I'm not sure I'm functioning properly. Things are taking a toll

[thepainterdoug]

This is kinda of a shout out to everyone. Anyone feel similar ?

I wake in the morning and already feel a low grade sickness in my stomach.

Before I get up from bed, I open the laptop, check emails, J. Prather, Paul C. Roberts, etc then look at P. Avalon and Gab, read headlines, stories and vids from around the world, the latest hard to fathom news, and the downward spiral begins.

And if you say, hey don't do that, just tune it all out ? , well, I feel like I'm fiddling as Rome burns with what ever I do anyway. My heart is no longer in it and Im not good at faking it

The me that used to paint, write music and work on my musical is not here anymore. Im cloudy, blocked, disoriented, disillusioned and un motivated with a real "whats the point ? element creeping in.

Added to this suffering is an ("artists choice" , "white privilege ") label to it, only compounding a feeling of sickness and misplacement . Like my voice is cancelled.

As much as Im blessed, this is the worst I have ever felt in my entire life. I live alone by choice, but this means no one to talk to, to share and to vent to in my space. I have to be very strong to hold my overly sensitive empath self up everyday. And with an approaching winter, It doesn't feel good

It seems the election happened and its no longer a free country. Its a lawless country, no privacy, no freedom of speech or expression. We the people have no voice as laws are enacted without our consent and blatant bald face lies are told to our face almost mocking us. We are backed into a corner more every day and dying by a death by a thousand slices.

And Solutions? Anything actionable? Write my congressman? Nope, done that and could do it everyday, only putting me on a terrorist list by this criminal group in office.

Im sickened

[SpookyMulder]

Hey Doug,

Thank you for expressing your feelings at this point in time, it is never easy.

What I want to sau here is that, you are not alone. You are never alone anf what you are experiencing is one of many experiences. They are a few like you, and it's hard.

You also mentioned it yourself "the downward spiral" which usually starts with the same patterns. Shift the way you do things when you wake up, don't switch TV or news, as it will only highten your sense of loneliness, soulnesness anf lack of empathy towards all things you love.

Stay within yourself, in that sense medidate. Make the light and love grow within you, increase its strenght and push it out to litteraly take over your body, your surroundings, your house, outside your house, your city, the people in it, everything that comes in your path, everything that you can think of, people, animals, plants, trees, objects. Invade the whole world and universe with both love and light.

Roughly it could take you up to 30 minutes. You will feel good.
Then possibly listen to some music. Do something kind for yourself, for your heart, for your soul.

Everything right now is a test of faith. You are not alone.

[Blastolabs]

I often times feel the same way you do Doug, I'm a musician as well and I have let far to many days go to waste by worrying about what sociopaths are currently doing to **** up the world.

Each moment is what matters and if reading the news in the morning ruins all the moments of your day...

The best way for you to "fight back" and beat the system is to be the most happy, creative, generous, and kind version of Doug that could possibly.

If everyone on Earth consciously did this we would have already won.


A one time high dose of LSD, DMT, or mushrooms would likely "reset" your brain and make you more open to new ideas and modes of thinking, this is even supported by some published science as of lately.

High dose is the key, and may be a bad idea if you have a history of delusions, but in my experience this is a myth and the people that "the experts" say should not take LSD often benefit from it the most.

[janette]

So sorry to hear your pain 😣..if it's any consolation I sort of feel the same myself at times and it can be hard to make myself be the happy me again. I can't offer any solutions but I know we are good people doing good things with love in our hearts and dreams in our minds. I do t live alone but I'm still lonely as I'm alone in my crazy thinking in our family. Strange now that seems to be the case for a lot of folks..only one person in the average family is awake..maybe their job is to awake the rest of the brood..anyway sorry I haven't helped much lol but I'll always listen ..lots of 💖x

[Mike]

Doug I think you should attempt a podcast sort of thing.

You're passionate, smart, articulate, and very comfortable in front of a camera.

It'll allow you to connect with people a little more and discuss all the things that are troubling you - 2 birds with 1 stone - and a whole bunch of other interested people will be able to listen in.

Good opportunity to promote your art too.

[Bill Ryan]

A one time high dose of LSD, DMT, or mushrooms would likely "reset" your brain and make you more open to new ideas and modes of thinking, this is even supported by some published science as of lately.

High dose is the key, and may be a bad idea if you have a history of delusions, but in my experience this is a myth and the people that "the experts" say should not take LSD often benefit from it the most.Not recommended. Psychedelics can also destabilize someone significantly, especially if they're taking something because they want to fix how they feel. Just as some might try to do with a couple of bottles of wine or stronger. This is in my strong personal opinion.

One might legitimately share an unusual personal transcendent experience, but not recommend this to others who may be grasping at anything they can find.

Folks, the mods know of a number of Avalon members who've been having quite some trouble staying stable, focused and grounded. Doug is not alone. Not at all. There have been other posts on other threads, too.

This is affecting many millions of people worldwide. It's barely being reported, but it's very very important.

Personally, to prise myself away from my desk (or the internet!), I regularly go hiking or spend time every day doing hands-on things like maintenance on my 100-year old house, or what is euphemistically called 'yard work'. (I don't have a yard! Just several acres of field.) The key is to do something hands-on physical to balance the mental or emotional, or all the thinking and worrying.

If one is on the net, it's also important to self-filter what one's spending time watching or listening to. Discipline oneself NOT just to follow the latest ongoing stream of discouraging news. There's lots else out there that IS encouraging, human, moving, inspiring and positive. One just has to look in the right places, and it's not always all that hard to find.

:grouphug:

[Pam]

Doug I think you should attempt a podcast sort of thing.

You're passionate, smart, articulate, and very comfortable in front of a camera.

It'll allow you to connect with people a little more and discuss all the things that are troubling you - 2 birds with 1 stone - and a whole bunch of other interested people will be able to listen in.

Good opportunity to promote your art too.


And I would like to see Mike as your first guest.

[Patient]

Oh I hear you! Loud and clear!

I went out today to the post office to collect my mail. I tried to parallel park in front as there was only one parking space left - but the cars behind repeatedly pulled right up behind me not letting me back up. They hit their horn and then drove around me while doing so they are facing oncoming traffic almost causing an accident right beside me. When the third car did this to me I just left and drove around and parked on the other side of the street. (Yes, my direction signal works - I checked.)

I go into the post office to find that it is closed today. Canada now has a new holiday to recognize native Canadian kids that were killed in the past. (I suspect that they are only doing this to distract the public from the vaccine push.)

The schools aren't closed and what do I see in front of the kid's school? A Mobile Vaccination Bus!

I find it harder to go out as the public is becoming dumber by the day. It is more dangerous to drive. 2 days ago a driver drove off the road in front of our home - right into the creek. Yesterday another accident occurred 2 cars ahead of me in traffic.

I think for us good people there is as field of protective positive energy around us - at least I am always projecting that thought, and so far so good!

I am going to spend as much time outside around the house today as I can - forget work for a while - it can wait! I am gonna take out the canoe, practice some archery and enjoy the beautiful fall weather!

There is a lot of negativity around us - you have to find a way to light up yourself from the inside and push it away! I often think of myself as a lantern or a lighthouse shining positive light that people can feel.

It works for me!

[Pam]

A one time high dose of LSD, DMT, or mushrooms would likely "reset" your brain and make you more open to new ideas and modes of thinking, this is even supported by some published science as of lately.

High dose is the key, and may be a bad idea if you have a history of delusions, but in my experience this is a myth and the people that "the experts" say should not take LSD often benefit from it the most.Not recommended. Psychedelics can also destabilize someone significantly, especially if they're taking something because they want to fix how they feel. Just as some might try to do with a couple of bottles of wine or stronger. This is in my strong personal opinion.

One might legitimately share an unusual personal transcendent experience, but not recommend this to others who may be grasping at anything they can find.

Folks, the mods know of a number of Avalon members who've been having quite some trouble staying stable, focused and grounded. Doug is not alone. Not at all. There have been other posts on other threads, too.

This is affecting many millions of people worldwide. It's barely being reported, but it's very very important.

Personally, to prise myself away from my desk (or the internet!), I regularly go hiking or spend time every day doing hands-on things like maintenance on my 100-year old house, or what is euphemistically called 'yard work'. (I don't have a yard! Just several acres of field.) The key is to do something hands-on physical to balance the mental or emotional, or all the thinking and worrying.

If one is on the net, it's also important to self-filter what one's spending time watching or listening to. Discipline oneself NOT just to follow the latest ongoing stream of discouraging news. There's lots else out there that IS encouraging, human, moving, inspiring and positive. One just has to look in the right places, and it's not always all that hard to find.

:grouphug:

I am definitely one of those people. Doug, it is extremely difficult for those with empathic tendencies. I am all over the place and I am not ashamed to admit it. I have days of total despondency and days of feeling a higher frequency. I feel all the fear of others and I have a hard time not absorbing it, along with the hopelessness. I have visions and weird telepathy. I have paranormal events happening, then I wonder if I am just plain nuts. If I get off balance it can feel very detrimental. You are empathic with a artistic temperament, I am too. We feel things really deeply and it is hard. It is just hard.

If it is possible to get into a state of acceptance it helps....but in reality, this is a very big pill to swallow. Let's not sugar coat it.

You know what? We love and dearly appreciate you, just as you are.

[jimbobule]

Had a similar chat with @mizo today. The ptb plan is to use project fear to demoralise us into accepting the new normal. For the ‘awake’ it seems to be us observing the mass psychosis in society and subconsciously weeping inside for our fellow man who doesn’t realise they are being played.

Also as Bill has said numerous times, people pump out content like spaghetti..to get views, the headlines are all negative to grab attention, so hey presto you feel negative once you start trawling.

