I've lost my twin flame

[New Dawn]

I'm sorry if this is in the wrong forum section.

Today for me has been one of the toughest days of my life. I'm a very shy person, so believe it or not, even when I post in forums I find it hard to press 'submit' but I don't have a choice this time.

It might sound like a silly subject when there's so much going on in the world, but here goes:

The girl (there's always a girl isn't there!) I've thought of as my twin flame (a term she taught me to describe our relationship), and I, have parted ways in every sense. We've been disagreeing and arguing for months - its not all her fault, I've had my moments and been stupid, but I always try to remember who I want to be in order to not repeat past mistakes, and I thought she did too.

Today, she took things too far, and I've lost my trust and respect for her. I don't know who she is, and the last things we said to each other were far from friendly.

She's gone now, I know we're never even going to talk again which breaks my heart, but I'm the kind of guy that's going to get up and just carry on, and will probably never admit to anyone I actually know how devastated I really am inside.

It turns out my brother andGgrandad both have cancer - I only found out about my brother today, and I have no-one to talk to about it.

I don't really know what to expect by posting this, but I guess I figure if I can't even share something I need to get out, maybe I'm missing the point of Avalon eh.

I really love all my Avalon Brothers and Sisters, and I'm glad I have this place. Please be with me in spirit, I need to find the strength to get up and carry on.

ND

[Dorok]

I'm sorry if this is in the wrong forum section.

Today for me has been one of the toughest days of my life. I'm a very shy person, so believe it or not, even when I post in forums I find it hard to press 'submit' but I don't have a choice this time.

It might sound like a silly subject when there's so much going on in the world, but here goes:

The girl (there's always a girl isn't there!) I've thought of as my twin flame (a term she taught me to describe our relationship), and I, have parted ways in every sense. We've been disagreeing and arguing for months - its not all her fault, I've had my moments and been stupid, but I always try to remember who I want to be in order to not repeat past mistakes, and I thought she did too.

Today, she took things too far, and I've lost my trust and respect for her. I don't know who she is, and the last things we said to each other were far from friendly.

She's gone now, I know we're never even going to talk again which breaks my heart, but I'm the kind of guy that's going to get up and just carry on, and will probably never admit to anyone I actually know how devastated I really am inside.

It turns out my brother andGgrandad both have cancer - I only found out about my brother today, and I have no-one to talk to about it.

I don't really know what to expect by posting this, but I guess I figure if I can't even share something I need to get out, maybe I'm missing the point of Avalon eh.

I really love all my Avalon Brothers and Sisters, and I'm glad I have this place. Please be with me in spirit, I need to find the strength to get up and carry on.

ND

ND,

Please be easy on yourself and her!! It's obvious to me that something was well & truly recognized as a connection between you two in the past; THAT HASN'T CHANGED. What has changed is the filters through which you are both seeing events at this time, AND THAT WILL CHANGE AGAIN. Pain is likely on both sides of this equation, and it's difficult to deal with. Sometimes, to push pain away, we do things to hurt the 'messenger'.

Be patient with your relationship with her. Heal yourself and focus on your family that needs you. Your connection will revive!! I promise!!

Love,
Derek

[Woody]

Hi new Dawn, maybe you and your twin flame need a short break at this time, and that in time will be drawn back together once more. I'm sorry to hear of the illnesses to your brother and grandfather, sometimes it really does seem that everything that could go wrong does. Please remember you are not alone.
Take care from Colin

[sshenry]

Hello New Dawn,

I wish that there was something that I could say that would heal your pain, for you are in pain - that much is very clear. Suffice it to say that my thoughts are with you, and I'm sending you healing energy. Let your heart soak in it, it will help, but it has to be you that uses it for its intended purpose.

I will say this much, the twin flame relationship goes much deeper than a physical relationship and/or romance. It also goes deeper than traditional forms of communication. If this truly was a twin flame relationship (and not a karmic relationship, which can be intense enough to be mistaken for a twin flame relationship) then there is no way to be disconnected from her, for there is no way that one can ever be truly disconnected from their twin flame. If you can feel her in your heart (not your memory of her, but her actual pressence) then there is still hope. If not, then it is possible that this was a case of mistaken identity.

