Here and Now...What's Happening?

[meeradas]

Best way to learn another language .... get a latin girlfriend ?

Had seventeen years of that, but to no avail.... and i mean absolutamente nada.

[ulli]

I learnt Spanish not from my Latino husband. He and I had met in Barbados, and we only communicated in English, and that had become a habit. Over the years we settled on Spanglish.
But I learnt most of my Spanish from my construction workers, most of whom were Nicaraguan immigrants. Wood=madera. Cement= cemento. Hammer= martillo. Nails= clavos. When hubby came home from work I could relax again, and slip back into English, which I was more comfortable with.

[ulli]

You Can Volunteer To Cuddle Drug-Addicted Babies To Help Them Heal

https://www.simplemost.com/volunteer-opportunities-cuddle-addicted-newborn-babies/?fbclid=IwAR0m6rNrlCvopH1fJiEagbfmBpKcc4gzZxP9zSSU9UgW-FWTA5Ia4acX1vE

[Rosemarie]

You Can Volunteer To Cuddle Drug-Addicted Babies To Help Them Heal

https://www.simplemost.com/volunteer-opportunities-cuddle-addicted-newborn-babies/?fbclid=IwAR0m6rNrlCvopH1fJiEagbfmBpKcc4gzZxP9zSSU9UgW-FWTA5Ia4acX1vE

Ulli, what a wonderful program. Will find out if there is one in my city. Thank you.

I just came from a unsuccessful MRI. I failed completely. I had never had one done , have seen the mri machines from afar , but just forgot about it until I was inside it and lasted less than 2 minutes. Tried to calm myself, pray, think of a Sound of Music scenery , etc etc to no avail. I was shouting to the technician to get me out of there. It is for a shoulder that has been bothering me for a couple of months. Tomorrow I have to return and they will sedate me. So embarrassed. I am not Claustrophobic. Or never was until today. Was telling the doctor I might prefer to live with that pain that go inside that machine again. :o:thumbsdown:

[ulli]

Discovering a weakness is a tough lesson.
I discovered that my fear of heights has increased a lot in recent years.
Part of the aging process is to not only face death as a reality, but get rid of the delusion of being strong.

And so slowly but surely our identity can start identifying more with our soul, and drop that physical survival instinct.

This cannot happen overnight.



You Can Volunteer To Cuddle Drug-Addicted Babies To Help Them Heal

https://www.simplemost.com/volunteer-opportunities-cuddle-addicted-newborn-babies/?fbclid=IwAR0m6rNrlCvopH1fJiEagbfmBpKcc4gzZxP9zSSU9UgW-FWTA5Ia4acX1vE

Ulli, what a wonderful program. Will find out if there is one in my city. Thank you.

I just came from a unsuccessful MRI. I failed completely. I had never had one done , have seen the mri machines from afar , but just forgot about it until I was inside it and lasted less than 2 minutes. Tried to calm myself, pray, think of a Sound of Music scenery , etc etc to no avail. I was shouting to the technician to get me out of there. It is for a shoulder that has been bothering me for a couple of months. Tomorrow I have to return and they will sedate me. So embarrassed. I am not Claustrophobic. Or never was until today. Was telling the doctor I might prefer to live with that pain that go inside that machine again. :o:thumbsdown:

[ulli]

https://scontent.fsyq1-1.fna.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/66438977_10158249492898273_7253412933525307392_n.jpg?_nc_cat=111&_nc_oc=AQkmcp-h1Ro1elav2oNIXXvDBcR5ORe6qfdL69T0-npz7v_esNp9PwdPbt_Nm2CcyOc&_nc_ht=scontent.fsyq1-1.fna&oh=e88d06a534daf9a21f91d2cc4fba5186&oe=5DC3175D

[Constance]

You Can Volunteer To Cuddle Drug-Addicted Babies To Help Them Heal

https://www.simplemost.com/volunteer-opportunities-cuddle-addicted-newborn-babies/?fbclid=IwAR0m6rNrlCvopH1fJiEagbfmBpKcc4gzZxP9zSSU9UgW-FWTA5Ia4acX1vE

Ulli, what a wonderful program. Will find out if there is one in my city. Thank you.

I just came from a unsuccessful MRI. I failed completely. I had never had one done , have seen the mri machines from afar , but just forgot about it until I was inside it and lasted less than 2 minutes. Tried to calm myself, pray, think of a Sound of Music scenery , etc etc to no avail. I was shouting to the technician to get me out of there. It is for a shoulder that has been bothering me for a couple of months. Tomorrow I have to return and they will sedate me. So embarrassed. I am not Claustrophobic. Or never was until today. Was telling the doctor I might prefer to live with that pain that go inside that machine again. :o:thumbsdown:

:hug: :hug: :hug:

[Strat]

Was telling the doctor I might prefer to live with that pain that go inside that machine again. :o:thumbsdown:

Who ordered the MRI? Chiropractor? Orthopedist?

[Rosemarie]

Was telling the doctor I might prefer to live with that pain that go inside that machine again. :o:thumbsdown:

Who ordered the MRI? Chiropractor? Orthopedist?

Orthopedic doctor/surgeon family friend.

[ulli]

New Orleans threatened by hurricane. I feel for everyone in its path. I hope our combined focus can smash its strength to minimise damage. We’ve done it before.
https://www.nola.com/news/weather/article_9d73aa4a-a325-11e9-ac0c-fff4b9853a95.html?fbclid=IwAR07e89P4pfJkG-I88KdaqcwQH0ca9T639LMvNHrzholh1EgA7tFcuCcFBA

[PurpleLama]

This is a tropical storm that formed over land. Now it is stalled out in the gulf gaining strength, waiting to be steered back over land. We have been watching the situation, and do not believe it to be a natural phemomena.

[Rosemarie]

Rolling Stones playing in Superdome in New Orleans on Sunday ! Wonder what will happen and it they would cancel. Lots of friends flying there.

[Gracy]

This is a tropical storm that formed over land. Now it is stalled out in the gulf gaining strength, waiting to be steered back over land. We have been watching the situation, and do not believe it to be a natural phemomena.

To be clear we're talking about a land based upper level low pressure system that once over water began the slow progress of transforming into a tropical system, correct?

Not that it is literally the first evr named storm that developed over land.
https://weather.com/amp/storms/hurricane/news/2019-07-11-origin-track-barry-long-trip-midwest-south-gulf-of-mexico.html

[Wind]

I added the hurricane to the list here (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?101306-Sunday-Weekly-Global-Meditation&p=1303573&viewfull=1#post1303573), there's a lot of "energy" in the air again, so to speak. You're all welcome to join our weekly sunday meditation, intentions sure are a powerful thing. After all, beliefs shape and create our everyday reality.

[Valerie Villars]

The Rolling Stones are rescheduled to play on Monday. All who were in town yesterday and did not have a planned, scheduled flight were advised to stay at their hotels and not leave town, as the airport was not going to accommodate campers waiting for a flight out.

I am about 60 miles north of New Orleans and we are on the east side of the hurricane. We're getting some pretty strong gusts and occasional rain. But, as far as I know, Hurricane Barry is just entering the coast of Louisiana around Morgan City, which is close to the Texas/Louisiana border.

At least it's cool instead of blazingly, mind numbingly hot and humid.

Added @ 9:42 a.m.

I just heard on the news that all flights at Louis Armstrong Airport are cancelled.

[Bluegreen]

I didn't know it was the Louis Armstrong Airport
But of course
What else could it be?

http://media.npr.org/assets/img/2011/08/04/recipe_custom-adb12654fcb4bd95d99fc1d987c6acf66d08eed1-s800-c85.jpg

[Valerie Villars]

It used to be New Orleans International Airport, but they changed it.

Everyone who is from here was raised on red beans and rice and can make it with their eyes closed. Served with hot french bread and butter.

It's part of the building blocks of my dna, along with tobasco sauce!

[ulli]

Sorry about the dark humor, but I needed some comic relief.

https://scontent.fsyq1-1.fna.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/66487042_1299755356840863_1390759605000208384_n.jpg?_nc_cat=1&_nc_eui2=AeG0-2CzERsnCfE_IPqDqnlRsx-tUEWv226pZJ2pIZaTLUY5yVuObu4WBSB7MGlWKps678Jws2G2Ig8iRsmvrqLi6J0qAu7iqFnAp0l3ofSI1A&_nc_oc=AQkcBITQnF9tzFFHhNyPK7wEkZd1WjVJfjr7QOV9HMF5_GtCmVgT1riSqwMpa9UMLQc&_nc_ht=scontent.fsyq1-1.fna&oh=fa4aca0bdbe0fb6a2fa5248e0477f46e&oe=5DB10F80

[Valerie Villars]

Ulli, ? How did you get a picture of me and my family on the Florida panhandle this year?

Speaking of water, the place most immediately in trouble is Plaquemines Parish, where the force of the water overtopping the levee is like nothing I've ever seen. Except the dam of the levee is made of dirt and not concrete and may give way. There are a lot of beautiful people and fishing down that way. Please send your best thoughts.

Two horses saved from a pasture by the overtopped levee. One pooped on the way out.

[ulli]

Nostalgic thoughts from the days when we all used to hang out. ONE LOVE!!!

https://scontent.fsyq1-1.fna.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/22777_1328549499747_1845329_n.jpg?_nc_cat=111&_nc_eui2=AeFOPBHGfBGNudONnORtMhd5AVx8yWliIonGm-Lzi-_bPID-PgHPuqEwhWLP9OeOkG4DwAklLL8FTVQxgankUKE0yYLNT6nzE1_pdNq34ajrMQ&_nc_oc=AQmvhLbPeuZdOBdRrgJD4DKHAHHZIvVRyzhdpJ03sMjAsszME9S5AS6TVrC-qG0aUyg&_nc_ht=scontent.fsyq1-1.fna&oh=0c66a5993b100a4f7354d5b90c27dc5f&oe=5DB4F5BD

[Rosemarie]

My city at sunset. :heart:

[ulli]

I relate to this, as I felt my hard work during my twenties needed a reward. Decided on early retirement at 29 and for a while I slipped into that mindset. Until I had a child. And now I feel it coming on again. The Peter Pan Forever - Young syndrome

https://www.tetongravity.com/story/culture/how-to-talk-with-your-family-about-peter-pan-syndrome?bwf_dp=t&bwf_entry_id=62463&bwf_token_id=16595&bwf_token=Xaen3Jg4lNiNimv3DgG9pxd0H&fbclid=IwAR2yyWB_d4onUWekahL_I87fRMkfvlG8hWoLEzEt20YA4UU64OxU0XK1q0A

[Carmody]

It used to be New Orleans International Airport, but they changed it.

Everyone who is from here was raised on red beans and rice and can make it with their eyes closed. Served with hot french bread and butter.

It's part of the building blocks of my dna, along with tobasco sauce!

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[ulli]

There’s always a bigger picture:

https://scontent.fsyq1-1.fna.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/66628934_2461090097286138_5160966765982777344_n.jpg?_nc_cat=111&_nc_eui2=AeF3yyT_e7zJdpLJb6x5PcFt2__L1j8JhVZEG-vz1yZbMwX5R0zDLN8CykObDBM18Pp10oUOX2d1tOH6GRQxYfSUMfXW-a6Mkz9DFmdfOWC0tg&_nc_oc=AQkTJu10bQFSm5a8N6IflqewZ32qss8fhByK7rdqYiQerigDDbnZTDEnGciiurq5qCs&_nc_ht=scontent.fsyq1-1.fna&oh=636ff38ec32cf8127e017fae7d26a5e4&oe=5DABD08D

[ulli]

The final narrative

https://scontent.fsyq1-1.fna.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/66608104_606072606584014_5689281037977255936_n.jpg?_nc_cat=105&_nc_oc=AQl9Mp83rf_08_Hmh77FmBB9Nto384X0n9ac979ASNXm9cbJ3auNFAdLlVhC8K6wvKw&_nc_ht=scontent.fsyq1-1.fna&oh=d559775afc1d1da72fa0b6213377d9d9&oe=5DB305D2

[Strat]

Nice to get emails like this in your inbox:

The client is satisfied because she was able to pay the school fees of her children and continues to improve her business. May HEKIMA and his partners live.

[Bluegreen]

http://i.imgflip.com/35f62k.jpg

Aarrrrrgh

[Melinda]

Hmmm. Anyone interested in methods of election-rigging may find this of interest.

Dr Robert Epstein is a Senior Research Psychologist at the American Institute for Behavioral Research and Technology, and Former editor-in-chief of Psychology Today, who received his Ph.D. in psychology from Harvard:

https://drrobertepstein.com/index.php/biography

Despite having himself supported Clinton in 2016, Epstein claims that research shows Google manipulated voters, helping sway millions of votes towards Clinton and the democrats in the 2016 and 2018 U.S. elections.

He cautions about Facebook’s power to do the same, and the power of big tech companies, saying that “to let big tech get away with subliminal manipulation on this scale would be to make the free and fair elections meaningless.”

Video Title : Top Scientist Reveals How Google and Facebook Are Going To Steal The 2020 Election
Video Published on 17 Jul 2019

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Epstein advocates immediate action to diminish Google’s power.

Personally I'm not keen on either of the main parties, in the U.S. or the UK, but that's beside the point.



...

In other news, here’s a revolution I reckon I could get with :biggrin: :

https://i.imgur.com/t0TsX1f.jpg

[ulli]

One can only remain an island if one avoids the thought that no man is an island.


https://scontent.fsyq1-1.fna.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/66847001_1922458997855740_3178041925185830912_n.jpg?_nc_cat=106&_nc_eui2=AeGvMqBG43DruGF4zXMuNiEvxaJGKubX8NxlJfewPtQGrPY_FtTFv-qBQ_iacUsrLP9cMWlOwPeXzz4igGJTmkC-cgN2ksFPIu1_WLwHTAxjow&_nc_oc=AQmAM6tjbrYvE4cRaZSW1NJ_vTiNqKLb2deW2HPlm8OsW59K_6fJmkQelagQ2dJLFao&_nc_ht=scontent.fsyq1-1.fna&oh=63a3be27ccb995fab8bb08c92f928a81&oe=5DB11F8A

[Valerie Villars]

Lulu, my head banging macaw, apparently likes "Under Pressure" by Bowie.

Pressure is how diamonds are made, right? :)

[ulli]

This is the real division.

https://scontent.fsyq1-1.fna.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/67282382_2346297768790165_6205184349134913536_n.jpg?_nc_cat=106&_nc_oc=AQlHn8pZsgLCVY18ruW4IzrtasHAFDjBBiIVstngXAC0kCxFtOGL2hP7Qm01pZc4sSk&_nc_ht=scontent.fsyq1-1.fna&oh=8746ab750a18a89db02121b4660d0634&oe=5DBB6E1D

[Rosemarie]

:peace: Don’t know where to put this, but it is relevant to some issues Avalon has deal with lately ?

[Carmody]

^Ulli's image is originally from 'Stranger Things', season 3.

[ulli]

https://scontent.fsyq1-1.fna.fbcdn.net/v/t1.0-9/65851707_2414290458782499_6799042686809538560_n.png?_nc_cat=102&_nc_oc=AQm6gEWnQEi7tbxbAcncQlujjLB3-2up43c30DeN8ZRtxGE0vdJNcB9-Bl4KdVP6nNg&_nc_ht=scontent.fsyq1-1.fna&oh=015d8f648449076d309542dcebbe3dbc&oe=5DB4F61B

An integrated person is a person of integrity.

That type of uniqueness has nothing to do with eccentricity nor selfishness; but reconciles absolute separateness with absolute Oneness.

[Rosemarie]

For me, without a doubt , my father. Who died at 67 from pancreatic cancer. I don’t know if I would talk to him, just sit very close to him and let silence speak. Sometimes words are not necessary.

I am realizing the older I get the more sentimental I am Becoming. My kids were 1 and 2 when he died, I was 31 , but half my life I had lived far from home ..... so many dreams, memories that did not happened. I wish I knew then what I know about our souls journey. Still. He is missed.

Or i would asked him ... why when you were 8 and went to USA with your parents to see your two older brothers in boarding school did you asked to stay. They left him living with the headmaster and until he graduated from high school he just came back to South America a handful of times. Sometimes spending the holidays there. The man he became must have had his start there. Hardworking , loyal , loving ....The friends he made there lasted all his life and their children ( us ) are still friends and our kids continue the Tradition.

Who would you like to sit and talk.

[Valerie Villars]

For me, it would be my son. He was very wise and had a brilliant sense of humor. I miss him every day.

Here is one of his favorite comedians.

:heart:

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[ulli]

For me, without a doubt , my father. Who died at 67 from pancreatic cancer. I don’t know if I would talk to him, just sit very close to him and let silence speak. Sometimes words are not necessary.

I am realizing the older I get the more sentimental I am Becoming. My kids were 1 and 2 when he died, I was 31 , but half my life I had lived far from home ..... so many dreams, memories that did not happened. I wish I knew then what I know about our souls journey. Still. He is missed.

Or i would asked him ... why when you were 8 and went to USA with your parents to see your two older brothers in boarding school did you asked to stay. They left him living with the headmaster and until he graduated from high school he just came back to South America a handful of times. Sometimes spending the holidays there. The man he became must have had his start there. Hardworking , loyal , loving ....The friends he made there lasted all his life and their children ( us ) are still friends and our kids continue the Tradition.

Who would you like to sit and talk.

Interesting similarities. I was exactly 31 when my dad died of cancer of the esophagus.
My son was one year old.
My dad had just passed his 67th birthday a week earlier. Hmm...

[avid]

Since I upgraded my old folks’ house as per my Mum’s dream, I sit looking out of the large open french doors onto ‘her’ reinstated garden, and know she is here, watching the birds feeding, the sunshine, her lovely rescued plants, and Dad would help himself to a glass of red wine, no sound here, just peace and happiness, reassured they would love it. We won best garden in the parish last month, thanks to Mum and Dad’s inspiration. I am so lucky.

[Wind]

When (undogmatic) science meets spirituality.

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[edina]

When (undogmatic) science meets spirituality.

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Thank you, Wind!!!

It's refreshing to see this being studied by science.

WnoIf2NwaRY

[Strat]

I'm a day late but feliz cumpleaños Rosemarie. I cheated and used google translate but hey it's the thought that counts, right?

[Kryztian]

Just found another sign that people are waking up, here in the gritty alleys and side streets of post industrial northern New Jersey.

https://i.imgur.com/IxSYpBa.jpg

[Bluegreen]

Izzat the same handwriting as your avatar?

:rolleyes:

[Rosemarie]

I'm a day late but feliz cumpleaños Rosemarie. I cheated and used google translate but hey it's the thought that counts, right?

Muchas gracias Strat ! This was a surprise ! And yes, the thought is everything. ! :heart:

[Kryztian]

Izzat the same handwriting as your avatar?

:rolleyes:

Yeah, the way the "R" runs into the "A", it looks like it. They are in two different towns, about 5 miles away from each other.

[Bluegreen]

http://pics.me.me/there-is-a-shift-happening-the-worlds-people-are-waking-26027085.png

[Bluegreen]

Hoping to lure Ulli with this
(more than)
this

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[Strat]

Just found another sign that people are waking up, here in the gritty alleys and side streets of post industrial northern New Jersey.
Where are you in Jersey? My mother grew up in Hoboken till she moved down here. My grandmother eventually moved to Tom's River in her retirement years till she passed.



Muchas gracias Strat !

De nada!

[Stephanie]

http://www.severe-weather.eu/wp-content/gallery/weather-maps/850temp_anom_20190717_12_168.jpg

It’s really hot in Europe and the Mediterranean.

[justntime2learn]

http://pics.me.me/there-is-a-shift-happening-the-worlds-people-are-waking-26027085.png

I love this!

Thank you, Bluegreen ❤️

[Bluegreen]

I love this!

Its all true :)


http://i.pinimg.com/originals/83/66/6b/83666be02174f03a2c2cc25211d652fd.jpg

http://i.pinimg.com/736x/ed/00/06/ed0006a087a88a2dcddad5f5427457f6--positive-sayings-positive-thoughts.jpg

[Rosemarie]

Ulli, where are you ? Miss you. This is me Monday mornings. :o:coffee:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8swWzGs9uWI

[Gekko]

Hi village

Very nice day here in Massachusetts

https://imgur.com/gallery/tFmkZhP

[Gekko]

The picture that was supposed to go with the last post

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[ulli]

Sorry for the prolonged absence. I got enslaved by Jeffrey Epstein.

[justntime2learn]

Sorry for the prolonged absence. I got enslaved by Jeffrey Epstein.

I'm so excited!

I've been patiently waiting your words of wisdom, Ulli.

Blessings :heart:

[avid]

Ulli, you are threadbare...
What’s occurring?
My worst news is the vile gales that trashed my ginormous sunflowers, grown from seed, which were the envy of my neighbour, whose hollyhock is now 10’ tall but well supported, stuffed with plantfood, and he’s cheated!. My hollyhocks are 7’ tall, living naturally along the same old wall... c’mon George (my neighbour), do your worst next year, but I won best garden in the parish... An interesting mug with a hosepipe handle, and a quality trowel. Small things are amusing my now ‘small mind’ 😱

[Melinda]

There are multiple news sources covering this, but here’s just one...

https://edition.cnn.com/2019/08/21/americas/amazon-rainforest-fire-intl-hnk-trnd/index.html

"Brazil's Amazon rainforest is burning at a record rate, research center says

“Fires are raging at a record rate in Brazil's Amazon rainforest, and scientists warn that it could strike a devastating blow to the fight against climate change.

