Thanks to All~ Hurritt Enyeto, Morning Star, RedeZra and Moxie ~ for your post and comments, also RedeZra ~ your articulation in expressing your thoughts and clear thinking was of the superb kind.
Let me first say this thread is not about blame, nor is it about bashing the catholic church, priest (males) or even religion. For me it is about allowing, healing and moving on~ as a confirmed catholic, i took a solemn oath to follow the path of Jesus (Christ) and to obey and uphold the laws and traditions of the roman catholic church. i have always aspired too the first, but have been lacking in the second~ due mainly to the hypocrisy and inconsistencies of the church in practicing what it preached. This lacking by the church and its ongoing leadership, is what i believe allowed this human conditional flaw to manifest develop and continue to perpetuate unchecked. It is quite apparent Jesus~ life teachings ("the Word") and revelations > got pushed aside by the worldly (perpetuating) agenda of the hierarchy of this institution. But that's the rub~ "the Word" was never meant to be institutionalized> it was meant to be consumed > learned > realized > then lived (practiced) by (hopefully) an awoken~ enlightened human race