jessamy99
28th December 2011, 21:07
Dear Forum,
I posted two rather long posts some time ago on the Breatharianism thread, and I promised to post part three. Here it is. This is mainly composed of messages from my Angel friend. I would really like to hear if anyone else has had such contact and their messages too.
Please forgive me if I have repeated myself.
These are things Watcher, my angel friend, has told me or shown me.
I come back to my old friend who is an Angel.
Since my earliest memories when I was about 2 years old, he was with me and we went flying together and travelling all over the place.
He was the one I spent most of my childhood with, and he took me and showed me wonderful places and sights.
He still does and he is still my friend, he is also my teacher.
I spend every evening with him and we talk as my body sleeps.
When I ask him to help, he does.
If I present him with a mental picture of anyone who needs healing, he helps them too.
He is vast and powerful, and the gentlest being you could ever be with.
He has given me a new cloak as he said I had outgrown my old one.
He has been with me since before my birth and will be with me after my death.
He loves to meet new people and help them too and he loves to help.
He is delighted about this subject in our contemplation.
He types through me often and he also heals over the internet when I come across people who need help or healing.
I dont know what more to say.
We are friends.
Angels are always around us unseen.
They are friends and want actively to help us
They are beings that are vast and full of energy like a nuclear power station.
They are healers and teachers.
They love to be in communication with us.
They can hear our thoughts and see our needs.
They can alleviate our pain and sicknesses.
They love to laugh with us.
He has been with me always, and he told me his name is Watcher.
W (for short) is a Being, a vast Being.
He holds me in his hands of pure love.
He heals and he guides me.
He is here for you all if you wish to call for help at any time.
He is a teacher of other Beings. I have seen many come with him.
He is pure Love and Goodness.so much so that it makes you want to cry.
He is so strong that you KNOW all is well and he is protecting.
He is from the original Rays of God's Light.
It was during my first year at Grammar School, that I had an experience I will never forget. One early morning when the sunrise was shedding a pink light over everything, W was there. But, not alone. There was a figure with him that was so powerful and full of energy, radiating pure love, and bright light to me. And I saw this wonderful visitor stretch out his hands to me, asking me to share that unconditional love. I was shown a picture of a tiny baby and a lady looking at it. Their eyes met with this deep love. I didn't know why I was visited or what it meant. But it just felt wonderful.
I have always prayed that I will be safe and I know I am.
I am so very lucky to have this friend, and to the question, What are angels for? I would say the same question is applicable to us. What are we for? We are God's creation, that is why we are here. And so are Angels.
As for Ghosts. I have seen many and it has always seemed that they are in need of blessing and help rather than anything else. Also as regards "bad spirits” If you have no fear and love them and let them go, they do not trouble one at all.
My grandmother has been to see me a few times, for example.
1. Shortly after her death she appeared to me in a waking dream.
She looked about 30 and full of life, not how I had ever seen her before.
She was dancing at a family party and I asked her how it was that she looked the youngest member present, she said.
"I am so GLAD I dont have to carry around that awful old case any more."
2. Again, not long after her death she came and showed me a long reel of film and it was unwinding all over the floor. She said, "There is no time." I asked her what she meant. She said "There is no time. You can play the film whenever you want." This turned out to be relevant to a conversation she had had with my mother shortly before she died.
3. On another occasion when I was having to go to horrible court cases, she came and said something to me in a dream and I told her I couldnt hear her. So she took me by the shoulders and turned me around and pushed me straight towards the straight road in front, and said "Walk straight ahead, head up, and dont be afraid."
Angels look quite different.
They have no definite form.
They are vast, and I mean, VAST.
They are glowing with a Light so bright your mental or spirit eyes are blinded by it.
You can FEEL the power in them.
They are with you.
Close your eyes and look with the eyes of your soul and you will see them too.
I just remembered an incident.
I had joined a group to develop communication with your guides.
I was in trouble as W and I were inclined to get carried away in the exercises.
The group leader came to my house. He was a medium.
He told me he would ask his guide to tell him about mine.
After a few minutes he opened his eyes and said that I dont have a guide.
I had what he would call top management.
He had seen W as a huge pillar of light with so much energy latent.
It was obvious that I had chosen to return and help others here.
He said he had to go and he was shaken by it all.
He then told the group that he was handing over to me.
I withdrew. My path is not that of a medium.
I am not as experienced as he was in guides.
But I see many who come with W to help us heal and they have in some cases got definite forms. They are W’s students.
Angels are closer to the creative Sound and Light.
And you know when you meet one.
I had a picture of this given to me the other night.
God is the source of the Light,
The Angels are the causal part of the Beams of Light that come from it,
We are the Beams of Light.
The manifest world is that which is lit.
It was just a picture.
In 1997 in June, I was taken to an ancient man who washed me in silver that seemed to remain as a sort of cloak over me, by W.
Later in the same year, August I think, W gave me a cloak of brilliant light saying I had outgrown my old one, it made me weep and I saw my whole life go in front of me.
Since then i have had this energy tornado in my living room and access to the healing energy it brings.
Most people with their limited sight, can't see the whole scope of their existence.
The higher beings can, the White Brothers, or even angels, because they exist outside the illusion of time, they exist beyond a linear sequence of events.
I am aware that my human body and mind has its failings, its desires, its heaviness which makes me resist action and makes me lazy.
I go to the Light aware, and ask that those shadows be washed away by waterfalls of Light clearing out all the dust and debris, removing the rubbish, giving me colds and coughs. the outward sign of inward cleansing.
I watch as I am wiped clean by hands of Light within. My Light becomes clearer and brighter, a humbling experience.
My eyes are no longer blinkered, but open and seeing, and I see the Light within me is the same as the original Light.
In this state I find work and life and the ordinary chores are changed to become a dance, a joy, a truly wonderful and magic experience, moving within the Light of God.
I watch it all and I do my work.
I feel we are used to looking at ourselves from the outside in, being objective and comparing ourselves with some ideal that we imagine we should be, and falling short, so we feel guilt and remorse and try to be better, or accept the hopelessness of the task. We can never be perfect if we look from this direction.
If we change our point of view, and look from the inside out, and really be aware of where we are and who we are, we discover we are that Light which is perfect love, and this body is only a vehicle that has many imperfections. Give up and let yourself be the Light, and you are love and perfect in that.