The fires are burning at the highest rate since the country's space research center, the National Institute for Space Research (known by the abbreviation INPE), began tracking them in 2013, the center said Tuesday.
There have been 72,843 fires in Brazil this year, with more than half in the Amazon region, INPE said. That's more than an 80% increase compared with the same period last year.
The Amazon is often referred to as the planet's lungs, producing 20% of the oxygen in the Earth's atmosphere.
It is considered vital in slowing global warming, and it is home to uncountable species of fauna and flora. Roughly half the size of the United States, it is the largest rainforest on the planet.”"

Read more at the link above.


Maybe others here will feel like offering a prayer / meditation / intention.

May the highest powers within us, and beyond us, protect the Amazon. Its countless species.

Visualising rain, as much as the forests need, to extinguish the fires and safeguard all life...

https://i.imgur.com/RLrVsxd.jpg

[RogueEllis]

I see my shadow from the bedside lamp cast on a bare white wall.
I taste a bit of oat and chocolate from the granola bar just consumed.
I feel the pillow tucked behind my back and giving me both comfort and support.
I smell oxygen.
I hear that ringing noise it makes when it's really quiet.

[Rosemarie]

I burned. Went into information overload. Wanted to learn everything at once. I am new , and all the knowledge I found here, all the treasure trove of information was too much. I was reading everything , understanding half , and learning a lot from what I understood. . What Resonated with me and gave me an understanding of life was the journey of our souls. Just to have learn this here makes it so worth it.
I do not participate to much , language barrier , just some music , animals threads and very personal experiences about synchronicity, mother’s Alzheimer's and other stories......
..... not a giver in this forum , but I take a lot and I thank you for it.

But I am taking it easy now , at a lower pace.
Good night my friends, or good morning , wherever you are.

[Peter UK]

I burned. Went into information overload. Wanted to learn everything at once. I am new , and all the knowledge I found here, all the treasure trove of information was too much. I was reading everything , understanding half , and learning a lot from what I understood. . What Resonated with me and gave me an understanding of life was the journey of our souls. Just to have learn this here makes it so worth it.
I do not participate to much , language barrier , just some music , animals threads and very personal experiences about synchronicity, mother’s Alzheimer's and other stories......
..... not a giver in this forum , but I take a lot and I thank you for it.

But I am taking it easy now , at a lower pace.
Good night my friends, or good morning , wherever you are.

Please do not let what you consider to be a language barrier inhibit you from posting. I have read several of your posts and not once did I feel there was a language issue or difficulties in communicating what you wanted to say.

I also enjoy the input of people who speak different languages and live in different places, they are important contributions.

More please.

:)

[meeradas]

ever found yourself wreathing in agony over "amazon answers", too?

you are not alone!

Behold this:

sEcvG9bZAiA

Beware: Full-on un-pc language.
:bowl::bounce::bowl:

And all praise to the Creator of Truth.

[Strat]

Getting prepped for hurricane evac. Never fun. Please use mental powers to dissipate Dorian.

This is the one thing that sucks about having loved ones: you have to take care of them. I will roll the dice with my own well being but not with family.

EDIT: Rosemarie you're one of my favorite people on this forum. God bless you on whatever path you take.

[RogueEllis]

Rosemarie, there is much love for you.
Strat, all my energy will be focused on protecting you and your family.
As for myself, I am on the way to the food Bank and feeling so grateful.

[Rosemarie]

Getting prepped for hurricane evac. Never fun. Please use mental powers to dissipate Dorian.

This is the one thing that sucks about having loved ones: you have to take care of them. I will roll the dice with my own well being but not with family.

EDIT: Rosemarie you're one of my favorite people on this forum. God bless you on whatever path you take.

...., and you are mine James. I am staying right here, but taking it easy. I wanted to take too much information in to quickly, Thank you Peter Uk and Rogue Ellis for your kind words.
:dancing:
Be safe James !

[Catsquotl]

Hi everyone,



Seems the winds of change are blowing everywhere these days. Popped in after a long while only to see many familiar faces have returned here..


With love
Eelco

[justntime2learn]

Greetings,

Blessings for the previous post by Catsquotl. It reminded me of lyrics from a song I would like to share.


Sunlight dances through the leaves
Soft winds stir the sighing trees
Lying in the warm grass
Feel the sun upon your face
Elfin songs and endless nights
Sweet wine and soft relaxing lights
Time will never touch you
Here in this enchanted place
You feel there's something calling you
You're wanting to return
To where the misty mountains rise and friendly fires burn
A place you can escape the world
Where the dark Lord cannot go
Peace of mind and sanctuary by loud water's flow
I've traveled now for many miles
It feels so good to see the smiles of
Friends who never left your mind
When you were far away
From the golden light of coming dawn
Till the twilight where the sun is gone
We treasure ev'ry season
And ev'ry passing day
We feel the coming of a new day
Darkness gives way to light a new way
Stop here for a while until the world,
The world calls you away
Yet you know I've had the feeling
Standing with my senses reeling
This is the place to grow old till
I reach my final day

[justntime2learn]

I burned. Went into information overload. Wanted to learn everything at once. I am new , and all the knowledge I found here, all the treasure trove of information was too much. I was reading everything , understanding half , and learning a lot from what I understood. . What Resonated with me and gave me an understanding of life was the journey of our souls. Just to have learn this here makes it so worth it.
I do not participate to much , language barrier , just some music , animals threads and very personal experiences about synchronicity, mother’s Alzheimer's and other stories......
..... not a giver in this forum , but I take a lot and I thank you for it.

But I am taking it easy now , at a lower pace.
Good night my friends, or good morning , wherever you are.

Honesty, I love that about you ❤️

[Carmody]

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[Bluegreen]

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[Baby Steps]

DOES ANYBODY KNOW ABOUT THE FOLLOWING?

DICYANIN DYE

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In the 1920's a scientist named Walter Kilner experimented with a dark blue chemical dye called 'dicyanin', which he poured into a glass screen, and when he gazed through the screen he found that he was able to see the aura of the

person standing in front of him.

He was able to see the person's aura because the specific colour of the dye blocked out a large portion of the white-light spectrum, and left only a small

portion which helped concentrate his perception of the aura.

HOWEVER, FOR A VERY BRIEF PERIOD OF TIME BACK AROUND 2010 THE PUBLIC COULD BUY THE DICYANIN VERSION, BUT NO MORE…… Dicyanin is a blue dye. It is not a drug. It is not physically dangerous. It is not poison. However, you cannot buy it. The chemical company that makes Dicyanin assigns a security code to its customers. To see how high Dicyanin is classified we asked a government chemist if he could order some. His security code allowed him to buy all the LSD or Heroine or Cocaine he wanted but when he requested DicyaninDye he was told he was not cleared high enough to obtain it.

Dicyanin Dye has "special" properties. If you make a window using two panes of glass with Dicyanin Dye between and look into it you can see the Astral

World directly. Now, if you are a psychic or meditation student, you can see the Astral World too but this dye allows ANYONE to see it. Now you see why it has a higher security rating than Heroin. If people could buy this simple dye [freely available in the 1940's] they could prove to themselves and anyone else the existence of another Plane of reality.

Private researchers used Dicyanin Dye before the Government locked it away in the 1940's. This gives an approximation of the time when the decisions were being made to censor all available knowledge so that new generations could be "programmed"

into a belief system that was manufactured by the Government and which had no relation to true reality.

What's the Deal with Dicyanin & Dr. Kilner?

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Dr. Walter Kilner was a distinguished British physician in the late 19th and early 20th centuries, who became one of the first radiologists in practice. In 1911, he published The Human Atmosphere, a book about his experiences and observations using a certain coal tar dye to enhance the ability to see the human aura. The book was reissued in 1921, shortly after his death, as The Human Aura, and remains today one of the best collections of detailed, candid observations of the aura available in the West.

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Seeing the aura & techniques on how to enhance that ability are near to my own heart, as I can see the auric field around people and magical objects to a certain degree. It is clear to anyone who is an experienced Witch, Magician, or Occultist, that being able to sense what we call the aura is a vital ability, whether those sensations are interpreted by the brain and mind as visual or otherwise. This ability allows one to deal with the Inner forces directly, with no intermediaries or reflectors (such as Tarot cards, Rune sticks, etc.)

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Beyond that audience, if it were possible to offer definite, physical, reproducible proof of the existence of the human aura, there would be a revolution in scientific thinking about our own nature, the nature of the Universe, and our place within it. Not only that (as if that weren't enough!,) there would be vast areas of research and understanding open to us that are now closed.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Walter_John_Kilner

[Carmody]

NIST .gov (National Institute of Standards and Technology) pdf on kilner's work, involving the use of the dye to look at stellar spectra

https://nvlpubs.nist.gov/nistpubs/bulletin/14/nbsbulletinv14n4p487_A2b.pdf

I've only read half the post above, but the idea that a specific color filter would be used to look at stellar spectra is odd to say the least. No simple color filter would do anything truly useful. As in not possible to derive in some other manner (contrast manipulation, etc).

therefore, the possibility exists that it can't be just a color filter, it may be doing something else.

Importantly, dye particles are nano sized, overall. Which means quantum. dye particles tend to fade under sunlight exposure, they break down. This is why there is little in the way of transparent car paints, they break down. Ie, that metal coatings can't be too thin, as they break down. Rhodium is famous for this and this point is specifically mentioned when you look information on rhodium plating.

and so on.

[edina]

Trending at the top of the Twitter Trends list, this morning ... (drumroll) .... #BatmanDay (https://twitter.com/hashtag/BatmanDay?src=tren). :sherlock:

[Rosemarie]

I have been wondering where Constance is. I have written to her , but no answer. Nobody says anything. Her last post is August 30 and it is a song “ time to say goodbye. “ No photo on her profile.

Did I miss something ? She is dearly missed by me and I would think by a lot more people. Sorry if this is not the way to ask but it is like she disappeared into thin air.

Hope she is in good health and just taking a rest.

[justntime2learn]

I have been wondering where Constance is. I have written to her , but no answer. Nobody says anything. Her last post is August 30 and it is a song “ time to say goodbye. “ No photo on her profile.

Did I miss something ? She is dearly missed by me and I would think by a lot more people. Sorry if this is not the way to ask but it is like she disappeared into thin air.

Hope she is in good health and just taking a rest.

Hi Rosemarie. Did you write to Constance via email or PM?

I miss Paula (RunningDeer) and have been wondering about her and Rachael (Innocent Warrior) and a few others also.

I too have been wondering...Did I miss something?

[Rosemarie]

Hi Rosemarie. Did you write to Constance via email or PM?

I miss Paula (RunningDeer) and have been wondering about her and Rachael (Innocent Warrior) and a few others also.

I too have been wondering...Did I miss something?

Now you got me justntime2learn. I think it was an email ..... but not sure. Her last post before August 30 was August 9. Sorry, i just put my Sherlock Holmes hat here. She is still a moderator but not on sabbatical. I miss Ulli, Paula and others too.

My way of thinking is ...... if someone has been a good moderator and is gone i would like them to know they are being missed. And I miss Constance. Find it strange nobody has said anything ( or maybe they have .... show me where please ? )

For long term members this must be a common occurence...... people moving on. I just find it kind of sad.

Edit : just wanted to add Something and correct exit for edit. Typo

[Valerie Villars]

Rosemarie and Just, I, too, have wondered the same thing. I miss them too.

[Forest Denizen]

I have been wondering where Constance is. I have written to her , but no answer. Nobody says anything. Her last post is August 30 and it is a song “ time to say goodbye. “ No photo on her profile.

Did I miss something ? She is dearly missed by me and I would think by a lot more people. Sorry if this is not the way to ask but it is like she disappeared into thin air.

Hope she is in good health and just taking a rest.



I have been wondering where Constance is. I have written to her , but no answer. Nobody says anything. Her last post is August 30 and it is a song “ time to say goodbye. “ No photo on her profile.

Did I miss something ? She is dearly missed by me and I would think by a lot more people. Sorry if this is not the way to ask but it is like she disappeared into thin air.

Hope she is in good health and just taking a rest.

Hi Rosemarie. Did you write to Constance via email or PM?

I miss Paula (RunningDeer) and have been wondering about her and Rachael (Innocent Warrior) and a few others also.

I too have been wondering...Did I miss something?



Hi Rosemarie. Did you write to Constance via email or PM?

I miss Paula (RunningDeer) and have been wondering about her and Rachael (Innocent Warrior) and a few others also.

I too have been wondering...Did I miss something?

Now you got me justntime2learn. I think it was an email ..... but not sure. Her last post before August 30 was August 9. Sorry, i just put my Sherlock Holmes hat here. She is still a moderator but not on sabbatical. I miss Ulli, Paula and others too.

My way of thinking is ...... if someone has been a good moderator and is gone i would like them to know they are being missed. And I miss Constance. Find it strange nobody has said anything ( or maybe they have .... show me where please ? )

For long term members this must be a common occurence...... people moving on. I just find it kind of sad.

Edit : just wanted to add Something and correct exit for edit. Typo


Rosemarie and Just, I, too, have wondered the same thing. I miss them too.

Dear Ones, Rosemarie, Valerie, and Justntime2learn,

Well, I think honesty is the best policy and to that end, I will tell you what happened regarding Constance. It has kind of been the elephant in the room so we might as well just get it out there. It's really very simple, Constance had fallen in love with Bill, but Bill was not in love with Constance. I would guess that most of us have been involved in a similar situation at some point in our lives and it is devastating.

This was all, of course, also very difficult for Bill. I think he may have been biding his time.. that is, not making any sort of announcement, in hopes that Constance will come back to the forum. Sorry, I'm getting a little ahead of myself here. As a result of the heartbreak that Constance suffered, she finally found it just too difficult to be on the forum every day, "seeing" and communicating with Bill. She decided that she needed a complete break from the forum in order that she might focus on healing herself.. her heart. It was a VERY difficult decision for her.

As you all are aware, Constance is a being that is virtually love embodied. She is driven to give love and help those in need wherever and whenever she can. So, she does miss that aspect of the forum, and she misses lovely, heart-based, intuitive members such as you, Rosemarie, Valerie, and justntime. I talk to Constance often and I will tell her that she is missed by you, and probably many others as well. I'll follow up with each of you regarding possibly contacting Constance. Rosemarie, I'm pretty sure she didn't receive your email(s) or she certainly would have responded.

In regards to Rachel, I miss her too and wish she would come back to the forum. Same goes for RunningDeer.

With Love and My Deepest Respect,

Ken

[avid]

Paula (Running Deer), Ulli, Rachel, all disappeared, hopefully temporarily, but even myself questioning, after donating for Mara, yet Bill still said more funds required. I have been a member since the first inception, loyally supporting, but can’t see a positive foot forward after all these negativities - the Qanon fiasco, the horrendous fires in Paradise, the lies of alternative ‘gurus’ being ignored, and no great news from our support of Mara’s health. I can’t give any more money to support Bill, but don’t give up on him. Reading between the lines, we are so loyal to each other, but my observations lately dissipate my commitment to funding in future, I am on a pension and funds are limited. Please support Bill, but I can’t any more, as my folks need my support, and charity begins at home. Love to all, don’t judge me...

[Mike]

Paula has always quietly been the heart and soul of the forum imo. and not by putting herself front and center, but by always lifting and helping others humbly. she's just a remarkable human being. having her here on avalon all this time is akin to hitting the sweeps. we're all just incredibly fortunate. it's been an honor sharing this space with her, and it's been an honor being her friend.

Rachel is one of the most unique individuals i've ever had the pleasure of meeting...and i've met a lot of unique individuals over the years. she's also one of the most intelligent, articulate, and brutally honest people i've ever met. also, she's a veritable buffet table of esoteric knowledge. cool thing about her is, she doesn't flaunt it. she's a force of nature in ways i'm only beginning to understand. i've told her many times that i'm going to marry her in our next life, and i'm still patiently waiting for her to say "yes":)

Constanceis utterly selfless and loving in ways that don't translate well into words. she's an angel. the first time i heard her speak, i thought there is something truly special about this woman. it's never a challenge for her to love and care for people and the planet - she was born that way..it comes perfectly natural to her. for some reason, we've all been lucky enough to cross paths with her in this universe...what a treat.

another sorely missed member is Natalie Onawah: Nat and i have been buddies for a long time. we've had tons of laughs along the way. the thing that impresses me most about Nat, besides her high intelligence and sense of humor, is her resilience. this woman has been to hell and back...many times. but here she is, still standing and delivering the goods for us here on avalon. that's what the hero's journey really is: going to places others haven't been or fear to go to, and returning to articulate it for the rest of us. she's an amazing woman.

....this isn't meant as a eulogy! i still hold out hope that our sorely missed members will find their way back at some point. but i think it's important to let those people know how much theyre appreciated sometimes. it's too damn easy to take people for granted.

[Bill Ryan]

Hello, Everyone. :heart:

Wow, and clearly I need to say a few things here. I'll be as diplomatic, kind, and as wise as I can muster.

The easiest thing is to address (first) is Mara! OMG. @avid, thanks so VERY VERY much for mentioning her. It seems that two things have happened here, and in either (or both!) cases, I may have to ask you to please forgive me.

The first is that as best I recall — and there may have been a misunderstanding! — I was never asking for "more funds". Never at all, unless I somehow gave the wrong impression. I'd never do that unless there was a real emergency and there was no way I could meet critical costs.

The second is that I genuinely thought I'd posted an update that all was very very well. But maybe I didn't!

She's all good. Like, really really fine. Her energy is high, she's really happy and in good shape, and (astonishingly) she just has no idea she's only got one eye. That's because her optic nerve was damaged, so her doggie brain doesn't get any signals that her eye is out of action. Because there are no signals at all, it's like there's no eye to be missed.

Since her operation, and all the drops I had to administer every 4 hours night and day (OMG!), we've been on a number of big mountain hikes. Because I wasn't certain at first how easily she could judge distance when jumping around on the big rocks (like the ones in the English Lake District! :sun: ), I took it gradually and carefully. But we never encountered a single problem. Everything's just as it always was. I'm very very thankful and grateful.

Here's a great panorama from a hike a few weeks ago. You get the idea! Do maybe click on the link for a large image, which may be well worth looking at.

http://projectavalon.net/Mara_on_the_high_ridge_26_July_2019_sm.jpg
Huge version: :) http://projectavalon.net/Mara_on_the_high_ridge_26_July_2019.jpg

In a moment, I'll post something about our other friends who we've not heard from for a little while. We actually have very little information all round, but I'll share what I feel I can, just in case it may be helpful

:flower:

[Bill Ryan]

In a moment, I'll post something about our other friends who we've not heard from for a little while. We actually have very little information all round, but I'll share what I feel I can, just in case it may be helpful

:flower:Actually, I've just read Mike's very wonderful post here (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?30405-Here-and-Now...What-s-Happening&p=1315797&viewfull=1#post1315797). Please do read it also.

There are no bad guys here. None at all. Just human nature and the human condition, in all its entanglements.

One of the biggest problems, as everyone reading this will understand, is that we're all massively constrained by the limitations of the very one-dimensional written word.

I've said several times about the huge mods melt-down in June, that if we'd all been in the same real-world room, in real time, with coffee and cookies and comfortable chairs, all there at once, none of this chaos would or could ever have manifested. The internet practically encourages these things to happen, sometimes.

And there are real sensitivities here. I do always try to protect people, especially those who are or were friends. I never want to hurt a soul. And some things really did happen that I'm as sure as I can be the folks involved would not wish to be made public.

I don't know for sure, and maybe never will do, but I'd bet really quite a lot that some of the people who are definitely no longer with us (meaning, literally almost half the mods team, including those who asked to leave the entire forum) will have profound regrets.

But at the same time, there are realities of some things that occurred, and some people made what I believe were some fairly major mistakes or errors of judgment, or carried away misunderstandings which were never identified or corrected.

So when Ken (rightly!) wrote (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?30405-Here-and-Now...What-s-Happening&p=1315770&viewfull=1#post1315770) "honesty is the best policy", there's a subsidiary aspect to that. Which is: how far back does one go? Because all parties made mistakes, including some fairly big ones.

At that time, back in early June, Constance was bullied, hounded, scapegoated, witch-hunted, and terribly hurt by some of the others. Utterly unfairly. Period. And by happenstance, all part of that dreadful perfect storm, all that happened when I was offline for a few days, primarily because I was exhausted by Mara's day and night eyedrop schedule.

While I was away, all in a mere 4 days, all hell broke loose.

What happened to Constance was disgraceful and horrific. It should never happen to anyone on the forum, whoever they were, under any circumstances, anywhere. And certainly not to any moderator, at the hands of half the other moderators. It was extremely hard to understand. It was like half the team had unaccountably lost their minds. I don't exaggerate.

When I got back online, I was horrified. There was carnage. I defended Constance and fought for her, because what was right was right.

There was no decision to be made. So this is also a major aspect to all that.

When she wanted to leave back then (as she posted here (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?107445-A-very-important-announcement&p=1297923&viewfull=1#post1297923): DO READ), I personally implored her to stay. She was one of the best moderators we've ever had. Her entire focus was on helping anyone she could, no matter what it took.

