Here and Now...What's Happening?

[ulli]

Posted by Chinaski (here)
funnily enough, i haven't exactly said 'yes' to the wedding yet, though it's very likely i'll go. i haven't said 'no' either, but i'm wondering what'll be worse at this point: going, and dealing with the accompanying stress, or not going and dealing with the accompanying guilt

i'm giving myself another week to decide. somehow, my current mental state won't allow me a resolution on this. i'm gonna let the static settle for a week or so, and see how i feel then.

Look at it this way and reverse the guilt thingy for a moment...
If you were to go, due to the fact that they succeeded to twist your arm, you would then become guilty of having neglected your personal agenda which is spiritual awakening. Instead you allowed yourself to play someone else's game.
You would hate yourself for being a hypocrite, especially since you could already observe the seeds of their very likely divorce in only a few years from now and the inevitable suffering of children whose home has been ripped apart.
And while knowing all of this you would be forced to present a jolly face and pretend that all are going to live happily ever after. Can you see that this hypocrisy might produce guilt feelings? Especially as you were negligent of your real duties, to get your own act together and become an authentic and powerful sovereign being.
And if as 'best' man you were to express your own true feelings on this matter you would cause a painful mass awakening for people who are not yet ready to give up their sleep and instead will do a collective snarl at you.
Better then to stay at home with the stress of fighting your inner battles...
those that inevitably accompany one's own awakening while fighting the self indulgence and apathy of one's lower nature.
So now do I feel guilty for having pooped on your friend's wedding?
Not one bit.

[ulli]

Posted by astrid (here)
Chinaski,

It took me years and years to say no and not feel guilt.
But i certainly recommend working on this,
the sense of freedom that results is like nothing else.

Ultimately its about you anyways, I'm sure you know this,
its more to do with your feelings around the issue,
and getting better at processing them.
Guilt is a tricky one as it's programmed into us from
such a young age. Religion is a master at it.

Shame , guilt, self berating, it's like a whole garbage tip
gets thrown on us. There comes a time when life presents you
with experiences where you get to make a stand, and there is no rush.
Eventually you will say no and feel totally Ok about doing so.

Last wedding i went to, i knew it was for all the
wrong reasons. And sure enough within a year the bride ( a friend of mine)
was having an affair. But i guess there is no such thing as mistakes, its all just
experience and learning. I get frustrated as i can see the outcomes, but i have
to learn to just let people be and learn thier own lessons. That's one of my
lesser traits, i can be like a dragon in a china shop sometimes. Why i only move into
assist people if they are ready and willing to move on things.

Sadly to say for a lot of people, drama and illness has a function in their lives
and they actually don't want to be healthy. So i tend to work in a very narrow band
width as far as the living humans go. Then when they die they are all filled with remorse,
and don't cross over properly as they think they can somehow make amends by sticking around,
that's where 90% of my time is spent cleaning up. As the dead being with the living has all sorts
of side effects, for us, for them and for the planet.

An interesting fact about the dead that most don't know, they are the same as they
were when they were here. Someone with an attitude will still have an attitude.
Some of them are a down right pain in the arse.

Anyways.. i kind of majorly digressed here,
sorry about that. Tangents.

But on the wedding, personally i don't go to any social events unless
they are meaningful to me and have some sort of integrity surrounding them.
But that's me.. I'm a total hermit. Lucky the family knows i am strange, so they tend to
leave me alone.

I just posted my own comment to Chinaski's dilemma, before I read this.
And I realize it is the exact same message, only expressed in different words.
This is what I call unity in diversity.

[ulli]

Posted by 1inMany (here)
I know what you mean, Modwiz...I sent my (grown) niece something about how funky the energies are lately, and she sent me back not one, but THREE Emails about how special Jesus is to her. **sigh** Forced interaction...why did I send her the little chuckle in the first place? So, I could have left well enough alone. But, ooohhhh noooooo, I started the mess, so I had to see it through. Wasted a whole day trying to ignore the fact that the Jesus EmailS were bothering me, that she completely missed what I was saying. I finally had to sit down and clear up some stuff knowing that was the only way to shake off the ick. So, for what it's worth, Chinaski, I hate being between a rock and a hard place, too!

