Jendayi's metaphysical and spiritual Troubleshooting thread

[Jendayi]

Dear Avalonians..
The other day i had a wonderful chat with nexian mod: Bethany.
Out of this chat something had risen that is asking for my attention..
In my life i have been a "Troubleshooter" for many.. people share their problems, challenges, hopes, pains and dreams with me... because of my ability to see patterns where others still see chaos i am often in a position to help these people beyond a current stagnant situation or perspective... I help people to let go... to transcend and to embrace any challenge that is presented to them..
This will be my first real attempt at doing this in an "online" manner.

You may ask me about anything you wish, be it individual, collective, psychological, sexual, new-age related or (meta)physical... and we'll see what we can do about it...

So, in light of what i can do for anyone who wishes my help, i offer my perspective on any matter you feel stuck in...

You can share your challenge here on this thread, PM me or contact me through skype so we can try together to get you to move on and let go, healing any imbalance in the process..
Feel free to share.. we are all friends here ;-)
Namaste and let's get this show on the road, shall we?

p.s. i was inspired to start this thread on avalon as well by a wonderful post by Agape (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?19680-Forgiveness&p=210176#post210176)
thanl you Agape for that Kick-start!

[jjl]

Just a bigger thank you than I am allowed by the puny button!

[jjl]

Jendayi, many times a day I feel great anger anfd agressiveness and have a hard time controlling it. (I'm not very good at it actually). I seem to go from 0 to 100 in a matter of seconds without brakes. Would you consider the source of my angst external or internal? Thank you. One more bit of info is that I am painfully empathic.

[Jendayi]

Jendayi, many times a day I feel great anger anfd agressiveness and have a hard time controlling it. (I'm not very good at it actually). I seem to go from 0 to 100 in a matter of seconds without brakes. Would you consider the source of my angst external or internal? Thank you. One more bit of info is that I am painfully empathic.
It all depends.. in what kind of situation do you find yourself when experiencing this anger? is it at certain times or with certain people?
do you live in nature or in a city? Your angst can be an internal reaction to an external source.. if you are indeed that empathic it could definitely be that what you are experiencing is not "from you" but could be from a relative or past friend you are still "linked" to..
whenever you feel this anger... try to visualize a blue 8 pattern between you and the subject of your anger.. let the energy flow through this 8 pattern (place yourself in one loop and the subject of your anger in the other) and repeat the following words: "i am releasing the ties that bind me so i may be free to express who i fully am" or something similar that resonates more with your way of speaking... i can elaborate more if you can provide me with some examples of what gives you this anger..
thanx for having the courage to share! it's the first step of the healing process... two thumbs up!

[ulli]

Great idea, and maybe others will start to follow your example soon and we all become more mutually supportive,
I want a better world for humanity and see that dream come true...with love it is possible.

Here is my problem: I don't think I love humanity. I try to, but there are so many butts...
I live in a rural part of Costa Rica, and get to see with my own eyes how little the people here care for animals....there are so many street dogs.
At first I was rescuing animals and find tnem homes, but that task is overwhelming and even then I think the home is not loving enough because as soon as the dog becomes a bit hyper they chain him.
If they have some money they buy a dog house which they chain him to and it is usually far to small for the dog..can't sleep in there with legs stretched out.

Anyway, the older I get the less I like people and that is not a good starting point, neither for myself, nor for humanity, because I can see that my attitude towards them is the same that they have towards their animals.
What do you think?

[jjl]

Good deal! Will try! Glad you are sharing your talents as you are meant to. Thanks again!

[Lord Sidious]

I still owe a stack over that last death star those damn rebels destroyed.
How do I repair my credit rating? :p

[PHARAOH]

I still owe a stack over that last death star those damn rebels destroyed.
How do I repair my credit rating? :p

All forms of Debt are "Negotiable"! Call all of your debtors if you wish, and make them and offer they can't refuse. 40 cents on the dollar. Give them 24 hrs to accept, or your monies will go to another debtor. If you have an hour glass, flip it. I'm sure you will get a call back for acceptance before the sand drops. Does not matter if it is a bank, credit card or the IRS. They all will negotiate. Let me know how easy it was.

[PHARAOH]

ulli, try training the dogs prior to gifting. This will go along way towards changing how your nieghbors will treat thier new found friends. I promise. :angel:

[Jendayi]

Great idea, and maybe others will start to follow your example soon and we all become more mutually supportive,
I want a better world for humanity and see that dream come true...with love it is possible.