Rachel/Innocent Warrior, please do read that. :heart:

And there's a lot more, as well. Because Paula/RunningDeer) believed strongly (for reasons never made clear) that Paul was somehow unfairly treated himself, there's reason to suspect that something has happened that caused her to 'take sides' (or, take 'Paul's side').

Qanon has something to do with that, too, as Paul was the only member of the mods team that ever lent Qanon any credence.

I've never criticized Paul on the forum before. Not once. I wrote this here (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?15565-New-Moderators-joining-the-Avalon-Forum-team&p=1296698&viewfull=1#post1296698), publicly, in his praise. But he, too, behaved very badly, and did do, over a period, on several counts. As the most senior member present during the mods meltdown, in my absence, he had a duty and a responsibility to help mend every broken fence he could see. But he was actually a major part of the problem. I was more than disappointed.

So now you have it. Whatever Paula/RunningDeer is assuming about Paul (and by implication, about myself, which is an important factor here), is incorrect.

I do hope she may see this. :heart:

But sometimes, we just have to release a prayer on the winds, hoping that it might somehow reach its intended target, and just let go.

It's possible that I may have made an error of judgment myself, in saying too little. That, in turn, may have allowed assumptions and incorrect conclusions to grow among some people, maybe including some good folks reading this.

If so, I do apologize. It's very hard sometimes to know what to say and what not to say about tough things that have happened. It's possible that even though some might find what I've written in this post a little harsh, it might just help a fraction. That's my only intention: that it somehow might.

A final word. I've lost very close friends here. We all did. We worked closely together for years, through thick and thin. And always shoulder-to-shoulder. We were all comrades in arms.

But now, those same friendships are fractured and broken, I suspect now beyond repair. I cannot adequately express in these limited one-dimensional words how impacted I was by all this. It cut very deep, and hurt very, very badly. It's not yet fully healed for me, at all.

I conduct myself quite well on a day-to-day level, but what happened was major. And some things occurred that were simply bewildering. I think also, in retrospect, even now maybe to the perpetrators.

But we have to continue. That's our duty. Constance is still listed as a moderator. She never asked to be removed. And I'm still hopeful she may return. If she did, she would have the very biggest red carpet (of flowers, and much else) awaiting her.

Rachel asked to stand down as a moderator, and we honored that. Others who are reported Missing in Action (and there are quite a few, actually, if we do a total head count), I and we have zero information about.

We wish them all the very very best, whoever and wherever they are. I simply can't say anything else other than that.

:flower::flower::flower::flower::flower:

[Valerie Villars]

Paula has always quietly been the heart and soul of the forum imo. and not by putting herself front and center, but by always lifting and helping others humbly. she's just a remarkable human being. having her here on avalon all this time is akin to hitting the sweeps. we're all just incredibly fortunate. it's been an honor sharing this space with her, and it's been an honor being her friend.

Rachel is one of the most unique individuals i've ever had the pleasure of meeting...and i've met a lot of unique individuals over the years. she's also one of the most intelligent, articulate, and brutally honest people i've ever met. also, she's a veritable buffet table of esoteric knowledge. cool thing about her is, she doesn't flaunt it. she's a force of nature in ways i'm only beginning to understand. i've told her many times that i'm going to marry her in our next life, and i'm still patiently waiting for her to say "yes":)

Constanceis utterly selfless and loving in ways that don't translate well into words. she's an angel. the first time i heard her speak, i thought there is something truly special about this woman. it's never a challenge for her to love and care for people and the planet - she was born that way..it comes perfectly natural to her. for some reason, we've all been lucky enough to cross paths with her in this universe...what a treat.

another sorely missed member is Natalie Onawah: Nat and i have been buddies for a long time. we've had tons of laughs along the way. the thing that impresses me most about Nat, besides her high intelligence and sense of humor, is her resilience. this woman has been to hell and back...many times. but here she is, still standing and delivering the goods for us here on avalon. that's what the hero's journey really is: going to places others haven't been or fear to go to, and returning to articulate it for the rest of us. she's an amazing woman.

....this isn't meant as a eulogy! i still hold out hope that our sorely missed members will find their way back at some point. but i think it's important to let those people know how much theyre appreciated sometimes. it's too damn easy to take people for granted.

Mike, what the hell is that on your face? Lipstick?

[Cara]

To me, absence is a painful hollowing out of a space once filled with light and love.

I have lost people: sometimes I let them go, sometimes they let me go, sometimes things simply changed.

Here is a poem I wrote a few years ago about someone who was absent.

~~~

Stripped

Sliced -
shoulder to hip:
organs and secrets
come tumbling out.

Cut -
forehead to nape:
brain and ideals
lost to the air.

My, how your
words,
presence
leave me bare.

Pierced -
straight through the eye:
tears and memories
come flooding out.

Shot -
now through the heart:
blood and love
spill into void.

My, how your
silence,
absence
strip me to core.

[Mike]

Val, that right there is a scar. There was a fire the week before in an apartment complex, and after I heroically ushered 2 twin babies and their mother to safety I passed out from smoke inhalation and sliced my face on a shelf as I was falling to the ground and -

....its a straw;). A stirring straw for mixed drinks and stuff like that. I'm trying really hard to appear casually cool, basically

[Valerie Villars]

I KNEW you would come back with quite an embellished story and then tell the truth.

You ARE casually cool so you don't have to try to appear to be. :)

[Ernie Nemeth]

It is sad. The first time this sort of thing happened to me I was floored. I had tried so hard to make friends based on solid evidence of sincerity, only to realize that was not the case. After all the selfless posturing, the claimed loyalty, the promises of fidelity, it turned out each had an agenda not conducive to our mission, including me.

That is why I do not socialize much, it just leads to disappointment and too much investment of time and effort. To me I sound insincere when I try to make small talk. So I don't. I can only hope some see through the mask, as I try to see through theirs...

[RogueEllis]

I am sad to read about how such sincere strength in relationships can be stripped down so hollow, especially here where so far it has been my impression people go out of their way to be so nice. Maybe that was the problem. Too many feelings.

"The hardest part is things already said."
"Some things you lose, some things you give away."

Lyrics from Sleater-Kinney's "Good Things"

[RunningDeer]

Paula has always quietly been…
Mike, I went for a walk after I read your post. My heart filled wide-big-warm. https://i.imgur.com/HVwThLe.gif

Months ago, I posted on my message board that I’ve gone fishin’. I’ll add this again here like I did some pages back on this thread.


https://i.imgur.com/QBlCIkK.jpg



https://i.imgur.com/F5VZkI8.gif


And there's a lot more, as well. Because Paula/RunningDeer) believed strongly (for reasons never made clear) that Paul was somehow unfairly treated himself, there's reason to suspect that something has happened that caused her to 'take sides' (or, take 'Paul's side').

Qanon has something to do with that, too, as Paul was the only member of the mods team that ever lent Qanon any credence.

{snip}

So now you have it. Whatever Paula/RunningDeer is assuming about Paul (and by implication, about myself, which is an important factor here), is incorrect.

Bill, those are inaccurate assumptions of me. Paul was only a sliver of my thought processes of why I needed to step back.

Reality hit for me when I felt that I couldn’t go to administration with a post I found by an unsubscribed Avalon member on another forum. It was a synchronistic find because I stopped checking a year before. I went for a walk in the state forest to ground and by the time I returned the post was replaced with other "stuff". This is what he wrote: (his name begins with B)

Note: The bold part is mine and I deleted her name.




“just heard some ex-mods/admins are willing to testify and hundreds of ex-members.. gee... wonder what about?

I assume Ryan and his concubine, current squeeze ****** will be delightfully surprised when they are served.. but what do I know.. they are all dear dear sweet people professing unconditional love to all people, right? (you too paula.. you and Dennis can think about what a subpoena to testify means..)”





https://i.imgur.com/F5VZkI8.gif


Two Avalon members were suspended for linking to that forum. You posted on the moderators thread that the next time they logged on a message would pop up. Until today, I’ve not log on because I didn’t want to read a similar message. Nor did I want an announcement about myself:


Unsubscribed her.
Another “Q” infected bites the dust.
May she rest in peace.

For the record: I’ve posted several times that I’ve never voted because I didn’t believed what the politicians said. And choosing “the lesser of two evils” never sat right with me. Almost 50 years later, I feel the same.



https://i.imgur.com/F5VZkI8.gif


It got to the point where any time I posted, I’d:

1) carefully choose my words
2) second guessed how it would be received
3) weigh what’s acceptable and what’s not in this confusing forum climate

I held my breath every time I logged on. I was exhausted every morning because in my dreams I worked and reworked posts. Avalon felt like a battle field and an unhealthy way to spend my days.

In closing, while I’m on a fishing break, my wish is that my thoughts, feelings and deeds I’ve shared over the last 7 1/2 years weigh more than someone’s take on who they believe me to be or how/what I think…either here or on that other forum.

To justntime2learn, Valerie, Ken and All, much love and thanks. Continued health and prosperity in whatever form that is for you.

Stepping out of the thread…

Have a restful weekend.
https://i.imgur.com/RJT1PoO.gif

[Billy]

It is so lovely to hear from you RunningDeer. I dearly hope you have a peaceful fishing break and you return feeling refreshed.
You are missed very much :bearhug:

Here and now I am in Malta with a group of 9 from around the world. 7 of us are all Avalon members and 2 are close friends of members.
We have been here a week together visiting the ancient sites, the underground Hypogeum being one.
Most folks will be leaving on Monday, I stay for another month.
It has been a absolutely wonderful gathering for me and I think I can say the same for everyone else. I am very impressed with the grace, awareness, kindness and patience of our group. There are some outstanding souls here on Avalon. We have shared food, drink and lots of laughter also. :cantina:

I will be updating my Hypogeum thread after I reflect and process everything. Photos will be posted after I receive permission to do so from all the individuals.
I just wanted to share some good news, hopefully to spread some cheer after catching up in the here and now thread :grouphug::heart:

[RunningDeer]

Hello Billy. Please forward good cheer to the Avalon Family members and their friends. May their travels homeward be swift and hassle free.

http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/grouphugg.gif

How fortunate for you to be able to stay an additional month. Fortunate may not be the correct word. My experiences continue to show that: Where there’s a will, there’s a way.

May your inner and outer knowings bring you to places in Malta that call up the kind of joy which moves one to silence. My sense is you know that sweet spot well.

http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/coffeebath.gif

With heart,
Paula


It is so lovely to hear from you RunningDeer. I dearly hope you have a peaceful fishing break and you return feeling refreshed.
You are missed very much :bearhug:

Here and now I am in Malta with a group of 9 from around the world. 7 of us are all Avalon members and 2 are close friends of members.
We have been here a week together visiting the ancient sites, the underground Hypogeum being one.
Most folks will be leaving on Monday, I stay for another month.
It has been a absolutely wonderful gathering for me and I think I can say the same for everyone else. I am very impressed with the grace, awareness, kindness and patience of our group. There are some outstanding souls here on Avalon. We have shared food, drink and lots of laughter also. :cantina:

I will be updating my Hypogeum thread after I reflect and process everything. Photos will be posted after I receive permission to do so from all the individuals.
I just wanted to share some good news, hopefully to spread some cheer after catching up in the here and now thread :grouphug::heart:

[Stephanie]

Paula has always quietly been the heart and soul of the forum imo. and not by putting herself front and center, but by always lifting and helping others humbly. she's just a remarkable human being. having her here on avalon all this time is akin to hitting the sweeps. we're all just incredibly fortunate. it's been an honor sharing this space with her, and it's been an honor being her friend.

Rachel is one of the most unique individuals i've ever had the pleasure of meeting...and i've met a lot of unique individuals over the years. she's also one of the most intelligent, articulate, and brutally honest people i've ever met. also, she's a veritable buffet table of esoteric knowledge. cool thing about her is, she doesn't flaunt it. she's a force of nature in ways i'm only beginning to understand. i've told her many times that i'm going to marry her in our next life, and i'm still patiently waiting for her to say "yes":)

Constanceis utterly selfless and loving in ways that don't translate well into words. she's an angel. the first time i heard her speak, i thought there is something truly special about this woman. it's never a challenge for her to love and care for people and the planet - she was born that way..it comes perfectly natural to her. for some reason, we've all been lucky enough to cross paths with her in this universe...what a treat.

another sorely missed member is Natalie Onawah: Nat and i have been buddies for a long time. we've had tons of laughs along the way. the thing that impresses me most about Nat, besides her high intelligence and sense of humor, is her resilience. this woman has been to hell and back...many times. but here she is, still standing and delivering the goods for us here on avalon. that's what the hero's journey really is: going to places others haven't been or fear to go to, and returning to articulate it for the rest of us. she's an amazing woman.

....this isn't meant as a eulogy! i still hold out hope that our sorely missed members will find their way back at some point. but i think it's important to let those people know how much theyre appreciated sometimes. it's too damn easy to take people for granted.

Oh if only I could share my feelings so eloquently Mike... you are so wonderful at expressing in words!

You dearest, lovely souls are so very dear and perfect to me in all your wonderful ways.


:heart::bearhug::heart::bearhug::heart::bearhug::heart::bearhug:

[justntime2learn]

I've noticed Paula's always building Bridges. I've also noticed when it's hard for her to tell the truth.

Perhaps I lack words in volume, so I try to make each count.

To me, Paula is a spirit guide. Does anyone feel the same?

[Hym]

Love has not an end for it is a choice born far beyond this thing called time. We forget......


Love has no beginning, yet begins each time we recognize the spark it brings in us,

pulling us from the shadows of our selves, not yet forgiven by the greeting light we will, at some life's end, begin to know intimately....


In the spirit of a creation it is self-illumined and shines equally upon all,

the one true memory we carry into each new life.


Sometimes we run into that Dear One and are reminded to slow down,

to breath,

to simply take a break before we are broken.....


Some Lights we know, born from that spark...

In this I know of a Woman.....Paula.

[RunningDeer]

I've noticed Paula's always building Bridges. I've also noticed when it's hard for her to tell the truth.

Perhaps I lack words in volume, so I try to make each count.

To me, Paula is a spirit guide. Does anyone feel the same?
Hi Chuck and thank you,

It’s not that I’m not telling the truth, it’s difficult to be forthright through a computer screen. Subtle cues, a flash of silent communication between me and other, there’s a lot of working parts at levels that I’m only beginning to consciously bring to the fore. And really too many words just get in the way.

And there’s a part of it that’s pure listening, so other can hear his/her answers. I’m a work in progress on the whole thang.

I don’t know about spirit guide. I’m like a growing number of folks finding what works for their unique self. Like Home is the heart-mind, ground zero that connects with big me that connects to the bigger. But alas I keep forgetting it. Over and Over and Over.

http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/laugh-pound.gif

One time a friend asked who are my role models? It never crossed my mind to get one. I don’t know if that's good or bad, but it sure un-complicates things if one is in the business of retiring limited beliefs.



These are some desktop pictures that help me to keep on keeping.
And a Warrior’s Philosophy which resonates with me and has been a part of my journey longer than not.

https://i.imgur.com/YtXEr18.jpg

https://i.imgur.com/cXxHNLI.jpg

https://i.imgur.com/7KHeaE6.jpg

https://i.imgur.com/20Ub5iZ.jpg

xo

[RunningDeer]

Wow, beautiful, powerful…
I look forward to the day
I experience total recall
total understanding.

Thank you, Hym. http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/flower-rainbow.gif



Love has not an end for it is a choice born far beyond this thing called time. We forget......


Love has no beginning, yet begins each time we recognize the spark it brings in us,

pulling us from the shadows of our selves, not yet forgiven by the greeting light we will, at some life's end, begin to know intimately....


In the spirit of a creation it is self-illumined and shines equally upon all,

the one true memory we carry into each new life.


Sometimes we run into that Dear One and are reminded to slow down,

to breath,

to simply take a break before we are broken.....


Some Lights we know, born from that spark...

In this I know of a Woman.....Paula.

[AutumnW]

I've noticed Paula's always building Bridges. I've also noticed when it's hard for her to tell the truth.

Perhaps I lack words in volume, so I try to make each count.

To me, Paula is a spirit guide. Does anyone feel the same?

Yes! Or an angel, Sprite or fairy. We don't always agree but I think she is amazing!:bearhug:

¤=[Post Update]=¤


To me, absence is a painful hollowing out of a space once filled with light and love.

I have lost people: sometimes I let them go, sometimes they let me go, sometimes things simply changed.

Here is a poem I wrote a few years ago about someone who was absent.

~~~

Stripped

Sliced -
shoulder to hip:
organs and secrets
come tumbling out.

Cut -
forehead to nape:
brain and ideals
lost to the air.

My, how your
words,
presence
leave me bare.

Pierced -
straight through the eye:
tears and memories
come flooding out.

Shot -
now through the heart:
blood and love
spill into void.

My, how your
silence,
absence
strip me to core.

Beautiful Cara. Thank you.

[AutumnW]

In a moment, I'll post something about our other friends who we've not heard from for a little while. We actually have very little information all round, but I'll share what I feel I can, just in case it may be helpful

:flower:Actually, I've just read Mike's very wonderful post here (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?30405-Here-and-Now...What-s-Happening&p=1315797&viewfull=1#post1315797). Please do read it also.

There are no bad guys here. None at all. Just human nature and the human condition, in all its entanglements.

One of the biggest problems, as everyone reading this will understand, is that we're all massively constrained by the limitations of the very one-dimensional written word.

I've said several times about the huge mods melt-down in June, that if we'd all been in the same real-world room, in real time, with coffee and cookies and comfortable chairs, all there at once, none of this chaos would or could ever have manifested. The internet practically encourages these things to happen, sometimes.

And there are real sensitivities here. I do always try to protect people, especially those who are or were friends. I never want to hurt a soul. And some things really did happen that I'm as sure as I can be the folks involved would not wish to be made public.

I don't know for sure, and maybe never will do, but I'd bet really quite a lot that some of the people who are definitely no longer with us (meaning, literally almost half the mods team, including those who asked to leave the entire forum) will have profound regrets.

But at the same time, there are realities of some things that occurred, and some people made what I believe were some fairly major mistakes or errors of judgment, or carried away misunderstandings which were never identified or corrected.

So when Ken (rightly!) wrote (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?30405-Here-and-Now...What-s-Happening&p=1315770&viewfull=1#post1315770) "honesty is the best policy", there's a subsidiary aspect to that. Which is: how far back does one go? Because all parties made mistakes, including some fairly big ones.

At that time, back in early June, Constance was bullied, hounded, scapegoated, witch-hunted, and terribly hurt by some of the others. Utterly unfairly. Period. And by happenstance, all part of that dreadful perfect storm, all that happened when I was offline for a few days, primarily because I was exhausted by Mara's day and night eyedrop schedule.

While I was away, all in a mere 4 days, all hell broke loose.

What happened to Constance was disgraceful and horrific. It should never happen to anyone on the forum, whoever they were, under any circumstances, anywhere. And certainly not to any moderator, at the hands of half the other moderators. It was extremely hard to understand. It was like half the team had unaccountably lost their minds. I don't exaggerate.

When I got back online, I was horrified. There was carnage. I defended Constance and fought for her, because what was right was right.

There was no decision to be made. So this is also a major aspect to all that.

When she wanted to leave back then (as she posted here (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?107445-A-very-important-announcement&p=1297923&viewfull=1#post1297923): DO READ), I personally implored her to stay. She was one of the best moderators we've ever had. Her entire focus was on helping anyone she could, no matter what it took.

Rachel/Innocent Warrior, please do read that. :heart:

And there's a lot more, as well. Because Paula/RunningDeer) believed strongly (for reasons never made clear) that Paul was somehow unfairly treated himself, there's reason to suspect that something has happened that caused her to 'take sides' (or, take 'Paul's side').

Qanon has something to do with that, too, as Paul was the only member of the mods team that ever lent Qanon any credence.

I've never criticized Paul on the forum before. Not once. I wrote this here (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?15565-New-Moderators-joining-the-Avalon-Forum-team&p=1296698&viewfull=1#post1296698), publicly, in his praise. But he, too, behaved very badly, and did do, over a period, on several counts. As the most senior member present during the mods meltdown, in my absence, he had a duty and a responsibility to help mend every broken fence he could see. But he was actually a major part of the problem. I was more than disappointed.

So now you have it. Whatever Paula/RunningDeer is assuming about Paul (and by implication, about myself, which is an important factor here), is incorrect.

I do hope she may see this. :heart:

But sometimes, we just have to release a prayer on the winds, hoping that it might somehow reach its intended target, and just let go.

It's possible that I may have made an error of judgment myself, in saying too little. That, in turn, may have allowed assumptions and incorrect conclusions to grow among some people, maybe including some good folks reading this.

If so, I do apologize. It's very hard sometimes to know what to say and what not to say about tough things that have happened. It's possible that even though some might find what I've written in this post a little harsh, it might just help a fraction. That's my only intention: that it somehow might.

A final word. I've lost very close friends here. We all did. We worked closely together for years, through thick and thin. And always shoulder-to-shoulder. We were all comrades in arms.

But now, those same friendships are fractured and broken, I suspect now beyond repair. I cannot adequately express in these limited one-dimensional words how impacted I was by all this. It cut very deep, and hurt very, very badly. It's not yet fully healed for me, at all.

I conduct myself quite well on a day-to-day level, but what happened was major. And some things occurred that were simply bewildering. I think also, in retrospect, even now maybe to the perpetrators.

