Asking for your help

[Natalia]

Ok guys, I am going to just come out and ask for help. I see and feel the warning signs and I said that if I need to ask for help, I will. I have been going through a stage of depression and I don't want it to get worse.

I'm not sure what it is, but I feel like I need some extra special help, that is not just to do with love (though that is very nice and it is all that I need sometimes) but an opportunity maybe...I don't know exactly...

I need hope for the future - I really need this.

I need a big life change...but I need help with it...I'm lost and can't do it all by myself...

[Omni]

My ET contacts told me earth will eventually be a utopia. I believed that before they told me such... Eventually we will not have wars, heinous crime, etc. If earth was destined for another reset(apocalypse) they wouldn't be giving as much attention as they are(ETs).

Maybe just have faith inside that earth will become utopia. Maybe that will help? Maybe not. I'm not sure I'm good at inspirational talks. hehe :|

[Frank V]

Posted by Amethyst (here)
Ok guys, I am going to just come out and ask for help. I see and feel the warning signs and I said that if I need to ask for help, I will. I have been going through a stage of depression and I don't want it to get worse.

I'm not sure what it is, but I feel like I need some extra special help, that is not just to do with love (though that is very nice and it is all that I need sometimes) but an opportunity maybe...I don't know exactly...

I need hope for the future - I really need this.

I need a big life change...but I need help with it...I'm lost and can't do it all by myself...

What you need to do, are two things...

• Firstly, you have to know what it is that you want, and you have to be sure that this is what you really do want.

• Secondly, you need to have faith that Source will provide it for you. You don't have to pray for it, because then you are disempowering yourself. You have to know that it will be given to you, and have faith in - i.e. believe in - that knowledge.

Then, when you're ready, you will have it. :-)

[wnlight]

You know that we all love you, Amethyst. This group will probably give you a lot of advise, but perhaps you should seek professional advise. Depression is nothing to sneeze at.

With that said, have you been successful with meditation? Have you been in communication with your higher self? Try asking for a challenging new project to engage your mind and your emotions. We could help with ideas, but your own spirit knows you best and will nudge you towards something good - if you ask.

Please remember that you are not alone.

[johnf]

I asked a similar thing on this forum a couple of times before.
My goals are to cultivate as much awareness as I can in this life, and share it with others.
The best thing i received was, you will need a guide, at least to a certain point.
What that means to me is, I need to choose some specific tools, and find at least one person who has gone farther ahead with those tools than I.
I have refined my goal to include presence in my body, and the full feeling of my emotions.
I have found a group that can help me with that, and I get certain help from them.
That is what works for me.

If you were to share what sort of tools, or paths seem to work for you folks can share better something that might help you.

John

[vje2]

Amethyst
Not so long ago, I was in the same situation you are currently in and like Aragorn said, you must KNOW that whatever it is that you need, the Creator will be give it to you when you least expect it...usually when we are "at the end of a tether"...

Should you require further assistance, I know of a Human Being that can help you pull yourself out of the situation you are right now and do it fast and you will be amazed. He lives in London.

Hang in there mate!

Send me a PM and I will send you his details.

[Daozen]

Nutritionally, you could try avoiding bread, endocrine disruptors and sugars. SSKI, Potassium Iodide is very cheap and safe, it improved my mood a fair bit.

Spiritually, depression could be a sign from your higher self you are not fulfilling your life mission.
I'd find a mission and try and stick to it. There's plenty of things you can do to raise awareness that don't cost anything.

Peace.

[Robin]

Hey Amethyst,

It takes a lot of courage to reach out in the way you have. I sense that you are a brave, resilient, sensitive soul who is stuck on a planet that makes you feel lonesome.

I, too, have been going through a stage of melancholy, as I prefer to call it. It has been accumulating and escalating throughout my whole life, but it has always been temporary. I call it my "melancholy" because it isn't really internal, which I associate with depression. Most of these melancholic feelings stem from external sources: the negative, low vibrations of other ignorant humans around me, war, poverty, disease, etc.

As the late Robin Williams said: "I used to think the worst thing in life is to end up alone. The worst thing in life is to end up with people who make you feel alone."

I have been talking with people behind the scenes (on Avalon and elsewhere) about my melancholy. I have also reached out to neighbors, and I attend a weekly Men's Group meeting where community members talk about their feelings. Both have been a big help to me.