I’m struggling too with this cognitive dissonance

[Mike]

Doug I think you should attempt a podcast sort of thing.

You're passionate, smart, articulate, and very comfortable in front of a camera.

It'll allow you to connect with people a little more and discuss all the things that are troubling you - 2 birds with 1 stone - and a whole bunch of other interested people will be able to listen in.

Good opportunity to promote your art too.


And I would like to see Mike as your first guest.


And I think Pam should be your first guest!:bigsmile:

I agree with Bill on the LSD, psychadelic thing (tho I also fully understand why it was suggested). I've done LSD maybe 5 times, and 2 of those times were during periods of great emotional turmoil. I was trying to escape something, and the results weren't pleasant. LSD is not an escapist drug. Quite the contrary, it forces you to engage your emotions even more..and you have absolutely no control over it when it kicks in.

Get outside in the sun and the fresh air, as Bill said. Get active. I have to practically drag myself to the gym but I always feel so much better after, even if I only work out for 30 mins or so.

[Did You See Them]

Very eloquently put Doug - I feel what your saying. I dont think any of us are functioning properly. I think people are in a general state of disbelief whilst watching the Emperors with no clothes marching all over us.
Surreal Times. One gets the feeling anything could happen next !
Hang in there.
Me - well as John Lennon said "I'm just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round".

[thepainterdoug]

Well thank you all so much!! all your comments resonate with me.

Spooky M, yes change up the daily plan.

Blasto, I have salvia divinorum at home for years. I was thinking of giving myself a reset. perhaps I will.

Mike thanks for the encouragement, but I think I will pass on that idea for now. TOO MANY podcasts out there already. But not closed to it.

Bill all true. But again, when I look away, I feel Im in denial. Im a 60ies kid, I was out protesting the Viet Nam war. When the news actually reported things.
But Im trying and certainly not alone. Thanks

Pam, yes Mike would be a shoe in.

Patient. yes I hear you. I find it an ugly time to be alive. Im usually pretty good with keeping my forcefield up. Today its weak. Perhaps it the huge schumann ressonance spike, largest on record!!
I also find it the most un sexy time to be alive. We live in heightened judgement and separation under the woke guise of "all is one" . total crap unlesss lived, not spoken.

pam, like most of us, your too sane in an insane world.

Watch war of the worlds. The battle against the invaders is the best visual I have for the war we are fighting. But when all seems lost, a simple miracle occurs

and thanks for your loving comment.
blessing all

d

did you see em. yes just saw your post. I feel anything could happen next as well, but sad as we all have a mistrust for everyone and everything ever deeper/ t y

[Apulu]

Thanks for sharing Doug. I've gone through many kinds of dark nights of the soul in my adult life and the past year and a half have been challenging to say the least. I've felt like I'm in a kind of morning - that we've essentially lost the society that we once had, and that it's not coming back. People are being brainwashed more than ever, and now the consequences of that brainwashing are potentially fatal. Great.

The love of my life has recently announced that she's taking the gene therapy. I'm heartbroken. I don't know if our relationship can survive this. We're giving it a go, but we both feel completely torn. I love her more than I've loved anyone but we seem to now be pulling in different directions irreconcilably. The worst part is, our situation seems to be being perpetrated by outside forces.

I've felt near-suicidal, off and on, the last few weeks, but I'm not giving in. The break in my relationship actually gave me a chance to take a hard look at myself and realise how much I was giving in to how I was feeling. I have to fight. I'm back on the yoga, big time, and that alone seems to keep me motivated and feeling connected to a higher purpose, whatever that may be. I pray constantly while I'm doing yoga, that I connect with and have the courage to follow whatever the divinity of consciousness itself would have me do, and that I may be able to accept whatever is happening around me, and move with it, somehow. That's hippy talk right there, but there's a great feeling of surrender and purpose I find in genuinely praying that, and I see and feel the benefit of it massively.

I have to believe that this is all happening for a reason, and that it's eventually going somewhere good. The reason is, I suppose you could say, is that this is what humanity has had coming all along. This is the fight. This is the battle ground. Each and every one of our individual lives is a fight and a battle ground. Until it's not. It seems the more honesty we have with ourselves, the more we then have to overcome. Most people avoid that fight any way they can.

I've read many times, and I can perhaps see the truth in it, that in the end we realise that the only thing you fight is your hidden desire to resist what is happening, and resist what your true nature would naturally do. Sometimes I suddenly remember to ask myself, when I feel lost and afraid and melancholy beyond belief: so what is it that you know you should do? The thing that you're not doing. The answer is often really, really obvious. And usually quite terrifying. Even if it's just tidying up. I **** you not.

Anyway, I've had to realise again recently there were so many things I've been avoiding whilst feeling lost in internal feelings and the seeming weight of outside situations. I have music to do, an album to release, plenty of self reflection, and plenty, plenty of yoga. Then whatever happens, happens. Wish me luck 🙂

[Sadieblue]

I started filtering a lot of the alternative news, even I could tell it was just so repetitive, I had to back away from a lot of it. I find solace being out in nature in my yard, I told my daughter I have been pulling the weeds from my flower plots for thirty years now, but I still find peace sitting on mother earth working in the plots. It keeps me grounded and balanced.

When stuck inside I watch nature youtube and animal themed documentaries. Now I am watching Downton Abbey, on Netflex. It does help to keep the worries of the world at bay.
I think a lot of our feelings that you spoke of Doug, is because we see our country being taken from us, and our "Normal" is now a thing of the past.

[mojo]

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[thepainterdoug]

Apulu

a very heavy and honest message. In honesty we can only communicate what is real, what is honest for us. not saying it is in a sense dishonest, but perhaps diplomatic as that is what diplomacy ultimately is. A compromise of disagreement needed to be said to keep peace.

make your music, put the album out, WHY cause why not? what elese are you to do, same as me. I want to put out my musical. why? whay not.

sadie blue, how is your sister ? please keep us all updated

[heretogrow]

Hi Doug,
There is a comfort in not knowing what is really going on in this world. Fall down the rabbit hole, it is hard to climb back out and it can become overwhelming. Nature is a great balancer and can ease that helplessness that is so common to empathy. Imagine your dear ole mama’s voice as you read the next line. “GET YOUR BUTT OUTSIDE!”

What I see in you as a person is an amazing, sensitive, and gifted human.

I can’t know the depth of your despair because only you know that. I have learned from experience that when I am on a downward spiral, if I give kindness to others it tethers me to the next layer above the despair and helps me to climb back up.

This is just a suggestion, so if you roll your eyes here I will not be offended. The last thing a person who is feeling down wants to hear is go do something. I have been there and it hard to get the motivation back.

Maybe you could start small, like go downtown and buy a rose and give it to a little old lady. Make her smile! Maybe you could take your sketch pad and draw a charcoal of a homeless man. Maybe you could use your art to record what it is like to be human in this day and age for prosperity. I know that’s a big one and a big commitment. But I see more great things coming from you! You ain’t done yet mister!

I honestly think many of us here feel like we are on the cusp of something historically tragic on a worldwide scale. Because we are sensitive we can feel it coming and that’s what is wrong with us. There is a heaviness in the air. As long as our heart is beating we still have our humanness. And we will throughout whatever is coming. We all need to share that with others. TPTB cannot take that away from us.

Ps- just wanted to add, There are many great people on this forum. I think we have gathered here for a reason.

[Pam]

Thanks for sharing Doug. I've gone through many kinds of dark nights of the soul in my adult life and the past year and a half have been challenging to say the least. I've felt like I'm in a kind of morning - that we've essentially lost the society that we once had, and that it's not coming back. People are being brainwashed more than ever, and now the consequences of that brainwashing are potentially fatal. Great.

The love of my life has recently announced that she's taking the gene therapy. I'm heartbroken. I don't know if our relationship can survive this. We're giving it a go, but we both feel completely torn. I love her more than I've loved anyone but we seem to now be pulling in different directions irreconcilably. The worst part is, our situation seems to be being perpetrated by outside forces.

I've felt near-suicidal, off and on, the last few weeks, but I'm not giving in. The break in my relationship actually gave me a chance to take a hard look at myself and realise how much I was giving in to how I was feeling. I have to fight. I'm back on the yoga, big time, and that alone seems to keep me motivated and feeling connected to a higher purpose, whatever that may be. I pray constantly while I'm doing yoga, that I connect with and have the courage to follow whatever the divinity of consciousness itself would have me do, and that I may be able to accept whatever is happening around me, and move with it, somehow. That's hippy talk right there, but there's a great feeling of surrender and purpose I find in genuinely praying that, and I see and feel the benefit of it massively.

I have to believe that this is all happening for a reason, and that it's eventually going somewhere good. The reason is, I suppose you could say, is that this is what humanity has had coming all along. This is the fight. This is the battle ground. Each and every one of our individual lives is a fight and a battle ground. Until it's not. It seems the more honesty we have with ourselves, the more we then have to overcome. Most people avoid that fight any way they can.

I've read many times, and I can perhaps see the truth in it, that in the end we realise that the only thing you fight is your hidden desire to resist what is happening, and resist what your true nature would naturally do. Sometimes I suddenly remember to ask myself, when I feel lost and afraid and melancholy beyond belief: so what is it that you know you should do? The thing that you're not doing. The answer is often really, really obvious. And usually quite terrifying. Even if it's just tidying up. I **** you not.

Anyway, I've had to realise again recently there were so many things I've been avoiding whilst feeling lost in internal feelings and the seeming weight of outside situations. I have music to do, an album to release, plenty of self reflection, and plenty, plenty of yoga. Then whatever happens, happens. Wish me luck 🙂

Apulu, I am going to make a copy of your beautiful post so I can continually reread it. Thank you.

