I'm closed down but snapping

[Angels1981]

Hi im getting worried for my mental wellbeing. You can read abput my saga in my profile.
I feel depersonalisation and im snaoping.
Iim becoming shouting at the voices daily and being upset.
They say that this will break her. They still goibg at me.
Not sure they did 2 years of you are fear non stip after they shattered my brain. Now im thinking how to articulate my ecpetiences.
Im in soul shock. They making me swear altho i prayed n repented. They possible be demons involved. I keep hearing you are fear so my question is is this mind cobtrol and
Why why would they say blasthemy and my fears in my head leaving me petrified. Im raging some days im hurt emotionally because i can see them manipulate and i ask god love help.
One voice says you are in hell. Your guy is in hell. Your a muscle.

[heretogrow]

Prayers going up for you! I am praying to Source to bring you comfort, healing, fortitude, strength, clarity, and balance. You are in my thoughts and my heart.

Much, Much, Much LOVE to you!
Julia

[Valerie Villars]

Dearest Angel, please do not believe those voices. They are liars.

Much love, as dear Julia said above, and prayer and clarity being sent to you.

I prayed the Our Father when they tried to make me doubt, as they are doing to you. Just pray it over and over and DO NOT listen to them.

Our Father, who art in heaven. Hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us. Lead us not in to temptation and deliver us from evil.

Or say your own prayer, whatever it is, over and over. Drown them out. Just drown them out. Say it over and over until you can't hear them any more.

Much love and peace also. MUCH. LOVE AND PEACE.

[justntime2learn]

I'm sending everything I have including a healing blanket :heart:
I pray this helps.

[Olam]

Maybe find something creative to do?
Anything you like to do just to change the vibe.
Painting, drawing, singing!, gardening, taking care of any animal, putting up a bird feeder and watch them...
I send much love to you, a beautiful spirit in a skin suit.

[O Donna]

A post is a shadow of a real hug and reassurance, though, may you sense it in you heart.

https://www.abundancecreatedtogether.com/wp-content/uploads/2016/09/Named-Synchronous-September-19-Lovingkindness-Wedding-Trip-Pilgrimage-047-Oceanside-Cape-Meares.jpg

I would also implore you to heed Valarie's words:


Dearest Angel, please do not believe those voices. They are liars.

[Agape]

Of course their “voices” are deceptive but they are also thoughts and confusions originating with real people.
No matter who they are, knowns and unknowns, once you can firmly recognise the pattern it’s important for you to avoid them.

You have the power to respond in your mind and tell them “what you really think about it” without physical or verbal confrontation and stop them trying to engage you.

If they’re mean, be meaner. Tell them their time is gone and no person protecting their rights and sanity would ever come anywhere near to where they are.

“They” may be rich or powerful but foremost, totally superconvinced about their own importance and intelligence or wisdom offering others
“to help solve their problems” in some manner.
Of course they prey on vulnerable, younger people, females the most but anyone of any age is good enough to be their “student” and victim,
as it enhances their own feeling of superiority.

Once they “fail” in communication with the chosen victim who refuses to be “subdued” they sometimes retreat to “magic thinking”.

They realise- perhaps painfully- that they’re unwelcome intruder in other people’s minds, not a guest or Big Brother they aimed to be , that’s when they start cursing and swearing and speaking dirty.

If any of “them” ever opened in front of you in real time you could understand how much of the “bad energy” they’re trying to hold within.
Themselves are sufferers, demons as you say, holding a pride about being the best in some manner and -too costly to talk to-
but their inner life is simple in fact, and they are lonely.

They are predators who feed on the lowest energy spectra, including ( but not limited to) catastrophic world scenarios, violent action movies, addictions, sex and money. No matter who they are on outside they are dangerous on the inside ,
dangerous in the arrogance of being simple and rude if they “unleash”.