Have faith and trust that you can let go, you can give up yourself to that greater consciousness which is the Creator. You are perfect, and you are Love.
There is only one Truth, there is only one experience of it. But there are many ways of describing it, giving many different religions.
This is the cause of chaos and war.
Find the one truth.
The earth is made of dust and ashes, and sin means to be without, without the Light maybe, or outside it somehow.
When we change our point of view and let the Light enter us, all is One Love and Light, and all is right as it always was.
Every cell that exists is just a whirling vortex of energy, of that Breath of God.
Every cell that exists has a consciousness of its own.
Let that consciousness open to your Light, and shine through me each day.
Let that Breath blow away the superficial clouds that hide your Light.
Let my actions be part of the Eternal Dance.
Then I am truly free.
But, we get in the way with our paltry egos, so God's light cannot shine through the clouds our mind creates.and we focus in our minds instead of in our hearts.
If we can sacrifice our ego, and our standpoint in the mind,
If we can give up and totally relax into that vast Love and Light that creates all that is.
Then, wow, we can experience the real Life, our Creator.
And we can meet all that exist in that centre.
And what a smile it gives to the heart, and what joy to the spirit.
And such Love and bliss.
I wish I had the words to describe it.
I think it is ourselves who are the worst judge and the most severe jury.
And yet the pure Mother's love forgives the child every transgression.
How can we be filled with unconditional love unless we can open up and let it in our hearts?
We have to forgive ourselves first to feel we are worthy of love.
Yet it is the old paradox. If we are looking at ourselves from a human point of view we are not much to write home about.
But if we are looking from the point of view of God, and the Light within, we find we are a part of the Perfect Creation, and our trangressions are tiny specks.
It is such a relief.
So do we praise God for each day?
Or just take it for granted?
I feel that being given this physical life is a gift above all others.
When all the duality falls away, the middle path is all that is left, the path up the direct Light of God, shining on the way home.
Nothing can harm us or stop us from following His way.
There is nothing so joyous or comforting to give in and let God lead.
There is only good, and the light that shines within is reflected everywhere.
This is the way home, on the central pillar of the tree of life, up through the heavens from the lowest to the highest, where finally you meet you true self.
It reminds me of a Sanskrit prayer:
From the Unreal, lead me to the Real,
From Darkness, lead me to Light,
From Death, lead me to Immortality.
What a wonderful thing it is to be on your way home...
To know that part of you that never dies, and to know that you will never die.
To have no fear as you know you are not born and you are undying.
You are that which has always been and which will always continue to be.
There is no death.
The material world is only a reflection of the Breath of God, a vibration of that origianl sound that is creating and goes on creating. It is happening now.
Tune into the present, listen with a quiet mind.
I find no conflict here, and no violence, only a melting into the one energy of pure consciousness.
If death is just a step up into that part of us which is at a higher vibration, and we can take that step in our meditation, we can choose not to step back when we like. We have that choice to stay in our etheric body, or to return to the physical.
Our physical body is only a reflection of the Life and Light that creates all, so is the food that it consumes, it can be seen as mattter - solid, or it can be seen as a slower vibration of the Oneness that is all that exists.
There is no separation in Truth, there is only One exisiting and reflecting.
We are all Eyes of the One face.
I feel that one can read and read, but at the end of the day it is what you experience that counts. That is where the real understanding comes from.
Many of the religious books from all different religions have been translated into other languages, and have become cloudy in the process.
When you experience God, the Creative energy that always IS, there is no doubt.
This is definite and tangible and as clear as the person sitting next to you in your room.
Many people have made it clear, by the things they have written, that they have had real tangible experiences which have changed their lives forever.
When one sees, it is as major as when a blind person suddenly sees again.
It is as physical as that.
When you see in a mystical sense, things that are not apparent to others around you, the seeing is as powerful and clear, but the doubts creep in and later one can find the mind explaining it away as a fantasy. Which is why being in a group of like-minded people is such a great honour and privilege.
We can all progress to a higher level of seeing and meeting the Brothers in White.
Ask and you will be taken. Stop reading for a while and let the experiences take you. Let the mind be quiet, let discussion cease internally and externally, and in that silence you cannot fail to be heard by those Angelic beings around.
It takes a little practice and a lot of faith.
There are those who can lead and advise and help while one stumbles along the path.
They have changed my life completely, and I have been told:
"We can all be beginners, and play the game of the child who knows nothing, but it is time now to get your act together and move forward."
This was directed to myself, but it may be applicable to others. To you.
If you have experienced Death and dying, and returned from that state to re-enter the body, you KNOW from experience that there is nothing to fear.
Is this dominion over nature and death?
To have dominion over yourself, to be in charge, or should you do the opposite, to stay out of the way and let God take charge?
I had in meditation a complete letting go of my body, looked back and saw my body sitting down there in the chair.
I found myself in a place that was beyond the senses.
The angel gave me the choice to die or to return. To return to the body, or not to return. It was a simple choice, no effort required.
Re-entering the body I was full of awe, and my mind was thinking - should I be afraid? My mind is very young.
There is no need to fear. Death really is a doorway that can swing both ways.
If I can do this, so can anyone else. Just ask and you will be shown.
I find it hard to confine the experiences into words that the mind can understand and explain with, as words are too small to contain the experiences, and mind is too young to follow the sights of the soul.
This is hard to write.
Just feel the Light fill you.
It is my experience that Death and the separation from the body are 2 different things. I mean that one can be out of one's body for a long period of time and still return, and in the interim the body is still breathing etc etc.
I do know that it is possible to appear visibly in the astral body so that people can see you. I also know that it is possible to appear and to be solid in that same form.
It is also possible to see through another's eyes, something I really wanted to do when I was 4. I was sitting in kindergarten behind my friend Alexandria. She had the most beautiful long fair hair, and I longed suddenly to be sitting in her body and seeing out of her eyes. I am pleased to say it happened.
I must be very lucky. I am a little child inside.
I have no problem with being without thought, or opinions.
I simply don't mind.
I have found that when I am awake, and completely thoughtless, the Light has a channel to flow through, and it does, all on its own.
I need make no effort at all.
In fact the very opposite, I need to NOT make an effort..
The trouble with being human is that we like to work hard.
It gets in the way.
The truth is so simple and the young children are so much better at it than us.