Here is my problem: I don't think I love humanity. I try to, but there are so many butts...
I live in a rural part of Costa Rica, and get to see with my own eyes how little the people here care for animals....there are so many street dogs.
At first I was rescuing animals and find tnem homes, but that task is overwhelming and even then I think the home is not loving enough because as soon as the dog becomes a bit hyper they chain him.
If they have some money they buy a dog house which they chain him to and it is usually far to small for the dog..can't sleep in there with legs stretched out.

Anyway, the older I get the less I like people and that is not a good starting point, neither for myself, nor for humanity, because I can see that my attitude towards them is the same that they have towards their animals.
What do you think?

Hi Ulli.. thank you for your honesty.. quite a challenge indeed and i can relate... i have gone through this stage of frustration myself and totally understand your feeling on the matter..
i Love Humanity! i have been blessed by having experienced powerful visions about all of this... and it comes down to this: "forgive them for they know not what they do"
it is not humanity that is doing this, it is a social or cultural pattern that rules their mode of conduct.. it is how they have been raised by their parents and culture..
humanity carries within it all possible ways of being, be it as animals, plants or other realms of existence... we can be violent and cold as crocodiles, cute and fuzzy like a new-born bunny and passive like a flower... we do not condemn crocodiles for what they are so why condemn a human who is expressing the same way of being?

Many so called "spiritual people" speak of past lives.. most only wish to know about their "nice" lives... some accept that they have been bad people in past lives and that they are here now to do good and become balanced.. so why is it so difficult to accept there are people incarnated now who are doing the opposite.. who have been "good" in a previous life and are re-balancing by doing evil in this one?
another thing i have noticed is that everything in creation seeks balance.. so if evil grows and becomes more horrible it must be that an equal amount of love has to be present at the same time..
to see horror is proof there has to be an equal amount of good somewhere.. we just simply need to open our eyes to this.. many people who have done harm to animals or other lifeforms will, at a certain point, have to deal with what they have done.. they will have to face their guilt.. they will have to go through a period of feeling bad about themselves.. it is not up to us to take on this feeling on their behalf.. trust the process of "cause and effect" do what you can to reduce suffering.. but let go of the moments you can't.. as it is not your task at that time..
trust evolution...

[Jendayi]

I still owe a stack over that last death star those damn rebels destroyed.
How do I repair my credit rating? :p
it seems pharaoh did a great job on explaining...
or just do a Sith mind trick: "these are not the ratings you are looking for, i can go about my business"

[Jendayi]

I still owe a stack over that last death star those damn rebels destroyed.
How do I repair my credit rating? :p
xMvrwnK4trU

[Lord Sidious]

I still owe a stack over that last death star those damn rebels destroyed.
How do I repair my credit rating? :p
it seems pharaoh did a great job on explaining...
or just do a Sith mind trick: "these are not the ratings you are looking for, i can go about my business"

I tried the mind trick before, but they were resistant and I had to shoot force lightning up their clackers.

[Jendayi]

that also does the trick!

edit: are we speaking hypothetically here or are you using metaphors to share an actual experience? would like to know before i get all serious with sidious..
wow.. that would be a great title for one of your radio shows
"Getting serious with Sidious"
i would listen...

[Lord Sidious]

that also does the trick!

edit: are we speaking hypothetically here or are you using metaphors to share an actual experience? would like to know before i get all serious with sidious..
wow.. that would be a great title for one of your radio shows
"Getting serious with Sidious"
i would listen...

I would have to change the title after a while because of the ''truth in advertising'' laws.
I am never serious for long.
Humour helps people in many ways.

[Jendayi]

that also does the trick!

edit: are we speaking hypothetically here or are you using metaphors to share an actual experience? would like to know before i get all serious with sidious..
wow.. that would be a great title for one of your radio shows
"Getting serious with Sidious"
i would listen...
I would have to change the title after a while because of the ''truth in advertising'' laws.
I am never serious for long.
Humour helps people in many ways.
it certainly does!!!
i was speaking about a title.. not content.. we all know you tend to joke around.. that's what we love about you, oh carrot wielding lord of darkness..

[ulli]

The fact is, Jendayi, I've seen all this third world stuff for so long
that most of the time I have my blinkers on.
Also rationalized it much in the way you suggested...cause and effect, Karma.
Even using the "don't worry, be happy" philosophy...

But after returning from Barbados recently where I spent the last 3 months
it is more noticeable, just like the mountains around me. (Barbados is pretty flat)

My motto is to choose carefully what I focus on. What I WANT to focus on. Once has to be creative in that choice.

