Stepping out of Rat Race and Jumping into Real World

[blufire]

I have made the solid choice to completely change my lifestyle and to live the life that I know is truth.

I have lived in two worlds for many years, all my life actually. There is the one world where I play the “game” and appear very much like an average American woman . . . . I play this game very, very well. Then the other world where I relentlessly search for bits of elusive truths and intuitively know that this second world is the “real” world and the other is illusion.

I was conditioned from birth to live this world of illusion and it has been a very interesting 52 years.

But I never quite conformed and this non-conformity has kept me precariously balanced.

When I was in first grade we were instructed to draw a picture of our house, of which I did and proceeded to color the grass in my yard purple. My teacher told me to “do it right” and draw a new picture with green grass . . . . I refused and I was punished.

That was 46 years ago . . . I still have that picture . . . . with a corner torn off where the teacher drew a “frowny face” :p


My question to the forum is . . . .Are there others here that have made this decision also? Or are there others here that are on the verge or are being “pushed” (consciously) to make the choice? Do you know of someone who has stepped out of the game?

Is there interest in discussing the incredible difficulty and total relief of making this type of decision?

I have come to believe strongly to change the world we first have to personally “make the change”.

Is there already a thread (probably so)? If so, could a moderator direct me please and close this one?

[crosby]

blufire, i know what you're talking about. 'playing' the average american woman, fitting in, not creating any kind of fuss too catch notice of. i know of what you speak. although i spent a considerable portion of my life asleep, i too always wondered about 'other' things. if they could be true, but, my everyday life had to be played, so that nobody would notice anything of any consequence. being the wife of a prominent attorney kept me towing the line for quite awhile. keep the thread going. i'm sure there are others out there that know what you're talking about.
warmest regards, corson

[honeybee]

"I have made the solid choice to completely change my lifestyle and to live the life that I know is truth."

Good for you blufire. I stepped out a long time ago and haven't regretted it for a minute. Be true to yourself, always!

[jorr lundstrom]

An incresing number of humanity are approaching TPONR, the point of no return.

Hopefully many get there this life.:kiss3:

[ghostrider]

searching for small bits of truth is the mind expanding, the old program breaking down. we are to believe what cnn and our government tells us. Then out comes the talking heads to voice opinions and give the public a yes I feel that way or this way. Making a complete illusion comfortable for the masses to accept and talk about. Thus their agenda rolls on. Then we live each day knowing something is wrong with the world but can't put our finger on it. Getting out of the matrix is no easy task, but we must push on to a better way and a better day... brave souls dare to think.

[dddanieljjjamesss]

I've been putting it off for so long, because the comforts of the modern world are still available to me.
Soon, we will all be in the same boat.
A lovely vagabond I shall become
And go wherever life takes me.

[Isthatso]

Yes...I also have 'played life' as I see it. I think of it as my 2nd life, with my true self being the unconstructed self I am at home.

My entry into this world set my fight or flight responses into full gear and I recognise now parts of myself actually shut down from fear. Other parts have tried to compensate but it's not working any longer. Something which I am only now able to recognise and heal. As a small child I felt very different to those around me and this has continued on, for the most part, my entire life. I've had to mold a somewhat different persona to function here. It hasn't been all bad though, I've certainly had some fun...

Interestingly, of late, there are cracks forming and I find myself not wanting to play 'me' but rather just be me....warts and all. Relax, breathe, love myself and just let go of what's not working. Be me...without an investment. Quite honestly it's been exhausting holding this pretend me together!

Funnily enough, letting go of how I thought I needed to be has made me far less judgmental of others. This was the negative side of feeling so different. An outlet for my frustrations.

Thanks Blufire for this thread and yes, I'm also getting out of the game. Our grand plans have changed dramatically and we are all the better for it. It's about self sufficiency, clearing all debt and I suppose growing up and learning to take responsibility for ourselves, our environment, health, education...everything really. I don't really want to fight any system, just not support it. Fake life has lost it's appeal to me, I've wasted enough time trying to make that work and I no longer want to be told what to do in every aspect of my life. I just agree with it or out it goes.

Still we have a long way to go, but atleast we are making strides in a direction that feels more valuable.

I'm so thankful to Avalon for giving me this space...

Peace and warm wishes to you all.

[Lettherebelight]

Thanks, Blufire, for bringing this discussion point forward.

More and more people are thinking about this with each passing day...or whenever our busy lives give us the chance. The meeting of the heart and soul with the conscious daily activities of our lives. Doing what we believe in.

Many of us ask ourselves, is what we are doing really who we are?

A patient, yet insistent voice is urging us ever closer to practical integrity. Has
anyone else heard it?

Let us gather our courage, at this feast of Eostre, a celebration of new beginnings, to propel ourselves forward... forward towards that ideal we have for ourselves.

Although we all hold different dreams, together we help encourage each other to realise our potentials.

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[rewired]

I'm kind of new to the theory of the world being a game.I've always thought about that on my own.But I guess I'm just catching up with the trend.To me game me and real me are one in the same.I don't like to hide who I am from anyone.That would make me feel untrue to myself.Really I think our game persona's are just reflections of our true soul.I used to question how some male children were born gay.My guess is that its just the reflection of their soul.I think our souls never stop learning and we are all students at Earth university.I may have showed up late for school.But I'm striving to be the head of my class.

This is my first response on Project Avalon.You all seem like very interesting beautiful people.Its an honor to have the opportunity to learn and grow with you all.

[sandy]

Dear Blufire,

Thank you, thank you, thank you. I left the pretend world non-physically 15 years ago and then physically 4 years ago. Through this process especially the 4 years has been painful. In that I still suffer the grief at times of the loss of my son/grandchildren, parents (both passed in this time) and siblings and some friends.

Those I love dearly I have abandoned in order to not conform to what they believe I should do or be. I retired early so was to take up the position of happy little Granny, free wheeling daughter and sister, which now had all the time in the world to address all their needs. I had always been the strong, do anything for anyone who was hurting or in need, take charge and get things done. I became lost and shared how lost I was and unsure of what was going on or what was happening to me, with those I loved. They did not like it and tried hard to "slap"me back into place. I took it for 2 years and then "slapped" back. (not good) I was in stark raving survival mode trying to save my sanity. It was one thing to leave mentally but another to leave physically. I had to, to honor my spirit and keep evolving, but have been labeled nuts and condemned along the way.

I did not know how material I was but sure learned how much I missed my home of 25 years, how devastated I was when I lost more than half of the profits from the sale of my home in the financial meltdown, lost my retirement dream of traveling to take courses and spend time in very spiritual places, lost my worker identity, lost my mother, sister, daughter, friend identity and totally lost any meaning of what my place or value was in the world.