Either way, it won't be easy, but know that you are never truly alone :)

[ulli]

Dump your sorrows right here...you will feel much lighter,....hopefully discover you have more friends than you ever dreamt of.
Avalon can be a source of strength and healing....many people here have suffered and become compassionate as a result

The only thing I would like to say is about is the belief in the idea of twin flame....

Relationships are more about You than the other person, they just give you the tools needed for self discovery..
This is hard to believe but maybe one day you will see this clearly....
And there are many flames all over the cosmos...
If you can believe that then there will be less intensity which in turn will mean there is a better chance of the flame not burning out too quickly....
Live loved, ulli

[The One]

When you think no one cares, Remember we will always care,When your world turns upside down,Remember we are always here to turn right side up.When you have a problem you don't wanna tell any one,Remember we are always here if you need to talk about it.

I feel your pain New Dawn

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[Lord Sidious]

I'm sorry if this is in the wrong forum section.

Today for me has been one of the toughest days of my life. I'm a very shy person, so believe it or not, even when I post in forums I find it hard to press 'submit' but I don't have a choice this time.

It might sound like a silly subject when there's so much going on in the world, but here goes:

The girl (there's always a girl isn't there!) I've thought of as my twin flame (a term she taught me to describe our relationship), and I, have parted ways in every sense. We've been disagreeing and arguing for months - its not all her fault, I've had my moments and been stupid, but I always try to remember who I want to be in order to not repeat past mistakes, and I thought she did too.

Today, she took things too far, and I've lost my trust and respect for her. I don't know who she is, and the last things we said to each other were far from friendly.

She's gone now, I know we're never even going to talk again which breaks my heart, but I'm the kind of guy that's going to get up and just carry on, and will probably never admit to anyone I actually know how devastated I really am inside.

It turns out my brother andGgrandad both have cancer - I only found out about my brother today, and I have no-one to talk to about it.

I don't really know what to expect by posting this, but I guess I figure if I can't even share something I need to get out, maybe I'm missing the point of Avalon eh.

I really love all my Avalon Brothers and Sisters, and I'm glad I have this place. Please be with me in spirit, I need to find the strength to get up and carry on.

ND

Sorry to hear that man.
Is there a chance that you can forgive her and move on or is this too big?

[EsmaEverheart]

I am so sorry that you are going through this difficult time, New Dawn. Sending much love and light your way.

[conk]

This forum is as good a way as any to get it out of your system. You simply cannot keep it inside or it will harm you. Use any release technique to rid yourself of these negative feelings and move on.

Blessings and love to you!

Conk

[linz2d]

Maybe it was time to go your separate ways but like Colin woodward says spending time away from each might be a good thing. A bit of time always puts things into perspective. And you never know what the future holds. What I would suggest though is that you contact her, even if with a text message and say to her that you did not really want to end it in such a way. If its going to end, end it properly, if she will not reply then at least you know that you tried. Sorry to hear about your brother.

[Flasky]

STOP!

I am reaching out to you with my arms open wide.

It's kind of astonishing but believe me, I went through what you did a few month back with my exboyfriend too.

Similar scenario of breaking up....The only difference (and extra bit, I guess) was that my mother was battling cancer way before we started going out and she still is till today - even me and 'D' have parted ways.

And the other similarity to your episode is that (because it got so ugly between us there was no more communication at all) he then called me in tears about the discovery of his father having cancer and his mother having complications with her liver due to drinking problems...

SO I TOTALLY GET YOU!

I don't care about who was wrong or who is the bad person - it doesn't matter. There is no real 'bad' person. But feelings do get hurt and they are easy to hurt - and once those feelings are hurt by the people we love - it creates a RAGE within us because that hurt well, hurts so bad. And us, as the human people we are...It is hard for us to contain the power of that rage, and the transformation it does to us.

I just want you to ponder these next lines...Does that make you a bad person? Does that make you evil? No. So please look in your heart for the way of forgiveness, sympathy and understanding. How can you hold to grudges when you just got showed in the same day how LIFE is so fragile?

