How often do you think how silly life is

[thepainterdoug]

How often do you think , how silly life is ?

Silly/ adj. having or showing a lack of common sense or judgment; absurd and foolish.

I watch the TCM channel and see these beautiful actors, actresses, in their important roles impressing millions of fans and viewers. All wish we could be them, to have their lives.
Then In a heartbeat, they are old, decaying and dead and forgotten . Fin !

And our geniuses. What have they solved? homeless, hungry? starving? disease? aging? How about Loneliness? NOPE
They have solved how to make more money. There is no money in these other things I mention or they would have been solved.

We all know this, have it figured out, yet we buy in

Looking at things squarely, we are playing a game. And the game is somewhat meaningless, as all games are. They are fun and meaningful in the moment, then forgotten.
Who won the World series 6 years ago? The Stanley cup 10 years ago?
Who cares?
Yet we can't help but take it all so seriously as its happening . I do , then I dont, then I do.

I guess we're here to experience it as is. So our race differences and the **** storm they are causing is supposed to be as is. We are all playing out our part for the universes amusment.

I love the question, Why am I me? and not someone else?

Well, that's it, no revelations here. Just silliness, add some if you like

[Orph]

I love the question, Why am I me? and not someone else?

Too late. I came too far being me and I'm not giving me up. So, .... sorry, you can't be me. And, no offense, I don't want to be you. And, just maybe nobody else wants to be you either. So essentially, you got stuck playing you because no one else wanted the part. And a fine job of being you you're doing.

Soooooo, three cheers, two beers and look in the mirror. (You may need to do the three cheers, two beers and look in the mirror a few times). But after a while, when you look in the mirror you may not look so much like you. Then, for a while at least, you can try and pretend you are not you, but rather that other fella you see staring back at you in the mirror.

But I have a feeling that after that little charade, you'll come to the conclusion that being you is the best thing you can do.
:sun:

[thepainterdoug]

Orph

you mis understood my intent in that one. I love being me, dont want to be anyone else. THATS NOT WHY I ASKED

its more, Im amazed that the me thats me, is not in someone else. i dont think it can be explained

[Gemma13]

How often do you think , how silly life is ?

Gosh Doug, every moment of every day. Glad you said it!

[Orph]

Orph

you mis understood my intent in that one.

And you clearly misunderstood the silly zaniness of my post. In a thread about silliness, I thought you would see the obvious silliness of my post. Not a problem though. I live too much inside my head.

[thepainterdoug]

Orph

after I posted my silly explanation of how you didnt understand me, I reflected on your comment and said to my self, wait, I think you got it!

how silly of me.

[ExomatrixTV]

How often do you think , how silly life is ?

Zero, as it is not a question anymore ... just a cold & dry observation ... we seem to be trapped in an endless perpetual confirmation loop ... unless we can, somehow, find a way to exist beyond the daily exploited & mass injected dramas serving Dystopian Agenda2030 (https://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?111148-The-Great-Reset).


MSM & Politics: ... Normalizing Insanity 24/7

cheers,
John


MelissaCiummei-TheGreatReset (http://tinyurl.com/MelissaCiummei-TheGreatReset)

[Mashika]

How often do you think , how silly life is ?

Silly/ adj. having or showing a lack of common sense or judgment; absurd and foolish.

I watch the TCM channel and see these beautiful actors, actresses, in their important roles impressing millions of fans and viewers. All wish we could be them, to have their lives.
Then In a heartbeat, they are old, decaying and dead and forgotten . Fin !

And our geniuses. What have they solved? homeless, hungry? starving? disease? aging? How about Loneliness? NOPE
They have solved how to make more money. There is no money in these other things I mention or they would have been solved.

We all know this, have it figured out, yet we buy in

Looking at things squarely, we are playing a game. And the game is somewhat meaningless, as all games are. They are fun and meaningful in the moment, then forgotten.
Who won the World series 6 years ago? The Stanley cup 10 years ago?
Who cares?
Yet we can't help but take it all so seriously as its happening . I do , then I dont, then I do.

I guess we're here to experience it as is. So our race differences and the **** storm they are causing is supposed to be as is. We are all playing out our part for the universes amusment.

I love the question, Why am I me? and not someone else?