In the end and thus far I have learned that I am consciousness continuing to strive to get past my ego and the dream world. I have learned that I am of value just because and that I have a being because I chose to. I also know that I cannot turn back (i have tried) so must endure with my journey as lonely as it is.

I now live in a very small old house (all I could afford) but it is my place of sanctuary and peace and even though the basement is flooding I love it anyway. I have no pension (not old enough yet) so trying to live off a meager budget of savings till that happens. Stretching a dollar has become my forte' :). The town I live (very rural/pop: 400) in is full of very old retired (Farming district) seniors who have tried to recruit me to their churches(bless them) but have yet to find anyone here in the last 2 years I resonate with. I spend most of my time alone. I study and research daily as well as meditate but boy I have yet to have any mind blowing experiences:)

I've learned to make my own toothpaste (no fluoride), candles, garden and keep a large yard maintained, winter and summer and to keep looking within for answers. I still get caught up in my belief systems and sadness at all my loss but some how keep on going. Thank God for the internet and forums like Avalon, Camelot and Nexus and all the members.

I do know that one day I will again re-enter the world at large so will stay the course trusting that what is>>>>>>>>is, for now.

Thank you again for this thread and the opportunity to tell someone my journey of late.

[StateOfTheHeart]

Funnily enough, before reading this thread, it struck me this morning that a number of mature(midlife)-adults, whom I know, have recently undergone significant change in their lives with regard to occupation and thus, lifestyle. Three male engineers and a couple of females (high position in private school admin and editor for large postal company), ranging from late 30's to mid 50's, have each left their professions of long-standing (min. 10 years) to go for something very different; typically something which is more fulfilling on a personal level and allows them more personal time. Without knowing the intimate details of their decisions, it could essentially be described as 'stepping out of the rate race and jumping into the real world' (to varying degrees). I get the feeling that a lot of people, at least those who are not deaf/blind or in complete denial, are approaching or have already reached a tipping point which provokes some dramatic change in the way they live their lives.

I think a lot of people will know/feel exactly what you mean regarding that precarious balance of inner truth and outer mould-fitting role-play and that accompanying desire to quit the act, be real and find that ever-desired place of strength, clarity, comfort and belonging. I experienced a significant change in my perception nearly 18 months ago (woke up, as we say it), in sync with the 7 year human cycle, and at the time it hit hard and led to some 'interesting' thoughts/behaviour, as others might have seen it. The feelings have settled and matured somewhat and while I haven't really yet entered or left the rat race, rather somewhere in between, I still don a suit-type attire and commute to work a few days/week and I have to laugh when we all pile out of the train carriages and single-file up the escalators all in uniform with dreary looks on our faces...

Well done blufire, and others in the thread, in biting the bullet and deciding to take the leap. I wish you the best on what will probably be a challenging yet infinitely rewarding experience if you succeed.

[dmarie]

Congrats, blufire!

I was one who could never really "play the game" for long and now that I've been able to see the game for what it is for so many years I could never play it again. I may infiltrate it, but I'm always playing my own game by my rules! :)

Happy Creating!

[Lost Soul]

Blufire - congratulations on your decision. I too will be leaving a job with good benefits. It's not midlife crisis either. The economy is crashing so why wait for it to go down? Rather, I decided that spiritual development was the only real thing worth pursuing and instead of remaining in a big city filled with depraved people, I want a quiet country life where I can grow some food, perhaps raise some chickens, read my books and meditate to the song of birds instead of (vehicle) sirens. Fresh air, non-fluoridated water (I have a Berkey so my water isn't fluoridated anyway) and closer to nature/God (this does not mean that God does not exist in all things in the City or in City people. God is everything and everywhere).

[ViralSpiral]

I just love it when "spirit" walks into my room!

I have been wrestling for several months now with my decision to jump back onto the corporate hamsterwheel. After 11 years with my company, 7 of which were here in Germany they again wanted to relocate me back to sunny South Africa. This was not my choice, and after a little monkey-wrestling, I resigned. I needed to breath, so decided to take 3 months off. This turned into a year of precious learning. I literally watched grass grown and paint dry, but I also cherished deep introspection.

I was offered many other opportunities during this time however, was VERY fortunate not to "need" anything for the moment and my old company were always in the background, waiting for me to rejoin.... which I finally did. This was not wise. Chasing the proverbial (elusive) dollar, is not living in my truth. I wish I had Sandy's courage and admire Lost Soul's decision and thank them for reminding me that there is a choice, afterall..... I may be right behind you. Watch this space


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[Peacelovinman]

One thousand "thank yous" for this post.

I am in exactly the position you describe. I even relate to the school art story - I am partially colour blind and my parents would always come back from school open evenings and say that they could instantly spot my pictures on the wall, with their brown grass and purple skies! This must have affected me pretty deeply because, to this day, I had an aversion to drawing and painting. Who knows, I could have been a Picasso or a Dali!!!!

Sandy: Your post moved me to tears. I wish I had your courage. All the very best of luck and, if you feel lonely, please do send me a PM. I'd be happy to absorb some of your pioneering spirit. I have felt for sometime that, to live my truth, I needed to make profound changes in my life.

One day, perhaps soon, I will.

With love and respect to all that are in the position blufire describes.

[HURRITT ENYETO]

Dear Blufire,

Thank you, thank you, thank you. I left the pretend world non-physically 15 years ago and then physically 4 years ago. Through this process especially the 4 years has been painful. In that I still suffer the grief at times of the loss of my son/grandchildren, parents (both passed in this time) and siblings and some friends.

Those I love dearly I have abandoned in order to not conform to what they believe I should do or be. I retired early so was to take up the position of happy little Granny, free wheeling daughter and sister, which now had all the time in the world to address all their needs. I had always been the strong, do anything for anyone who was hurting or in need, take charge and get things done. I became lost and shared how lost I was and unsure of what was going on or what was happening to me, with those I loved. They did not like it and tried hard to "slap"me back into place. I took it for 2 years and then "slapped" back. (not good) I was in stark raving survival mode trying to save my sanity. It was one thing to leave mentally but another to leave physically. I had to, to honor my spirit and keep evolving, but have been labeled nuts and condemned along the way.

I did not know how material I was but sure learned how much I missed my home of 25 years, how devastated I was when I lost more than half of the profits from the sale of my home in the financial meltdown, lost my retirement dream of traveling to take courses and spend time in very spiritual places, lost my worker identity, lost my mother, sister, daughter, friend identity and totally lost any meaning of what my place or value was in the world.

In the end and thus far I have learned that I am consciousness continuing to strive to get past my ego and the dream world. I have learned that I am of value just because and that I have a being because I chose to. I also know that I cannot turn back (i have tried) so must endure with my journey as lonely as it is.

