Victoria Tintagel
26th February 2011, 11:51
Hey Avaloneans, women and men... androgyns too? You never know in a place like this :)
Here's an interesting subject, for inspiration and understanding of a relationship, with yourself and with another (you :)) Although it's titled "The Way of the Superior Man" it's valuable for men as well as for women, I believe. This is my second post on the work of David Deida here.
I believe that, to understand the masculine and feminine side in ourselves, we need to learn who we truly are, within, accept all that we are and dare to be in love with ourself. Not staring at our navels introvertly, in our safe comfort zone, but also by relating and communicating with each other. We are doing this here, in this Forum, as best as we can and with as much Light and Love as we can. I am enjoying this Forum tremendously and found very good friends here. Thanks for the love and support, Avalonean friends, my life is enriched and has changed for the better, since my participation in the Project Camelot/Avalon transcript team and membership of these Fora, since sept. 2009.
To me, truthful relating is being in love with oneself, healthy curious and truly interested in another human being, curious also to feel and see what that does to oneself, to discern truth.
The opposite is repulsion for oneself, denial of feelings, fear, hiding in secrecy for reasons that are negative. In extremity even resulting in sexual vampirism, riding on someone else's energy..... predator behaviour in an only lonely online connection. Any online dating and online relationship is vulnerable to this way of behaviour, because for the predator there's no chance of being found out. I don't envy such a person, cause it's the loneliest position to be in: alive in a physical body, with a desire to be lovingly touched, nurtured by touch and acknowledged in the temple of one's soul and one's spirit that longs to shine and be reflected, in the eyes of another beloved human being. We all, through our lifetimes have known this loneliness once in a while, I presume.
At this moment, with the Christ Consciousness knocking at the door of our hearts, all karma and old ties may be released and healed. We have a choice to make it so, it is our portal towards ascension. I choose to heal my past incarnations and in the process of it there's great building of trust in myself. I know I am loved and deserve to be loved, a woman of integrity and truth.
As Victoria Tintagel I can express this, show this and state this as a fact, it's that simple :)
There's a law of nature: when there is an empty space in any area of life, always something else will enter and fill that space. When one's own body and energysystem isn't properly owned, someone else may enter and use this space, for whatever reasons. It always takes two to tango and in energy matters it's exactly the same. No issue of shame and blame, just an experience to learn and grow from. Love can transform anything and any situation, I know this. I experience healing taking place now, in that direction, in me. Also, I experienced healings in men that were entrusted to my healing capacities, during workshops. No planning, just miracles happening :) It's an amazing quality to be able to heal on such deep levels.
That's why I know that personal integrity and communal integrity are of the utmost value and importance. I notice remarks on disturbing elements in this Forum, but I haven't met them myself. I am happy with the entrance of many new young members here. Change is an aspect of love and life, including the death of our past. And change is a feminine quality, lady Gaia knows this very well. Life cannot thrive without change and lady Gaia offers us life, like any pregnant woman does.
The masculine quality of consciousness is a player in this game of creation, the wonderful balance of Yin and Yang, the greatest dance in the Universe and our bedrooms :) Be in grace, Victoria Tintagel.
About David Deida www.deida.info
Acknowledged as one of the most insightful and provocative spiritual teachers of our time, best-selling author David Deida continues to revolutionize the way that men and women grow spiritually and sexually. His teachings and writings on a radically practical spirituality for our time have been hailed as among the most original and authentic contributions to personal and spiritual growth currently available.
Known internationally for his unique workshops on spiritual growth and sacred intimacy, Deida has designed and developed a remarkably effective program of transformative practices that addresses spiritual awakening in mind, body, and heart. He is a founding associate of Integral Institute and has taught and conducted research at the University of California Medical School in San Diego; University of California, Santa Cruz; San Jose State University; Lexington Institute, Boston; and Ecole Polytechnique in Paris, France.