I know that you are looking for more than just words of encouragement, but I just want you to know that you are NOT alone. It is important for you to understand why you are feeling this melancholy at this point in time. Where is this melancholy stemming from...?

[johnf]

Posted by SamwiseTheBrave (here)
Hey Amethyst,

It takes a lot of courage to reach out in the way you have. I sense that you are a brave, resilient, sensitive soul who is stuck on a planet that makes you feel lonesome.

I, too, have been going through a stage of melancholy, as I prefer to call it. It has been accumulating and escalating throughout my whole life, but it has always been temporary. I call it my "melancholy" because it isn't really internal, which I associate with depression. Most of these melancholic feelings stem from external sources: the negative, low vibrations of other ignorant humans around me, war, poverty, disease, etc.

As the late Robin Williams said: "I used to think the worst thing in life is to end up alone. The worst thing in life is to end up with people who make you feel alone."

I have been talking with people behind the scenes (on Avalon and elsewhere) about my melancholy. I have also reached out to neighbors, and I attend a weekly Men's Group meeting where community members talk about their feelings. Both have been a big help to me.

I know that you are looking for more than just words of encouragement, but I just want you to know that you are NOT alone. It is important for you to understand why you are feeling this melancholy at this point in time. Where is this melancholy stemming from...?

Very interesting point Sam, I also feel that a lot of sadness, and other negative emotions are not internal, this is something
that has come up a lot just prior to and since the loss of Robin Williams.
At the same time I can also contact the feeling of breakthrough that can carry us all through this.
Not as in we are all about to be saved , or the world is about to change radically, but the willingness to experience and feel exactly what is going on right now.
That willingness as an ongoing habit behind whatever actions in the external world we are taking is the real medicine needed.

John

[gardener2]

Dear Amethyst I am so sad for you depression is such a soul destroying illness, I agree with Argorn I think he put's it very well. meanwhile my heart and thought's go out to you, as I am sure everyone here feels for you. fondest regard's Gardener x

[Natalia]

Hi all, thank you so much for your warm support, understanding and advice, it's lovely that you care and that we are on this journey together <3

I have suffered from bouts of depression since I was an older child (thank goodness there have been ups and in-betweens, too)...I have had an inner ear virus for the past 4 weeks, have been off work the whole time and cannot do things like I could do before (due to dizzyness and tiredness) so that partly triggered it along with Robin Williams death (it did have a big impact on me - but it's not just about him but also suicide and loneliness and personal suffering as a whole...)...

A few friends have said maybe there was a reason why I got this virus, and maybe there is...it is slowly getting better...

I am going to reply to individual posts tomorrow (too tired now, need bed soon).

I will be ok but I need some support...and really grateful that I have been given that here

[Heartsong]

I have been in your shoes. I needed counseling. I needed to talk to someone who was sane, who wouldn't take advantage of me, who wasn't on an ego trip. I asked my "angels" to guide me. The first psychologist I went to was a perfect match. He was an amateur though skilled artist with an interest in the theater. We spoke the same language. He didn't overwhelm me or take over, he listened and offered perspectives and possibilities.
Say a prayer and ask for referrals from people that you respect.

And know that you've started to slowly unravel the knot that is you. It's a long slow journey sometimes but it's worth your life.
Blessings,
Heartsong

[778 neighbour of some guy]

Posted by Amethyst (here)
Hi all, thank you so much for your warm support, understanding and advice, it's lovely that you care and that we are on this journey together <3

I have suffered from bouts of depression since I was an older child (thank goodness there have been ups and in-betweens, too)...I have had an inner ear virus for the past 4 weeks, have been off work the whole time and cannot do things like I could do before (due to dizzyness and tiredness) so that partly triggered it along with Robin Williams death (it did have a big impact on me - but it's not just about him but also suicide and loneliness and personal suffering as a whole...)...

A few friends have said maybe there was a reason why I got this virus, and maybe there is...it is slowly getting better...

I am going to reply to individual posts tomorrow (too tired now, need bed soon).

I will be ok but I need some support...and really grateful that I have been given that here

Have you tried MMS to get rid of that virus swiftly and effectively? Knocked out a serious infection in my jaw in 24 hours last week, my face turned from elephant man to normal in a day( one side of my face was swolen like a balloonfrom my lower jaw upto my right eye, extremely painful).

