Here and Now...What's Happening?

[ViralSpiral]

Lisa, Nora - so good to see you around!

I have had a head-ache of gargantuan proportion. Started mildly (no medication required) Sunday. Last night whilst getting ready to go out to dinner, the bathroom mirror started warping.....
"C'est la vie', say the old folks, 'it goes to show you never can tell'"

Did get my dose of Chinaski chuckle with coffee this morning. He be the real deal!





The Hawaiian Happy-Face Spider (Theridion grallator) is a highly polymorphic species, producing a multitude of patterns on its abdomen, many which uncannily resemble the "yellow smiley-face" we all know from our youth. What's this all about? Scientists are hard-pressed to find an adaptive reason for the smiley-faces and are mostly left with the impression that nature just told a really good joke.

[Eram]

Posted by Swan (here)
There is a tree I can see from my window, through a gap between houses.

This tree is one of the trees I "heard" about six years ago when awakening began. Anyway,
these last months I began to realize that something was not right with the tree. In truth, it felt to me as though it was traumatized. I couldn´t figure it out. The thought rested at the back of my mind, and then one day this summer when I passed the tree I understood. The other trees nearby had been cut down in the last couple of years, due to disease. Of course, this tree was missing her friends. And what was worse, the cut down tree next to her had been left lying on the ground for the children to play on. So, maybe this was the explanation, but I still didn´t know what to do about it, except rest my hand on her when passing.

Then, a couple of weeks ago when I was sitting by the sea just being, I suddenly felt a very strong connection to the tree in my heart, and some sort of healing took place. I also had the idea to place orgonite at her trunk.

But the days past and I sort of forgot, and the tree still seemed sad. Then, the other evening just as I had put the kids to bed, I noticed we were out of catfood. The last thing I felt like doing was going out to the shop, but the cat needed feeding. So, out I went. On the walk back from the shop, I saw the moon, and I remembered about the orgonite. So, I returned home, got my orgonite and a small spade and burried it beside the tree ( hoping noone would see ).

And today, when I passed the tree, she felt happy

That is such a nice story Swan.

It is amazing when you think about trees having emotions and feelings too isn't it?

We have a huge linden tree in our garden.
When we just came to live here in Belgium, Marieke heard her communicate to her that she wishes to have the ground beneath her cleared of the compost belt that was there.
We promised her to make work of that, but we forgot about it, because it wasn't high on the 'to do' list.
1,5 years later, our son was crying in his bed, late in the evening, so I went up there for comforting him and talk about what was going on.
He told me that the big tree in the garden was so sad because we haven't cleaned the ground there. (Mind you, he didn't know anything about what was communicated between Marieke and the tree).

Later, when we read something about trees and their characters, we learned that a linden tree is quite a madame. She likes it clean and has a lot to complain about when she gets to it. But she is very gentle and loving and that is exactly what we feel when we're around her.

[lookbeyond]

Wow, thankyou both Swan and Wakytweaky youve given me something new and beautiful to think about,

love lookbeyond

[1inMany]

Good Morning All,

This morning I awaken pondering the role of genetics in depression and anxiety, and if that influence can be overcome. I'm not sure it can. After my third or fourth episode of weeping yesterday, the circumstances that led me to Effexor in the first place came rushing back. It was right after my Mother passed on. I had never taken anything for depression before that, and I don't remember needing any chemical help until that point. Her passing was sudden. We took her to the hospital one night, and three days later she was gone. That shook my world at the time, but that is not an unusual reaction to the passing of a parent. What was unusual, though, is that I cried for days. One day after another, and I could not stop. A few weeks later, I was still sobbing uncontrollably most hours of every day. Several months passed like this. I began to worry I would never stop.

I went to the doctor, a general practitioner who I adored at the time, and I remember not even caring that I was weeping in the waiting room. I managed to get a few sentences out with the doctor, and that was about it. He explained that we all have "reserves" from which we pull in times of crisis, and dealing with M's bipolar had exhausted mine so that I simply had no reserves any more. It's been 8 or 9 years now, and over that time I have tried a few different anti-depressants but Effexor was the only one that seemed to be right for my body.