Well, that's it, no revelations here. Just silliness, add some if you like

I have always thought there is a very comical aspect to all that stuff of "i'm this or that"

Like someone saying "i'm a doctor, i have 40 years of experience!" and expects people to somehow care or act amazed. Who cares?

Someone could be the king and still slip on the soap taking a shower and then be found in a ridiculous, comical position that would make even the most serious person on this planet to laugh uncontrollably, and so what?

Taking oneself too seriously, because of life achievements, takes away from just "being human", because in the end, someone can also die while eating an olive and no matter how high in society or life that person went, it all ended with a stupid olive stuck on their throat, that's all there is to it

Life is so silly :P

[Anchor]

Every day at some point I think I am in Clown World!

It is all so fake, but that is the challenge of waking up to the illusory nature of "reality". Double fake because those that knew more than me exploited their knowledge and power to twist even the fake fake and make it harder to thrive in love and harmony.

This world is already a beautiful place, just go out into nature and see it. These clowns cannot take it down.

The game really is almost over now.

[Mashika]

Every day at some point I think I am in Clown World!

It is all so fake, but that is the challenge of waking up to the illusory nature of "reality". Double fake because those that knew more than me exploited their knowledge and power to twist even the fake fake and make it harder to thrive in love and harmony.

This world is already a beautiful place, just go out into nature and see it. These clowns cannot take it down.

The game really is almost over now.

We live in a very much well built hyper-reality, waking up from it only takes you to another level of it, if you go talk to people, they mostly wish or have this idea of 'waking up' but they don't understand or could put into a specific idea or concept what 'waking up is'. Waking up is used as a way to achieve something, put you in a state of longing for a 'better reality', and once you finally 'wake up' is into this more perfect reality, but... it's just another wrapper around you

Most people truly don't know what to expect, they think it's going to be 'light and love', stable, clean and pure. All of that is based on the same concept that has ruled the world for thousands of years. That being "The next world after this is perfect" or "Heaven" etc

But who knows, i for sure don't.

[amor]

My experience of life cannot be described as silly. We are not given the opportunity to change anything. The money/slave system sucks all good from the world. Joy is not possible except to fools or the temporarily blind. Compassion, anger, defiance, and finally sadness replace all opposite feelings we bring to life when we arrive. Greed, stupidity and evil seem to be the required route on Earth. All the goodness and hope we bring into life it seems must be cruelly extinguished, most of all, love. For our good we receive evil. Should we then confidently expect that if our spirits survive our bodies that we can expect sweetness and light? Therein may lie the silliness.

[amor]

My experience of life cannot be described as silly. We are not given the opportunity to change anything. The money/slave system sucks all good from the world. Joy is not possible except to fools or the temporarily blind. Compassion, anger, defiance, and finally sadness replace all opposite feelings we bring to life when we arrive. Greed, stupidity and evil seem to be the required route on Earth. All the goodness and hope we bring into life it seems must be cruelly extinguished, most of all, love. For our good we receive evil. Should we then confidently expect that if our spirits survive our bodies that we can expect sweetness and light? Therein may lie the silliness.

[Mashika]

Should we then confidently expect that if our spirits survive our bodies that we can expect sweetness and light? Therein may lie the silliness.

From a Buddhist point of view, no

The expectation that 'surviving the suffering of this world' will lead to a better one, immediately turns thing around and causes damage to the soul, so reincarnation, if possible, will be on a lower level than before

It's like saying "i worked so hard to help those people, so therefore i must for sure have won a better afterlife!" and nope, the person did it with a purpose, one of "if i do nice things i'll earn a reward in the afterlife". And then just there, even if it was one year or 50 or whatever, they have causes themselves the most harm and took several steps back, they did it for a gain, for themselves, earning your way to a nice life after this one through the suffering of others? Nope

[palehorse]

Do not hope or expect anything, it is what make life silly. Be aware of the 5 basic senses we have, do not get much attached to it and life won't be silly, and anyone can experience that, you will see what is what, how life can be silly after that?
To know the truth is to get hurt, most of us are addicted to daily life and to withdrawn from it, is a very hard task and yes it hurts, since nobody wants to get hurt, pretending is the easiest way.

[pueblo]

I always found it interesting that the word 'silly' comes from the German word 'selig' meaning 'holy'.