It is a very hard lesson to learn - I don't take it lightly. And I don't expect you to flip your mind around it overnight. It took me - its still taking me 2 years and counting, but each day it becomes a bit more achievable, more liberating.

To forgive others. And forgive myself.

Because you will also have to come to terms with forgiving yourself before you can forgive others - that is recognizing the nature of your mistakes through the other person's eyes and coming to a honest consciousness about their hurt. So many times this complicated conclusion is always on the basis of a failure in communication.

Relationships are like bridges. If one of the support cable snaps the pressure will get to the other cables and eventually, the negative force will collapse the whole structure.

It doesn't excuse or justify the other person's attack any less, but I just wanted to underline that it takes two. It always takes two, to make or break.

By saying all this to you, what do I mean?

I might be wrong - but perhaps somewhere in your heart you wish to contact your twin flame and tell her about this horrible thing you 'came home to' in your family. But feel you can't - because now you have mistrust in her but also because of the dark feelings she has now for you.

If that is was you are contradicting upon - therefore your post - please call her.

This could be your wake up call.

In comparison to your situation my role was reversed. I was the one my ex called. And would I have done the same in his shoes? Your, shoes. Yes.

(I did reach out to him with love despite everything- but we did not end back together although he wanted too. But this does not mean your situation will end the same.)

If anything, the result of you reaching out to her for support will show you a great deal of what the "bond" you guys shared was really all about. Put things so much more in prospective. And if under it all there is still the desire and the courage to mend slowly - it is the perfect (if not shaky) starting point.

Said that I don't know the full mechanics and horrors of your breakup and perhaps for you it has gone too far and its too intense still to make yourself so vulnerable to her again.

But really...how many times have you been vulnerable with each other already? Countless of times when love is involved! Right?

All my big words aside....And my dead honesty - more of it I mean...It's going be freaking hard. Really, really is. And you are going to need all the support you can get - you many not know it or choose to see it yet, and that is ok. But you will need support.

So please don't take my advice as the right or wrong answer but as a little piece of a much bigger puzzle that HOPEFULLY is going to help you make a decision. But you must make that decision very soon.

I chose to open my arms to you because in a way, I know what you are going to go through. And in my heart I hope that what I have said will help you in someway - anyway.

Lastly, I just wanted to assure you in the most gentlest way that she might be what you call your twin soul, but she is not the only one out there for you. You will find her again. Who ever else she may be.

...I thought D was my twin flame too. And perhaps he was, but I chose not to get back with him even if I still felt for him. If it doesn't feel right, it doesn't feel right.

Ok. Last thing. Promise!

Never, never give up.

:o

[Inelia]

Sending love and light to you in this difficult time.

hugs

[buffski]

for you New Dawn...that's an interesting name hey? :) xxx


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[nomadguy]

I went through this - so I know how you might be feeling.
All I can say is this, the love you shared was worth it.
Nothing can take that away, that love built you. Your character is stronger from it.
And you will find a new flame in some form because of this experience.
Rest assured ~ at least a little bit, that the two of you had done what you could together,
and like many other prob stayed together to long as I did.
Dont kick yourself. Nothing matters except the love that was felt ~ more is always around the corner waiting for you. Maybe you can rediscover parts of yourself and come out better, stronger and clearer. And it is at that point in realization that the new flame finds you.
Carry on

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nP0VBB7BO64

[Nyce555]

Sorry to hear about your family members battling cancer. That is not easy to deal with. Be strong and spend time with them. It will help you heal the hurt of your break up and appreciate the small things. Relationships are hard work. I believe it will work out for you either way. Maybe the relationship ended, because it was time. Maybe it's life's way of making way for someone new in your future that may be better suited for you. But the heart ache and getting over that is always tough. So hang in there my friend. Stay strong for your family. I am sending you love and light from Virginia!

[Nanoo Nanoo]

Hello New Dawn

Thank you for having the courage to reach out. What you have done is create a resource for people who dont have the courage to come forward and learn from the answers given.

