Fear

[Vicus]

FEAR



This post is for everybody, members and lurkers.



I can´t minimize, Creator forbade, ignore, the latent smell of fear in this Forum from last few months, it make me sick…

Natural my brain understood why and its origin, but my spirit can´t take it anymore…

Well, what can I do? What all warriors do when see his comrades falling in fear, promote courage!

Remember, there is no courage whit out fear, other way you are crazy!

Why we fall ? To stand up! Why we feel fear? To master it! Not the other way around!!!




FEAR IS THE MIND KILLER !!!


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[Savannah]

What most call fear is actually best described as high anxiety. I have experienced several times in my life real absolute fear. I had a man who was watching me wash my car from the side walk across the street. I knew something was up so I went in the garage and closed the door. When I got into the house he was walking up my driveway. I ran for my phone and as I called 911 he was trying to open my gate and I realized my back door slider was open. I remained in control and did everything i needed to survive but the crazy level of fear was a natural product of my fight or flight system. Unfortunately I have several stories like that thus I know the difference between acute fear and chronic anxious worry.

I'm also in mental health so I understand our sympathetic nervous system is initially automatic and it goes into fight or flight to keep us alive. When there is no enemy at the door but we know we are possibly in low level danger we experience "stress" "anxiety" or a low level chronic activation of CNS. It is unhealthy and what mainstream refers to as chronic stress. It's what the control system works to keep us in. However it's not paranoia when they are really after you! Don't bury your head in the sand or fall apart. Prep, prepare feel you have things in control and are a capable person. Ones spiritual beliefs can hinder or protect. if your christian it may not help much. You think you only have one life, you project your safety onto a church or deity. If your are too new age you may over estimate your power in 3D and think you can just manifest rainbows and butterflies. IMO remain centered, this is 3D so you need to do real physical things along with spiritual perceptions. Be alert when necessary, find moments of calm contemplation to reset the parasympathetic system. Prep as best you can and accept it may make no difference and you may have to dodge, weave to survive but you will do that as best you can. My house is ready and I have spent a year hording, canning and learning to garden. Last week two houses across the street from me burned down! If they didn't get it under control all that prepping would have done me no good. I accept I cant control everything so I just deal with what comes my way.

[EarthGirl]

Stop buying into the fear...

Take a chance and step 'outside of yourself' try to take a look at whats going on from a different point of view... If it does not present itself to you then ask for it.... (please show me what is really going on)

It's not rocket science...

It will be shown if that if that is what you DESIRE...

If fear is what you desire then so be it... Personally I can't stand this thought any more, I'm WAY past it.

I prefer just to get on with my life just as it was meant to be, making friends, new contacts and integrating with other folk who think (more or less) the same as me...

I'm looking forward to my 'new life' it's fun :Party:

I have so many new friends my diary is starting to really 'buzz' lol...

My new life is so far away from what our governments want us to live it's laughable x

[Ernie Nemeth]

Fear is the opposite of love. It is impossible to hold the feeling of love and fear at the same time. It can only be one or the other. If you fear you cannot love. If you love you cannot fear.

[EarthGirl]

I LOVE at the moment Ernie for all my fellow humans, it is what I think makes me human x And my heart is growing bigger...


Fear is the opposite of love. It is impossible to hold the feeling of love and fear at the same time. It can only be one or the other. If you fear you cannot love. If you love you cannot fear.

[pueblo]

FEAR

Forget Everything And Run?

or Face Everything And Rise?

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[Wind]

FEAR

False
Evidence
Appearing
Real

;)

"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."

https://theodoragoss.files.wordpress.com/2012/12/the-cave.jpg?w=640

[Mike]

Fear is pretty important actually. It serves a very useful function. I would never wish to do away with it completely. It alerts one to dangers which could cause harm.

I don't think it's wise to eliminate fear. I think it's wise to integrate it, so as to be able to utilize it properly when required and to lessen when not required.

But I understand what the thread is about so I won't ramble too far in that direction. We don't want to be paralyzed by fear. I get it. This is one of my favorite movie scenes of all time and represents the spirit of the thread perfectly imo:
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[oz93666]

Good posts from Savannah and Mike ....

Fear is a valuable emotion , it's designed to get a message across ... "You are in danger ... corrective measures required " ....

