs to be addressed, without a personal agenda or attachment to outcome and either the other gets it or he doesn´t.
    Mike was very lucky to have you around and you were lucky to have Mike because you have learnt to say..."enough!" .


    I echo Heyoka´s sentiments

    Quote Posted by Heyoka_11 (here)
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    The heart knows a hundred thousand ways to speak.
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    Fred, I absolutely can relate to what you've been through as I, too, have had a very similar experience. I, too, was compelled to draw the line and burn bridges with my "friend". After a few years, we ran into each other in a grocery store and she was all lovey-dovie, just really friendly. She told me how she had gotten herself back together and we made an appointment to meet up for a coffee... I listened to her for over 3 hours very politely. We eventually gave our closing salutations and were off each on her own way.

    Ever-so-often, she will drop by or call.... and it's always the same old same.... I never call her, I never go to visit her, I never accept her invitaitons... she just doesn't realize how I feel about the matter. She still doesn't acknowledge what I did for her, which is fine for me, but it saddens me that she still has not "grown" from the experience and continues to expect others to fix her problems. SIGH!

    The fact is is that I no longer feel responsabile for her. I still care about her, but I wil not let myself become emotionally involved with her like I had before, feeling like it was my "mission" to bring her to the light. This realization put it all in a very different, and better IMO, perspective.

    Be at peace.
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    Action without vision just passes the time.
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    Hi Fred..

    I see you are still on the right side of the fens when you have it in your heart to forgive him. I like to hope that is a strength most of us here got here, to be able to see the bigger picture of life, even when we are in the storm.

    I have a story in my heart to, as most of us. Thanks for showing the way for us to open our hearts to..

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    Wow Fred, thank you for sharing. I learned the same lesson when I became an 'angel' for a group of recovering drug addicts. I hired them to do some construction work without realizing they were in a recovery program. Soon my husband and I were shuttling them to AA meetings (they couldn't drive because they had lost their licenses), taking them camping in the woods and fishing in the sea, and accompanying them to their court hearings to vouch for them and their recovered lives. We also visited them in jail during re-lapses, and even picked them up when released supplying them with blankets and clothes to re-start life again. Eventually we were 'taken' in some way by all of them except for one. And that one person learned to stand on his own.

    I have been a 'healer' and 'seer' for a number of year. And, I wish to tell you that I had psychic attacks for years after this time. I actually was approached by beings that looked just like the demons in movies, complete with pig bristles all over, and a horrible smell. I believe that those who become involved with drugs are literally wrestling with demons. I had to realize that none of these people were broken, and none of then needed my help. I had to learn to see them as powerful beings, just as I am, who had (on a very deep unconscious) level chosen this experience. And... I had to move on to focusing on my own life.

    I believe that exposure to these people changed my life. And that is not a bad thing, although it looks bad to many people. The psychic attacks continued, it appeared the dark entities continued to bother my life and that of my husband. And... over the 5 year period after this time the entire pattern of my life disintegrated. I could blame all this on the dark energetic forces we came into contact with, however I prefer to think that I had the privilege of becoming solidly aware of something most people refuse to see..... that darkness truly exists in realms that influence us all.

    So, have you done some work to be sure you are clear of these types of energies????? I suggest you do so.

    In the end, in order to free myself, I had to learn to truly and deeply love all of those energies. That is what finally set me, and them, free.

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