Let the girl go , take time to reflect and stand in your courage to admit your faults , explore then fully. Thats all you have to do .. At some stage when the dust settles write her a letter making peace. Write it from the heart and make it simple that you just want to have peace and that you are sorry, dont go into explanations or finger pointing just a simple apology and just to make peace, it will do her wonders. Maybe one day you both can talk , and you want to have the things you did wrong sorted. When she sees this she will know.

Now whats happening with your brother ? has he started treatment ?

N

[MariaDine]

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[MariaDine]

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[craig mitchell]

You've recieved a double handful of kindness here on the Forum, and the trick is to forgive yourself and fold all the pain and frustration within that forgiveness, and allow it to heal, rather than to contract down around the pain not allowing it the movement that it longs to make

When you accomplish that, teach me how brother

Regards, Craig Mitchell

[trenairio]

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[westhill]

Hey New Dawn, hang in there. It took real courage to hit submit. You have more strength than you know. Also labeling a relationship using "twin flame" does not make it so. It appears that things weren't right for a while. Trust yourself. I'm sorry to hear about your brother and grand dad. Open your heart. Tell them you love them, that's the best medicine.
Bye for now... westhill

[TWINCANS]

If she was your Twin Flame,

You both just broke up with yourself(ves).

Your arguments are parts of you that you cannot integrate, make peace with, let go of, and just love.

Your differences are gifts to each other.

You can never be apart, just at a distance for a while.

[MorgaineFallen]

I'm sorry if this is in the wrong forum section.

Today for me has been one of the toughest days of my life. I'm a very shy person, so believe it or not, even when I post in forums I find it hard to press 'submit' but I don't have a choice this time.

It might sound like a silly subject when there's so much going on in the world, but here goes:

The girl (there's always a girl isn't there!) I've thought of as my twin flame (a term she taught me to describe our relationship), and I, have parted ways in every sense. We've been disagreeing and arguing for months - its not all her fault, I've had my moments and been stupid, but I always try to remember who I want to be in order to not repeat past mistakes, and I thought she did too.

Today, she took things too far, and I've lost my trust and respect for her. I don't know who she is, and the last things we said to each other were far from friendly.

She's gone now, I know we're never even going to talk again which breaks my heart, but I'm the kind of guy that's going to get up and just carry on, and will probably never admit to anyone I actually know how devastated I really am inside.

It turns out my brother andGgrandad both have cancer - I only found out about my brother today, and I have no-one to talk to about it.

I don't really know what to expect by posting this, but I guess I figure if I can't even share something I need to get out, maybe I'm missing the point of Avalon eh.

I really love all my Avalon Brothers and Sisters, and I'm glad I have this place. Please be with me in spirit, I need to find the strength to get up and carry on.

ND

Warm thoughts and a BIG hug!!:hug:

[sepia]

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...and how I know how painful this is.

It seemed to me that everything was turned inside out and upside down - and still there is growth - still there is light.

Let me give you a big hug, Sepia

[Tony]

New Dawn, is your name!

pie'n'eal

[New Dawn]

Thanks to everyone who read what I had to say, and replied, it means a lot!

I left my house this morning at about 6 or 7 am, just been out looking at the sun and the trees and taking a walk in a few different parks etc - its been nice to get a chance to think, and you are all very sweet for helping me - thank you!

Unfortunately, I don't see us talking any time soon, even though I want us to be friends. We tried to talk again today (she called me at 2am), and it took about 5 minutes to get back to where we were :(

As much as it upsets me, I know that right now I need to focus on other things such as making sure my poor mum is ok with knowing that her dad and first son are both dying - I can't imagine what that would feel like from her perspective.

Thank you all again, this is the best forum on the net, and I love you all. I promise to add some positive posts in the future and less of these darker ones , but thank for letting me share!!

ND

[Flasky]

You are welcome. *pats on the back*

And yeah it was like that for me and D too...5 mins and it would go back to ROAAAAR between us, pretty much.