Let's take an example ... there's a thread on this forum that goes something like ... " What will you do if they knock on your door to force vaccinate you? "

Many people seemed concerned , they have assessed that vaccines are toxic , and the government may force the issue ...

Savannah is right , what people are experiencing is not fear but concern , mild anxiety ... the strength of this emotion will depend on how convinced you are there is a danger... So first you have to examine the facts again and see if this a false concern , or a genuine one ... If the concern is still there then it could overcome your lethargy and you might actually be stirred into action .....

Many truthers have already moved to remote locations , gone under the radar , got food and supplies .. when you do this the anxiety is gone , you have taken sensible measures to ensure your survival , because these are not normal times ....

"Fear" should not be in your reality for long , if it is , you have failed to take action ....

There are other types of fear ...fear of death .. this can be fixed by investigation and correct preparations...

"Irrational fears " maybe due to unconscious past life trauma .. even this can be healed ...

[pueblo]

Fear is pretty important actually. It serves a very useful function. I would never wish to do away with it completely. It alerts one to dangers which could cause harm.

I don't think it's wise to eliminate fear. I think it's wise to integrate it, so as to be able to utilize it properly when required and to lessen when not required.

But I understand what the thread is about so I won't ramble too far in that direction. We don't want to be paralyzed by fear. I get it. This is one of my favorite movie scenes of all time and represents the spirit of the thread perfectly imo:
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Wow. I am absolutely blown away by the synchronicity here!

After I made my post above I switched on the TV to flick around a little before bed. A few channels in and I came across one of my favourite films of all time... Apocalypto!!!

So of course I decided to stay up and watch, I am in Spain atm and the subtitles were in Spanish but my Spanish is fair to good.

There is a scene near the end of the film when he is running in the forrest being chased by 'bad guys'. I had been thinking how it was funny that I had never realised before that the film was a pretty accurate metaphor for the oppression of humanity by the dark ones.

At one point as he is running he suddenly stops and says..."This is my forest"......"I have no fear" !!! He then stops running and turns to face the threat head on...

I immediately thought wow, amazing synchronicity with the post I had just made! Then I woke up this morning and saw your post Mike!

No doubt the Universe was talking loud and clear to me/us...:heart:


This is my forest, I have no fear!

[Journeyman]

FEAR



This post is for everybody, members and lurkers.



I can´t minimize, Creator forbade, ignore, the latent smell of fear in this Forum from last few months, it make me sick…

Natural my brain understood why and its origin, but my spirit can´t take it anymore…

Well, what can I do? What all warriors do when see his comrades falling in fear, promote courage!

Remember, there is no courage whit out fear, other way you are crazy!

Why we fall ? To stand up! Why we feel fear? To master it! Not the other way around!!!




FEAR IS THE MIND KILLER !!!


I would like to introduce to must of you, this blog/podcast whit many interesting visitors and his books, exploring all types of knowledge and they Relevanz for us today.

Last podcast explore similar theme whit my post today.

Admin and creator usually make self intros whit music and films references.

Found your time, relax, and just listen…


https://thegodabovegod.com/gurdjieff-and-the-way-of-the-warrior/

I've been guilty of spending too much time looking at TPTB and trying to work out what their game is. There's a good argument that their game is precisely getting us to watch them and try and work it out:

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The funny thing is that although I've spend far too much time embedded in various conspiracy sites, trying to work out wtf is going on and although I'm concerned about what's going to happen I don't feel much, if any, fear. Some of that I think happens as you take yourself away from MSM sources, because without that constant reinforcement of the messaging I think our natural selves get a chance to emerge and we are not beings of fear. I wonder if there's something else afoot as well though. It's one of the reasons when I see people talking about a change in energy levels or some takedown of malign forces on higher levels that I think there may be some truth in it.

[Vicus]

I got internet connection at the beginning 2004, and I surf in 3 main language plus another 2 I can decipher...

First Red Alarm: i was reading some news and I thought : ok, lets check this news in other country, result was mind blowing: every country write almost every word
the same! How could that be? Well, today I know.


First joy: in the beginning was only GOOGLE (its sound Creationist ),well, let see what they have to offer, I click under music, documental, movies...

under documental where 100 options , little pictures and comments about them. That was in the first page, everything that today are foundations alternative everything... Jordan, David Icke, etc.
Today they are Banned or maybe you can find it on page 666...