Just as you had to come to your solution today about staying on board with BOTH Avalon and Nexus,
so equally I decided two years ago to make my home in two countries, knowing that the first year would be the hardest.

I'm more settled with the idea now, except I would like to avoid flying via Miami, but instead go the direct route via Panama, and Trinidad and Tobago.
Two stops and $400 more. Go figure. Excuse my rambling....I guess it's part of the therapy....you're doing a great job, by the way...

[Jendayi]

@ Ulli: thank you.. it can be difficult to be involved and detached at the same time.. it is not impossible though and it seems you are well on your way.. please keep rambling... 400 $ extra???? wow... that's more money than i make in 6 months... but if it's worth it.. spend it!! :-)

[fathertedsmate]

you have the right amout of toxins,chemicals and heavy metals in your body, the ingrediants for mind and body explosions, and every illness , negative thoughts create the chemical required to complete the mix, remove just one of the ingrediants and the explosionscannot happen remove them all and ensure your blood is alkaline and the need for a peice pipe dimminishes

[Calz]

I still owe a stack over that last death star those damn rebels destroyed.
How do I repair my credit rating? :p

Simple ... follow the american (lack of) government lead:

Crash the dollar into non-existence then pay off the quadwhateverkajillion you owe with worthless money you create out of nothing on your computer.

Child's play :wof: :wof: :wof:

[777]

I still owe a stack over that last death star those damn rebels destroyed.
How do I repair my credit rating? :p

Simple ... follow the american (lack of) government lead:

Crash the dollar into non-existence then pay off the quadwhateverkajillion you owe with worthless money you create out of nothing on your computer.

Child's play :wof: :wof: :wof:

hahaha. Be sure to remember to sell all your imperial gold too, thus making the gold backed promises even more fake than the pseudo currency they're based on.......

[ulli]

Jendayi, there are people who make $400 in a minute...
I'm not one of them but you could be....
you have enough talent....
so get cracking.

Just think what you could do for the world if you had that kind of money...
Don't be afraid of money.

[Jendayi]

Jendayi, there are people who make $400 in a minute...
I'm not one of them but you could be....
you have enough talent....
so get cracking.

Just think what you could do for the world if you had that kind of money...
Don't be afraid of money.
i am not afraid of money... i simply prefer to be rewarded in other ways... i do accept money when it is given though.. people just don't give it to me... and i will never work for money again in the form of a job or other business endeavor.. and to charge huge amounts so people can accept what i have to share more easily is a ludicrous concept to me and it amazes me how many spiritual "teachers", mediums and coaches ask such high amounts... and how many people are willing to pay these amounts...
it's silly... imho
i believe we are reaching the end of the age of money... by letting go of money now, i can hold a space for others to do the same...
it's hard sometimes but it's something i feel i have to do..

[ulli]

I understand what you are saying...most of what I need finds me just at the right moment, so i dont need money for an expensive life style....
The only thing is still those darn American Airlines tickets, and my rent over in Barbados...

Once I told a friend I wished I had a car of my own in Barbados
and three weeks later he called me up and told me about a car he had seen in a car park, perfect condition Suzuki Alto, for only $ 2800, and unheard-of low price in expensive Barbados....so I bought the car...

I was so grateful that he thought of me and called me that I gave him my Acer Netbook as he had no computer...
so he lives totally by the law that everything finds him

the more people understand how this works the faster the shift will happen...

and in future I might be hitchhiking from Costa Rica to Barbados and back via banana boat...
now that's a dream, but who knows?

[Corncrake]

Ulli - your post about the dogs reminded me so much of myself. When visiting Morocco years ago I was so upset about the animal abuse that I had to walk around in dark glasses to hide my red eyes. My friend got so angry that she physically attacked one man whose donkey was so overloaded it kept falling down under the weight of the Coca-Cola on its back. I was only able to get my head around it when I fully understood just how poor the people were and that their animals were commodities not that that justifies cruelty. I then tried to show both owner and animal kindness and in some cases even explain in horribly bad French that caring for the animal more would make it last longer. I don't think my efforts were appreciated but it made me feel a little better! Sorry Jendayi to have rather gone off topic!

[Agape]

Hello young Jendyi ..

I'm proud of you and applaud your effort ..all I suggest is that if you've opened your office here ..please be better the first of patientes,
the other patients will come .

Seen you've opened another thread where you cunningly suggest leaving to retirement . You're too quick aren't you . Are you bored here .