I now live in a very small old house (all I could afford) but it is my place of sanctuary and peace and even though the basement is flooding I love it anyway. I have no pension (not old enough yet) so trying to live off a meager budget of savings till that happens. Stretching a dollar has become my forte' :). The town I live (very rural/pop: 400) in is full of very old retired (Farming district) seniors who have tried to recruit me to their churches(bless them) but have yet to find anyone here in the last 2 years I resonate with. I spend most of my time alone. I study and research daily as well as meditate but boy I have yet to have any mind blowing experiences:)

I've learned to make my own toothpaste (no fluoride), candles, garden and keep a large yard maintained, winter and summer and to keep looking within for answers. I still get caught up in my belief systems and sadness at all my loss but some how keep on going. Thank God for the internet and forums like Avalon, Camelot and Nexus and all the members.

I do know that one day I will again re-enter the world at large so will stay the course trusting that what is>>>>>>>>is, for now.

Thank you again for this thread and the opportunity to tell someone my journey of late.

I think your AWESOME.
I am so sorry you had to suffer those losses.
Life can be so cruel cant it?
Words are inadequate, Hang in there.

Hurritt

[Corncrake]

Well done Blufire and thank you for starting this thread. I understand so well what you and it appears so many others have been going through (even the school episode sadly resonates with me). I am not quite there yet but working on it!

[Nanoo Nanoo]

Yes i have made that decision too last year when i woke up one day and decided to sell my company... what a scarry thought selling a company i built over 8 years at its peak ... With a family to support and a home to pay off and car and bills .. Its scarry but i managed to get off the merry go round and what happened since has been no less than a miracle..

I have since lost weight ( 20 kg )
I have made so many new friends
I have healed my body and soul
I have made contact !
I am joining a group of like minded people to help sustain my life and indeed help them too.
I have time to read a book
I have time to spend with my family and my mother in her twilight years..
I have time to research all the things i always wanted to
I am Happy !
I am now living my life according to my birth vision

Yes i recommend do not fear the unknown... you may spend your life in fear of nothing at all

N
N

[Gajanana]

I'm still in two worlds, but play the game less and less. that final step? well it aint far of, I can feel it. The time is not yet right for me, soon, but not just yet.
Gathering info and preparing. As I mentioned on another thread: "now is the time to be still, the answers will come"
G

[skyflower]

I was "given" the "red pill" back in 2003 when the world I knew was pulled away from under my feet.

The movie "the matrix" describes my reaction to this new world very well when Neo wakes up for the first time.
I've "plugged" myself back into the matrix, in search of more information. I had taken up the role of conformity again so I could "survive" inside the matrix.

But once you wake up, you can't go back to being asleep, and not be miserable. I wasn't happy to know that I was merely dying a slow death without true meaning to my existence.
I've since then quit my job, packed up my bags, and stepped out to follow my heart.

Since then, I've been living a "charmed life". For the past 4 and half years I've traveled to many places, and lived in 2 countries away from home.
I live in a city because I am just not ready for country life just yet and this is where I want to be.
I still work, but I work for myself. I'm not a biz savvy person. But there are many times when things just fall into place...like magic.
I make many choices that make my close friends cringe, because it doesn't make sense to them. I have no savings yet I act like there is no tomorrow to worry.
Still, things just fall into place....when I follow my heart.

I guess you can say I've learned to dodge those bullets, just like Neo.

The hardest thing so far, was to stay focused about WHAT I WANT.
That is the biggest factor in slowing things down. Yes, I still run from time to time when I see the "agents" of the matrix....at times I fear those very bullets I've dodged before.
I still haven't figured out how to fly~ :)

Thank you for this thread. It would be great if we could all share practical info on what we have learned about navigating through this matrix.
Because even if a glorious tomorrow awaits us, we are still inside the matrix.

But, yes....it was when I took that leap of faith, that the magic started~~

[sandy]

One thousand "thank yous" for this post.

I am in exactly the position you describe. I even relate to the school art story - I am partially colour blind and my parents would always come back from school open evenings and say that they could instantly spot my pictures on the wall, with their brown grass and purple skies! This must have affected me pretty deeply because, to this day, I had an aversion to drawing and painting. Who knows, I could have been a Picasso or a Dali!!!!

Sandy: Your post moved me to tears. I wish I had your courage. All the very best of luck and, if you feel lonely, please do send me a PM. I'd be happy to absorb some of your pioneering spirit. I have felt for sometime that, to live my truth, I needed to make profound changes in my life.

One day, perhaps soon, I will.

With love and respect to all that are in the position blufire describes.


Dear Peacelovingman,

I love your name and gentleness too and thank you for your heartfelt words. Made my day to say the least. I don't need much other than love and your words have sure filled my heart with just that. My heart is Brilliant Red with flashing lights of streaking brown and purple beauty and Picasso would have been honored to say he created that joy, but he didn't, you did(my dear dad was colour blind too). Thank you :)

[sandy]

Gee I Love this Thread!!

Thank you everyone who has posted, the inspiration and holding the space (within the Matrix Albeit) is motivating no matter what is happening for each and everyone of us. Knowing I'm not alone through your words is so appreciated and you are valued by me. Thank you!!

[Phoenix]

...pictures on the wall, with their brown grass and purple skies!

I'm not the only one! When the markers didn't have the names of the colors on them, brown grass and purple skies were the norm.:o

-Phoenix

[Peacelovinman]

Dear Peacelovingman,

I love your name and gentleness too and thank you for your heartfelt words. Made my day to say the least. I don't need much other than love and your words have sure filled my heart with just that. My heart is Brilliant Red with flashing lights of streaking brown and purple beauty and Picasso would have been honored to say he created that joy, but he didn't, you did(my dear dad was colour blind too). Thank you :)

"Wipes tear from eye"

Sandy: Thank you for your kind words, from the bottom of my heart.

To all: perhaps those who have made the transition should start another thread to share their experiences?

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I'm not the only one! When the markers didn't have the names of the colors on them, brown grass and purple skies were the norm.:o

-Phoenix

That was what it was, man! These days, the crayon makers would probably be had up for discriminating against colour blind folks!!

[blufire]

The main reason for starting this thread is I know there are perhaps thousands of people that come to Avalon who are beginning to morph or I feel, there are many who are close to making “that” decision, but are reluctant to take that final step because of the life long programming and the personal soul stories and journeys

I intuit so deeply that there is a new emerging group. And it is occurring so quickly that it is hard to stay fluid and sanguine

We are arriving at this place in different ways. Many, many life paths are converging into one narrow path that leads to . . . . . where?? That “where” is one of the most powerful aspects that kept me from my “leap of faith”. But I also deeply intuit that we won’t know the “where” until each of us take that path . . . . and then wait and be at peace and listen carefully.