Deida is known worldwide as the author of hundreds of essays, audiotapes, videotapes, articles, and books that bring to light an integral approach to spirituality. His books include the best-selling underground classic, The Way of the Superior Man; several practical texts on authentic sexual spirituality, including Finding God Through Sex and Blue Truth; and the autobiographical novel about highly unconventional spiritual training, Wild Nights.
David Deida's books are published in more than twenty-five languages worldwide and are required reading in university, church, and spiritual center courses, source texts used in men's and women's groups around the world, and are considered important resources for spiritual transformation and sacred sexuality by everyone from achievement coach Tony Robbins to philosopher Ken Wilber to minister and spiritual spokeswoman Marianne Williamson.
NEVER CHANGE YOUR MIND JUST TO PLEASE A WOMANIf a woman suggests something that changes a man's perspective, then he should make a new decision based on his new perspective. But he should never betray his own deepest knowledge and intuition in order to please his woman or "go along" with her. Both she and he will be weakened by such an action. They will grow to resent each other, and the crust of accumulated inauthenticity will burden their love, as well as their capacity for free action.
You should always listen to your woman, and then make your own decision. If you choose to go with your woman's suggestion even when deep in your heart you feel that another decision is more wise, you are, in effect, saying, "I don't trust my own wisdom." You are weakening yourself by telling yourself this. You are weakening your woman's trust in you: why should she trust your wisdom if you don't?
When you deny your deep truth to please your woman, everyone will feel your lack of authenticity. They will sense that your false smile hides an inner division. Your friends, children, and business colleagues may love you, but they won't trust you, since you don't trust your own core intent.
And, more importantly, your own sense of inauthenticity will burden your capacity to act with clarity. Your actions won't jibe with your core.
However, if you listen to your woman, taking everything she says into account and making your own best decision, then you are acting in accordance with your core. You are saying, in effect,
"My deepest wisdom is leading me to this decision. If I am wrong, I will learn from it, and my wisdom will have deepened. I'm willing to be wrong, and grow from it. I trust this process of acting from my deepest wisdom."
This attitude of self-trust engenders others' trust in you. You may be wrong, but you are willing to find out, and thus grow from the experience. You are open to listening to others, but in the end, you will take the responsibility for making your own decision. There is nobody else to blame.
However, if you give up your real decision to follow your woman's, then you will blame her for being wrong if she is wrong, and you will feel disempowered if she is right, having denied yourself the opportunity to act from your core and grow from your mistakes. Be open to changing your feeling based on whatever your woman might reveal to you—through her words or her body language—and then make your own decision, based on your deepest intuitive wisdom and knowledge. You may make the right decision or the wrong one, but whatever happens, it is your best shot, and you will strengthen your capacity for future action.
From The Way of the Superior Man by David Deida, Chapter 6
This is the link to several short audio presentation tracks, from David Deida's lectures
http://www.deida.info/audiolisten1
I am reposting this heartwarming letter here, close to the energy of David Deida's approach and also to enjoy it again, as a healing to my and your women hearts, here in Avalon. Don't feel anything of this thread as offending or critical, Avalonen men, just enjoy this wisdom with your hearts :) I am feminine, but not a feminist in the sense of judging of men.
THE SPIRIT OF MA’AT – NOVEMBER 2010 – “THE SHADOWLAND” ISSUE
Apologies To The Divine Feminine (from a warrior in transition) by Jeff Brown
I apologize for my inability to distinguish the benevolent warrior from the heartless warrior, a reflection of my own confusion dealing with the battlefields of yore. When I opened my heart too wide, I was vulnerable to attack from warring factions. I was conditioned to believe that I had to stay rigid, focused, prepared for any eventuality, in the desire to protect myself and others from attack. But I went too far, and closed too tight, and eradicated the bridge between our hearts. I am seeing this now and I am sorry.
I apologize for my perpetual absence, a reflection of my own inner absence, my inability to connect from a heart jammed tight by unresolved emotions that I did not have the tools to work through. I still lack many of these tools, but I am open to their emergence.
