I want to go home....

[THIRDEYE]

ever since i could remember at a very young age 2 or 3 yrs old i knew i didnt belong here on earth...by 1st grade i was seeing school social workers...the fact of the matter is i could see things and hear that others could not....they say we are destined on a soul journey to learn from proir life times...im still trying to figure out what it is i supposed to accomplish....i used to tell my parents i wanted to go home and they would say we were home...home life on this earth has been pure hell,i suffered abuse,physical,sexualy,and emotional....how and why would i want to came back and learn from the pure hell i lived in...well i broke the chain of abuse and i raised to beatiful girls for 15 years...one of the most hardest and rewarding expieriences i ever endured...now im a grand dad....i still feel i dont belong here...it feels like bees are stinging my soul...all of the wars crimes ,poverty,social collapse...what exactly am i supposed to learn..my idea of home is a utopia of love light and abundance...i want too go home...do other avolonians feel the same as i do,and what is home to you...with light love and abundance too all ...thirdeye...

[nearing]

I am right there with you, brother.

Why did we sign up for this hell? I guess we aren't supposed to know, which makes it all the worse.

[Sidney]

You are not alone. Perhaps the "lesson" is as simple as knowing where we don't belong. Whatever the lesson, being eternally homesick certainly is an unpleasant experience, for sure.

[RMorgan]

Yeah...I keep thinking that if reincarnation is real, I can´t stand the horror to keep coming to this place anymore!

Not that I don´t like my life, I quite like it, in fact, but this world is a mess, full of lies and illusions.

I don´t think I had the option to choose coming here. I can´t think of any reason that would make me choose it.

[Lifebringer]

I want to go home too, and if the microchips start getting implanted, that is just where I will be going. I just hope I have completed this 9th life and learned all I had to. Either way, they better not try to push me into the slave cave, or bang bang, I'm outta here. That will be all the lesson i need, since it's already in the back of the book, that means it's close to time and if I have missed an experience, perhaps in the next life, i'll choose a heart patient with a short life span to complete what I missed, so I get out of here even quicker.
I would rather work with nature or plant life, than deal with the kooks, and murderers. 3 rapes in my life time is enough!

[markpierre]

ever since i could remember at a very young age 2 or 3 yrs old i knew i didnt belong here on earth...by 1st grade i was seeing school social workers...the fact of the matter is i could see things and hear that others could not....they say we are destined on a soul journey to learn from proir life times...im still trying to figure out what it is i supposed to accomplish....i used to tell my parents i wanted to go home and they would say we were home...home life on this earth has been pure hell,i suffered abuse,physical,sexualy,and emotional....how and why would i want to came back and learn from the pure hell i lived in...well i broke the chain of abuse and i raised to beatiful girls for 15 years...one of the most hardest and rewarding expieriences i ever endured...now im a grand dad....i still feel i dont belong here...it feels like bees are stinging my soul...all of the wars crimes ,poverty,social collapse...what exactly am i supposed to learn..my idea of home is a utopia of love light and abundance...i want too go home...do other avolonians feel the same as i do,and what is home to you...with light love and abundance too all ...thirdeye...

Home to the smell of pies baking and Mom with a sweet smile on her face as we look at her from bright red faces with frozen snot and throw off our ice-caked mittens on the floor?

Home to the smell of fresh cut hay and chopped up stink bugs? The mob of month old puppies bounding up from the old milk house to see who's just pulled into the driveway?

Uncle Bob with the missing thumb unloading smuggled fireworks from his car for our own private 4th of July?

Not really, but it's still somewhere there in our memories my friend, and it hasn't gone anywhere.

Home is the heart of God mate, and I think we're almost there.

This is like the last three minutes of this crazy movie and we paid dearly to be here, lets stay to the end. Then we'll get up and walk out together.
Okay?

God bless us. God bless you for posting that.

[Tarka the Duck]

Does no one else feel that this is the very place where we all need to be?
Yes, there is misery and horrendous suffering...but there are also innumerable acts of kindness and love every second of every day.
Sorry, but for me, wishing to leave is not beneficial.
We should be working to transform now NOW - not at some magical moment in the future.
The future is born now.

[jack]

What is 86 odd years when compared to infinity.

The good news is that you are perfectly sane. Because you would have to be utterly insane to like it here =) But there is hope because you came here to blaze a trail for us young ones. I can only imagine that it would have felt like walking through mollases coming onto this planet when you did. But because you came here, and helped with many others just like yourself to ground some awesome a$$ energy here, you made the world a much easier place for the rest of us that came after you.

