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    I just came back from out-of-town (the only time I'm happy) and it all came back so acute and hopeless. Is my home targeted? is there something planted there or do they just continually target it, to get to me while at home? What can I do? I do protection measures, but doesn't seem effective. Please help. Please remember to pray for me if you can.

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    Thinking of you and hope you will be well. Time to rearrange the furniture, sage, and sweep salt on the floor. There can be many reasons you are feeling this way. Make sure to get as much support as you can from friends and family you can trust and let them know what is going on. Glad to see you're reaching out. Targeted individuals usually are targeted all the time including when they are on vacation etc. You may have some strong EMF in your home, personal issues, stress... the list goes on. Not enough information to go by from you, however, certainly enough for folks to send you love and healing no matter what the issues are.

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    Of course you will be in our thoughts & prayers! Sit down & make a list of the things that make you "happy" when you are "out of town". Then start thinking about WHY you are unhappy while "home"; after all your home is supposed to be your refuge from the Outside! As Kristin said, you don't give us much to go on; but we DO have your best interest at heart!

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    Think about solving this issue:

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    Default Re: What is this? I want out so bad

    With every ounce of your being and resolve, tell whatever it is that is affecting you that you don't "consent" to it.

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    thanks much for your kind words and support. As for being vague or cryptic, I often suspect 'they' are watching everything I post, you know (or at least I assume you understand). However I have sometimes got the impression they were not as all-around coordinated as they want us to believe, ie, sometimes they might enlist a low-life to pester/frighten me or arouse suspicions who doesnt necessarily know why or anything else about me.
    I want to tell you a story about why I chose my username.
    In 1977, i was 9 and my father had recently been framed for embezzlement, by corrupt bankers who didn't like his asking the wrong questions. My dad is on the Aspie/autism spectrum but of course never diagnosed or helped for that. He ended up in banking because he was good at math. He was never the big business kind of person, he was just good at math and data analysis but preferred to be quiet and behind the scenes, he wasn't greedy or flashy, and he showed his dismay and suspicions on his sleeve when he saw things in banking that weren't right. So they framed him for an error of $22.70, ended his banking career.
    So... that summer we lived near Kansas City, and we went to the Starlight theater...
    I sat on a bench alone while my family was in line for tickets. After about 10-15 min my mom and sister came over and sat next to me. A couple minutes later a man came up to me and said "that man over there in the striped shirt has something for you." (the staff wore striped shirts). I was thinking 'candy' and I started to get up and go with him.
    My mother was right next to me on the other side and grabbed my arm, like, No, don't go with a stranger.
    I saw the look on the man's face, for about half a second. He RAN away as fast as he could. In that second I realized a lot- that he had been watching me, that he had wanted to harm me, etc. It all came clear, things I didn't know minutes earlier.
    My mother kind of brushed it off, told me 'Don't ever walk off with a stranger' but then acted all normal. I think it was just too much for her to digest- the possibilities, etc after my dad's ordeal, so she didn't tell security or anything.

    This was just weeks or months after a series of etheric abductions, which I described in another thread, were for only one brief period and I think they left me alone because of my head injuries, as if I was damaged goods. But they weren't completely leaving me alone, just not abducting my soul/etheric body anymore.

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    Quote Posted by Starlight77 (here)
    [...] So they framed him for an error of $22.70, ended his banking career. [...]
    Harsh.. thank you for posting.

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    Always bear in mind there are a number of things it could be, besides a targeted mind control thing.
    • Some houses/apartments are 'sick'. (Mold? Toxins? Asbestos?)
    • Some are on 'sick energy lines', which are a real phenomenon. There are documented cases of where one person in every house on a street has come down with cancer, for instance.
    • Some houses or apartments, where bad things have happened, can have entities stuck to them or in them. They can sometimes cause havoc with health and well-being.
    Dr Robert Duncan states that ceramic tiles are excellent insulators from EM effects. Not too hard to do... looks a little weird, but just tile your entire bedroom (floor, walls, ceiling), and then paint/wallpaper/carpet over it. (Bedrooms are important, as we all spent 1/3 of our lives there...)

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    excellent advice Bill I for one do not believe in this targeted thing so for me it could be any of what you said or maybe more. well we are all targeted.

    To OP I have been in this kind of situation a number of times but I got out in no time. I never look into this targeted thing though. What i did is to take lots of exercise and a break away from the rat race. have you considered that you might be barking at the wrong tree.