But we have to continue. That's our duty. Constance is still listed as a moderator. She never asked to be removed. And I'm still hopeful she may return. If she did, she would have the very biggest red carpet (of flowers, and much else) awaiting her.

Rachel asked to stand down as a moderator, and we honored that. Others who are reported Missing in Action (and there are quite a few, actually, if we do a total head count), I and we have zero information about.

We wish them all the very very best, whoever and wherever they are. I simply can't say anything else other than that.

:flower::flower::flower::flower::flower:

This is really sad. Being cut to the quick is hard enough but being blindsided by it is doubly difficult. You must have felt deeply betrayed, even if that wasn't the intent. That was a bad week. I stayed right off the forum I was in such a weird frame of mind.

Maybe it's best for people to take a short break when they feel they are getting too enmeshed, entangled or losing perspective?

I hope Constance comes back. She is extraordinary, plus...she can consume more fruit in a day than your average flying fox and that alone is commendable!:flower:

[RunningDeer]

Yes! Or an angel, Sprite or fairy. We don't always agree but I think she is amazing!
Hello AutumnW. I resonate with some of those realms. xo

[Peter UK]

Yes! Or an angel, Sprite or fairy. We don't always agree but I think she is amazing!



Now imagine if that was modified to read:

We don't always agree but I think you are amazing!

Quite the mantra!

A perfect reminder that everyone has something to offer and there is no need of casualties.

[greybeard]

"You make a difference"
The best compliment ever.
Chris

[Innocent Warrior]

@justntime2learn @Val @Ken @avid @Sstarss

Hello! :flower:

I haven’t been posting but you can still reach me via PM, I check it every now and then.

I’ve been minimising my time spent online, that won’t change, but after reading your posts I’ll update the Experiencers thread when I think I might have something of interest to share.

Sorry for vanishing off the forum, my posts will be sporadic but I’ll be around. Thank you for caring, it means a lot to me.

@Mike

That was nice. :) Talk soon you banana.

[RunningDeer]

Hello Moo. http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/cow2.gif...http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/cow.gif
xo

[Forest Denizen]

@justntime2learn @Val @Ken @avid @Sstarss

Hello! :flower:

I haven’t been posting but you can still reach me via PM, I check it every now and then.

I’ve been minimising my time spent online, that won’t change, but after reading your posts I’ll update the Experiencers thread when I think I might have something of interest to share.

Sorry for vanishing off the forum, my posts will be sporadic but I’ll be around. Thank you for caring, it means a lot to me.

@Mike

That was nice. :) Talk soon you banana.

Rachel!!! :sun:

I can't tell you how happy I am to see you here!!! You have been sorely missed :flower::flower:


Hello Moo. http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/cow2.gif...http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/cow.gif
xo

Paula!!! :Party:

The same goes for you!! You are shining stars and Avalon has not been the same without you both :heart:

With All my Love and Deepest Respect for each of you,

Ken

[RunningDeer]

https://i.imgur.com/lzQazFj.jpg
♡

I’ve been minimising my time spent online...



Rachel!!! :sun:

I can't tell you how happy I am to see you here!!! You have been sorely missed :flower:


Paula!!! :Party:

The same goes for you!! You are shining stars and Avalon has not been the same without you both :heart:

With All my Love and Deepest Respect for each of you,

Ken

[justntime2learn]

I feel special being a part of this outpouring of such heartfelt love and understanding!

@Paula, I sent a personal message a couple months ago, however your mailbox wasn't accepting messages at that time. I'll send another one :)

@Rachel, can you provide a link for those of us wanting to subscribe to your thread, "Experiencers"? I feel some of us may be greatly helped by participating!

@Ken, I love you :heart: You have an ability to bring people together, both in public view and outside the scenes. I feel that you have continued the love born from friendships formed at Laughlin and on-line, and I deeply thank you for that.

Laughlin enabled us to build the most meaningful, heartfelt, like-minded and spiritual relationships, even beyond the Forum, and I know I will never be the same. I am in direct contact (daily in some cases) with some of those I met at the meeting. These relationships have helped me enrich my entire life in ways that I haven’t the words to describe.

[RunningDeer]

@Rachel, can you provide a link for those of us wanting to subscribe to your thread, "Experiencers"? I feel some of us may be greatly helped by participating!

In case Rachel doesn't check in right away. EXPERIENCERS: Sharing, Exploring, and Learning Together (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?105066-EXPERIENCERS-Sharing-Exploring-and-Learning-Together)


@Paula, I sent a personal message a couple months ago, however your mailbox wasn't accepting messages at that time. I'll send another one. ;)
http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/computer-stars.gif Chuck, a reminder: I'm on a computer-lite diet, but I just changed my PM settings to default.


http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/s-good-night.gif


:wave: Hello, Delight+.

[justntime2learn]

@Rachel, can you provide a link for those of us wanting to subscribe to your thread, "Experiencers"? I feel some of us may be greatly helped by participating!

In case, Rachel doesn't check in right away. EXPERIENCERS: Sharing, Exploring, and Learning Together (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?105066-EXPERIENCERS-Sharing-Exploring-and-Learning-Together)


@Paula, I sent a personal message a couple months ago, however your mailbox wasn't accepting messages at that time. I'll send another one. ;)
http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/computer-stars.gif Chuck, a reminder: I'm on a computer-lite diet, but I just changed my PM settings to default.


http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/s-good-night.gif


:wave: Hello, Delight+.

Thank you Paula ❤️

[Strat]

For what it's worth Runningdeer, you and a few other people are among a small group of people I truly appreciate. When my health went south you and a few people came to my aid even though we never talk (I never really chat with folks on the net). I'm more or less a regular guy so my words are all I have to offer but I wish I had some degree of money or power to make sure the wind is always at your back.

In life and on the internet there are just absolute ****heads everywhere and I've become accustomed to this. I have a ton of people in my phone to call but only a very few are true friends. Hell, if any. Truly. I think we all intellectually understand this but not everyone gets it if that makes sense. You are one of the types of people that can be a true friend. You are Gods lifeline for people like me.

I support your computer lite diet, it's a healthy one for sure. God bless you and may you win the lottery.

[Baby Steps]

Super brine

Dissolve rock salt in water over night- about a third salt to two thirds water

Apply to skin irritations, spots etc(not cuts or wounds )

It is an anti septic - really brilliant

[RunningDeer]

I support your computer lite diet, it's a healthy one for sure. God bless you and may you win the lottery.


Bless you, too, Strat.
I wish, I wish
I had a magic way
to poof
your cluster head aches away.

I’m still working to perfect: These aren't the droids you're looking for. Move a long.


GO_xfR64qSk


I won the lottery when I walked away from the tick-tock-clock-world. I traded a larger retirement pension for a smaller one. When you don’t require much because you no longer need to fill the beast of “gotta have it to feel complete”, the smaller one nets out higher.

There’s more time for the immeasurables: peaceful heart, walks, study, even chores aren't chores. I wish that for everyone sooner than later.

I live the lottery. The kind that’s important to me. Time. Time to do and not do. Watch. Sit. Sharpen imagination, creativity, silence, inner voice, sensations, wind songs through trees.

Last week, a little woodpecker guy came knocking at my screen door for an afternoon snack of bugs and what-nots. The ping-ping drumming on to the window made me hold my breath just so he’d stay a bit longer.


https://i.imgur.com/SYavGH4.jpg

The day before yesterday, I met up with a frog who sat on the country road a foot out from the edge. We were face to face for an eternity. It tickled my belly. When a car came around the bend, I scooted him back to the safety of the marshy grasses. I wished him well and reminded him to look both ways before crossing.

I’m grateful, for the lasting memories created with all people both on-line and off and places I’ve had the opportunity to travel. They’ve help to round out this experience - life.

All a priceless lottery.
Strat, hear, hear to you winning the lottery you’re after, as well.http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/kiss-lips.gif

All my love your way,
Paula


For what it's worth Runningdeer, you and a few other people are among a small group of people I truly appreciate. When my health went south you and a few people came to my aid even though we never talk (I never really chat with folks on the net). I'm more or less a regular guy so my words are all I have to offer but I wish I had some degree of money or power to make sure the wind is always at your back.

In life and on the internet there are just absolute ****heads everywhere and I've become accustomed to this. I have a ton of people in my phone to call but only a very few are true friends. Hell, if any. Truly. I think we all intellectually understand this but not everyone gets it if that makes sense. You are one of the types of people that can be a true friend. You are Gods lifeline for people like me.

I support your computer lite diet, it's a healthy one for sure. God bless you and may you win the lottery.

[justntime2learn]

Is it better to lay?


False eyes are staring
Disrespectfully and untrue
The burden that we are carrying
Is way too much for me and you
Sometimes it is better to lay
Don't you think?
I'm evaporating
A veil of smoke is what I am
Your thoughts will take on their way
To grow old and to be certain
Sometimes it is better to lay
Don't you think?

RTIRTUGqlJ8

[Patient]

I support your computer lite diet, it's a healthy one for sure. God bless you and may you win the lottery.


Bless you, too, Strat.
I wish, I wish
I had a magic way
to poof
your cluster head aches away.

I’m still working to perfect: These aren't the droids you're looking for. Move a long.


GO_xfR64qSk


I won the lottery when I walked away from the tick-tock-clock-world. I traded a larger retirement pension for a smaller one. When you don’t require much because you no longer need to fill the beast of “gotta have it to feel complete”, the smaller one nets out higher.

There’s more time for the immeasurables: peaceful heart, walks, study, even chores aren't chores. I wish that for everyone sooner than later.

I live the lottery. The kind that’s important to me. Time. Time to do and not do. Watch. Sit. Sharpen imagination, creativity, silence, inner voice, sensations, wind songs through trees.

Last week, a little woodpecker guy came knocking at my screen door for an afternoon snack of bugs and what-nots. The ping-ping drumming on to the window made me hold my breath just so he’d stay a bit longer.


https://i.imgur.com/SYavGH4.jpg

The day before yesterday, I met up with a frog who sat on the country road a foot out from the edge. We were face to face for an eternity. It tickled my belly. When a car came around the bend, I scooted him back to the safety of the marshy grasses. I wished him well and reminded him to look both ways before crossing.

I’m grateful, for the lasting memories created with all people both on line and off and places I’ve had the opportunity to travel. They’ve help to round out this experience - life.

All a priceless lottery.
Strat, hear, hear to you winning the lottery you’re after, as well.http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/kiss-lips.gif

All my love your way,
Paula


For what it's worth Runningdeer, you and a few other people are among a small group of people I truly appreciate. When my health went south you and a few people came to my aid even though we never talk (I never really chat with folks on the net). I'm more or less a regular guy so my words are all I have to offer but I wish I had some degree of money or power to make sure the wind is always at your back.

In life and on the internet there are just absolute ****heads everywhere and I've become accustomed to this. I have a ton of people in my phone to call but only a very few are true friends. Hell, if any. Truly. I think we all intellectually understand this but not everyone gets it if that makes sense. You are one of the types of people that can be a true friend. You are Gods lifeline for people like me.

I support your computer lite diet, it's a healthy one for sure. God bless you and may you win the lottery.

I totally identify with what you are saying. :)

I was sitting in the backyard with a racoon the other night.

[Rosemarie]

I read this article from writer Elizabeth Gilbert and I think it will resonate with lots of people here. I think. I might be wrong.

This is a map of the Mississippi River created in 1944 by cartographer Harold Fisk. It is called a “meander map “ It demonstrates all the various paths the Mississippi has taken over the millenian. The different colors represent moments in history when the river jumped her banks and change her course dramatically. Native Americans used to move their settlements along with the river’s constant shifts and changes , but Americans saw things differently. In the 1940’s the Army Corps of Engineers decided to lock the Mississippi River into a certain course. They built walls and levees and declared : “ these are now the official boundaries of the Mississippi River. She doesn’t move and inch from here. “ Nature of course has had different plans.

Elizabeth Gilbert says she is bringing this up because she has been thinking about controlling her own nature. She sees the rules and boundaries that she has set for herself over the years and how she has often failed. She thinks about the vows she had made for herself and others about where she is going to be next year or who she is going to be next year. Endless, expensive , stress-inducing efforts to civilized the river of her being. But if you were to look at the history of her life, it would look very similar to that map here. This map could be a portrait of her own heart’s journey.

In her own words she says “ I often say that after a certain age, every woman in the world could write a memoir called : Not What I Planned . We change. Life changes. We often feel shame , confusion , anger about all those shifts and pivots. But what if we just trust the river? She seems to know where she wants to go. Onward “

That got me thinking about my life. I have never been the type to plan too much ahead of time , never one to make a list of new year resolutions. No set of boundaries for myself. I trust my inner river and do not make long term plans. I think I am more of a go with the flow type of person.

Edit. Added another thought.

[Delight]

I won the lottery when I walked away from the tick-tock-clock-world. I traded a larger retirement pension for a smaller one. When you don’t require much because you no longer need to fill the beast of “gotta have it to feel complete”, the smaller one nets out higher.

There’s more time for the immeasurables: peaceful heart, walks, study, even chores aren't chores. I wish that for everyone sooner than later.

I live the lottery. The kind that’s important to me. Time. Time to do and not do. Watch. Sit. Sharpen imagination, creativity, silence, inner voice, sensations, wind songs through trees.

Last week, a little woodpecker guy came knocking at my screen door for an afternoon snack of bugs and what-nots. The ping-ping drumming on to the window made me hold my breath just so he’d stay a bit longer.



The day before yesterday, I met up with a frog who sat on the country road a foot out from the edge. We were face to face for an eternity. It tickled my belly. When a car came around the bend, I scooted him back to the safety of the marshy grasses. I wished him well and reminded him to look both ways before crossing.

I’m grateful, for the lasting memories created with all people both on line and off and places I’ve had the opportunity to travel. They’ve help to round out this experience - life.

All a priceless lottery.

Hi Paula and Strat and All who are hanging out in what's happening...

I said THE SAME THING about the lottery... I won when I was fortunate enough to be positioned where I am now. Yesterday on my walk I saw a TINY box turtle, frogs, a HUGE hornet paper nest up in the trees, 3 deer, heard so many insects, smelled the earth and felt the coolness in the shade of a hot afternoon in beginning fall. It felt as breathelessly exciting as my run-on sentence!

Life in my little world is so good. I LOVE my new career as a massage therapist. I have as many contacts with people as I like and and have animal friends who trust me and are happy (dogs, cats, mini-dinosaurs).

I listened to a video about Alex Tanous last pm. He talked about the presence of an energy that I feel too, often. I LOVE that the world can be so paranormal when we are willing.

What I cannot quite understand is why everyone does not have the life I imagine is most suitable... one where we are not FORCED to do and behave a certain way BUT we just naturally act towards ourselves and others in a BEAUTIFUL synergy of love and wisdom. I really feel "the reality" where we decide from deep knowing of truth and then act based on our deep self confidence. I consider this KIND of truth to be like the golden rule... not "content" but a principle to be applied....It has occurred to me that I just cannot believe that a GREAT WAVE is not flowing to wash away what looks TO ME as confusion about what we can be, do and have?

Thanks for pulling me in Paula... I usually just lurk here.

Love is real and practical and I am SO GRATEFUL for this energy in my life.
Going to post a cool video about Alex Tanous I am listening to again as I write....

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[RunningDeer]

I totally identify with what you are saying. :)

I was sitting in the backyard with a racoon the other night.
It wouldn't surprise me if the animals feel the waves of energy coming from the universe to bath All with an upgrade AND a tweak of it's about time for a whopper of a change.


http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/monster-dance.gif.................http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/monster-smile2.gif


There are wetlands and streams where I live, so it’s not uncommon to see Blue Herons stealthily cut through the skies. To this day I’m unsure if it was the angle or if one of them slipped through a slit in the earth fabric. It was quick. First, there was a long beak, grayish head and neck, and then the rest of the body and legs appeared. He flew low and close enough to the second story window that if it were opened, I’d smell his silent wings in flight.

It’s the same area and window where a white crow came for a quick visit in the pine tree. A few months later, a black deer on the country road waited for his buddy to cross the field that’s by the waterfall pond on the other side of the property. (photos below)

It was a kismet day this past August 1st, when two Blue Herons stood on a sand bar in the river across the road. Typically, they’re loners. And a couple of days back, a Blue Heron made an unusual 3 or 4 zig-zagged flight pattern before he decided to head to the water-fall pond.

So, so many blessed critter teachers around here that encourage one to stay present and with an open heart. ♡


https://i.imgur.com/Iez1ASy.jpg

https://i.imgur.com/CVkEV6C.jpg

[greybeard]

There have been quite a few situations recently where animals--fish--have "asked" humans for help and where animals have helped humans.
Think there is a raising of consciousness going on.
Eckhart Tolle said as best I can remember "The bad is getting worse an the good is getting better"
This would seem to be true.

Chris

[Franny]

A few years ago while living in the mountains I went outside to catch any cool breezes on a hot summer night. In past years I would drop into the hammock, but in the spring the squirrels had chewed up the strings and completely destroyed it - just for fun!

That night I tossed a beach pad onto the ground near a cedar tree and lay gazing up at the stars in a meditative mood. Suddenly I heard a thumping just a few feet from my head. I knew that sound; it is the warning thump skunks make with their front feet. It was telling me that I was scaring it and if I didn't stop I would be sprayed. I didn't move, too scared although I appreciated the warning. The skunk thumped again, both of us even more scared. But, heart thumping, I slowly moved behind the kindly sheltering cedar and got out of the skunks way.

The skunk moved on and I regained some composure and moved back into the house.

No more hot nights summer on the ground.

[RunningDeer]

Thanks for pulling me in Paula... I usually just lurk here.
Hi Rosemarie and Maggie. I lurk, too. Thanks for the video. I’m still watching.


Elizabeth Gilbert says she is bringing this up because she has been thinking about controlling her own nature. She sees the rules and boundaries that she has set for herself over the years…

Both your posts resonate with me. If this place is a construct, why not create my own paradise?

I’ve posted before. It feels like I’ve lived 4-5 lives in this one life. Much growth in each. This one is the longest and the best so far, all because I rewrote the rules in my game.

The animals, the dreams, the synchronicities are some of the confirmations that demonstrate my little corner of the world continues to flourish in health and creativity and knowings that it’s not just another a cross road, but an expansion of the one I’m building.


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http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/faint.gif I'm a thread hogger. Stepping out...:wave:

[Forest Denizen]

I feel special being a part of this outpouring of such heartfelt love and understanding!

@Paula, I sent a personal message a couple months ago, however your mailbox wasn't accepting messages at that time. I'll send another one :)

@Rachel, can you provide a link for those of us wanting to subscribe to your thread, "Experiencers"? I feel some of us may be greatly helped by participating!

@Ken, I love you :heart: You have an ability to bring people together, both in public view and outside the scenes. I feel that you have continued the love born from friendships formed at Laughlin and on-line, and I deeply thank you for that.

Laughlin enabled us to build the most meaningful, heartfelt, like-minded and spiritual relationships, even beyond the Forum, and I know I will never be the same. I am in direct contact (daily in some cases) with some of those I met at the meeting. These relationships have helped me enrich my entire life in ways that I haven’t the words to describe.

justntime, thank you SO much for this! It started my day in such a lovely way!! :flower:



I won the lottery when I walked away from the tick-tock-clock-world. I traded a larger retirement pension for a smaller one. When you don’t require much because you no longer need to fill the beast of “gotta have it to feel complete”, the smaller one nets out higher.

There’s more time for the immeasurables: peaceful heart, walks, study, even chores aren't chores. I wish that for everyone sooner than later...

...Last week, a little woodpecker guy came knocking at my screen door for an afternoon snack of bugs and what-nots. The ping-ping drumming on to the window made me hold my breath just so he’d stay a bit longer.

The day before yesterday, I met up with a frog who sat on the country road a foot out from the edge. We were face to face for an eternity. It tickled my belly. When a car came around the bend, I scooted him back to the safety of the marshy grasses. I wished him well and reminded him to look both ways before crossing.

I’m grateful, for the lasting memories created with all people both on line and off and places I’ve had the opportunity to travel. They’ve help to round out this experience - life.

All a priceless lottery.

Hi Paula and Strat and All who are hanging out in what's happening...

I said THE SAME THING about the lottery... I won when I was fortunate enough to be positioned where I am now. Yesterday on my walk I saw a TINY box turtle, frogs, a HUGE hornet paper nest up in the trees, 3 deer, heard so many insects, smelled the earth and felt the coolness in the shade of a hot afternoon in beginning fall. It felt as breathelessly exciting as my run-on sentence!
...



I totally identify with what you are saying. :)

I was sitting in the backyard with a racoon the other night.

It wouldn't surprise me if the animals feel the waves of energy coming from the universe to bath All with an upgrade AND a tweak of it's about time for a whopper of a change.


http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/monster-dance.gif.................http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/monster-smile2.gif

There are wetlands and streams where I live, so it’s not uncommon to see Blue Herons stealthily cut through the skies. To this day I’m unsure if it was the angle or if one of them slipped through a slit in the earth fabric. It was quick. First, there was a long beak, grayish head and neck, and then the rest of the body and legs appeared. He flew low and close enough to the second story window that if it were opened, I’d smell his silent wings in flight.

It’s the same area and window where a white crow came for a quick visit in the pine tree. A few months later, a black deer on the country road waited for his buddy to cross the field that’s by the waterfall pond on the other side of the property. (photos below)

It was s kismet day this past August 1st, when two Blue Herons stood on a sand bar in the river across the road. Typically, they’re loners. And a couple of days back, a Blue Heron made an unusual 3 or 4 zig-zagged flight pattern before he decided to head to the water-fall pond.

