DrCamera
20th February 2019, 18:36
Hi,
I am new here. I have been gangstalked for most of the last year. I believe it was because I stood up to discrimination for my sexual orientation at a Westfield Mall and became a target when police got implicated. The reality is I may have been a target before then. I earned a PhD in economics 3 years ago and have always used The Matrix as a basis for explaining my freed state of mind. Maybe that made me a threat. I can’t say for sure, so I am currently going with the retaliation narrative because it’s easier to digest for those I’m trying to convince this is happening in my life.
I finally found some videos on YouTube that explained what the organized structure of this targeting pattern likely is this last week after avoiding doing such research since I didn’t want to believe the extent of the strategy. Everything I have found mirrors my experience with the Gangstalking and the likely electronic harassment, along with Police and emergency personnel’s involvement.
One thing I have not found in similar descriptions of the circumstances I face is the pronounced use of aggression enhancing drugs in food items I buy, which seems crucial to the success of the strategy. Maybe this is not needed in most TIs but I found internal peace years ago so those targeting me would know this and know that despite the extent of the gangstalking I am unlikely to react badly. Also, I teach economics at a state university so I am always in large crowds with a variety of perps clearly targeting me on campus, including students in my classes, university personnel and my colleagues in my department. Perhaps the use of these drugs are meant to help the strategy to have me react badly to students or colleagues so that I loose my job. Maybe other TIs that don’t work around large populations don’t need this tactic used on them.
Over the course of the last year, as I was first realizing the extent of the strange behavior I was experiencing I began to feel a strange feeling of this persistent pressure in my chest, sinking feeling in my gut, as well as an enhanced aggressive response when I was fatigued and irritated. The gangstalking had started at the gym I worked out in and since I push myself hard, at the end of a workout, I am spent and vulnerable to being ignited. Given these assholes would come at me in mobs, running into me, congesting the gym, etc. there was enough negative stimuli around me that I would often be set off. I began to notice that when this happened the response would leave me physiologically shaken. Prior to this I would have no problem taking a few deep breaths, clearing my mind and washing away any negative stimuli in my life. Now though I realized that there would be this persistent jitteriness that I never experienced before, which felt synthetic and would leave a strange vibration of my nerves resonating long past the moments of ignition. Also, I noticed at night, when I was at peace generally in my quiet underground basement room, there would be this persistent feeling in my chest and gut which didn’t make sense to me, despite the harsh strange prevalent circumstances I was experiencing. I had spent 7 years in grad school earning my credentials and times were rough, but I was always able to clear my mind at the end of the day and expunge the feelings of stress, etc. Thus I knew something strange was going on.
At the start of these events, when the police officer was implicated, within a week I was drugged on 3 separate occasions. The first was at a restaurant. The second was at a hospital when I attempted to get tested for a drug in my system. The third was from some tainted drinks I purchased the same week at my supermarket. Thus there was a precedent for the items I purchased from my supermarket to be tainted.
When I realized that the persistent feeling in my chest and gut weren’t mine(natural), I began to assess what I bought. I realized it had to be the Diet Pepsi supply I purchased. I knew what I was experiencing was not the normal effects of caffeine, so I stopped drinking it, and the feeling went away. For the first time since all of this started I was back to normal. Meaning that despite the circumstances I was experiencing that were pervasive, I was able to have internal peace and not let these assholes’ methods affect we.
Since the items I had purchased the week I was drugged 3 times were generic Vons brand seltzers at that time I decided to start using Soda Stream which sends carbonation cylinders to one’s home so that one may make one’s own seltzer. I had been using the service for a few months when I stopped drinking the Diet Pepsi and went back to normal. The week after I stopped drinking the Diet Pepsi, I had to restock my carbonation cylinders from Soda Stream so I put in an order. The order never showed up. This was strange because this company has their methods together and their business depends on their ability to fulfill orders. Given everything that was going on I knew this couldn’t be a coincidence. When I called I got the run around and the cylinders were eventually delivered a few days late.
What I think happened was that those targeting me decided they would start drugging my seltzers to replace the persistent drug introduced in my Diet Pepsi. I didn’t realize it at first but within a week the enhanced aggression and persistent feeling in my chest and gut reemerged, albeit on a smaller scale since I didn’t drink as much of this. I didn’t know what was causing it at first but then I started to notice a substance beyond bubbles coming out of the dispenser. When I did, I stopped drinking the seltzer and the synthetic aggressive/anxiety feelings again went away.