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    Bubu- Yes and No. The consent issue and self-care are always relevant (and self-determination, LOA, etc).
    But.... they gave me cancer. And I'm sure of it. It wasn't the first directed energy weapon attack. In a moment of despair last year I consented and said let them give it to me... 3 weeks later I found a mass in my leg. It was in my driving muscle (I drive a lot, they have targeted me before at major interchanges where they knew I'd be on a scheduled basis), and their weapons are heat-seeking, target-seeking, so it went right into my driving leg. Which is now maimed. I'm almost done with a course of radiation. I don't want any more traditional treatments. I withdrew my consent, and I eat bitter apricot seeds.
    But just FYI Bubu, I am 100% certain I am a targeted person. Many things have shown me this.
    I do also live in a sick neighborhood where it's rural and cheap and people come to die up here, usually due to substance abuse. There is tons of fighting and for years I noted a really sour energy around a neighbor's house and found out later it was the site of a murder-suicide. Just a few weeks ago there was a triple homicide execution style over pot plants.... so yeah unfortunately there is that vibe and some of us have to do extra to shrug off the dark energy. Thank you.

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    Hey Starlight, having the strength and courage to reach out for advice is huge IMO! Let it help build up your commitment to never give up in any way!

    Trust me, I know how hard things can sometime be. I have been fighting against something for years, so you are not alone in that regard. There are many people here that have experience and methods to share - good advice for many situations. When you do things to fight back and/or protect yourself, do it with strong conviction! When I sage my home I fill myself with confidence and I always feel awesome and uplifted! A positive attitude can go a long way as it boosts your energy!

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    Quote Posted by Bill Ryan (here)
    Always bear in mind there are a number of things it could be, besides a targeted mind control thing.
    • Some houses/apartments are 'sick'. (Mold? Toxins? Asbestos?)
    • Some are on 'sick energy lines', which are a real phenomenon. There are documented cases of where one person in every house on a street has come down with cancer, for instance.
    • Some houses or apartments, where bad things have happened, can have entities stuck to them or in them. They can sometimes cause havoc with health and well-being.
    Dr Robert Duncan states that ceramic tiles are excellent insulators from EM effects. Not too hard to do... looks a little weird, but just tile your entire bedroom (floor, walls, ceiling), and then paint/wallpaper/carpet over it. (Bedrooms are important, as we all spent 1/3 of our lives there...)
    The energy lines you speak of, this has happened to a friend of mine. She lost her hair and all sorts due to this one house. She is no longer there and has had no problems since (with hair).

    From what I remember, I believe negative entities are often attracted to the negative lines/areas.

    Bill is right about using critical thinking to determine the cause, though. One house my sister was in, they thought she was getting sick due to asbestos in the house. She didnt get any better when she moved. Infact, her health became worse.
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    With sincere respect for you, why would you be targeted? What is so special about you that would cause this kind of over-the-top activity? Obviously, you must have asked yourself that. Or do you think you were targeted at random. I am not ascribing this to you, but I knew someone who also felt targetted. Turns of that particular person had a long history of meth usage, which can create paranoia and delusions. He claimed it was all originating from the next door neighbor's house. So I got a group of guys together and we went over there. There was no basement (in California you would need to blast to have a basement because the area was built on granite). The house was empty. We had a couple guys spend the night without telling our targeted friend. He insisted that the interference was ongoing all night, coming from the house. But 2 guys spent the night there. NOTHING was going on there. I am sure this post will be very unpopular since most people on Avalon seem to believe the most far fetched things. For that reason, I am leaving. This is my last post.

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    Nice rooftop for a garden. where are you PA or NY or NJoisey?I'm into the green trades. Energy efficiency, grey water recycling, solar and wind. also thinking water flow water wheel power from streams.

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    Quote Posted by Dylansdad (here)
    .....since most people on Avalon seem to believe the most far fetched things.
    What lead you to this conclusion Dylansdad?

    Personally, I find that among those who are willing to seriously investigate "far fetched" claims, the people on project Avalon (on average) are about as sober and critical thinking as one can find on the net.

    Perhaps, the fact that no one before you has raised the possibility of paranoia as a possible cause for starlight77's conclusions has more to do with being polite and gentle instead of being gullible.

    To feel victim of being targeted is a terrible experience and to be met with instant skepticism when trying to raise the subject on a forum in order to find help is perhaps not the best way to get to a solution for the problem (whatever that problem might turn out to be).
    hylozoic tenet: “Consciousness sleeps in the stone, dreams in the plant, awakens in the animal, and becomes self-conscious in man.”

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    why couldn't u have just left? why do people feel the need to make a grand production of leaving an internet message board.good riddance sir





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    With sincere respect for you, why would you be targeted? What is so special about you that would cause this kind of over-the-top activity? Obviously, you must have asked yourself that. Or do you think you were targeted at random. I am not ascribing this to you, but I knew someone who also felt targetted. Turns of that particular person had a long history of meth usage, which can create paranoia and delusions. He claimed it was all originating from the next door neighbor's house. So I got a group of guys together and we went over there. There was no basement (in California you would need to blast to have a basement because the area was built on granite). The house was empty. We had a couple guys spend the night without telling our targeted friend. He insisted that the interference was ongoing all night, coming from the house. But 2 guys spent the night there. NOTHING was going on there. I am sure this post will be very unpopular since most people on Avalon seem to believe the most far fetched things. For that reason, I am leaving. This is my last post.

