Not Enough Tears

[sshenry]

My dreams have always been vivid; intense even. So many of them are so unusual (as to detail, depth, scope etc) that I started keeping a dream diary about 20 years ago at my husband's suggestion (mind you his interest is more for the entertainment value than any meaning they might have) but even he has been startled when on more than one occasion something I drempt came true. Usually the ones that come true are the most intense and detailed of the dreams. Unfortunately they are also the ones that never specify WHERE they are taking place. Which is why I wanted to post this here - for last night's dream was intense enough that I've been more or less sick to my stomach all day, and I'm willing to take the heat if it DOESN'T come true in case it DOES and there is someone, somewhere, reading this who might benefit from it.


Dream:

I'm flying again - soaring above a wide, open landscape; towns and cities and rivers and cars below me like a toy model. Then I'm no longer soaring, just floating gently, and my gaze is drawn to a space between two mountain ranges, a flatter area, mostly trees, a lake, and I can't pull my eyes away, and then there is a slipping (that's the only way to describe it). The ground below me slips and suddenly where there were trees and hills there is now towering columns of smoke and then, without any more warning, the whole lakebed lifts up, or rather, is thrown up as the entire area erupts into gas and steam and fire and who the hell knows what else, but it's like watching those old pictures of atom bombs exploding, except that there is no warning burst of light, and suddently everything is on fire; I can see birds flying with their feathers singing as they try to escape, and animals running with their fur aflame, and my perspective shifts...

I'm in a city, and a wave of ash and rock has swept through, I'm standing in the lobby of a building, looking out through glass doors that have shattered and whose frames are hanging twisted out of true, watching as people run screaming through the streets, some with their hair on fire, some with the skin literally bubbling from whatever it is that is falling on them, and I can smell the noxious fumes of burning building material coming down from above me and I know that it's only a matter of time before the building collapses on my head, but I'd rather be crushed then take my chances with whtever if falling from the sky, and once more my perspective shifts...

and time has gone by - weeks maybe, I'm not sure how long, but I'm standing at on a front porch, looking out at what, just weeks earlier, were lush fields of growing wheat and what is now looking like something out of a bad sci/fi movie with dust devils spinning across barren dirt and diseased cows that look like they are suffering from some sort of horrible wasting disease that leaves them with oozing skin rashes. Some are dead, and I look over my shoulder to where my wife is sitting with our daughter who is coughing up blood and loooks like she's about on her last leg, and I know that there is nowhere to turn...and then once more, my perspective shifts...

And I'm in a larger city, further from whever it was that the erruption took place, and more time has gone by, and there are people looking as if they have been in a war, and they are fighting for what is left of the food, drinking straight out of a river that looks as if it is being used for a sewer as well as for a water source, and there is a child sitting in the middle of the rubble; crying, just wanting to go home, and then once more I'm floating up over the landscape, only it is unrecognizable now.

Now, where there were green fields and rolling hills there is just barren wasteland, dry scrub, but nothing really growing, and I'm crying while I float there, crying for what was; for all the dreams that were and the lives that are gone, for the girl that was couging up blood and the animals who were burning while they ran and the child sitting in the middle of the city rubble and for the woman watching the world burn while the building comes down around her ears, and there aren't enough tears, but I cry anyway, and where my tears fall there are small flowers springing up, and I have just enough time to be astonished, and then I'm waking up.

[Charlie Pecos]

That was one heck of a dream sshenry, sounds eerily reminiscent of "The Road". I truly hope it does not come to pass, but then again, maybe it should. Thank you for sharing.

[sshenry]

That was one heck of a dream sshenry, sounds eerily reminiscent of "The Road". I truly hope it does not come to pass, but then again, maybe it should. Thank you for sharing.


It's still got my stomcah in knots that dream.

Maybe I'll have to watch The Road now (or maybe not, if it was anything like that dream!).

[DouglasDanger]

Honestly.... sounds like you witnessed a large volcanic eruption.. and the after effects of such an eruption on the cities and surounding landscape..

[sshenry]

Honestly.... sounds like you witnessed a large volcanic eruption.. and the after effects of such an eruption on the cities and surounding landscape..

It felt like it.

[Charlie Pecos]

Yeah, that's pretty much what "The Road" was all about, the struggle to survive after a world changing disaster- something like a volcanic eruption or perhaps a meteor. You might not be ready for it if it has you that upset. The ironic thing about your dream is that another member here has shared a story with me along the same lines as your dream.

[Hughe]

That was one heck of a dream sshenry, sounds eerily reminiscent of "The Road". I truly hope it does not come to pass, but then again, maybe it should. Thank you for sharing.


It's still got my stomcah in knots that dream.

Maybe I'll have to watch The Road now (or maybe not, if it was anything like that dream!).
It's worst or best movie or I ever watched, made me really hate humanity for few days.