So, so many blessed critter teachers round here that encourage one to stay present and with an open heart. ♡


https://i.imgur.com/Iez1ASy.jpg

https://i.imgur.com/CVkEV6C.jpg

And to everyone else reading this Here and Now, as Delight and Paula have captured so beautifully, above, spending as much time in nature as you can is, IMO, so very important!

Edit: It has enabled me to become more in tune with the magical qualities of this “holographic ,” or, as I prefer, malleable “reality.” I’ve found myself open to the flow of, and moving with, the positive energies all around. Following the pull of my intuition which in turn enables synchronicities to occur..

Rosemarie’s post, above, touches on this as well!

Take off your shoes and walk, stand, or sit barefoot, allowing the soles of your feet to remain in contact with the earth.. ground yourself!.

Paula, what an absolutely beautiful place you live in!! Reminds me of where I lived for a time, in Arkansas..

This may have been posted before but it is such an amazing film! :heart:

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[Gekko]

Hi Village,

I am currently in the process of integrating a very dark and chaotic Fey energy. I would be grateful for willingly and enthusiastically given assistance in effectively containing and navigating the process, for as long as such assistance remains willing and enthusiastic. I wish to do no harm. Please note that I am not looking for an exorcism. Thank you.

[RunningDeer]

Hi Village,

I am currently in the process of integrating a very dark and chaotic Fey energy. I would be grateful for willingly and enthusiastically given assistance in effectively containing and navigating the process, so long as that assistance remains willing and enthusiastic. I wish to do no harm. Please note that I am not looking for an exorcism. Thank you.

Gekko, I wouldn’t know where to begin with an exorcism. While you wait for someone with expertise, I’d pass along what I do whenever an energy that’s incongruous with myself pops in for an uninvited visit.




I call up my energy signature and state: “If [you] are not impeccable in nature or integrous in purpose, [you] are not welcome. Leave Now.”

Typically, they pop out before my thought is completed. Then for good measure, I send along an energy burst.

* Sending, sending, sending to Gekko.https://i.imgur.com/Vlz1VQ6.gif

[Gekko]

Hi RunningDeer, great to see you.

Like I said, I'm not looking to make this energy go away. It was invited, and I am looking to integrate it into my personality. It being invited by myself (albeit somewhat unconsciously) is the reason I am not asking for assistance that is not consensual and enthusiastic. I will be OK in any case. It would simply be a great relief to have help, since this is more intense and the process longer than I anticipated.

Thank you,
Gekko

[RogueEllis]

I'm sorry to spoil all of this deep spirituality, but I just saw the Joker movie, and thought it was quiet good. Now off to work on some volunteer work for a part of our Avalon site! Now, back to the spirituality!

[RunningDeer]

Hi RunningDeer, great to see you.

Like I said, I'm not looking to make this energy go away. It was invited, and I am looking to integrate it into my personality. It being invited by myself (albeit somewhat unconsciously) is the reason I am not asking for assistance that is not consensual and enthusiastic. I will be OK in any case. It would simply be a great relief to have help, since this is more intense and the process longer than I anticipated.

Thank you,
Gekko

Great to see you, Gekko. :wave:

I had to re-read the part again before I posted, but alas, went off in another direction: integrating a very dark and chaotic Fey energy.

I understand there are some that do an energy exchange with what many would typically consider dark energy from planets and such. When in reality for them, energy is energy and it depends on how we each label it, ie. good, bad, dark, light. It's simply an exchange of information/consciousness.

I’ve experienced an energy that was neither good nor bad from an ‘entity’ that briefly walked beside me. I was more curious of the distinct sensation that was like none other. I’ve since encountered a similar type of energy.

Though, I’ve not been too experimental of late. Seems my focus went on a soda break. http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/belly-laugh.gif

[Gekko]

I feel a great amount of relief. If assistance from here has been involved, thank you very much.

Blessings.

[RunningDeer]

http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/faint.gif I woke from my third nap of the day. They’ve been 2-3 hours long. It averages out to that I nap more than I’m awake for almost a week. Last evening I got hit with an energy wave hard enough that I took a couple of Advil. As it turned out, it’s the Schumann resonance is going wonky. I also surmise it's part of the metamorphosis we're going through.

Yesterday, I had to look up what year it was, 2019 or 2020? I’m off on the month and day. I’m living a Monday when in reality it’s a Sunday or vice versa. Of late, there’s an uptick on the feeling being pulled out of my body, and/or a quick tug of my spirit out to the right of the physical body. (to name a few)

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October 9, 2019 - October 11, 2019 [image from site (https://www.disclosurenews.it/en/schumann-resonance-today-update/)]

https://i.imgur.com/havteLt.jpg


There are a lot of sites I skimmed. Here’s a few snippets:




“Many of us are paying attention to the little things that occur and seem out of place in our every day lives. We are being shown that the concept of 3rd dimensional time/space is shifting right before our eyes.”

“…A lot of people within this genre have experiences time anomalies throughout recent years including the feeling of time speeding up or possibly feeling like time is slowing down.

“Some people have reported the feeling of moving in and out of dimensions while others are seeing background people filling in for these gaps within the matrix.”

[ongoing time anomalies (https://in5d.com/strange-ongoing-time-anomalies)]


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“...It has long been suspected that human consciousness can impact the magnetic field of the earth and create disturbances in it (and vice versa), particularly during moments of high anxiety, tension, and passion. If you aren’t aware that we’re living in a time of high anxiety, tension, and passion, then you probably are not aware. In addition to the highly charged political, social, economic, and personal environments of our current time, many people have also been feeling like time is speeding up. This might explain the intense disturbance most of us are feeling at this time in history. Could the drastic rise in frequency have something to do with this?

As we know from science, the higher the frequency, the more highly diversified the information those frequencies carry. Since we are organic creatures made of matter and susceptible to electromagnetic fields, and because our lives are inseparable from the earth, then if the earth’s frequency is rising, shouldn’t that also raise our frequency?

Evolution has not always been an easy process, but the energy behind it—the energy of the unified field—is always moving towards greater degrees of organization and wholeness, both within and without. If the earth’s electromagnetic field is raising, then shouldn’t that allow our brain to be able to pick up greater frequencies that are even higher than the stressed state of high beta brain waves? If so,…”

[Spike in Schumann Resonance - Dr. Joe Dispenza (https://drjoedispenza.net/blog/consciousness/what-does-the-spike-in-the-schumann-resonance-mean/)]


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Comment from dated article:


https://i.imgur.com/gVTokWK.jpg

Schumann Resonance Spike Symptoms

Energy sensitives may particularly feel additional stimuli during a Schumann Resonance spike. Some people may feel the following:

Elation / mild euphoria
Increase in conscious awareness
Tiredness or sleeplessness – This can fluctuate
Dizziness / vertigo
Inability to focus
Headaches / migraines
Short term memory issues
Lack of hunger

[resource links (https://in5d.com/todays-live-schumann-resonance-charts-and-resources)]



https://i.imgur.com/F5VZkI8.gif

You’re Not Dying, It’s The Schumann Resonance!





“…and if there is something different causing these symptoms that we are going through, at least we are aware that something is happening globally and millions of people are experiencing this. It at least helps us to realize that we need to take care of ourselves in a more holistic way and that we can share information with each other that helps us feel like we are not alone or that our symptoms are not psychosomatic.

Many people started consciously working with these energetic frequency years ago and have reported on what has worked best for them to be able to feel better. These people, including myself, no longer suffer when huge waves hit, as we have tried many things and compared notes with each other.”


List of Symptoms
How to read the Schumann Resonance
How to acclimate the body to accept the higher frequencies

[article (https://in5d.com/youre-not-dying-its-the-schumann-resonance)]

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[greybeard]

Thanks for this Running Deer.
Make sense.
Ive had numerous tests but nothing wrong.
Much the same symptoms as expressed in the link.
Its long I will have to read several times.i not think the resonance of the earth was capable of change--Its been the same since tests began.
Chris

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[RunningDeer]

Thanks for this Running Deer.
Make sense.
Ive had numerous tests but nothing wrong.
Much the same symptoms as expressed in the link.
Its long I will have to read several times.i not think the resonance of the earth was capable of change--Its been the same since tests began.
Chris

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Hi Chris, I recall our PM conversation months back. Here we go again with similar symptoms. Both now and then my sense is it’s the same. After the other round on May 14th-15th and then May 19th for nine more days, I came away feeling like it was a mini-transformation.

I chalk up the shifting, growing pains within are like the metaphoric butterfly. The naps are healing and deep. My dreams have changed to include different settings and people. They mostly were in a school setting.

In the late 1980’s-early 1990’s, I had a prophetic dream. Many of us had our hands out helping everyone up the stairs and/or floating upward. There was a distinct difference between those anxiously waiting to cross and those that had. Their bodies were the same but the brightness of their field and youthful appearance was regained. Cliché? Yes. But back then my goals and reading material were very different.

The most important part of the dream was as I continued to pull them up, I kept watch for Michael, my son. What I didn’t know was he’d pass on years later. So I (wrongly?) surmised the prophetic dream as future preparation for his death.

https://i.imgur.com/rwOW7mc.gif

Every now and again, I recall the metaphor like it was yesterday. The analytical part of me says pay attention. Watch and see what you see.

[raregem]

Running Deer- thank you so much for posting about the Schumann resonance and your efforts sleeping. For about a month now (with a few days of normal sleep mixed in), I have been sleeping 7 hours then wake only to fall asleep a few more hours, wake and sleep again a few more hours. Then I would sleep 4 or 5 hours for a single day then back to many days of deep, long sleep. I was getting concerned. Anyway, thank you again for the links and a possible answer to an unusual sleep. Seems all is on track and well.

[RunningDeer]

Running Deer- thank you so much for posting about the Schumann resonance and your efforts sleeping. For about a month now (with a few days of normal sleep mixed in), I have been sleeping 7 hours then wake only to fall asleep a few more hours, wake and sleep again a few more hours. Then I would sleep 4 or 5 hours for a single day then back to many days of deep, long sleep. I was getting concerned. Anyway, thank you again for the links and a possible answer to an unusual sleep. Seems all is on track and well.
Hi Rhonda, your sleep patterns match mine. As crazy as it sounds, some nights I’ll drink a cup of coffee. It’s enough to calm the mind and body to get back to sleep.

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I’m revisiting when the solar flares pop off and how geomatic storms and such effect us on all levels. I’m picking up tips from guys like Mark Wages a.k.a. Blue Koolaid Oh Ya Channel (https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCP_2pB_qofrxDIPLJmqDImg/videos).

His video format is to pass along tips for beginners and then encourages people to skip towards the end where there’s no dialogue. He films the current data using dashboard apps (https://www.swpc.noaa.gov/communities/space-weather-enthusiasts) which are available to everyone. I’ve bookmarked some of them. Mark is a guest in the video below.


Objects, Anomalies, Cosmic Energy, and Threats from Space with Mark Wages (Blue Koolaid Oh Ya)
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[greybeard]

Running Dear----Dearest Paula.
This could do with a thread of its own--maybe even a sticky in the spiritual section.
Though Im not sure what else can be said.
The magic phrase contained the word, heading, the link "Dying" that's what it feels like some days.
I have to check what day it is.
I feel im being looked after.

This is why

Havent seen my ex wife for over a year and she visited full of enthusiasm having completed a new hypnotherapy course--came to fix me--my childhood unresolved neglect.
She did a very powerful regression-me as a child confronting my mum. then me as an adult being there for little christopher.
I hadent asked for help but she knew my health not up to going to our sons wedding.

Now on the link are similar issues--past unresolved blocks.

So there you go.
With love Chris

[RunningDeer]

Running Dear----Dearest Paula.
This could do with a thread of its own--maybe even a sticky in the spiritual section.
Though Im not sure what else can be said.
The magic phrase contained the word, heading, the link "Dying" that's what it feels like some days.
I have to check what day it is.
I feel im being looked after.

This is why

Havent seen my ex wife for over a year and she visited full of enthusiasm having completed a new hypnotherapy course--came to fix me--my childhood unresolved neglect.
She did a very powerful regression-me as a child confronting my mum. then me as an adult being there for little christopher.
I hadent asked for help but she knew my health not up to going to our sons wedding.

Now on the link are similar issues--past unresolved blocks.

So there you go.
With love Chris

Beautiful, Chris! Just beautiful! Wonderful that you were able to find resolution on the diverse levels and connections.

[Baby Steps]

While Greta and extinction rebellion plot the coming dystopian future global corporate dictatorship.

Freedom loving humans everywhere should answer with positive options that do not include erosion of individual freedom, a civil right

EMERGENT TECHNOLOGIES FOR A SUSTAINABLE LOW CARBON FUTURE

molten salt thorium reactors

permaculture

human mass transit on solar hybrid airships

wind/solar powered sea freight

blockchain powered consumer activism

3d printing

aquaponics

battery technology

health bots

[RunningDeer]

As a follow up to Thursday & Friday pain (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?30405-Here-and-Now...What-s-Happening&p=1318244&viewfull=1#post1318244), it came back on Sunday and Monday, the 14th. It’s typical for the agencies to shutdown cameras, delete footage or replace a movie with a screen shot. Sometimes the screen shots are from a different year where they forgot to alter the time stamp. Fortunately, there are dedicated people that keep watch and they’ll screen shot or download the footage before the agencies remove the evidence.

Revisiting this material has helped me understand why out of nowhere I have to nap or why there’s unexplained aches and pains, or when and why there are spikes in testy interpersonal communications across the globe.

For many, it’s not our imaginations that we feel or experience an uptick of activity to our spirit and bio-avatars. There’s an upside to this cosmic juicing. Our creativity, thoughts and ideas have quickened.

This is the most recent example days of data removed of the Schumann Resonance model. The missing footage matches with that second round of pain on Sunday-Monday. Fortunately it wasn't as intense.


screen shot from video below @ 16:54 (https://youtu.be/TFTtYvRjpvU?t=1014)

https://i.imgur.com/Tm8cNgt.jpg

EARTHQUAKE WATCH / 62 DAYS OVERDUE FOR 7.0 OR BIGGER / CME NOT EARTH FACING
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[RunningDeer]

SHORT VERSION: The easiest way to find the tools, graphs, and movies that enthusiasts use to track cosmic phenomena is @ Scott’s site, planetxnews.org (https://www.planetxnews.org), on the right side under “Research Links”. Scroll down to the bottom for cell phone users.


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Credit goes to Blue Koolaid Oh Ya (https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCP_2pB_qofrxDIPLJmqDImg/videos). I'll leave one last video from this evening where he shares those links and adds pointers.

AND Mark, a.k.a. Blue Koolaid, shows a one-two CME punch. It's the first time for him. It's just after the 7 minute mark. The double CME began on the 12th. My first two day bout was on the 10th when the Schumann Resonance was wonky. (graph here (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?30405-Here-and-Now...What-s-Happening&p=1318244&viewfull=1#post1318244)) Mark reports that it's still down. He had access to it for a little bit. That graph is in the post (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?30405-Here-and-Now...What-s-Happening&p=1318835&viewfull=1#post1318835) above.


https://i.imgur.com/0pOLDbb.jpg

So there's lots of on-going cosmic activity. As mentioned, many of the tools are being manipulated so we're unable get a comprehensive picture. One way to get around it is use a variety of tools.

I'll wrap this up by saying some may see this material as conspiratorial. I get it. I walked away from it several years ago. Those two hits last May, 11 days total and these recent 4 days has peaked my interest again. For how long? Heck, if I know.


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2 EARTHQUAKES IN CALIFORNIA/ 2 CORONAL MASS EJECTIONS LIGHT UP PX OBJECT /
SCHUMAN STILL DOWN!
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[RunningDeer]

..........Signs of Fall
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pack up summer shorts
unpack winter gear
coats and hoodies
tailgate picnics and parties
mismatched colored mittens
two left mittens



pine cones carpet the ground
leaves dance and twirl one last hurrah
leaf blowers, rakes, and pumpkin face plastic bags
leaf piles, little legs, mittened hands
burning leaves, smoke-snap-crackle-pop


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burnt roasted pumpkin seeds
barn fires on the beach
dust off ice fishing gear
squirt guns go on strike
kite battles in the skies



switch-out baseball cleats for soccer cleats
check wellies boots for spiders and mice
strategically placed pamphlets for Caribbean Cruise
bird feeders at the ready for winter residents
hot chocolate
hot chocolate, marshmallows and smores



habitachi grills cool their jets
squirrels stash cache
squirts of DW2 on tricycle bells
knit beanies and Fadoras fashion show parade



chicken noodle soup and grilled cheese sandwiches
chicken noodle soup and saltine crackers
family night, micro-wave pop corn and movies
strategically placed pamphlets for Disneyland and Disney World
pumpkin and apple picking



pumpkin carving
gourd and corn stalk decorations
Google gourd - fruit or vegetable?
banana bug (the stink bug) invasion
fall wardrobe smells of cedar trees



trees pack-up their summer wardrobe
trees dress in colorful formal wear
bi-planes give fly-by to trees in formal wear
trees express joy at highway onlookers



replace summer screens for winter windows
lady-bugs come in to hibernate
beach balls deflate
sand pails and shovels fade in color
folded up beach chairs in lopsided piles
folded up lawn chairs with matching umbrella and table



pumpkin and spice muffins and pies
apple and spice muffins and pies
baby's plastic pool filled with beer and soda pop
hot dogs and hamburgers still on the grill
marshmallows in an open flame pit


by: RunningDeer

[greybeard]

Sandy Hook
A conspiracy theorist who claimed that the Sandy Hook massacre did not happen, has been ordered to pay $450,000 (£351,000) to the father of one of the victims.
Leonard Pozner, whose six-year-old son Noah was one of 26 killed in the massacre, was awarded the money by a jury in Wisconsin after successfully suing James Fetzer for defamation.
The retired professor, who co-wrote the book Nobody Died at Sandy Hook with Mike Palacek, who agreed a settlement deal with Mr Pozner last month. Its terms have not been disclosed.

https://www.msn.com/en-gb/news/world/conspiracy-theorist-ordered-to-pay-dollar450000-to-victims-father-for-claiming-sandy-hook-shooting-was-fake/ar-AAIUpip?ocid=spartandhp

[PurpleLama]

Well, we finally hit 50 degrees F, and I am so ready for summer to begin.

[RunningDeer]

California Condor Chick #980 Fledges! – Oct .14, 2019 (30 seconds)




"Big news! At just over 6 months of age, the young condor nestling #980 has fledged after 187 days. Watch the young condor confidently take wing on October 14. After making a sustained flight out of view, the fledgling returns to perch on its favorite rock in the nesting cave. Way to fly #980! "

"This condor nest, known as the Pole Canyon nest, is located in a remote canyon near the Hopper Mountain National Wildlife Refuge. The parents of the chick in the Pole Canyon nest are mom #563 and dad #262. Dad #262 was laid in 2001 and was the first viable egg laid in the wild since the reintroduction program began.

He was actually one of two eggs laid to a trio (male #100 and females #111 and #108) but was brought into captivity to ensure proper incubation. He hatched at the Los Angeles Zoo and was released back to the wild a year later in 2002. Mom #563 hatched at the Oregon Zoo in 2010. This is their first nesting attempt together but both have nested previously with mates who are now deceased. A single egg was laid in this nesting cavity, and the chick hatched on April 10, 2019."


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Watch live at www.allaboutbirds.org/condors
More here (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tpN4NXyZ74k): “About the Condor Recovery Project”




The goal of the California Condor Recovery Plan is to establish two geographically distinct self-sustaining populations, each with 150 birds in the wild and at least 15 breeding pairs, with a third population of condors retained in captivity. As the Recovery Program works toward this goal, the number of release sites has grown. There are three active release sites in California, one in Arizona, and one in Baja California, Mexico.



Female Condor Shows Off 9-Foot Wingspan During Feeding Visit With Chick (@ 1:30 minutes)
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Condor Chick Flaps Tiny Wing Nubs and Explores Nest Site (2:30 minutes)
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[Delight]

I just re-read our Christy Laver's book. It is her story from a time in her life. It has some really meaty grappling with multi-dimensionality. You can read it from amazon. She is a very good writer and expresses in a thoughtful and well digested perspective.

Jump Into the Blue: A True Story (https://www.amazon.com/Jump-Into-Blue-True-Story-ebook/dp/B00WWD34K6?SubscriptionId=AKIAILSHYYTFIVPWUY6Q&tag=duckduckgo-exp-a-20&linkCode=xm2&camp=2025&creative=165953&creativeASIN=B00WWD34K6)

In the last few weeks, I have been very discouraged about what I see around me. I bought some huge bags of beans and rice and sprout seeds when I read about Bill and Rosemarie. So now my diet will be heavy on beans and rice (ok by me) and whatever happens is great.

But I am still holding out that suddenly everyone gets "IT" that we are not needing all the horrid drama. I am holding out for reality that honors the organic perfection of life and how well supported we are and that we are in relationship not a war. Yes there have been energetic aches in my body too and forgetfulness. I don't even try to recall what day it is. I just look at my calendar.