[Pam]

How often do you think , how silly life is ?

Silly/ adj. having or showing a lack of common sense or judgment; absurd and foolish.

I watch the TCM channel and see these beautiful actors, actresses, in their important roles impressing millions of fans and viewers. All wish we could be them, to have their lives.
Then In a heartbeat, they are old, decaying and dead and forgotten . Fin !

And our geniuses. What have they solved? homeless, hungry? starving? disease? aging? How about Loneliness? NOPE
They have solved how to make more money. There is no money in these other things I mention or they would have been solved.

We all know this, have it figured out, yet we buy in

Looking at things squarely, we are playing a game. And the game is somewhat meaningless, as all games are. They are fun and meaningful in the moment, then forgotten.
Who won the World series 6 years ago? The Stanley cup 10 years ago?
Who cares?
Yet we can't help but take it all so seriously as its happening . I do , then I dont, then I do.

I guess we're here to experience it as is. So our race differences and the **** storm they are causing is supposed to be as is. We are all playing out our part for the universes amusment.

I love the question, Why am I me? and not someone else?

Well, that's it, no revelations here. Just silliness, add some if you like

I have always thought there is a very comical aspect to all that stuff of "i'm this or that"

Like someone saying "i'm a doctor, i have 40 years of experience!" and expects people to somehow care or act amazed. Who cares?

Someone could be the king and still slip on the soap taking a shower and then be found in a ridiculous, comical position that would make even the most serious person on this planet to laugh uncontrollably, and so what?

Taking oneself too seriously, because of life achievements, takes away from just "being human", because in the end, someone can also die while eating an olive and no matter how high in society or life that person went, it all ended with a stupid olive stuck on their throat, that's all there is to it

Life is so silly :P


I love this post. And then we find out that so many things that we consider life's achievements, like a doctorate, or a high paying job are really just a reflection of how programmable we are. How many questions will we NOT ask. At least in most cases.

[Pam]

Every day at some point I think I am in Clown World!

It is all so fake, but that is the challenge of waking up to the illusory nature of "reality". Double fake because those that knew more than me exploited their knowledge and power to twist even the fake fake and make it harder to thrive in love and harmony.

This world is already a beautiful place, just go out into nature and see it. These clowns cannot take it down.

The game really is almost over now.

It's really a challenge when the programming really begins to crumble. At first you get a small piece falling down... Then there are several at a time...then chunks of the wall start breaking apart...and on and on and on...Clown world, the house of mirrors, the roller coaster, the bumper cars...all of them collapsing one by one.

[heretogrow]

I give up in this silly world. I am staying in bed today. I have a man who gambles all of his money away. It happens over and over. He has not touched me in four years. How silly is that? I am a warm, loving, genuine, honest person. Time to get off this merry go round. Things will not change until I change. Today I am going to stop cleaning up after him and stop paying his way. I am putting out an add that I am looking for a room mate when my darling daughter goes to college. I am going to experience life and not just cook and clean for someone who is not grateful. I am funny, witty, comical and warm. I am a damn good catch! It is silly to let a person who hates life and blames everyone else for everything bad that happens to them stay in the same space as one who seeks joy. I have a six month plan to wean him off my financial teet and for me too seek out my next journey. Here I come world! I am silly and vibrant and full of life and love! Can ya handle me!!!

[Hym]

I give up in this silly world. I am staying in bed today. I have a man who gambles all of his money away. It happens over and over. He has not touched me in four years. How silly is that? I am a warm, loving, genuine, honest person. Time to get off this merry go round. Things will not change until I change. Today I am going to stop cleaning up after him and stop paying his way. I am putting out an add that I am looking for a room mate when my darling daughter goes to college. I am going to experience life and not just cook and clean for someone who is not grateful. I am funny, witty, comical and warm. I am a damn good catch! It is silly to let a person who hates life and blames everyone else for everything bad that happens to them stay in the same space as one who seeks joy. I have a six month plan to wean him off my financial teet and for me too seek out my next journey. Here I come world! I am silly and vibrant and full of life and love! Can ya handle me!!!


Love
Good speed, God Speed in your simple quest to live in Love

This Love is not defined by illicit companions,
Stealing away who and how you are,
As we are not limitation.....
We are expansion into the Love.

