Jendayi
27th January 2011, 10:44
Dear friends...
I have been reflecting on my life last year and i've entered the deepest and darkest corners of my body and soul so i may become whole again.. i do this every other year or so..
This time, almost at the end of my journey i got inspired and wrote the poem you can read below this statement to express my journey in a way that cannot be thought about.. it can only be felt and contemplated..
as i entered the last words, i burst out in to tears and shared this with a close friend of mine..
it feels right to share this, as some of you and maybe all will be touched by what is written..
again, this poem and insight confirms to me how important it is to know when to help
and when to leave matters alone, to know why and how we want to be seen and accepted so badly..
To accept one self completely, everything and all.. light and dark
to know when to retreat and to know when to fight. the choice between fear and love is ours and ours alone...
and that's really ok.. REALLY!
I've gone through many layers of my being which led me to write this poem about the dark night of the soul.... from lust to love, fear & hate, war & peace ****ed up images, beautiful sceneries, demons & angels.. and you know what?
it wasn't that scary.. it's just the anticipation that causes the fear, the experience itself can be quite fun, if you let it...
haha... we all have a "bad" boy or girl inside us.. enjoy it and have fun!, just be sure not to hurt others...
anyway.. i've reached somewhat of a conclusion about myself and others...
we are all sovereign beings, i am a sovereign being and hold responsibility only to myself...
You are not responsible for my well being, i am.. just like you are responsible for yours ;-)
Thank you all for providing me the play field to experience myself and realize this..
I release the past and all labels others have put upon me, I am that I am.
I re-claim my space as my own and will share it in the moments i wish with the ones who can respect it and whom i can respect being there..
So.....Here is the poem..
love and light.. jendayi/robert/blabla/no name/ whatever!!! It's all labels given to me, or thought up by someone else so... i really don't care any more.. love doesn't need a label, however, feel free to use them.. I do! http://www.lichtwerkers.eu/phpBB3/images/smilies/icon_razz.gif
if my poem inspires you to share some of your own poetic or artfull expressions.. please do!!!!
namaste...
Stillness.... by jendayi
As i sit here, I see my reflection in the liquid of life...
Waves entering the pool of my being.
Distorting what i see.
As i sit here, I look upon the lessons, hidden within my strife.
Ripples of doubt in the pond of my way...
Infecting what i feel.
As i lay me down on the banks of my river,
I hear the voices of the stream...
Calling me to light....
As i turn around on my back when it shivers,
I say....
"Be still, friends of my dream, just leave me for the night"
I rush through my anger, my tears, my despair...
For the lust of this place answers no prayer.
I look at my pride, my sorrow, my fear...
And suddenly...
It is all so simple and clear
As i stand here,
I see my resurrection in the mirror of all...
Wisdom touches the heart of my being...
Enhancing what i see.
As i stand here,
I look upon the sparkles, just as i recall...
Shimmers of love in the night of my day...
Knowing what i feel.
I see within me, a light ever shining.
A candle so bright, it burns down my plight.
I welcome my shadow, standing beside me.
A power so strong, it survives through the night.
My life is my own.
I travel through time...
Entering spheres of solitude and stepping outside to play...
My mind is my own.
I venture inside...
Entering spaces of gratitude and spending a moment to pray...
My fear is my own.
I travel through hell..
Passing scenes so desolate, created by my pain...
My body is my own.
I know it too well..
Enjoying life so elegant, dancing in the rain...
My heart is my own.
Free to caress...
Living dreams so passionate,
created by my love..
My soul is my own.
Here to express...
Make known the unknown..
from vulture to dove
My darkness is my own..
it shares it's life with me.
Blending with the night,
I move in total hiding...
My brightness is my own..
as all ways it shall be.
Spreading wings of light...
the stillness of the gliding...
As i sit here,
i see my reflection in the liquid of life...
waves moving through the pool of my being...
adding to what i see..
As i sit here,
i look upon the essence and the reason of my strife...
Ripples of insight in the pond of my way...
To answer what i feel..
As I rest and replenish, at the banks of my river,
I hear the voice of my dream, sharing it's light.
Now I lay on my side, for I no longer shiver...
I say.....