One thing for sure, my body is a projection of my consciousness and I have proof. I have an imaginary machine I use that recycles dense energy. It sucks up the blocks installed by contact with the matrix daily life. Then I have room for refreshed life force which energy all around and within and everywhere. This is something that I have to consciously engage but it always makes me feel revived. I never feel "bad" for long.

Sending my appreciation for all the people here and now involved in this forum.

[RunningDeer]

Sending my appreciation for all the people here and now involved in this forum.
Much appreciation to you too, Maggie. Your posts are informative. The 'Murder by Injection' (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?40941-Horus-Ra-as-the-Archontic-Alien-Parasite-A-follow-up-interview-with-Maarit&p=1319345&viewfull=1#post1319345) video is one of the most recent examples. It reinforces the importance of healthy choices and keeping the immune system strong.




Eustace Mullins (1923-2010), discusses one of his best-selling books; 'Murder by Injection' exposing the unholy dynasty of the big drug companies, the medical establishment, the Rockefeller syndicate and the evils of the cut-slash-and-burn cancer racket that has killed millions in the name of 'fighting cancer.'

[video here (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?40941-Horus-Ra-as-the-Archontic-Alien-Parasite-A-follow-up-interview-with-Maarit&p=1319345&viewfull=1#post1319345)]



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I just re-read our Christy Laver's book. It is her story from a time in her life. It has some really meaty grappling with multi-dimensionality. You can read it from amazon. She is a very good writer and expresses in a thoughtful and well digested perspective.

I enjoyed Christy's perspectives on the forum. Her posts are insightful and often provided timely confirmations.


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[RunningDeer]

Attack of the Ladybugs

The Day Of The Triffids came to mind while I was coaxing ladybugs into a dixie cup. I go to release three and six more come in. Ugh!

A few manage to stay every winter. Try as they might, they can’t pass through the sunny window into the snowy landscape; A+ effort. I’d mark a calendar with “X’s” if I thought it’d help.

My guests are finicky eaters. One year I put them on a fresh kale leaf. They weren’t having it. They continued their hunt for Micky-D’s fries. One went to town on a bit of lettuce and sesame tahini.

Eat, eat, but they don’t listen. By spring, they’re vitamin and mineral deficient. Their bright orange wings are a tawny brown. The first warm days of spring I let them go one by one. I wave good-bye and let them know I’ll leave the light on and see them in the fall.

I saw the original The Day Of The Triffids. Talk about a heavy dose of fear programing. Spoiler alert: the solution was salt water.


Man Eating Plant Attacks - The Day Of The Triffids (1962) (4:14 minutes)

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Day of the Triffids Trailer (1962) (2:20 minutes)

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[RunningDeer]

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FeederWatch Cam at Sapsucker Woods, NY http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/fly-branches.gif





This FeederWatch cam is located in the Treman Bird Feeding Garden at the Cornell Lab of Ornithology. Perched on the edge of both Sapsucker Woods and its 10-acre pond, these feeders attract both forest species like chickadees and woodpeckers as well as some species that prefer open environments near water like Red-winged Blackbirds.


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Cornell Lab Bird Cams (https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCZXZQxS3d6NpR-eH_gdDwYA)




Watch LIVE at http://AllAboutBirds.org/CornellFeeders for news, updates, and more information about the pond and its surroundings.

The Wild Birds Unlimited store at Sapsucker Woods has been a part of the visitor experience in the Cornell Lab’s Visitor Center ever since the new building opened in 2003. They are the preferred vendor of official Cornell Lab merchandise and offer a dizzying number of feeders, binoculars, and birdwatching-related gear and gifts to make any bird enthusiast happy. WBU has also pledged support for many of the Cornell Lab’s local efforts, including providing the bird feeders and food for this FeederWatch Cam.



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[RunningDeer]

I shared symptoms I experienced on May 14-15th, May 19th-28th and then again October 14th-15th.

Some concerns were:

Directed energy weapon
Trickster Entities, i.e. energetic hit
Health related
Feeling the collective stew of emotions

I found a monthly calendar site. As it turned out, for example, on May 21st there were 6 CME’s. October 14th there were 5. I was unable to check all of the days because the data is missing. Which is a common problem for reason explained below. Other graphics show the intensity, speed and such. This tool (http://spaceweather.gmu.edu/seeds/monthly.php?a=2019&b=10) and the others (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?30405-Here-and-Now...What-s-Happening&p=1318948&viewfull=1#post1318948) help me understand the collective escalation of feelings, behaviors and symptoms such as, dizziness, nausea, sleepiness, forgetfulness, lethargy, confusion. People prone to headaches and migraines may find patterns.

The graphics below are examples of the monthly calendar with links to the daily mini-movie. The top number is the day and the lower number is the number of CMEs that were detected. ‘0’ = missing data.

As mentioned in other posts, it’s not uncommon for data to be pulled, or ‘they’ shut down the cameras, or the energy blasts may knock them out. I’m early in the learning curve, but some of the folks I’m following say that there’s an escalation of hiding the data over the last 9-12 months. There have been times where they’ve out right switched the graphic and forgot to delete the time stamp.


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Below are two modified samples, i.e. shortened versions. The site provides both side by side. The reason for the modification is it'd be a lot of work to download and compile 66 gifs and net out at 3-4 MG for each.


https://i.imgur.com/FOxrG0A.gif
calendar link (http://spaceweather.gmu.edu/seeds/monthly.php?a=2019&b=05)

CME - May 21st (http://spaceweather.gmu.edu/seeds/dailymkmovie_ql.php?cme=20190521)

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calendar link (http://spaceweather.gmu.edu/seeds/monthly.php?a=2019&b=10)

CME - October 14th (http://spaceweather.gmu.edu/seeds/dailymkmovie_ql.php?cme=20191014)
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[Wind]

Ears ringing... Peace to everyone.

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[RunningDeer]

Heart Warming
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Breakfast and Lunch
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[RunningDeer]

https://i.imgur.com/bNqMH0b.gif
This gives new meaning to multi-D, inner-earth, alternate timelines, alternate realms.

Flat-earth? https://i.imgur.com/rwOW7mc.gif

P.S. Wonderful to see you around, kerrielea.https://i.imgur.com/Vlz1VQ6.gif

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[RunningDeer]

Snoring Hummingbird (41 seconds)
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Hummingbird Pool Party! (48 seconds)
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Eagle Owl in Flight in Slow Motion (21 seconds)
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Hummingbird Sleeping Upside Down (2:50 minutes)
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[avid]

I have a snoring blackbird in the tree at the bottom of the garden, a wee high-pitched regular mini-snore, so funny. When it’s sunny, and no wind, it’s so peaceful.

[Baby Steps]

Just gawping at the numbers viewing the general discussion forum, no particular thread or category showing as full of readers. Such a pattern would suggest someone mentioned the forum itself to alot of people...

[RunningDeer]

Just gawping at the numbers viewing the general discussion forum, no particular thread or category showing as full of readers. Such a pattern would suggest someone mentioned the forum itself to alot of people...
I see what you mean, Baby Steps:

1,040 guests in the General section
2,384 guest on the forum
2,446 total online users


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[RunningDeer]

I have a snoring blackbird in the tree at the bottom of the garden, a wee high-pitched regular mini-snore, so funny. When it’s sunny, and no wind, it’s so peaceful.
Lucky you, avid. You've got a special friend. I couldn't find any snoring blackbirds; only sunbathers, sleepers and singers.

https://i.imgur.com/kDShPyp.gif Which brings me to what I've noticed even more so over the last couple of weeks. It's gotten harder to find what I'm looking for in the search engines and on YouTube. They direct me to where they want and it's usually only general and/or out dated information.

[Orph]

I like to take a nap in the sunshine on my back patio. I wonder if the birds think it's cute when I snore!
:sarcastic:

[Bluegreen]

Just gawping at the numbers viewing the general discussion forum, no particular thread or category showing as full of readers. Such a pattern would suggest someone mentioned the forum itself to alot of people...

http://images.techhive.com/images/article/2016/11/robots_pc-100692431-large.jpg

[RunningDeer]

A special shout out to Lady Valerie.

https://i.imgur.com/fNZDF6j.jpg

[Bluegreen]

There once was a ghost named Steve
Who was rude like you wouldn't believe
When people would see'm
They wouldn't believe'm
And now he refuses to leave!


http://bigmemes.funnyjunk.com/pictures/Annoying+ghost+marios+ghost_4d0395_3338060.jpg
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[RunningDeer]

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Excerpted from my book, The Way of the Warrior. This is Miyamoto Musashi's 21 rules for The Way of Walking Alone.

Stefan Verstappen (https://www.youtube.com/user/shaolinmountainbike/videos) @ ChinaStrategies.com (http://www.chinastrategies.com/the-way-of-the-warrior/)



# 1. Accept everything just the way it is
# 2. Do not seek pleasure for its own sake
# 3. Do not give preference to anything among all things
# 4. You think lightly of yourself and deeply of the world
# 5. Be detached from desire your whole life
# 6. Do not regret what you have done
# 7. Never be jealous
# 8. Never let yourself be saddened by the loss of objects and possessions
# 9. Resentment and complaint are appropriate neither for oneself nor others
# 10. Do not let yourself be guided by the feeling of lust or love
# 11. Do not have likes or dislikes for things
# 12. Be indifferent to where you live
# 13. Do not pursue the taste of good food
# 14. Do not hold on to possessions you no longer need do not keep that which is of no use
# 15. Do not act following customary beliefs
# 16. Do not collect old weapons or practice with weapons beyond what is useful
# 17. Do not fear death
# 18. Do not seek to possess other goods or Fife's for your old age
# 19. Respect Buddha and the gods without counting on their help
# 20. Do not abandon your good name even if it means abandoning your own life
# 21. Never stray from the way

[RogueEllis]

I am dressing up for the Halloween party, and preparing to celebrate Samhain. I'm going as a gay witch today.

[Ernie Nemeth]

Gay witch? What's that look like? Can you post a pic later? Very interested...

[RogueEllis]

It's very particular. But everyone thinks I'm from Harry Potter.

[Bluegreen]

:cat:
________

Ghosts in the graveyard
The night streets shimmer
Spirits and spectres
A glimpse
And a glimmer
Now dimmer
And dimmer

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[RogueEllis]

I dressed as myself but I didn't havr to keep my wand hidden.

[Ernie Nemeth]

My women couldn't get out for Halloween as she usually does because of her back. She's often in debilitating pain.

So...I went to the store and bought her a bag of candies and chips and chocolate. Brought it home and placed it near her head so when she woke up that is what she saw first. She was so happy.

It's the little things folks...

[RunningDeer]

Wild Elephants salutes the men who rescued their baby elephant from a ditch (3:47 minutes)
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Elephant Herd Saves Baby Elephant From Drowning (2 minutes)
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[RunningDeer]

A treasure among the dross for the Great Blue Heron. Worth the effort in the end for this beautiful, graceful, patience Being.



Great Blue Heron Gets More Than It Bargained For (1:47 minutes)
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Cam Filled With Visitors On Sunny Afternoon in NY (1:04 minutes)




It's a sunny afternoon in Sapsucker Woods, and our woodland residents are flocking to the Cornell Feeders for a snack. Enjoy the vibrant colors and serene scene.

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Watch LIVE at http://AllAboutBirds.org/CornellFeeders for news, updates, and more information about the pond and its surroundings.

This FeederWatch cam is located in the Treman Bird Feeding Garden at the Cornell Lab of Ornithology. Perched on the edge of both Sapsucker Woods and its 10-acre pond, these feeders attract both forest species like chickadees and woodpeckers as well as some species that prefer open environments near water like Red-winged Blackbirds.

[RogueEllis]

Just got out of food bank. Always have a mental crisis afterwords. Do I deserve this? Am I taking advantage? Am I abusing a resource? Or am I not?

[Valerie Villars]

Rogue, do NOT have a mental crisis over that. You are getting some help, food-wise, from a resource that provides it.

Back in my wandering, younger days, I also used some of those resources. I am glad it's helping you. I would have missed you here if you had starved to death. :)

Be thankful. You need to stay strong. You're needed here and these are trying times. We all need to keep our strength up.

[RunningDeer]

https://i.imgur.com/mFKxZ9f.jpg

[Valerie Villars]

I just spent the last few days replacing some outside door casing. I had never done this before and it came out beautiful. Just sussing the situation took a lot of thoughtfulness. And then came the choosing of wood, measuring, cutting, painting, nailing, screwing.

I didn't read any books or watch any videos. I just figured it out. Seems minor to some, but I am damn proud of it. It was really hard work and I am tired in a good way.

I just had to tell someone. :)

[RunningDeer]

I just spent the last few days replacing some outside door casing. I had never done this before and it came out beautiful. Just sussing the situation took a lot of thoughtfulness. And then came the choosing of wood, measuring, cutting, painting, nailing, screwing.

I didn't read any books or watch any videos. I just figured it out. Seems minor to some, but I am damn proud of it. It was really hard work and I am tired in a good way.

I just had to tell someone. :)


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Wow! Outstanding Lady Valerie! Congrats.
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[Valerie Villars]

I know it's stupid but that is one of the proudest accomplishments of my life so far. And I have done a lot of stuff in my life. Big, big grin. I'd drink some brandy if I had some.

Ya'll are the best!

I'm done bragging but this smile won't leave my face. Good on me.

[RunningDeer]

I know it's stupid but that is one of the proudest accomplishments of my life so far. And I have done a lot of stuff in my life. Big, big grin. I'd drink some brandy if I had some.

Ya'll are the best!

I'm done bragging but this smile won't leave my face. Good on me.

Isn't it strange how hard it is to talk about accomplishments without the worry that it comes across as a brag? I'm with you, Valerie. It's a MAJOR accomplishment. There's a small percentage of people that can do what you did.


A brandy for you and one for me.
Clink-clink for your awesome accomplishment.
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[Kryztian]

Just got out of food bank. Always have a mental crisis afterwords. Do I deserve this? Am I taking advantage? Am I abusing a resource? Or am I not?

Rogue, I've volunteered in a Foodbank. Most of the people there are volunteers and we are there for the same reason: Our Earth produces an abundance of food and everyone should have it! Unfortunately , we live in such a messed up world where everyone is supposed to have green pieces of paper (a.k.a. "money") so that food isn't available to everyone, even though there is plenty to go around. There are strange rules about the green pieces of paper that insure some people have a lot more than others.

All those people who volunteered, you are making them very happy by coming to the food bank to get what you need! They are relieved to know that you are there, instead of in a place where you aren't getting enough to eat.


You can always tell the volunteers how much you appreciate them and if you have the time or inclination, you can always ask if you can help too - perhaps they need more volunteers - it is a way of showing gratitude and returning the favor.

[RunningDeer]

http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/fly-branches.gifFirst Snowfall Brings Birds To Cornell Feeders (3:25 minutes)





The snow has started to fall in Sapsucker Woods, NY, and the forest residents are lining up for a quick meal at the Cornell Lab FeederWatch cam. Blue Jays, Mourning Doves, and Red-winged Blackbirds round out the list of visitors this morning.


Have a restful weekend, Everyone. http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/earthhug.gif


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[Kryztian]

http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/fly-branches.gifFirst Snowfall Brings Birds To Cornell Feeders (3:25 minutes)





The snow has started to fall in Sapsucker Woods, NY, and the forest residents are lining up for a quick meal at the Cornell Lab FeederWatch cam. Blue Jays, Mourning Doves, and Red-winged Blackbirds round out the list of visitors this morning.


Have a restful weekend, Everyone. http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/earthhug.gif


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Wow, thanks so much for this Paula. I once lived up in Ithaca and somehow never got to Sapsucker Woods or even figured out exactly where it is. (That's not Beebe Lake in the background is it?). Nice to be able to watch this.

[RunningDeer]

(Changed that for this.)

https://i.imgur.com/5rfPIdr.jpg

[RunningDeer]

Wow, thanks so much for this Paula. I once lived up in Ithaca and somehow never got to Sapsucker Woods or even figured out exactly where it is. (That's not Beebe Lake in the background is it?). Nice to be able to watch this.
You're welcome, Krystian. :wave:

The site helps me stay connected to Foxie Loxie. We’re in contact but it gives me a better idea of her surroundings in real time. I’ve book marked the live cam (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bjXGHYHqMr8) and run it often. (push play) As of this post, there are 700+ watching.

This is what’s posted in the summary:




Watch LIVE at http://AllAboutBirds.org/CornellFeeders for news, updates, and more information about the pond and its surroundings.

This FeederWatch cam is located in the Treman Bird Feeding Garden at the Cornell Lab of Ornithology. Perched on the edge of both Sapsucker Woods and its 10-acre pond, these feeders attract both forest species like chickadees and woodpeckers as well as some species that prefer open environments near water like Red-winged Blackbirds.

[greybeard]

There has been a lot of challenges with internet today--not just in UK as far as I can tell--certainly seems a little unusual.
Dont know whats causing this.
Any ideas?
Chris

[RunningDeer]

There has been a lot of challenges with internet today--not just in UK as far as I can tell--certainly seems a little unusual.
Dont know whats causing this.
Any ideas?
Chris

https://i.imgur.com/TYG6B4S.jpg


Chris, I don’t know what caused it but I know how to fix it. Toss magic beans at your computer and water. Careful.... not too many beans and not too much water or you’ll have a whole new set of problems.


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Kidding aside, my email went wonky a couple of days this week. And the internet is slowwww. This morning, I had to change the batteries for two things. Both registered low and wouldn't work.

♡

P.S. signing off...http://paula.avalonlibrary.net/smilies/s-good-night.gif

[RunningDeer]

The Crab Mentality and Why Humans Do This (2:14 minutes)

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If you take a group of crabs and put them in a barrel or bucket something very interesting happens. Now individually on their own, each one of these crabs can clawed their way out out and go off back into the water. However if even one of these crabs tries to find its way out, the rest of the crabs will gang up and start tugging it down.

Now if this crab still persists, the other crabs will gang up and break its arms. And at that point if it still continues to persist, the crabs will kill him. They literally will gang up and murder this other crab.

The message from me to all of you is “please do not have a crab mentality”.


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It's called the crab mentality but unfortunately as human beings possess a very similar trait. If you try to better your circumstances in your life and you are in this barrel let's say as a metaphor. This environment might be a workplace or a community or just happen to be the circumstances you are unfortunately in right now. And you’re surrounded with people who are doing the same thing that you are. And then you want to go out and follow your passion and your purpose in your belief. The rest of these people or crabs might try pulling you back.

Because the saying essentially is, ”If I can have it, neither can you. Now physically they might not break your arms but they might break your spirit. They might not kill you, but they might kill your dreams.

What you need to do is you need to get out of this environment and better your life. Because we all as human beings are meant for greater bigger and better things. And we all must follow our passion or purpose or believe our dreams, our desires, our inner calling.

The people around you they have their own passions, beliefs and purposes. And they might have shared it with you or they might not have. But when they do, what I encourage you to do is do not be the crab that pulls them down, and lets them know that ”If I can have it, neither can you. If you support the people around you and support their passions, dreams and beliefs, they will inevitably support you.

The message from me to all of you is “please do not have a crab mentality”.

[raregem]

Oh my. Gives a new slant on seeing people or rather a single person I have in mind. She would do things that would undermine or diminish what I offered. She would say she was a crab and walked sideways. That is why she did things the way she did albeit to my detriment. It did not matter to her. I would hear how it was my fault or I was mirroring some sort of weakness on my part by speaking up about my discomfort. It came to a final point when I almost literally had my legs crushed by a truck. I was blamed for something I had no control of and I decided in a nano second not to be harmed. That was the last time I have spoken to her. The crab information you shared is an interesting comparison to human behaviour. Thank you.

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From Earth to Multiverse (6:50 minutes)

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Dr. Mark Skidmore’s Daughter Composed and Sings: Missing Money (2:41)

#212020 (https://twitter.com/hashtag/my212020?src=hash)
Way to go, Maria!
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* Info found on Greg Hunter vid: Dr. Mark Skidmore - Financial Crisis Might Be Best Thing (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9hnjxqSYJRM&t=0s)




Solari.com - Missing Money (https://missingmoney.solari.com): $21 Trillion dollars is missing from the US government. That is $65,000 per person - as much as the national debt!





What's going on? Where is the money? How could this happen? How much has really gone missing? What would happen if a corporation failed to pass an audit like this? Or a taxpayer?

This means the Fed and their member banks are transacting government money outside the law. So are the corporate contractors that run the payment systems. So are the Wall Street firms who are selling government securities without full disclosure. Would your banks continue to handle your bank account if you behaved like this? Would your investors continue to buy your securities if you behaved like this? Would your accountant be silent?

This is the reason that there is such a strong push to change or tear up the US Constitution. This is why members of the establishment say it is "old," "outdated!" This is why there is such a push for gun control. Don't buy it! We can use the Constitution to get our money and our government back. It is time to enforce the US Constitution.

The Solari Report has been covering the missing money since 2000 when Catherine Austin Fitts began to to warn Americans and global investors about mortgage fraud at the US Department of Housing and Development (HUD), the engineering of the housing bubble that lead to trillions more dollars in bailouts and funds missing from the US government starting in fiscal 1998.



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Preparing for the first big snow storm. A one-two punch from a 2 1/2 day storm.
Snow then sleet and rain, back to the heavy kind of snow.

Snow gear, shovel and ice melt salt at the ready.
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Powerful 3 minute video.