This is the first time I've simply wanted to allow myself to find a natural balance. This morning, though I am deeply concerned that my body doesn't really have a balance. What if I, by some miracle, live through the process of getting all of this chemical out of my body only to find that I am naturally a sad and depressed, weepy person unable to function?

It doesn't help my concern that I finished Book V of LoO a couple of nights ago, either. Now I am wondering...when my inner light shines brighter, and the loyal opposition is attracted to that light, will I know what's what? I doubt it.

So, all these things are swirling, and I am already missing the part of me that is bubbly and perky and hums to myself all day.

I'm trying, as now it takes real effort, to be grateful and strong and focus on what I know, clinging to my anchor as I see myself dip into seas of emotion that feel unnatural.

Love,

[Swan]

Posted by WhiteCrowBlackDeer (here)
Swan, I so loved your post. I have a passion for trees. We talk. We exchange energy. They ground me. These are some pictures where I live. The biggest one Brook, I call him, lost his life to a highway that only added some space to the road. The picture doesn't do it justice. He was huge and as you can see, he deserved better.

The stonewall pictures show character trees and the bottom one, I couldn't pick one over the others so I made one picture.

Peace,
WhiteCrowBlackDeer

Oh my goodness, Brook is beautiful. ( and the others too, the last one could be Narnia )

I read somewhere that when trees are cut down, their devas remain, sort of caught, in the place the tree used to stand. I sometimes think of that when I pass places where majestic trees used to stand, and say hallo to any deva that might be there.

Honestly, trees helped me through my pregnancy, and the birth of my daughter. There was a tree ( cut down now ) that I could see from my living room. And looking at it filled me with peace. Actually the trees started communicating with me just as my pregnancy began

[Swan]

Posted by Wakytweaky (here)

We have a huge linden tree in our garden.
When we just came to live here in Belgium, Marieke heard her communicate to her that she wishes to have the ground beneath her cleared of the compost belt that was there.
We promised her to make work of that, but we forgot about it, because it wasn't high on the 'to do' list.
1,5 years later, our son was crying in his bed, late in the evening, so I went up there for comforting him and talk about what was going on.
He told me that the big tree in the garden was so sad because we haven't cleaned the ground there. (Mind you, he didn't know anything about what was communicated between Marieke and the tree).

Later, when we read something about trees and their characters, we learned that a linden tree is quite a madame. She likes it clean and has a lot to complain about when she gets to it. But she is very gentle and loving and that is exactly what we feel when we're around her.

Thank you for that beautiful story. Sometimes I doubt what I am feeling, and doing. I wonder if I might be going slightly crazy. So your story felt very reassuring to me.

[1inMany]

Hmmm... then something happened last night. Em lost control in a way I had hoped she never would, thought she never would. I couldn't even react it was such a surprise. At the time, all I could think was that my light, and the channel that has been opened for me, my gifts, were not enough to protect her. When all this wobbled, something got to her.

I can, and do, connect with the Angels all day long, and I know they are with me always. I see/sense them. I can, and do, open up to the energy of the One Infinite Creator at every chance I get. But those chances do not easily avail themselves after the kids get home from school. So I strengthen my gifts to the extent I am able to during the day.

But in the evenings, M is so unpredictable that I am unable to find the same opportunities. So, while I wanted to "bust" Em last night, there simply was no opportunity. And, yes, I asked with all my heart that she be kept in the arms of the Angels.

I anxiously await The Middle Pillar, and until then I'm simply flopping around like a fish out of water. More accurately, like a crab out of it's shell.

Because, I mean, if the LoO group fell prey...

Much Love and Strength to us all today,

[RunningDeer]

Posted by Swan (here)

Posted by WhiteCrowBlackDeer (here)
Swan, I so loved your post. I have a passion for trees. We talk. We exchange energy. They ground me. These are some pictures where I live. The biggest one Brook, I call him, lost his life to a highway that only added some space to the road. The picture doesn't do it justice. He was huge and as you can see, he deserved better.

The stonewall pictures show character trees and the bottom one, I couldn't pick one over the others so I made one picture.