May the journey be one of protection from the lost
Empowered by Your Speed To Grow out of that shell,
That hell of servitude to an undeserving mate.

This human thing, this built in expectation of deserving the best
Is worthy of the journey
When I value what is common and available,
Seemingly hidden in a deeper understanding
Of myself..... as the unlimited Self of this little world,

And of Itself it is not, only, ever alone.
It never feels alone.
So far away from the world of words,
Yet an erstwhile companion, a reminder of the experience.

Not willing to be lost in the arc of another world turning
Away from the darkness,

The words, a declaration of independence
Written by this Heart
Listening to itself.....A comfort that cannot be described

The world attempts to blame you for not fighting,
Thru the triggers it has hidden in familiar places,
Engaging that tilting windmill that even Quixote would refuse to fight.
No worries, as it tilts and falls all on it's own.

You'll be much more than okay...
You'll Thrive.....


I wrote this in response to your declaration,
And know that somehow we all think that the silliest of things,
Like declaring your human rights...
Your right to Live in Love
In Your Own Home,

These things must be started, and stated
And they have been,
All related to those here who will answer
This growing declaration
That difficult and completely unnecessary experiences
Are deserving enough to find their own space,
Without a trace of You.

As soon as I saw your post I ran to enforce your expressions, before you removed them. They are important. In the past I have removed some of mine also, thinking why would I share that....
Then, finding value in the sense, the strong feeling of their value to others.... I posted them.

And I don't share anymore of the things, hard core language, much more descriptive and challenging to those now running for office in the craft I'm leaving.

It does no good to write without response, nor to limit the connection with those who have the same core Loves we have. The support we have for each other is the expression of our value of life itself.....

I also wrote this post while I had just watched a reading by the author, C. Bukowski's Final Home Movie https://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?3596-Up-At-The-Ranch-And-Beyond&p=1466146&viewfull=1#post1466146

In the midst of apparitions in churches, aliens, comets and newly discovered old worlds Up At The Ranch and Beyond, all of which are an amazing compilation that Blue Green Grows for us to enjoy, I also found Dorothy Parker's writing....and I have deliberately not read the writings of many authors.

In these I was instantly reminded of people I knew and how some of their inhumanity towards me and others stood out like the dull lives they live.

Seeing your expressions of independence and right, I responded....leaving the sillyness for those who I talk to personally....and the short stories I've written with imaginative endings and silly premises...or so I think, but not expecting...

Go where you know Love is, I tell myself.
And I start here....

[heretogrow]

Hym,
I love, love, LOVE you! You get me! Yes I am odd, different, and nonconventional. I am called a f…ing lunatic on a daily basis. But I have an affinity to spread love and appreciation to those around me. I can make something out of nothing and I do it all the time. I can look at the ugliest things and see the beauty. But when I am not loved or appreciated I won’t waist my time. Two days ago My father turned 79. We had a wonderful birthday party for him to celebrate his life. Unfortunately he has dementia and I am not even sure how much he took in. But he was loved, accepted, cherished and celebrated. When I was taking my grandkids home they said, NeNe you need to move closer to us. We could create and craft every day. It would be so much fun. They put the wind under my wings. I have had two days of silent treatment.I am responsible and take care of everything! No more! I will value myself, Even if I have to stand alone. This silly human has a future!

[Tyy1907]

Here to grow, you'll be in my prayers! :)

[amor]

Dear John: Your post including the video of Melissa Cuimmei speaking of The Great Reset exposing the plot to globally control and ultimately murder the human race triggered a memory in me. This memory concerned what these Globalists have been doing to Scientists who are inventing the tools of human control and manipulation in the War Against Humanity. Into the Scientists is surgically implanted sacks of a chemical which allows them to stay alive and continue their ordered work. If theY Blow The Whistle or Leave Their Posts, the supply of this chemical is stopped and they DIE.

The Global Reset is THE SAME DEVICE OF OWNERSHIP AND CONTROL OVER HUMAN LIFE. WE MUST NOT COMPLY OR WE ARE DEAD. THE SOLUTION MAY BE THE DESTRUCTION OF THE COMPUTER SYSTEM WHICH IS K E Y TO THEIR CONTROL. ALSO, WE MUST ELIMINATE THE GLOBALISTS AND THEIR STRONGHOLDS WHICH ARE CORPORATIONS AND THEIR ABILITY TO BUY OUR SO-CALLED REPRESENTATIVES IN CONGRESS. WE NEED TO SOMEHOW REPRESENT OURSELVES. (DO NOT REDUCE TYPE SIZE).

