6th October 2011 17:28
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Deep in Foxfire Hollow (meanderings of a slightly crazy mountain woman)
In April of this year I started a thread on my decision to step out of the rat race and to create a way life that will empower me and those brought into my life to thrive. (the opening post of that thread and an additional post are below).
I feel compelled to start this thread because of all the years I have been on Project Camelot and Project Avalon I have never seen a “practical” thread of someone who is actually trying to live the life many of us pontificate about. Yes, there are bits and pieces peppered throughout the forum . . . . but most of the information is . . . . well . . . . shall I say unattainable for us regular folk. More than that, as we study, read, watch videos and debate on topics such as cme’s, rogue comets, bilocation, changing timelines, karma, and being the 99% (side note: I am not a part of that % either) WHAT do we do in the meantime to bring about this change we all seem to desire. One of the original purposes of the forum (under project camelot) was for groups around the world to form and become communities.
And so brings about the purpose of this thread.
I have made that leap out of what we deem a “normal” lifestyle and I would like to chronicle my adventure. A practical and pragmatic expose’. More than my experience I emphatically want to encourage others to chronicle their adventures of creating this new way of life. I know you are out there and maybe feel a bit shy because you can't travel in the astral world. I just want to master traveling this world before I take on another one. . . . how 'bout you??
Opening Post April 26, 2011
Stepping out of Rat Race and Jumping into Real World
I have made the solid choice to completely change my lifestyle and to live the life that I know is truth.
I have lived in two worlds for many years, all my life actually. There is the one world where I play the “game” and appear very much like an average American woman . . . . I play this game very, very well. Then the other world where I relentlessly search for bits of elusive truths and intuitively know that this second world is the “real” world and the other is illusion.
I was conditioned from birth to live this world of illusion and it has been a very interesting 52 years.
But I never quite conformed and this non-conformity has kept me precariously balanced.
When I was in first grade we were instructed to draw a picture of our house, of which I did and proceeded to color the grass in my yard purple. My teacher told me to “do it right” and draw a new picture with green grass . . . . I refused and I was punished.
That was 46 years ago . . . I still have that picture . . . . with a corner torn off where the teacher drew a “frowny face”
My question to the forum is . . . .Are there others here that have made this decision also? Or are there others here that are on the verge or are being “pushed” (consciously) to make the choice? Do you know of someone who has stepped out of the game?
Is there interest in discussing the incredible difficulty and total relief of making this type of decision?
I have come to believe strongly to change the world we first have to personally “make the change”.
Post #25 of Rat Race Thread
I know there are perhaps thousands of people that come to Avalon who are beginning to morph or I feel, there are many who are close to making “that” decision, but are reluctant to take that final step because of the lifelong programming and the personal soul stories and journeys
I intuit so deeply that there is a new emerging group. And it is occurring so quickly that it is hard to stay fluid and sanguine
We are arriving at this place in different ways. Many, many life paths are converging into one narrow path that leads to . . . . . where?? That “where” is one of the most powerful aspects that kept me from my “leap of faith”. But I also deeply intuit that we won’t know the “where” until each of us take that path . . . . and then wait and be at peace and listen carefully.
I know there are thousands who like me have been brought to this “place of decision many times” and in different ways.. . . . a failed marriage, a lost job, the loss of loved ones, thousands of hours and many years of research and watching videos and reading books, rejection of organized religion, having your life foundation ripped apart and left with the task of rebuilding. I have experienced every one of those and I know the thousands that come to Avalon are also . . . . these life experiences are the “2x4 between the eyes” that our guides or angels or our own souls saying Wake Up! you are going down the wrong path again.
Sometimes we are wounded so deeply that it takes years to find the path again. But this wounding is vital.
Finally, for me it was the realization that since I keep being brought to this “place of decision” this place, that in my minds eye has many, many little roads behind me and a meeting point where I have stood many times and one path in front of me . . . . I have stood at this place of convergence many years and at many times in my life.
It . . . this choice . . . is not a “rejection” of family or friends or our current life . . . . it is the acceptance and more than that a Melding of our own personal soul’s decision.
This emerging or shadow group does not fit any of the current groups completely. I feel deeply that for the thousands that keep returning to the “point of choice” that it is this lack of “fitting in” that keeps us undecided or unable to take that first step.
I feel deeply that, like me, thousands feel that the current “defined” groups make us feel slightly uncomfortable or we just don’t fit . . . something just isn’t . . . right.
I have wandered among all these different groups and glean from each of them and I know “you” are too.
We are not New Age searching for the ultimate ascension or conscious level, we are not organized religious or even “being spiritual” doesn’t quite fit any longer, we don’t want communal living . . . its been tried many times, we aren’t old hippies or are but know that is not the way either, we are not pagan, witches, wiccan, warlocks or shaman, we are not vegan or vegetarian, survivalists, conspiracy theorists, granola organic, we don’t want to revert back into total homesteading or 1800’s but want to mix in new technology, we resonate with Zeitgeist to a degree but feel the Venus Project is unreachable, we can’t travel in the astral or influence other peoples thoughts and we probably have the wrong eye color, or Carmody’s posts leave us in complete confusion.
We KNOW deep down . . . in our dna . . . our souls . . . . something is happening and quickly and with conviction.
We see the weather changing rapidly, we know our planet is changing, we believe in chemtrails but not all the “reasons”, we know we are about to be “turned on” but all the information on how to flip the switch doesn’t feel quite right, we believe in aliens and life on other planets but can’t quite swallow the “messages” from the aliens, we are having “those” dreams, we know we should be growing our own food and preparing, but for what? We know that gmo food is killing us along with vaccines and pharmaceutical drugs, but helpless against the massive companies, we know the U.S. and world economies are about to self-destruct, we almost believe in PlanetX and the Brown Dwarf Sun but draw the line that Annunaki are coming to eat us, we know the Mayan calendar ends in 2012 but don’t believe it’s the end of the world but don’t quite know what it does mean.
There are many thousands of us that stand before this heap of “almost knowns”
I do know . . . . .
We are the real “Shadow Group”, the lurkers, the so called newbies, and we are many thousands and we are the group that will usher in the new existence. We are not going to survive . . . . we will Thrive.
The current generations and the generations to come are the pioneers. We will build those stepping stones along the narrow path.
But. . . . each of us has to make that final step and live the change so we will begin to evolve. That mountain of “almost knowns” will become known or obsolete.
And we are finding each other in the collective . . . . whatever that “collective” is.
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6th October 2011 17:49
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Re: Deep in Foxfire Hollow (meanderings of a slightly crazy mountain woman)
We also have to consider exactly what makes the change unattainable. For me, it is the laws that keep divorced parents from removing a child from the State. If that were not the fact, I would be at the very least well on my way to being self-sufficiently living off the grid.
By design???? Most likely.
Until my child is of legal age, I have no choice but to live the "double-life", and I have to say, I'm not good at it anymore, as each day, my tolerance plummets to a new low.
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6th October 2011 17:50
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