This was in late December when I was on break from teaching. Those targeting me waited until about two weeks later to find a new product to taint which would cause me to feel the effects when the new semester began. The first week of the semester, the degree of crowdstalking at the university, and student and personnel involvement was at an all time high and I immediately started to notice the enhanced aggression response. I identified that it had to be the Crystal Light I purchased the week before. I stopped drinking it and the feeling went away.
That was about two weeks ago and although there have been other attempts to drug my food items, I have managed to avoid them as soon as I realized what is happening. What I knew I could start doing is to get a baseline for my blood pressure as often as possible during this time that I am not being drugged so that when it starts again I can prove the difference in my physiological functions due to the tampered items. As often as possible I take a video of me taking my blood pressure with a simple device I bought from Amazon noting the day and time and blood pressure reading and uploading it to YouTube as an unlisted video so that there’s a clear time stamp on them. I am hoping this is enough of a deterrent for those targeting me to stop or at the very least provide a basis of evidence so that I will be able to get help from somebody at some point in the future that would believe me.
So here are my questions:
1. Do you think I am right about the drugging tactic being used sparingly in cases that warrant them or is this a common tactic that perhaps most people are not noticing? If it’s the latter then I hope my experience can help other TIs unravel their circumstances and use the blood pressure monitoring to defend themselves.
2. I have items that I know are tainted but I know I cannot go to police to have tested since some local law enforcement are clearly involved. Does anybody know who might be able to test these items for me that I can trust? I live in Los Angeles and mailing the items is not an option since all delivery services including the US Post Office are clearly involved.
3. I know that there are TI support groups. Are there any in Los Angeles that I can trust to attend so that I can have allies against these tactics in my area?
Lastly, I have been video recording everything that I experience with spy glasses for the better part of the last year and have been compiling evidence about my experience and making a documentary about it, ascribing all of it to homophobia because that is the narrative of my experience. I went to film school before becoming an economist so I am doing a good job of putting the story together. I have not mentioned in it anything that I have learned about the TI program in the last few days but may do so before I am done. Any advice on getting this to someone(s) that could help would be appreciated.
Thanks!
Gabe
I am new here. I have been gangstalked for most of the last year. I believe it was because I stood up to discrimination for my sexual orientation at a Westfield Mall and became a target when police got implicated. The reality is I may have been a target before then. I earned a PhD in economics 3 years ago and have always used The Matrix as a basis for explaining my freed state of mind. Maybe that made me a threat. I can’t say for sure, so I am currently going with the retaliation narrative because it’s easier to digest for those I’m trying to convince this is happening in my life.
I finally found some videos on YouTube that explained what the organized structure of this targeting pattern likely is this last week after avoiding doing such research since I didn’t want to believe the extent of the strategy. Everything I have found mirrors my experience with the Gangstalking and the likely electronic harassment, along with Police and emergency personnel’s involvement.
One thing I have not found in similar descriptions of the circumstances I face is the pronounced use of aggression enhancing drugs in food items I buy, which seems crucial to the success of the strategy. Maybe this is not needed in most TIs but I found internal peace years ago so those targeting me would know this and know that despite the extent of the gangstalking I am unlikely to react badly. Also, I teach economics at a state university so I am always in large crowds with a variety of perps clearly targeting me on campus, including students in my classes, university personnel and my colleagues in my department. Perhaps the use of these drugs are meant to help the strategy to have me react badly to students or colleagues so that I loose my job. Maybe other TIs that don’t work around large populations don’t need this tactic used on them.
Over the course of the last year, as I was first realizing the extent of the strange behavior I was experiencing I began to feel a strange feeling of this persistent pressure in my chest, sinking feeling in my gut, as well as an enhanced aggressive response when I was fatigued and irritated. The gangstalking had started at the gym I worked out in and since I push myself hard, at the end of a workout, I am spent and vulnerable to being ignited. Given these assholes would come at me in mobs, running into me, congesting the gym, etc. there was enough negative stimuli around me that I would often be set off. I began to notice that when this happened the response would leave me physiologically shaken. Prior to this I would have no problem taking a few deep breaths, clearing my mind and washing away any negative stimuli in my life. Now though I realized that there would be this persistent jitteriness that I never experienced before, which felt synthetic and would leave a strange vibration of my nerves resonating long past the moments of ignition. Also, I noticed at night, when I was at peace generally in my quiet underground basement room, there would be this persistent feeling in my chest and gut which didn’t make sense to me, despite the harsh strange prevalent circumstances I was experiencing. I had spent 7 years in grad school earning my credentials and times were rough, but I was always able to clear my mind at the end of the day and expunge the feelings of stress, etc. Thus I knew something strange was going on.