A few days ago I was having troubles sleeping, mind wouldn't stop think etc...Then I got up took a journal and wrote down, "A love lost for a new one to be found". I thought about it for a few moments a bit on shock as I wasn't even think that (even if my mind had stopped on the memory of D a few times) I was a bit surprised about how it just came out so spontaneously then I went back in bed. I had enough time to think that perhaps I had just been given a 'message' that I fell asleep. Peace! :P

Never, never give up!

[DoubleHelix]

Heartbreaking story there my friend! I'm sure Your days will become brighter in due time.

In regards to your brother and grandad having cancer - have you done much research on Jim Humble's MMS? I think there's a real potential for successful treatment of cancer.
I personally haven't taken the stuff myself but if I or someone I knew developed cancer that would be the first place I would look.

All the best

-DH

[New Dawn]

Heartbreaking story there my friend! I'm sure Your days will become brighter in due time.

In regards to your brother and grandad having cancer - have you done much research on Jim Humble's MMS? I think there's a real potential for successful treatment of cancer.
I personally haven't taken the stuff myself but if I or someone I knew developed cancer that would be the first place I would look.

All the best

-DH
Do you have links to the specific info please? Many thanks for your help!

And Flasky, you're lovely, thank you

ND xx

[Ria]

New Dawn, much love and support to you.
I am new here, and very impressed with all the love and kind messages.
Bless you all and a big hug to ND from Ria

[Black Panther]

Hey New Dawn,

I went through the same some years ago. And the good thing about it: I'm very happy now :).

My girlfriend cheated on me with a friend of mine. We had a relationship for 7 years and we were trying to have a baby. It worked out slightly different :(. I live with my parents now again. I was still sleeping that time, but I had a feeling the drama I was living through would wake me up, just what happened with my friend Eckhart Tolle ;). And I woke up. But not as fast as I hoped for. First my dad got bowel cancer and than my mother got breast cancer!! I knew they would survive, just like my ex girlfriend told me. They were threated with all the bad radiation, but they have survived and I'm very thankful for that.

When I talk with my ex about spiritual things or about what's happening in the world right now I can talk with her very easy, even though she isn't interested in reading all the information on the internet or watching all the movies I send her :).

I also read a Dutch article about choosing to be on your own this time to fully experience the Ascension. And that's what I experience. I live in a small village with everything I need. I'm growing my own vegetables now, bought a lot of books from David Icke, Marcel Messing, Drunvalo Melchizedek and many others. I'm going to record songs (John Lennon, Beatles) to share with others. I became a member of Avalon this year. 3D people think I'm selfish, because I'm spending many hours alone. The truth is I woke up and by transforming myself I hopefully can help other people.


In regards to your brother and grandad having cancer - have you done much research on Jim Humble's MMS? I think there's a real potential for successful treatment of cancer.
I personally haven't taken the stuff myself but if I or someone I knew developed cancer that would be the first place I would look.

I've bought MMS too, just in case someone will need it. Haven't tried it myself too, because it's pretty tough stuff. But I have a good feeling about it. Very important to inform yourself of course. But I know we talked about it somewhere on Avalon.

I've read a lot of posts in this thread and they are very important. A lot of thuth in them. I think it will be difficult to become friends again very soon, but if it's your twin flame you'll never lose her:
You can never be apart, just at a distance for a while.

Big hug from me too!

BP

[Snowbird]

I am hoping that as time passes, after the pain has ceased, that you and she will become wonderfully close friends. If it is meant to be, it will be.

I ask with intention for the highest good for you, your grand-dad and your brother.

Many blessings are coming your way!! :nod:

[Davidallany]

Can you hear the sound of silence, now? who is the listener?

[gripreaper]

I don't know how appropriate it is to tell a story of mine, but I'll tell it in hopes that you will benefit. I believe I have met my true twin flame in this lifetime as well. First, I define the twin flame as the aspect of ourselves which was part of the first separation from source, the first time your energy refracted into more parts. This twin flame has shared the galactic universal experience, as well as probably hundreds of lifetimes. Only the love of the twin flame is willing to agree to certain lifetimes and certain lessons, because some of those lessons are extremely painful.