They won’t be long in my opinion ..ten or twenty years and the influence of their generation will be gone - in some manner,
and it’s easier to ignore them than to die for how low and bad they can be.

Of course they pry on self-pity and feelings of sameness and their self image is often distorted while looking to the mirror, not kidding ,
these people do hallucinate themselves - aa heros or smart toddlers ( in 60 or 70 years of age most people don’t see “smart toddler” in you is reality)

Sometimes in life it comes handy to disconnect physically and mentally from all those people otherwise life would never go ahead.

Their parenting, patronizing voices and cliches would stay as long as we can tolerate and when told off they still beg for pity ?

To keep these “old toddlers” alive so they can tutor us about relationships and invade our personality profiles and teach their children and followers the same,
about being self-important and meanly patronizing
so that the world slows down to where they can catch up

because being too fast is useless and being different is “scientifically unproven”?


Let them live and pass in peace together with paradigms they were holding to,

most of “them” can’t learn much new from 3 younger generations filling the world now. That’s a lot of young minds who will naturally surpass all they “can’t sort out” or do without.

These people are real, they seek to damage and control world stability they know so little about.

In worse case scenarios ( and I’ve recognised the danger too late - on my timeline) they have to be named and reported , for whatever sake only to let them know
they are crossing your privacy and their “magic” is form of evil deed.

Any of the individual predators involved would have to come to terms with themselves the first and follow the “course of treatment” or curse they implement
on others, they would have to come to terms with their senses
in order to recover.

Of course they do deserve help “like everyone else” and would receive it the first if they ever asked for it.
This world crouches in pain to help those people out.

Instead, many of them live in dream about “being a peak of evolution”
and all their dignity gets lost in fake pity of others
who they mentally lowered to their shoes
so themselves could feel still strong.

How pitiable they are in their ignorance and pretences,
how disgraceful they are thinking
that their “old dirty world” will last,

make your own Mind

and they will be gone ..


with their myths about us.


🙏🥳🙏

[Angels1981]

I am more positive but i have spirit attachments and ive got my own fears. I sincerely apologise my typos are not there when typing. But they appear when i return after the post.
Ive had blastphemy n making it out as though ive sworecat an archangel. Im devastated. Im trying to focus on creating websires online. Im very isolated abd exhausted.
I just won my photo in willow woods charity calender for next year. But its something in the right side of my ego being nasty. So im also being told im dying without a guy ive loced for 10 years. The angels want to believe but nothing seems to ever surfice and there seems to always be an upsydaisy to having him or a catch 22.
I love you all. Im fighting depression but i do have a laugh.
Im getting overwhemed like unsure if im still being a target or if im failing because its too much. Prolonged.
Ithey say we surpress you we assault you and yet even a cathedral is ignoring me. Im so intelligent.
Like i prayed in latin for no evil forces to be allowed into my home. A vouce then said very clever of you.
I seem to

[Valerie Villars]

My favorite and most effective prayer Angel, is

"May the white light of the Holy Spirit surround and protect me, live inside of me and touch everyone and everything I come in contact with."

In times past, when fear was very real, I would say it over and over and over. Somehow, I don't think they can overwhelm you, when you are in nature.

Have you a pet? A dog or a cat? Animals are very grounding and my dog was an angel who protected me during dark times. She took many bullets for me, so to speak.

What Agape says is very true. They are temporary, fleeting and will be gone. You, however, are a child of the Holy Spirit and are loved and protected. Your spirit will live on forever. May peace surround and protect you. Do be meaner to them. Bullies are cowards. You are not.

[Stephanie]

Dearest Angels1981,

You posted this today on another thread,and it holds your trust and truth.

“I trust mother nature she protects me in storms and has protexts me with stunning tranquil waters. I love her sooooooo much.”