[Hym]

How often?
Do you mean how many times each day, 'cause if that's the ?, I honestly don't count....

Like this....

A friend calls and I ask what he's up to.
The answer moves from one related subject to another and how my friend is going to go pick up some supplies another friend is asking him to come and get. The only thing is it's a slow, long drive with my trailer needed to load it all up, but it's along the Turquoise Trail, so it's a pretty long slog thru the hills.

He is thinking about his cell phone and keeping in touch with me and how hard it is for him to do so much on a device that he thoroughly does not like to use. We'll find him an old macbook pro that works well and get him on it to relieve some of the stress. He then tells me about going up to the top of the hill his land is on to do his meditation, long Ek Ong Kaars.

However, once up at the top of that mountain, one of the tallest around, on one side overlooking a major thru freeway, and the other on the west side a vast, long valley that finally touches the northern end of the Sandias he is startled by the markings on the ground, just in front of his normal place of meditation. There is a Yin Yang drawn on the dirt, just inches away.

He realizes that the marks in the dirt were caused by a snake, so he stands up and looks around for the danger....or the signs of another monk tired of walking, who is also appreciative of the altitude and the comfort the prayers have created.....the snake being only another temporary shell for another sentient soul. Yep, my friend thinks like that.

He looks around for his cell phone and he can't find it. He then has to walk back down the steep trail to his house to look for the phone.

He walks down keeping an eye out for the lost phone but sees nothing, even as he approaches his house. Stopping to retrace the memory of his walk up the hill he has a sense that he may have dropped the phone in his quick standing, protecting himself from what may be a dangerous snake.

He walks back up the hill and reminds himself that his meditation involves much more than sitting down and chanting. As he approaches his little temple in the wild he sees the phone in plain sight, right next to the Yin Yang drawing in the dirt.

He takes a picture of the markings and then sits down again to chant, now not worried at all about having some company join him. He too was a film union member, so having a likable snake for company is a refreshing change.

When he tells me about the meet and greet he had in the morning, I ask the only question possible....

Did you check the phone to see if the snake ordered anything online?

Hey, if the snake can draw a perfect YinYang symbol in the exact spot where he meditates, the only place on that big, tall mountain, why would anyone trust what he did with the phone?

Silly, Indeed.

[thepainterdoug]

HeretoGrow. I sure do Hear you! Are humans getting weirder? im sorry to hear this but seems a rite of passage in some way. We are asked , or forced , to shed skins.
god bless you for sharing truth!

embrace silly!

Mashika/ love what you say here.
We live in a very much well built hyper-reality, waking up from it only takes you to another level of it, if you go talk to people, they mostly wish or have this idea of 'waking up' but they don't understand or could put into a specific idea or concept what 'waking up is'. Waking up is used as a way to achieve something, put you in a state of longing for a 'better reality', and once you finally 'wake up' is into this more perfect reality, but... it's just another wrapper around you

its just another wrapper.

Amor, Pam, everyone thanks for being truthful and honest. It starts there for us all. There is no lightness of being until we tell ourselves the truth. And the truth isnt good or bad. It just is.

HYM What a great story! yes very silly. we humans are. we are actors playing out parts. like, im a buddhist and i need to do buddhist things to show others, or even sillier, to show myself im playing my part. because we all have a watcher within

[heretogrow]

Ok so I had the silliest notion. I think I will drink whiskey and fall into an oblivious sleep.If my granny were alive she would whoop my ass. Ladies don’t drink or wallop in pity. I wish I had someone to hug me. I am either loosing it or becoming my most real and authentic self.

[thepainterdoug]

Here to grow, I heard it said, we are here in order to find our way back to god. That stuck with me. We have all these earthly toys , fascinations, connections and accomplishments and none of them last. They all have a timer. Thats why this activity is silly.

I believe I finally realized this with people and relationships. I am an artist and a creator everyday. and its the process of being one that brings meaning. The objects I make are the residue for others to either enjoy or dismiss .But either way, they will see themselves in my residue. Perhaps thats the purpose.

im sorry for the difficult time you are enduring, but I see you as becoming a most authentic person. And perhaps we need to loose it, to become one.