[Ben]

Hi Doug,

thanks for sharing where you're at currently. It's always a gift for others, to hear someone else speak their truth, from the heart. This one simple act, enables healing and insight in whoever hears it. It's a brave thing to do.

I would strongly recommend meditation, especially in the morning, before your mind gets a chance to kick in and start all the whirling that it's prone to do when in times of over stimulation.

I highly recommend Burgs, who has a whole load of stuff on YouTube to listen to/watch. I've done a few courses with him recently, and it's been invaluable for my mental health (I'm so glad my friend put me on to him). He takes Buddhist teachings, and totally demystifies them, so that what's left is only the practical stuff. And he really does know his stuff.

Here's a good one to start with Burgs: Guided Stillness Meditation (Deep settling with Loving ...
YouTube · Burgs
27 Apr 2020

There's a treasure trove of gold in his channel.

No matter what is happening externally in our lives, there is always a safe space of stillness within ourselves, waiting to be accessed.

Much love to ye

[Delight]

This is kinda of a shout out to everyone. Anyone feel similar ?

I wake in the morning and already feel a low grade sickness in my stomach.



Doug I feel you and most days I use the metaphor of a gyroscope to describe my emotional state because I MUST keep pulling myself back to my center. I am all over the place but always return home to my native "frequency" of well being.

Based on my view of REALITY in the BIG picture, some of us chose to be here to witness and REFUSE the offered presentation in such a way that many possible negatives are not happening. This is what I have always seen as my "woowoo" space in the collective. It is not that I think I am special, it is that IMO everyone will receive a reality they have committed to experiencing because of free will. The thing is that at the same time I KNOW my own personal experience supports how malleable REALITY IS, I cannot forget that my fellow human beings are NOT having what I have and it sickens me temporarily several times a day.

Today I committed to putting a new roof on my old house because it is leaking. That means I used my savings plus a loan to do the job. This actually is a way of affirming a future for me where I am here, where I am working and have an income.

My saving grace is my work because when I am having massage clients, I reaffirm my personal health, my safety (if there is transmission of an energetic "pall" or whatever), my love of the work, my LOVE of humans I meet.

What SpookyMulder said is what I use in my own way. Actually I first use my imaginal vacuum cleaner to suck up all energy that is not mine and send it to Source. I FEEL the removal viscerally. It works. Then I bring in my own light out.


Stay within yourself, in that sense medidate. Make the light and love grow within you, increase its strenght and push it out to litteraly take over your body, your surroundings, your house, outside your house, your city, the people in it, everything that comes in your path, everything that you can think of, people, animals, plants, trees, objects. Invade the whole world and universe with both love and light.

Recently my brother has been visiting and we have had great adventures where we meet ONLY wonderful people having a great day. That reinforces to me that my "woowoo" is real.

It seems that some people are in a weird way enjoying that this plandemic and jab roll out are happening? It supports their insistence that the world is is going down (for whatever reasons).

I stand in defiance to the self serving negativity dished out with the alt news. IMO even if these people relishing all the details of evil don't know it, they may be complicit.

I think this is a tight rope walk on a knife edge. It is for those who choose to love Creator's world to keep an eye on all that is FOR Love, FOR truth (which includes the truth that all IS WELL when we insist it be well FOR us).

Since I have no kids, I am not emotionally distraught for people in my life so I am lucky that way. I feel more globally the horror. When people are committed to the scarcity model, they are in constant danger of capitulation. I sincerely appreciate we have a direct line to the UNIVERSAL power which creates worlds PERSONALLY. So far, this is reflected back to me. My main job is to keep my heart centered on gratitude to "what I understand is God but have no idea how to describe".

Hope you feel how important your peace IS for a whole world in which you are the center.

[1212is24]

I feel you. My personal method of staying sane is based on physical fitness. There is something about lifting weights, running, using a sauna, and eating healthy food that has a harmonic effect.

I also think it is important to be close to nature. Animals. Fresh air. Different kinds of scenery (bushes, beaches, mountains, whatever possible).

Above all else, being around people has the best effect on the mind. This isolation has made us all feel a bit isolated and withdrawn. We need to connect with people. Even if they are strangers. Even if you talk to a stranger and they don't like you, it still has a positive effect on your mind because you have interacted with someone. And why wouldn't they like you? The best thing is to have a good time with your friends though.

Full disclosure... I have also been combining that recently with copious amounts of red wine. Not every day... but, let's say a double-digit number of days per month. I am just being honest. Not interested in any commentary or judgment about whether or not such a choice is good or bad. I am healthy and I do it. Even if someone told me it would kill me, I would continue doing it. I like red wine. Cheers.

[Apulu]

Apulu

a very heavy and honest message. In honesty we can only communicate what is real, what is honest for us. not saying it is in a sense dishonest, but perhaps diplomatic as that is what diplomacy ultimately is. A compromise of disagreement needed to be said to keep peace.

make your music, put the album out, WHY cause why not? what elese are you to do, same as me. I want to put out my musical. why? whay not.

sadie blue, how is your sister ? please keep us all updated

Thanks Doug.

I should probably say - I don't feel heavy right now, even though there was some heavy stuff on my reply. It's been a tough time, but I don't tend to remain stuck in heaviness these days. Certainly not ike I used to.

Anyway all the best in your endeavours brother 👍 I look forward to hearing the musical 🙂

[Apulu]

Apulu, I am going to make a copy of your beautiful post so I can continually reread it. Thank you.

That completely warns my heart Pam thanks for that. I'm glad I posted 🙂

[janette]

Oh I hear you! Loud and clear!

I went out today to the post office to collect my mail. I tried to parallel park in front as there was only one parking space left - but the cars behind repeatedly pulled right up behind me not letting me back up. They hit their horn and then drove around me while doing so they are facing oncoming traffic almost causing an accident right beside me. When the third car did this to me I just left and drove around and parked on the other side of the street. (Yes, my direction signal works - I checked.)

I go into the post office to find that it is closed today. Canada now has a new holiday to recognize native Canadian kids that were killed in the past. (I suspect that they are only doing this to distract the public from the vaccine push.)

The schools aren't closed and what do I see in front of the kid's school? A Mobile Vaccination Bus!

I find it harder to go out as the public is becoming dumber by the day. It is more dangerous to drive. 2 days ago a driver drove off the road in front of our home - right into the creek. Yesterday another accident occurred 2 cars ahead of me in traffic.

I think for us good people there is as field of protective positive energy around us - at least I am always projecting that thought, and so far so good!

I am going to spend as much time outside around the house today as I can - forget work for a while - it can wait! I am gonna take out the canoe, practice some archery and enjoy the beautiful fall weather!

There is a lot of negativity around us - you have to find a way to light up yourself from the inside and push it away! I often think of myself as a lantern or a lighthouse shining positive light that people can feel.

It works for me!

I love your lantern analogy.. Think I'll borrow that one 😁👍

[pyrangello]

Doug , I've always said life is like a pendulum , it swings extreme one way and then the other , but it always come back to center.

Back in the mid 80's after I got out of the military after 4 years I started my own business by myself, In 12 years time by the mid 90's I employed over 50 people and things were just cranking. I was in my 30's making piles of cash, doing what I wanted , buying whatever, travel, ect. ect.

Then the moon got twisted sideways in the sky in 1997. I had 3 companies that screwed me out of $700,000.00 , I was getting a divorce, my brother as suing me , and I got put on probation for some BS thing. I watched my entire world unravel in 1 year and had to inform 50 people they no longer had a job ! In 1998 I closed my business down with $500.00 in my pocket and had to borrow 3k from my parents. I thought well at least I will get unemployment for a while only to find out that in michigan if your self employed your only entitled to 6 weeks unemployment . The lady at the unemployment office said to me we usually don't tell people this when they are here because they get violent. And even after I closed everything down and filed bankruptcy I had another business file a lawsuit that dragged out another 2 years at a legal cost of $26,000.00 , I didn't own anything at that point and had a few individuals that wanted to lets say not shake my hand in appreciation . I did win the lawsuit but then it got appealed and 60 days later my attorney called me and said to come to his office. He said close the door. I sat down and he said they overturned the lawsuit and the judge got paid off, I'll never prove and I was fuxxed! 3 years of nothing but chaos and now i was stuck paying another 25k on top of my legal fees of which this was money I didn't even have.

Thru it all , I kept telling myself " ONE DAY IT"S GONNA GET BETTER, ONE DAY I"LL BE SITTING BACK HAVING A BEER AND JUST REFLECT ON THIS MOMENT IN TIME AND SAY WHAT A RIDE THAT WAS, ONE DAY IT WILL GET BETTER" And you know what , yep that day did come and yes it did get better just like the pendulum that swings all the time, eventually it will come back to center. :).

[indiana]

So totally get it Doug. I've been talking about this on a regular basis with a few people here in Ireland that are awake to all the pure BULL****E and LIES that are going on. Specifically myself, my brother and two other friends. If I'm to be honest, i thought the "old normal" was a bunch of arse too... but this current carry-on brings it all to a whole new level altogether. I guess we all must soldier on as best we can, try to be there for ourselves and for each other as much as is possible. Much love, kamerad!

[Gemma13]

INCREDIBLE, BEAUTIFUL THREAD!  So many amazing people, so many amazing quotes that do deserve to be on bumper stickers.

Living in despair from chronic daily pain and suffocation took me to the edge of the cliff frequently too.  You're dancing with the devil and death, but deep down you know you're not gonna take this f#cker home to bed... no matter how hot he is. Something deep keeps ringing a bell of hope, hang in there, hang in there, hang in there... it will change.