Peace,
WhiteCrowBlackDeer

Oh my goodness, Brook is beautiful. ( and the others too, the last one could be Narnia )

I read somewhere that when trees are cut down, their devas remain, sort of caught, in the place the tree used to stand. I sometimes think of that when I pass places where majestic trees used to stand, and say hallo to any deva that might be there.

Honestly, trees helped me through my pregnancy, and the birth of my daughter. There was a tree ( cut down now ) that I could see from my living room. And looking at it filled me with peace. Actually the trees started communicating with me just as my pregnancy began

Hello Swan, hello kindred Spirit,

Everybody needs at least one loving tree. And every tree need at least one loving soul. They really do appreciate recognition and gratitude, and send it right back.

I use to see fairies and elves. Long, long time ago. The last several years, their essence pops out from behind the bushes and trees. I'd swear I hear chuckle and giggles. Their ba-aack! Tee.

Peace,
WhiteCrowBlackDeer

PS This is my new favorite movie called, "The Man Who Planted Trees" Dawn shared the link, this is the message I passed along: "Thank you for "The Man Who Planted Trees". It is a beautiful metaphor of renewed purpose when one questions, "What/Why am I here?"."

[araucaria]

Posted by 1inMany (here)
Hmmm... then something happened last night. Em lost control in a way I had hoped she never would, thought she never would. I couldn't even react it was such a surprise. At the time, all I could think was that my light, and the channel that has been opened for me, my gifts, were not enough to protect her. When all this wobbled, something got to her.

I can, and do, connect with the Angels all day long, and I know they are with me always. I see/sense them. I can, and do, open up to the energy of the One Infinite Creator at every chance I get. But those chances do not easily avail themselves after the kids get home from school. So I strengthen my gifts to the extent I am able to during the day.

But in the evenings, M is so unpredictable that I am unable to find the same opportunities. So, while I wanted to "bust" Em last night, there simply was no opportunity. And, yes, I asked with all my heart that she be kept in the arms of the Angels.

I anxiously await The Middle Pillar, and until then I'm simply flopping around like a fish out of water. More accurately, like a crab out of it's shell.

Because, I mean, if the LoO group fell prey...

Much Love and Strength to us all today,

HI dear 1inMany,

So you've finished LoO Bk V. Now just put it away please. They had their own issues to deal with 30 years ago that are unlikely to be relevant to us right now. Just take away the message which was that now is the pivotal moment when things really start getting better.

A crab gets out of its shell when it has become too small for it. It then hides under a rock which makes a very good shell until the new one hardens. It has too because its prey can tell by its smell that it is fragile. Just try and take it easy.

Much love and strength to you today.

[RunningDeer]

Posted by 1inMany (here)
More accurately, like a crab out of it's shell. Much Love and Strength to us all today,

Light, Light, Light
Love, Love, Love

[Mitzvah]

What a heartwarming story this is about a reunion between old friends who'd been separated for over 20 years. It gives one pause in recognizing how we are all truly one Loving family of travelers, trying to find our way Home, and helping our Beloved companions along the way:

http://www.myamazingearth.com/2012/0...fter-20-years/

[Flash]

Posted by 1inMany (here)
Good Morning All,

This morning I awaken pondering the role of genetics in depression and anxiety, and if that influence can be overcome. I'm not sure it can. After my third or fourth episode of weeping yesterday, the circumstances that led me to Effexor in the first place came rushing back. It was right after my Mother passed on. I had never taken anything for depression before that, and I don't remember needing any chemical help until that point. Her passing was sudden. We took her to the hospital one night, and three days later she was gone. That shook my world at the time, but that is not an unusual reaction to the passing of a parent. What was unusual, though, is that I cried for days. One day after another, and I could not stop. A few weeks later, I was still sobbing uncontrollably most hours of every day. Several months passed like this. I began to worry I would never stop.

I went to the doctor, a general practitioner who I adored at the time, and I remember not even caring that I was weeping in the waiting room. I managed to get a few sentences out with the doctor, and that was about it. He explained that we all have "reserves" from which we pull in times of crisis, and dealing with M's bipolar had exhausted mine so that I simply had no reserves any more. It's been 8 or 9 years now, and over that time I have tried a few different anti-depressants but Effexor was the only one that seemed to be right for my body.