I apologize for my inability to distinguish relationship from war. Like a warrior in enemy territory, I would sneak in and out of your life in the night, plundering and selfishly taking what I needed, then crawling back to the other side of the abyss with the spoils. I gave little back for fear that I would become vulnerable to attack. I had war on the brain and I could not see the river of love waiting on the other side of the battlefield. I now recognize that love is the antidote for the armored warrior, but I could not drink the antidote in my driven state.
I apologize for not seeing you, my eyes blinded by congealed rage and unshed tears. If it is any consolation, and I imagine it is not, I could not see myself either. I saw only that which served my hyper-vigilance, my warrior focus. My mirror was a battlefield.
I apologize for my ungrounded materialism, my power driven tyrannies, my obsession with accumulation. Somehow I imagined that accumulation would protect me and those close to me, but I failed to recognize that it just perpetuated the madness. I also apologize for my egoic abuses, a reflection of my own misguided ego, pumped up to deal with an inherently competitive world. I couldn't distinguish the healthy, confident ego from the cocky, unhealthy ego. I went much too far in the wrong direction.
I apologize for a sexuality that was objectifying and disconnected from the heart. I know you longed for real intimacy, a merging of our souls along the heart-genital highway. But there were too many defenses around my heart, and no bridge could form between our souls. There were moments when your loving ways freed me from my body masks, but I had no template to stand in that heart-fire. I am sorry for this, for I know that the path you longed for was the path to God.
I apologize for my horrifying acts of violence, a reflection of my own congealed rage, my own inability to distinguish real enemies from friends. There are no words that can undo what I have done in those moments of madness. I know this, I do. I would hide my face in shame, but that won't make things better. I need to own my misdeeds, and then find a way to believe in my capacity to move from a more loving place. I call out to other male warriors to be accountable for the actions of our gender, not in a way that is self-hating, but in a way that is courageously self-honest and genuinely compassionate. The heartfelt warrior acknowledges the error of his ways, and has the courage to do all he can to make amends over time.
I apologize for my inability to develop a conscious relationship. You were right there with your beautiful heart on your sleeve but I was too attached to my individualism and afraid of this unknown terrain. I know the forests, the marketplace and the ways of the outer world so well, but my inner geography is foreign to me. You called me to a place I was ill-prepared to go, although I sensed, below the surface of my bravado, that you called me home.
I am grateful for your willingness to believe that who I was in those rare moments of vulnerability was the real me. You were right- the real me lives inside of my heart- but a few moments now and then was the most I could handle. I saw you as dangerous, for in your presence I began to taste a surrendered way of being. Nonetheless, your faith in my goodness kept me going through many a battle, and restored my faith in life when I most needed it. You were the light at the end of a barbaric tunnel, and I am blessed.
I am grateful that you stuck with me through thick and thin, and I also understand those times you had to give up and let go. I now recognize that there is meaningful difference between a love-ship and a relationship. Love alone is not enough. Without a shared willingness to become conscious, there can only be frustration. I was so often impossible, clinging to my unconsciousness like a soldier clings to his weapons. I recognize the courage it took for you to keep your heart open in the presence of my resistance. You had every right to seek an authentic relationship, as your spirit was ignited in its presence. Your beautiful heart had every right to be met in its openness and willingness. I am grateful for the time you gave me, a moments respite from the hiding places I mistakenly called home.
I am grateful for Grandmother, for no one saw my tenderness more clearly. I am grateful for Mother, for choosing to bring me into being and for nourishing my body until I could find my feet. I am grateful for Mother Earth, for grounding my expansion and enlivening my spirit. I am grateful for the Divine Mother, the real Mother of us all. I now feel her divine presence, so close. Fiercely compassionate, she was always right here, breathing life into me, holding me safe. I sit in her lap as she breathes me.
I look forward to the day when the only thing that ignites relationship is two souls calling out to one another, two soul-hearts beating in the same direction, a whisper of longing that bridges one essence to another. I want to want you not because it gratifies my ego, not because you are outwardly beautiful, but because your very presence invites my Godself out of hiding. I want to touch you with my heart on my sleeve, to know chemistry between us that is not gender identified, but that is essence sourced, loves liquid lava flowing from the heart to the genitals to the great beyond. In this love-struck world, relationship will always be experienced as spiritual practice, a devotional expression of our God-self.