This Life I Live (3 minutes)



A new weekly tv series that begins airing in January 2020. It showcases the deeply personal, unfolding life story that Rory shares on his blog this lifeline.com in a weekly vlog format.
Roy Freek (https://www.youtube.com/user/milkhousemedia)

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RE: “They Live” sunglasses & Non-player Character




The “what if characters in video games were actually living people” premise is now almost 40 years old, bridging Tron, Wreck-It Ralph, Ready Player One (and, for a really deep cut, Automan). It gets in Free Guy, in which Ryan Reynolds is a non-player character in an open-world, Grand Theft Auto-type video game who sees the truth with a pair of They Live sunglasses and starts fighting back.

Free Guy Trailer
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I buried a crystal under a bush by my deck stairs about five years ago as part of an end of an era ceremony. This morning I caught it out of the corner of my eye while shoveling a new batch of snow. It was under the same bush clear as day. I had buried it about 3-4 inches in the soil and recovered it with the layers of stones used for drainage.

A week or so ago, I remembered the crystal and thought it probably was too extreme an action to take. Then I forgot about it. I’m glad the old friend has come back for a stay.

[Ron Mauer Sr]

Christmas Past - fun memories

Christmas past was a lot of fun years ago when we had large family gatherings, with young children. The festivities started Christmas eve with a large dinner and almost no presents under the Christmas tree. After dinner Santa Claus telephoned, instructing all of us to exit the big house and crowd into the adjacent small cabin. Santa had said "Do not return to the big house too soon or I will gone in a *flash* without leaving presents."

With the children in the cabin, my sister and co-conspirator turned on the cabin interior light switch. A tape recorder played in the attic. The children heard Santa on the roof, talking with Rudolf. They discussed if the children had been bad or good. (Earlier, I had real intel from my sister.) The recording included sound effects of reindeer hoofs on a metal roof. With the recording over, the children were encouraged to gather by the window and watch for Santa Claus. From behind the cabin, in a really good Santa outfit, I slowly moved past the cabin window with a sack full of presents.

While the young children were distracted, my son quickly moved unobserved to place many presents under the tree in the big house.

Sister and co-conspirator Lynda encouraged the children to disobey Santa's warning about waiting. The children, with big hopes of seeing Santa, moved slowly under cover of darkness, across the yard to the big house.

With a flash camera I waited and watched from an upstairs window. The setup was complete. As the children slowly moved across the yard, the camera flashed. Panic replaced stealth as the children ran to the house. Much to their relief, many presents were found under the tree.

[Stephanie]

Christmas Past - fun memories

Christmas past was a lot of fun years ago when we had large family gatherings, with young children. The festivities started Christmas eve with a large dinner and almost no presents under the Christmas tree. After dinner Santa Claus telephoned, instructing all of us to exit the big house and crowd into the adjacent small cabin. Santa had said "Do not return to the big house too soon or I will gone in a *flash* without leaving presents."

With the children in the cabin, my sister and co-conspirator turned on the cabin interior light switch. A tape recorder played in the attic. The children heard Santa on the roof, talking with Rudolf. They discussed if the children had been bad or good. (Earlier, I had real intel from my sister.) The recording included sound effects of reindeer hoofs on a metal roof. With the recording over, the children were encouraged to gather by the window and watch for Santa Claus. From behind the cabin, in a really good Santa outfit, I slowly moved past the cabin window with a sack full of presents.

While the young children were distracted, my son quickly moved unobserved to place many presents under the tree in the big house.

Sister and co-conspirator Lynda encouraged the children to disobey Santa's warning about waiting. The children, with big hopes of seeing Santa, moved slowly under cover of darkness, across the yard to the big house.

With a flash camera I waited and watched from an upstairs window. The setup was complete. As the children slowly moved across the yard, the camera flashed. Panic replaced stealth as the children ran to the house. Much to their relief, many presents were found under the tree.

Dearest Ron... what warm,lovely memories,
almost felt I was there too!
:star::bearhug::star:

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[Ron Mauer Sr]

My Christmas wish is that humans become so smart, so clever, so intuitive that manipulation of humans is no longer possible.

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My Christmas wish is that humans become so smart, so clever, so intuitive that manipulation of humans is no longer possible.

[Gracy]

My Christmas wish is that humans become so smart, so clever, so intuitive that manipulation of humans is no longer possible.

That's a fine wish Ron, I second that.

Merry Christmas to all my Project Avalon brothers and sisters! :sun:

[RunningDeer]

Merry Christmas to all my Project Avalon brothers and sisters! :sun:

The same to you, Gracy May. https://i.imgur.com/Vlz1VQ6.gif

Here’s a recycled Christmas message from last year. (Shhh) The 2nd Christmas-y 2019 winter storm photo is where I live.

And today? I’ve got my fingers crossed that the power lines don’t come down in this ice storm that began over 14 hours ago with still more to go. A strange and predictably, unpredictable winter. (again)
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[Bluegreen]

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CATHERINE AUSTIN FITTS PT 2: BLACK BUDGET 2020 SHOWDOWN AND SECRET SYSTEM OF FINANCE REVEALED C.A.T. REVEALS THE MISSING MONEY 12/20/19
I was unaware of the death of CAF mother. Thanks onawah for posting the video (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?101087-Catherine-Austin-Fitts-all-things-Fitts&p=1328301&viewfull=1#post1328301). http://avalonlibrary.net/paula/smilies/rose.gif

A snippet of the Catherine Austin Fitts and Daniel Liszt, Dark Journalist conversation and also from solari.com (https://library.solari.com/meditation-at-the-crossroads-2/): “Meditations at the Crossroads,” by Catherine Austin Fitts @ 1:10:12 (https://youtu.be/yNG0lt3n2Us?t=4212). (video below)




“…there are two mysteries that I wanted two deaths that I wanted to solve. Who killed Forrestal and why? And who killed my mother and why? It took the whole process of the litigation and coming through that and all the research to come to a point where I felt like okay you know I think I have the answer…

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“…I would whack them on something that they cared about. One of the things I discovered pretty early on nobody cared about me and my litigation. So I couldn't whack him back on the litigation. I had to whack him back on something that the general population cared about. But one point they did a particularly bad whack and I said okay that's it. And I wrote “Meditations at the Crossroads,” which is about my mother's death. Though that was my whack back, I’m still waiting on my father. I’ve got that one written.”


Meditations at the Crossroads
October 21, 2014
[link (https://library.solari.com/meditation-at-the-crossroads-2/)]


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Barbara Kinsey Willits Fitts and Dr. William Thomas Fitts, Jr.
(then Captain, US Army Medical Corp, circa 1941-2.)

Honor thy Father and thy Mother

— The Fourth Commandment

By Catherine Austin Fitts




[Note from CAF: I published this article ten years ago – on August 25, 2004. My goal was to use the story of my mother’s death to explain why it is so important that we stop focusing on the immediate corruption torturing us individually and bring transparency to the real governance system on planet earth – that is the unifying challenge that we all share. This is where real positive change can emerge.]






She leaned over the banister to say hello and goodbye that sunny February morning. My father being in Chicago for a medical conference, I was the last member of the family to see her alive. I was the first member of the family to arrive the next day as she lay dead on the roof of her house in West Philadelphia.

There was a large crowd outside along with news media trucks. The house inside was overrun by police. If there was evidence to be had at a crime scene, the police did a thorough job of trampling it. Like a dog that needs to leave its scent behind, “the boys” love a good inside joke. Just to make sure their power did not go unappreciated, a bottle of Southern Comfort was pulled out on the kitchen counter when I arrived at her death scene. I moved it back where it belonged. The informal assessment was suicide. Of course, I knew different. So did my father. He was devastated.

My mother in her lifetime cared tremendously about her community. Active in civic affairs, she started a school, edited a medical bulletin and performed an endless series of services to help her neighbors and the University community.

As the narcotics trafficking and government fraud grew in our neighborhood, so did my mother’s anger. Before she raised her children, she earned her economics graduate degree at the University of Pennsylvania and was an economist at the Federal Reserve Bank of Philadelphia. She was able to connect the dots between the rich profits flowing to the powers that be from illegal activities and the degradation of family, environment and culture. She kept trying to communicate with my father and grandfather that something was terribly, urgently wrong. They dismissed her.

My father and grandfather had learned early and painfully that the safety and support of their wives and children required the flow of money and positions that only “the boys” could and would provide. They both worked tirelessly to do good works – to teach, to save lives, to build up the institutions in their lives. Accomplishing their dreams and missions required working with “the boys.”

Over time, they became accepting of “how the system works,” enjoyed the insider perks and were too ignorant of financial equity flows and the big picture to understand the direction of the game. They lived in a separate all-male universe where the flow of benefits and inside information funded our family’s day to day needs.

A week before the Alaska oil discovery was announced, my father rushed home to liquidate all available assets to buy Atlantic Richfield stock. He told me later that one oil industry tip paid for all three children’s college education – something that a lifetime of work had not yet funded. According to one written report, my grandfather’s leaving the Rockefeller Foundation related to promoting philosophies not pleasing to one of the Dulles brothers. What I remember is how much he felt the hurt of it.

When did my mother arrive at the crossroads? When did she realize that sacred tribal secrets and national security secrets had deteriorated into something else? I never knew. The battleground was not in the world of ideas and the spoken word – it was never open.

Toward the end of her life, my mother’s growing rage ran the risk of burping into our overt conversations. In December 1974, the New York Times — her daily newspaper — started to illuminate illegal domestic activities of the US intelligence community. In Congress, the Church Committee hearings in Congress in 1975 continued to make first page news in the New York Times – as then Central Intelligence Agency Director William Colby cooperated with Congress.

The Church Committee hearings made clear the systematic nature of government funded covert activities. The hearings confirmed that what my mother experienced in her own community were part of an intentional, well funded and growing corruption machinery. The hearings illuminated COINTELPRO, the enforcement effort to manipulate political activities by citizens. The hearings touched on the role of the universities and intellectual community and mind control research and experiments. Information about the systemic nature of what was happening nationwide and globally told a story about the forces destroying her family and her community while using military and intelligence operations and new technology to engineer more wealth and power for the rich and powerful.

The Ford Administration responded to the Times allegations with the Rockefeller Commission lead by Vice President Nelson Rockefeller —the former governor of New York and heir to one of the richest fortunes in America –which pursued its own investigation — not so much of the truth, rather how to make sure the deepest truths never saw the light of day. The Rockefeller Commission report was issued in June 1975.

After two failed assassination attempts on his life in September of 1975, President Ford fired the truth telling William Colby. On the urging of Henry Kissinger, Secretary of State (and until recently head of the National Security Council and always the Rockefeller man), Ford nominated George H. W. Bush to be the Director of the Central Intelligence Agency before Christmas in 1975. It was said Bush would try to reverse the “damage” done by Colby with the Church Committee.

At the time of the announcement and confirmation process of Bush’s appointment, my mother went wild with anger. To this day, I wonder what it was that she said or did or threatened to do that may have caused her death. To this day, I wonder if she learned the hard way that commissions in such instances are created for damage control — which includes identifying which documents need to be shredded and which witnesses need to be turned, hired to a new job far away, sent on a long sabbatical or killed.

My mother had many reasons to hate the likes of Rockefeller, Bush and “the boys” — and they had reason to fear the secrets that she could tell. But it was not just the people who governed the game who had reason to fear. By 1976, many people had gone along with the flow of dirty money for many years.

The scholars at the University of Pennsylvania — at the business, law, engineering, veterinary and medical schools —had made it a practice to never speculate about — let alone admit — the connections between the various financial flows around them. The silence was golden on the relationship between the revenues required to fund their expensive academic enclave and the rich flow of profits from narcotics trafficking and mortgage fraud that was slowly liquidating the human and financial capital in the Afro-American communities around them.

The most obvious of sources and uses of funds within a small geographic area were obfuscated by an endless maze of financing engineering — government contracts and grants, foundation donations, endowment shenanigans. For all the genius in the University community, simple addition was not in their intellectual portfolio and the financial flows of places were not in their curriculum.

It’s hard to know what may have been the straw that broke the camel’s back. All I know is Bush’s nomination was confirmed on January 30, 1976. While my father was in Chicago for a medical conference, my mother’s body was found on the roof of her home within a week, in early February. The Church Committee shut down a month or so later in March.

The attendance at the funeral overwhelmed the Quaker meeting house in downtown Philadelphia. One after another of our friends and neighbors stood to tell of my mother’s secret kindnesses and generosity. A rent paid, a child helped through college, medical treatment arranged, a nursery school created and funded. There was a deep sadness that day as our family and a people grieved for an intelligent loving woman and for what the violence of her death meant we had become.

Three thousand families lost loved ones on September 11, 2001. Contrary to popular opinion, there was nothing new about covert operations and power politics killing or failing to protect innocent Americans. On that day there were millions of families living in America that had already lost loved ones and livelihood to black budget operations. And there were many more families worldwide. Whether domestic or global, the list of specific causes of the death of innocent civilians is a long one — hard narcotics trafficking, financial fraud, military vaccines, false imprisonment, nuclear fallout, chemicals , suppression of medical technologies, environmental damage, war on drugs enforcement and more.

It is worth meditating on what would happen if all of our families realized that it was not planes, drugs, poisons, vaccines or warfare that killed our mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, daughters, or sons. It was people who did the killing – often with only a spoken or written word. It was people who failed to protect. It was people who let it happen on purpose. It was people who did not hold other people accountable.

Those of us who have lost loved ones to America’s black budget operations may be rich or we may be poor. We may be black, brown, yellow or white. We may be citizens of many nations. We may live in the East or the West or in the North or the South. We may be Christian, Buddhist, Muslim or Jew. We may be conservative or liberal in our views. We may divide up our philosophies in many ways based on a whole series of intentionally controversial and divisive issues. Yet we all share an intimate connection. The people responsible for the death of our loved ones and the failure to hold them accountable are a surprisingly small number of people.

The true intimacy of our connection will be revealed – and real solutions will begin — when we ask and answer two simple questions: Who did this? Who let this happen on purpose?


My mother died in 1976.
Nelson Rockefeller was Vice President of the United States.
Henry Kissinger was Secretary of State.
Brent Scowcroft, formerly Kissinger’s deputy, was National Security Advisor.
George H. W. Bush was Director of the Central Intelligence Agency.
Donald Rumsfeld was Secretary of Defense.
Richard Cheney was White House Chief of Staff.
Carla Hills was Secretary of HUD.
C. Douglas Dillon, former Secretary of Treasury under President Kennedy who had served as a member of the Rockefeller Commission in 1975 as Chairman of the Rockefeller Foundation,  was head of the Dillon family trust that owned Dillon, Read & Co. Inc.



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CATHERINE AUSTIN FITTS PT 2: BLACK BUDGET 2020 SHOWDOWN AND SECRET SYSTEM
OF FINANCE REVEALED C.A.T. REVEALS THE MISSING MONEY (1:17:00)
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[Rosemarie]

The Guest House by Rumi. We have to be open to whatever life throws at us. Our attitude and commitment without fear or loathing, and with whatever subtle faith we can muster , allows us to become wiser , kind and more compassionate to self and others.

[Stephanie]

⭐️💖💖⭐️

Wishing you all,

Heaven in your heart,
Starlight in your soul
and
Miracles in your life.

⭐️💖💖⭐️

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⭐️💖💖⭐️

Wishing you all,

Heaven in your heart,
Starlight in your soul
and
Miracles in your life.

⭐️💖💖⭐️
♡
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[onawah]

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Merry Xmas, Avalonians!

[Melinda]

Some Christmas cuteness. From some masterful story tellers :biggrin:

(May your own story be just as you wish it to be, as we shimmy toward the new year.)

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And for those who may have spent their yule time alone (something I’ve chosen to do more than once) :

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[meeradas]

Something special for you:

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- instant subscription -


PS: Thank you, Juan (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/member.php?23295-betoobig)!

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THE ART OF BALANCING STONES (3:22 minutes)




Very often I see people commenting that it's fake, that it's impossible to do this and that it's photoshopped or glue. But I kinda get excited about those reactions, because it's a proof that there is so much more in this life than we could ever imagine.

If some people think that this is impossible, Imagine then how many more things there is in life that we still think is impossible just because we never really tried it. Just because we're already put the frames on what is possible or not.



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Jonna Jinton (https://www.youtube.com/user/JonnaJinton/videos)

The very first time I tried balancing stones was back in 2010. I saw some stone sculptures in a park, when an old, wise man told me that it was a symbol for the balance of nature. I liked that idea, and after that I started making easy stone sculptures. After a while, I started experimenting with balance and I tried to make stone sculptures that had such small balance points so that it almost would look impossible.

I really loved that.

Both because it felt like a challenge, but also because it forced me to get really still and quiet, and focus on one thing only; to find the tiny, tiny balance point.

It more and more turned into some kind of meditation.

[Melinda]

THE ART OF BALANCING STONES (3:22 minutes)

Very often I see people commenting that it's fake, that it's impossible to do this and that it's photoshopped or glue. But I kinda get excited about those reactions, because it's a proof that there is so much more in this life than we could ever imagine.


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Amazing, RunningDeer.

When I think of balance incarnate, I think of Olga Pikhienko, and when I was fortunate to see her perform in the Cirque du Soleil production 'Varekai'. Described by one source as an "acrobatic tribute to the nomadic soul,” the show was a magical journey that seemed to take place in a mysterious forest.

Another part I remember was two acrobats, with feathered hair, swinging at speed on ropes, shifting their body shapes with such precision in harmony, it reminded me of atoms spinning through the air. The seemingly solid reflecting the microcosm within. Its invisible realm of perpetual motion.

The whole thing was sublime. I made a montage of Olga (below) handbalancing on canes. She would hold those positions for lengthy moments as the cane was slowly turned. I read an interview with her years ago where she spoke of her relationship with her body. How she informs it what to do with her will.

Acrobats are magical people to me. Wizards with their own muscle and masters of grace as they take flight above ground or hold their minds steady...

So inspiring

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[justntime2learn]

I loved your post Paula and it helped me to think.

The art of balance or the balance of art?

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[RunningDeer]

When I think of balance incarnate, I think of Olga Pikhienko, and when I was fortunate to see her perform in the Cirque du Soleil production 'Varekai'. Described by one source as an "acrobatic tribute to the nomadic soul,” the show was a magical journey that seemed to take place in a mysterious forest.

I loved your post Paula and it helped me to think.

The art of balance or the balance of art?


Thanks for sharing Melinda and justntime3learn.

Athletes: power, grace, beauty, and centeredness. Moving meditation.


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Calling Home my Cow Stjärna - Kulning (2:18 minutes)




During the summer the young cows (heifers) comes to my village to spend some months eating fresh grass from the fields by the lake. As some of you know, I actually bought one of these cows last year.

From the first time I saw her I just fell in love with her fluffy ears and kind eyes, and every time I did some kulning she was the first one to come.

She spent the winter on the farm, and now she is back here again to enjoy another summer outside.

Almost every evening I go down to the field and call for her. I named her Stjärna, which means star in Swedish. But of course, all the other ladies comes as well, even though they are not yet sure what to think of me haha. But we have a whole summer to get to know each other.


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[Strat]

A friend of mine passed Friday. I don't want to talk about it too much I'll just say he was a good guy. He is survived or whatever by his daughter who must be utterly heartbroken.

This reminded me of another death that I didn't want to report because I didn't want to sour everyone's Christmas. The pastor of my/my parents church used to travel abroad. He helped set up a church in Venezuela over a decade ago. He kept in touch with the pastor of that church ever since. A while ago he lost contact. He later found out that he was kidnapped and subsequently killed.

I don't know what happens after death, and I don't believe anyone that says they know. I just hope these folks are okay. Especially my pool hall buddy. I'll watch after his daughter whenever I see her, I'll have a drink in his memory and I'll think of him from time to time when I shoot. I'll still wear my hat backwards Frank, you old ****. You can bust my balls about this next time I see you. I'm sure you will.

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Katelyn Ohashi - Perfect 10.0 on Floor Exercise (2 minutes)





Katelyn Michelle Ohashi is an American former artistic gymnast who competed for the University of California, Los Angeles. She is a six-time All-American and was a four-time member of USA Gymnastics' Junior National Team, the 2011 junior national champion and the winner of the 2013 American Cup.



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January 12, 2019




Marius Urzica - Perfect 10.0 on the Pommel Horse (2:30minutes)





Marius Daniel Urzică is a Romanian gymnast. Urzică is an Olympic champion, a three-time world champion and a three-time European champion on pommel horse. He competed at three Olympic games, medaling each time on pommel horse and contributed to the team bronze in Athens 2004.


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[Ernie Nemeth]

Here's hoping we all score a perfect '10' in our goals for 2020! :sun:

Happy New Year, Avalon! :Avalon:

All the best
With love :heart:

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Ear Candling

I choose this 6 minute video because a lot of the clickbait vids and photos are sensationalized nonsense. Ear candling is simply extracting excess ear wax.

Equipment:

stainless steel bowl with a little water
mirror
ear candles (https://www.vitacost.com/wallys-ear-candles-beeswax-unscented)
approximately 10 minutes per candle

It’s helpful to pull down on the ear lobe to open the passage way and tilt the head to create an angle. The mirror helps me see when the first strand of ash is ready to drop. Usually it burns down before the second one drops. If there’s a lot of wax, I’ll use a second candle and/or do it two days in a row.


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[Rosemarie]

Happy new year friends. Hope this year brings you health and peace of mind.