From the very bottom of my heart. Thank you.

[shadowstalker]

Ya I had the feeling of needing to go home my self since i was a child even tho I had a physical home to be in on this earth it never felt like home.

[another bob]

God is Love. And Love must love. And to love there must be a Beloved. But since God is Existence infinite and eternal there is no one for Him to love but Himself. And in order to love Himself He must imagine Himself as the Beloved whom He as the Lover imagines He loves.
Beloved and Lover implies separation. And separation creates longing; and longing causes search. And the wider and the more intense the search the greater the separation and the more terrible the longing.

When longing is most intense separation is complete, and the purpose of separation, which was that Love might experience itself as Lover and Beloved, is fulfilled; and union follows. And when union is attained, the lover knows that he himself was all along the Beloved whom he loved and desired union with; and that all the impossible situations that he overcame were obstacles which he himself had placed in the path to himself.

To attain union is so impossibly difficult because it is impossible to become what you already are! Union is nothing other than knowledge of oneself as the Only One.

Excerpted from The Everything and The Nothing by Meher Baba

[Carmen]

A bitter/sweet post Thirdeye! Made me cry. I feel your pain. To finally understand and transcend all of this pain/pleasure place is to finally 'know' To know that it is all worthwhile. It is all as we planned it before we incarnated,but we forget as the veil comes down and the separation from our Great Self is terrible. We feel lost and alone in a hostile world. Hard, hard lessons but do you know, we are honored and celebrated in the cosmos because we do take on the intense trials of this very limited realm. We are also envied because these tests, finally understood, advance us very rapidly in spiritual understanding and enlightenment. And what is best of all, never, never never have to be repeated. Our wisdom, once attained, is with us in eternity.

Much Love to you Beautiful Soul

[Limor Wolf]

I am right there with you, brother.

Why did we sign up for this hell? I guess we aren't supposed to know, which makes it all the worse.

Dont we know? the earth is in jepordise,human beings are manipulated and confused and the vibration is low.Many are reincarnating now and have done so for the last decades simply to bring balance.to turn on the light before a total darkness will (could in potential) take over,and we are doing that by simply BEING ,expressing ourselvs and trying to let our visions to play an effective role in the future of this place.

Please,try not to despair, nearing,Third eye and everyone who feels the same (yes,me too) ,we are all in this together :)

¤=[Post Update]=¤


Yeah...I keep thinking that if reincarnation is real, I can´t stand the horror to keep coming to this place anymore!

Not that I don´t like my life, I quite like it, in fact, but this world is a mess, full of lies and illusions.

I don´t think I had the option to choose coming here. I can´t think of any reason that would make me choose it.

Your a mind reading

[ktlight]

Before we arrived here, we made agreements which we seem not to remember. The thing to do NOW is to forgive all that happened in our young lives and focus our thoughts on what we want to see our world to be. The more we focus on the good, the more it will be.

[shadowstalker]

Can't wait for this game to be over, but meanwhile I WILL make this the BEST GAME I have ever PLAYED

[Limor Wolf]

O.k, is there anyone who have not yet read the ET101 manual instruction?! :)
This book has literaly 'fel' into the hands of many people..
It passes from hand to hand and from mouth to ear :

"Did you arrive on the planet without a set of instructions? Have you ever secretly suspected you were adopted — from another less dysfunctional world? Is your genetic coding giving you trouble recently? Do you vaguely recall a reason for being here, but are pretty sure your current job is not it? Hang in there. These times and this book are for you.

For those of you who left your galaxy for the Mission to Planet Earth without the instruction manual, Mission Control has granted an unprecedented second chance to remind you of what you already know — but either forgot or misfiled. Now that you have yourself completely disassembled, why not take a moment to read the instructions?

This manual is a transmission from fifth-dimensional sources, written expressly for the awakening human population who asked that it be published. It is not a book. It is a technology — designed to awaken you from your evolutionary slumber. We hope you enjoy it.

May The Force Be With You!"

So lets cheer up and go get the book !

http://www.amazon.com/T-101-Instruction-Emergency-Remedial/dp/0962695807


ET101 (excerpts) (http://www.mit.edu/people/dpolicar/writing/prose/text/ET101.html)


~*&^~*&^

Limor

[Adi]

The physical reality is a tough course, it won't last forever, you will be home when its time.

Namaste

[jorr lundstrom]

Well, I didnt know wot I signed in for. But now Im here and I dont want

to miss this opportunity for anything. I will stay as long as possible. :playball:

[Amity]

I thought I would be home many years ago but still I'm here. 10 years of cancer with no treatment.....hmmmm I don't think I'm excused from class yet.