A few weeks ago I had a day... like no other.  Excruciating pain dialled up and up and up.  I was so desperate I pined for the hunting rifle I had 30yrs ago.  I wanted to write one word for everyone... Sorry... and then blow my head off.  This one was f#cking real!

It took every ounce of me to resist.  A memory haunted me.  You got this!

A few days later... I walked out of hell and haven't looked back.

The heart centering, that many here have eloquently shared, is crucial.

I have always been able to sit in that frequency but for the life of me I couldn't get the "techniques for spiritual super powers" of healing and love, to work.

Techniques are coming at me thick and fast now though and I'm absolutely loving my Spiritual Ninja.  She is the one that sits on my shoulder now.

Thank you Avalonians... your frequencies of love have carried me many times over the years :heart:  Please never forget that!

[wondering]

Doug, You seem to really hit common concerns with your posts! I am so in synch with many others...just a kind of awful time for me. I wonder if there is some kind of mind control resulting in our discouragement and even despair. The atmosphere of deceit weighs on me...if I have the radio on in the car or just glance at MSM headlines, my heart sinks with the continual lies... So, I don't know what to do other than what I am doing, with a fairly poor outcome lately. Just keep on keeping on. I am grateful for the honestly and vulnerability of this Forum, however, I have cut back some on my reading time. Peace and strength to us all. Diane

[rgray222]

Hi Doug it is perfectly understandable to feel the way you do, especially with everything that has happened or hasn't happened over the past year. We all process and cope with life differently so I am not coming here to offer advice, I am here to tell you that you are not alone and that everything (without exception) in this life is temporary.
R

[haroldsails]

It becomes more obvious every day that we are being squeezed, crushed emotionally. The most distressing thing to me is old friends who have acquiesced - taken the jab ...in many cases to keep a job. I feel like we are being ground down. As though, one by one we are being picked off. I also feel that we must not allow that to happen. We have no choice but to be strong, but how to be strong in the face of the most powerful, and evil entities on earth? I see clips from Australia, and think we (USA) are next. My batteries are low, I feel in a wakened state. I know one thing for certain (from experience) self medicating will make things worse. We know too much to be able to escape into the numbness of booze or chemistry. We are going to have to stand firm - together. I am heartened that so many of us feel this ominous future coming at us. I had begun to feel very much out in left field with few friends. After reading this whole thread, it's clear that is not the case. Thank you to all who are opening their hearts here, it is very helpful.

[Gracy]

Hey Doug,

As already demonstrated here by so many good hearted, smart, and well versed people, there's lots of different things one can do to try and lighten the load.

As a fellow empath, I have my own time honored philosophies for maintaining stability throughout whatever come what mays.

One of those that comes in handy for me is looking back as a roadmap for looking forward. The barrage of doomsday we wade through every day is ever mounting, but how much of it is really likely to happen...

I'll just throw one quick example with a snippet out here, but there are countless more over the years just like it, both way before, and way after. One common thing they all seem to have in commonality over the years, regardless of the source, is the image not dissimilar to the hard core Christian guy on the corner bearing a dire warning that "THE END IS NEAR!"

That's age old, so here's the newer example from 2013, 8 1/2 years ago now. The end was near then too, and Doug Hagmann loved to preach the good word. See any similarities to today?

His "high-level source within the U.S. Department of Homeland Security", was dead wrong there, and the same is happening now.

Don't let them destroy your life with "the sky is falling" routine. There's always going to be s##t going down but, that doesn't mean the end is near.


Much like my high-level source within the U.S. Department of Homeland Security outlined in a series of interviews beginning last year, the orchestrated collapse of the U.S. dollar and the entire world’s economic system has begun. The first shots in a global economic take-over were fired in Cyprus as my esteemed colleague and founding editor of Canada Free Press, Judi McLeod laid out in frank detail in her column yesterday and her follow up today.

Please read it and heed her advice, or suffer the consequences of your own normalcy bias that such an event will not happen in the United States, Canada, or from wherever you might be reading this. It will, and the plan appears to be on schedule for a shot across the bow later this spring here in the West, with a more aggressive take-over starting sometime this fall, according to my source.

The Plan
To those needing a quick refresher, the plan is quite simple and can be summarized by the Clinton-era quip attributed to political strategist James Carville, “the economy, stupid” and the June 9, 2010 statement by former Obama czar Van Jones, Socialist extraordinaire, “top down, bottom up, inside out.” It is a plan for a one world Communist economy where the “middle class” will be wiped out through a series of events that will have the same ultimate effect as we are seeing in present day Cyprus.
https://canadafreepress.com/article/dhs-insider-update-it-has-begun

[haroldsails]

I want to clarify something I said about "self medicating" being a bad idea in the face of great personal stress - I am not implying that psychedelics do not have great value as a tool for spiritual growth, because I believe they really do..

[Satori]

thepainterdoug et al. I’m quite sure you are functioning properly.

To my way of thinking, the fact that you started this thread and opened your heart and mind for all to appreciate proves that. These are indeed trying and difficult times, but humanity will persevere and prevail. Of that I am certain. I am much less certain, however, that I will be here to see those days. And that is fine by me. I’ll continue to do my part while I’m here.

My true hope and desire is that my children, their generation and generations to come see those days. I’m convinced they will.

Until then, we must individually and as a nation and world continue to put one foot in front of the other and persevere.

Namaste.

[Heart to heart]

Doug, my other self. I hear you and feel your pain. Whatever is happening in this crazy world we are living in it has to be a case of acceptance, such a hard lesson to learn, and gratitude for the life we have. There is no gain without pain and everything comes to pass, and pass it will. For those of us who stand firm in our own blessed light looking to a new future that we are dreaming into being there will come a time when love and compassion dwell in the heart of the new human.
This is a fight for the souls of humanity and we must hang on to our souls, our divine starlight, at all cost. You have many gifts to share so create your own reality, paint a new world into being, sing a new song and know that you are truly loved on this forum.
You came to Earth with a contract and like us all thought it would be easy. Saving a planet is quite a task but that is why we are here, to bring our beautiful Mother Earth back into balance. We WILL fulfil our destiny and you will shine again. It is just a little bumpy at the moment. Meanwhile I will hold you in my heart❤️🙏❤️

[wondering]

haroldsails, did you mean you feel in a wakened state or a weakened state, given the low batteries? Interesting contrast....

[Gracy]

I want to clarify something I said about "self medicating" being a bad idea in the face of great personal stress - I am not implying that psychedelics do not have great value as a tool for spiritual growth, because I believe they really do..
Yes, absolutely haroldsails, they have a rich abundance to offer when used appropriately. As I'm sure you well know, as with every other facet of life decisions, proper time and proper place applies heavily.

[TomKat]

I agree that you should vary your morning routine, go for a walk or run, look at things in the environment. And maybe you're thinking too much. As Gary Douglas says, "if you're thinking you're stinking."

[thepainterdoug]

well I cannot thank you all enough for receiving my post with love, care and concern. I will try to thank you specifically when i re read the many posts.

Gracie May, I just want to say that yes, so often our fear or our end of the world scenario doesnt actually happen. Seneca and the Stoics often speak of this.

However, It is happening.Its happening now. It is not a fear for the future , its a reckoning of the now. Its in Australia, Canada, Europe and now at our door. Its in our censorship, our schools, our fear of speaking out, our reality of being cancelled and our real time eroding freedoms happening right now.

I feel for my son, his wife and their someday children, and when, we all look back, will I be ok with saying, did I do something. do you not feel this?

And should we all say, hey whatever, it will go as it goes, will we just be another generation of lazy deniers who didnt stand up and allowed the wolf back in ?

[Bubu]

Doug I think you should attempt a podcast sort of thing.

You're passionate, smart, articulate, and very comfortable in front of a camera.

It'll allow you to connect with people a little more and discuss all the things that are troubling you - 2 birds with 1 stone - and a whole bunch of other interested people will be able to listen in.

Good opportunity to promote your art too.


And I would like to see Mike as your first guest.


And I think Pam should be your first guest!:bigsmile:

I agree with Bill on the LSD, psychadelic thing (tho I also fully understand why it was suggested). I've done LSD maybe 5 times, and 2 of those times were during periods of great emotional turmoil. I was trying to escape something, and the results weren't pleasant. LSD is not an escapist drug. Quite the contrary, it forces you to engage your emotions even more..and you have absolutely no control over it when it kicks in.

Get outside in the sun and the fresh air, as Bill said. Get active. I have to practically drag myself to the gym but I always feel so much better after, even if I only work out for 30 mins or so.

Good advice Mike, There is something that people missed with natural psychedelics though. They are enhancers of sort. It means don't use it when you're on the negative side. It's only going to enhance the negativity. Bring yourself first, even temporary, on the positive side. This is the reason ayahuasca have ceremonies prior.

[Bubu]

Doug. I have a feeling that the warriors in all of us is about to be awakened. Highs and lows are normal. In this case though we are being brought down to extreme low. You can expect an extreme high on the other end.

[arwen]

This is kinda of a shout out to everyone. Anyone feel similar ?

I wake in the morning and already feel a low grade sickness in my stomach.

Before I get up from bed, I open the laptop, check emails, J. Prather, Paul C. Roberts, etc then look at P. Avalon and Gab, read headlines, stories and vids from around the world, the latest hard to fathom news, and the downward spiral begins.

And if you say, hey don't do that, just tune it all out ? , well, I feel like I'm fiddling as Rome burns with what ever I do anyway. My heart is no longer in it and Im not good at faking it

The me that used to paint, write music and work on my musical is not here anymore. Im cloudy, blocked, disoriented, disillusioned and un motivated with a real "whats the point ? element creeping in.