I had always believed that sensitivity is impossible to hold to in a harsh world. Yet in this moment, I feel sensitive, but without the fragility. I am still wearing armor but there is a shift in the direction of my intensity. I can linger in the heart-space a little longer than I once could, I am softening in places. After so many lifetimes with weapon in hand, a tenderling warrior is being birthed in the core of my being. He is confused, but he intuitively knows that this is the way home.
Please don't give up on me or my fellow warriors. Forgive us our misdeeds, or, at the least, be open to the possibility that we will change as the trail expands to meet our shifting intentionality. The day will come when our warrior spirit loses its harsh edge, and comes into alignment with benevolent action. Some of us are already there, and many more of us will follow. The road to transformation is dependent on a bridge between genders, a benevolent bridge that celebrates our differences with respect and kindness. That work must begin with healing the rifts along the gender continuum, working hard to heal the collective heart until one day we can stand on a bridge across forever, hands held together, hearts open and alight, embracing the sacred masculine and divine feminine living at the heart of us all. I will meet you there.
May you feel the love of the Divine Mother crashing down on your heartfelt shores, graciously lifting you up above the madness of the world, nestling you in the grateful arms of those you have nurtured. Those of us who have received your blessings may not always acknowledge it, but your acts of love have landed within us, growing us stronger and infusing us with love's light. Thank you.This is the source of this article http://spiritofmaat.com/nov10/divine_feminine.html
About Jeff Brown
A former criminal lawyer and psychotherapist, Jeff Brown is the author of "Soulshaping: A Journey of Self-Creation," recently published by North Atlantic Books. Endorsed by authors Elizabeth Lesser and Ram Dass, "Soulshaping" is Brown's autobiography — an inner travelogue of his journey from archetypal male warrior to a more surrendered path. You can connect with his work at www.soulshaping.com
www.twitter.com/soulshaping
www.youtube.com/soulshaping
www.facebook.com/soulshaping
www.facebook.com/openheartgang
Here's an interesting subject, for inspiration and understanding of a relationship, with yourself and with another (you :)) Although it's titled "The Way of the Superior Man" it's valuable for men as well as for women, I believe. This is my second post on the work of David Deida here.
I believe that, to understand the masculine and feminine side in ourselves, we need to learn who we truly are, within, accept all that we are and dare to be in love with ourself. Not staring at our navels introvertly, in our safe comfort zone, but also by relating and communicating with each other. We are doing this here, in this Forum, as best as we can and with as much Light and Love as we can. I am enjoying this Forum tremendously and found very good friends here. Thanks for the love and support, Avalonean friends, my life is enriched and has changed for the better, since my participation in the Project Camelot/Avalon transcript team and membership of these Fora, since sept. 2009.
To me, truthful relating is being in love with oneself, healthy curious and truly interested in another human being, curious also to feel and see what that does to oneself, to discern truth.
The opposite is repulsion for oneself, denial of feelings, fear, hiding in secrecy for reasons that are negative. In extremity even resulting in sexual vampirism, riding on someone else's energy..... predator behaviour in an only lonely online connection. Any online dating and online relationship is vulnerable to this way of behaviour, because for the predator there's no chance of being found out. I don't envy such a person, cause it's the loneliest position to be in: alive in a physical body, with a desire to be lovingly touched, nurtured by touch and acknowledged in the temple of one's soul and one's spirit that longs to shine and be reflected, in the eyes of another beloved human being. We all, through our lifetimes have known this loneliness once in a while, I presume.
At this moment, with the Christ Consciousness knocking at the door of our hearts, all karma and old ties may be released and healed. We have a choice to make it so, it is our portal towards ascension. I choose to heal my past incarnations and in the process of it there's great building of trust in myself. I know I am loved and deserve to be loved, a woman of integrity and truth.