[josie]

thirdeye,
you have children, a grandchild. and you still spew this? cry me a river.

consider the first time you heard hendrix and your left hand followed his up the frets of your guitar. consider how the blues themselves are arranged around field hollers, producing magic from the slave culture. consider stevie ray vaughn. or handel. consider hallelujah chorus.

if you insist on crying me a river thirdeye, please consider joe cocker.

since when is your suffering so bad anyway?

[Anchor]

ever since i could remember at a very young age 2 or 3 yrs old i knew i didnt belong here on earth...by 1st grade i was seeing school social workers...the fact of the matter is i could see things and hear that others could not....they say we are destined on a soul journey to learn from proir life times...im still trying to figure out what it is i supposed to accomplish....i used to tell my parents i wanted to go home and they would say we were home...home life on this earth has been pure hell,i suffered abuse,physical,sexualy,and emotional....how and why would i want to came back and learn from the pure hell i lived in...well i broke the chain of abuse and i raised to beatiful girls for 15 years...one of the most hardest and rewarding expieriences i ever endured...now im a grand dad....i still feel i dont belong here...it feels like bees are stinging my soul...all of the wars crimes ,poverty,social collapse...what exactly am i supposed to learn..my idea of home is a utopia of love light and abundance...i want too go home...do other avolonians feel the same as i do,and what is home to you...with light love and abundance too all ...thirdeye...

Hey mate!

Do you meditate?

Don't wallow in sorrow

Don't wait till tomorrow

Be here now!

You want to go home? And not break the chain here? Then you have got to find the connection inside.

Inside. Its inside!

Be here now.

Find the joy.

[mahalall]

Listen hard enough into the despondency and your hear them calling. "don't worry we are going to take you"
Accepted euphoria at this, one can relax and begin to see that despite humans initial ugly appearance and hostile manners they all have a beauti about them.

[realitycorrodes]

I am impressed with how certain a lot of people are about "what on earth" this experience is all about.

"The only thing I know is that I know nothing!" Socrates

And as such I try to avoid giving advice about something I known nothing about. Usually the advice given comes across as patronising, and if incorrect, only makes things worse! IMHO

However, I can empathise with you Third Eye. And I do that from the core of my being!

[Anchor]

And as such I try to avoid giving advice about something I known nothing about. Usually the advice given comes across as patronising, and if incorrect, only makes things worse! IMHO

Well if you knew nothing about it, it would be entirely wrong for you to give advice would it not?

[jack]

"The only thing I know is that I know nothing!" Socrates

Human consciousness and our ability to understand reality have taken a huge leap foreward since 2400 years ago.

[Ron Mauer Sr]

The way some of us feel before choosing this physical experience.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=XGxZngLecK0

[Erich]

I am right there with you, brother.

Why did we sign up for this hell? I guess we aren't supposed to know, which makes it all the worse.

One of the things that really makes me crazy about being here is how little I actually get to participate. Your quote at the bottom of the page says a lot for me. Where can I get some truth? I'd like to study and learn and everywhere I turn are lies, traps and deceptions. So I'm just supposed to meditate and contemplate? I want to participate!

[nearing]

I am right there with you, brother.

Why did we sign up for this hell? I guess we aren't supposed to know, which makes it all the worse.

One of the things that really makes me crazy about being here is how little I actually get to participate. Your quote at the bottom of the page says a lot for me. Where can I get some truth? I'd like to study and learn and everywhere I turn are lies, traps and deceptions. So I'm just supposed to meditate and contemplate? I want to participate!

Yep, seems so many have an answer and it turns out they are really just projecting what they desire for their own agenda.

Our OWN individual experience (an experiment with n=1) is the absolute path to the Truth, Our Truth!

[Arrowwind]

This attachment is for you Thirdeye, and I will come back with a link to a book. Between these two you could gain some insight to why you are here.

[Arrowwind]

and this on line book is a beautiful and supposedly true story . It helps one to dream beyond the current 3d by understanding that each step of our path is ordained and with purpose... even if we cannot see it

http://www.scribd.com/doc/411641/Elisabeth-Haich-Initiation

[Loveisall21]

I so relate to your post Thirdeye. Today has been especially hard so it felt sort of comforting to read your post. It just feels so exhausting sometimes being here. And sometimes it doesn't help to know why we are here, that there is some profound meaningful reason for it all. I mean that's wonderful that there is a reason. Thank the Universe there's a reason for all of this!