I know there are thousands who like me have been brought to this “place of decision many times” and in different ways.. . . . a failed marriage, a lost job, the loss of loved ones, thousands of hours and many years of research and watching videos and reading books, rejection of organized religion, having your life foundation ripped apart and left with the task of rebuilding. I have experienced every one of those and I know the thousands that come to Avalon are also . . . . these life experiences are the “2x4 between the eyes” that our guides or angels or our own souls saying Wake Up! you are going down the wrong path again.

Sometimes we are wounded so deeply that it takes years to find the path again. But this wounding is vital.

Finally, for me it was the realization that since I keep being brought to this “place of decision” this place, that in my minds eye has many, many little roads behind me and a meeting point where I have stood many times and one path in front of me . . . . I have stood at this place of convergence many years and at many times in my life.

It . . . this choice . . . is not a “rejection” of family or friends or our current life . . . . it is the acceptance and more than that a Melding of our own personal soul’s decision.

This emerging or shadow group does not fit any of the current groups completely. I feel deeply that for the thousands that keep returning to the “point of choice” that it is this lack of “fitting in” that keeps us undecided or unable to take that first step.

I feel deeply that, like me, thousands feel that the current “defined” groups make us feel slightly uncomfortable or we just don’t fit . . . something just isn’t . . . right.

I have wandered among all these different groups and glean from each of them and I know “you” are too.

We are not New Age searching for the ultimate ascension or conscious level, we are not organized religious or even “being spiritual” doesn’t quite fit any longer, we don’t want communal living . . . its been tried many times, we aren’t old hippies or are but know that is not the way either, we are not pagan, witches, wiccan, warlocks or shaman, we are not vegan or vegetarian, survivalists, conspiracy theorists, granola organic, we don’t want to revert back into total homesteading or 1800’s but want to mix in new technology, we resonate with Zeitgeist to a degree but feel the Venus Project is unreachable, we can’t travel in the astral or influence other peoples thoughts and we probably have the wrong eye color, or Carmody’s posts leave us in complete confusion.

We KNOW deep down . . . in our dna . . . our souls . . . . something is happening and quickly and with conviction.

We see the weather changing rapidly, we know our planet is changing, we believe in chemtrails but not all the “reasons”, we know we are about to be “turned on” but all the information on how to flip the switch doesn’t feel quite right, we believe in aliens and life on other planets but can’t quite swallow the “messages” from the aliens, we are having “those” dreams, we know we should be growing our own food and preparing, but for what? We know that gmo food is killing us along with vaccines and pharmaceutical drugs, but helpless against the massive companies, we know the U.S. and world economies are about to self destruct, we almost believe in PlanetX and the Brown Dwarf Sun but draw the line that Annunaki are coming to eat us, we know the Mayan calendar ends in 2012 but don’t believe it’s the end of the world but don’t quite know what it does mean.

There are many thousands of us that stand before this heap of “almost knowns”

I do know . . . . .

We are the “Shadow Group”, the lurkers, the so called newbies, and we are many thousands and we are the group that will usher in the new existence. We are not going to survive . . . . we will Thrive.

The current generations and the generations to come are the pioneers. We will build those stepping stones along the narrow path.

But. . . . each of us has to make that final step and live the change so we will begin to evolve. That mountain of “almost knowns” will become known or obsolete.

And we are finding each other in the collective . . . . what ever that “collective” is.

[blufire]

And one more thing . . . . we are afraid to post very much because we just know each post will be ripped to shreds and put in five hundred million of those little boxes and be taken completely out of context . . . . .

;) :behindsofa: :peep:

[ViralSpiral]

And one more thing . . . . we are afraid to post very much because we just know each post will be ripped to shreds and put in five hundred million of those little boxes and be taken completely out of context . . . . .

;) :behindsofa: :peep:



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thank you for yours though!

when I've jumped, not knowing whether theres a net or not, I'll let ya know!
tis nigh......

[red_rose]

Dear Blufire,

Thank you, thank you, thank you. I left the pretend world non-physically 15 years ago and then physically 4 years ago. Through this process especially the 4 years has been painful. In that I still suffer the grief at times of the loss of my son/grandchildren, parents (both passed in this time) and siblings and some friends.

Those I love dearly I have abandoned in order to not conform to what they believe I should do or be. I retired early so was to take up the position of happy little Granny, free wheeling daughter and sister, which now had all the time in the world to address all their needs. I had always been the strong, do anything for anyone who was hurting or in need, take charge and get things done. I became lost and shared how lost I was and unsure of what was going on or what was happening to me, with those I loved. They did not like it and tried hard to "slap"me back into place. I took it for 2 years and then "slapped" back. (not good) I was in stark raving survival mode trying to save my sanity. It was one thing to leave mentally but another to leave physically. I had to, to honor my spirit and keep evolving, but have been labeled nuts and condemned along the way.

I did not know how material I was but sure learned how much I missed my home of 25 years, how devastated I was when I lost more than half of the profits from the sale of my home in the financial meltdown, lost my retirement dream of traveling to take courses and spend time in very spiritual places, lost my worker identity, lost my mother, sister, daughter, friend identity and totally lost any meaning of what my place or value was in the world.

In the end and thus far I have learned that I am consciousness continuing to strive to get past my ego and the dream world. I have learned that I am of value just because and that I have a being because I chose to. I also know that I cannot turn back (i have tried) so must endure with my journey as lonely as it is.

I now live in a very small old house (all I could afford) but it is my place of sanctuary and peace and even though the basement is flooding I love it anyway. I have no pension (not old enough yet) so trying to live off a meager budget of savings till that happens. Stretching a dollar has become my forte' :). The town I live (very rural/pop: 400) in is full of very old retired (Farming district) seniors who have tried to recruit me to their churches(bless them) but have yet to find anyone here in the last 2 years I resonate with. I spend most of my time alone. I study and research daily as well as meditate but boy I have yet to have any mind blowing experiences:)

I've learned to make my own toothpaste (no fluoride), candles, garden and keep a large yard maintained, winter and summer and to keep looking within for answers. I still get caught up in my belief systems and sadness at all my loss but some how keep on going. Thank God for the internet and forums like Avalon, Camelot and Nexus and all the members.

I do know that one day I will again re-enter the world at large so will stay the course trusting that what is>>>>>>>>is, for now.

Thank you again for this thread and the opportunity to tell someone my journey of late.

I think you are an inspiration to us all.

I love and respect your motivation - honoring your spirit and it's evolution.

Beautiful and courageous.

Spiritual warrior(ess)

red_rose

[Peacelovinman]

Finally, for me it was the realization that since I keep being brought to this “place of decision” this place, that in my minds eye has many, many little roads behind me and a meeting point where I have stood many times and one path in front of me . . . . I have stood at this place of convergence many years and at many times in my life.