🙏🏻💫Golden starlight blessings and protection, dearest angel.💫🙏🏻

[Angels1981]

Its fears generating to obsessed thoyghts on fear of the holy spirit. Its l7ke they plant it there. Like i just woke up to my rodary cross upside down on me at 3am. 3 am i woke up. I dont like it. L ok
Yes. I got a cathedral deliverance team meeting poss too late. Its the language they repeat. Voices too distant. Yes love mother nature

[thepainterdoug]

Angels/ i dont know what to say but that i do care, because you are me. And I want to offer the suggestion that you to read theses NDE stories from this site. They will help I believe. you need to see this is a small picture, a rehearsal. There is a grand , larger picture https://www.nderf.org/Archives/exceptional.html

[Tyy1907]

Angels/ i dont know what to say but that i do care, because you are me. And I want to offer the suggestion that you to read theses NDE stories from this site. They will help I believe. you need to see this is a small picture, a rehearsal. There is a grand , larger picture https://www.nderf.org/Archives/exceptional.html

A few years back I viewed darn near every inch of that nde site. It helped me realize - or confirm- that a religious background is not a prerequisite for the unconditional love of the afterlife. Something I sensed but needed further validation of. And now also realizing we can access this love and assistance if we genuinely ask. It can take time though as it has to sometimes work through the barrier of karma.

[Gracy]

Angels, you have much love and strength backing you here. Stand in that when needed you are not alone.

:muscle:

[Angels1981]

All i hear is blastphemy n it sets me off. They are ultra or demons. They openly admit to who they are.
They keep saying i forfeit my soul. They unnerve her. Thriugh your fear almost brainwashing. You have no idea. I got rid of a dvil or small black thing vame from me last night. They day its got her mouth. They almost breathe throug me. They say i hace a guy i need to love write gv. They keep changing the actor look a likes.
I exhausted. Im told non stop i put this guy in hell. Im not loving him. Always an excuse.
They said they making i hear i hate jc i hate holt spirit the very opposite of how i feel.
They its like slowly they trying possession or killing me.
They i never have a nornal life. Im started to resent n bitter at heaven unless thats not me. Im so sad n in emotional pain.
I did rosary but it must be ultra or a mix because they love doing voices n i wish jesus christ be here. They non stop call me nob or dick. N thid is everyday. Like why wont i shut down. Just like fear
Im so exhausted. I z in latin that no demons allowed to cross here n a voice said very clever.
They saying i have to go on run from ultra or fight demons to get a boyfriend. If i ignore them they go louder. They openly admit they asault me. My ego like im done.
I just wamt to love me. Your so kind. Cabt understand why im like this. Its 15 years im getting tired of fighting

Love you. Nde very interested because i wondrr if i had one since the attack

[Angels1981]

They done something to me like identity fraud im petrified. In my head they go she a thing in. The past.
Then they go you are not here. You are in drag you are in your head. You used to love me. Yet if i go in my head to think they go you are in your head. You are not loving non stop.

[Karen (Geophyz)]

Angels know that we all love you and our love is stronger than the deceptive voices. You are strong because we are all with you. You are not alone.

[Angels1981]

They are demons mixed with tavistock type people. They have openly admited it.
I feel like im dying inside they saying they are fighting over my soul abd that im their worst nightmare.
One devil called terror left yesterday. But ive hesrd blasthemy of the hs this leaves me in fear. They just said they defile me on ourpose and im their worst nightmare.
I need lots of love because im failing in human errir. They call me a chicken but im struggling because they got my soul to ignore my head when making decisions. I feel extreme weak. Im not crazy. Im just need safe zone. They call me it. They think im all fear non stop they brainwashing two years. I hear a voice saying give her a break. They trying to get me isolated. Been to delivery team. If i go to say i love the holy spirit. Something breathing through me saying the opposite.
The government is creating hell on earth. Thsts the plan. Tvey will make it so you think god the love has condemed us all. I kniw the plan and they dont like it.
My problem is my identity. They did me.
Ive not had a social life olay time to laugh. Because these idjits think. Im scsred that im not recognise love voice.
Im not crazy im too intelligent n they openly stated they want me dead.
I just want love until fear goes.
Thank you.
Dont ask me why this happening to me. Angel