But even knowing all of that there are still some times when the heaviness of this earthly experience breaks you a bit. But what is it that is breaking? Probably what needs to break for us to know the freedom we all long for. Love and virtual hugs to all. We'll see it through.

[Star1111]

ever since i could remember at a very young age 2 or 3 yrs old i knew i didnt belong here on earth...by 1st grade i was seeing school social workers...the fact of the matter is i could see things and hear that others could not....they say we are destined on a soul journey to learn from proir life times...im still trying to figure out what it is i supposed to accomplish....i used to tell my parents i wanted to go home and they would say we were home...home life on this earth has been pure hell,i suffered abuse,physical,sexualy,and emotional....how and why would i want to came back and learn from the pure hell i lived in...well i broke the chain of abuse and i raised to beatiful girls for 15 years...one of the most hardest and rewarding expieriences i ever endured...now im a grand dad....i still feel i dont belong here...it feels like bees are stinging my soul...all of the wars crimes ,poverty,social collapse...what exactly am i supposed to learn..my idea of home is a utopia of love light and abundance...i want too go home...do other avolonians feel the same as i do,and what is home to you...with light love and abundance too all ...thirdeye...

Dear Thirdeye - I so feel your pain here and I empathise with how you must feel :(
When you say you still don't feel like you belong here - I'm with you on that one. I never have either. In fact I've always felt like an Alien being in a sence........ maybe I am???
It has been an interesting life so far but a tough one.
I was told last year by someone that "knew" that I had lived something like 2356 lives!!! No wonder I'm exhausted and I AM absolutely exhausted by it all.
So you may be feeling this way becuase you have been around for a long while???
Maybe you will get to go home soon but you need to learn what you came here to learn (and agreed to do) before you do.
All I can say is that you are clearly on the right path as you are aware and whatever it is you need to accomplish if you keep asking the question "what is it you want me to do" it WILL come!!

Apparently I only have 2 more lives left to go after this one......................... thank God for that !!! Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

I sence you are one beautiful soul so hang in there

Much LOVE

[Star1111]

thirdeye,
you have children, a grandchild. and you still spew this? cry me a river.

consider the first time you heard hendrix and your left hand followed his up the frets of your guitar. consider how the blues themselves are arranged around field hollers, producing magic from the slave culture. consider stevie ray vaughn. or handel. consider hallelujah chorus.

if you insist on crying me a river thirdeye, please consider joe cocker.

since when is your suffering so bad anyway?

Josie

Your compassion and empathy is overwhelming !!

[Someoneson1]

Pick up a copy of a course in miracles take a year or two to read it. Then release yourself and your brother as you laugh at the tiny mad idea this world represents. Or don't.

[Laura Elina]

Hello Thirdeye,

I wasn't gonna do this and post the same reply I posted to another thread ( http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?33228-Why-are-you-here-what-are-you-searching-for&p=340212#post340212 ), but... I can't find any other words to put it in right now:


1. Monday

I wake up and take a look at myself in the mirror and say: What a mess. I look out the window to see the world and say: What a mess. I feel slightly depressed.

2. Tuesday

Everything is a mess. I'm small, scared, possibly all alone and I don't know why I'm a mess and why the world is a mess. I don't know who made it that way, was it me or was it someone else, am I supposed to do something about it? I stare at the picture on my ID, I don't recognize the person and ask: Who are you?

3. Wednesday

I am angry. The mess seems to be getting bigger outside my window and the reflection in the mirror seems to be mocking me. I'm done with being me. I look at the sky with big bright stars and get jealous and cry: I wanna be like them! Why can't I be like them?

4. Thursday

There is a crack in the mirror distorting my image. I break the mirror and draw the curtains in front of the window. I'm a cynic. The world doesn't care about me and I don't care about the world. This is all I can do. The stars I forget about too, I don't go outside anymore. I'm fine by myself.

5. Friday

I'm tired of being alone. I try to fix the broken mirror, but I don't know how, there are too many pieces and they don't seem to fit. I get frustrated, why am I so stupid? I open the curtains and see the world is the same. Or maybe it is me, who is the same.

6. Saturday

I decide I want out: Stop the world. I pack my bag and forget my ID on the table along side with the broken pieces of the mirror. I open the front door and step outside. I give a death stare at the stars and declare: I'm coming. Like it or not. I wanna be like you. I start walking towards the stars.