I enjoyed and appreciated your whole post, blufire, but this part in particular. Many times over the last 17 years or so, I have replayed in my mind the scene from the Matrix where Neo is in the car with Trinity and he attempts to escape. Before he can do so and as he looks through the open car door to a rain soaked street, Trinity says something to the effect that running would be pointless as he already knows where that road leads.

We all know where the road leads. Even my wife, who whilst she always listens to my opinions with an open mind, her own path has meant she hasn't dropped as far down the rabbit hole as maybe I have, divulged to me last week that she felt all action taken within the current "system" seems to be futile.

This is the time of transition. I believe we will all have to work it out for ourselves. I am a great believer in what Alex Collier calls "holographic thinking" - in other words, we can no longer rely on external authorities to do things for us.

We must truly be the change we want to see in the world, individually at first and then collectively. With millions of individuals all peacefully resisting and taking focus away from the power elite and creating their own lives in an image of freedom, self-determination, self-responsibility, love and respect for all beings, the current power elite structure will fall. Why do you think they want to cull the population? They fear people waking up and walking out of their Matrix - millions of awakened souls are uncontrolable and is, I'm sure, their biggest nightmare.

That said, it sure does make me feel better to know that there are many of you out there going through the same thing.

Love to you all

Peacelovinman, a.k.a. Andrew.

[Phoenix]

The main reason for starting this thread is I know there are perhaps thousands of people that come to Avalon who are beginning to morph or I feel, there are many who are close to making “that” decision, but are reluctant to take that final step because of the life long programming and the personal soul stories and journeys...

...having your life foundation ripped apart and left with the task of rebuilding...

It . . . this choice . . . is not a “rejection” of family or friends or our current life . . . . it is the acceptance and more than that a Melding of our own personal soul’s decision.

This emerging or shadow group does not fit any of the current groups completely. I feel deeply that for the thousands that keep returning to the “point of choice” that it is this lack of “fitting in” that keeps us undecided or unable to take that first step.

I feel deeply that, like me, thousands feel that the current “defined” groups make us feel slightly uncomfortable or we just don’t fit . . . something just isn’t . . . right.

We are not New Age searching for the ultimate ascension or conscious level, we are not organized religious or even “being spiritual” doesn’t quite fit any longer, we don’t want communal living . . . its been tried many times, we aren’t old hippies or are but know that is not the way either, we are not pagan, witches, wiccan, warlocks or shaman, we are not vegan or vegetarian, survivalists, conspiracy theorists, granola organic, we don’t want to revert back into total homesteading or 1800’s but want to mix in new technology, we resonate with Zeitgeist to a degree but feel the Venus Project is unreachable, we can’t travel in the astral or influence other peoples thoughts and we probably have the wrong eye color, or Carmody’s posts leave us in complete confusion.

We KNOW deep down . . . in our dna . . . our souls . . . . something is happening and quickly and with conviction.

We see the weather changing rapidly, we know our planet is changing, we believe in chemtrails but not all the “reasons”, we know we are about to be “turned on” but all the information on how to flip the switch doesn’t feel quite right, we believe in aliens and life on other planets but can’t quite swallow the “messages” from the aliens, we are having “those” dreams, we know we should be growing our own food and preparing, but for what? We know that gmo food is killing us along with vaccines and pharmaceutical drugs, but helpless against the massive companies, we know the U.S. and world economies are about to self destruct, we almost believe in PlanetX and the Brown Dwarf Sun but draw the line that Annunaki are coming to eat us, we know the Mayan calendar ends in 2012 but don’t believe it’s the end of the world but don’t quite know what it does mean.

There are many thousands of us that stand before this heap of “almost knowns”

I do know . . . . .

We are the “Shadow Group”, the lurkers, the so called newbies, and we are many thousands and we are the group that will usher in the new existence. We are not going to survive . . . . we will Thrive.

The current generations and the generations to come are the pioneers. We will build those stepping stones along the narrow path.

But. . . . each of us has to make that final step and live the change so we will begin to evolve. That mountain of “almost knowns” will become known or obsolete.

And we are finding each other in the collective . . . . what ever that “collective” is.

bluefire: Wow...I'm at a loss for words. What you said is so spot on for me it's scary. I really can't say anything except that was so perfectly 99.99%(I don't know who the Annunaki are:p) of my exact mindset. Thank you a million times for your words... I hope I can come up with something better to say soon to continue this great discussion.

-Phoenix

[sandy]

The main reason for starting this thread is I know there are perhaps thousands of people that come to Avalon who are beginning to morph or I feel, there are many who are close to making “that” decision, but are reluctant to take that final step because of the life long programming and the personal soul stories and journeys

I intuit so deeply that there is a new emerging group. And it is occurring so quickly that it is hard to stay fluid and sanguine

We are arriving at this place in different ways. Many, many life paths are converging into one narrow path that leads to . . . . . where?? That “where” is one of the most powerful aspects that kept me from my “leap of faith”. But I also deeply intuit that we won’t know the “where” until each of us take that path . . . . and then wait and be at peace and listen carefully.

I know there are thousands who like me have been brought to this “place of decision many times” and in different ways.. . . . a failed marriage, a lost job, the loss of loved ones, thousands of hours and many years of research and watching videos and reading books, rejection of organized religion, having your life foundation ripped apart and left with the task of rebuilding. I have experienced every one of those and I know the thousands that come to Avalon are also . . . . these life experiences are the “2x4 between the eyes” that our guides or angels or our own souls saying Wake Up! you are going down the wrong path again.

Sometimes we are wounded so deeply that it takes years to find the path again. But this wounding is vital.

Finally, for me it was the realization that since I keep being brought to this “place of decision” this place, that in my minds eye has many, many little roads behind me and a meeting point where I have stood many times and one path in front of me . . . . I have stood at this place of convergence many years and at many times in my life.

It . . . this choice . . . is not a “rejection” of family or friends or our current life . . . . it is the acceptance and more than that a Melding of our own personal soul’s decision.

This emerging or shadow group does not fit any of the current groups completely. I feel deeply that for the thousands that keep returning to the “point of choice” that it is this lack of “fitting in” that keeps us undecided or unable to take that first step.

I feel deeply that, like me, thousands feel that the current “defined” groups make us feel slightly uncomfortable or we just don’t fit . . . something just isn’t . . . right.

I have wandered among all these different groups and glean from each of them and I know “you” are too.

We are not New Age searching for the ultimate ascension or conscious level, we are not organized religious or even “being spiritual” doesn’t quite fit any longer, we don’t want communal living . . . its been tried many times, we aren’t old hippies or are but know that is not the way either, we are not pagan, witches, wiccan, warlocks or shaman, we are not vegan or vegetarian, survivalists, conspiracy theorists, granola organic, we don’t want to revert back into total homesteading or 1800’s but want to mix in new technology, we resonate with Zeitgeist to a degree but feel the Venus Project is unreachable, we can’t travel in the astral or influence other peoples thoughts and we probably have the wrong eye color, or Carmody’s posts leave us in complete confusion.