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    Quote Posted by Dylansdad (here)
    With sincere respect for you, why would you be targeted? What is so special about you that would cause this kind of over-the-top activity? Obviously, you must have asked yourself that. Or do you think you were targeted at random. I am not ascribing this to you, but I knew someone who also felt targetted. Turns of that particular person had a long history of meth usage, which can create paranoia and delusions. He claimed it was all originating from the next door neighbor's house. So I got a group of guys together and we went over there. There was no basement (in California you would need to blast to have a basement because the area was built on granite). The house was empty. We had a couple guys spend the night without telling our targeted friend. He insisted that the interference was ongoing all night, coming from the house. But 2 guys spent the night there. NOTHING was going on there. I am sure this post will be very unpopular since most people on Avalon seem to believe the most far fetched things. For that reason, I am leaving. This is my last post.
    Frankly you are far-fetched to assume I even might be believing what I do out of paranoia or wanting to be special. You are also implying that I might be using meth or other paranoia-inducing drugs. I am not.
    As some people get it, it should be obvious that we can't necessarily come on to a published forum and explain exactly why we are being targeted. One of the reasons I am is due to what I have written online, and awareness raising activities locally as well.

    As I said, they gave me cancer. And they really did. They directed microwave/scalar weapons with heat/target-seeking capabilities at me while driving and the most active muscle in my driving leg "caught" it and formed a very aggressive tumor which grew to be visible and palpable within 3 weeks. Luckily I could feel it easily so it seems it did not metastasize, perhaps giving me a chance to withdraw my consent for the cancer.

    They have used these weapons on me several times, at least. The first that I was aware of was meant to be obvious, like a warning (about 3 yrs ago). And it was- it was obviously a machine coming at the base of my skull from a distance (first on the left side, then on the right side), while I was driving, at a major intersection, at a predictable time (same with the next 2 'migraine' attacks on my cerebral vessels, not as obvious, but I knew by a combination of factors).
    That first obvious attack followed from a week before, when I was holding a NESARA sign out my window. The yuppie behind me in a BMW blatantly took a pic of my license plate (so I wrote down his). TWO people independently confirmed he was Illuminati and ordered the obvious warning attack (that would take some explanation but I'll skip it for now). The interesting thing about this attack is that, as I hinted earlier, they are not that coordinated with each other. I don't believe the Illuminazi Beemer guy knew that my dad was framed, that my family is bloodline-connected and we've been monitored our whole lives, that I had etheric abductions as a child, that I was 'given' suicide programming, etc., or even of my other 'awareness-activism' - he didn't know any of that. He may have found out later, but it didn't matter to him when he arranged the attack.

    These guys are sloppy and getting desperate (guess you could say I am too). This is Cabalorado. Their presence and their methods and weapons are ubiquitous and powerful. I was quite frightened by the first obvious attack, but they don't really scare me that much anymore, they just piss me off.

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    Quote Posted by Patient (here)
    Hey Starlight, having the strength and courage to reach out for advice is huge IMO! Let it help build up your commitment to never give up in any way!

    Trust me, I know how hard things can sometime be. I have been fighting against something for years, so you are not alone in that regard. There are many people here that have experience and methods to share - good advice for many situations. When you do things to fight back and/or protect yourself, do it with strong conviction! When I sage my home I fill myself with confidence and I always feel awesome and uplifted! A positive attitude can go a long way as it boosts your energy!

    You will always find support here in the Avalon forums!
    Thank you. I have found what you're saying to be very true, just in the last 20 hrs or so! I think just by reaching out, I have to take my own efforts more seriously. I've known about monitoring thoughts and emotions, but only slowly getting better at it. I am down on myself a lot, as well as angry at others, and I know I have the tools to work on this and turn it around- so I keep going and have felt much more stable and hopeful since yesterday.
    Funny I often thought about saging etc for once I move away and into a new place, didn't even occur to me to do it now, to clear out where I live now and give it a clean starting over feel, along with my own commitment and gratitude. I will do that saging ASAP.

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    Starlight77, thank you for sharing so much. There are many here who can relate.

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    Default Re: What is this? I want out so bad

    i know your feeling i had it myself in the past, living in houses with many other appartments above and below is another thing, the energy from these other appartments can influence your space so if bad things happen in the flat above you, its getting to you aswell.

    but since we are humans we have amazing abilites to change this situation for a better, there are many meditations that focus on building a energy sphere arround you for protection also working with crystals and orgone (so called holly handgranades) works.

    try it out, having crystals arround you is allways a benefit
    " Loka samasta sukhino bhavantu / May all beings in all worlds be happy and free and may the thoughts, words and actions of my own life contribute in some way to that happiness and to that freedom for all "


    tibetian mantra

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