7. Sunday

I'm crawling towards the light, I had to abandon my bag along the way, it got too heavy and I feel a little sad, it had all I owned. I keep crawling on all my fours, the light burns my eyes, but I keep my eyes at it, it's all that I see. I wonder if I can do this, maybe I should turn back. I feel so tired and I wanna cry again, the light is blinding me now. I stop and turn around to see the world I left behind. I frown. The world is not the same anymore, it seems to have little dots of light on it everywhere and they're moving and when they collide, they create more lights. How could this be? I hesitate, I get up on my knees, my legs are shaky and weak, but I'm standing on them now.

Day 8

I take a step towards the world to look closer and see the little dots of lights are people. Then I look at the bright light again I was crawling towards. The people seem to be emanating the same light as the stars. I look at myself, I seem to have one too. I look around and see others around me and they see me: I'm not alone. I'm still small, but I'm not scared, the world is still a mess, but it is beautiful with all the little lights walking upon it.


Hang in there.

[pharoah21]

I can't tell you wether or not we chose to come here, all I do know is that a few weeks ago I attempted to go back home, because that's what I wanted to do more than anything else, and the whole thing just felt utterly wrong in my gut. We got something to do here, might as well get on with it.......

Grin and bear my friend.

[WhiteFeather]

Things will be over sooner than we think, hang in there peeps, they told us it wasn't gonna be an easy job. That's why you volunteered. The few the proud the Light-Worker's.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_DHRGrIqmb0

[Beren]

I feel it too. But that`s normal to want to return in your original estate ... home with God.
Even here you are at home but level of conscience around you is quite lower than you might grasp when at the high dimension...

Somewhere in the Avalon here I had a thread called "Home"...

Be blessed dear soul for we are one.

;)

[another bob]

Robert Monroe goes home

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LQ_hz67na88&list=PL093DB3AF7D4C788E&index=6&feature=plpp_video


Blessings!

[crested-duck]

Seems like you wrote my life story with only just a few differences. The kids-I've got 16 yr old son and no grandbabies yet. Other than that seems we've traveled the same path closely looking for answers. Things are in a constant mode of change and too many years were spent fighting the changes instead of going with the flow and enjoying the view along the way. I've survived many ups and downs too. Whenever you think you've got it bad just take a hard look around yourself and you will always see someone worse-off than yourself. This reality on earth is the insane asylum of the universe, but once we graduate from here everything else in the universe is just a stroll in the park.

[Sidney]

Honestly, If I could actually get more than one REAL night sleep in a week (preferably 7,lol) life would be alot better. As of today, I STILL want to go home. I am aware of my "contract", so I have no choice but to fulfill it, but being homesick never goes away. Its just a fact of (my) life.

[scanner]

We ALL go home eventually , just forgive and above all LOVE and be loved . I know you're pain .

[Camilo]

Well, many of us have felt the same way at one point or another in our lives, but higher conciousness always remainded us of our commintment to Gaia and humanity, and that's why we're still here.

[pharoah21]

No offense intended, but at least you're on the home stretch being a grandpa and all, I'm only 22 :(

[Kindred]

We are All here for a Purpose - make no mistake about this. Some of us know our purpose from the start. Some will find that purpose during the course of their life. Some are mislead, and then 'come around', and may only realize their purpose near the end. And, some will pass and it is only then that they will they learn of their purpose.

The Purpose is different for each, but All come for Experience. Infinite Experience is what makes up Source, and we are all but a part of The Experience. For those of us who do remember, the culmination of our lives may cause some to regret, consciously thinking about what they had not accomplished. But this feeling is mistaken, for Source has allowed All to achieve their Goal.

For me, about a month ago, I beheld a Scene... one that I Remembered. The scene itself was rather inconsequential, but for me it signaled that my culmination is approaching. It may occur in a week, or a year. I don't know. But, I Do know this scene was near the end of what I had been shown at the beginning of my life here.

Do I have regrets? Certainly. But they are behind me now. I have experienced some horrors that I wouldn't wish on anyone - I will not share them here, for they are mine alone, and I know there are many others who have had worse than I can ever imagine. I have no fear, for I Know that all is as it should be.

This illusion was bound to end someday. I can only try to do my part in this illusion, and to help others as best I may.

And, for this, I have some Wondrous Memories.
My Wish and My Hope is that Everyone realizes this Experience for the Wonder that it IS

In Unity and Peace

[Thinking Allowed]

Thanks, Limor. I've just ordered the book from Amazon.co.uk. Better be good now, or I'll be giving you some jip shortly! (for Isrealites, and anyone not from the UK, jip means: a hard time!)