Whatever we think or feel, we are that One Light.
No amount of work or training will make us any more that.
We just have to let go and realise it.
That is so hard, just to let go.
It is as if the sun has always been there but when we become humans our selves become centred on the objective universe, so we seem to be looking at the sun from the planet earth.
This is illusion, we are the Sun shining on the earth, we have to move our consciousness to the centre of that Light, which is our real self.
It makes no difference whether we believe it or not, we are that Sun that is at the centre of all that exists, we just have to realise it and then be it.
I thought of another way to explain it.
Have you ever been to the cinema to watch a film, and got so involved in the plot that you forgot who and where you were?
Then, the lights come on and you realise you are sitting in the auditorium.
That is what it feels like to me.
What is the veil? The veil is illusion.
When we are born we are taught that we are the body we drive.
Our families spend years teaching us that we are that vehicle.
We learn to drive it and control it.
We learn we are separate from others.
We go to school and learn to measure our experiences.
We can refer to them in labels, time, space, descriptions.
We are told that science is right and the best people are scientists.
And what we experience is wrong.
And we gradually believe it to be true.
But any baby can tell you that the feet it can touch are as much a marvel as the rest of this universe.
And if you look into the depths of a baby's eyes, you can see the Light.
The veil is the mind of thoughts and language.
If you dont mind, your mind will be quiet.
Just be.
No thinking.
Just be.
There is a reason for having a veil, and it is very hard to live without one.
To live in this world and have no way of closing the door to other people's pain and suffering is hard, it is not all fun and laughter by any means.
Such sadness and sympathy is felt that it hurts more than it hurts the person who is carrying it.
Can you imagine feeling everybody's pains, physical and emotional?
Can you imagine how hard it is to listen to people with problems and know the solution, but know that you can never show it to them how ever hard you try?
Can you feel all that and yet be overflowing with the joy of the Light that shines through you, yet be unable to express it to those around you?
It isn't easy.
I can understand why some people go and live in convents and monasteries.
To have a veil is absolutely vital to live in this world as a self protection if nothing else.
Ascension is being One with all that is, and with that which creates.
Being that One Light and Breath of God, and the God that breathes.
Do you expect to Ascend? Become enlightened, filled with the Light?
We are already Ascended, and cannot be otherwise. Whatever we do and however we work hard we will not become Ascended because we already ARE Ascended.
We cannot be otherwise as hard as we try.
All we need to do is to realise that Oneness that WE ARE.
What are the necessary attributes in order to ascend?
To exist is the only attribute necessary.
To what/where does one ascend?
When the realisation arrives and you can experience this Oneness.
You will find yourself so vast you will feel complete awe.
You will see from all eyes,
Speak through all languages,
Touch with all the hands that exist,
Walk in everyone's shoes.
You will hear all the thoughts that ever existed, and that will ever exist.
You will know everyone in their heart.
You will open your mouth and a world will be created.
You will be in wonder at your All-Oneness.
The singularity of Being.
The complete Love.
I had a great advantage in my life in that I have a friend in High places.
He teaches me so much too.
And I know so little.
I try to explain and I fail time and time again.
Words cannot say what I mean, what I experience.
But I am glad if I am expressing even a small part of it for you.
The kingdom of heaven is within, and we look without.
In other words we look from outside to the outside.
We look from the place of sin, meaning without. Without Light.
How can we hope to see from there?
Our real eyes are really within, we just think they are outside and we place ourselves there with them.
No wonder we cannot see Heaven.
The Other Side, it is a wonderful place to experience. Out of this world is in truth the phrase that comes to me.
Yet, it is all around us and pervades this world of our senses as water in a sponge.
It is outside time and space and has no adherence to these rules of physics that we use.
All the wave lengths from colour, sound, sensations of all sorts are at a finer and faster vibration, so we cannot sense it with our clumsy and slow vehicles.
I have found when we see beings who have passed to this other side, to put it in those terms, they can present us with a form, and often bring a memory of their final state too. For example a man who I knew died of a heart attack, and when he made his presence known one would get a really bad pain in the chest. I actually asked him to stop this as it hurt.
I agree that this life is the less real in the long term, but we are here for a purpose, and let us not forget to celebrate this chance we have to live and learn in this fallen state, in the gross world we find ourselves.
It is, if nothing else, a wonderful gift we have been given.
What a wonderful birthday present, to be given a life, standing on this planet hurtling through the universe, at a speed of 19 miles per second or so.
It has to be a miracle!
I remember a group of Buddhists I was listening to when I was 14.
They were discussing how to be.
One said you had to breathe in for a count of 4 and then out for a count of 4 and then repeat while you mentally say a mantra.
We all did this and sat for about 20 minutes trying so hard to BE.
Then they had a discussion on whether it had worked or not.
Had any of us managed to BE...?
I had a hard time not to roll up laughing.
I really couldnt believe my ears.
Of course I was only young and foolish then.
Now I may know better. Laughing
Well, maybe I am still young and foolish.
I see things like this.
There are things that a person can experience mystically.
These experiences can fit into their beliefs and be expressed in the terms of that group they belong to or are brought up in. Their own language.
Now, if a person has had an experience it has to be true.
And, if it is true, it has to be available to all people.
Just the language causes the rifts and separation.
So, if we can talk about our experiences in "lay terms" we may find the separation goes.
What comes to me is that the material world is all vibration.
Each atom is a number of electrons whirling around a nucleus.
And each electron is composed of whirls of energy.
They dance so fast they appear to be solid.
Now, up one level, the energy moves in a finer way that we cannot perceive usually.
However, at night, our antennae are opened up, to beware of danger.
So they are more easily seen in the dark, or after a shock like a bereavement.
This energy that is everywhere, dancing in eddies, this is the energy that comes directly from the breath of God, now, in this very moment.
If God stopped breathing, all this would poof.
And yet it seems so very solid and real.
It is just an illusion.
You are that very breath, the one Light, the one Consciousness.
All you need to do is to sit down and be aware of it.
It is so simple. That is why we can’t do it.
The breath is now, and it is what we are.
Only one breath, for one reality.
And as the breath sighs, we hear the silence.
As the breath flows, so we feel energy within.
As the breath creates steam, we see the condensation.
There is only this, and it is only now.
Whatever was, or is, or will be.
