Avocadess
24th June 2011, 15:40
There is someone I worked with for a while. I need to keep it confidential in regards to who this is so will speak in some generalizations here.
She is a "top" person of a very dynamic and good company doing great things for people. That much is CLEAR. She seemed to have a problem with me because she felt I was "too emotional." The company does great things and her part is in it with with a strong reserve (emotionally) which felt to me to be over-the-top "coldness" -- and controlling.
I have a long history of turning enemies into friends, and after a number of things happened I certainly felt she saw and treated me as an enemy (mostly, as far as I can tell, because I am not easily "controlled" and do what I think is right whether or not that is going to endear me to my "superiors.")
Anyhow, some time went by and I no longer work under her. I felt very confused. Could she be a sociopath, I wondered? (There were certainly strong indications to me that she did NOT understand some very BASIC human emotions.) Yet I did not feel comfortable (or sure) of that answer.
Then I had an amazing "dream." I was approaching her on some type of dais. I gave a small smile (to show her I bear no enmity or bitterness toward her -- my way of being reservedly friendly). As I walked past her, her eyes lit up like BLUE LIGHTS -- the light coming out of her eyes looking like beams as if from a flashlight. Otherwise she did not move.
Then I passed her and found myself laying down (naked) on my back on another dais.
That was the end of the dream. My interpretation of this dream is even more interesting to me than the dream itself:
Just as people of different cultures on Earth can feel at odds when dealing with one another due to cultural differences (including language, dress and ways of presenting, etc.) -- couldn't it be that many of us now in human bodies are from many different universes, galaxies and/or dimensions with our own feelings of oddness in "cultural" differences due to each of our past orientations?
It amuses me to think of myself as the (more emotional) Captain Kirk and she the (less emotional) Mr. Spock. Both of them are "good guys," but at times one looks at the other one and things they are totally "out of it"...! Yet as in Star Trek, Kirk and Spock learned to work together and accept one another as "brothers," this woman and I can do the same.
Anyone else ever have thoughts like this?
She is a "top" person of a very dynamic and good company doing great things for people. That much is CLEAR. She seemed to have a problem with me because she felt I was "too emotional." The company does great things and her part is in it with with a strong reserve (emotionally) which felt to me to be over-the-top "coldness" -- and controlling.
I have a long history of turning enemies into friends, and after a number of things happened I certainly felt she saw and treated me as an enemy (mostly, as far as I can tell, because I am not easily "controlled" and do what I think is right whether or not that is going to endear me to my "superiors.")
Anyhow, some time went by and I no longer work under her. I felt very confused. Could she be a sociopath, I wondered? (There were certainly strong indications to me that she did NOT understand some very BASIC human emotions.) Yet I did not feel comfortable (or sure) of that answer.
Then I had an amazing "dream." I was approaching her on some type of dais. I gave a small smile (to show her I bear no enmity or bitterness toward her -- my way of being reservedly friendly). As I walked past her, her eyes lit up like BLUE LIGHTS -- the light coming out of her eyes looking like beams as if from a flashlight. Otherwise she did not move.
Then I passed her and found myself laying down (naked) on my back on another dais.
That was the end of the dream. My interpretation of this dream is even more interesting to me than the dream itself:
Just as people of different cultures on Earth can feel at odds when dealing with one another due to cultural differences (including language, dress and ways of presenting, etc.) -- couldn't it be that many of us now in human bodies are from many different universes, galaxies and/or dimensions with our own feelings of oddness in "cultural" differences due to each of our past orientations?
It amuses me to think of myself as the (more emotional) Captain Kirk and she the (less emotional) Mr. Spock. Both of them are "good guys," but at times one looks at the other one and things they are totally "out of it"...! Yet as in Star Trek, Kirk and Spock learned to work together and accept one another as "brothers," this woman and I can do the same.
Anyone else ever have thoughts like this?