[Dawn]

I have 'had this one' in spades. In fact, the 'wanting to die' program or parasite hit me full bore when I was 12 years old. It kept me in grief on some level for about 15 years when I began meditating. I have had a taste of everything in this life, from good to bad. However nothing ever effected this program until I began to meditate.

Now-a-days when ever this starts up again, I am immediately clear of it as soon as I light sage and smudge my body and my dwelling. It goes away so fast that I realize it is not coming from me. (Of course everything is me, but that is another topic). Because it does not originate in my body/mind I cannot change it or get away from the awful pain of it unless I realize it is not part of me and take action to become free of it.

As soon as I say (or think), 'I want to die', or 'I want to go home', then I have added my power and energy to it. This seems to feed it.

Yesterday evening I had a very persistent small voice, which I experienced inside myself, that was grieving and crying. I thought of smudging myself with sage, but didn't get around to it. I had a restless night, and awoke many times with an aching body (this is actually very unusual for me). When I finally got up, I still felt tired and my body hurt all over, in addition I found the 'wish to die and go home' in my awareness. I decided to try lighting sage and smudging..... Voilla! Within 1 second the entire emotional baggage and all the aches and pains in my body stopped.

So... you might have a 4th dimensional parasitic thought form attached. These love to feast on grief and longing, if you are willing to create it for them. And they have ways to trick you into donating your life force to them. There is a pretty good thread on this topic here in the forum, it would be a really good read for you http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?21614-Parasitic-Non-Organic-Multidimensional-Beings

Try cleansing!

[Sidney]

I actually do have some sage, may I ask, do I just light it and let the smoke engulf me or do I smoke it or what??? (just kidding about smoking it).
I've smudged my house, I didn't think to smudge myself. I have chronic you name it, pain,the blues,fatigue. I may just try this. Thank you for that.

[ghostrider]

Been feeling the need to go home for three months, I don't want to come back to earth, re-incarnation? whats the point if you can't remember what you've learned when you re-incarnate your bound to make the same mistakes. I want to go to jupiter and start all over with no electricity, just simple living in harmony with nature and no greed.

[Dawn]

I actually do have some sage, may I ask, do I just light it and let the smoke engulf me or do I smoke it or what??? (just kidding about smoking it).
I've smudged my house, I didn't think to smudge myself. I have chronic you name it, pain,the blues,fatigue. I may just try this. Thank you for that.

Yes, you light a few leaves or the tip or a sage wand and let it burn with a good flame for 5-15 seconds, then you blow it out. The result will be a white smoky and continuous cloud for about 5-10 minutes afterwards as the embers burning the resin die out. If you need more smoke you can re-light and do the routine over again.

Now that you have smoke hold the dish of leaves or wand in front of you and wave it towards your body from top to bottom. Then work on the back side of your body and lift your feet one at a time while pulling the smoke towards them with your free hand. After you have done your body it is time to smudge your home. Carry the smoking sage from room to room and lightly blow and wave the smoke towards each corner of every room and the hallway. That's it!

If you have someone come to visit it is really helpful if you are very aware of how you feel and if anything seems to be out of balance at all smudge the house and yourself after they leave. 'Gifts' can often remain behind that were attached to your visitors.

The chronic pain you mention probably needs to be tackled in a different fashion. This is usually due to lack of oxygen in the tissues... and in turn this is often caused by rouleaux (blood cells sticking together). This is very common in today's society, because we do not spend much time in direct contact with the earth. Between rubber soled shoes, and the fact that most people don't go outside much, this situation has become rampant in the population. The 'fix' is really easy ... you can fix this naturally, or with a simple product.

The natural fix: Put your bare feet on the earth, or lie on a natural fiber towel or blanket on the earth, for 1 hour daily. Your pain will be totally gone within 30 to 60 minutes of beginning the treatment. For more information you can Google 'earthing'. Here is a wonderful video about this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=te4WPdIsBtQ

If it is not practical for you to go outside, (cold freezing weather or solar storm issue) you can take Mega H- which is widely available. Pretty inexpensive on Amazon, for example. I usually take 3 capsules if I am experiencing a lot of pain. Your pain should disappear withing 30 minutes or less.

Hope this helps.