Have you seen the movie, "Land" if not please see if you can as I thought of it when I read what you said . lonliness and abandenment is hanging over all of us every day. All can and will be lost. Yet we were put here to make these very attachments that eventually will be lost.

And yet, words mean nothing when reality hits. We all are good with words until the ax falls on us.

If I was an animal I'd be an eagle. Flying above, alone and observing all. Im very much like a cat, self sustaining yet can sit on a lap as well. But when someone holds for too long, I want to get down and re calibrate

I added a drawing study i made when in my 20ies. Contradictory me! lol

you are getting digital hugs from me and many here. I wish you strength in your journey. You were smart to find this family

[Tyy1907]

Ok so I had the silliest notion. I think I will drink whiskey and fall into an oblivious sleep.If my granny were alive she would whoop my ass. Ladies don’t drink or wallop in pity. I wish I had someone to hug me. I am either loosing it or becoming my most real and authentic self.

You deserve to be happy! Hold yourself in high regard cause that's where it starts! Let the healing begin :)

[Satori]

I’ve never felt or thought that life is silly. I have often wondered, especially in the past 20 or so years, what the point of it is. Human life at least. But I would not want to end any life, including my own. Life is a unique treasure. All life.

One of the best insights I came across about why life exists, is so that Universe, Consciousness, G-d .... can experience itself. I don’t know. That notion may seem silly to some.

[Pam]

I give up in this silly world. I am staying in bed today. I have a man who gambles all of his money away. It happens over and over. He has not touched me in four years. How silly is that? I am a warm, loving, genuine, honest person. Time to get off this merry go round. Things will not change until I change. Today I am going to stop cleaning up after him and stop paying his way. I am putting out an add that I am looking for a room mate when my darling daughter goes to college. I am going to experience life and not just cook and clean for someone who is not grateful. I am funny, witty, comical and warm. I am a damn good catch! It is silly to let a person who hates life and blames everyone else for everything bad that happens to them stay in the same space as one who seeks joy. I have a six month plan to wean him off my financial teet and for me too seek out my next journey. Here I come world! I am silly and vibrant and full of life and love! Can ya handle me!!!


Please be careful when you set limits with him. I don't claim to know anything about him except that he seems to be living off you. You stated previously that he is going to school. You also stated that he see's himself as a victim and others are to blame for things that happen to him.

He is gambling away his money and you seem to be paying the bills and doing all the day to day things that are required in life. So this guy has a really good deal going for himself and he isn't going to like to have that situation challenged. I would suspect he will respond in one of two ways. Either he will blame any problems on you and be very angry or he will turn on the charm to convince you that you are wrong and after all, he really is a victim and he's so sorry for anything that upset you and he will change. People that lack empathy will appeal to a empaths empathy to manipulate them. He will want you to feel bad for him.

I am not so sure I would be so generous to give this guy 6 months. You give him 6 months while he gambles money away and lives on your dime? He will use that time to manipulate you or intimidate or guilt you into changing your mind.

If he chose to spend his money on himself gambling you don't need to take on the role of being concerned about his welfare.

I would like to say I have never experienced anything like this, but I have. Empathics are pretty easy to exploit unless they can learn to balance empathy with self preservation.

And ask yourself, what do you get out of this relationship? Is it worth it in the end? What will 6 months of stress do for you?

Maybe the greatest gift you can give him is letting him be accountable for his own life.

[heretogrow]

Thank you to those who have reached out. I am artistic and creative too but there is no place to set up here. I rented a studio years ago and I found I need that discipline in order to create. Right now there is so much to do for the holidays. I will finish the decorating today and tomorrow my daughter and I will find a tree. I guess my creativity comes out in decorating and my cooking.

I am going to try to manifest a “she shed” where I can go to create. I have a friend who was raised Mennonite and she keeps telling me we need an outdoor kitchen so we can can naked! She is a wild child. I don’t think at our age that would be a pretty sight but she always finds a way to make me laugh by saying something crazy! She was way too bold for that religion! I have three other friends who plan to come can this summer and they said forget naked we will will all wear French maid costumes. LoL! That is not much prettier but it is the thought that counts I guess. I hang out with some messed up people but their quirkiness lifts me up. Sisterhood helps to heal. God does have a way of connecting me to great people, and forging real friendships.