First awakening : documental "Loose Changes"

I decided : no more tv, newspaper ,magazins NOTHING MSM !!! Basta, Finito, Ende.

A friend offer me his tv , he got a new one... NO Thanks!

you want to know what peace of mind look like ?

[Journeyman]

I got internet connection at the beginning 2004, and I surf in 3 main language plus another 2 I can decipher...

First Red Alarm: i was reading some news and I thought : ok, lets check this news in other country, result was mind blowing: every country write almost every word
the same! How could that be? Well, today I know.


First joy: in the beginning was only GOOGLE (its sound Creationist ),well, let see what they have to offer, I click under music, documental, movies...

under documental where 100 options , little pictures and comments about them. That was in the first page, everything that today are foundations alternative everything... Jordan, David Icke, etc.
Today they are Banned or maybe you can find it on page 666...

First awakening : documental "Loose Changes"

I decided : no more tv, newspaper ,magazins NOTHING MSM !!! Basta, Finito, Ende.

A friend offer me his tv , he got a new one... NO Thanks!

you want to know what pace of mind look like ?

Congratulations on no TV! I watch a lot less than I did but I still watch some every now and then.

It's been interesting to me to look at the TV schedules (https://www.tvguide.co.uk/), particularly as you go down the list beyond the primary UK channels. I wonder if we can see in the programming a clue as to the mind state they wish to promote?

An awful lot of the programming helps to keep us in a state of fear. Innumerable TV detectives chasing serial killers. Some channels have a non stop series of disaster movies. Sci FI and Horror channels with conflicts with aliens and the supernatural. Shows about extreme climate, natural disasters, endless looks back at the Second World War etc etc.

It's also interesting to me that there's lots of new age type stuff there also. Ancient Aliens, Hitlers hidden bunkers etc. A lot of those shows are seemingly running 24/7. I can't speak to their quality as I am usually looking through Youtube for the work of researchers I like, but I suspect they're cheesy and unconvincing. There to send us down a blind alley or devalue the work of others?

I don't want to go off topic, I think fear is clearly something which helps to control people. This entire Coronavirus episode is very illustrative of that. I hope that we will look back on it as a learning experience and we come out of it the other side stronger into a new age where fear is no longer seen as a tool of those that would rule.

[Vicus]

I got internet connection at the beginning 2004, and I surf in 3 main language plus another 2 I can decipher...

First Red Alarm: i was reading some news and I thought : ok, lets check this news in other country, result was mind blowing: every country write almost every word
the same! How could that be? Well, today I know.


First joy: in the beginning was only GOOGLE (its sound Creationist ),well, let see what they have to offer, I click under music, documental, movies...

under documental where 100 options , little pictures and comments about them. That was in the first page, everything that today are foundations alternative everything... Jordan, David Icke, etc.
Today they are Banned or maybe you can find it on page 666...

First awakening : documental "Loose Changes"

I decided : no more tv, newspaper ,magazins NOTHING MSM !!! Basta, Finito, Ende.

A friend offer me his tv , he got a new one... NO Thanks!

you want to know what pace of mind look like ?

Congratulations on no TV! I watch a lot less than I did but I still watch some every now and then.

It's been interesting to me to look at the TV schedules (https://www.tvguide.co.uk/), particularly as you go down the list beyond the primary UK channels. I wonder if we can see in the programming a clue as to the mind state they wish to promote?

An awful lot of the programming helps to keep us in a state of fear. Innumerable TV detectives chasing serial killers. Some channels have a non stop series of disaster movies. Sci FI and Horror channels with conflicts with aliens and the supernatural. Shows about extreme climate, natural disasters, endless looks back at the Second World War etc etc.

It's also interesting to me that there's lots of new age type stuff there also. Ancient Aliens, Hitlers hidden bunkers etc. A lot of those shows are seemingly running 24/7. I can't speak to their quality as I am usually looking through Youtube for the work of researchers I like, but I suspect they're cheesy and unconvincing. There to send us down a blind alley or devalue the work of others?