The beginning of this year finds me with lots of changes in my near future which I have decided to face head on and with a brave face. After a difficult year when I was very lucky to be able to sell my two properties , pay some debts , I find myself with 3 months to minimize my life, move to a place I bought half the size ( I am full of gratitude to have a roof over my head, food on my table and loving family and friends , do not get me wrong) and for the first time in my life I am finding it very difficult to let go of family heirlooms. What is happening here ?
This is not the first time I have moved, sometimes I had done it in a blink of an eye and never look back, leaving material possessions without a second thought. This time it is more difficult. My parents colonial dinning set for example, which they got in 1952 when my grandparents died. ( much older ) I used to hate it. Now love it. Huge, where you can see the dents and scratches I made with the fork or knife.( savage me ) One of the only things I asked to keep. No place for it now. Tall brass beds from my grandparents house in the beach that my brother did not want and I had in storage in my garage ( no storage place in the new place ) to put in the future in my guest bedroom. Too big also for my new place.
Books ! So many books. I cannot part with the mayority. I have been trying to separate some and give , but mayority in English ( in a Spanish speaking country ) Huge paintings , not to many walls now. Trying to sell. That I don’t care too much for.
It is ridiculous. I know my memories are kept in my heart...... my brother doesn’t understand. He is not that spiritual, just more practical.
Trying to figure out if in a past life I lacked material things and that is why this behavior , or lived in a time and place were books were burned. Don’t know !
Will let you know in a couple of months what happened. What I know is that I want to make a cozy, bohemian home we’re the necessary furniture will be used well and where it will not looked like a place we’re the owner lived in a bigger place and had to minimize and didn’t want to get rid of anything. That would be a no no.

Sorry for this dumb writing, in the scheme of things a minuscule problem, but nevertheless my here and now and what is on my mind lately. Surely just writing it here and sharing will snap me out of this dumb mindset.

Now to more serious topics...........

Pd : maybe there is a place in Cuenca would be interested in books in English for expats ? Majority in fiction.

[RunningDeer]

for this dumb writing, in the scheme of things a minuscule problem, but nevertheless my here and now and what is on my mind lately. Surely just writing it here and sharing will snap me out of this dumb mindset.

Now to more serious topics.........
Happy New Year, Rosemarie. Yes, please keep us posted and Godspeed on your new adventure. https://i.imgur.com/gphBsie.gif

It’s not dumb. Most can identify with you. Change helps me break the attachments to things, people and places that no longer serve. Downsizing is freeing. I never know when the itch comes on, but when it does I grab the green bags and go to town. The rule is once it’s in the bag, it’s g-o-n-e. No peeking.

The older I get, the less I need. Strange how things that once held value turn to dusty-clutter and distraction.

♡

[RunningDeer]

Snippet from “The Handbook for a New Paradigm” (George Green)

No doubt, it’s a review for many, and helpful reminder for some. Knowledge is power. (We know. We know. Enough all ready.) Note: I divided the paragraph for easy reading.





The separation of man from nature by being herded into metropolitan areas is not an accident. It has been used many times to suppress individual power to control the experience of life.

Closely compacted form is more easily pushed to and fro in the effort of moving individuals into experiences that are contrary to their natural desires toward individual responsibility in choosing their life experience. This herding smothers the natural desires and opens the psyche to influence by the confusion that is drawn within the totality of the being.

There is a fundamental call within each for balance. The lack of ability to choose experiences freely causes a distortion of energy pattern that brings intuitional discomfort and searching to change that feeling. This need is then led into unending streams of unfulfilling pursuits by those who would change the destiny of this planetary experience.

Also within those pages it’s stated in terms of the ‘progress of humanity’:





Even the covering of the eyes is changed so that it see its world anew. 

Just as the fetus grows too large for the womb and must give up its current experience and adventure a out into a completely new environment, there are guiding examples out in nature to suggest this process is a natural phase of manifested life experience.


I'd add that if one is unable to step away from the metropolitan areas from time to time, nature can be defined as: cup of java or ice tea, listen to song birds, smile and quietly sit, music, dog’s tail thwacking, cats’ purr, dance, visit the within space, connect with the bigger you that surrounds the bio-body…anything that refreshes, anything that stops the chatter.

We know. We know. https://i.imgur.com/p72p5t5.gif
.......https://i.imgur.com/wTlYXrZ.gif
Enough all ready.


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Free pdfs (http://www.nohoax.com/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=24&Itemid=47) in Spanish, French, Italian, German, Portuguese & audio format of “Handbook for the New Paradigm”.

Volume 1: ”The Handbook for a New Paradigm” (http://www.nohoax.com/media/Handbook_for_the_New_Paradigm.pdf)

Volume 2: “Embracing the Rainbow” (http://www.nohoax.com/media/Embracing_the_Rainbow.pdf)

Volume 3: “Becoming” (http://www.nohoax.com/media/Becoming.pdf)

[onawah]

I should probably read them again, but upon first reading them, I thought Green's trilogy made more sense than anything else I'd read about what's happening and what's coming, with so many diverging forces coming together all at once.

Snippet from “The Handbook for a New Paradigm” (George Green)

No doubt, it’s a review for many, and helpful reminder for some. Knowledge is power. (We know. We know. Enough all ready.) Note: I divided the paragraph for easy reading.



https://i.imgur.com/F5VZkI8.gif

Free pdfs (http://www.nohoax.com/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=24&Itemid=47) in Spanish, French, Italian, German, Portuguese & audio format of “Handbook for the New Paradigm”.

Volume 1: ”The Handbook for a New Paradigm” (http://www.nohoax.com/media/Handbook_for_the_New_Paradigm.pdf)

Volume 2: “Embracing the Rainbow” (http://www.nohoax.com/media/Embracing_the_Rainbow.pdf)

Volume 3: “Becoming” (http://www.nohoax.com/media/Becoming.pdf)

[RunningDeer]

I should probably read them again, but upon first reading them, I thought Green's trilogy made more sense than anything else I'd read about what's happening and what's coming, with so many diverging forces coming together all at once.
Every now and again I pull out my hard copies. Here’s a few more paragraphs from the same chapter.





"You need only to open your eyes, consider the changes in your personal freedoms that are happening in quick succession and listen to (hear) the researched evidence in both spoken and written presentations on your radios, internet and in books. Very soon those will no longer be available to you, leaving only word of mouth, so it is imperative that you respond to this information."

"I can assure you that Jesus, Buddha and Mohammed had nothing to do with it. It is not that these beings did not exist, nor that they were not here to attempt to give you guidance in getting through this dilemma, but the messages they brought were distorted long ago. Neither did they come here to “get you out” by your belief in their existence, past or present. They came to teach you that ... "

Subtle energy is powerful and the most powerful energy is subtle. Your bible says, “In the beginning was the word” but words are thoughts spoken out loud, an inaccurate translation. In the beginning was thought!


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This is not a time to hide in your usual excuse of “what can one person do?” A large number of “one persons” can accomplish a great deal. Becoming “cannon fodder” is not the solution. It is required that you become a much more subtle influence. Learn one truth now. Subtle energy is powerful and the most powerful energy is subtle. Your bible says, “In the beginning was the word” but words are thoughts spoken out loud, an inaccurate translation. In the beginning was thought! That is the subtle energy that we are asking you to employ. Simply change the focus of your thought. Do not allow yourself to dwell upon the horrors of what is planned for you, but turn your thought to what it is that you would prefer to experience.

You are trained by their methodology to think only about the programmed thoughts of acquiring things, opinions of others, self preservation among thieves and murderers, and escape from self directed thoughts through addiction to TV, movies and Soul jarring music. Last but not least, pursuit of sexual experience, be it in or out of monogamous relationships. There is also the mind-boggling profusion of religious entities to further lead you from the personal quest of understanding the connection to the source of your presence on this planet in the first place. I can assure you that Jesus, Buddha and Mohammed had nothing to do with it. It is not that these beings did not exist, nor that they were not here to attempt to give you guidance in getting through this dilemma, but the messages they brought were distorted long ago. Neither did they come here to “get you out” by your belief in their existence, past or present. They came to teach you that you must get yourself through this by taking personal responsibility and creating through thought a new planetary experience. In this way only, will you be able to move through this painful experience.

You accept this responsibility by making a personal commitment between you and the creative energy that focused you through thought into this existence. You will know how to participate in creating what will replace this living nightmare with a new experience! How? You search for it through your desire to know and to participate in its creation. Then through seemingly miraculous coincidence, how to participate shall become known to you. The critical point of the process is in making the commitment within your own awareness that the most important thing is participating in the creation of an experience that is 180 degrees opposite what is now planned to be your final earthly sojourn.

The evidence of the necessity to do this surrounds you in irrefutable profusion. You need only to open your eyes, consider the changes in your personal freedoms that are happening in quick succession and listen to (hear) the researched evidence in both spoken and written presentations on your radios, internet and in books. Very soon those will no longer be available to you, leaving only word of mouth, so it is imperative that you respond to this information. You are encouraged to react only through your change of attitude and in your commitment to become a part of this subtly powerful movement. There will not be an Armageddon as suggested in their version of your bible. It shall be a replacement of their planned world through shifting the focus of the awareness of the beings on this planet toward that which is desired rather than that which is being forced upon them. It shall be individual inner change that shall conquer the outer forces that plan to control your very essence of self-awareness. Upon the acceptance of this clarion call lies the future of your survival and the experiences that wait for you within eternity.


♡

[RunningDeer]

I'm gonna chill for a bit. ♡

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[Stephanie]

I'm gonna chill for a bit. ♡

https://i.imgur.com/lGnZHz8.jpg

:star:💖 But hopefully,never for too long, dearest RunningDeer 💖:star:

[meeradas]

Even if this "ain't your stuff at all", I do urge you to have it fully [multiple reasons] -

Hiromi Uehara, Anthony Jackson, Simon Phillips:

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Moved me to tears.

Nerds: Where's the 1?

[Ernie Nemeth]

Please send healing and prayers to my wife, Veldean.

She is in the hospital on life support.

She collapsed this morning and was rushed to intensive care.

Although she has been sick for many months, with no prognosis after multiple tests and specialists, it is still a very big shock.

I do not know what I'd do without my Valdi girl.

[Mashika]

Please send healing and prayers to my wife, Veldean.

She is in the hospital on life support.

She collapsed this morning and was rushed to intensive care.

Although she has been sick for many months, with no prognosis after multiple tests and specialists, it is still a very big shock.

I do not know what I'd do without my Valdi girl.

Best wishes Sr. And i hope she gets better, i can only say i know that feeling and i wish you will be back to normal soon and be happy both. Much love to you and your family <3

[Mike]

Ernie, my heart goes out to you and your wife. I'll certainly include you both in my prayers my friend. Lots of love to you both.

[Peter UK]

Very sorry to hear that Ernie.

Immense support here at Avalon as always. Stay strong friend.

[RunningDeer]

Prayers and healing sent to Veldean and Ernie. https://i.imgur.com/dbUKIUi.gif

♡

[Gracy]

Oh Ernie I'm so very sorry to hear this. :heart: Healing and prayers coming at y'all from all directions, and your job of course is to keep yourself strong and healthy for when Veldean needs you.

[Tintin]

Wow, Ernie - that's just really awful and I'm very sorry to hear that. :flower:

[Forest Denizen]

Ernie,

I am so deeply sorry to hear this.. it is just devastating news. I will keep you and Veldean at the forefront of my thoughts and prayers.

Sending Love to you both :heart:

[Ron Mauer Sr]

Energy sent.

[onevoice]

So sorry to hear about your wife's condition, Ernie. I've been sending your wife healing energy.

[Stephanie]

Please send healing and prayers to my wife, Veldean.

She is in the hospital on life support.

She collapsed this morning and was rushed to intensive care.

Although she has been sick for many months, with no prognosis after multiple tests and specialists, it is still a very big shock.

I do not know what I'd do without my Valdi girl.

:star::heart:Oh dearest, dearest Ernie and Veldean,
may all your prayers be answered.
Starlight blessings and loving healing. :heart::star:

[Ernie Nemeth]

I have dreamed about Valdi since my early twenties. Always the same woman, always the same face. And when I first saw her, at 45, it was from across the parking lot a long way away. I was intrigued. A few months later I would meet her face to face, those beautiful violet eyes, that tiny girl, I was smitten.

So back in my 20s, having these haunting dreams of my soul mate, I wrote this poem.


Another Day Without You

I woke up with a void in my heart
My mind still reeling from our encounter
Last night in my dreams we met we touched
Only our souls intertwined in reality
I hope that one day my dream comes true
And there will be no more days without you.

I wander around uninterested unmoved
‘Cause you’re not here, and I don’t know where...

Now its finally o’er, this faceless day
And my mind is eager for sleep
For again in my dreams we’ll meet, we’ll touch
And somewhere our souls will be one
I hope that some day soon my dream comes true
And there will be no more days without you!


Thank you for your replies and your concern. I am moved.

[Gracy]

A beautiful story and beautiful poem Ernie, thank you so much for sharing that! :heart:

Are you doing ok?

[Ernie Nemeth]

Hi thanks.

No word about any prognosis but she has developed pneumonia, which she is being treated for. Still under but doing better.

I am ok...a lot of tears, little sleep

A good thing , though, my family has rallied around me. I shouldn't be surprised, I know they love me, but still I am surprised, Even my younger sister called - she never calls. Mary called, that's my other sister, and my parents - twice! And Val's adopted father came by this morning. Plus there were chores to do so I kept busy. Took care of the cat, which is Valdi's usual joy. He misses her.

Hanging in there I guess. The doctor just called, no change. They asked permission to give her some sort of blood products to thin her blood to try and get her kidneys working again...

Thinking of trying to sleep.

[Delight]

I have dreamed about Valdi since my early twenties. Always the same woman, always the same face. And when I first saw her, at 45, it was from across the parking lot a long way away. I was intrigued. A few months later I would meet her face to face, those beautiful violet eyes, that tiny girl, I was smitten.

So back in my 20s, having these haunting dreams of my soul mate, I wrote this poem.


Another Day Without You

I woke up with a void in my heart
My mind still reeling from our encounter
Last night in my dreams we met we touched
Only our souls intertwined in reality
I hope that one day my dream comes true
And there will be no more days without you.

I wander around uninterested unmoved
‘Cause you’re not here, and I don’t know where...

Now its finally o’er, this faceless day
And my mind is eager for sleep
For again in my dreams we’ll meet, we’ll touch
And somewhere our souls will be one
I hope that some day soon my dream comes true
And there will be no more days without you!


Thank you for your replies and your concern. I am moved.

This is a beautiful poem. Valdi and you are in my prayers too!

[Dennis Leahy]

Rather than cross-posting a song here, allow me to link to it here on Avalon: http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?106650-The-thread-of-Caitlin-Johnstone-s-words&p=1332223&viewfull=1#post1332223

It is a song (A Blessing For Anyone) by Michael Brunnock, using lyrics taken from Caitlin Johnstone's poetry. It's a blessing, invocation, affirmation, and anthem. I'm very moved by it, and I really want all my kindred spirits on Avalon to hear it, and to experience what the words convey. That link displays the lyrics as well.

"...May the Earth feel your love..."

[Ernie Nemeth]

Everyone is very concerned about Val. They keep calling. I am humbled.

Not sure if this is the case but thanks for keeping vigil with me.

Not much change, they took her off propofol but she doesn't seem to want to wake up, so they put her under again. MRI, no results. Cat scans, no results. X-rays, no result. Ultra-sound, no results. Another test today - colonoscopy.

Oh my. Poor, poor Valdi. My heart is breaking...

But gotta be strong.

[RunningDeer]

But gotta be strong.
With you in spirit, Ernie. Much appreciation for the updates. Veldean is on the Sunday meditation/healing list (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?101306-Sunday-Weekly-Global-Meditation&p=1332865&viewfull=1#post1332865).


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♡

[Rebecca]

Dear Ernie,

I pray that your beloved Veldean returns home to you safe and in good health.

Are you able to bring her remedies of any kind? If so I may be able to suggest some things.

Sending blessings your way,

Rebecca

[Melinda]

Blessings for your beautiful Veldean, Ernie.

May she connect with divine source, and may deep healing unfold.

How moving :


I have dreamed about Valdi since my early twenties. Always the same woman, always the same face. And when I first saw her, at 45, it was from across the parking lot a long way away. I was intrigued. A few months later I would meet her face to face, those beautiful violet eyes, that tiny girl, I was smitten.

So back in my 20s, having these haunting dreams of my soul mate, I wrote this poem.


Another Day Without You

I woke up with a void in my heart
My mind still reeling from our encounter
Last night in my dreams we met we touched
Only our souls intertwined in reality
I hope that one day my dream comes true
And there will be no more days without you.

I wander around uninterested unmoved
‘Cause you’re not here, and I don’t know where...

Now its finally o’er, this faceless day
And my mind is eager for sleep
For again in my dreams we’ll meet, we’ll touch
And somewhere our souls will be one
I hope that some day soon my dream comes true
And there will be no more days without you!


Thank you for your replies and your concern. I am moved.

[Ernie Nemeth]

I am feeling like I am hogging this thread. I don't want others to think that they should not post here until this is resolved.

This is my here and now, just one story among many equally valid and important ones. So post away.

Today was not a good day. I had a run in with the nurse taking care of my Valdi, who took issue with not being told there was a visitor for her patient. She would not address me and instead went stomping of to give the ICU desk person ****. Left there waiting, I felt very out of place and very embarrassed for being singled out like that. After, she would not talk to me or tell me how Val was doing.

I put my coat back on and was about to leave. But I wnated to be with Val. So I stopped and said loudly, are you all just going to let me leave? Everyone quickly looked away...and I left. Went back later but was turned away twice.

Anyways, I did not get to see her today at all but I hear from other family who visited that she is awake. Can you imagine? She is awake and I wasn't there!

So I went back a third time but I was far too upset by then so when they turned me away twice more I just came home. I'll try again tomorrow. Sure wish I had a third setting between peaceful and ready for war but I don't.

[Rebecca]

I am feeling like I am hogging this thread. I don't want others to think that they should not post here until this is resolved.

This is my here and now, just one story among many equally valid and important ones. So post away.

Today was not a good day. I had a run in with the nurse taking care of my Valdi, who took issue with not being told there was a visitor for her patient. She would not address me and instead went stomping of to give the ICU desk person ****. Left there waiting, I felt very out of place and very embarrassed for being singled out like that. After, she would not talk to me or tell me how Val was doing.

I put my coat back on and was about to leave. But I wnated to be with Val. So I stopped and said loudly, are you all just going to let me leave? Everyone quickly looked away...and I left. Went back later but was turned away twice.

Anyways, I did not get to see her today at all but I hear from other family who visited that she is awake. Can you imagine? She is awake and I wasn't there!

So I went back a third time but I was far too upset by then so when they turned me away twice more I just came home. I'll try again tomorrow. Sure wish I had a third setting between peaceful and ready for war but I don't.

Do not feel this way, Ernie.

Your circumstances are very serious and you need all of the support you can get. This is no trivial matter and it is wise of you to be connecting with others.

I do hope you get to see her today. Be very assertive with the staff members until they let you see her or schedule you an exact time.

Sending healing energy you way,

Rebecca

[Ernie Nemeth]

Hi!
Val was taken off life-support. She came to greatly agitated. She was trying to say something. We couldn't understand. She kept trying to be understood. Finally she took a deep breath and blurted out, 'Max!'. 'How is Max the cat?', she was asking...
Val's back! Oh joy!

[Bill Ryan]

Hi!
Val was taken off life-support. She came to greatly agitated. She was trying to say something. We couldn't understand. She kept trying to be understood. Finally she took a deep breath and blurted out, 'Max!'. 'How is Max the cat?', she was asking...
Val's back! Oh joy!:heart: :flower: :heart:

[Peter UK]

Hi!
Val was taken off life-support. She came to greatly agitated. She was trying to say something. We couldn't understand. She kept trying to be understood. Finally she took a deep breath and blueted out, 'Max!'. 'How is Max the cat?', she was asking...
Val's back! Oh joy!

That's really great Ernie!

Pleased for you all including the cat.

:)

[Kryztian]

Hi!
Val was taken off life-support. She came to greatly agitated. She was trying to say something. We couldn't understand. She kept trying to be understood. Finally she took a deep breath and blurted out, 'Max!'. 'How is Max the cat?', she was asking...
Val's back! Oh joy!

Wonderful news! :heart::heart::heart: Let's hope that she and Max are soon reunited. Thank you for sharing your sorrows and joys with us here.

[Stephanie]

Hi!
Val was taken off life-support. She came to greatly agitated. She was trying to say something. We couldn't understand. She kept trying to be understood. Finally she took a deep breath and blurted out, 'Max!'. 'How is Max the cat?', she was asking...
Val's back! Oh joy!

:star::bearhug:All the happiness and joy in the world for you two!:bearhug::star:

[Gracy]

Can't believe I just now finally saw this. Ernie, your wonderful news just made my day! :heart:

[Rebecca]

Hi!
Val was taken off life-support. She came to greatly agitated. She was trying to say something. We couldn't understand. She kept trying to be understood. Finally she took a deep breath and blurted out, 'Max!'. 'How is Max the cat?', she was asking...
Val's back! Oh joy!

Yay!!! This made my heart happy. I am excited for all of you to have gotten through this! It is so funny for her to ask about Max the cat hahaha.

I pray she continues healing and the three of you can celebrate!