[Limor Wolf]

For anyone who ever felt that he/she does not belong here,who dremt of distant stars,who feel a lot of curiosity and increase interest in ET life,who hold the wish in your heart to go back home,but are pretty much aware that the job is not yet done.
And for those who enjoy sense of humor :)

ET 101 (http://www.atsdeck.com/images/ArticleImages/March2010/ET_101-_Complete_cosmic_manual_for_evolution.pdf)

[johnf]

For anyone who ever felt that he/she does not belong here,who dremt of distant stars,who feel a lot of curiosity and increase interest in ET life,who hold the wish in the heart to go back home,but are pretty much aware that the job is not yet done.
And for those who enjoy sense of humor :)

ET 101 (http://www.atsdeck.com/images/ArticleImages/March2010/ET_101-_Complete_cosmic_manual_for_evolution.pdf)

I have read that book, and it brought up a lot of things that helped. I have had the feeling of wanting to go home very strongly at times. I had an experience of what many would consider to be heaven twice in my life, and went through very strong periods of depression and longing to be somewhere else where life was better. I think that these things are very widely occurring subconscious programs that are reinforced by various religious, and spiritual groups. There is very probably a link between these feelings of homesickness, and belief that life will be better in the next life and premature death. I believe very strongly that if people can get through these beliefs and feelings, they will not only live longer, but they will start to experience more beauty and joy while they are still alive. The key is too notice the oddness of the idea that I don't belong here, yet here I am. And to try out the idea that I am here for some very good reasons, and that when I can succeed in getting my attention back on the present, and what can be done in the here and now, I experience more ease and comfort in life, am more joyful and more active in life. I think this thread is about one of the most difficult barriers to spiritual growth there is, and on a larger scale the key to mankind producing a positive outcome in our planetary future.
As a species we have the power to bring the incredible beauty, and harmony that millions of people have experienced in various spiritual experiences into the here and now, and into our societal structures and technology.

If you find yourself in any given situation, there is a possible outcome inherent in it that would bring "heaven" on earth into being, for ourselves and our species, as well as the other species present on the planet.

[THIRDEYE]

i would like to thank all of the wonderfull feed back on thid thread i posted, with light and love and abundance too all...thirdeye.....

[Arc]

Oh my God! I am truly in the right company here. I mean the topic of this thread. For my whole life I never felt like I belonged here!! Not to any group, any ideology, social norm. I have always felt like I wanted to go home, but could never find it. I still have not. Daily life here is a constant emotional roller coaster no matter my successes or failures.

I had this recent mind blowing sort of realization. Ok, everyone here, and within the truth seeking circles says to look for answers within - not outside. So, for intimate personal knowledge this makes most sense. I believe in reincarnation. I always wanted to know who and where I was before this. I know there are those skilled in regressing people and help you find that out. And, some folks here even know that info about their past lives.

I don't have that kind of recall at this point, nor know the folks who can help me find it. So, I did my own experiment. And, did what everyone says, to look within. Before going to sleep one night, I did a meditation and focused my thoughts on the question, "Where did I live my past life?" I really put a lot of intention behind it. Then I went to sleep.

Just before I woke up.. you know, in that lucid state, where you can hear your own thoughts, in your own voice, and it's mixed a bit with dreams. Well, I was in that state. Then, my own voice said this very loud and clear: "Taygeta"

Then I woke up abrubptly, almost nervously. I did not know what the hell that meant. I pondered it a few minutes What the hell is "Taygeta"?? I thought. Then I remembered the question and meditation from the night before while I sat there drowsy and confused, wondering.

After, a little while this was really like an itch I could not scratch. I figured I would type it into Google and see what comes back - didn't know how to spell this odd word, so I just tried what phonetically came into my mind. I thought it was probably a nonsense word made up by subconscious. The search result damn near made me fall out of my chair...

I had tears well up. I thought it was my answer to my question about where I lived my past life. I never would have expected that answer - never even heard this word before!! I felt it. I can't explain. I can only share it here.

[THIRDEYE]

well arc your certianly not alone...with light love and abundance....thirdeye....

[Bollinger]

I do not believe that the feeling or wanting to go home (which is just a euphemism for suicide) is ever too far from anyone’s thoughts from time to time. Frequently, the raw animal instinct for survival is strong enough to keep us from harm (even from ourselves) but the spirit keeps on staring, asking, probing and getting no satisfaction.

Happiness, for the most part, is actually an illusion. That is the greater part of our problem. Blaming the world, ourselves or assuming we made a “contract” provides a little relief, but that’s all it ever does.

You can read all the inspirational material you like, immerse yourself in all the spiritual practices or even assume the life of a hermit in some remote part of the world: what have you achieved? The rain still continues to beat down and the harsh realities of our world persist. Nothing of any significance has changed.