It is all here and now for us to reach.
You can create reality with prayers and imagination.
I love the subject of prayer, in general.
It is as if you plant a seed in the atmosphere, and send it off with love.
Somehow it is fed and watered in the cosmos.
The thoughts come into being, and gradually solidify to become possibilities.
The opportunities arrive and become choices we can take.
The coincidences arrive next and all falls into place.
It is magic in its true sense.
It is as if everything that exists is an ocean.
The waves move as God breathes.
Some of the waves reach the shore as he breathes out, and come into this world of matter and apparent solidity.
As the breath is drawn in again, those waves return to the ocean.
It has a cycle of being made flesh and returning back to the spirit.
If we are all one being, the conciousness of God, then the individuality we feel we have is just illusion. We are not separate people at all, but just eyes and ears and voices of the one God.
I had a few very deep experiences that I found it hard to talk about. One was that W showed me that he was a part of myself. He has many times typed through my hands to people, and I have voiced his thoughts in conversations with people I have been healing, but last summer, he actually took me into his self somehow, and I found that I was looking though his eyes, and I was in fact him. That was a staggering experience, and I had to let it mull over and have not before talked about it to anyone.
The other experience I had a few times was also wonderful. I was a part of all the body of mankind. I actually was able to see out of all the eyes, feel with all the hands, experience all the heartaches and joys, and the connection was amazing. It was in a way like being a part of a spider web. I never knew the connection between people was so strong before.
Thomas Traherne wrote:
When I was born, I had no head. My eye was single and my body was filled with light. And the light that I was, was the light that I saw by, and the light that I saw by was the light that I was. And many's the time that I've passed by the river and saw no tollman and needed no ferryman to cross.
And I enjoyed the world aright, for the sea itself floweth, and warm I was and clothed.
One Light, the Light that is one though the lamps be many.
You will never enjoy the world aright 'till the sea itself floweth in your veins and you are clothed with the heavens and crowned with the stars.
It feels to me as though being in this world is being in the valley of the shadow of death.
Being born one has to surely die, definitely.
Which reminds me of a conversation I was having with my daughter once, where we were discussing dangerous activities.and concluded that being born was the worst because it was certain that you would die from it.
But knowing the Light you need fear no evil.
Death holds no sting.
When I step aside and let the Light within shine through me, I know I am that Light, and I know the Unity in all that is. There is nothing to fear when you are One. I am the light, the right hand, the all seeing eye in the skies, the I that each voice calls his own, I am you. Come into me and be one together, let go and be light, love and trust. I am with you, I am you, in the centre.
1.9.99 I wrote a poem:
What is life about ???
Why are we here ??
We ask ourselves from time to time - and rarely can we answer.
Inside ourselves is the door to space - where our hearts live.
Here we meet everyone else's hearts - whether they are aware of it or not.
Here the angels live - the kingdom of heaven.
Bursting with love and joy and laughter.
The door is a point inside us - the dot in the circle.
It opens to this vast space - which is our true self.
It contains everything that is - it is all that is.
And is all that was, or will ever be.
You don't need to do anything special to find the way -
No meditation or special rituals.
You just ask to go - and you will be taken.
Knock and the door will be opened.
Call and I will come to you.
Call on the angels for help - they will come.
All the light is there - and the music - the chanting of the sound.
The sound of creation - music of the spheres some call it.
The sound of electrical vibrations - the breath of god.
The mantra of pure energy and consciousness.
All that exists is just whirlpools of energy,
Dancing at such speed that we see it as solid.
The spaces between the whorls are vast -
Like the spaces between the stars.
Our perception of this world is just a mirage - hallucination.
Like a bicycle wheel spins and looks solid.
But we know the spokes have spaces between.
We must change our point of view - move our standpoint.
Instead of centering inside our head - we must sit in our souls.
Here we can experience all that is.
The oneness within all..
The very substance of life.
Beyond language, forms, physical trappings.
We meet all in their very centre.
No language is needed - understanding is complete.
We see the beings - not the humans -
And they shine like the stars they are.
From here the human values seem so paltry.
Rules seem so ineffectual and irrelevant.
Because there is nothing greater than this love - being.
Pure love - recreating itself - in a very simple way.
Mathematicians have found the formula - of chaos.
What seems chaos - is really perfection.
The fractals that appear are the pattern of creation.
From the universal to the microscopic.
The pattern repeats - and reappears.
Repetition, iteration, over and over - the same action.
Creates and continues to create.
Like a rhythmic breathing.
The pattern of god.
How is it then - that we sit here
In bodies - with sensations - and perceptions.
With the planet beneath our feet ?
We feel so physical - so solid.
The senses all tell us we are real people.
And we know we are not.
But we believe we are.
Yet - even believing we are bodies -
Think for a moment of the planet -
Hurtling through space - through the universe,
With the wind blowing back your hair.
Hold on tight - don't fall off.
Feel the miracle of that - in itself.
How extraordinary life truly is !
It just makes me want to laugh
Such joy i feel - such love and laughter.
Come and laugh with me for a space.
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It is the beginning of creation, or the root of creation that exists now.
It is creating reality as we speak.
It is that which fills creation with goodness.
It is that which forgives us our transgressions. It is unconditional love.
Dream and imagine those dreams until they crystalise into reality.
The earth is made of dust and ashes and sin means to be without. Without the Light maybe, or outside it somehow. This is an illusion.
When we change our point of view and let the Light enter us, all is One Love and Light, and all is right as it always was.
When I have been taken in meditation to the Light, I have seen the Lights that have been created by that God or Creative Force.
That Light is inside us all.
Some say it is the drop of the ocean, which is God.
It is more like a doorway to the Creating energy.
If that Light within me is married to the flesh, and that is what makes me who I am, well I am joyful about it.
I believe we are all Sons of God within. Lights from the Source.
In that Light I can enter and find myself in the great Ocean of that which creates.
In that place are the hearts of all
Thus, you are in my heart and I know your heart so well.
I know you, not who you are or what you do, or who you know, but I do know that part of you that is greater than all that, the part I meet in my heart.
And in that place, and that meeting, there is just simply Love and Light.
My gift to you is my awareness of this.
And the sharing of it with you.
We see things are as they are meant to be, and there is a certainty about creation.
No doubts left.
All is One, and it IS good.