Perhaps you can give MMS1 and 2 a try, its dirt cheap, will last you a long time and protocols can be found all over the internet, Bill even did an interview with the man who (re)invented it and popularised the stuff ( Jim Humble), its even available in tablet form these days.

[betoobig]

Dont You worry... Your soulmate is waiting for You.
I am with Vje2... Give it a try.
Go for causality..
Love little sister

[Shezbeth]

Besides! It's all bollux anyway!

IIRC Carlos Castaneda describes such feelings as the state of being (something along the lines of) 'pregnant' with a new and exciting revelation, disposition, or realization. Who knows, this could be a good thing.

[joeecho]

Posted by Shezbeth (here)
Besides! It's all bollux anyway!

IIRC Carlos Castaneda describes such feelings as the state of being (something along the lines of) 'pregnant' with a new and exciting revelation, disposition, or realization. Who knows, this could be a good thing.

Is that 'pregnant' or constipated? I am on the toilet...errrr...fence on that one.

Speaking of which, sometimes watching comedy shows, funny animal antics and inspirational videos/ music on YouTube helps me.

{{{{{{{{{Amethyst}}}}}}}}}

[Lifebringer]

Posted by Amethyst (here)
Hi all, thank you so much for your warm support, understanding and advice, it's lovely that you care and that we are on this journey together <3

I have suffered from bouts of depression since I was an older child (thank goodness there have been ups and in-betweens, too)...I have had an inner ear virus for the past 4 weeks, have been off work the whole time and cannot do things like I could do before (due to dizzyness and tiredness) so that partly triggered it along with Robin Williams death (it did have a big impact on me - but it's not just about him but also suicide and loneliness and personal suffering as a whole...)...

A few friends have said maybe there was a reason why I got this virus, and maybe there is...it is slowly getting better...

I am going to reply to individual posts tomorrow (too tired now, need bed soon).

I will be ok but I need some support...and really grateful that I have been given that here

Eat some chicken soup with sliced fresh garlic in the broth. It will strengthen the immune system. Also take some baking soda to ph your body. Disease can't survive in a ph balanced body.

[Joe Sustaire]

Hang in there Amethyst, know that you are loved! Your postings help to brighten my days and many others here. Life is wonderful, but tough at the same time and I also struggle. Funny, as alone as we feel, we know there are many in the same boat. Sending you a hug!

[Star Tsar]

Wishing you health & mental wealth Birthstone girl!!

[Robin]

Posted by Amethyst (here)
I need a big life change...but I need help with it...I'm lost and can't do it all by myself...

I can see that you live in London. Have you given thought to the possibility of city-life -- and the low, negative vibration it carries -- making you feel melancholic?

I don't know what your situation is financially, or if you are able to make big sacrifices, but I would suggest getting out of the city. And I would suggest as soon as possible. Even if it just a mini vacation, exploring rural living and protected wildlife preserves can do wonders to one's well-being.

Have you considered the rural lifestyle? If you are interested in gardening, or have an interest in wanting to learn to garden, I would suggest considering becoming a member of WWOOF (World Wide Opportunities on Organic Farms). There are organic farms all over the world, including in England, who bring on interns to help out. You can go live on a farm for as little as two weeks, or stay for a whole growing season. In return for helping out with gardening and other farm work, you typically are offered meals and housing free (not to mention gaining knowledge and experience).

This organization is all about connecting interested amateur gardeners-- or even experienced ones! -- with organic farms to increase world-wide understanding and appreciation of the planet. This organization offers great value in the experiences you acquire meeting people, being out in nature and growing fresh produce, growing spiritually and learning, and being a part of a healthy lifestyle.

Cities are destructive, unsustainable, filthy places that have been designed to contain people to better control them, to keep a collective low vibration, and to inhibit the creativity and happiness of people. I bet a beautiful, sensitive soul such as yourself would greatly benefit from taking a break from urban living.

I can attest to the integrity of WWOOF, and so can many others. At the very least, I think a break from Babylon-don would be very uplifting. The world is a big place waiting to be enjoyed and experienced, with so many wonderful people to meet. It is easy to feel suppressed, lonely, and anxious when being cooked up in a city for a long time.

I feel that a beautiful soul such as yourself is just waiting to open up her wings and express her sensitivity and creativity to the world. The world needs people like you, and there are people dreaming about crossing paths with such a soul as yourself. So what's stopping you?