We KNOW deep down . . . in our dna . . . our souls . . . . something is happening and quickly and with conviction.

We see the weather changing rapidly, we know our planet is changing, we believe in chemtrails but not all the “reasons”, we know we are about to be “turned on” but all the information on how to flip the switch doesn’t feel quite right, we believe in aliens and life on other planets but can’t quite swallow the “messages” from the aliens, we are having “those” dreams, we know we should be growing our own food and preparing, but for what? We know that gmo food is killing us along with vaccines and pharmaceutical drugs, but helpless against the massive companies, we know the U.S. and world economies are about to self destruct, we almost believe in PlanetX and the Brown Dwarf Sun but draw the line that Annunaki are coming to eat us, we know the Mayan calendar ends in 2012 but don’t believe it’s the end of the world but don’t quite know what it does mean.

There are many thousands of us that stand before this heap of “almost knowns”

I do know . . . . .

We are the “Shadow Group”, the lurkers, the so called newbies, and we are many thousands and we are the group that will usher in the new existence. We are not going to survive . . . . we will Thrive.

The current generations and the generations to come are the pioneers. We will build those stepping stones along the narrow path.

But. . . . each of us has to make that final step and live the change so we will begin to evolve. That mountain of “almost knowns” will become known or obsolete.

And we are finding each other in the collective . . . . what ever that “collective” is.

Dear Blufire,

Keep your intuit going as it sure is dead on IMHO. Thank you and if I had the money I would request that you allow me to publish this in all the public Newspapers around the world. So many people are there, but don't even know that and to read your post would so help them know they are not going insane:)

[blufire]

I just finished listening to Bill’s interview Part I. The part the resounded so solidly for me is when he asks . . . . when we go to bed a night or wake up in the morning what do we think about the most . . . . what is it that we really want to do . . . . what is it that speaks loudly to our hearts? (I’m grossly paraphrasing here)

I feel strongly this “personal soul message” is what brings each of us back the “place of convergence” over and over and each time our soul gently asks “are you ready now to take that first step?”

But do you find that each time you can’t take that step with conviction because of our brainwashing and conditioning we received from birth???

A few personal things about me. . . . . .

I grew up deep in the Appalachian Mountains. My generation was the last to grow up under a true “mountain code”. My father had a “contract” out on his life the same time Buford Pusser had one on his and Buford was a friend of my father. Brown Mountain was two ranges over from the mountain I lived and I have experienced “the lights” on very personal level.

I was married 16 years to an evangelical preacher in a very legalistic and dogmatic church. Very significant knowledge came from these years of intense biblical and subsequent study of other ancient and secular writings.

My second husband of 13 years was . . . . wait for it . . . wait for it. . . . . . . . a senior vice president of Morgan Stanley . . . . yep that Morgan Stanley . . . .complete with country club memberships (I hate playing golf), elaborate vacations and big fancy house.

Imagine the conflict and anger in the spring and summer of 2008 when I, who has no licensing in financial advising or economics, said to her very educated and successful husband “Honey, we need to pull out all our money that is in the stock market and mutual funds and maybe even the bank accounts”. He asked “where are you getting this information” and I say well Dear from some really strange people on the fringe of reality and mostly info based on conspiracy theories. Imagine the division in our marriage when I pulled all “my” money and my children’s money out against his outrage at the penalties, interest and taxes we would have to pay.

Imagine the day the market started having a complete come apart . . . .he came home exhausted and terrified and looked at me as though I was truly an alien from a far far away star.

He blamed me for many thousands we lost. I have yet to figured out THAT logic.

Now imagine the final straw when I said” Honey we need to leave all these wonderful luxuries and prepare for very difficult and hard times that are heading our way”. “We need to prepare for a time when there may be a complete global economic break down and food shortages and horrific weather”.

And oh by the way Honey, I’m a starchild or most likely Indigo, I believe in reincarnation and past lives, they are spraying us with chemtrails, there’s a good possibility a Dark Star is heading our way, aliens live among us, there’s maybe an outpost of some sort on the moon and probably on Mars, there are groups called the Illuminati, Majestic 12, controlling bloodlines, and there will be a One World Government, 911 was probably an inside job, I’m pulling the kids back out of school and home schooling again and no vaccines. And I refuse to eat gmo or processed food, I’m buying another farm growing organic food for as many as I can, become a medicinal herbalist, have a herd of dairy goats and a milk cow and maybe 75 or so chickens

Uh huh . . . I know proof positive he was literally trying to figure out a way to get me in the Mental Hospital. He had people come “talk” to me . . . . . .

I seem to have this way to totally mystify and confuse and anger the men I love and married.



Anyway . . . . . what is your “soul message and journey”?

What is it that you long to do from deep down?

What keeps bring you back to that “point of decision”

And what “conditioning” makes you over and over turn your back on what you KNOW you are supposed to do?

And is that “condition” truly reality or is it a brutal Lie?

[Sarahmay]

I've"jumped" several times in my life, and expect to have to do so again, as conditions dictate. Last year, my husband and I moved out West to start a spiritually based business. I gave up a "real job" with benefits, and we have no health insurance to this day...nor do I subscribe to allopathic medical views. I am not working in a pointless, mind-numbing, soul-sucking job, and I have no intention on doing so in the future. And...our lives are 10x better and business is good. If the system breaks down, on to plan Z.

[ViralSpiral]

Another epic post Blufire. THAAAAAAAAAAAANK YOU!

my personal coach. I.O.U ;)


Some-one sent me this link today. living off the grid (http://www.livinginthefuture.org/)

yummy!!
aaanyway, I followed the trail, which lead me to this gorgeous property in Portugal for sale...... sigh

Quinta das Abelhas (http://www.portugalyurt.co.uk/index.html)

To sleep, perchance to dream.

Well done Sarahmay. I pay €700.00 per month for private medical aid here in Germany. I get sick just thinking about it .... http://rationalia.com/z/stretcher.gif

[sandy]

I just finished listening to Bill’s interview Part I. The part the resounded so solidly for me is when he asks . . . . when we go to bed a night or wake up in the morning what do we think about the most . . . . what is it that we really want to do . . . . what is it that speaks loudly to our hearts? (I’m grossly paraphrasing here)

I feel strongly this “personal soul message” is what brings each of us back the “place of convergence” over and over and each time our soul gently asks “are you ready now to take that first step?”

But do you find that each time you can’t take that step with conviction because of our brainwashing and conditioning we received from birth???

A few personal things about me. . . . . .

I grew up deep in the Appalachian Mountains. My generation was the last to grow up under a true “mountain code”. My father had a “contract” out on his life the same time Buford Pusser had one on his and Buford was a friend of my father. Brown Mountain was two ranges over from the mountain I lived and I have experienced “the lights” on very personal level.