As Victoria Tintagel I can express this, show this and state this as a fact, it's that simple :)
There's a law of nature: when there is an empty space in any area of life, always something else will enter and fill that space. When one's own body and energysystem isn't properly owned, someone else may enter and use this space, for whatever reasons. It always takes two to tango and in energy matters it's exactly the same. No issue of shame and blame, just an experience to learn and grow from. Love can transform anything and any situation, I know this. I experience healing taking place now, in that direction, in me. Also, I experienced healings in men that were entrusted to my healing capacities, during workshops. No planning, just miracles happening :) It's an amazing quality to be able to heal on such deep levels.
That's why I know that personal integrity and communal integrity are of the utmost value and importance. I notice remarks on disturbing elements in this Forum, but I haven't met them myself. I am happy with the entrance of many new young members here. Change is an aspect of love and life, including the death of our past. And change is a feminine quality, lady Gaia knows this very well. Life cannot thrive without change and lady Gaia offers us life, like any pregnant woman does.
The masculine quality of consciousness is a player in this game of creation, the wonderful balance of Yin and Yang, the greatest dance in the Universe and our bedrooms :) Be in grace, Victoria Tintagel.
About David Deida www.deida.info
Acknowledged as one of the most insightful and provocative spiritual teachers of our time, best-selling author David Deida continues to revolutionize the way that men and women grow spiritually and sexually. His teachings and writings on a radically practical spirituality for our time have been hailed as among the most original and authentic contributions to personal and spiritual growth currently available.
Known internationally for his unique workshops on spiritual growth and sacred intimacy, Deida has designed and developed a remarkably effective program of transformative practices that addresses spiritual awakening in mind, body, and heart. He is a founding associate of Integral Institute and has taught and conducted research at the University of California Medical School in San Diego; University of California, Santa Cruz; San Jose State University; Lexington Institute, Boston; and Ecole Polytechnique in Paris, France.
Deida is known worldwide as the author of hundreds of essays, audiotapes, videotapes, articles, and books that bring to light an integral approach to spirituality. His books include the best-selling underground classic, The Way of the Superior Man; several practical texts on authentic sexual spirituality, including Finding God Through Sex and Blue Truth; and the autobiographical novel about highly unconventional spiritual training, Wild Nights.
David Deida's books are published in more than twenty-five languages worldwide and are required reading in university, church, and spiritual center courses, source texts used in men's and women's groups around the world, and are considered important resources for spiritual transformation and sacred sexuality by everyone from achievement coach Tony Robbins to philosopher Ken Wilber to minister and spiritual spokeswoman Marianne Williamson.
NEVER CHANGE YOUR MIND JUST TO PLEASE A WOMANIf a woman suggests something that changes a man's perspective, then he should make a new decision based on his new perspective. But he should never betray his own deepest knowledge and intuition in order to please his woman or "go along" with her. Both she and he will be weakened by such an action. They will grow to resent each other, and the crust of accumulated inauthenticity will burden their love, as well as their capacity for free action.
You should always listen to your woman, and then make your own decision. If you choose to go with your woman's suggestion even when deep in your heart you feel that another decision is more wise, you are, in effect, saying, "I don't trust my own wisdom." You are weakening yourself by telling yourself this. You are weakening your woman's trust in you: why should she trust your wisdom if you don't?
When you deny your deep truth to please your woman, everyone will feel your lack of authenticity. They will sense that your false smile hides an inner division. Your friends, children, and business colleagues may love you, but they won't trust you, since you don't trust your own core intent.
And, more importantly, your own sense of inauthenticity will burden your capacity to act with clarity. Your actions won't jibe with your core.
However, if you listen to your woman, taking everything she says into account and making your own best decision, then you are acting in accordance with your core. You are saying, in effect,
"My deepest wisdom is leading me to this decision. If I am wrong, I will learn from it, and my wisdom will have deepened. I'm willing to be wrong, and grow from it. I trust this process of acting from my deepest wisdom."
This attitude of self-trust engenders others' trust in you. You may be wrong, but you are willing to find out, and thus grow from the experience. You are open to listening to others, but in the end, you will take the responsibility for making your own decision. There is nobody else to blame.