I dont have the words to say what I can see. Laughing.
I posted two rather long posts some time ago on the Breatharianism thread, and I promised to post part three. Here it is. This is mainly composed of messages from my Angel friend. I would really like to hear if anyone else has had such contact and their messages too.
Please forgive me if I have repeated myself.
These are things Watcher, my angel friend, has told me or shown me.
I come back to my old friend who is an Angel.
Since my earliest memories when I was about 2 years old, he was with me and we went flying together and travelling all over the place.
He was the one I spent most of my childhood with, and he took me and showed me wonderful places and sights.
He still does and he is still my friend, he is also my teacher.
I spend every evening with him and we talk as my body sleeps.
When I ask him to help, he does.
If I present him with a mental picture of anyone who needs healing, he helps them too.
He is vast and powerful, and the gentlest being you could ever be with.
He has given me a new cloak as he said I had outgrown my old one.
He has been with me since before my birth and will be with me after my death.
He loves to meet new people and help them too and he loves to help.
He is delighted about this subject in our contemplation.
He types through me often and he also heals over the internet when I come across people who need help or healing.
I dont know what more to say.
We are friends.
Angels are always around us unseen.
They are friends and want actively to help us
They are beings that are vast and full of energy like a nuclear power station.
They are healers and teachers.
They love to be in communication with us.
They can hear our thoughts and see our needs.
They can alleviate our pain and sicknesses.
They love to laugh with us.
He has been with me always, and he told me his name is Watcher.
W (for short) is a Being, a vast Being.
He holds me in his hands of pure love.
He heals and he guides me.
He is here for you all if you wish to call for help at any time.
He is a teacher of other Beings. I have seen many come with him.
He is pure Love and Goodness.so much so that it makes you want to cry.
He is so strong that you KNOW all is well and he is protecting.
He is from the original Rays of God's Light.
It was during my first year at Grammar School, that I had an experience I will never forget. One early morning when the sunrise was shedding a pink light over everything, W was there. But, not alone. There was a figure with him that was so powerful and full of energy, radiating pure love, and bright light to me. And I saw this wonderful visitor stretch out his hands to me, asking me to share that unconditional love. I was shown a picture of a tiny baby and a lady looking at it. Their eyes met with this deep love. I didn't know why I was visited or what it meant. But it just felt wonderful.
I have always prayed that I will be safe and I know I am.
I am so very lucky to have this friend, and to the question, What are angels for? I would say the same question is applicable to us. What are we for? We are God's creation, that is why we are here. And so are Angels.
As for Ghosts. I have seen many and it has always seemed that they are in need of blessing and help rather than anything else. Also as regards "bad spirits” If you have no fear and love them and let them go, they do not trouble one at all.
My grandmother has been to see me a few times, for example.
1. Shortly after her death she appeared to me in a waking dream.
She looked about 30 and full of life, not how I had ever seen her before.
She was dancing at a family party and I asked her how it was that she looked the youngest member present, she said.
"I am so GLAD I dont have to carry around that awful old case any more."
2. Again, not long after her death she came and showed me a long reel of film and it was unwinding all over the floor. She said, "There is no time." I asked her what she meant. She said "There is no time. You can play the film whenever you want." This turned out to be relevant to a conversation she had had with my mother shortly before she died.
3. On another occasion when I was having to go to horrible court cases, she came and said something to me in a dream and I told her I couldnt hear her. So she took me by the shoulders and turned me around and pushed me straight towards the straight road in front, and said "Walk straight ahead, head up, and dont be afraid."
Angels look quite different.
They have no definite form.
They are vast, and I mean, VAST.
They are glowing with a Light so bright your mental or spirit eyes are blinded by it.
You can FEEL the power in them.
They are with you.
Close your eyes and look with the eyes of your soul and you will see them too.
I just remembered an incident.
I had joined a group to develop communication with your guides.
I was in trouble as W and I were inclined to get carried away in the exercises.
The group leader came to my house. He was a medium.
He told me he would ask his guide to tell him about mine.
After a few minutes he opened his eyes and said that I dont have a guide.
I had what he would call top management.
He had seen W as a huge pillar of light with so much energy latent.
It was obvious that I had chosen to return and help others here.
He said he had to go and he was shaken by it all.
He then told the group that he was handing over to me.
I withdrew. My path is not that of a medium.
I am not as experienced as he was in guides.
But I see many who come with W to help us heal and they have in some cases got definite forms. They are W’s students.
Angels are closer to the creative Sound and Light.
And you know when you meet one.
I had a picture of this given to me the other night.
God is the source of the Light,
The Angels are the causal part of the Beams of Light that come from it,
We are the Beams of Light.
The manifest world is that which is lit.
It was just a picture.
In 1997 in June, I was taken to an ancient man who washed me in silver that seemed to remain as a sort of cloak over me, by W.
Later in the same year, August I think, W gave me a cloak of brilliant light saying I had outgrown my old one, it made me weep and I saw my whole life go in front of me.
Since then i have had this energy tornado in my living room and access to the healing energy it brings.
Most people with their limited sight, can't see the whole scope of their existence.
The higher beings can, the White Brothers, or even angels, because they exist outside the illusion of time, they exist beyond a linear sequence of events.
I am aware that my human body and mind has its failings, its desires, its heaviness which makes me resist action and makes me lazy.
I go to the Light aware, and ask that those shadows be washed away by waterfalls of Light clearing out all the dust and debris, removing the rubbish, giving me colds and coughs. the outward sign of inward cleansing.
I watch as I am wiped clean by hands of Light within. My Light becomes clearer and brighter, a humbling experience.
My eyes are no longer blinkered, but open and seeing, and I see the Light within me is the same as the original Light.
In this state I find work and life and the ordinary chores are changed to become a dance, a joy, a truly wonderful and magic experience, moving within the Light of God.
I watch it all and I do my work.
I feel we are used to looking at ourselves from the outside in, being objective and comparing ourselves with some ideal that we imagine we should be, and falling short, so we feel guilt and remorse and try to be better, or accept the hopelessness of the task. We can never be perfect if we look from this direction.
If we change our point of view, and look from the inside out, and really be aware of where we are and who we are, we discover we are that Light which is perfect love, and this body is only a vehicle that has many imperfections. Give up and let yourself be the Light, and you are love and perfect in that.