When I met this woman, it was instantaneous recognition. We were joined at the hip for several years. The love we shared and the experiences we had were like none I've ever had before or since in this lifetime. Yet. just like you, an irritation, a perturbation amongst our energy began to emerge, and I did not understand it at the time. It was better for me to turn away than to cause even a single ounce of karma, hurt, or pain to this woman. It has been ten years since then. The first two years I could not stop weeping. The feeling of that separation was overwhelming, the emptiness, the hurt, the loss I felt. I've spent countless years with a spiritual healer working on all of the energy that has arisen as result of this relationship, and from this vantage point, what I now realize, is that our energy systems combined made one complete nervous system. What I mean, is her energy fully filled those places in myself where I was lacking and mine fulfilled hers. This is where the feeling of complete wholeness came from, but also the perturbations that caused the split. It's like magnets, when you turn them one way they slam together but when you turn them the other way, they repel. For us, it was either slammed together or totally repelled. There was no middle ground or compromise.

Several years of work, and revisiting many lifetimes we shared together, both the most joyful as well as the most painful, I began to open up to those energies which she brought to the relationship and restore them within myself. Much healing and much chakra clearing has occured in my energy field as a result.

What I also realized, is that we were energetically birthing a new relationship paradigm of total unity within, and closing the old relationship paradigm of completing each other. This evolution into a unified soul in a body, completely balanced, with all my chakras cleared and all of my own energy in balance both masculine and feminine, is the gift which has been developing out of that relationship.

And yes, the motivation comes from realizing that one day I will reunite with my twin flame, in the type of relationship where two whole beings join, just like we did when we first separated many eons ago. The return to wholeness. That energy is now happening in a lot of people as their relationships shift and they clear old karmic patterns with their soul families. It's all part of this awakening we are all going through here on planet earth.

Be at peace my friend, weep when you need to, release the hurt and anger when you need to. It takes as long as it takes, sometimes years. There is life after such an experience, and this too shall pass. Your in my thoughts.

[Lost Soul]

New Dawn - you can infotrm brother and your grandfather to those treatments. Whether they pursue it or not is up to them. Whatever course of action they take, there are several factors involved in whether a person heals or not. Part of it is for them to contact their inner self and ask for help from within. If it is within the will of the Creator, treatment (of whatever kind) will be successful.

Turning to your "twin flame," don't take the break-up too seriously and welcome to the club. Consider yourself lucky that you parted ways now as opposed to fifteen years of marriage with kids and then being hit with a divorce and a fight for custody of the children. Consider the experience as part of your character development and see what you can learn from it. Don't bear any grudges or ill will as it ultimately makes YOU sick, not her. If you're into reading, read Jon Peniel's book, The Children of the Law of One and The Lost Teachings of Atlantis. It's available on-line for free at scribed (or something like that). I recommend the entire book to give you a fresh perspective on life but if you don't have the time, then just read pages 308-310 as it will give you greater insight into the dynamics of male-female relationships.

Remember, no matter how down you feel, you still receive the unconditional love of the Creator and that's the best love and companionship anyone can get.

[DoubleHelix]

Heartbreaking story there my friend! I'm sure Your days will become brighter in due time.

In regards to your brother and grandad having cancer - have you done much research on Jim Humble's MMS? I think there's a real potential for successful treatment of cancer.
I personally haven't taken the stuff myself but if I or someone I knew developed cancer that would be the first place I would look.

All the best

-DH
Do you have links to the specific info please? Many thanks for your help!

And Flasky, you're lovely, thank you

ND xx

New Dawn, Firstly I would recommend watching Jim Humble's interviews with Camelot and Avalon.


http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=948284113233997302#


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zPgRrlqsTII

Secondly I would recommend scouring Jim's two main websites (as well as any others that are linked..) from top to bottom and reading the many, many witness testimonies.

http://www.jimhumble.biz/

http://www.jimhumble.com/

Furthermore there's a range of threads here on Avalon dedicated to the work of Jim Humble and MMS. - To list a couple

http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?937-Jim-Humble-update

http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?4462-Jim-Humble-and-MMS&p=40354&highlight=Jim+Humble#post40354

Hope this helps.