We have certain degree of freedom to make a choice either put us in better place or worst.
When I drive a car, I wear seat belt not because it's the law but I know it's 1st protection I can assure.

If you have fear or insecurity, you should do something that makes you feel better and your family.
I try to appreciate for being alive and do what I like and keep moving.

Entire civilization is dying IMHO. I don't worry about cataclysmic event. I'm walking through the uncertainty every moment.

[DouglasDanger]

Honestly.... sounds like you witnessed a large volcanic eruption.. and the after effects of such an eruption on the cities and surounding landscape..

It felt like it.

Had one similar last year..alot shorter than yours from a differen't perspective.. In mine I can remember my daughter, sisters, mother and one who I know now as my fiance ( was not dating her then ).. I was hustling them up a forest hill, area looked alot like area's I had seen in my life, suddenly an explosion rocks the ground, we all turn to see the eruption, which looked like it was hundreds of miles away and catastrophic..I then turn and start yelling at them to move move move, like a drill sargent, up the hill to the waiting motorhome just before the concussion blast hits ( when i opened my eyes and woke up), the feeling I got/get was we survived unscathed but it was huge and many others did not...

Yosemite? take a look at google earth and see if you requignize any land marks that where in your dream..

[sshenry]

Yeah, that's pretty much what "The Road" was all about, the struggle to survive after a world changing disaster- something like a volcanic eruption or perhaps a meteor. You might not be ready for it if it has you that upset. The ironic thing about your dream is that another member here has shared a story with me along the same lines as your dream.

How could anyone ever take that much death and destruction in stride?

It wasn't an upset being fear or concern for my safety. In fact, when I was soaring/floating, both during the initial destruction and afterwards, it was more of an all encompasing peace. No, fear. What there WAS, however, in abundance, was a feeling of sheer waste and lives cut short and feeling the emotions of those who WERE afraid, who were despairing and had no hope believing that THIS is all there is, that this is how it ends for them, whether with a bang or with a whimper.

Even knowing that we have all agreed to be here - at this time, that this physical body is only one aspect of who and what we are, the point remains that IF something like this were to happen, for those who are empathic, it would be hard; very hard not to feel anything at all.

[Calz]

Thank you so much for sharing your vivid dream.

You must have quite the dream journal :)

[sshenry]

If you have fear or insecurity, you should do something that makes you feel better and your family.
I try to appreciate for being alive and do what I like and keep moving.


It's more saddness than fear - feeling everything that they were feeling - so many different levels and layers of despair and hopelessness in such a short time (and repeated throughout the night) is enough to tie anyone's stomach into knots :p

No, it wasn't my own fear. I'm fairly centered when it comes to accepting what is and what will be and understanding that it is all a part of why I am here, now. I've also worked through dreams that were far more symbolic (when it comes to fear and insecurity regarding specific issues) and they were nothing like this vivid and detailed - and broad of scope. These are more reminicent of the dreams I've had that HAVE come true, although those have almost always been on a smaller scale, closer to home if you will. :/

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Thank you so much for sharing your vivid dream.

You must have quite the dream journal :)

Heh - yeah, I do at that :p (several of them actually) :)

[Charlie Pecos]

What there WAS, however, in abundance, was a feeling of sheer waste and lives cut short and feeling the emotions of those who WERE afraid, who were despairing and had no hope believing that THIS is all there is, that this is how it ends for them, whether with a bang or with a whimper.

I have felt this way about pretty much every war movie I ever saw.

[GaelVictor]

Perhaps this dream was a transformational experience for you, not a foretelling dream perse.

It seems you are letting go of your old worldviews and paradigms and the emotions that come with them. hence the destruction of your world in the dream.
The tears symbolize the surrender to the newly acquired paradigm and energy that creates a new world for you.

congratulations!

[pyrangello]

SSHenry, I started watchng the road and stopped , my focus is helping humanity, staying focused on the positive no matter how bad a situation gets . I'm not putting my head in the sand but choosing a path. i understand your concern with your dream and thoughts
but there are other options and I would hope and wish for better dreams and thoughts ahead and focus your energies on those in a direction change for peace within yourself, your true self. Many hugs , thanks for sharing.

[sshenry]

Perhaps this dream was a transformational experience for you, not a fortelling dream perse.

It seems you are letting go of your old worldviews and paradigms and the emotions that come with them. hence the destruction of your world.
The tears symbolize the surrender tothe newly acquired paradigm and energy that creates a new world for you.

congratulations!

Don't get me wrong, I'm in no way hoping or wishing for anything of this sort to happen, but at the same time, after 20 years of dream recording, I've started to get a good idea as to the difference between the symbolic and transformational dreams (I had one of the world unraveling once, and a friend who threw herself back into the chaos in order to stay with what she knew as opposed to taking a chance on the unkown) this was far more like the vivid event dreams than it was the more symbolic dreams that came as I worked through Chakra clearing and the activation of Kundalini energy.