Oh, what in the hell is going on? Do I need to sage again...is that it? Why can I not shake this. Today, I felt very weak and shaky...physical shakes. I can report that I have a clean bill of health from my doc, so all six vials of blood were healthy Knowing that, I can only surmise that I am perfectly healthy with a touch of an 8-day migraine (is it 8 days now?), fried-ness going on a week or two...no solar flares that I see...

Damn, I'd like to go back to all those 11:11s, and the spirals in the sky, and knowing everything was good.

Fake it til you make it?

Much Love,

Your transformation is going to plan. Your guides are letting you know that they are there by showing you the numbers. Take comfort in that. They are like personal crop circles, a small gift of beauty from another dimension to let you know that you are not alone.
I went through a few years of regular migraines, too. Been seeing those numbers since 1980. The process is ongoing. The migraines will stop and you will find yourself feeling younger and stronger soon, not sure how long it takes. Your heart is open and so it's maybe faster than in my case. Maybe also a bit more painful because of it. Know that you are loved.

[ulli]

Posted by Chinaski (here)

Posted by astrid (here)
Yes EXACTLY.. the more we can be left alone and work in stealth mode,
the more we can get done. Being " strange" is one way to do that,
it tends to work pretty well.

the more alone i am, the more energy i have. sometimes, if i can do it, i just shut the shades for days and don't do a damn thing. i come out of this feeling wonderful -- it charges me up for months.

@1inmany: you see the consecutive number arrangements too? (ie 111,222 etc...) they're usually portents of doom for me, so you can keep 'em!

Portents of doom...hahaha.
Why do I think that is too funny.....?

[ulli]

Posted by astrid (here)
Actually i think I'm both getting more "strange" and more effective.

The last few weeks i have been working fairly closely with trees,
amazing teachers, and suburb at transmuting energies.
So yeah, in 3D terms, i would be currently falling under the banner of
one or a numerous list of psychiatric labels.

Yet another reason why stealth is so important to master.

Too true, and well said. We are becoming masters of stealth... ..watching each other's backs.
We are the Stealth Gang.

[ulli]

Posted by Dennis Leahy (here)
I am the 279,621st person to open this thread. Yay!

Dennis

edit: it was 10:10 on my digital clock.

Surely you are mocking us. Wagging finger.
This number stuff is real to me. When my father was in hospital with terminal cancer I went home to see him. My mother had a digital clock radio, and in a period of 24 hours I noticed 22:22, as I went to sleep. Then I woke up...the clock radio said 1:11. I woke up again at 4:44 sharp.
Later that morning I was walking past the open door of my bedroom, and there was the clock: 11:11.
When I pointed this out to my mother she said that the same thing had been happening to her.
That was in August of 1980.
From then on it happened at least twice a day, to this day. My father passed away two weeks later and for years I thought these numbers were messages from him.

Then I found out it was a collective phenomenon, and was happening to millions of people. Just google "11:11"....

[Calz]

Posted by astrid (here)
I guess everyone has different reasons for being here.

But personally I'm confused, why would anyone would leave because

My posts don’t get enough “thanks”

shaking head.....

I had no idea what this was about ... but now I do

Thank you thank you ... yes ... thank you very much.

[Calz]

Posted by ulli (here)

Posted by Dennis Leahy (here)
I am the 279,621st person to open this thread. Yay!

Dennis

edit: it was 10:10 on my digital clock.

Surely you are mocking us. Wagging finger.

I thought it was kinda kewl to be 266,666 ... worth mentioning in passing ... but alas ... no clock reset

[ulli]

Posted by christian (here)
Just finished looking at lots of cat-content from "theories of the deep understanding of things"...













Weird things happen all the time...

All I can say is 'P P', which stands for "priceless post".
So, have you noticed any inner changes since becoming a moderator?
Such as wanting to stimulate threads, rather than moderate them? Lol.
If you keep up your current pace I wonder who will need to be moderated a few weeks down the road.
( still LMAO)

[ulli]

Posted by ViralSpiral (here)
and this one is for Christian (for that hideous horse-play )

Surely that shower was meant to cool down the horse....