At the start of these events, when the police officer was implicated, within a week I was drugged on 3 separate occasions. The first was at a restaurant. The second was at a hospital when I attempted to get tested for a drug in my system. The third was from some tainted drinks I purchased the same week at my supermarket. Thus there was a precedent for the items I purchased from my supermarket to be tainted.
When I realized that the persistent feeling in my chest and gut weren’t mine(natural), I began to assess what I bought. I realized it had to be the Diet Pepsi supply I purchased. I knew what I was experiencing was not the normal effects of caffeine, so I stopped drinking it, and the feeling went away. For the first time since all of this started I was back to normal. Meaning that despite the circumstances I was experiencing that were pervasive, I was able to have internal peace and not let these assholes’ methods affect we.
Since the items I had purchased the week I was drugged 3 times were generic Vons brand seltzers at that time I decided to start using Soda Stream which sends carbonation cylinders to one’s home so that one may make one’s own seltzer. I had been using the service for a few months when I stopped drinking the Diet Pepsi and went back to normal. The week after I stopped drinking the Diet Pepsi, I had to restock my carbonation cylinders from Soda Stream so I put in an order. The order never showed up. This was strange because this company has their methods together and their business depends on their ability to fulfill orders. Given everything that was going on I knew this couldn’t be a coincidence. When I called I got the run around and the cylinders were eventually delivered a few days late.
What I think happened was that those targeting me decided they would start drugging my seltzers to replace the persistent drug introduced in my Diet Pepsi. I didn’t realize it at first but within a week the enhanced aggression and persistent feeling in my chest and gut reemerged, albeit on a smaller scale since I didn’t drink as much of this. I didn’t know what was causing it at first but then I started to notice a substance beyond bubbles coming out of the dispenser. When I did, I stopped drinking the seltzer and the synthetic aggressive/anxiety feelings again went away.
This was in late December when I was on break from teaching. Those targeting me waited until about two weeks later to find a new product to taint which would cause me to feel the effects when the new semester began. The first week of the semester, the degree of crowdstalking at the university, and student and personnel involvement was at an all time high and I immediately started to notice the enhanced aggression response. I identified that it had to be the Crystal Light I purchased the week before. I stopped drinking it and the feeling went away.
That was about two weeks ago and although there have been other attempts to drug my food items, I have managed to avoid them as soon as I realized what is happening. What I knew I could start doing is to get a baseline for my blood pressure as often as possible during this time that I am not being drugged so that when it starts again I can prove the difference in my physiological functions due to the tampered items. As often as possible I take a video of me taking my blood pressure with a simple device I bought from Amazon noting the day and time and blood pressure reading and uploading it to YouTube as an unlisted video so that there’s a clear time stamp on them. I am hoping this is enough of a deterrent for those targeting me to stop or at the very least provide a basis of evidence so that I will be able to get help from somebody at some point in the future that would believe me.
So here are my questions:
1. Do you think I am right about the drugging tactic being used sparingly in cases that warrant them or is this a common tactic that perhaps most people are not noticing? If it’s the latter then I hope my experience can help other TIs unravel their circumstances and use the blood pressure monitoring to defend themselves.
2. I have items that I know are tainted but I know I cannot go to police to have tested since some local law enforcement are clearly involved. Does anybody know who might be able to test these items for me that I can trust? I live in Los Angeles and mailing the items is not an option since all delivery services including the US Post Office are clearly involved.
3. I know that there are TI support groups. Are there any in Los Angeles that I can trust to attend so that I can have allies against these tactics in my area?
Lastly, I have been video recording everything that I experience with spy glasses for the better part of the last year and have been compiling evidence about my experience and making a documentary about it, ascribing all of it to homophobia because that is the narrative of my experience. I went to film school before becoming an economist so I am doing a good job of putting the story together. I have not mentioned in it anything that I have learned about the TI program in the last few days but may do so before I am done. Any advice on getting this to someone(s) that could help would be appreciated.
Thanks!
Gabe