[Agape]

I wonder how many people are experiencing something similar these days (but don’t or feel they can’t talk about it except for best friends), in various formats of course,
some are thinkers with character facing the corruption of every level,
some are feelers, artists, doctors confronted
with moral paradigm everyday in their work and decisions,
people stranded in between the borders “belonging to no one”,
feeling unwanted,
even people working in government offices collapsing physically and mentally after years of tolerated abuse and intrigues, decently looking people going after each other’s necks.

I do know how it feels being confronted by straight lies, some form of dirty lie in your face, being forced image that’s never occurred in your mind ever,
someone else’s distorted version of reality.
It’s probably common part of so-called “psychological abuse” and if repeated long enough it’s meant to result in personality dissociation syndrome and psychosis.

It’s a method used by nasty parents, nasty psychologists, nasty cult leaders and investigation agencies all over the world.


The sanity - good health of your mind matters for the whole Big Picture of things and in long run, therefor protecting your own sanity is the only defence and the sharpest weapon in your disposal.
Do not let this to go too far from you 🙏

Take a break, leave for walks, see good friend, find any comfort zone where you feel better. Start working things out smartly from a comfort zone not from where you feel under attack.

Unless you want someone else to help you sort it out such as doctors, you have to find your comfort zone and key to yourself and the situation.


If you can’t, there has to be a healer you can talk to openly.


Don’t just let it be



Much love and prayers for you 🙏❤️🌈

[RunningDeer]

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http://paula.avalonlibrary.net/Love/blessed-fire.jpg

[RunningDeer]

If i go to say i love the holy spirit. Something breathing through me saying the opposite.

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[janette]

My love pours out for you that you shall find eternal peace in this life and beyond 💖💖💖

[Ernie Nemeth]

Angels, I wish I had an answer.

I've suggested things before that you clearly were already aware of, so that's not it. I have no experience of voice-to-head technology.

I can only speak from experience. I have a persistent voice in my head that shouts its truths out in an almost desperate attempt to convince me of things I do not believe. Sometimes I have to give it some room to rant. This much I can hold in my mind during such episodes.

What I forget is that this voice is the proof I am not my body.

To put it poetically:


This thing that whimpers and makes small is not me.
I am the White Dove soaring wide and free!
I am who I am and so it shall be!

Be free of the thing you have made, it no longer serves...

All good things, and peace.
love,:heart:
Ernie

[Icare]

Dearest Angels,
I'm sending you protective Christ light, along with many others here on Avalon.
Please don't give in to those voices. Remember who you are, always, you are of the light.
Please know you are not alone in this struggle.
I think you already got some good advice here in this thread. Keep on keeping on, you are stronger than those voices. Never forget that.
Sending you much love and healing light as well.

[Agape]

I recall Robert Lee Fulghum (https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Robert_Fulghum), great and humorous writer and poet, Universal Church pastor and explorer of consciousness said something like “when I speak to God, it’s considered in norm with the church, if I admit that God speaks to me the priest disapproves :)

In my head there sits the whole heavenly parliament and the committee of majority.

I invited them all in at some point as my guests
and some decided to stay as long as I needed them to participate.” *

In truth, it’s also “us” who cross the thin line and invade other people’s “dimension of existence”.

Consciousnesses like guests, like big clouds, come and go and float away. Pure nature of mind like a clear Sky is not bound by them neither it’s free of them or seeking freedom from them.
We learn who they are then let go.

From our agony and suffering lightenings of blessings


🙏🌟🙏


* I think he also mentioned some relatives co-sitting with the “parliament” on a wheel chair casting sarcastic comments on his behaviours, now and then till one day,
in his meditation he got the strength to tell him to get off the wheel chair
and walk because they are in his mind and he has the power to free them from suffering.
The person after some- long convincing decided to stand up and said “Thanks Son, you did it”.

