I'm in need of some happy energy

[PixieDust]

I'm really bad at asking for help.

Lately life has gotten to hard to handle alone. I've lost my spark to keep fighting. Not that I'm suicidal; I see the light at the end of the tunnel I just need a little extra push to keep walking.

I don't want to go on a bitch rant about all my problems. Most of them aren't probably near as bad as other peoples.

Im always on the verge of tears and no matter how much caffeine I consume I'm always ready to go lay in my bed and shut down.

I have two little girls that depend on me and i feel like I'm letting them down.

So this is my cry for help. for anyone who's willing to send me a little push.

peace.

[NeverMind]

Instead of caffeine, try drinking cayenne pepper/chili/hot paprika.
It's proven to be a great mood enhancer.

More substantial advice I'll leave to others. :-)

The best of luck.

[Tony]

Dear Pixiedust

Can you say more specifically how you feel? Sadness? Depression? Exhaustion? Loneliness? Overwhelmed? It might help to clarify before people start making suggestions...just try and be as precise as you can.

If you want to talk privately, please do PM me.

Best wishes
Tony

[Tarka the Duck]

Hello PD
Do you have a support network around you?
Love
Kathie

[amym]

Try dramatically cutting down on caffeine. It raises cortisol levels which stresses your body.

For an energy lift, try Vitamin B12 spray. I noticed so much more energy and focus after I cut down on caffeine from all sources and added B12.

Positive energy coming your way!!!

[moontime]

Anytime I get down. I turn to music and this is my favorite pick me up song. Hope it helps. It's called "Soulshine".
https://youtube.com/watch?v=4L3BYTS8uxM

[Delight]

I read your post and thought of myself a few months ago. Luckily as you have your girls, I have pets and I'd make an effort for them.
I personally was doing an exercise at that time of desire to experience my deep, deep resistance. Whatever is up for you is bound to be meaningful.
This is not advice, just a deep confidence that now you reached out and asked, various help will show up.
That is what happened for me. It may be arriving in seemingly odd ways. Spirit is a bit tricky that way (very humorous at times too). Sparkles felt on your behalf! Delight

[PixieDust]

Posted by pie'n'eal (here)
Dear Pixiedust

Can you say more specifically how you feel? Sadness? Depression? Exhaustion? Loneliness? Overwhelmed? It might help to clarify before people start making suggestions...just try and be as precise as you can.

If you want to talk privately, please do PM me.

Best wishes
Tony

pretty much all of the above... but mostly depression, exhaustion and overwhelmed.

It basically the classic symptoms of depression. aches fatigue sadness sense of hopelessness...

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Posted by Tarka the Duck (here)
Hello PD
Do you have a support network around you?
Love
Kathie

No, not really. everyone is too busy with their own lives. my husband is overseas and my parents are out of state and everyone else is swamped with life. people have been coming to me for help and advice. thats why I'm reaching out for avalon to be my support group.

[Ontarioguy]

Hello Pixie, I hear your cry out for help....and there is no shame in crying out....I have done so myself in the past. Sometimes life can really be trying!!! And I too was consuming far too much caffeine in any given day back then. I was at around 15 - 20 cups a day!!! And even though I was laying down 8 hours a night.....was I really sleeping properly??? Most likely not. I simply made the choice to "snap out of it" meaning out of that crazy routine I was in. it really boils down to being a choice. I decided to listen to motivational speakers and such....cassettes back then,lol. But one that got to me was the saying...."it is not what happens to you , but rather HOW YOU handle it. " I knew inside it was up to me to clean up my daily routine.....if you can look up....you can get up! etc. And FRIENDS are VERY VITAL at times like this. You have 2 beautiful daughters there and they are WORTH the effort it takes to give them your all. Time can slip by soooo quickly and it does. Please know you are NEVER alone and have many friends who care about you I am certain. I am hopeful that your cry out becomes answered by many here....and that you find comfort in the replys that come back your way! Beaming prayers out toward you even now.....Many blessings to you!!

[Tony]

Just wondering...how often do you read conspiracy sites?
They can be damaging to your health!
Sites like this can build up our hopes and expectations too much and it's good to wind down to be satisfied with being warm, having food, talking to friends ...

One of the problems with the idea of false positivity is that you feel you should be "up" all the time. That doesn't work.
We have to be realistic.
A bit of depression and frustration and dissatisfaction is all part of being human...that is what we humans experience.
It's a matter of being more grounded, and accept and allow your mind to feel that way.
Can you just relax in your own company, or do you feel you need stimuli?