Have faith and trust that you can let go, you can give up yourself to that greater consciousness which is the Creator. You are perfect, and you are Love.
There is only one Truth, there is only one experience of it. But there are many ways of describing it, giving many different religions.
This is the cause of chaos and war.
Find the one truth.
The earth is made of dust and ashes, and sin means to be without, without the Light maybe, or outside it somehow.
When we change our point of view and let the Light enter us, all is One Love and Light, and all is right as it always was.
Every cell that exists is just a whirling vortex of energy, of that Breath of God.
Every cell that exists has a consciousness of its own.
Let that consciousness open to your Light, and shine through me each day.
Let that Breath blow away the superficial clouds that hide your Light.
Let my actions be part of the Eternal Dance.
Then I am truly free.
But, we get in the way with our paltry egos, so God's light cannot shine through the clouds our mind creates.and we focus in our minds instead of in our hearts.
If we can sacrifice our ego, and our standpoint in the mind,
If we can give up and totally relax into that vast Love and Light that creates all that is.
Then, wow, we can experience the real Life, our Creator.
And we can meet all that exist in that centre.
And what a smile it gives to the heart, and what joy to the spirit.
And such Love and bliss.
I wish I had the words to describe it.
I think it is ourselves who are the worst judge and the most severe jury.
And yet the pure Mother's love forgives the child every transgression.
How can we be filled with unconditional love unless we can open up and let it in our hearts?
We have to forgive ourselves first to feel we are worthy of love.
Yet it is the old paradox. If we are looking at ourselves from a human point of view we are not much to write home about.
But if we are looking from the point of view of God, and the Light within, we find we are a part of the Perfect Creation, and our trangressions are tiny specks.
It is such a relief.
So do we praise God for each day?
Or just take it for granted?
I feel that being given this physical life is a gift above all others.
When all the duality falls away, the middle path is all that is left, the path up the direct Light of God, shining on the way home.
Nothing can harm us or stop us from following His way.
There is nothing so joyous or comforting to give in and let God lead.
There is only good, and the light that shines within is reflected everywhere.
This is the way home, on the central pillar of the tree of life, up through the heavens from the lowest to the highest, where finally you meet you true self.
It reminds me of a Sanskrit prayer:
From the Unreal, lead me to the Real,
From Darkness, lead me to Light,
From Death, lead me to Immortality.
What a wonderful thing it is to be on your way home...
To know that part of you that never dies, and to know that you will never die.
To have no fear as you know you are not born and you are undying.
You are that which has always been and which will always continue to be.
There is no death.
The material world is only a reflection of the Breath of God, a vibration of that origianl sound that is creating and goes on creating. It is happening now.
Tune into the present, listen with a quiet mind.
I find no conflict here, and no violence, only a melting into the one energy of pure consciousness.
If death is just a step up into that part of us which is at a higher vibration, and we can take that step in our meditation, we can choose not to step back when we like. We have that choice to stay in our etheric body, or to return to the physical.
Our physical body is only a reflection of the Life and Light that creates all, so is the food that it consumes, it can be seen as mattter - solid, or it can be seen as a slower vibration of the Oneness that is all that exists.
There is no separation in Truth, there is only One exisiting and reflecting.
We are all Eyes of the One face.
I feel that one can read and read, but at the end of the day it is what you experience that counts. That is where the real understanding comes from.
Many of the religious books from all different religions have been translated into other languages, and have become cloudy in the process.
When you experience God, the Creative energy that always IS, there is no doubt.
This is definite and tangible and as clear as the person sitting next to you in your room.
Many people have made it clear, by the things they have written, that they have had real tangible experiences which have changed their lives forever.
When one sees, it is as major as when a blind person suddenly sees again.
It is as physical as that.
When you see in a mystical sense, things that are not apparent to others around you, the seeing is as powerful and clear, but the doubts creep in and later one can find the mind explaining it away as a fantasy. Which is why being in a group of like-minded people is such a great honour and privilege.
We can all progress to a higher level of seeing and meeting the Brothers in White.
Ask and you will be taken. Stop reading for a while and let the experiences take you. Let the mind be quiet, let discussion cease internally and externally, and in that silence you cannot fail to be heard by those Angelic beings around.
It takes a little practice and a lot of faith.
There are those who can lead and advise and help while one stumbles along the path.
They have changed my life completely, and I have been told:
"We can all be beginners, and play the game of the child who knows nothing, but it is time now to get your act together and move forward."
This was directed to myself, but it may be applicable to others. To you.
If you have experienced Death and dying, and returned from that state to re-enter the body, you KNOW from experience that there is nothing to fear.
Is this dominion over nature and death?
To have dominion over yourself, to be in charge, or should you do the opposite, to stay out of the way and let God take charge?
I had in meditation a complete letting go of my body, looked back and saw my body sitting down there in the chair.
I found myself in a place that was beyond the senses.
The angel gave me the choice to die or to return. To return to the body, or not to return. It was a simple choice, no effort required.
Re-entering the body I was full of awe, and my mind was thinking - should I be afraid? My mind is very young.
There is no need to fear. Death really is a doorway that can swing both ways.
If I can do this, so can anyone else. Just ask and you will be shown.
I find it hard to confine the experiences into words that the mind can understand and explain with, as words are too small to contain the experiences, and mind is too young to follow the sights of the soul.
This is hard to write.
Just feel the Light fill you.
It is my experience that Death and the separation from the body are 2 different things. I mean that one can be out of one's body for a long period of time and still return, and in the interim the body is still breathing etc etc.
I do know that it is possible to appear visibly in the astral body so that people can see you. I also know that it is possible to appear and to be solid in that same form.
It is also possible to see through another's eyes, something I really wanted to do when I was 4. I was sitting in kindergarten behind my friend Alexandria. She had the most beautiful long fair hair, and I longed suddenly to be sitting in her body and seeing out of her eyes. I am pleased to say it happened.
I must be very lucky. I am a little child inside.
I have no problem with being without thought, or opinions.
I simply don't mind.
I have found that when I am awake, and completely thoughtless, the Light has a channel to flow through, and it does, all on its own.
I need make no effort at all.
In fact the very opposite, I need to NOT make an effort..
The trouble with being human is that we like to work hard.
It gets in the way.
The truth is so simple and the young children are so much better at it than us.