[New Dawn]

Just an update guys, seeing as those who replied helped me through the hardest day yet. Twin flame called me, and somehow we got back on friendly terms, which I am really happy about!

I'm am feeling a lot more positive, and ready what ever happens. I think its time to choose a new timeline ;)

If any of you need anything, feel free to message me anytime.

Lets make today a good one :)

ND

[Flasky]

Awesome! I am really happy for you. It's really good to hear a happy 'news', finally.

Treat with caution!

[New Dawn]

Awesome! I am really happy for you. It's really good to hear a happy 'news', finally.

Treat with caution!

Definitely, but now at least I can focus on the family stuff which is easier! Its just good to feel like we're allies again!

I've discovered that walking in parks helps a lot with the thinking stuff too! I passed on that Jim Humble info on to my mother as well. :)

[DoubleHelix]

Really glad to hear that New Dawn! If It's meant to be then It's meant to be.... sometimes it's that simple!

Good to hear you can talk to one another in a civilised manner, always helps the healing.

Keep us posted on your relatives too and maybe we can offer a hand where needed :)

[New Dawn]

Thanks mate!!

If Bill and Kerry could do it, then so can I with her! (only meaning that I'm glad they were able to remain friends and allies after the Camelot split, its quite inspiring to me)

[sshenry]

Awesome New Dawn, just keep your heart open :)

[jack]

Hey there new Dawn. Sorry to hear about your relationship breaking down.

About the Cancer. There is a surge of people succesfully using cannabis oil to cure themselves of this disease all around the world. I'm not sure if someone has mentioned this to you already, but I feel oblidged to inform you if you are as of this moment unaware.

P.S - Plenty more fish in the sea ;] Everyone on this planet is your soulmate, some of us get a little bit dirty and are hard to recognise, but there will always be the few out there who will clean themselves off so that you can see their true beauty shine.

[pharoah21]

With you in spirit brother. Last year at about this time I had broken up with my girlfriend, and decided there was no reason for me to live anymore. Then my spiritual journey began immediately after, and I'm a much better person now. You too will come to value this experience, like a pencil being sharpened, it is very painful, but you'll soon see the reason for it.

[Lost Soul]

New Dawn - Not to rain on your parade, but if a woman left once, she'll probably leave again. The motivation for the first split may still be there and the guy may just be the "back-up" plan.

Best to love the Creator first and foremost.

[Jendayi]

New dawn.. i really can relate to what you are feeling... you never loose your "twin flame"... you will however, part ways every once in a while... sometimes a lifetime..
treasure the beauty... let go of the drama.. i speak from experience.. having been united with my twin flame, we broke up.. re-united.. broke up again... re-united again.. and everytine she was the one who ended it.. and she was the one who kept coming back to me... i forgave her every time.. i still forgive her.. and i love her to bits... i just don't have to be with her anymore (at least in this lifetime) now i have let her go as a lover.. and we are becoming friends..

I am sorry to hear about your father and brother... i will send my prayers to them.. if you wish you can pm me a photo and i will do some long distance healing work if you (and they) wish of course.. oh.. and try to get your hands on some A grade hemp oil... does wonders with cancer..
I wish you and your loved ones all the best and that all involved in this hard but needed experience will emerge from it in the most splendid and victorious way possible..
my heart goes out to you..
:hug:
hang in there! it will get better..

[New Dawn]

New Dawn - Not to rain on your parade, but if a woman left once, she'll probably leave again. The motivation for the first split may still be there and the guy may just be the "back-up" plan.

Best to love the Creator first and foremost.

Hi, thanks for the comment! I see what you're saying, but as I am accepting my share of the blame for the way things went (she is too), by being able to discuss some of our flaws openly and recognise them, I feel maybe I've entered uncharted territory, and hopefully we'll continue to move onwards together in some form or other. No point in cutting each other out if we can fix our friendship, and I figure I owe it to what we've been through to try, before just giving up on it.

She's actually on her way over, so I'm going to assume this friendship is worth pursuing!

I feel this thread has served its purpose for me, and am confident that I will be able to help steer things towards the light from here.

Cheers all, your comments mean a lot, see you in the next topic :)

ND