Added to this suffering is an ("artists choice" , "white privilege ") label to it, only compounding a feeling of sickness and misplacement . Like my voice is cancelled.

As much as Im blessed, this is the worst I have ever felt in my entire life. I live alone by choice, but this means no one to talk to, to share and to vent to in my space. I have to be very strong to hold my overly sensitive empath self up everyday. And with an approaching winter, It doesn't feel good

It seems the election happened and its no longer a free country. Its a lawless country, no privacy, no freedom of speech or expression. We the people have no voice as laws are enacted without our consent and blatant bald face lies are told to our face almost mocking us. We are backed into a corner more every day and dying by a death by a thousand slices.

And Solutions? Anything actionable? Write my congressman? Nope, done that and could do it everyday, only putting me on a terrorist list by this criminal group in office.

Im sickened

You nailed it Doug. You just described me as well.

It takes the artists to articulate it. Thank you.

For me, in addition, I am inwardly screaming all the time for the CHILDREN. What this generation of adults have done to the children. To me, this version of this song is like the cry of all our children, for what we have done to them. I am gutted, I cant get past it.


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[haroldsails]

Gracy May, that is perfect, thank you.

[haroldsails]

Wondering, I was saying weakened, but we are awakening more each day as well, so now I'm saying it is both. There's your contrast.

[TomKat]

We're living in 2 realities now. You have to defend your own, even if it means ignoring the world around you. If you look at the evil reality too closely it will draw you in. Don't borrow trouble. Just take care of yourself, live your own life, and say "screw it" to those in the other reality.

[haroldsails]

TomKat, I like that kind of ignore them attitude, but you know they will not ignore you back. Maybe it's paranoid but I feel the need to stay alert so i know when to duck, and when to stand my ground.

[meeradas]

Nature. Every day.

Conversing.

Analog.


PS: You are fully functional and sane.

[Mashika]

This is kinda of a shout out to everyone. Anyone feel similar ?

I wake in the morning and already feel a low grade sickness in my stomach.

Before I get up from bed, I open the laptop, check emails, J. Prather, Paul C. Roberts, etc then look at P. Avalon and Gab, read headlines, stories and vids from around the world, the latest hard to fathom news, and the downward spiral begins.

And if you say, hey don't do that, just tune it all out ? , well, I feel like I'm fiddling as Rome burns with what ever I do anyway. My heart is no longer in it and Im not good at faking it

The me that used to paint, write music and work on my musical is not here anymore. Im cloudy, blocked, disoriented, disillusioned and un motivated with a real "whats the point ? element creeping in.

Added to this suffering is an ("artists choice" , "white privilege ") label to it, only compounding a feeling of sickness and misplacement . Like my voice is cancelled.

As much as Im blessed, this is the worst I have ever felt in my entire life. I live alone by choice, but this means no one to talk to, to share and to vent to in my space. I have to be very strong to hold my overly sensitive empath self up everyday. And with an approaching winter, It doesn't feel good

It seems the election happened and its no longer a free country. Its a lawless country, no privacy, no freedom of speech or expression. We the people have no voice as laws are enacted without our consent and blatant bald face lies are told to our face almost mocking us. We are backed into a corner more every day and dying by a death by a thousand slices.

And Solutions? Anything actionable? Write my congressman? Nope, done that and could do it everyday, only putting me on a terrorist list by this criminal group in office.

Im sickened

I do feel this way, too

Let's just take it down, even for now, and bring all those things to a shame and be shiny one more. To hell with the others who wish this nasty thing to happen! :P


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Who cares about faking it, let's just throw it all out. "Those who need to understand, will, those who don't, just don't"

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[janette]

Doug I think you should attempt a podcast sort of thing.

You're passionate, smart, articulate, and very comfortable in front of a camera.

It'll allow you to connect with people a little more and discuss all the things that are troubling you - 2 birds with 1 stone - and a whole bunch of other interested people will be able to listen in.

Good opportunity to promote your art too.

Great idea 😊

[Agape]

Hi Dough, hear you, who knows how many of us have been to “that point” already and repeatedly and yes “da internet” is almost inexhaustible mash of information and endless chat and who are we to “fight it all”.

The only thing that really helps is to unplug from your devices. Imagine it IS the Matrix if you have to for the beginning but ( for your sanity sake) make the experience of actually unplugging from “it all” at your liberty and whenever you need.

They have offered us this internet experience for sure but too many things and stress that came along with it.

Once you start unplugging ...:)

there may come some unpleasant side effects or call it correctly after effects since unplugging from it all is NOT a therapy, it IS just the normal, decent way of things
along with the option of NOT picking up phones at ANY TIMES WHEN IT IS IMCONVENIENT FOR YOU, not responding to communication requests and not obliging yourself to “continuity” of your communication considering the times and distances we are covering are far longer than average human life span or many of them
( do you feel like we have lived many lives in one through recent two decades ) ,

side effects of unplugging may include ..

continuous mental chat “with some people”
feelings like those people “needed you back”
acute stress of not getting the weather forecast right on the hour..

therefor.. worsening of doom paranoia for some individuals

feelings of depersonalization

depression and anxiety

further stress and neurosis

loss of focus

and so forth

I suppose the list would be long but if you are unplugging consciously and voluntarily ( at the end everyone gets to do it for themselves , not following any kind of advice) you can also reassure yourself that these symptoms are temporary, illusory,
you do not “need internet” to live your days, your mind is far more entertaining than the thousands of fans and you will see an improvement

even if you turn everything off just for 1 Day.

If you ever get over day one :) , say you disconnect for few days or weeks you may also find that everything is about the same ( but little better) and no you did not lose yourself you’ve just forgotten , due to the amount of brain traffic going on and it’s alright to restart whatever way you choose after.


The fear of disconnection from internet is completely unreal. Yet it turned to be very serious novel type of anxiety for many people of today.
It was casted upon them without revenue.

It’s better to take our lives( minds) to our own hands before complaining about it ( and how many hours kids spend on it overtime) because if we do complain the government will be happy to sort it for us 😄 and impose insane regulations ..
and it would be major trouble unless it’s already happening.


And then, you may just end up reading the same news but without exposing your soul naked in front of the monster ..

Just read the papers fast like we did at all times.

Think if you are up to it actually just don’t bother yourself with informing anyone.

It’s another emotional type of drag and there’s no meaning to it.

It isn’t obligatory or customary. You are not obliged by any law or cultural custom to pick phones or log in/log out to the net and its forums and inform your friends ( @ the CIA) what are you doing. It’s a myth 😅
Sure people do believe in it but it’s baseless and unreal.

You are free to go and come back, without notice or explanation. You are free to disappear for a bit and reappear whenever.


It’s in the nature and order of Life to govern itself
and govern itself the best



🙏

[I am B]

Hey Doug! I can completely relate. What works for me is to realise I'm living MY OWN reality and adventure, even if everything else is crumbling down. And how interesting it is! An artist through the fall of Rome. Thats powerful! Something to embrace even if there are some feelings of despair and languishing sometimes.

Regular hiking gets my energies balanced and puts everything into prespective too.

But you're a musician right? Strong feelings make for great compositions, and they don't have to be all cheerful and happy. I'm a sound engineer, so feel free to hit me up if you need to edit or mix your stuff, or maybe get the podcast they mentioned cleaned. I'll gladly do it for widening my portfolio a bit ^^

You're not what you read, theres a huge world out there.

[Frankie Pancakes]

From the Convoluted Universe book 2
The destruction of Atlantis is happening.
All cyclical. Same song 200th verse.

M: They were drunk with the ability to alter things, to change it with
the power. They didn’t care. There were some who planned to
leave also by boats.
D: Do you know what specifically they were doing with the negative
energy? What they were using it for?
M: They were trying to turn people away from the light. Trying to turn
them away from the positive. And to only be afraid and see the
negative things. They wanted to have them under their control. So
they would be their leader, and they would have many people that
were afraid and would only listen to them.
D: By using fear. (Yes) But some of them also tried to get away when
they saw what was happening.
M: Yes. It had gone too far. And the land and the area could no
longer take any more of the disruptions. It would not be able to
exist much longer. That it would be going underneath the waters.

[modini]

Wonderful! Looked it up: The Convoluted Universe, Book 2 Paperback – February 22, 2007
by Dolores Cannon (Author)

[Frankie Pancakes]

Just a bit more from the Convoluted Universe book 2

D: Because Earth is a complicated planet.
T: It’s extremely complicated. It is unlike any other planet. I think the
form of negativity on this planet makes it different. The human
race is a very warrior type race. They have a great deal of difficulty
of living peace. It is almost like their race cannot co-exist in peace.
This may come from their lower vibrations. I think each one that
comes here has to be so careful and not be caught into these
lower vibrations. It is a very challenging planet. I did take that
chance. I think that any time you come into this existence, you
have created karma. And, no doubt, I will have to repay this
karma. However, I think the main thing that I do here is try to
maintain a balance of being very positive, very loving, and what
karma I have created with Earth isn’t of a negative form, per se.
It’s to actually find ways of working to reduce that. And then to
take care of that karma. And not allow it to carry over.

[TomKat]

TomKat, I like that kind of ignore them attitude, but you know they will not ignore you back. Maybe it's paranoid but I feel the need to stay alert so i know when to duck, and when to stand my ground.

Well, there are mass events that don't have to affect you. You move to a town where there are no jobs but you get one. You go to a hospital that believes in the jab, but they don't enforce it on you. There's a traffic jam but it start just a minute after you pass. You get pulled over but the cop lets you off with a warning. It's called being lucky, and you create that by looking at what's RIGHT in your life, not at what's WRONG in other people's. Speculating on what bad is going to happen to you is borrowing trouble. Wait till it happens before you start fighting.