I don't want to go off topic, I think fear is clearly something which helps to control people. This entire Coronavirus episode is very illustrative of that. I hope that we will look back on it as a learning experience and we come out of it the other side stronger into a new age where fear is no longer seen as a tool of those that would rule.

People need to grow Balls... enlightment is not for Pussys...

[EarthGirl]

Yes Mike very valid point, but there comes a point when they are trying to get us to undergo the same type of fear over and over and over again. 18mths now !

There are those folk out there that literally can't cope... I am so very, very sorry for those that succumb to their vitriolic poison...

Dr. Hugh Willbourn is well worth an hour of your time.

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Fear is pretty important actually. It serves a very useful function. I would never wish to do away with it completely. It alerts one to dangers which could cause harm.

I don't think it's wise to eliminate fear. I think it's wise to integrate it, so as to be able to utilize it properly when required and to lessen when not required.

But I understand what the thread is about so I won't ramble too far in that direction. We don't want to be paralyzed by fear. I get it. This is one of my favorite movie scenes of all time and represents the spirit of the thread perfectly imo:
I8ibl4nPmRE

[Ernie Nemeth]

I felt my wife's fear today, after being told by two specialists that she should take the shot. She is at risk and she will die if she gets the bug, they both asserted in the space of a few hours. Coupled with her dad threatening to never see her again unless she gets the shot, she is in a terrible state. I have kept her informed about the latest news, real news that is, and so she knows the risks of the shot and the low risk of death due to covid - especially with alternative therapeutics.

Still, I felt a tinge of fear and doubt when confronted with the recommendations of experts in the field. I had to go over everything I think I know to make sure I was still confident in my opinion about this pandemic and its actual agenda. I had to think of so many data points it got me rather anxious and a bit confused. But in the end good old fashioned anger and outrage saved the day. It really is a travesty how this entire pandemic has happened and has been handled. It is a crime! And there had better be consequences at some point.

But for now I just hope we can hold out another three months and resist the mounting anxiety to get the shot, maybe by then some of the truth will come out.

But what if I'm wrong?

See? This is how fear debilitates. It can escalate in a flash to panic and irrational acts.

[thepainterdoug]

Dear Ernie. im sorry to hear this and the anxiety you and your wife are being put thru. I think we all here agree with the topic of fear raised by Vicus.

But words are used and applied in safety, often fall by the wayside in reality. Do not feel bad for having fear. You have something at stake thats very real for you and your wife.
Why if I may ask do you feel she will die if she gets the flu? There is ivermectin and other treatments available and they do work!

regardless, do your best, follow your heart and gut and remain together in love and prayer.

pd

[Satori]

I felt my wife's fear today, after being told by two specialists that she should take the shot. She is at risk and she will die if she gets the bug, they both asserted in the space of a few hours. Coupled with her dad threatening to never see her again unless she gets the shot, she is in a terrible state. I have kept her informed about the latest news, real news that is, and so she knows the risks of the shot and the low risk of death due to covid - especially with alternative therapeutics.

Still, I felt a tinge of fear and doubt when confronted with the recommendations of experts in the field. I had to go over everything I think I know to make sure I was still confident in my opinion about this pandemic and its actual agenda. I had to think of so many data points it got me rather anxious and a bit confused. But in the end good old fashioned anger and outrage saved the day. It really is a travesty how this entire pandemic has happened and has been handled. It is a crime! And there had better be consequences at some point.

But for now I just hope we can hold out another three months and resist the mounting anxiety to get the shot, maybe by then some of the truth will come out.

But what if I'm wrong?

See? This is how fear debilitates. It can escalate in a flash to panic and irrational acts.

But, too, what if you are not wrong?

Trust in your best judgement at the time. Do not change your judgment unless presented with reasonable and persuasive, if not compelling, information and evidence that convinces you that you need to change, modify or abandon your judgement.

Fear is usually not persuasive, but it can be compelling.

My best to all.

[pabranno]

Ernie, I don’t even know what to say. Thank you for sharing. I feel compassion for you and your wife. I echo painter Doug

Pamela

[Vicus]

YES, Perfect!, like the Perfect blossom from "the last samurai" film... that is what fatherhood looks like! ,teaching his son the ABC path of the warrior...(real/spiritual warrior).

First lesson: master your fear! that is 150% the meaning from my post I try to bring everybody!