Watch and read and feel to people and whoever needs you they will come ..


My whole hearted thanks :hug:



There's a Project Camelot forum and Light Warrior Project as well, run by Tommy Hansen , my feeling is he could need your help , he's smart as you are .



Peace Peace Peace

[Jendayi]

Hello young Jendyi ..

I'm proud of you and applaud your effort ..all I suggest is that if you've opened your office here ..please be better the first of patientes,
the other patients will come .

Seen you've opened another thread where you cunningly suggest leaving to retirement . You're too quick aren't you . Are you bored here .

Watch and read and feel to people and whoever needs you they will come ..


My whole hearted thanks :hug:



There's a Project Camelot forum and Light Warrior Project as well, run by Tommy Hansen , my feeling is he could need your help , he's smart as you are .



Peace Peace Peace
Hi agape.. you are clever indeed and i humbly accept your wise words..
could you direct me to this Tommy Hansen fellow?

[Jake]

Hello young Jendyi ..

I'm proud of you and applaud your effort ..all I suggest is that if you've opened your office here ..please be better the first of patientes,
the other patients will come .

Seen you've opened another thread where you cunningly suggest leaving to retirement . You're too quick aren't you . Are you bored here .

Watch and read and feel to people and whoever needs you they will come ..


My whole hearted thanks :hug:



There's a Project Camelot forum and Light Warrior Project as well, run by Tommy Hansen , my feeling is he could need your help , he's smart as you are .



Peace Peace Peace
Hi agape.. you are clever indeed and i humbly accept your wise words..
could you direct me to this Tommy Hansen fellow?


www.projectlightwarrior.com It is part of PC. Tommy has not been on in a while, but he has started an awesome site. It is not a forum site, but a site with groups. I have started a group there regarding astral projection and OBE. I definately encourage you to engage there. I do. It is a work in progress that would greatly benefit from your input. Best regards Jake.

[Jendayi]

Hello young Jendyi ..

I'm proud of you and applaud your effort ..all I suggest is that if you've opened your office here ..please be better the first of patientes,
the other patients will come .

Seen you've opened another thread where you cunningly suggest leaving to retirement . You're too quick aren't you . Are you bored here .

Watch and read and feel to people and whoever needs you they will come ..


My whole hearted thanks :hug:



There's a Project Camelot forum and Light Warrior Project as well, run by Tommy Hansen , my feeling is he could need your help , he's smart as you are .



Peace Peace Peace
Hi agape.. you are clever indeed and i humbly accept your wise words..
could you direct me to this Tommy Hansen fellow?


www.projectlightwarrior.com It is part of PC. Tommy has not been on in a while, but he has started an awesome site. It is not a forum site, but a site with groups. I have started a group there regarding astral projection and OBE. I definately encourage you to engage there. I do. It is a work in progress that would greatly benefit from your input. Best regards Jake.
Your post comes surrounded with synchronicity.. thank you!

[Jake]

Hello young Jendyi ..

I'm proud of you and applaud your effort ..all I suggest is that if you've opened your office here ..please be better the first of patientes,
the other patients will come .

Seen you've opened another thread where you cunningly suggest leaving to retirement . You're too quick aren't you . Are you bored here .

Watch and read and feel to people and whoever needs you they will come ..


My whole hearted thanks :hug:



There's a Project Camelot forum and Light Warrior Project as well, run by Tommy Hansen , my feeling is he could need your help , he's smart as you are .



Peace Peace Peace
Hi agape.. you are clever indeed and i humbly accept your wise words..
could you direct me to this Tommy Hansen fellow?


www.projectlightwarrior.com It is part of PC. Tommy has not been on in a while, but he has started an awesome site. It is not a forum site, but a site with groups. I have started a group there regarding astral projection and OBE. I definately encourage you to engage there. I do. It is a work in progress that would greatly benefit from your input. Best regards Jake.
Your post comes surrounded with synchronicity.. thank you!

No problem. there is a direct link from the ProjectCamalotPortal.com page. Seems to be down right now, but keep trying. We have several Light Warriors in our midst here at Avalon! See ya round, Jake.

[Agape]

Thanks for hearing the call .......from Stars that is....;)

Tommy ( he was/is member here as well, both Bill & Kerrys friend ) is running the Lightwarrior project but he's also webmasters on Project Camelot forum.

He's absolutely overloaded and Kerry is searching for multi skilled individuals to help with the web and media productions and what do I know ..