Whatever we think or feel, we are that One Light.
No amount of work or training will make us any more that.
We just have to let go and realise it.
That is so hard, just to let go.
It is as if the sun has always been there but when we become humans our selves become centred on the objective universe, so we seem to be looking at the sun from the planet earth.
This is illusion, we are the Sun shining on the earth, we have to move our consciousness to the centre of that Light, which is our real self.
It makes no difference whether we believe it or not, we are that Sun that is at the centre of all that exists, we just have to realise it and then be it.
I thought of another way to explain it.
Have you ever been to the cinema to watch a film, and got so involved in the plot that you forgot who and where you were?
Then, the lights come on and you realise you are sitting in the auditorium.
That is what it feels like to me.
What is the veil? The veil is illusion.
When we are born we are taught that we are the body we drive.
Our families spend years teaching us that we are that vehicle.
We learn to drive it and control it.
We learn we are separate from others.
We go to school and learn to measure our experiences.
We can refer to them in labels, time, space, descriptions.
We are told that science is right and the best people are scientists.
And what we experience is wrong.
And we gradually believe it to be true.
But any baby can tell you that the feet it can touch are as much a marvel as the rest of this universe.
And if you look into the depths of a baby's eyes, you can see the Light.
The veil is the mind of thoughts and language.
If you dont mind, your mind will be quiet.
Just be.
No thinking.
Just be.
There is a reason for having a veil, and it is very hard to live without one.
To live in this world and have no way of closing the door to other people's pain and suffering is hard, it is not all fun and laughter by any means.
Such sadness and sympathy is felt that it hurts more than it hurts the person who is carrying it.
Can you imagine feeling everybody's pains, physical and emotional?
Can you imagine how hard it is to listen to people with problems and know the solution, but know that you can never show it to them how ever hard you try?
Can you feel all that and yet be overflowing with the joy of the Light that shines through you, yet be unable to express it to those around you?
It isn't easy.
I can understand why some people go and live in convents and monasteries.
To have a veil is absolutely vital to live in this world as a self protection if nothing else.
Ascension is being One with all that is, and with that which creates.
Being that One Light and Breath of God, and the God that breathes.
Do you expect to Ascend? Become enlightened, filled with the Light?
We are already Ascended, and cannot be otherwise. Whatever we do and however we work hard we will not become Ascended because we already ARE Ascended.
We cannot be otherwise as hard as we try.
All we need to do is to realise that Oneness that WE ARE.
What are the necessary attributes in order to ascend?
To exist is the only attribute necessary.
To what/where does one ascend?
When the realisation arrives and you can experience this Oneness.
You will find yourself so vast you will feel complete awe.
You will see from all eyes,
Speak through all languages,
Touch with all the hands that exist,
Walk in everyone's shoes.
You will hear all the thoughts that ever existed, and that will ever exist.
You will know everyone in their heart.
You will open your mouth and a world will be created.
You will be in wonder at your All-Oneness.
The singularity of Being.
The complete Love.
I had a great advantage in my life in that I have a friend in High places.
He teaches me so much too.
And I know so little.
I try to explain and I fail time and time again.
Words cannot say what I mean, what I experience.
But I am glad if I am expressing even a small part of it for you.
The kingdom of heaven is within, and we look without.
In other words we look from outside to the outside.
We look from the place of sin, meaning without. Without Light.
How can we hope to see from there?
Our real eyes are really within, we just think they are outside and we place ourselves there with them.
No wonder we cannot see Heaven.
The Other Side, it is a wonderful place to experience. Out of this world is in truth the phrase that comes to me.
Yet, it is all around us and pervades this world of our senses as water in a sponge.
It is outside time and space and has no adherence to these rules of physics that we use.
All the wave lengths from colour, sound, sensations of all sorts are at a finer and faster vibration, so we cannot sense it with our clumsy and slow vehicles.
I have found when we see beings who have passed to this other side, to put it in those terms, they can present us with a form, and often bring a memory of their final state too. For example a man who I knew died of a heart attack, and when he made his presence known one would get a really bad pain in the chest. I actually asked him to stop this as it hurt.
I agree that this life is the less real in the long term, but we are here for a purpose, and let us not forget to celebrate this chance we have to live and learn in this fallen state, in the gross world we find ourselves.
It is, if nothing else, a wonderful gift we have been given.
What a wonderful birthday present, to be given a life, standing on this planet hurtling through the universe, at a speed of 19 miles per second or so.
It has to be a miracle!
I remember a group of Buddhists I was listening to when I was 14.
They were discussing how to be.
One said you had to breathe in for a count of 4 and then out for a count of 4 and then repeat while you mentally say a mantra.
We all did this and sat for about 20 minutes trying so hard to BE.
Then they had a discussion on whether it had worked or not.
Had any of us managed to BE...?
I had a hard time not to roll up laughing.
I really couldnt believe my ears.
Of course I was only young and foolish then.
Now I may know better. Laughing
Well, maybe I am still young and foolish.
I see things like this.
There are things that a person can experience mystically.
These experiences can fit into their beliefs and be expressed in the terms of that group they belong to or are brought up in. Their own language.
Now, if a person has had an experience it has to be true.
And, if it is true, it has to be available to all people.
Just the language causes the rifts and separation.
So, if we can talk about our experiences in "lay terms" we may find the separation goes.
What comes to me is that the material world is all vibration.
Each atom is a number of electrons whirling around a nucleus.
And each electron is composed of whirls of energy.
They dance so fast they appear to be solid.
Now, up one level, the energy moves in a finer way that we cannot perceive usually.
However, at night, our antennae are opened up, to beware of danger.
So they are more easily seen in the dark, or after a shock like a bereavement.
This energy that is everywhere, dancing in eddies, this is the energy that comes directly from the breath of God, now, in this very moment.
If God stopped breathing, all this would poof.
And yet it seems so very solid and real.
It is just an illusion.
You are that very breath, the one Light, the one Consciousness.
All you need to do is to sit down and be aware of it.
It is so simple. That is why we can’t do it.
The breath is now, and it is what we are.
Only one breath, for one reality.
And as the breath sighs, we hear the silence.
As the breath flows, so we feel energy within.
As the breath creates steam, we see the condensation.
There is only this, and it is only now.
Whatever was, or is, or will be.
It is all here and now for us to reach.