He then walked them to the Light he manifested inside his head as a sanctuary and passage for all those remaining ones as well extending its power back to the Source.

Though this may be difficult to do for average person or under all circumstances, it’s certainly a way with it. Create a light passage in you for all those people we didn’t want to part with ...and show them way back to the Source.


🌟🌟🌟

[Anchor]

Angels1981,

I know nothing about you or the circumstances of your life except what I have read on this thread.

I do want to say something, but it will necessarily be general.

Your mind, body and spirit all need attention, but the priority right now must be body and mind.

Take time to willfully and deliberately care for your mind and body. For now just have some faith that spirit tends to take care of itself.

Get the basics right for your body: food, water, sleep, good breathing, exercise preferably as walks outside, among trees, feeling the wind, seeing the water, sun and earth.

Get a basic medical checkup if you haven't already in case anything has become out of whack.

Perhaps don't share to much about your inner challenges with the Doctors unless you are positively sure its the right thing and it is something you plan in advance and not on the spur of the moment.

Turn off the tv and radio and other distractions.

All the while as you fight to take these deliberate steps, let your mind settle and relax.

Ignore the noise. Pay it no attention.

Let the words of those "others" sound out but give them no reception - make deliberate choices in how you think in response to what you notice.

Relax, breathe and bathe in your inner light and in the light we will surely send you and the light you can call on from God.

If those goading echos persist demanding attention - peacefully and willfully ask them to stop but don't get angry, turn your inner light on them with love and drive them back to your boundaries.

You got this.

[Tyy1907]

I heard something today that can help Angels and Avalon understand this situation perhaps a little better. As per the groundbreaking healing work of Karl Mollison, 5% of the population are "persons of interest" or targeted individuals. They're people who have been flagged as such because of prior lifetimes of being a thorn in the side of the Hidden hand. They're able to view past lifetimes of anyone they choose. And they're able to assault these individuals by sending dark energetic beings to these people. And they're bullied RELENTLESLY by everyone around them. Most people have dark attachments, so they're utilized everywhere these people go.

Karl Mollison has a long term client whose story you wouldnt believe. She has had her phone stolen right out of her hand in grocery stores. Shes had her phone stolen out of her center console in her vehicle. Her tire slashed numerous times. Shes bullied at work but since shes one of the more reliable employees shes not been fired. She doesnt have a bad word to say about anybody. Her neighbour has accused her of being a racist. He stomps on the floor to try and irritate her. Her own family members berate her. Its orchestrated to happen by everyone around her.

Ever wonder why some people have such bad luck?

Angels you're not alone in this way and it shows the personal power you have by your past life accomplishments, and the fact that you're still holding on as many would have fallen to the wayside by now. You have divine support flowing to you via these forum members and others. Requesting more divine support for you right now. Much love!

[Angels1981]

I wonder how many people are experiencing something similar these days (but don’t or feel they can’t talk about it except for best friends), in various formats of course,
some are thinkers with character facing the corruption of every level,
some are feelers, artists, doctors confronted
with moral paradigm everyday in their work and decisions,
people stranded in between the borders “belonging to no one”,
feeling unwanted,
even people working in government offices collapsing physically and mentally after years of tolerated abuse and intrigues, decently looking people going after each other’s necks.

I do know how it feels being confronted by straight lies, some form of dirty lie in your face, being forced image that’s never occurred in your mind ever,
someone else’s distorted version of reality.
It’s probably common part of so-called “psychological abuse” and if repeated long enough it’s meant to result in personality dissociation syndrome and psychosis.

It’s a method used by nasty parents, nasty psychologists, nasty cult leaders and investigation agencies all over the world.