I don't know if it's something you'd like to do but have a look at it ..PC is sister forum to this in good standing.

And they seem to be down now, maybe one reason why they need more Jendyi.


Love to you :pray:

[Darla Ken Pearce]

Wow! I love this thread! It contains so much enlightened thinking. BTW, all debts are forgiven under Nesara which is upon us now but not out in public as yet. We will get back every cent paid to bogus corporations like IRS ~ new info was just posted on Nesara International who is following the decline and burial of the American Dollar and rising up of a new financial system that waits in the wings. If you have no money, you're in good company, never fear, it will all be revealed soon.

Here is a start to check out later: http://government.insights2.org/

The main change with the new system is that spiritual light has a tremendous value unknown, unrecognized to date but coming forth in the New Age of Enlightenment! Yes, yes, yes!

Having just experienced part of the transition of the old system with the loss of my beloved Dad, or rather regaining his spiritual company instead of being so many miles apart, I did noticed some real changes within my own self. Negative hurts, wounds, chaos came forth with great amplification causing some real short lived but quite excruciating pain that was then easy to identify and toss into the open grave to be reborn as a flower instead of negativities I've carried around for many, many decades if not longer.

One of my daughters in Utah, cut my hair which has been long most of my life and both physically, and symbolically I was relieved of much darkness. It only takes small atttitude adjustments and you'd be so surprised at how much you can change and with these little things comes radical Earth changes in our own perceptions which is what our Divine Plans contain, after all is said and done. As we gain more courage and are able to go forth making room for more and more light within our own hearts, the world, surprisingly and like magic, becomes the very most wonderful, friendly, adoring place in which we can find and build our own sanctuary.

I am so happy and cheered even by what may appear to be dark, death, events and can now see what the next moment may hold. I'd like to mention that as a hermit, no public speaking was ever in my self conscious agenda, however, all that just changed, when I spoke at my Dad's funeral along with all my siblings. They have spoken for years and years and are all (LDS) Mormons who do this all the time. Not me. I am a forest dweller who was forced by circumstance outward and back with a small toe into 3D reality.

Yet everyone came up to thank me for my talk! Wow. A most empowering experience to go along with all the rest. Be blessed each of you, as we enter into a new Golden Age of enlightenment and great wonder! You won't believe all the joy that lies ahead of you this day, this moment in time, and all within your own hearts but with this difference ~ we are enabled to extend our heartlight outwardly in concentric circles of light and love that flows over all the Earth and all beings who dwell within and without her open boundaries and it flows back to us with no time delays!

Please keep this thought in mind for rainy days, eh? Love you! xoxoxoxox

[ulli]

i am not afraid of money... i simply prefer to be rewarded in other ways... i do accept money when it is given though.. people just don't give it to me... and i will never work for money again in the form of a job or other business endeavor.. and to charge huge amounts so people can accept what i have to share more easily is a ludicrous concept to me and it amazes me how many spiritual "teachers", mediums and coaches ask such high amounts... and how many people are willing to pay these amounts...
it's silly... imho
i believe we are reaching the end of the age of money... by letting go of money now, i can hold a space for others to do the same...
it's hard sometimes but it's something i feel i have to do..


I've been thinking about this...
My last overdraft agreement was in 1982, since then no more debt to the banks....
My last current account in 1992
Been dropping out of the system gradually...keeping a small stash of Euros for a rainy day

The only person (stranger) who gave me money was the German actor Klaus Kinsky...
I was working as an extra on a movie he was starring in, back in 1968,
this was on the set in London, Kinsky was mad at the producer and came over to me
and asked me how much they were paying me for the day, I told him
$10, which for me was a fortune back then, he expressed shock at how DARED they pay us so little...

then he put his hand in his pocket and gave me 25 pounds in cash,
which I promptly split with my friend Sandy Daley who had just broken up with
singer Leonard Cohen and trying to come to terms with a poverty hippie life style.

So Kinsky is getting this big thank you long after his death from little ulli who remembers his generosity
on the Avalon forum, thus engraving his deed on stone tablets for all eternity....

[ulli]

hey Darla...I just noticed we both talked here of rainy days...synchronicity,
so I'm paying attention

even though it's bright and sunny here today in my rain forest paradise...

I read your post AFTER I posted mine...