You can create reality with prayers and imagination.
I love the subject of prayer, in general.
It is as if you plant a seed in the atmosphere, and send it off with love.
Somehow it is fed and watered in the cosmos.
The thoughts come into being, and gradually solidify to become possibilities.
The opportunities arrive and become choices we can take.
The coincidences arrive next and all falls into place.
It is magic in its true sense.
It is as if everything that exists is an ocean.
The waves move as God breathes.
Some of the waves reach the shore as he breathes out, and come into this world of matter and apparent solidity.
As the breath is drawn in again, those waves return to the ocean.
It has a cycle of being made flesh and returning back to the spirit.
If we are all one being, the conciousness of God, then the individuality we feel we have is just illusion. We are not separate people at all, but just eyes and ears and voices of the one God.
I had a few very deep experiences that I found it hard to talk about. One was that W showed me that he was a part of myself. He has many times typed through my hands to people, and I have voiced his thoughts in conversations with people I have been healing, but last summer, he actually took me into his self somehow, and I found that I was looking though his eyes, and I was in fact him. That was a staggering experience, and I had to let it mull over and have not before talked about it to anyone.
The other experience I had a few times was also wonderful. I was a part of all the body of mankind. I actually was able to see out of all the eyes, feel with all the hands, experience all the heartaches and joys, and the connection was amazing. It was in a way like being a part of a spider web. I never knew the connection between people was so strong before.
Thomas Traherne wrote:
When I was born, I had no head. My eye was single and my body was filled with light. And the light that I was, was the light that I saw by, and the light that I saw by was the light that I was. And many's the time that I've passed by the river and saw no tollman and needed no ferryman to cross.
And I enjoyed the world aright, for the sea itself floweth, and warm I was and clothed.
One Light, the Light that is one though the lamps be many.
You will never enjoy the world aright 'till the sea itself floweth in your veins and you are clothed with the heavens and crowned with the stars.
It feels to me as though being in this world is being in the valley of the shadow of death.
Being born one has to surely die, definitely.
Which reminds me of a conversation I was having with my daughter once, where we were discussing dangerous activities.and concluded that being born was the worst because it was certain that you would die from it.
But knowing the Light you need fear no evil.
Death holds no sting.
When I step aside and let the Light within shine through me, I know I am that Light, and I know the Unity in all that is. There is nothing to fear when you are One. I am the light, the right hand, the all seeing eye in the skies, the I that each voice calls his own, I am you. Come into me and be one together, let go and be light, love and trust. I am with you, I am you, in the centre.
1.9.99 I wrote a poem:
What is life about ???
Why are we here ??
We ask ourselves from time to time - and rarely can we answer.
Inside ourselves is the door to space - where our hearts live.
Here we meet everyone else's hearts - whether they are aware of it or not.
Here the angels live - the kingdom of heaven.
Bursting with love and joy and laughter.
The door is a point inside us - the dot in the circle.
It opens to this vast space - which is our true self.
It contains everything that is - it is all that is.
And is all that was, or will ever be.
You don't need to do anything special to find the way -
No meditation or special rituals.
You just ask to go - and you will be taken.
Knock and the door will be opened.
Call and I will come to you.
Call on the angels for help - they will come.
All the light is there - and the music - the chanting of the sound.
The sound of creation - music of the spheres some call it.
The sound of electrical vibrations - the breath of god.
The mantra of pure energy and consciousness.
All that exists is just whirlpools of energy,
Dancing at such speed that we see it as solid.
The spaces between the whorls are vast -
Like the spaces between the stars.
Our perception of this world is just a mirage - hallucination.
Like a bicycle wheel spins and looks solid.
But we know the spokes have spaces between.
We must change our point of view - move our standpoint.
Instead of centering inside our head - we must sit in our souls.
Here we can experience all that is.
The oneness within all..
The very substance of life.
Beyond language, forms, physical trappings.
We meet all in their very centre.
No language is needed - understanding is complete.
We see the beings - not the humans -
And they shine like the stars they are.
From here the human values seem so paltry.
Rules seem so ineffectual and irrelevant.
Because there is nothing greater than this love - being.
Pure love - recreating itself - in a very simple way.
Mathematicians have found the formula - of chaos.
What seems chaos - is really perfection.
The fractals that appear are the pattern of creation.
From the universal to the microscopic.
The pattern repeats - and reappears.
Repetition, iteration, over and over - the same action.
Creates and continues to create.
Like a rhythmic breathing.
The pattern of god.
How is it then - that we sit here
In bodies - with sensations - and perceptions.
With the planet beneath our feet ?
We feel so physical - so solid.
The senses all tell us we are real people.
And we know we are not.
But we believe we are.
Yet - even believing we are bodies -
Think for a moment of the planet -
Hurtling through space - through the universe,
With the wind blowing back your hair.
Hold on tight - don't fall off.
Feel the miracle of that - in itself.
How extraordinary life truly is !
It just makes me want to laugh
Such joy i feel - such love and laughter.
Come and laugh with me for a space.
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It is the beginning of creation, or the root of creation that exists now.
It is creating reality as we speak.
It is that which fills creation with goodness.
It is that which forgives us our transgressions. It is unconditional love.
Dream and imagine those dreams until they crystalise into reality.
The earth is made of dust and ashes and sin means to be without. Without the Light maybe, or outside it somehow. This is an illusion.
When we change our point of view and let the Light enter us, all is One Love and Light, and all is right as it always was.
When I have been taken in meditation to the Light, I have seen the Lights that have been created by that God or Creative Force.
That Light is inside us all.
Some say it is the drop of the ocean, which is God.
It is more like a doorway to the Creating energy.
If that Light within me is married to the flesh, and that is what makes me who I am, well I am joyful about it.
I believe we are all Sons of God within. Lights from the Source.
In that Light I can enter and find myself in the great Ocean of that which creates.
In that place are the hearts of all
Thus, you are in my heart and I know your heart so well.
I know you, not who you are or what you do, or who you know, but I do know that part of you that is greater than all that, the part I meet in my heart.
And in that place, and that meeting, there is just simply Love and Light.
My gift to you is my awareness of this.
And the sharing of it with you.
We see things are as they are meant to be, and there is a certainty about creation.
No doubts left.
All is One, and it IS good.
I dont have the words to say what I can see. Laughing.