The sanity - good health of your mind matters for the whole Big Picture of things and in long run, therefor protecting your own sanity is the only defence and the sharpest weapon in your disposal.
Do not let this to go too far from you 🙏

Take a break, leave for walks, see good friend, find any comfort zone where you feel better. Start working things out smartly from a comfort zone not from where you feel under attack.

Unless you want someone else to help you sort it out such as doctors, you have to find your comfort zone and key to yourself and the situation.
I have the did though. They want to take ur id so that u r nothing just like a demon is. They say you are a thibg in the past n thst im possessed. Im a strong womab but this is too much 15 years of it. But i know how they work. Its satan fullstop.


If you can’t, there has to be a healer you can talk to openly.


Don’t just let it be



Much love and prayers for you 🙏❤️🌈


Tee total true. They admit they are demons and im starting to crash. Im in agony they openly said they want me suicide or commited. Just my shortfall is i react they do say nasty stuff. Im too used to it. If i say i love inside they chanhing it to i haye you. If i pray they target me they keep teling me im fear n that somethibg has me. Its inhumane to fear excessive. All i hear in my soul is, a voice saying all i do is, fear. I have no memories i have no imagination. Im becoming hateful n givibg up. Im in agony i find it hard to articulate what they done to me. When i oray in latin they go its, ur language. I feel like a dean winchester these days. The words in this post explicitly say how i feel. My family dont visit they checkin they dobt hug or love they say i dont need it. Its like they changibg n conditioning me. Im not a happy bunny. They tell me to get my boyfriend i have to be either on the run from ultra or fighting demons. Yet they all call me a freak. Im not im sensitive n they have me isolated. I feel like im dying.

[Angels1981]

I heard something today that can help Angels and Avalon understand this situation perhaps a little better. As per the groundbreaking healing work of Karl Mollison, 5% of the population are "persons of interest" or targeted individuals. They're people who have been flagged as such because of prior lifetimes of being a thorn in the side of the Hidden hand. They're able to view past lifetimes of anyone they choose. And they're able to assault these individuals by sending dark energetic beings to these people. And they're bullied RELENTLESLY by everyone around them. Most people have dark attachments, so they're utilized everywhere these people go.

Karl Mollison has a long term client whose story you wouldnt believe. She has had her phone stolen right out of her hand in grocery stores. Shes had her phone stolen out of her center console in her vehicle. Her tire slashed numerous times. Shes bullied at work but since shes one of the more reliable employees shes not been fired. She doesnt have a bad word to say about anybody. Her neighbour has accused her of being a racist. He stomps on the floor to try and irritate her. Her own family members berate her. Its orchestrated to happen by everyone around her.

Ever wonder why some people have such bad luck?

Angels you're not alone in this way and it shows the personal power you have by your past life accomplishments, and the fact that you're still holding on as many would have fallen to the wayside by now. You have divine support flowing to you via these forum members and others. Requesting more divine support for you right now. Much love!
Hugs you ty get a hug no you guys ate making me strong. They said i was a leader to show the way to love. Ive had blastphemy. Ive had rejection. Ive had bulling and no friends they leave n im sure its the devil doing it like job. Ive had sorrow, pain, close friends rejext me. They called me craxy they accuse me. They got me no memory. Ive seen demons aliens. Ive had to do full time work on top of all this when others would break. Not only that im in a home when i got my depression i was kicked out of my home and told to get a home of my own. Ive managed to keep a roof over my head n a job in lockdown. I praise love n jesuschrist deserves that apprsisal. Im not gloom. Im feeling empowrred by you guys and im very spiritual so pleade be blessed. Im sorry bill for my posts. I do feel unwanted i feel i want my self in me. I am not negative if this makes sense its like they break ur head in then retrain ur brain by allowing no one loving atound but ppk to knawl u down like they z the heads not me but it is. I know every trick in the book. N when i get stronger im gona fight till death.
I do loce me. I do love ppl. Like my mind cant pluck a memory or thought to countersct the bad. Tjere is something not right on right side of me a filter or sometjing wierd.