However, if you give up your real decision to follow your woman's, then you will blame her for being wrong if she is wrong, and you will feel disempowered if she is right, having denied yourself the opportunity to act from your core and grow from your mistakes. Be open to changing your feeling based on whatever your woman might reveal to you—through her words or her body language—and then make your own decision, based on your deepest intuitive wisdom and knowledge. You may make the right decision or the wrong one, but whatever happens, it is your best shot, and you will strengthen your capacity for future action.
From The Way of the Superior Man by David Deida, Chapter 6
This is the link to several short audio presentation tracks, from David Deida's lectures
http://www.deida.info/audiolisten1
I am reposting this heartwarming letter here, close to the energy of David Deida's approach and also to enjoy it again, as a healing to my and your women hearts, here in Avalon. Don't feel anything of this thread as offending or critical, Avalonen men, just enjoy this wisdom with your hearts :) I am feminine, but not a feminist in the sense of judging of men.
THE SPIRIT OF MA’AT – NOVEMBER 2010 – “THE SHADOWLAND” ISSUE
Apologies To The Divine Feminine (from a warrior in transition) by Jeff Brown
I apologize for my inability to distinguish the benevolent warrior from the heartless warrior, a reflection of my own confusion dealing with the battlefields of yore. When I opened my heart too wide, I was vulnerable to attack from warring factions. I was conditioned to believe that I had to stay rigid, focused, prepared for any eventuality, in the desire to protect myself and others from attack. But I went too far, and closed too tight, and eradicated the bridge between our hearts. I am seeing this now and I am sorry.
I apologize for my perpetual absence, a reflection of my own inner absence, my inability to connect from a heart jammed tight by unresolved emotions that I did not have the tools to work through. I still lack many of these tools, but I am open to their emergence.
I apologize for my inability to distinguish relationship from war. Like a warrior in enemy territory, I would sneak in and out of your life in the night, plundering and selfishly taking what I needed, then crawling back to the other side of the abyss with the spoils. I gave little back for fear that I would become vulnerable to attack. I had war on the brain and I could not see the river of love waiting on the other side of the battlefield. I now recognize that love is the antidote for the armored warrior, but I could not drink the antidote in my driven state.
I apologize for not seeing you, my eyes blinded by congealed rage and unshed tears. If it is any consolation, and I imagine it is not, I could not see myself either. I saw only that which served my hyper-vigilance, my warrior focus. My mirror was a battlefield.
I apologize for my ungrounded materialism, my power driven tyrannies, my obsession with accumulation. Somehow I imagined that accumulation would protect me and those close to me, but I failed to recognize that it just perpetuated the madness. I also apologize for my egoic abuses, a reflection of my own misguided ego, pumped up to deal with an inherently competitive world. I couldn't distinguish the healthy, confident ego from the cocky, unhealthy ego. I went much too far in the wrong direction.
I apologize for a sexuality that was objectifying and disconnected from the heart. I know you longed for real intimacy, a merging of our souls along the heart-genital highway. But there were too many defenses around my heart, and no bridge could form between our souls. There were moments when your loving ways freed me from my body masks, but I had no template to stand in that heart-fire. I am sorry for this, for I know that the path you longed for was the path to God.
I apologize for my horrifying acts of violence, a reflection of my own congealed rage, my own inability to distinguish real enemies from friends. There are no words that can undo what I have done in those moments of madness. I know this, I do. I would hide my face in shame, but that won't make things better. I need to own my misdeeds, and then find a way to believe in my capacity to move from a more loving place. I call out to other male warriors to be accountable for the actions of our gender, not in a way that is self-hating, but in a way that is courageously self-honest and genuinely compassionate. The heartfelt warrior acknowledges the error of his ways, and has the courage to do all he can to make amends over time.
I apologize for my inability to develop a conscious relationship. You were right there with your beautiful heart on your sleeve but I was too attached to my individualism and afraid of this unknown terrain. I know the forests, the marketplace and the ways of the outer world so well, but my inner geography is foreign to me. You called me to a place I was ill-prepared to go, although I sensed, below the surface of my bravado, that you called me home.