[Darla Ken Pearce]

@Ulli ~ yes, this being in synch is part of the great excitement, we are able to speak heart to heart without boundaries, limitations, nor cares. We have become free, truly free and have earned wings to fly. Truly all is well, all is well, all is well. We go forth and our energy and currency which never was valued in 3D ~ NOW ~ has great value, we are valued, we are the meek who have inherited the Earth. Just how GRAND is that and at long last ; ) Yes, yes, yes! Go forth and shine your light!
Step into your own powers which are so close at hand ~ come forward now in your own mind and then it manifests! xoxoxox

[Shezbeth]

I am intrigued by this thread. Allow me to pose this quandry.

I have been working, in the limited capacity in which I can, to alert people to the many facets of the PTB, Disinformation, False-flags/Problem-Reaction-Solution, Socio-Economic/Political/Corporate corruption, TRUE health and nutrition,... the list goes on. I have increasingly made videos, essays/articles, and other media available to a multitude of people in my surroundings who would otherwise be unexposed to such material.

At best, I have become something of a curiosity for people, and for others I have become a source of derision - someone to be laughed at, mocked, disdained, and scorned.

I have tried a spectrum, anywhere from subtle to overt and direct methods to allow individuals to become aware of the manifold forms of social degradation that is perpetual and ever-present.

I have found almost universally that people (both as individuals and groups) do not want to be aware unless they already want to be aware. They don't want to know anything in the direction of truth unless they already want to know. They're unwilling to seek unless they're already willing to seek.

In short, I find that my efforts are wasted except on those who are already making an effort.

This, combined with the adversities I have experienced from those who won't has begun to foster a growing level of disdain. I don't want to see myself as different as others, I don't want to polarize or dualize or anything like that, yet I can't help but observe the same.

Many weeks ago Chicodoodoo posted a theoretical situation where one person's house is on fire, and another storms in to wake them from their sleep to help them get to safety.

Carrying that metaphor, all I find are people who are pissed that I'm trying to wake them. Do I let them sleep? Do I leave them to their own affairs?

This I would do, except I theorize that those who are asleep will be used to eliminate the 'threat' of those who are awake in whatever tribulations may or may not be coming.

And make no mistake! I can fully understand why people choose to stay asleep (whether the decision is conscious or not). The gratifications are innumerable to one who continues to 'buy in', or 'play along', or 'follow the herd' etc.

<sigh>

Despite the fact that I am not affiliated with any groups or individuals who are violent or revolutionary (except intellectually), despite the fact that I have never been in the business of hurting anyone, despite the fact that I have only sought to raise questions and present ideas I find an increasing number of adversaries and adversities. The FBI has already visited my home because of "potentially dangerous" comments I had made in conversation with a police officer. Apparently they don't appreciate a knowledge of constitutional rights, or the mere suggestion of individual soveriegnty.

So, having said as much (which was in it's self cathartic) what say you?

[pilotsimone]

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[transitionalman]

Hi Jendayi,

I'm glad you decided to stay. Hopefully you can be of assistance to me. Everyone tells me that I'm too serious. I hate that. I need to lighten up, but I don't know how.

[Jendayi]

Hi Jendayi,

I'm glad you decided to stay. Hopefully you can be of assistance to me. Everyone tells me that I'm too serious. I hate that. I need to lighten up, but I don't know how.

Hi TM!
the one thing that helps me lighten up every single time is the realisation that all is an illusion anyway... so many teachers before us have tried to make us aware of "Maya", "Illusion", the "virtual" nature of reality.. so what it boils down to in 21st century terms is that we are living in a "virtual reality" or computer simulation or even "video game" if you will..
heck, i love playing (video) games... this always helps me lighten up... here are some quotes to help you lighten up ;-)

- Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one. ~Albert Einstein
- Are you really sure that a floor can't also be a ceiling? ~M.C. Escher
- There is an objective reality out there, but we view it through the spectacles of our beliefs, attitudes, and values. ~David G. Myers, Social Psychology
- Objectivity has about as much substance as the emperor's new clothes. ~Connie Miller
- What is reality anyway! It's nothing but a collective hunch. ~Jane Wagner
- Reality leaves a lot to the imagination. ~John Lennon
- What we call reality is an agreement that people have arrived at to make life more livable. ~Louise Nevelson
- Reality is not always probable, or likely. ~Jorge Luis Borges
- Reality is too much to take in heapfuls, but sprinkle it sparingly upon life's path and most can tread it lightly. ~Astrid Alauda
- There is a fine line between dreams and reality, it's up to you to draw it. ~B. Quilliam
- Only those who attempt the absurd will achieve the impossible. I think it's in my basement... let me go upstairs and check. ~M.C. Escher
- Anyone who can handle a needle convincingly can make us see a thread which is not there. ~E.H. Gombrich, Art and Illusion, 1960
- Everything you can imagine is real. ~Pablo Picasso
- Fiction reveals truths that reality obscures. ~Jessamyn West

As I was sitting in my chair,
I knew the bottom wasn't there,
Nor legs nor back, but I just sat,
Ignoring little things like that.
~Hughes Mearns

p.s. feel free to pm me or respond on this thread if not satisfied with my answer.. :p
namaste!

