Do I need a check up from the neck up?

[Pete]

I would be very interested to know if you have experienced a quickening and accelerated period of learning and altered consciousness in the past month.

I entered avalon on the 29th July 2011, full of outrage and so keen to effect change, I wanted to do something positive to awaken as many as i could. In some ways it doesn't feel even that long and yet in reality in less 5 months I have come to terms with so much and moved so far from my starting perception to now that I can scarcely believe it.

I feel no sense of outrage, I simply feel I am where I need to be and that I hold no animosity to those who would have enslaved us, I simply accept that this is the case and feel confident that matters are in hand. Good will prevail and my time in this reality is soon to end.

I feel incredibly light and free of baggage, In recent weeks I have seen most of my worldly possessions simply come to an end and yet I feel no need to replace them, Despite a natural sense of family I feel disconnected and strangely remote and prepared to be separated from them. This does seem strange as previously I have endured long periods of self denial and unhappiness based upon guilt and sense of duty.

Now I simply seem to exist from day to day with little thought of the future or my place in it. I seem to enjoy connecting with people but I'm also content to be on my own.

As you can imagine having changed my world view so dramatically, I am concerned that maybe I am having some type of mental breakdown, I still feel rational and grounded, I do not feel paranoid or fearful, I just feel content and able to meet what ever challenge comes my way.

Do any of you resonate with what I am saying or should I seek professional help?

[58andfixed]

I would say this is a good and natural evolution.

I believe you have transcended your REACTION to recent discoveries of 'truths' that you had difficulty COPING with. Anger and resentment would be no different, other than degree, than when you discovered that Santa was not real.

Have you been exposed to the movie "A Few Good" men, and scene where Jack Nicholson delievers the "you can't handle the truth.." line ?

You are now moving into the RESPONSIVE stage, where you will develop your own mechanisms to DEAL with these ugly realities.

You feel more control over life, and being able & capable of discerning through the lies. Perhaps even being able to RESPOND with questioning authority in the moment.

You have transcended the mechanism of FEAR.

Congratulations. :)

- 58

[jorr lundstrom]

I would be very interested to know if you have experienced a quickening and accelerated period of learning and altered consciousness in the past month.

I entered avalon on the 29th July 2011, full of outrage and so keen to effect change, I wanted to do something positive to awaken as many as i could. In some ways it doesn't feel even that long and yet in reality in less 5 months I have come to terms with so much and moved so far from my starting perception to now that I can scarcely believe it.

I feel no sense of outrage, I simply feel I am where I need to be and that I hold no animosity to those who would have enslaved us, I simply accept that this is the case and feel confident that matters are in hand. Good will prevail and my time in this reality is soon to end.

I feel incredibly light and free of baggage, In recent weeks I have seen most of my worldly possessions simply come to an end and yet I feel no need to replace them, Despite a natural sense of family I feel disconnected and strangely remote and prepared to be separated from them. This does seem strange as previously I have endured long periods of self denial and unhappiness based upon guilt and sense of duty.

Now I simply seem to exist from day to day with little thought of the future or my place in it. I seem to enjoy connecting with people but I'm also content to be on my own.

As you can imagine having changed my world view so dramatically, I am concerned that maybe I am having some type of mental breakdown, I still feel rational and grounded, I do not feel paranoid or fearful, I just feel content and able to meet what ever challenge comes my way.

Do any of you resonate with what I am saying or should I seek professional help?

Congratulations and welcome home. Blessed one.

[Orph]

Do any of you resonate with what I am saying or should I seek professional help?Yes, I resonate, and no, you don't need to seek "professional" help. Trust yourself. (Which in fact you already said you do). Live in the NOW moment. Feel all the love that is deep within you. (Again, this is what you're already starting to feel, and you know this). Relax and enjoy the ride.

[Anchor]

or should I seek professional help?

That's the only thing wrong with your post!!!!

No one has the right to judge you, not even professionals.

Only you judge yourself.

You sound like you are doing brilliantly to me.

[CdnSirian]

Everything is accelerating. Change can be sudden. Check in with yourself with quiet moments--meditation, a quiet walk--whatever you would like. I think you're O.K.

[Carmen]

Ah you are fine Pete! And forget about the professional help. The only professional help you have is inside of you. A big congratulations on your attainment of an enlightened state of "Being". Let the rest of the world go by. It will do what it needs to do.

Cheers

Carmen

[markpierre]

I feel no sense of outrage, I simply feel I am where I need to be and that I hold no animosity to those who would have enslaved us, I simply accept that this is the case and feel confident that matters are in hand. Good will prevail and my time in this reality is soon to end.

I feel incredibly light and free of baggage, In recent weeks I have seen most of my worldly possessions simply come to an end and yet I feel no need to replace them, Despite a natural sense of family I feel disconnected and strangely remote and prepared to be separated from them. This does seem strange as previously I have endured long periods of self denial and unhappiness based upon guilt and sense of duty.

Now I simply seem to exist from day to day with little thought of the future or my place in it. I seem to enjoy connecting with people but I'm also content to be on my own.



What's a 'professional' going to say? 'Good going'?