I was married 16 years to an evangelical preacher in a very legalistic and dogmatic church. Very significant knowledge came from these years of intense biblical and subsequent study of other ancient and secular writings.

My second husband of 13 years was . . . . wait for it . . . wait for it. . . . . . . . a senior vice president of Morgan Stanley . . . . yep that Morgan Stanley . . . .complete with country club memberships (I hate playing golf), elaborate vacations and big fancy house.

Imagine the conflict and anger in the spring and summer of 2008 when I, who has no licensing in financial advising or economics, said to her very educated and successful husband “Honey, we need to pull out all our money that is in the stock market and mutual funds and maybe even the bank accounts”. He asked “where are you getting this information” and I say well Dear from some really strange people on the fringe of reality and mostly info based on conspiracy theories. Imagine the division in our marriage when I pulled all “my” money and my children’s money out against his outrage at the penalties, interest and taxes we would have to pay.

Imagine the day the market started having a complete come apart . . . .he came home exhausted and terrified and looked at me as though I was truly an alien from a far far away star.

He blamed me for many thousands we lost. I have yet to figured out THAT logic.

Now imagine the final straw when I said” Honey we need to leave all these wonderful luxuries and prepare for very difficult and hard times that are heading our way”. “We need to prepare for a time when there may be a complete global economic break down and food shortages and horrific weather”.

And oh by the way Honey, I’m a starchild or most likely Indigo, I believe in reincarnation and past lives, they are spraying us with chemtrails, there’s a good possibility a Dark Star is heading our way, aliens live among us, there’s maybe an outpost of some sort on the moon and probably on Mars, there are groups called the Illuminati, Majestic 12, controlling bloodlines, and there will be a One World Government, 911 was probably an inside job, I’m pulling the kids back out of school and home schooling again and no vaccines. And I refuse to eat gmo or processed food, I’m buying another farm growing organic food for as many as I can, become a medicinal herbalist, have a herd of dairy goats and a milk cow and maybe 75 or so chickens

Uh huh . . . I know proof positive he was literally trying to figure out a way to get me in the Mental Hospital. He had people come “talk” to me . . . . . .

I seem to have this way to totally mystify and confuse and anger the men I love and married.



Anyway . . . . . what is your “soul message and journey”?

What is it that you long to do from deep down?

What keeps bring you back to that “point of decision”

And what “conditioning” makes you over and over turn your back on what you KNOW you are supposed to do?

And is that “condition” truly reality or is it a brutal Lie?

Ohhhhhhhh I hear you Blufire and my heart goes out to you>>>>my decision was much easier as there is only myself , 2 hubbies later:) when it came to picking up and changing my whole life and lifestyle.

[joelmags]

i took the red pill in the 70s. instinctively knew that the luxuries were unsustainable illusions. was instantly and irrepressibly happy.

let passion be your compass. joy be your guide. synchronicity your signposts. the jigsaw is always unclear at the start.

know that you only feel bad because you haven"t learned the lesson.

what you have is not the finished product.

it is you.

cheers!

[InTheBackground]

The main reason for starting this thread is I know there are perhaps thousands of people that come to Avalon who are beginning to morph or I feel, there are many who are close to making “that” decision, but are reluctant to take that final step because of the life long programming and the personal soul stories and journeys

I intuit so deeply that there is a new emerging group. And it is occurring so quickly that it is hard to stay fluid and sanguine

We are arriving at this place in different ways. Many, many life paths are converging into one narrow path that leads to . . . . . where?? That “where” is one of the most powerful aspects that kept me from my “leap of faith”. But I also deeply intuit that we won’t know the “where” until each of us take that path . . . . and then wait and be at peace and listen carefully.

I know there are thousands who like me have been brought to this “place of decision many times” and in different ways.. . . . a failed marriage, a lost job, the loss of loved ones, thousands of hours and many years of research and watching videos and reading books, rejection of organized religion, having your life foundation ripped apart and left with the task of rebuilding. I have experienced every one of those and I know the thousands that come to Avalon are also . . . . these life experiences are the “2x4 between the eyes” that our guides or angels or our own souls saying Wake Up! you are going down the wrong path again.

Sometimes we are wounded so deeply that it takes years to find the path again. But this wounding is vital.

Finally, for me it was the realization that since I keep being brought to this “place of decision” this place, that in my minds eye has many, many little roads behind me and a meeting point where I have stood many times and one path in front of me . . . . I have stood at this place of convergence many years and at many times in my life.

It . . . this choice . . . is not a “rejection” of family or friends or our current life . . . . it is the acceptance and more than that a Melding of our own personal soul’s decision.

This emerging or shadow group does not fit any of the current groups completely. I feel deeply that for the thousands that keep returning to the “point of choice” that it is this lack of “fitting in” that keeps us undecided or unable to take that first step.

I feel deeply that, like me, thousands feel that the current “defined” groups make us feel slightly uncomfortable or we just don’t fit . . . something just isn’t . . . right.

I have wandered among all these different groups and glean from each of them and I know “you” are too.

We are not New Age searching for the ultimate ascension or conscious level, we are not organized religious or even “being spiritual” doesn’t quite fit any longer, we don’t want communal living . . . its been tried many times, we aren’t old hippies or are but know that is not the way either, we are not pagan, witches, wiccan, warlocks or shaman, we are not vegan or vegetarian, survivalists, conspiracy theorists, granola organic, we don’t want to revert back into total homesteading or 1800’s but want to mix in new technology, we resonate with Zeitgeist to a degree but feel the Venus Project is unreachable, we can’t travel in the astral or influence other peoples thoughts and we probably have the wrong eye color, or Carmody’s posts leave us in complete confusion.

We KNOW deep down . . . in our dna . . . our souls . . . . something is happening and quickly and with conviction.

We see the weather changing rapidly, we know our planet is changing, we believe in chemtrails but not all the “reasons”, we know we are about to be “turned on” but all the information on how to flip the switch doesn’t feel quite right, we believe in aliens and life on other planets but can’t quite swallow the “messages” from the aliens, we are having “those” dreams, we know we should be growing our own food and preparing, but for what? We know that gmo food is killing us along with vaccines and pharmaceutical drugs, but helpless against the massive companies, we know the U.S. and world economies are about to self destruct, we almost believe in PlanetX and the Brown Dwarf Sun but draw the line that Annunaki are coming to eat us, we know the Mayan calendar ends in 2012 but don’t believe it’s the end of the world but don’t quite know what it does mean.

There are many thousands of us that stand before this heap of “almost knowns”

I do know . . . . .

We are the “Shadow Group”, the lurkers, the so called newbies, and we are many thousands and we are the group that will usher in the new existence. We are not going to survive . . . . we will Thrive.

