I'm in need of some happy energy

[blufire]

My favorite blessing from your Celtic roots . . . . . to the Irish Pixie and to all who may watch this video.

Source: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7O9OqBd2us

[ViralSpiral]

[Orph]

Well, I seem to have an abundance of love that's just hanging around me, so I think I'll just push some of it your way.

[greybeard]

Eckhart Tolle in The Power of Now spoke of a time of chaos before the New Earth happens.
It will affect all humans emotionally to a greater or lesser degree but the end result will be good.
Sending Love and uplifting energy to you Pixie Dust
Chris

[NeverMind]

That truly is beautiful, Blufire.
Thank you, even though I wasn't its primary intended recipient. :-)

And the same goes for all the other posts here.

[Dennis Leahy]

Hi PixieDust,

My first thought is to deeply immerse yourself into play with your little girls. Sit on the floor. Lay on the floor. Roll on the floor. Put on silly clothes and a goofy hat. Let the little girls make up the games/rules and play. Laugh easily and allow your laughter to overtake you.

For another session, get out several large cardboard boxes (furniture store, appliance store) boxes, scissors, felt-tip markers, and a roll of packaging tape. Make a fantasy building or house or castle of connected boxes. Make lots of windows you can close and open. Make sure the boxes are big enough so that you can get inside the cardboard world. Take pillows and blankets inside. Have a snack in there.

(Be prepared for the possibility that this will be your little girls' favorite place in the world, and that you may need to have the space to leave it assembled for months. We had one for an entire winter, once.

For another session, get a block of clay from a local potter. Clear off the kitchen table, cover it with a sheet of plastic. Play, sculpt, make whimsical objects. Allow it to all be temporary - don't worry about "firing" the clay (but if you really want to keep anything, put it inside of plastic bags so it doesn't dry out too quickly, and take the bagged objects to someone with a kiln for advice.)

For another session, make a batch of simple, flat cookies*, and frost them with white frosting. Spend an hour or three decorating them, making sure to honor your little girls creativity.

For another session... .. .. (insert your ideas, and your little girls' ideas here)

It is not a permanent cure, but is great medicine for the soul. Your little girls will benefit greatly too.

:~)

Dennis

*(Everyone has different ideas about this, but since I'm kinda fanatical about healthy alternatives even for fun food, I'd make the dough and icing from scratch, using organic ingredients. If the children are too young to help with that part, just make and chill the dough... and then invite them to decorate with you.)

[Kindling]

Definitely sending loving, happy energy your way Pixiedust. Love all the responses from everyone!!

[Black Panther]

Posted by PixieDust (here)
I'm really bad at asking for help.

Lately life has gotten to hard to handle alone. I've lost my spark to keep fighting. Not that I'm suicidal; I see the light at the end of the tunnel I just need a little extra push to keep walking.

I don't want to go on a bitch rant about all my problems. Most of them aren't probably near as bad as other peoples.

Im always on the verge of tears and no matter how much caffeine I consume I'm always ready to go lay in my bed and shut down.

I have two little girls that depend on me and i feel like I'm letting them down.

So this is my cry for help. for anyone who's willing to send me a little push.

peace.

First of all it's great you ask for help. That means you want to do something about yourself
feeling not so good lately, you appreciate life and you want to be there 100% for your kids!

Today I told myself to drink less caffeine, more herbs tea. It's good for the stomach
and bowels and so it releases stress as amym also said.

It made me happy just by looking at your picture with your beautifiul twin
Or watch Tony sitting on his cute swing

There is a thread about alternatives to Prozac with a lot of good tips:
http://projectavalon.net/forum4/show...nts#post235399

This too shall pass! Take care of your kids, but also take care of yourself.
Let others know you need time to be alone, for yourself. We all need that
this time. Sleep, listen to nice music, watch a good movie, take a bath and take
a lot of warm showers.

Like Tony said you can also PM me. Have a lot of experience with feeling bad.

And because the veils are lifting and time and place don't really exist
I will give you a big . Did you feel it ?

[aranuk]

Pixie, if you don't take up what Dennis suggested, may I say if all you do is sit down and imagine Dennis playing with his kids cutting out windows and doors of the big boxes, you will guarantee to laugh. I did when he posted that. I am imagining him sitting inside with a funny hat on and wearing womens clothes, stretching his arm out one of the windows asking for his guitar.

Stan

[Anchor]

Hi, you havent given us much to go on, except tired, down and drinks lots of coffee

No matter...

• Its all going to be ok!
• Consider that you may be overloaded with toxins, what can you do to reduce your toxic load? Lots of ways to fix that.
• How are you nutritionally? Are you eating nutritional food? Drinking clean water?
• Do you get enough sleep - that is to say, quality sleep?

[Dennis Leahy]

Posted by aranuk (here)
Pixie, if you don't take up what Dennis suggested, may I say if all you do is sit down and imagine Dennis playing with his kids cutting out windows and doors of the big boxes, you will guarantee to laugh. I did when he posted that. I am imagining him sitting inside with a funny hat on and wearing womens clothes, stretching his arm out one of the windows asking for his guitar.

Stan

Thanks, Stan, your vision made me laugh too! :~)

Dennis

[atlantianferret]

Posted by PixieDust (here)
I'm really bad at asking for help.

Lately life has gotten to hard to handle alone. I've lost my spark to keep fighting. Not that I'm suicidal; I see the light at the end of the tunnel I just need a little extra push to keep walking.

I don't want to go on a bitch rant about all my problems. Most of them aren't probably near as bad as other peoples.

Im always on the verge of tears and no matter how much caffeine I consume I'm always ready to go lay in my bed and shut down.

I have two little girls that depend on me and i feel like I'm letting them down.

So this is my cry for help. for anyone who's willing to send me a little push.

peace.

I have felt the same lately. Try not to focus on the whole picture, keep focused on now and things you can handle now. Small victories.

To keep focused and keep out of the negative circle I use reminders, like signs on the wall or a rubber band bracelet with some text.

Just try to keep your mind on good positive aspects of what is going on.

I can send you more and offer support. I know what you mean and have been slowly turning it.

Rememder most of what you feel and think are not truth. It is a point of view on what is happening. There are other views.



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[Deega]

Posted by PixieDust (here)

Posted by pie'n'eal (here)
Dear Pixiedust

Can you say more specifically how you feel? Sadness? Depression? Exhaustion? Loneliness? Overwhelmed? It might help to clarify before people start making suggestions...just try and be as precise as you can.

If you want to talk privately, please do PM me.

Best wishes
Tony

pretty much all of the above... but mostly depression, exhaustion and overwhelmed.

It basically the classic symptoms of depression. aches fatigue sadness sense of hopelessness...

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Posted by Tarka the Duck (here)
Hello PD
Do you have a support network around you?
Love
Kathie

No, not really. everyone is too busy with their own lives. my husband is overseas and my parents are out of state and everyone else is swamped with life. people have been coming to me for help and advice. thats why I'm reaching out for avalon to be my support group.

Thanks you PixieDust to share your pain, you are loved!, here is a way to treat depression as "Hooded Sage" suggests.

"Depression is Reaction to Failure — Depression is the inability to face external circumstances. You have to accept the circumstances in your life, before you have the power to change the circumstances of your life. You have to accept your failures as being learning experiences. Failure is dysfunction—circumstances that just aren’t working out. Depression is reaction to circumstances in your life that just aren’t working out for you—draining your energy. Accept the Situation. Rock Up. Change your Situation. Evolve".

Hope this will help you in this great challenge you're under.

All the best to you.

Deega

[mind-scape]

Dear Pixiedust,

Sending love your way.
"Be the core of your star...."
Please watch this... and find peace in knowing that you aren't alone...

You've got this.

Source: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g2V4VCNwhW4

[PixieDust]

I want to thank everyone who helped me today. about an hour and a half after i posted it i felt all your energies and my mood did a total 180. i immediately was pulled from my slump and smiling like a fool. Which in my opinion is the best way to smile.

One of my twins cut her hair so i took her to get her hair cut which was fun. then we played like dennis suggested

Its amazing to know the sense of community that total strangers can give you. but yet not strangers. I've read each post and taken each to heart and appreciate them all.

Thank you again.

Peace

[Kindling]

Awesome Pixiedust!!! So glad you are feeling better. On no, kids cutting their own hair - yikes - LOL! My kids have done that too, uggg, not pretty haha :-)

[Star1111]

Pixiedust
I'm glad youre feeling a bit better.
It was all the LOVE coming your way

IF this ever happens again, and we all feel like that sometimes, try to see yourself observing the feeling be it depression, anger, whatever it is your mind is feeling.

Just observe it , don't judge it or try to analyse it.

By doing this you cease to give the 'emotion' any power and emotions only gain power if they are fed.

Just observe. It will die away if you don't feed it.

Takes practice, LOTS of practice, but it seems to work.

With LOVE to you

[blufire]

Remember to keep some Pixie Dust for yourself . . . . . .

[lindabaker]

Hi, PixieDust, I have returned to this forum lately after a long while, and I do remember you. I want to say that I have been in your situation. Young child, husband overseas, no family to help. The lack of personal time is overwhelming. No woman or man should have to be the only responsible person with young kids! It's nearly impossible not to lose your mind at times. The only time I ever spanked a child is when I was in that Alone with Young Kids situation. I liked Dennis's suggestions. You actually do have adult companionship, even though it will be through the written word on forums such as these. Right now, you may be feeling like you don't have a life. And it's very boring to be trapped with kids, we have to admit it. Isolation is a bummer. All I can say, is, you will one day look back and want to live just one day like you are living now. When your girls are gone, you will be sad about that, too! My point is, is that there is no relief for you, and it's really really hard. I will be thinking about you, and knowing you will get through this. If you can't afford child care so you can exercise outdoors by yourself, see if you can network with other stay at home parents. Trade off the time if you can fully trust the other parents. It takes time to gain that trust, but you can do so by having play groups and your house first. Then, you can see how the other children behave, and that will tell you everything you need to know.

There were times that I would have given almost anything just to have five minutes to exercise, or take a long shower, or meditate. As you know, you have to sleep and clean house when the kids are sleeping, so I imagine you have no time for these things right now. You are on duty 24/7 and it sucks. It's okay to admit it. Linda

[Calz]

What giovonni and greybeard suggest is quite true ... there are reasons for emotional responses to what everyone is experiencing now energetically. Good news is you are most definitely not alone ... not such good news is it will likely get worse before getting better.

Hang in there and take comfort from your friends here to fill in the spaces where seperation from your family members exist. Always know and remember how much they love you.

Source: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rOGNK0nVjUg