How to kick the "red pill" blues?

[starlight]

Hi all :bearhug:

Does anyone else feel weighed down by 100 bricks lately? I can't seem to shake this depressed feeling. My constant pessimism about the state of the world is starting to tinker with my core happiness. I am about to graduate college and for some reason, I'm not excited for the future. I feel like just another slave that stepped onto the belt of society's capitalism. My heart aches for a different kind of world... far away from here. I feel like I don't belong here and Im just waiting for time to pass. The days drag on and sometimes time feels frozen. Im sitting here questioning my existence and the point of it all.:confused:

Someone please tell me I am not alone?

[Bill Ryan]

Someone please tell me I am not alone?

Hey there: :bearhug:

Do read this thread. I think a lot of people can sense this. You're totally not alone.


The Calm Before the Storm... or is the Storm now here? (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?104586-The-Calm-Before-the-Storm...-or-is-the-Storm-now-here)

[RunningDeer]

This week, I felt unsettled and impatient and there’s absolutely no reason in my life to cause it. I’ve experience a slight nausea and other times dizziness. For the last several years, there’s been an imperceptible tug that pulls me off center even though my balance is keen. I don’t post because people will automatically conclude that it’s an inner ear condition.

Relatively speaking, my instincts are sharper and there’s a quickening to the synchronicities sometimes only seconds to minutes later.

My dream states include many that have passed, and I’m in new locations. Of late, some dreams are in black and white, while in others I'll clearly state this is a dream. There’s an uptick in loved ones who've passed to come through in my waking state as well.

I’m ravenous and I require foods I don’t usually include in my day to day. Other times, I’m full even when I’ve not eaten for 12-14 hours.

As for time, it’s either fast or slow. Nothing in between. Most often, I’m living a Monday when it’s already a Thursday or Friday.

The above are a few examples of what I believe to be a change in energy; a welcomed upgrade so more of me engages in this physical form and in new ways.

In short, the tinkering done is being undone.

How do I help it along? I'm still figuring it out, but to name a few ways: 1) a balance between relaxation, expectations and follow through 2) pay attention, turn the unconscious inside out to the conscious 3) step away from the drama..again and again and again.

DISCLAIMER: I still enjoy the show(s). http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/popcorn.gif

http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/deer-popcorn.gif


RunningDeer ♡

[5th]

Yes, there's a lot wrong with the world but hey, we literally create our own reality and anyone has the ability to create something beautiful, exciting and satisfying.

The problem (especially in the early few years) is that when we discover all the bad, sad things in the world we tend to dwell on them and focus our attention on that aspect. If we fall into that trap then we will create a depressing reality. The thing to realise is that everyone, without exception is a master at creating reality - the problem is that most do so unconsciously.

Remember we are immortal beings and one lifetime is no big deal but even so, I would strongly recommend freeing yourself of your current way of thinking about life and to consciously create a better belief system that allows you to create a heaven on earth. It's a magical world with a lot of wonderful nice things in it as well as the bad. Imagine how your life would change if you saw only those nice things?

Don't blame the world for not thinking you have a rosy future. take responsibility for your own personal world (and universe) and create something wonderful. Don't be a victim, that's what they want...

[Valerie Villars]

Starlight, if ever I've learned anything, it's that life will throw the most unexpected surprises over and over.

You are getting ready to graduate and in spite of what it may or not represent, it's still an achievement in work and perseverance. That's something good. You don't yet know how useful what you have learned will be to the future. Knowledge gained that has a purpose.

I thought of two things; the thread Bill mentioned and also just what Running Deer said. For two weeks, until about four days ago, I felt the same anxiousness, unsettledness, etc. for no reason. I never feel like that. But I have lately.

Just walk outside, breathe the cool air and look at the stars. You are not alone.

[Smell the Roses]

Dear starlight, 100 bricks, yes. I haven’t timed an object’s fall in a vacuum recently to see if gravity is still pulling us down at 9.8 m/s^2 still, but I assume it hasn’t changed. The weight seems greater though. Do you play an instrument or sing? That always helps me to cheer up.

[greybeard]

This week, I felt unsettled and impatient and there’s absolutely no reason in my life to cause it. I’ve experience a slight nausea and other times dizziness. For the last several months, there’s been an imperceptible tug that pulls me off center even though my balance is keen. I don’t post because people will automatically conclude that it’s an inner ear condition.

Relatively speaking, my instincts are sharper and there’s a quickening to the synchronicities sometimes only seconds to minutes later.