[Mark (Star Mariner)]

All I can tell you Doug is take a break from it all. Yes we are very much under assault right now, but sometimes we put ourselves under assault. The mind and the body can only take so much. Eventually we have duck under the parapet and take a timeout. I think every one of us has been there.

My tip is simply this, expose yourself only to leisurely pursuits and distractions for a while. Plenty have said get out in nature. Great advice, but you also need something to actively engage in. I like to read. Get online and search recommended novels in your favourite genre. Escape into those novels, and give your soul some time and space to breathe again. If reading isn't your thing, maybe you'd like to watch movies, go fishing, play computer games. Whatever it is, you need a world that isn't this one in which to immerse yourself. Personally, other worlds is how I've survived this one.

[TomKat]

TomKat, I like that kind of ignore them attitude, but you know they will not ignore you back. Maybe it's paranoid but I feel the need to stay alert so i know when to duck, and when to stand my ground.

I picked up a couple of tricks for generating luck from Gary Douglas. In my morning shower, I say at least 10 times: "all of life comes to me with ease and joy and glory." It's an elastic universe and there's always room for the wishes of positive people.
And if something bad does happen, I repeat "how does it get better than this?"
If everyone on the forum thought about the attempted totalitarian world takeover and said "how does it get better than this? it would change in some way. Note that you're not demanding an outcome, you're just asking of the universe.

[thepainterdoug]

THANKS EVERYONE ONCE AGAIN. ALL ADVISE TAKEN AND APPRECIATED!! ITS MORE TO KNOW I HAVE A GREAT FAMILY HERE!

btw FRANKIE PAN AND MODINI, my special reoccurring syncro number is 222 So I will take note of getting that book by D Cannon!!

[Gracy]

Gracie May, I just want to say that yes, so often our fear or our end of the world scenario doesnt actually happen. Seneca and the Stoics often speak of this.

However, It is happening.Its happening now. It is not a fear for the future , its a reckoning of the now.

Is it? Are you really that sure? Because "THE END IS NOW!", has been hawked like a carnival barker on the internet 24/7, for quite. some. time. now... So long as the fear porn merchants have their buyers they will continue with their craft, and just like the dollar that was crashing (NOW!) according to Haggman's "insidser" 8 1/2 years ago did no such thing, it didn't matter because there's absolutely zero accountability for all the fails, and they just move on to the next great panic over what's (supposedly) happening RIGHT NOW, or JUST AROUND THE CORNER.

So we'll see Doug, that's my whole point. It's not about being a lazy denier; it's about due diligence in separating the wheat from the chaff, acting/reacting in proportion to what's really happening, and not letting our lives sink into despair because Chicken Little keeps on making a fine living by endlessly reporting that the barbarians are in the process of breaking down the front gate.

Be prepared, and be prepared to act if/when need be, but beyond that there's not a whole lot any of us can do about it. I'm locked, loaded, and well positioned and fortified, but beyond that? I still have a life to be enjoyed, a lot to offer others around me, and doing my best to make my little corner of the world a better place. :flower:

Those are things all of us can be doing in this time. Prepare for the worst, hope for the best, and making the world is a better place around us along the way.

Oh, and being sure to not feed the Archons along the way. :muscle:



Well, there are mass events that don't have to affect you. You move to a town where there are no jobs but you get one. You go to a hospital that believes in the jab, but they don't enforce it on you. There's a traffic jam but it start just a minute after you pass. You get pulled over but the cop lets you off with a warning. It's called being lucky, and you create that by looking at what's RIGHT in your life, not at what's WRONG in other people's. Speculating on what bad is going to happen to you is borrowing trouble. Wait till it happens before you start fighting.

Great points TomKat! :thumbsup:

[pyrangello]

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[thepainterdoug]

Gracie Where did i mention the end is now? No the world is not ending, and if you picked that up from me perhaps you filled in the blanks.

im not some unrealistic doom spouting fool. See Australia, the lockdowns, the violence and now the admission from some of their Gove reps to A NEW WORLD ORDER. They are even saying and admitting it now. Look at Canada? Europe?

The world does not need to end as a proof that there is some need for drastic concern and action . Oh well, perhaps I need it to get to my door, all internet locked down , P Avalon and other sites of freedom gone in order to justify my concern ?

im sure in the 30, ies, someone Jewish woman ( person, entity, life form) told another, nooo dont worry, they are just going to move us, give us a better home, relocate us. stop being such a worry wart!
Someone said, nooo its just a train ride, theres nothing to worry about. stop buying into this fear mongering! howd that play?

[Bubu]

Gracie Where did i mention the end is now? No the world is not ending, and if you picked that up from me perhaps you filled in the blanks.

im not some unrealistic doom spouting fool. See Australia, the lockdowns, the violence and now the admission from some of their Gove reps to A NEW WORLD ORDER. They are even saying and admitting it now. Look at Canada? Europe?

The world does not need to end as a proof that there is some need for drastic concern and action . Oh well, perhaps I need it to get to my door, all internet locked down , P Avalon and other sites of freedom gone in order to justify my concern ?

im sure in the 30, ies, someone Jewish woman ( person, entity, life form) told another, nooo dont worry, they are just going to move us, give us a better home, relocate us. stop being such a worry wart!
Someone said, nooo its just a train ride, theres nothing to worry about. stop buying into this fear mongering! howd that play?

I think there is really nothing to worry about but there is a need to do something about. Everything is exactly what they are meant to be. But that does not mean we don't do anything about it. Accepting everything does not mean doing nothing. We still have to do what we think is right relative to the situation. But acceptance cast away worries and fear thus we are able to function properly doing our thing more on a fun way. I am in a similar situation as you though not for the same reason although the reasons you mentioned contributes to the lowness. Couple of days back I had this "there is something wrong with me" bout. And your post is a wake up call. And the " its time to take action" came. So immediately after I log off I took my bike , which was unused for months, and ride a steep hill to get the Adrenalin pumping. That's me, when I am in my lowest I tend to spring into action and fix everything that needed to be. You are not me but I am sure you know you and you know what to do.

[Agape]

Ultimately, the laws of the physical universe surrounding us rely on Heisenberg principle of Uncertainty.
No future is really “set in stone”.

I think the civilisation eventually splits again at the end of every era and recycles and what will “really” become of it you can not see but it’s very beautiful - relatively to every past - as nature searches for more perfect, symmetrical and organised patterns .

But that’s on condition the past spoiled pattern of civilisation basically goes to shredder.

We are fully capable of dying and rising from our ashes ...



☔️

[Heart to heart]

Wonderful! Looked it up: The Convoluted Universe, Book 2 Paperback – February 22, 2007
by Dolores Cannon (Author)

A great series of books, no better information out there. Dolores was and is a magnificent shining star 🌟

[Open Minded Dude]

We're living in 2 realities now. You have to defend your own, even if it means ignoring the world around you. If you look at the evil reality too closely it will draw you in. Don't borrow trouble. Just take care of yourself, live your own life, and say "screw it" to those in the other reality.

I think we live in the time of "THE SHIFT" that was talked about (or "THE EVENT") to take place in this time for so long (not 2012). The Schism taking place. The Old Earth (still with the majority of sheeplepeople) and the NEW EARTH.

It happens right now before our eyes.

[onevoice]

THANKS EVERYONE ONCE AGAIN. ALL ADVISE TAKEN AND APPRECIATED!! ITS MORE TO KNOW I HAVE A GREAT FAMILY HERE!

btw FRANKIE PAN AND MODINI, my special reoccurring syncro number is 222 So I will take note of getting that book by D Cannon!!

All five of "The Convoluted Universe" books can be downloaded by using a Tor browser and going to this tor address (http://bookszlibb74ugqojhzhg2a63w5i2atv5bqarulgczawnbmsb6s6qead.onion/s/The%20convoluted%20universe). Enter "The Convoluted Universe" in the search box and all five books should be listed.

The tor browser can be downloaded from here (https://www.torproject.org/download/).

[Open Minded Dude]

THANKS EVERYONE ONCE AGAIN. ALL ADVISE TAKEN AND APPRECIATED!! ITS MORE TO KNOW I HAVE A GREAT FAMILY HERE!

btw FRANKIE PAN AND MODINI, my special reoccurring syncro number is 222 So I will take note of getting that book by D Cannon!!

All five of "The Convoluted Universe" books can be downloaded by using a Tor browser and going to this tor address (http://bookszlibb74ugqojhzhg2a63w5i2atv5bqarulgczawnbmsb6s6qead.onion/s/The%20convoluted%20universe). Enter "The Convoluted Universe" in the search box and all five books should be listed.

The tor browser can be downloaded from here (https://www.torproject.org/download/).

Read them all years ago. Great books to recommend!

[CurEus]

Thank you for sharing, I myself feel a continual low grade FEAR, not anxiety...it is hard to effectively communicate this. I can "see" what is coming but the more I try to communicate, the more I am shut down.

By noon. I am exhausted. Psychically so...tired b4 I even begin so to speak. Yet I have achieved progress. sometimes remarkably...to my own surprise.

I think Bill and others are correct, I am in an urban centre but I find walking around B4 I read through my bookmarks/feeds really refreshes me, sleep offers no solace. I don't think things will become much easier but WE CAN be kinder to ourselves.

Self care, it is different for everyone but now, more important than ever.
Take care of yourself AND let us know whatever you find that works for you.

YOU are NOT alone.