[Woody]

Hi Jendayi, I have a problem which has troubled me since my early teens, I find it difficult communicating with people, I do not feel connected to humanity, I look at my brother and sisters and feel that we are not related at all, I feel that I belong to something else, but don't know what. In my profession I nurse the sick, this I love doing and feel this is my purpose in this life, I wish I could find what it is I belong to.
Kind regards colin

[Jendayi]

Hi Jendayi, I have a problem which has troubled me since my early teens, I find it difficult communicating with people, I do not feel connected to humanity, I look at my brother and sisters and feel that we are not related at all, I feel that I belong to something else, but don't know what. In my profession I nurse the sick, this I love doing and feel this is my purpose in this life, I wish I could find what it is I belong to.
Kind regards colin
Hi Colin.. wow, i can really relate to what you are saying... i hardly feel a connection with my "blood relatives".. however i have started to form a new family.. a soul family...
one thing though.. you don't belong to anything... you are who you are.. in the olden days there were many "hermits" people who lived alone, had no relatives, but would always help out a stranger who crossed their paths.. they are like signposts along a country road.. vaguely pointing you in the right direction, leaving a bit for you to discover yourself..
my path is a lonely one indeed.. although i have many beautiful encounters with many wonderful people, afterwards i always have to let go again..
some of us just have these paths where we are alone a lot and that's actually a good thing, for what we do is understood by so few people.. we need a certain distance and to protect ourselves from negative influences, mainly skeptical people...
You say that you nurse the sick... well, that's one of the most powerful things any of us can do at this time.. you relief suffering... a noble task indeed..
keep doing what you love... all will become clear in the right time... here's a suggestion... find a way to invoke a more conscious awareness of why you are here.. ask aloud for it regularly..
find a shaman who can guide you through a vision quest or maybe some regression therapy...
i am aware of who i am because of visiting shamans, communing with sacred plants and doing regressions.. now, this does not imply it works for you, but if you feel any response to what i am saying, then please, examine these options and find out if they are right for you..
it could also be that you are one of a kind here, and that there are "no others", i know i feel like that sometimes... i have accepted it.. and live a happier life because of it.. like a lone ranger i travel the dessert, searching for oases of freedom and love... every once in a while i find such an oasis, replenish myself, sit at the fire and sing with those living at the oasis... we exchange information, teachings and experience and after a short while, i'll be on my way...
you say you wish to find what you belong to.. i say that you already know.. you just need to become aware of it.. it's all already within you... what helps me is to stand in front of a mirror and gaze into my own eyes for minutes... after a while my face starts to "morph" and past or future lives are shown to me, presenting me with new insights about who i am every time!
also looking into the eyes of another i feel kinship with release huge amounts of information regarding a shared connection or experience that is hidden within the depths of our subconscious..
I hope this helps you Colin.. i will share any other insights i might have at a later time.....

p.s. here's one now... what if you speak a "language" that is not known by the masses yet?
like an englishman in france for the first time... things will get lost in translation...
be patiient, more and more will start to understand what you are trying to tell them...

[Woody]

Thank you Jendayi for your wise words, I appreciate your thoughts and input greatly.
Kind regards colin

[Darla Ken Pearce]

Wow! So profoundly and perfectly expressed! I adore you, I adore you, I adore you! Much love and so much clarity ; ) xoxoxoxox

[luciole]

Jendayi, this is what a this forum is about. OK there are stories behind the scenes ,rumors, hidden agendas and what not,
but when I read threads like yours, I have a big big sigh of relief!

Yes, THIS is what we are here for! We are here to grow, to learn, to exchange. And help others too!
It's a place were we can say things that we just can't say when we go to our local grocery store (let alone our work place, and for some our own friends!) and start chating about Haarp, repitilians, and then debate about practical steps for enlightenment, can we?