This is the first time I've simply wanted to allow myself to find a natural balance. This morning, though I am deeply concerned that my body doesn't really have a balance. What if I, by some miracle, live through the process of getting all of this chemical out of my body only to find that I am naturally a sad and depressed, weepy person unable to function?

It doesn't help my concern that I finished Book V of LoO a couple of nights ago, either. Now I am wondering...when my inner light shines brighter, and the loyal opposition is attracted to that light, will I know what's what? I doubt it.

So, all these things are swirling, and I am already missing the part of me that is bubbly and perky and hums to myself all day.

I'm trying, as now it takes real effort, to be grateful and strong and focus on what I know, clinging to my anchor as I see myself dip into seas of emotion that feel unnatural.

Love,

Many, a long depression, has you had with your mother's passing, or maybe some others that were not diagnosed before because milder, changes the neuronal pathways in the brain. The brain learns to connect neurons that will play together the tunes of depression.

Anti-depressant are good to make you perk up and hopefully get out of it. They are mostly good right at the beginning of a heavy depression to ensure that the neuronal pathways encouraging depression over and over again are not formed. Taken later they may perk you up but they won't change neuronal pathways already established. Later on, you have to do both, anti-depressant and psychotherapy, in order to retrain your brain to reconnect its neurons differently, not to dive into depression again later on.

There is also always a possibility for external factors, such as mild heavy metal poisoning or the like that would make you get depressed (or onset of diabetis which was my case, that went undetected for years - everytime my blood sugar is unkowingly up, I get depressed, this is how I know to check it up). This had to be checked as well.

Hope this helps, this is up to where it is in science actually. Personnally, I am always careful with anti-depressants because they also can play havoc with your brain chemistry. But it is better to take them than losing one's life for example. imho

[RunningDeer]

Sending etheric love waves out to Another Bob and Mazie.
Enjoy your site seeing and looking forward to more pictures.

Hey, look down below... it's Mitzvah and Benevolent Crow!

[Caren]

Hello Mitzvah.. thanks for sharing that - Shirley and Jenny reunited after many years apart.
I'm so moved after watching the love and compassion between those two beautiful elephants; I have no words..

[Anchor]

Posted by 1inMany (here)
Now I am wondering...when my inner light shines brighter, and the loyal opposition is attracted to that light, will I know what's what? I doubt it.

If you are being honest with yourself you will easily spot it. The essential clue is to pay attention any time that you feel that you are being manipulated in some way.

That said, a lot of glamor attaches to this psychic warfare stuff. If its the catalyst you need you will get it. If it is not you wont. If you decide to attract that kind of situation into your life, then you can succeed.

I would hope you don't worry too much about it. If you are, I posted some information here and there is lots more on this forum.

[RunningDeer]

Deleted out of respect for 1inMany and Ulli

[animalspirits]

My rule of thumb is if I don't use/wear it for one year, out it goes. Always donate the items I no longer need.

I have really pared down my use of "stuff" and don't buy much (other than food) anymore.

It is very freeing to let go of useless possessions.

[Carmody]

I spent the whole night dissolving. I'm expecting that lump to be on it's way out.

[WhiteFeather]

Good Morning Peeps. Sending some sunshine your way Ulli, 1inmany and the village.
Paula,The tree pictures were beautiful, as im an avid lover of trees, their consciousness is so enlightening.

*My Thoughts are with you Ulli. As a clean Bill of Health Is Coming from The Universe.

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=gexkiDmQa9I

https://youtube.com/watch?v=gexkiDmQa9I

Peace.Love.One

Vince

[Mitzvah]

Two days ago my little grand-daughter, Ryder (turning 1 year old on October 17th), who lives right next door to Bob and I with her mother and brother, spoke her first full sentence, and she spoke it to me. She said (and I'm over the moon thrilled with joy!), to me, this: "I Love you." I Love you! Her first sentence ever spoken ever and it was one such as this. Ryder is a darling hearted being, and we love her beyond words.