This is not to say that it might not BE symbolic, in its own way, but at the same time, none fo the fear or turmoil or strife was mine. I don't know how to explain it any better than that. It was as if I was feeling what they were feeling, but I was detached if you will, feeling it all, experiencing it all, but not attaching to it as such because I knew it wasn't MY fear or pain or despair.

[sshenry]

SSHenry, I started watchng the road and stopped , my focus is helping humanity, staying focused on the positive no matter how bad a situation gets . I'm not putting my head in the sand but choosing a path. i understand your concern with your dream and thoughts
but there are other options and I would hope and wish for better dreams and thoughts ahead and focus your energies on those in a direction change for peace within yourself, your true self. Many hugs , thanks for sharing.

Hello Pyrangello, I couldn't agree with you more (about better dreams) and if you knew me, you'd understand that the negative is not my 'dwelling place' if you will. I actively work to build up energy in my own life and area and balance the negative that is continually threatening to overwhelm (as you can imagine, being in DC, the negative energy can get overwhelming).

This is one reason when I DO have negative dreams I pay attention to them, for they are usually very important whether for me personally or those with who I am connected. :)

[meeradas]

[...] and there aren't enough tears, but I cry anyway, and where my tears fall there are small flowers springing up, and I have just enough time to be astonished, and then I'm waking up.

Please, may i suggest that you cry some more.
Seems to be good for you/ earth.

[Fred Steeves]

Regardless of the interpretation sshenry, your falling tears turning into flowers where they fell at the end strike me as by far the most important. Thanks for sharing.

Cheers,
Fred

[Tony]

I met some one in Crestone Colorado this year, who said that he dreamed of a volcano and it had binary numbers coming out of it....meaning it was man made!

Tony

[Calz]

I met some one in Crestone Colorado this year, who said that he dreamed of a volcano and it had binary numbers coming out of it....meaning it was man made!

Tony

Perhaps ...

Some have come up with the holographic universe actually being computer driven.

[sshenry]

[...] and there aren't enough tears, but I cry anyway, and where my tears fall there are small flowers springing up, and I have just enough time to be astonished, and then I'm waking up.

Please, may i suggest that you cry some more.
Seems to be good for you/ earth.

Thank you for pointing this out - for by far this was the most surprising point of the dream for me. In fact, while I'd been viewing all the death and destruction and feeling all the pain and despair, only the shock of seeing those flowers was enough to wake me up :)

[sshenry]

Regardless of the interpretation sshenry, your falling tears turning into flowers where they fell at the end strike me as by far the most important. Thanks for sharing.

Cheers,
Fred

Thanks Fred - it definitely was the most startling part of the dream, and I have a feeling that, as you say, it was the most important part of the dream. If you will, that there is something in me that can heal even the worst of hurts and bring hope to those who despair.

hope from hopelessness

May we all touch that deep wellspring inside of us that can turn even the worst of situations into an affirmation of the power of possibility...

[gooty64]

I started keeping a dream diary about 20 years ago at my husband's suggestion
I look over my shoulder to where my wife is sitting with our daughter
This is confusing. Are you a wife or a husband? Or did you become the other sex for the dream?

Nonetheless, this is a very interesting dream.
I have been having intense grief over the 3D earth and especially people and animals. My empath friend said that I am grieving over leaving the Earth. I don't really know but, this world seems to past the sustainability point and it could be that we are in end times before ascension.

The way your dream ended with the falling tears into springing flowers, does fit with my senses about how it all turns out. Death in the 3D has always happened by design, the Light ahead is very bright indeed.

[Dawn]

We have lived apocalyptic times over and over in many dimensions and timelines, and in many different bodies. It is natural to have ancient memories show up in our dreams and awareness... and in order that they not repeat it is important to bring them up into conscious awareness.

The main purpose of a prophet is to see what is coming so that consciousness can make a slight shift and head a different direction. Thank you for being that point of awareness.

[sshenry]

I started keeping a dream diary about 20 years ago at my husband's suggestion
I look over my shoulder to where my wife is sitting with our daughter
This is confusing. Are you a wife or a husband? Or did you become the other sex for the dream?

Nonetheless, this is a very interesting dream.
I have been having intense grief over the 3D earth and especially people and animals. My empath friend said that I am grieving over leaving the Earth. I don't really know but, this world seems to past the sustainability point and it could be that we are in end times before ascension.

The way your dream ended with the falling tears into springing flowers, does fit with my senses about how it all turns out. Death in the 3D has always happened by design, the Light ahead is very bright indeed.

Sorry gooty - I am female. In the dream, however, I was switching between the different persons whose emotions I was experiencing - a woman standing in the building lobby, the man (farmer) with a wife and dying daughter, the child (male) sitting in the midst of the rubble in the city.