"Don't worry my friend, I'm at peace with the night"
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I have been reflecting on my life last year and i've entered the deepest and darkest corners of my body and soul so i may become whole again.. i do this every other year or so..
This time, almost at the end of my journey i got inspired and wrote the poem you can read below this statement to express my journey in a way that cannot be thought about.. it can only be felt and contemplated..
as i entered the last words, i burst out in to tears and shared this with a close friend of mine..
it feels right to share this, as some of you and maybe all will be touched by what is written..
again, this poem and insight confirms to me how important it is to know when to help
and when to leave matters alone, to know why and how we want to be seen and accepted so badly..
To accept one self completely, everything and all.. light and dark
to know when to retreat and to know when to fight. the choice between fear and love is ours and ours alone...
and that's really ok.. REALLY!
I've gone through many layers of my being which led me to write this poem about the dark night of the soul.... from lust to love, fear & hate, war & peace ****ed up images, beautiful sceneries, demons & angels.. and you know what?
it wasn't that scary.. it's just the anticipation that causes the fear, the experience itself can be quite fun, if you let it...
haha... we all have a "bad" boy or girl inside us.. enjoy it and have fun!, just be sure not to hurt others...
anyway.. i've reached somewhat of a conclusion about myself and others...
we are all sovereign beings, i am a sovereign being and hold responsibility only to myself...
You are not responsible for my well being, i am.. just like you are responsible for yours ;-)
Thank you all for providing me the play field to experience myself and realize this..
I release the past and all labels others have put upon me, I am that I am.
I re-claim my space as my own and will share it in the moments i wish with the ones who can respect it and whom i can respect being there..
So.....Here is the poem..
love and light.. jendayi/robert/blabla/no name/ whatever!!! It's all labels given to me, or thought up by someone else so... i really don't care any more.. love doesn't need a label, however, feel free to use them.. I do! http://www.lichtwerkers.eu/phpBB3/images/smilies/icon_razz.gif
if my poem inspires you to share some of your own poetic or artfull expressions.. please do!!!!
namaste...
Stillness.... by jendayi
As i sit here, I see my reflection in the liquid of life...
Waves entering the pool of my being.
Distorting what i see.
As i sit here, I look upon the lessons, hidden within my strife.
Ripples of doubt in the pond of my way...
Infecting what i feel.
As i lay me down on the banks of my river,
I hear the voices of the stream...
Calling me to light....
As i turn around on my back when it shivers,
I say....
"Be still, friends of my dream, just leave me for the night"
I rush through my anger, my tears, my despair...
For the lust of this place answers no prayer.
I look at my pride, my sorrow, my fear...
And suddenly...
It is all so simple and clear
As i stand here,
I see my resurrection in the mirror of all...
Wisdom touches the heart of my being...
Enhancing what i see.
As i stand here,
I look upon the sparkles, just as i recall...
Shimmers of love in the night of my day...
Knowing what i feel.
I see within me, a light ever shining.
A candle so bright, it burns down my plight.
I welcome my shadow, standing beside me.
A power so strong, it survives through the night.
My life is my own.
I travel through time...
Entering spheres of solitude and stepping outside to play...
My mind is my own.
I venture inside...
Entering spaces of gratitude and spending a moment to pray...
My fear is my own.
I travel through hell..
Passing scenes so desolate, created by my pain...
My body is my own.
I know it too well..
Enjoying life so elegant, dancing in the rain...
My heart is my own.
Free to caress...
Living dreams so passionate,
created by my love..
My soul is my own.
Here to express...
Make known the unknown..
from vulture to dove
My darkness is my own..
it shares it's life with me.
Blending with the night,
I move in total hiding...
My brightness is my own..
as all ways it shall be.
Spreading wings of light...
the stillness of the gliding...
As i sit here,
i see my reflection in the liquid of life...
waves moving through the pool of my being...
adding to what i see..
As i sit here,
i look upon the essence and the reason of my strife...
Ripples of insight in the pond of my way...
To answer what i feel..
As I rest and replenish, at the banks of my river,
I hear the voice of my dream, sharing it's light.
Now I lay on my side, for I no longer shiver...
I say.....
"Don't worry my friend, I'm at peace with the night"
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