This is our forest (Earth), I have no fear!

I don't ask how many you are! keep coming...

[Ernie Nemeth]

A little deeper reflection reveals another interesting tidbit.

In exactly the same manner described above, that the fear is combated by logic and rational thought, this society and its obvious corruption causes anxiety on a sub-conscious level. Because there is no definitive proof, and because there is no obvious leader or group claiming a hand in the evil of this world the conviction of the 'conspiracist' is always suspect - both to themselves and others they are trying to convince. This creates frustration and the feeling of futility that is translated by the sub-conscious as anxiety. Given enough stimulation this unsourced anxiety can easily escalate to full-fledged panic - the famous 'panic attack syndrome' of the modern world.

This angst, this enemy without a name, this unseen evil, this headless menace, which we know is there, we know manipulates, we know needs to be opposed, grows like a malignant tumour within our hearts - unspoken and unaddressed.

This is how we live, with this burden on our psyches. For those of us who are awake (the opposite of 'woke') it is like an open festering wound on our souls that never heals.

We were never meant to live with fear in this manner. It must be brought to an end.

[Journeyman]

YES, Perfect!, like the Perfect blossom from "the last samurai" film... that is what fatherhood looks like! ,teaching his son the ABC path of the warrior...(real/spiritual warrior).

First lesson: master your fear! that is 150% the meaning from my post I try to bring everybody!

This is our forest (Earth), I have no fear!

I don't ask how many you are! keep coming...

I've been thinking of this thread recently as there's so much fear based stuff circulating. For example, the 'Doomsday Clock' was moved 90 seconds from midnight. There's a rabbit hole to go down around the group that publish this and the story of its founding, as well as certain esoteric referencing in the images used, but what I think my be more relevant is that there's a consistent push now of nuclear fear. It's interesting to me that a big budget movie 'Oppenheimer' will soon tell the story, or a story of the Trinity test site and the first atomic bomb. There's an escalation in Europe, Asia, Middle East, Africa, with potential flashpoints in Ukraine, Taiwan, Korea, Iran, Sudan and doubtless others. Couple this with economic disruption, the rise of AI, climate fear etc etc. It feels like a concerted effort to move people into a permanent state of anxiety and fear, which we know is not conducive to good decision making or personal fulfillment. So maybe the message in this thread is ever more important as the levers of fear are ratcheted up.

[Helvetic]

Tom Campbell | Fear - Steps on How to Get Rid of Your Fears | April 23, 2023

Source: my-big-TOE.com (http://my-big-TOE.com)

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Fearful? Getting rid of your fears is one of the best things we can do in our journey of personal growth. But how do you go about getting rid of your fear? This clip from an MBT Immersive is one of Tom's best and most succinct answers to that question.

[arwen]

Greg Reese with his usual brilliant 4 minute nutshell summary of this topic:

FEAR IS THE MIND KILLER

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[Journeyman]

YES, Perfect!, like the Perfect blossom from "the last samurai" film... that is what fatherhood looks like! ,teaching his son the ABC path of the warrior...(real/spiritual warrior).

First lesson: master your fear! that is 150% the meaning from my post I try to bring everybody!

There's lot's of stories which deliver the same lesson. Mastering fear is the lesson of the Gom Jabbar in Dune:

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Luke Skywalker also has to master fear which proves to come from within:

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and it was fear of losing his lover that led to the corruption and fall of his father Anakin.

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[Journeyman]

With so much apocalyptic murmerings circulating I found myself wanting to revisit this thread. I don' want to succumb to fear.

maybe others will find this video from Sara aka the Alchemist of use. It talks of the false light, seeking to keep us in a state of fear:

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I think she's a very able communicator, well worth a look...

[wondering]

Thank you, Journeyman, I get so distressed sometimes at the fear exhibited on our beloved Avalon forum. I am here much less and at times consider leaving entirely. Threads about the inevitability of collapse, starvation, war and nuclear events...does anyone not know by now the power of our thoughts and words??? As well, is there anyone who does not understand the seriousness of the battle we are in of Good vs. Evil? We don't need these fears spelled out over and over again with the likelihood of no possible avoidance. To me this is great carelessness and misuse of power, and astonishing in it's carelessness and ignorance. Even our "leaders", if there are some on this site, repeatedly post predictions that agree with each other, especially of a "religious" nature and therefore must be inevitable in their predictions of destruction and horror. I am at a the loss to express myself well on this, but I had to give is a try. It is such a contradiction of who we say we are.