The current generations and the generations to come are the pioneers. We will build those stepping stones along the narrow path.

But. . . . each of us has to make that final step and live the change so we will begin to evolve. That mountain of “almost knowns” will become known or obsolete.

And we are finding each other in the collective . . . . what ever that “collective” is.


WORD. And about thousand thumbs up from me. I'm not a newbie by any means--I have been winding my way slowly down this path nearly all of my adult life, though more so in the last fifteen years, and in earnest the last five--but we each have to face up to the illusion at our own pace during this very strange, very intense transition period, no? :) I seem to pull out of one thing at a time. Less shock to the system, and less shock to loved ones at the same time. LOL

[siggy]

The main reason for starting this thread is I know there are perhaps thousands of people that come to Avalon who are beginning to morph or I feel, there are many who are close to making “that” decision, but are reluctant to take that final step because of the life long programming and the personal soul stories and journeys

I intuit so deeply that there is a new emerging group. And it is occurring so quickly that it is hard to stay fluid and sanguine

We are arriving at this place in different ways. Many, many life paths are converging into one narrow path that leads to . . . . . where?? That “where” is one of the most powerful aspects that kept me from my “leap of faith”. But I also deeply intuit that we won’t know the “where” until each of us take that path . . . . and then wait and be at peace and listen carefully.

I know there are thousands who like me have been brought to this “place of decision many times” and in different ways.. . . . a failed marriage, a lost job, the loss of loved ones, thousands of hours and many years of research and watching videos and reading books, rejection of organized religion, having your life foundation ripped apart and left with the task of rebuilding. I have experienced every one of those and I know the thousands that come to Avalon are also . . . . these life experiences are the “2x4 between the eyes” that our guides or angels or our own souls saying Wake Up! you are going down the wrong path again.

Sometimes we are wounded so deeply that it takes years to find the path again. But this wounding is vital.

Finally, for me it was the realization that since I keep being brought to this “place of decision” this place, that in my minds eye has many, many little roads behind me and a meeting point where I have stood many times and one path in front of me . . . . I have stood at this place of convergence many years and at many times in my life.

It . . . this choice . . . is not a “rejection” of family or friends or our current life . . . . it is the acceptance and more than that a Melding of our own personal soul’s decision.

This emerging or shadow group does not fit any of the current groups completely. I feel deeply that for the thousands that keep returning to the “point of choice” that it is this lack of “fitting in” that keeps us undecided or unable to take that first step.

I feel deeply that, like me, thousands feel that the current “defined” groups make us feel slightly uncomfortable or we just don’t fit . . . something just isn’t . . . right.

I have wandered among all these different groups and glean from each of them and I know “you” are too.

We are not New Age searching for the ultimate ascension or conscious level, we are not organized religious or even “being spiritual” doesn’t quite fit any longer, we don’t want communal living . . . its been tried many times, we aren’t old hippies or are but know that is not the way either, we are not pagan, witches, wiccan, warlocks or shaman, we are not vegan or vegetarian, survivalists, conspiracy theorists, granola organic, we don’t want to revert back into total homesteading or 1800’s but want to mix in new technology, we resonate with Zeitgeist to a degree but feel the Venus Project is unreachable, we can’t travel in the astral or influence other peoples thoughts and we probably have the wrong eye color, or Carmody’s posts leave us in complete confusion.

We KNOW deep down . . . in our dna . . . our souls . . . . something is happening and quickly and with conviction.

We see the weather changing rapidly, we know our planet is changing, we believe in chemtrails but not all the “reasons”, we know we are about to be “turned on” but all the information on how to flip the switch doesn’t feel quite right, we believe in aliens and life on other planets but can’t quite swallow the “messages” from the aliens, we are having “those” dreams, we know we should be growing our own food and preparing, but for what? We know that gmo food is killing us along with vaccines and pharmaceutical drugs, but helpless against the massive companies, we know the U.S. and world economies are about to self destruct, we almost believe in PlanetX and the Brown Dwarf Sun but draw the line that Annunaki are coming to eat us, we know the Mayan calendar ends in 2012 but don’t believe it’s the end of the world but don’t quite know what it does mean.

There are many thousands of us that stand before this heap of “almost knowns”

I do know . . . . .

We are the “Shadow Group”, the lurkers, the so called newbies, and we are many thousands and we are the group that will usher in the new existence. We are not going to survive . . . . we will Thrive.

The current generations and the generations to come are the pioneers. We will build those stepping stones along the narrow path.

But. . . . each of us has to make that final step and live the change so we will begin to evolve. That mountain of “almost knowns” will become known or obsolete.

And we are finding each other in the collective . . . . what ever that “collective” is.

Bingo! Your words could have been lifted straight out of my head - but put more eloquently than I could have done :)

My wife & I are in the process of following our hearts, selling the house (just need a buyer) & giving up our jobs in order to pursue a sustainable, land-based lifestyle. Everything seems to have happened & fallen into place - as if the stars are aligning - over the last year or so. Hopefully it'll continue!

We've met some amazing, like-minded people along the way so far and they're teaching me / us to trust in our hearts. I still find it hard, but I am trying.

Great thread & many thanks for starting it.

[electrobot808]

Great thread and I think most people think about this, some more than others and I find seekers will find the 'machine' we all live in harder than non seekers who are more programmed. At 41 I'm about to let my place out and go travelling in India and Thailand, not sure for how long but with the aim to 'de-structurlise' myself or more my mind. I practice Yoga and would like to see how deep the rabbit hole goes inside myself and to get rid of the 'mind' stuff which we are all fed.

It's hard in todays society as unfortunatley the system is set up that we have to earn money to pay the bills and this keeps us operating at lower levels of vibrational frequency, add into this the media & lies and it doesn't take much to see how everyone is programmed the way they are, and yes I know everyone here is aware of that.

I hope and trust that on my forthcoming journey like skyflower the magic will unfold and find a deeper pupose.

[Lucc30]

Weeping and laughing out loud as I read this tread (and the newly created, similar one: http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?20718-Need-to-find-a-way-out-of-the-rat-race)

I'm in the middle of it - broken relationship just now, no job for 4 years, huge depts after 17 years of climbing the career ladder ending up with good salary senior position - living the matrix.

Thank you all for reminding me that there's only one thing that doesn't change: changes.

These treads helped me see I'm on a new adventure (even though on aided shelter and food for a short duration - hopefully).

I'll continue to dream a dream and make it come true.

Thank you all for your contributions (the the thanks buttons vanished at some time while reading - so this goes to all of you, but especially to Blufire who started the tread).

:luv:

[ViralSpiral]

Thank you for your post Lucc30. Takes courage

Here's more hope


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[Hughe]

I have to do few things then I'm out of this city living.
Freedom is life.