I am grateful for your willingness to believe that who I was in those rare moments of vulnerability was the real me. You were right- the real me lives inside of my heart- but a few moments now and then was the most I could handle. I saw you as dangerous, for in your presence I began to taste a surrendered way of being. Nonetheless, your faith in my goodness kept me going through many a battle, and restored my faith in life when I most needed it. You were the light at the end of a barbaric tunnel, and I am blessed.
I am grateful that you stuck with me through thick and thin, and I also understand those times you had to give up and let go. I now recognize that there is meaningful difference between a love-ship and a relationship. Love alone is not enough. Without a shared willingness to become conscious, there can only be frustration. I was so often impossible, clinging to my unconsciousness like a soldier clings to his weapons. I recognize the courage it took for you to keep your heart open in the presence of my resistance. You had every right to seek an authentic relationship, as your spirit was ignited in its presence. Your beautiful heart had every right to be met in its openness and willingness. I am grateful for the time you gave me, a moments respite from the hiding places I mistakenly called home.
I am grateful for Grandmother, for no one saw my tenderness more clearly. I am grateful for Mother, for choosing to bring me into being and for nourishing my body until I could find my feet. I am grateful for Mother Earth, for grounding my expansion and enlivening my spirit. I am grateful for the Divine Mother, the real Mother of us all. I now feel her divine presence, so close. Fiercely compassionate, she was always right here, breathing life into me, holding me safe. I sit in her lap as she breathes me.
I look forward to the day when the only thing that ignites relationship is two souls calling out to one another, two soul-hearts beating in the same direction, a whisper of longing that bridges one essence to another. I want to want you not because it gratifies my ego, not because you are outwardly beautiful, but because your very presence invites my Godself out of hiding. I want to touch you with my heart on my sleeve, to know chemistry between us that is not gender identified, but that is essence sourced, loves liquid lava flowing from the heart to the genitals to the great beyond. In this love-struck world, relationship will always be experienced as spiritual practice, a devotional expression of our God-self.
I had always believed that sensitivity is impossible to hold to in a harsh world. Yet in this moment, I feel sensitive, but without the fragility. I am still wearing armor but there is a shift in the direction of my intensity. I can linger in the heart-space a little longer than I once could, I am softening in places. After so many lifetimes with weapon in hand, a tenderling warrior is being birthed in the core of my being. He is confused, but he intuitively knows that this is the way home.
Please don't give up on me or my fellow warriors. Forgive us our misdeeds, or, at the least, be open to the possibility that we will change as the trail expands to meet our shifting intentionality. The day will come when our warrior spirit loses its harsh edge, and comes into alignment with benevolent action. Some of us are already there, and many more of us will follow. The road to transformation is dependent on a bridge between genders, a benevolent bridge that celebrates our differences with respect and kindness. That work must begin with healing the rifts along the gender continuum, working hard to heal the collective heart until one day we can stand on a bridge across forever, hands held together, hearts open and alight, embracing the sacred masculine and divine feminine living at the heart of us all. I will meet you there.
May you feel the love of the Divine Mother crashing down on your heartfelt shores, graciously lifting you up above the madness of the world, nestling you in the grateful arms of those you have nurtured. Those of us who have received your blessings may not always acknowledge it, but your acts of love have landed within us, growing us stronger and infusing us with love's light. Thank you.This is the source of this article http://spiritofmaat.com/nov10/divine_feminine.html
About Jeff Brown
A former criminal lawyer and psychotherapist, Jeff Brown is the author of "Soulshaping: A Journey of Self-Creation," recently published by North Atlantic Books. Endorsed by authors Elizabeth Lesser and Ram Dass, "Soulshaping" is Brown's autobiography — an inner travelogue of his journey from archetypal male warrior to a more surrendered path. You can connect with his work at www.soulshaping.com
www.twitter.com/soulshaping
www.youtube.com/soulshaping
www.facebook.com/soulshaping
www.facebook.com/openheartgang