[Gemma13]

https://projectavalon.net/forum4/attachment.php?attachmentid=47555&d=1633099288
Ha ha :) Back in the no mobile phones day we would put up photocopied memes around the office and post good ones to mates. This was my favourite and the only one I kept over the years :thumbsup:

[Tyy1907]

I heard something today that may apply here. When we have these hard days where our inner resolve feels like it's under attack, our connection to our divinity could be dwindling. It's this love connection that gives us that inner strength. When things get to us - and it does at times for everyone - it's replaced by darkness that will only bring us down. To get it back in full force one must ask directly for this. Knowing ones true standing and importance and not in a "lesser than" state of mind that weakens the outreach and is in effect a proclamation of unworthiness. Which is a choice. We're truly creators. I hope this helps.

[amor]

Thank You Pyreangelo for your "Never ever give up" cartoons. I had an earth-shaking laugh, a great and much needed relief.

[meeradas]

... We're truly creators...

Yep. Round the clock. Always.

Once one GETS that, it can be a truly terrifying moment... of realizing "OMG! What have I been doing all this time..."

plus the more emotion driving all the thinking, the "taking to heart", the "better" and swifter los resultados...

yes, of what we DON'T and DIDN'T want - whaddaya reckon all these "media" are for?

We are literally making all this.


Now, self-forgiveness time.

And accompanying, 24-7, 365,


thought hygiene, a tough task, THE task, for most.



Ask yourself: Could I dare sit under the wish-fulfilling tree, right now?

[Dubsy]

It's a worldwide phenomena of that I'm sure

I'm situated in China at this time ( for my sins :facepalm: ) and I'm seeing a big difference between city dwellers and the people outside that are amazingly grounded and are not feeling different.

I don't know what to think, but I am seeing some difference in the people I know in cities.

I suggest it's not just in the US. Europe -- It is worldwide, yet, the more remote you are from 'civilization' the less you will sense it.

I have an apartment in a third tier city in China. I'm beginning to feel something.
Only recently I have felt this way.

For the past few weeks I have been traveling up to the the badlands that border Tibet on a University lecture tour.
All I can say is wow :o I've been here before, but getting a rush because this time I seem to be feeling a more pure earth state.
Probably because what is going on in the world at large -- and the feeling that nothing I / we can do can stop it.

I feel there is something happening.

There is such a dichotomy at this time between people living in the cities here and the rural people.
I always thought it was just a natural progression -- rural people want to go to the big city to find a better life .. ?

For sure there are people that are doing that for short term gain, although I am humbled by the people that I speak to who are beginning to build farming communities --- A system within a system

I have a feeling that any shortage, supply disruption is being planned.

If you have 50+ ships off the coast of California waiting to be unloaded , and you know you have 50+ ships off the coast of California and are telling me that you don't know what to do about it ..??

You are in charge and are a f**k**g idiot :drama:

[Journeyman]

This is kinda of a shout out to everyone. Anyone feel similar ?

Yes! To some extent it's a natural response to current events, but I also wonder if there's a deeper influence, a wave of energy or absence thereof. The Schumann index was very extreme recently, there's geomagnetic storms, maybe we pick up on some of this also.


And Solutions?

It helps for me to remember that there is, unironically, a war on. I may not be able to name the protagonists or the date it started, but it's well underway now and our minds are targets for wave after wave of fear based propaganda, cognitive dissonance laden diktats from the puppets playing at world leadership, assorted psy-ops and psycho dramas etc etc. They may not be rockets and bombs (thankfully, for now at least) but each and every one takes it toll.

It's clear that TPTB or factions thereof have planned this period for a long time and they've not hidden their machinations particularly well, so they're not worried about having an audience. The chances of impacting what is in play are slight for any one of us, but that doesn't mean we have to give even tacit approval. I reject all those that seek to enslave others or deceive them into a negative path and I do not consent to their sorcery or manipulation.

My suggestion would be to harness those wonderful creative gifts of yours and paint yourself into a good situation. Maybe as a figure surrounded by comforting, protective light, or watching the ongoing conflagration from a safe distance sipping a favourite cocktail and not feeling threatened in the slightest. Make that intention real and ask for any help out there that can lead you to the place you want to be.

Sending best wishes across the ocean. :waving:

[jimbobule]

This is very prescient thread.

The collective energy comments from China...I think it's being proven about localised collective consciousness influencing the whole and the individual. This is very perceptible and helps us to tune into our surroundings. I have a personal theory that this even stretches to subconscious physical bodily and mental responses to collective threats e.g. Illness or opportunities and posssibilities such a as social connection or economic interaction. In fact the very real essence of being human...we can't see something right under noses. That current sense of light touch fear and foreboding is purposely generated by the ptb who know this well and use symbols, instructions and media to alter our mind state.

The dougthepainter phenomenon...is true for a lot of us like I've said and corroborated here. At an individual level there seems to be generic fight, flight or 'stuck' sensations ruminating at the same time leading to internal confusion and that feeling of the downward spiral. When your'e stuck you need to unstick yourself with a hidden interest or passion. I'm a keen fisherman when I'm not 'stuck'...yesterday I was nudged to unstick and go fishing in nature, my friends told me to go, the radio played some great songs on the way and I was joined by one of the most uplifting spiritual humans on the riverbank I know and the result...4 Atlantic salmon. What a crazy set of synchronicities..the universes own oil lubrication.

Globalism...The NWO drives us to connect globally...your friend is from Sweden, your colleagues from India, your mother is Polish, father is Canadian and we are totally immersed in news, insights, propaganda etc 24/7. This is highly damaging to our human mind, especially people like us trying to navigate and make good of our situations. But we have no perspective on know how really bad and sick we have become as a result of this and our loss of individual and local identity.

A little story..my grandfather lived until he was 99. Farmed the land, made a living and was probably autistic. At age 90 he was having a wobble. He listened to the news on the radio and read a daily newspaper. He claimed his mind was invaded by "other people's problems" and the www wasn't even around then! The truth I now realise is that our minds are polluted and we consume someone elses sewage. The answer seems clear...as much as possible, moderate our information addictions and pursue the simpler local life. Easier said than done.

[Gwin Ru]

This is kinda of a shout out to everyone. Anyone feel similar ?

I wake in the morning and already feel a low grade sickness in my stomach.
[...]
And Solutions?
[...]Earth is apparently enveloped in an artificial frequency smog that's getting people down.

Check here (https://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?112361-The-Global-Financial-System-Explained-Kim-Goguen-LifeForce-the-Assemblies&p=1455204&viewfull=1#post1455204) (at around 0:24:45) for where is the source for such and for simple solutions as well.

[Dubsy]

Painter Doug has touched a nerve with me, and I can fully understand his watching the world as Rome burns analogy as I'm feeling the same way.

Many of the things being done now by governments around the world, and bodies that are in place to protect us mean no sense to me.

I can sympathize with Doug even without knowing him personally, and never having the pleasure of meeting him, because he has expressed in words on a website the way I am beginning to feel. :clap2:

I have to keep 'on point ' everyday with news that affects my job, and have to try and give an analysis of relevant news.

I'm finding it harder and harder to make any sense of anything coming my way in the form of information.
Even the trusted websites / sources that I have relied upon for years have become weirdly strange , and suspect to disinformation.

People that I'm dealing with on a business level seem very confused and cannot answer simple questions that I really need answers for in order to facilitate our mutual benefits in keeping a business viable.

It's a freaky situation for me - I'm very happy being paid for doing nothing :crazy:

[thepainterdoug]

Dubsy/ I get it and thanks for your comments. so how this for an example. I read recently that school board of administrations are appealing to Biden
to make the moms ,dads , teachers who are protesting their procedures ( critical race, sex awareness for children etc ) to be categorized as
DOMESTIC TERRORISTS!

REALLY? Is this not beyond insane?

[Mark (Star Mariner)]

Yes, it's beyond insane, but we're living in upside-down-world now, something I've commented on elsewhere. A place where cherished values become inverted, and common sense is lost. All part of the plan, I fear.

The only thing we can really do is observe from a distance and stay true to who and what we are. This we do for those around us. In leading by example, we can help keep them from falling pray to the madness.

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[Dubsy]

The left leaning people in the world are rapidly accelerating an agenda that even they have no idea of the consequences that their 'ideology' will eventually lead them to.

I've actually voted for left wing parties in my youth because I believed in their focus and promises.

No more. The left have become a PC 'woke' Marxist abomination -- nothing like I ever imagined happening.

I consider myself very neutral these days, yet I'm being called all the knee jerk reactionary verbs in the playbook by people that I know and love -- simply because I will not go along with any political agenda.

It goes back to what you originally said in your posting, Doug.

I'm feeling that people are being brainwashed so easily these days. It is making me feel very uneasy at this time, and I am 'feeling' that you are very aware of this.

I have so many more questions than answers at this stage of my 'red pill' ingestion

[Tyy1907]

It's 100% insane and the ones who see it as such are and will continue to be targetted. I say this as a fellow soldier on the front lines with you.

There's only divine love and the lack thereof. If we're not propped up and strengthened by one, evil fills in the space.

I can say without reservation it has sustained me and aided me, probably in more ways than I know.

[Heart to heart]

Forgive me if I have already quoted these words elsewhere but they have helped me to not get involved with the world out there. They were given to me from my source of wisdom

A PLACE NOT TO FIND YOURSELF RIGHT NOW IS THE PLACE OF FEAR. THIS IS AN ACTIVITY THAT DECEIVES AND CORROBORATES INCORRECTNESS TO THE NTH DEGREE.

LOVE THE WORD AND FEELING SHOULD IT VISIT YOUR HOUSE, BUT DO NOT LET IT CROSS THE THRESHOLD.

IF SUBJECT MATTER IS NOT GIVEN ATTENTION IT HAS NO OPPORTUNITY TO GROW.