There is no evidence to suggest that the purpose of our existence here, if one assumes there is a purpose, is anything to do with the “self”. That kind of makes it reasonable to expect all sorts of pain and calamity to pass through our personal lives and you can choose to accept or reject that idea but it changes nothing. Neither do I have any time for the idea of “creating your own reality” or “consensus reality”. There is simply no rational or logical reason to presume either one of those things in whichever flavour they are held. They serve as intellectual opium for people looking for the answer to the ultimate question of why we are here.

As I said above, it’s not about the “self”. If we can agree on that, you must agree that the only other alternative, (again if we insist on a reason for being here) is that we must be here for the “collective”; a jigsaw puzzle with 7 billion pieces already in place. As you lie there, in your little flat world, it is impossible for you to see what this picture looks like because that would mean rising and looking at it from above. Once you do that, perhaps it will be possible to understand your place in that picture and the reason why you were joined with all of the surrounding pieces.

That’s all I can offer; just analogies and metaphors. I don’t have any mystical or magical tricks up my sleeve. In my world, there is no great “cure” or a “secret” that will guide you to heaven on earth and as far as I am concerned, anyone who claims to know of such things is probably suffering from delusion and is busy infecting others with it.

[Lord Sidious]

Does no one else feel that this is the very place where we all need to be?
Yes, there is misery and horrendous suffering...but there are also innumerable acts of kindness and love every second of every day.
Sorry, but for me, wishing to leave is not beneficial.
We should be working to transform now NOW - not at some magical moment in the future.
The future is born now.

Well, some of us ARE working on that and that is why we are frustrated with all the talkers that do nothing.


What is 86 odd years when compared to infinity.

The good news is that you are perfectly sane. Because you would have to be utterly insane to like it here =) But there is hope because you came here to blaze a trail for us young ones. I can only imagine that it would have felt like walking through mollases coming onto this planet when you did. But because you came here, and helped with many others just like yourself to ground some awesome a$$ energy here, you made the world a much easier place for the rest of us that came after you.

From the very bottom of my heart. Thank you.

I don't think you have to be insane at all, it is all relative.
For example, I LOVE being out in the bush/desert and just sitting.
The serenity of that is something I can say I enjoy very much.
I also enjoy being on boats as well.
Cities? Get outta here, don't even ask.
Why do you think I carry a lightsabre?


O.k, is there anyone who have not yet read the ET101 manual instruction?! :)
This book has literaly 'fel' into the hands of many people..
It passes from hand to hand and from mouth to ear :

"Did you arrive on the planet without a set of instructions? Have you ever secretly suspected you were adopted — from another less dysfunctional world? Is your genetic coding giving you trouble recently? Do you vaguely recall a reason for being here, but are pretty sure your current job is not it? Hang in there. These times and this book are for you.

For those of you who left your galaxy for the Mission to Planet Earth without the instruction manual, Mission Control has granted an unprecedented second chance to remind you of what you already know — but either forgot or misfiled. Now that you have yourself completely disassembled, why not take a moment to read the instructions?

This manual is a transmission from fifth-dimensional sources, written expressly for the awakening human population who asked that it be published. It is not a book. It is a technology — designed to awaken you from your evolutionary slumber. We hope you enjoy it.

May The Force Be With You!"

So lets cheer up and go get the book !

http://www.amazon.com/T-101-Instruction-Emergency-Remedial/dp/0962695807


ET101 (excerpts) (http://www.mit.edu/people/dpolicar/writing/prose/text/ET101.html)


~*&^~*&^

Limor

I haven't even heard of it before, so thanks for that.
I will have a bo peep at it.



"The only thing I know is that I know nothing!" Socrates

Human consciousness and our ability to understand reality have taken a huge leap foreward since 2400 years ago.

You missed the point of the statement.
Socrates was working against his ego, which lies and tells us all manner of rubbish, such as we know things.
How do you know what you know?
How do you not know that you don't know?


We ALL go home eventually , just forgive and above all LOVE and be loved . I know you're pain .

Mmmm, such advice and in a one liner too.
This is such crucial advice, I can't stress this enough.
Thanks for posting nugget.

[Centauro]

All my life I have felt the same, although I haven't had the same experiences that you have endured.... some bad, some good.... But one thing I know, There is a home out there somewhere. Also I know that I am here to experienced whatever it's thrown on may way. I fall, I get up.... If I am lifted, I rejoice ..... Live it. You are here for a reason, even if you don't see its purpose.


Much love to you,

Roland Alias "Centauro"

[Setras]

i used to fly with my sister.... soon we will again........

[THIRDEYE]

i wanna thank all the wonderfull poeple from avolon for thier time and honesty and unconditional love in all responses to this post...with light love and abundance too all...thirdeye...