My dream states include many that have passed, and I’m in new locations. Of late, some dreams are in black and white, while in others I'll clearly state this is a dream. There’s an uptick in loved ones who've passed to come through in my waking state as well.

I’m ravenous and I require foods I don’t usually include in my day to day. Other times, I’m full even when I’ve not eaten for 12-14 hours.

As for time, it’s either fast or slow. Nothing in between. Most often, I’m living a Monday when it’s already a Thursday or Friday.

The above are a few examples of what I believe to be a change in energy; a welcomed upgrade so more of me engages in this physical form and in new ways.

In short, the tinkering done is being undone.

How do I help it along? I'm still figuring it out, but to name a few ways: 1) a balance between relaxation, expectations and follow through 2) pay attention, turn the unconscious inside out to the conscious 3) step away from the drama..again and again and again.

DISCLAIMER: I still enjoy the show(s). http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/popcorn.gif

http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/deer-popcorn.gif


RunningDeer ♡

Thats identical to what im experiencing down to my eating habits Paula.
Its a relief to read what you have shared.
The only other things I can add is a desire to leave this world--done it got the T shirt.

And Ive been getting a sound in the ears which I equate rightly or wrongly as a download.
This has happened in the past since Kundalini awakened.
It may come an go for a few days then not happen for months.
.The sleeping pattern weird.
All of a sudden I have to go for a sleep in the afternoon--yesterday it was for three hours even though I had a good sleep the night before and here I am three am typing about nothing really important--just passing time till I feel the need to go back to sleep.

Ch

[RunningDeer]

Thats identical to what im experiencing down to my eating habits Paula. Its a relief to read what you have shared.

The only other things I can add is a desire to leave this world--done it got the T shirt.


My desire is to stay. I’m open to the surprises. I once believed that the most important thing was to experientially know I am not my body; I am consciousness having an experience. Now it’s - I’ve signed on with this body and how do I bring in as much of the greater Paula as I can to experience and engage and knowledge to gain wisdom and to share?


And I’ve been getting a sound in the ears which I equate rightly or wrongly as a download.

The sleeping pattern weird. All of a sudden I have to go for a sleep in the afternoon--yesterday it was for three hours even though I had a good sleep the night before and here I am three am typing about nothing really important--just passing time till I feel the need to go back to sleep.

Me too. I attribute the ringing in the ears as downloads. And like you, my sleep patterns are unpredictable. I’ll lay down for a 20 minute nap and wake up three hours later. For me, it’s the body’s way to collect, integrate and assimilate the energies. The last couple of weeks, it been that I’m up for an hour or two and I have to drop back off to sleep. I’m refreshed and ready to go sometimes only twenty minutes later. I’m grateful my lifestyle is such that I can go with the flow.

My words to express have mostly gone on holiday, but I know they’ll eventually catch up with the pictures and ramblings. Which is another reason to hang around.

http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/im-ok.gif

It’s been nice visiting with you, Chris.http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/come-in-hug.gif

♡

[Caliban]

What I wouldn't give to be your age again, Starlight!

Yes, even in this time with so much confusion, contradiction, blurring of all lines and realities. What would I tell myself if I could reach back through time? That time only seems to go slow. But suddenly thirty years have gone by.

Tell yourself every day, "I'm young, I'm young and can do almost anything, I can do what I love if I keep at it strong enough and long enough." Find something you love and adore and go as deeply into it as you can. And don't be deterred by cynicism or anything. Time is on your side now. Joyfully use it and follow your own counsel. Be your own best pal.

That's all I got.

[enfoldedblue]

A lot of what is being described here are common 'ascension symptoms' ( I don't particularly like the name...but it is fairly common use among those aware of energy..(relates to effect new transformative energy has on us)).

There are whole groups organized around discussion of this topic. A loss of interest in things that we used to feel excited about is a stage most people go through at some stage or another after awakening (I describe awakening as a multi-stage process that involves taking off the social blinders and becoming aware of reality beyond the illusion we have fed).

Some other common symptoms (several which have been mentioned) that people are currently reporting include headaches, nausea, waking up in the middle of the night, increased appetite, old feelings resurfacing, body heat (especially around the head), heart palpitations, feeling exhausted and over everything, and more.

I find a nurturing Epson salt bath with good quality essential oils to be very helpful. In general the important thing is to take time to pull away from all the depressing external theatrics and shift focus to things that will raise your frequency...getting out in nature, uplifting music (sound baths are amazing way to shift dense energy) playing, getting creative...