IT MAY APPEAR THAT ALL THINGS SEEM UPSIDE DOWN FOR THOSE THAT REQUIRE STABILITY BUT DO HAVE PATIENCE WHILST THE WORLD REGAINS ITS BALANCE AFTER A BLIP OF A FEW THOUSAND YEARS COMES TO RIGHTS.

I have perfect trust in my source and that is how I manage to maintain my own balance. The TV and MSN are nothing but poison to the mind. Thankfully I live on a beautiful small island off the mainland of England, and have too many years under my belt to count, so feel truly blessed. I do hope these words will help you to know that there will be light at the end of the darkness for all you loving compassionate people on this forum. With heartfelt gratitude for sharing and baring your souls.❤️🌟🙏

[Patient]

This is kinda of a shout out to everyone. Anyone feel similar ?

I wake in the morning and already feel a low grade sickness in my stomach.
[...]
And Solutions?
[...]Earth is apparently enveloped in an artificial frequency smog that's getting people down.

Check here (https://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?112361-The-Global-Financial-System-Explained-Kim-Goguen-LifeForce-the-Assemblies&p=1455204&viewfull=1#post1455204) (at around 0:24:45) for where is the source for such and for simple solutions as well.

Thanks for that link - more dots connected.

I actually initially ignored that thread as I have so many things going on, I didn't think that I would have the time to grapple with the Global Financial system. :)

Tuning into the thread at the time you mentioned was perfect for me. Thank you! I will return to watch it entirely. There are a couple videos within the thread itself that I have already seen, so yes! good information!

I have wondered about myself lately - about how I have been feeling - but I took it down to catching a bit of "the nasty" from people that have been jabbed and that my body just needed time to flush it out. I have been feeling like a giant sponge and filter and then I am exhausted and find myself sleeping extra times that I really can't afford. But it is what my body needs.

I come out of my sleep, having a big sweat, and then I feel recovered - I eat (vegetarian/almost vegan) drinks lot of water and then I am refreshed. After about 10 - 16 hours depending upon activities, I am then down for about 6 hours, up again for about another 6 and then down for longer. I do feel that I am more exhausted (or my filter is full) when I have gone out in public. If I stay at home, my down time is usually less. That is why I have attributed it to other people's shedding (although I have learned that that is not the correct term - can't remember the correct one at this time.)

Last night my son was agitated and expressed to me that he felt odd and could not understand why he was feeling the way he was. He is amazing ( as all of my kids are in their own way) but he is a lot like me as he can sense people's feelings really well, and with animals he is amazing. Artistic (Doug the painter - you would love him! And I have shared your work with him!)

But the way he was trying to express how he felt, I felt that it was something external but I did not 'feel' any strange presence so I was left not knowing what to do other than support him through it.

Now, being guided to that video is powerful for me. Knowing what you are up against is always a big help when you are trying to fight through something. (That is also the first time I have heard Biotin in the list of vitamin supplements - and we have been taking it. Very cool when you find bits and pieces that show you are on the right path.)

Sorry for the long post, but I hope that it will help other people to connect some dots as well.

[Gemma13]

I consider myself very neutral these days, yet I'm being called all the knee jerk reactionary verbs in the playbook by people that I know and love -- simply because I will not go along with any political agenda.

It goes back to what you originally said in your posting, Doug.

I'm feeling that people are being brainwashed so easily these days. It is making me feel very uneasy at this time, and I am 'feeling' that you are very aware of this.

I have so many more questions than answers at this stage of my 'red pill' ingestion

Hi Dubsy

In case you haven't come across it yet, there is a section in "General Discussion" called, IDENTITY POLITICS, that has quite a good range of threads to choose from offering insight into this problem.

Here's one for starters:

https://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?111381-Former-Social-Justice-Warrior-Keri-Smith-explains-why-Social-Justice-as-all-about-Power-and-Control

Cheers
Gemma

[Dubsy]

Thank you so much, Gemma.

I will grab my morning coffee and enjoy the thread.

[amor]

It is time for us to verbally and loudly declare to everyone the insane MARXIST plans to shut us up and down by calling us TERRORISTS when they are the TRAITORS TO HUMANITY. We must call them out by name, office, place of operation, salary, etc. etc. Call them out on the carpet and GET RID OF THEM, for it is their intent to Get Rid of Us All. They have to take your children away from you and KILL THEM to complete their GENOCIDAL AGENDA. WAKIE WAKIE!

[Patient]

It is time for us to verbally and loudly declare to everyone the insane MARXIST plans to shut us up and down by calling us TERRORISTS when they are the TRAITORS TO HUMANITY. We must call them out by name, office, place of operation, salary, etc. etc. Call them out on the carpet and GET RID OF THEM, for it is their intent to Get Rid of Us All. They have to take your children away from you and KILL THEM to complete their GENOCIDAL AGENDA. WAKIE WAKIE!

One way is by each person suing a Walmart or whatever for discrimination. It doesn't mean that a person needs to spend a lot of money on a lawyer, it is just getting things down on paper and overwhelming the system.

Sometimes, the organization (whether it is a corporation, or the police and/or government) will quickly back down if you are standing up in front of them. Imagine if there was millions of little lawsuits started in every country. That would be a huge statement.

[Donald Ryan]

I'm coming to your island!!
Seriously, when the whirlwood of this chaotic world becomes too much, I try to close out the noises until they are nothing but a distant wind in the trees. As a survivor of childhood abuse on many levels, I trained myself to do this at an early age. But, the key for me is to search for the deep, deep center that sustains and balances me. This is often difficult but I know it is the one place they cannot ever reach. Years of therapy taught me to channel this practice for my betterment and self fulfillment. I am a work in progress and it keeps getting better. Turn off your TV and cell phone for a while. Slow down and let everything else spin on by. PS--being retired definitely helps. Thanks to all the posters here--it all helps. Cheers!

[mokosh]

I'm coming to your island!!
Seriously, when the whirlwood of this chaotic world becomes too much, I try to close out the noises until they are nothing but a distant wind in the trees. As a survivor of childhood abuse on many levels, I trained myself to do this at an early age. But, the key for me is to search for the deep, deep center that sustains and balances me. This is often difficult but I know it is the one place they cannot ever reach. Years of therapy taught me to channel this practice for my betterment and self fulfillment. I am a work in progress and it keeps getting better. Turn off your TV and cell phone for a while. Slow down and let everything else spin on by. PS--being retired definitely helps. Thanks to all the posters here--it all helps. Cheers!

And that my dear Donald is the advantage of an abused child. From a very young age I had to look for that place of peace and tranquility inside myself. Now I have my own peaceful island inside me.

[Delight]

I am listening to this extremely uplifting conversation. It is great to me because so much of what we feel is because we have awakened to who we are in a world that is still lagging behind.

x_eDSEHopT8

[Donald Ryan]

I liken this "malaise" many of us are feeling to our universal mind, all connected, suffering from a brain tumor. We are all connected and when things get more and more out of balance it affects everyone, making us sicker. I think the best one person can do is to start individually, inside, to heal and then work outward from there. Perhaps, if enough do this, it can start to reset the balance? Just a thought. . . Cheers to all.

[Agape]

I found about the following movie from Werner Herzog by some coincidence today,
never seen it around.

It’s 2016 documentary addressing some of the divergent technical and psychological problems of internet “interconnectedness” in a time lapse, covering good few points frequently discussed on forum only now. Werner Herzog ways ahead like usually, together with Elon Musk and others ..


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SSbhsPNnVWo

“Are those monks really meditating ? No, they’re sending tweets.”


That was 2016 though. In 2019 we have decided that we shall overcome ..


🙏

[amor]

Dear Apulu: Important you do this. Get the Love of your Life to go to Rense.com/Dr. Leonard Coldwell who lays it on the line as to what these Vaxes are. They are biological kill shots. The first set are perhaps 40% saline solution and the rest 60% killer material which I will explain later. Then the 40% folks are talked into getting a second shot which will likely be the kill shot. There will be more and more shots until everyone who took any shot is quite dead. Something new here is that pregnant women who took the shot were born with children having four arms and legs.

The doctor tells of another doctor who inspects the mRNA plus other organism under a powerful microscope and sees organism which has a human face and legs of a spider which deposits trillions of these things in ones blood and all organs. No one can live with such things in their body. Fauci and his Nazi killers are working to a genocidal plan put forth decades ago. The Rothschilds and Rockefellers and other leading Jews of Israel have printed out their plan to Rule the Planet by occupying every leading position in the world. Those allowed to live will be their worker slaves. And we are told they want uprisings so that they can bring out the Military on us, take everything we have and who will control everything including health care. This will allow them to administer Death Injections to whomever they wish to kill. Rense feels Trump is also a part of this plan. DO NOT TAKE THE GENOCIDAL INJECTIONS OR LET THEM BE GIVEN TO YOUR CHILDREN. WE ARE ENTITLED TO DEFEND OURSELVES FROM GLOBAL MURDERERS.

[amor]

According to Project Camelot the Anunnaki are living in an underground base under DAEMONA, Israel. It appears to me that they would be behind the abovementioned global genocidal plot. According to Rense the jews wish to return to their Satanic worship practices of sacraficing their children to Molock in the fire, canibalism, etc., and Christians stand in the way. That is why both the Catholic and Protestant Churches and their leaders have been infiltrated by the money bug, complete corruption and departure from the message of Jesus.

[amor]

Dr. Leonard Coldwell has had the Swiss Government declare him a Sovreign Soul and under Common Law, as such, we are permitted, as a group of 25, to prosecute those who have committed crimes under Common Law. Currently we are under Admiralty Law and we must find the proper way to remove ourselves from under it and declare that We Do Not Consent to Being Corporations Under Admiralty Law.