[ViralSpiral]

Posted by ulli (here)

Posted by ViralSpiral (here)
and this one is for Christian (for that hideous horse-play )

Surely that shower was meant to cool down the horse....

As well


Was a Laugh Out Loud moment.

Alternative goes Equus ferus caballus fabulous

[christian]

Posted by ulli (here)
So, have you noticed any inner changes since becoming a moderator?
Such as wanting to stimulate threads, rather than moderate them? Lol.
If you keep up your current pace I wonder who will need to be moderated a few weeks down the road.

Mod in training
I guess I'm still the same though, apart from the fact that everything flows...
Let me recap: I shared this article of this man humping a donkey the other day. Now posting pictures of a horny horse and a butt-naked lady might lead down a slippery slope towards overindulging in this type of obsceneness. I'll keep an eye on that.

[eaglespirit]

"strange" is as "strange" does...

the 'normal' populace is about to be presented with more "strange" than they will be able to label...
"That was really weird!" is going to become the expression of about every passing moment soon : )

[Calz]

Posted by eaglespirit (here)
"strange" is as "strange" does...

the 'normal' populace is about to be presented with more "strange" than they will be able to label...
"That was really weird!" is going to become the expression of about every passing moment soon : )

Me thinks that is the understatement of the "cycle" ...

[christian]

Posted by christian (here)
Weird things happen all the time...

I got myself a kebab this morning and the woman asked me, if I don't have to be at school. I said I'm 26, she said I look like 17. I took this as a compliment, especially when I consider, that I didn't sleep at all the other night, I feel somewhat elated, dunno. Waiting for my kebab I saw a guy running down the street followed by 4 shop employees. 3 of his followers were rather slow guys and only the girl seemed eager to keep the pace. I didn't see around the corner when they all made a turn, wonder how that developed. I mean as a girl, what does she expect, to stop him and detain him? He seemed quite sporty. Maybe she simply appreciated the oppurtinity to get some fresh air and exercise. Did she really care about whatever it was that he stole or did she want to appear conscientious? Backstreet mysteries..

[Lisab]

Good to see Modwiz back 'home'.

[Calz]

Posted by Lisab (here)
Good to see Modwiz back 'home'.

Indeed

This is nice from Gilliland this morning ...

Source: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xHkq1edcbk4

[Zebra]

I am going to thank myself for being here another day.

A glorious day it is as well.

[astrid]

Can't stop eating today,
energy really moving.

We are also having some gorgeous weather here right now,
lots of time in the garden getting ready my winter crops.

I must say though, it has been an odd time energetically
speaking, i have been feeling fine, but there are things at
play right now that i just can't put my finger on.
Some of it Is a certain disconnectedness, but i'm also
getting an impending sense.
Feels a bit like a downward slippery slope,
That's the other thing i have noticed is that I'm not
worried, despite the mess we are in, I'm not in the least
bit concerned about the future. Maybe i am delusional,
or maybe I'm just changing how i want to experience my time here.

12 months ago i was so stuck in survival mode and its seriously a
whole different life experience. We might be totally screwed,
but i figure that its about living the best life you can, despite what is
going on in the wider world.
Besides, i don't like to give things anymore power than they already have.

[eaglespirit]

Posted by astrid (here)
Can't stop eating today,
energy really moving.

We are also having some gorgeous weather here right now,
lots of time in the garden getting ready my winter crops.

I must say though, it has been an odd time energetically
speaking, i have been feeling fine, but there are things at
play right now that i just can't put my finger on.
Some of it Is a certain disconnectedness, but i'm also
getting an impending sense.
Feels a bit like a downward slippery slope,
That's the other thing i have noticed is that I'm not
worried, despite the mess we are in, I'm not in the least
bit concerned about the future. Maybe i am delusional,
or maybe I'm just changing how i want to experience my time here.

12 months ago i was so stuck in survival mode and its seriously a
whole different life experience. We might be totally screwed,
but i figure that its about living the best life you can, despite what is
going on in the wider world.
Besides, i don't like to give things anymore power than they already have.

Right On, Astrid : )
...all I can add is that we truly are on the precipice of unprecedented positive transitional happenings, like wow time!!!