I've been having the same experience for over a year, and it was after a few years of progressing and eventually exponential collapse that seemed to have brought me to my knees. I'd fully and unequivocally failed in every way, and at age 54 felt like I'd just been born as an orphan. Nothing I'd ever done or believed had any value at all.

It took a long time to get used to being helpless, and learn to not 'do' things I thought I needed to do to recover. And in that, slowly but surely I began to notice that I was more present. I was more serene and more available. I was more honest in everything, more aware. I felt like crap physically and every day was a new contest to see how much I could see of what I'd never been willing to look at, I felt often like I was operating the machine I call my body by remote control. But it was okay. I still feel that way a lot, and when I'm in my body I love it. I was more able to view my conditions and the future from a position of the moment I was in, rather than how I wanted it to be, or the trauma I'd been experiencing. Nothing was, nor would it ever be the same again. And nothing is. .

Again; nothing I've ever studied or believed or done in my life could have ever led to this. Whatever is happening is being DONE TO me. It's not an 'attainment' in any traditional sense. I was told not so long ago by a trusted 'source' that everything I need to learn from this point on can be discovered through joy. Well, I wouldn't imagine I could call on any of my known 'resources' to show me that. There must be some resources that I don't fully know of then, eh?

I love hearing stories about it, thanks Pete. It's a big help to know that it's a shared phenomenon, and that the stories are largely beautiful and encouraging. All the things that seemed to be the causes of our anxieties or fears or depression aren't necessarily going to change, and in fact they may look far worse before they look better. The me of even a year ago wouldn't have been able to cope, but we change whether we think we're participating in our changes or not. That guy was looking over the precipice then and considering a jump. I don't think that guy was even the one who decided not to.

Quite an amazing training ground, wouldn't you say? I want to meet whoever is teaching me this. He knows me really really well.

[mahalall]

sounds like your on a healthy path.

As for the professional help (they have their place),

allow the meaning of amateur to ring in the ear,
"French, from Latin amtor, lover, from amre, to love"

[Lord Sidious]

You aren't the only one Pete.
I too have learned a lot and grown a lot through this forum.

[Mandala]

Do any of you resonate with what I am saying or should I seek professional help?Yes, I resonate, and no, you don't need to seek "professional" help. Trust yourself. (Which in fact you already said you do). Live in the NOW moment. Feel all the love that is deep within you. (Again, this is what you're already starting to feel, and you know this). Relax and enjoy the ride.

No check up needed.
I'm right there with you!
Love and Peace, Mandala

[Ellisa]

It seems everyone is saying "Well done! No help needed". However it seems to me that because you ask the question about needing help in the first place, you may in fact be experience a little anxiety about things that have happened, and also your own reaction.

Perhaps sharing this uncertainty with the group on this forum may be enough reassurance for you. If not, then perhaps reconnecting and sharing your concerns with family or friends may help, or some counselling that involves talking things out and some ideas exchange may be in order.

You do not mention other people's concern about your reaction to events, though you do say you feel uninvolved with them. Maybe they are seeing you as coping well, and remaining focussed. If so, maybe you are in fact doing better than you recognise! I hope you work it out, but remember there is no need to worry about asking for the help you may feel you need.

[crested-duck]

I can relate to what you're saying ! Save your money because you can get better advice and perspectives for free here at PA from people willing to help each other out.

[Lisab]

Hi Pete I agree. Ive grown so much with this forum the last few months. I thought I knew it all before I joined Av. I dont just mean the outer world but the inner me. God knows Ive been searching for years. Its only been a few months but I feel so different now. A little bruised and battered perhaps due to the shift I guess, but if it wasnt for this forum I dont know where Id be. I visit other forums as a guest but nothing compares to here. And sometimes I get it so wrong, like maybe falling into a "poor me pity control drama" or making naive assumptions on topics but no-one here ever judges. Its so cool. Like being around true soul family who are such a big part of my awakening. Much love Lisa xxx

[EileenCookies]

Are you on any medications that could cause similar symptoms? Too much cell phone, cell tower, smart meter exposure or even wifi can cause dis-orientation. If you have had a break with reality I wouldn't jump on the pharmacutical bandwagon without first using accupunture, herbs and moving away from such exposures. Even aluminan, toxic metals like mercury and cadmium, salt, milk allergies and formaldade (all explosures from vacinations, flouride and teflon coating too) can cause mental retardation.

Just mentioning these facts as well....just in case you decide to come down off the bliss high and want to get it back mechanically.

Just what comes to me about you (intuively). Rather than focusing on maintaining or getting it back or even understanding, look for physical causes first. Then if those don't exist (perhaps a very good psychic like the one mentioned here on Avalon recently could give you more exact information....as I usually don't remote view unless on personal request....).

I wouldn't contribute you your symptoms by saying you have a realization without first putting more effort into hearing your experiences. That being said, it sounds mechanical....your original input on this thread. Not very awakened.

lv
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[mosquito]

Very definitely resonate with you Pete !

Only seek "professional" help if you really want to have yourself completely f*cked up.

You're fine as you are, you don't need fixing !;)

[Pete]

thank you all, for your thoughtful response to my request and to hear your thoughts. I appreciate all of your input and I will continue to surf the bliss.