We are undoubtedly in a chaotic period of transformation....it is so important that we be loving and gentle with ourselves and with each other <3

[Patient]

This week, I felt unsettled and impatient and there’s absolutely no reason in my life to cause it. I’ve experience a slight nausea and other times dizziness. For the last several months, there’s been an imperceptible tug that pulls me off center even though my balance is keen. I don’t post because people will automatically conclude that it’s an inner ear condition.

Relatively speaking, my instincts are sharper and there’s a quickening to the synchronicities sometimes only seconds to minutes later.

My dream states include many that have passed, and I’m in new locations. Of late, some dreams are in black and white, while in others I'll clearly state this is a dream. There’s an uptick in loved ones who've passed to come through in my waking state as well.

I’m ravenous and I require foods I don’t usually include in my day to day. Other times, I’m full even when I’ve not eaten for 12-14 hours.

As for time, it’s either fast or slow. Nothing in between. Most often, I’m living a Monday when it’s already a Thursday or Friday.

The above are a few examples of what I believe to be a change in energy; a welcomed upgrade so more of me engages in this physical form and in new ways.

In short, the tinkering done is being undone.

How do I help it along? I'm still figuring it out, but to name a few ways: 1) a balance between relaxation, expectations and follow through 2) pay attention, turn the unconscious inside out to the conscious 3) step away from the drama..again and again and again.

DISCLAIMER: I still enjoy the show(s). http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/popcorn.gif

http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/deer-popcorn.gif


RunningDeer ♡

I apologize, because this is going a bit off topic so maybe it needs it's own thread? But I had to jump in because I have felt most of these symptoms lately as well. (Like Greybeard said too.)

I have always been a patient person, but lately not as much as usual. I have lost my patience for no apparent reason - at least in cases where I would usually not have a problem being patient.

I have had a lot of nausea and a number of times I have felt like I was suddenly going to fall over - like things tipped almost 45 degrees for a split second. My wife has also had this happen. ( I have never had any issues with my blood pressure etc. pretty healthy in that regard.)

Synchronicities have always been observed. My diet and sleep patterns are all messed up.

Are more feeling this?

[Hazelfern]

I had a detailed post reply but It went away when I scrolled up to see your OP message again.
To make it short I understand and share your dismay. Hold my hand if you will and we will get through this together.

[Hazelfern]

Yes, there's a lot wrong with the world but hey, we literally create our own reality and anyone has the ability to create something beautiful, exciting and satisfying.

The problem (especially in the early few years) is that when we discover all the bad, sad things in the world we tend to dwell on them and focus our attention on that aspect. If we fall into that trap then we will create a depressing reality. The thing to realise is that everyone, without exception is a master at creating reality - the problem is that most do so unconsciously.

Remember we are immortal beings and one lifetime is no big deal but even so, I would strongly recommend freeing yourself of your current way of thinking about life and to consciously create a better belief system that allows you to create a heaven on earth. It's a magical world with a lot of wonderful nice things in it as well as the bad. Imagine how your life would change if you saw only those nice things?

Don't blame the world for not thinking you have a rosy future. take responsibility for your own personal world (and universe) and create something wonderful. Don't be a victim, that's what they want...

You're a tough teacher but I hear truth from 5th.

[Innocent Warrior]

Congratulations on graduating college, starlight. :Party: Well done!

You can look at it the way you presented or you can see it as a skill set that can better equip you when entering the work force. We all have to pay the bills, having a higher education serves you too, not just the system, and you’re all that matters in that equation.

I was talking to an old man recently and he told me his focus shifted when he got old. I asked him what it shifted to and he answered, “now, the present moment”. He’s not a man who considers himself spiritually minded. I said, “and you’re suggesting I stop wasting my life with the future and skip to that focus coz that’s where I’ll arrive eventually anyway, right?” and he answered, “yes”.

Nothing new there but coming from an elderly man was a sobering reminder for me.

[David Trd1]

Just walk outside, breathe the cool air and look at the stars. You are not alone.

This...Always, and for everything!!!! :)

[RunningDeer]

I apologize, because this is going a bit off topic so maybe it needs it's own thread? But I had to jump in because I have felt most of these symptoms lately as well. (Like Greybeard said too.)

I have always been a patient person, but lately not as much as usual. I have lost my patience for no apparent reason - at least in cases where I would usually not have a problem being patient.

Synchronicities have always been observed. My diet and sleep patterns are all messed up.

Are more feeling this?