This inspiring thread, that got a little lost in threadland, started by our own Lord Sidious of nugget land, is worth going to:

http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?18263-Do-something-for-your-brothers-and-sisters&p=196195#post196195

Yes, Jendayi, you are very inspiring, and , I couldn't find a better way to say than Darla :


Wow! So profoundly and perfectly expressed! I adore you, I adore you, I adore you! Much love and so much clarity ; ) xoxoxoxox

As for me, my writting is not yet fully expressing my thoughts, because I am lost in translation (my brain thinks in french)lol!!!!

But It doesn't stop me from sending you some inspiration to continue what you are doing!

:bounce:

[Jendayi]

you are all so very kind.. it warms my heart..
luciole, thank you for pointing out Lord sidious wonderful thread!

[Calz]

Wow! So profoundly and perfectly expressed! I adore you, I adore you, I adore you! Much love and so much clarity ; ) xoxoxoxox

Wow ... that is some serious adoration going on ... :kiss:

[Jendayi]

Shezbeth & Jendayi, hope you don't mind me commenting as well. :)


In short, I find that my efforts are wasted except on those who are already making an effort.

After many attempts using many methods, this has been my experience as well.


Do I let them sleep? Do I leave them to their own affairs?I don't see a choice when all methods have proven ineffective.

I found it much more effective to LIVE the way of an awakened person. Tell them about the demons you have faced in yourself. Tell them how much you’ve learned from your adversaries. Tell them how good it feels to take responsibility for every single thing in your life. Be willing to expose yourself and be vulnerable. That’s when you make a connection and that’s when people ‘hear’ you.

I think it's also important to acknowledge that many are overwhelmed and need the information to come in slower. During my (early) awakening process there were some realizations I couldn't accept for a long while. Mind Control programs (specifically those targeting children) were like this for me. I became physically ill during research, so I had back off for a while. Probably due to an incident of sexual abuse (among other things).


And make no mistake! I can fully understand why people choose to stay asleep (whether the decision is conscious or not). The gratifications are innumerable to one who continues to 'buy in', or 'play along', or 'follow the herd' etc.In my experience, FEAR is the main reason my friends/family are not waking up. They are terrified (from years of worry) to move any direction. The last thing they want to hear is that a ‘global elite’ running the world views them as completely expendable...not even human. It's too much. I had almost 5 years to come to that conclusion naturally, so I can't expect them to swallow it in one sitting.


This I would do, except I theorize that those who are asleep will be used to eliminate the 'threat' of those who are awake in whatever tribulations may or may not be coming.I agree with you here. I can see the unawakened as potentially dangerous to me and others. I’ve become so sensitive to the underlying hostility, I found myself cutting out the majority of people I used to call family/friends. It almost felt like it wasn't a choice. Like most, I waited until it was no longer tolerable.

We are moving cross country next week and I don't expect to maintain contact with anyone from my old life (old paradigm), save a few. Sometimes the answer is letting it all go and moving toward the life you want.

as the example of the burning house goes... you might "see" their house burning where, for them it is actually not burning at all.. remember, you are seeing things from YOUR point of view... and this can cloud our judgment big time... just wait outside with a bucket of water at the ready..
Simone has answered the rest of your experience as i would... to add anything else would be foolish on my part..
my sentiments exactly...
namaste and thank you for sharing!!!
p.s. try to adopt a chameleon attitude.. it helps!!!

[Calz]

as the example of the burning house goes... you might "see" their house burning where, for them it is actually not burning at all.. remember, you are seeing things from YOUR point of view... and this can cloud our judgment big time... just wait outside with a bucket of water at the ready..
Simone has answered the rest of your experience as i would... to add anything else would be foolish on my part..
my sentiments exactly...
namaste and thank you for sharing!!!
p.s. try to adopt a chameleon attitude.. it helps!!!

... and we are all here at different "stages of evolution" to learn different "lessons".

what is good for the goose may not necessarily be good for the gander?

[Jendayi]

as the example of the burning house goes... you might "see" their house burning where, for them it is actually not burning at all.. remember, you are seeing things from YOUR point of view... and this can cloud our judgment big time... just wait outside with a bucket of water at the ready..
Simone has answered the rest of your experience as i would... to add anything else would be foolish on my part..
my sentiments exactly...
namaste and thank you for sharing!!!
p.s. try to adopt a chameleon attitude.. it helps!!!

... and we are all here at different "stages of evolution" to learn different "lessons".

what is good for the goose may not necessarily be good for the gander?
exactly!!!!
and to quote an all time favorite actor of mine called Jacky Chan: "one man's elixir is another man's poison" (dunno if he is the originator, but i got it from him)
thanx!