PS Could it be hormonal? (I obviously don't know how old your girls are).
PPS Let it out! Have a rant! It may clear something.

[aranuk]

I have found if you stand up straight pull your shoulders down, I have done it by putting hands together at your back and pulling down. When you do this hold your head up as high as you can without looking at the ceiling, it is very difficult to think negative thoughts. This is not an answer to your present dilemma but it helps in the immediate now time. I am sure our good members here will help in more lasting ways for you my dear Pixie. Keep your chin up as they say.

Stan

[crested-duck]

PixieDust, You are not alone here today, it's perfectly ok to feel overwhelmed, and depressed. Welcome to the human race! We all feel just like you do at different times. Look at those beautiful little girls and know they are loveing you for just being you. Ther is no shame in talking to a counselor and trying antidepressants for a while if that's what it takes to get through. Do whatever you have to do for you. Just know that other souls are thinking and careing about you. Rob

[giovonni]

Greetings young Lady

Please hang in there ... you are definitely not alone in all this ...

i am a true believer... that the current and ongoing energies coming into our solar system (from our galactic center), as well as its effects on our Sun are (i believe) definitely affecting all of us here. It is truly a time of cleansing and working on oneself. Here is a recent thread post (here on Avalon), that might bring you some solace along with insights and understandings into what might be causing, if not enhancing your current melancholy...?

Sending You Lots of Blessing Love ~ Gio

Here Comes The Sun
https://projectavalon.net/forum4/show...Comes-the-SUN-

[benevolentcrow]

I think we have all been there. You are not alone in these feeling. I find that vitamin D3 is excellent for a lot of things. I use the liquid form, (put it in juice or milk) You may just have the winter blues. I don't know what part of the country you are in, lack of sunshine is huge contributor in the North West to SAD Seasonal Affection Disorder. Hope sunny days are ahead for you. Many blessing sent your way. I am ready for spring! We can all get cabin fever by the end of winter..

[jagman]

Hello PD, I'm sorry to hear your feeling so bad. I don't know if you have tried exercising but when we exercise our brains release
endorphins. Maybe a walk in the morning or evening might help. Also exercising helps give you more energy & a focused state of mind.
I hope you feel better.

[blufire]

Here ya go spizwink . . . . me, you, your seester and who ever else wants to join in tonight at midnight . . . .

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=stQ31X8COWw

[VaughnB]

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=tdXlcXHbOQg

i've posted his stuff several times, but always good for a laugh.

Here's another health link I made.

[mahalall]

Sit,

Sit Straight,

Now, lets clean this wound,

Breathe

no rush breathe

Breathe-expand

Breathe-lift

breathe

breathe-smile,

breathe

breathe-love

young one your a lot stronger than you feel

it's been heavy of late but it will change

[<8>]

Dear PixieDust..

Without knowing where you are in your awakening stage, it's hard to know how to approach you with the rigth words.
I had a hard time myself a few months, my problem was, seeing the world for what it really was and not be able to do anything profound about it.
I felt cursed to having to sit by and see all the layers insanity this world has to offer, I actually saw no point living on down here.

Anyway I continued my studies and come to the conclusion that the reality we experience here, are not really real..
I had known for a long time that everything is made up of atoms and atoms are just energy, but I had never done a big thing about it.


To make this short and simple, I went down a new rabbit hole and the simplest way to tell you about the information i gathered is.
We are all living in a highly advanced computergame, or should I say, we use this game to experience different lifes.

This helped me to not take everything so serious, it was like the world problems was lifted off my shoulders..

I dont know if this can help you, but maybe Somebody Else...

..8..

[Ineffable Hitchhiker]

Hi Pixiedust

Some great advice and words of comfort from the others.
I echo each and every sentiment and agree with giovonni that the energies around us shifting.
The most important thing right now are your children. How lucky you are to have twins! What a blessing! ( Speaking strictly from a twin point of view. I am sure my twin would agree. )
Take a moment to rest. You say others are coming to you for advice and help. Perhaps it is time to say no and gather enough strength for yourself.


Nature is a wonderful healer. If you can, go outside and marvel at the beauty.
Here a short video on gratitude. I hope it will uplift you, as it does me, when I´m feeling a bit depleted.

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=gXDMoiEkyuQ

"May you find the strength to know that you are a part of something beautiful."
And may "God" be whatever you perceive it/him/her to be.

Source: https://youtube.com/watch?v=NfJAh6hrCzw

Hang in there PixieDust.