Patient, I’d say it’s right on topic. Impatience along with other physical symptoms may be the body adjusting to a surplus or a surge of energy. Some angst may come from the collective soup and one may be sensitive to the emotional discharges bouncing around. For the rest, there’s the tech and psychological manipulations to keep the unseen juiced and fed. And around and around it goes, until one says, ”Enough!” Time to disengage from the ancient game of competition, war, hatred, envy and all that rot that’s coded in our psyche and just itching to be released.


I have had a lot of nausea and a number of times I have felt like I was suddenly going to fall over - like things tipped almost 45 degrees for a split second. My wife has also had this happen. ( I have never had any issues with my blood pressure etc. pretty healthy in that regard.)

When it comes to the body out of kilter, my experience is twofold: there’s the tipping and the other is the body is pulled to the side. The tipping is relatively new. It’s been several year where off and on my body is magnetically pulled mostly to the right. It’s quick and subtle. I use to think it was a timeline shift. Now, my speculation is it’s an inner adjustment to increased energetics of the evolving self and from the cosmos.

http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/scratch-thinker.gif
Or someone from the other side saying, “Hey, pay attention.”

♡

[Joe from the Carolinas]

It can be really draining to be in an academic environment when you feel like you’ve opened your eyes for the first time in your life. Congrats on your milestone, just enjoy it :) Give yourself permission, it’s ok :)

It doesn’t mean that you have sold out— enjoying a success means that you are rightfully enjoying accomplishing a personal goal. You’re a red pilled individual who made it through an oppressive blue pill life event :)

Reality will be totally different when it sets in that there are no more grades to maintain, no further lectures you have to attend, and your whole life ahead of you. You can really do this on your own terms.

:clapping: :highfive:

[Bubu]

Hi all :

My heart aches for a different kind of world... far away from here. I feel like I don't belong here and Im just waiting for time to pass. ?

Waiting for time to pass? thats kind of boring. I guess you have two choices: leave soon or try to make this world as you want it to be just for fun.

[Arcturian108]

From my experience about one-fifth of the general population is either allergic to, or extremely sensitive to, electro-magnetic energies. Many of the symptoms described in this thread of sleeplessness, feeling unstable on one's feet, suggest the side effects of our increasing exposure to EMF energies.

So Starlight, I am wondering if you are like your generation, completely addicted to smart phones and computer technology? If you live in a city apartment building for instance, everyone in the building would have their own wi-fi connection and such signals can be stimulating at all times of the day and night. And I wonder if you may be allergic to this technology and not know it? Right now you can test this by escaping from the urban environment for a while and leave your smart phone, etc. behind. See if you feel any better....

[Nick Matkin]

You are far from alone starlight; I feel it too sometimes and I am probably at least 40 years older than you. But when I was your age I was not constantly bombarded by images from social media and a multitude of TV channels all desperate for something to broadcast. The internet and modern media has a lot to answer for by the perpetual propagation of all that is bad in the world.

How often to you see great stories of goodness, compared to violence, disaster and criminality? The media does this because people like to be scared of something. That fear is exploited by - well, the usual suspects, but that's for another thread.

I very much doubt things are worse now than in previous decades - in fact in many ways much, much better. Just consider life expectancy, child mortality, reduced famines, global conflicts - yes really! (See chart below.) It's just that now we are much more aware of the bad stuff, and that's a good thing becasue once much of the evil is exposed, we can do something about it. Decades ago it was out of sight and out of mind and we all slept sound in our beds, but in ignorance. Yes, there are still serious problems to deal with, but it's not all bad news, really it isn't.

Being much more aware of what goes on in the dark crevices of the world around us is a two-edged sword. It's very unsettling and can make us feel vulnerable, but on the other hand we can do something about it - if we want to.

Please try to embrace your future, much of it is in your hands...


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[Ivanhoe]

Starlight
"My heart aches for a different kind of world... far away from here. I feel like I don't belong here and Im just waiting for time to pass. The days drag on and sometimes time feels frozen. Im sitting here questioning my existence and the point of it all."
This is how I've felt my entire life (I'm now 66). You are definitely not alone in how you feel.
I think part of it is realizing the world, and your place in it, is not what you were taught it was, that there is sooo much more. It makes you feel small,... and then you find out that you're just where you need to be and that the world needs you as much as you need it.
A question of balance I suppose, but I can't think of anyplace I'd rather be. lol
Mind you, these are only my own thoughts and may not mean anything to anyone else, our lives are, after all, designed by us, for us.
Then again, I'm only the fool on the hill,.. what do I know. haha
Everyday is a new adventure.