So back to the dreaming of the she shed, I know I can make this happen. I have been gathering components for two decades. We had someone come to mill wood from trees that were cut on our property. I have an old wood fired cook stove that could be used for heat. I have saved up some old windows that a friend was discarding. I bought a door to an old federal post office years ago that is sitting in storage. So I have many of the components to create a creative space. I need to get out of this funk and put the years I have left to good use. I have grandchildren that look to me to be their groovy granny! It is time to dig down deep and rediscover that groovy vibe. I do love my Avalon family and the fact that I am accepted here on bad days as well as the good. The goodwill that emanates from you all is enough to turn anyone’s day brighter. Doug I will try to order Land on Netflix. We live out in the boonies and cannot download movies here as the WiFi is not good enough to stream movies. Thanks to all and much love!

[heretogrow]

Pam,
I so appreciate your response. You are right on topic. The six months is not for him. I have checked the housing market in our area and there are very few prospects. I have been looking for two years. My daughter graduates in six months. That is why he gets that timeframe. Once she graduates I am not bound to live in this school district. I guess In a way I am now using him the way he has used me. I guess at this point I am not above this. It is what it is. Oh and that she shed that I wish to manifest. That may be my new residence in six months! It needs to be on wheels!

[Pam]

Pam,
I so appreciate your response. You are right on topic. The six months is not for him. I have checked the housing market in our area and there are very few prospects. I have been looking for two years. My daughter graduates in six months. That is why he gets that timeframe. Once she graduates I am not bound to live in this school district. I guess In a way I am now using him the way he has used me. I guess at this point I am not above this. It is what it is. Oh and that she shed that I wish to manifest. That may be my new residence in six months! It needs to be on wheels!


Makes perfect sense!!! We are here for you my dear.

[heretogrow]

I love you, Pam! Some day when I straighten all of this out and land where I am meant to be I am going to plan a meet up. Where we can physically get together and hug and share our truths!

[amor]

One day after you have finally made the transition, you will look back and think, " I wish I had moved away a long time before." He has deep psychological problems which require professional help. Help you cannot give. Do not blame yourself. In life we must keep moving forward inwardly. If we don't, we die inside. You have tried and exhausted your resources. He wants to be alone. Let him.

[wondering]

I have coveted a she shed for so long, second only to a tree house!! I am jealous of all the cool components you have already collected, heretogrow! Lots of fun to be had amidst the tough parts. Since I am in my grandmother vibe, I could be grandmother-in-residence and do some quilting...😁😁😁 You know, when the weather gets better!!

[Dubsy]

I give up in this silly world. I am staying in bed today

That touched me deeply

It's best for me to not get involved in personal lives -- I'm certainly no role model
My utter lows have given me my strength and a doorway to claw my way back in this life.

The most amazing things have happened to me when I thought there was no hope

I laid on the floor once for 3 days -- did not eat or drink

A long story, - just a break up of family that many of us experience that I could not cope with the time .

Life goes on :flower:

Had to be open to the clues and synchronicities that were bombarding me at the time without me seeing the 'clues;' .......... took me a while

Luv's Dubsy

[heretogrow]

Oh my, how I reach out in gratitude at your post and your sharing of pain. It gets the best of us but then we pick ourselves up and dust ourselves off. I love you Dubsy and I thank you for opening up to me. Tomorrow I plan to be productive, I have not been of late. My only real regret while taking this break is that I did not get my grandson this week and he looks forward to his weekly visit. I needed a break but he needs my love. He is only two and so full of wonder. Some day it will no longer be cool to hang out with granny. So I must twist myself back into shape and be there for him.

[Dubsy]

Your Grandson will appreciate all the love you give him.
My Grandmother was/ is so precious to me - more than my mother who wasn't a good guide.

She was a real free spirit and encouraged me to break with protocols and to question life.. Something that I did not understand at the time , but have never forgotten.

I look back on what my Grandmother said and taught to me
I was very young , yet so happy to have told her that I loved her in her final days

[Mike]

"If there is a universal mind, must it be sane?" - Charles Fort.

Always liked that one.