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Accipiter_Phi · 09-27-2008, 06:40 PM

Thank you ClarkKent... My sentiments exactly.
Here is a quick story of some related experiences with fear vs hope I've had.

I have overcome alot of fear in my life... the loss of my femural artery and the ensuing 11 bypass surgeries to save my leg. They all failed.

I finally accepted my fate, sobered up and lost the fear. I began to meditate on my subtle energy body as well as emotional body. I proved the top docs at UCLA Gondular Vascular, San Francisco State, Cedars Sinai wrong and kept my leg. From starting at less than 60% circulation in my "bad, sans-artery" leg, I was able to visualize healing energy that actually turned minor collateral circulation of the adjacent veins into a wide circulatory sytem that has resulted in a 95% recovery.

I realized that anything is possible.
I began to connect with my dream voice... and ultimately memories of past lives and even premonition dreams. I now have so many synchronicities occuring everyday that I trust my higher self completly. For if anything gnarly was coming down the pike, I know I would be warned accordingly.

Over and over I have prayed for information regarding my family's fate if I stay in L.A. versus following the fear route and moving far away. The following is a quick synopsis of the resulting dreams I had:

I see bombs going off all around me. I am in a seemingly third world country. I have lost my family and am desperatly searching for them as I slog my freakishly heavy back pack around that is laden with gold/silver and basic survival supplies.
I come around a corner to a boy no older than 16 in fatigues. I am unarmed... by design. An automatic rifle is held to my head as all my precious metals (which took years to amass) are gone in less than 10 seconds. All hope is lost and I am left crying in the mud begging the Infinte Creator for a "redo."

Instantly I am back on my property in L.A., My house is on fire (this happens every 8 years or so out here in the Santa Monica mtns). I am setting up the gas powered fire pump when my girlfriend literally floats out of the sky and hugs me. She says, "remember your training, there is much more now" and she motions skyward. The clouds break and an indescribable golden heavenly light appears across the entire sky. I feel a very real tingling rush in my chest; the same rush I get in my dreams right before I begin to fly. I have feelings of pure bliss, pure safety, pure love.

I awoke flabbergasted. I immediatly began to ask again for clarification on the dream... would we ALL be alright? At that moment I realized that a small bird (a bush tit) had some how found its way into my bedroom. It calmly looked quizically at me with its head cocked. "Messaged recieved" I said aloud. I looked at the clock; 11:11. (much more verification was recieved but it would be superflous to recount it here).

I believe whole heartedly that one traverses a very fine line when dealing with preparedness vs survivalism. Over and over again, I am given clear signs that the most important thing I can be doing right now is losing my fear and anger at the PTB through meditation and building my light body. In meditation, I realize that everyone's fate is of their own choosing. Everyone's "truths" are different, therefore, I can only speak for myself.

A simple sentence pops into my head when I revisit these fears: "Failing to prepare is not the same as preparing to fail."

For now, I stay... yet I will pay close attention to my inner guidance for any changes.
Thats my two cents worth of ramblings... Thanks.

09-27-2008, 06:40 PM	#59
Accipiter_Phi Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: over there, to the left... no, not that left, this left! Posts: 86	Re: for ground crew NOT moving anywhere Thank you ClarkKent... My sentiments exactly. Here is a quick story of some related experiences with fear vs hope I've had. I have overcome alot of fear in my life... the loss of my femural artery and the ensuing 11 bypass surgeries to save my leg. They all failed. I finally accepted my fate, sobered up and lost the fear. I began to meditate on my subtle energy body as well as emotional body. I proved the top docs at UCLA Gondular Vascular, San Francisco State, Cedars Sinai wrong and kept my leg. From starting at less than 60% circulation in my "bad, sans-artery" leg, I was able to visualize healing energy that actually turned minor collateral circulation of the adjacent veins into a wide circulatory sytem that has resulted in a 95% recovery. I realized that anything is possible. I began to connect with my dream voice... and ultimately memories of past lives and even premonition dreams. I now have so many synchronicities occuring everyday that I trust my higher self completly. For if anything gnarly was coming down the pike, I know I would be warned accordingly. Over and over I have prayed for information regarding my family's fate if I stay in L.A. versus following the fear route and moving far away. The following is a quick synopsis of the resulting dreams I had: I see bombs going off all around me. I am in a seemingly third world country. I have lost my family and am desperatly searching for them as I slog my freakishly heavy back pack around that is laden with gold/silver and basic survival supplies. I come around a corner to a boy no older than 16 in fatigues. I am unarmed... by design. An automatic rifle is held to my head as all my precious metals (which took years to amass) are gone in less than 10 seconds. All hope is lost and I am left crying in the mud begging the Infinte Creator for a "redo." Instantly I am back on my property in L.A., My house is on fire (this happens every 8 years or so out here in the Santa Monica mtns). I am setting up the gas powered fire pump when my girlfriend literally floats out of the sky and hugs me. She says, "remember your training, there is much more now" and she motions skyward. The clouds break and an indescribable golden heavenly light appears across the entire sky. I feel a very real tingling rush in my chest; the same rush I get in my dreams right before I begin to fly. I have feelings of pure bliss, pure safety, pure love. I awoke flabbergasted. I immediatly began to ask again for clarification on the dream... would we ALL be alright? At that moment I realized that a small bird (a bush tit) had some how found its way into my bedroom. It calmly looked quizically at me with its head cocked. "Messaged recieved" I said aloud. I looked at the clock; 11:11. (much more verification was recieved but it would be superflous to recount it here). I believe whole heartedly that one traverses a very fine line when dealing with preparedness vs survivalism. Over and over again, I am given clear signs that the most important thing I can be doing right now is losing my fear and anger at the PTB through meditation and building my light body. In meditation, I realize that everyone's fate is of their own choosing. Everyone's "truths" are different, therefore, I can only speak for myself. A simple sentence pops into my head when I revisit these fears: "Failing to prepare is not the same as preparing to fail." For now, I stay... yet I will pay close attention to my inner guidance for any changes. Thats my two cents worth of ramblings... Thanks.