[norman]

Don't get the appetite to be fully informed about what we have to deal with mixed up with a notion of a forum full of fear.

I can't find a post here full of fear, other than these kinds of semi tranquillised posts.

[wondering]

Norman, Could you clarify what a semi tranquilized post is?

[norman]

An expression from a place of fear, but that has been semi tranquillised down to a statement of "I'm only coping by not facing all the ****".

[Vicus]

Fear is a tool in our survival kit, no less , not more...

Likewise any tool you can use it right or wrong, it depends your natural or learned skills.

Whatever low or height your skills are, is YOU who use it, not the other way around...
A tool don't have life, cognition, etc.

How can somebody imagine that a tool could have power over YOU?
This tool serve you to learn for example: caution, walking through darker streets, avoid stranger big dogs, sinister people with
bad habits (drugs, alcoholic, gangster type, you name it ,what for you is undesired)

Only bad news in TV ? or in many Threads in Avalon? who cares!...remember: input/output, garbage in ?= garbage out !
Again, YOU decided... fear ? YOUR choice! don't like the tone some programs/articles ? Fück it! you don't have to watched/reed them!
Fear teach you to select too! who need extra fear? are you masochist? otherwise is just information loaded with whatever
emotions real or fabricated, there are not yours!

From the day we were born there is a war/catastrophe/famine, you name it somewhere, but we are still here!
Fear is an industry too, yellow press, Hollywood war/catastrophe/Alien invasions/Monsters/series killers "films" or programing
if you whish... good news don't sell, movies without drama don't exist!

We all die some day, but I prefer die kicking some Alien ass and not from fear from a non existent virus... :p your choise now!

[Vicus]

Fear is a tool in our survival kit, no less , not more...

Likewise any tool you can use it right or wrong, it depends your natural or learned skills.

Whatever low or height your skills are, is YOU who use it, not the other way around...
A tool don't have life, cognition, etc.

How can somebody imagine that a tool could have power over YOU?
This tool serve you to learn for example: caution, walking through darker streets, avoid stranger big dogs, sinister people with
bad habits (drugs, alcoholic, gangster type, you name it ,what for you is undesired)

Only bad news in TV ? or in many Threads in Avalon? who cares!...remember: input/output, garbage in ?= garbage out !
Again, YOU decided... fear ? YOUR choice! don't like the tone some programs/articles ? Fück them! you don't have to watch/ reed them!
Fear teach you to select too! who need extra fear? are you masochist? otherwise is just information loaded with whatever
emotions real or fabricated, there are not yours!

From the day we were born there is a war/catastrophe/famine, you name it somewhere, but we are still here!
Fear is an industry too, yellow press, Hollywood war/catastrophe/Alien invasions/Monsters/series killers "films" or programing
if you whish... good news don't sell, movies without drama don't exist!

We all die some day, but I prefer die kicking some Alien ass and not from fear from a non existent virus... :p your choise now!

[Journeyman]

I thought about posting the following in the Where attention goes focus goes (https://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?75091-Where-Attention-goes-focus-goes---) but maybe this one is covering similar ground. Either way, this is again from Sarah aka The Alchemist and in her November energy update she warns specifically about buying into the idea of inevitability. I know I'm guilty of this myself, spending too much time perusing the web trying to work out what's happening rather than just getting on with life. Anyway another good watch from Sarah and recommended if you can spare the time:

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[Vicus]

Journeyman, If I may give you some advice, may I ?

Don´t go too mental... in your mind, on TV news, on Avalon...a good medicine is do some physical work/sport sort of...
My favorite is swimming , it relax you ...no matter how old/heavy you are,water support you, in the end you feel your body again and he say "thank you" and you sleep better...
Or get a bike and make some trip somewhere, try to make your routine 2/3 day a week, same with swimming, enjoy it!

I make sport all my life, not because I'm a sport freak, because my character, I need it to relax and then my mind is calm, in silence...

Give it a try and then come here again and spell the beans... :fingers crossed: