I need to address something in myself that keeps me a little frustrated, and I think it's an unworthy need to be invisible as much as I can.
I haven't offered a lot, other than an occasional smartass remark or something useful if I know that I know what I'm saying. And a little confrontation maybe because I get some verifying little thrill from it.
But I need to offer you this, because you're my companions. The people in this little virtual world are a big part of my association with the outer world, and this experience in time for me.
When I'm looking at all the ideas that are offered about this year, and the 'possibilities' that people like to entertain, I feel a little numb. At first I was a little stirred and then a little frightened, angry, then stirred, and mostly confused. It is numbing. No one can discern the truth from any of it because there is no truth in it.
I can get in my car and drive to town, and I can tell someone later that 'I drove to town', and that seems like 'a truth'.
'Why' I drove to town is more to the truth of it.
Why is this all occurring? I don't care what it is that's occurring.
This is what I know, because this is what's happening to me.
More and more, I'm willing to engage the truth about me. What I know most certainly and what I'm most afraid of, is what I am, because it's totally different than my experience as a mind remote-controling a body around in space/time. Now I'm experiencing the incredible tension of a mind in a body stretching into the infinite.
The mind doesn't agree that it's okay to do that. It has a warehouse of fear that it throws up to distract that from occurring.
It's occurring anyway.
It's not fun. It's painful, even devestating a lot of the time.
Fear is the only obstacle. And it's not real in any sense.
But it's there, sometimes hidden. Don't misinterpret this; It's there in you too.
I squirm and complain, but I am in God. There is no other place. The world is not an entity separate from us, and we're not a virus that needs to be mutated so we don't kill her.
That's crazy. Insane. It's a movie screen.
The world, like everything on it and around it and that supports it is here for our benefit. The universe is an effect of your own consciousness. That's how big you are.
Ya...that is scary.
So I need to give you this because it's so evident to me, and not quite so to everyone.
Evidence of it doesn't change it. You are in God.
If you're worried, if you're excited, if you're confused or tired. You are in God. No matter what it seems is happening, no matter what you feel, what you know or think you know, what you fear the most, you are in God.
What you do, what you don't do.
Don't give me nonsense about what you think God is. I don't care, don't tell me.
There is only one root to every fear; that you're not safe. That you are not in God.
You can't be anything other than totally perfectly safe.
If it's your time, it's your time. If it isn't, there is a time. It doesn't matter.
Here is a warning; that when there's a bullet coming at you, it isn't the 'higher' mind that compels you to duck. Yet you'll choose 'don't get hit by the bullet' before you question why, or who is deciding.
You'll reason, 'well it's because I'm a body', or 'I have a body'.
It's entirely possible to mistake a portal for a bullet. You need to train your mind to allow, rather than interpret.
'Trust' is another term you can use. Work on it.
Don't do anything dumb like try to breath water, but try not adjusting from discomfort. That's easy and harmless.
So the scientists should like that, the Christians (maybe), ET guys, conspiracy guys, freedom guys, the seekers, etc. I love you all. You keep me going. We're all in God. You don't have to figure anything out.
Just love as much as you possibly can and especially allow yourself to be loved
and be safe. That's the core of the problem.
That's my effort for today. Thanks.