I'm in need of some happy energy

[PixieDust]

I'm really bad at asking for help.

Lately life has gotten to hard to handle alone. I've lost my spark to keep fighting. Not that I'm suicidal; I see the light at the end of the tunnel I just need a little extra push to keep walking.

I don't want to go on a bitch rant about all my problems. Most of them aren't probably near as bad as other peoples.

Im always on the verge of tears and no matter how much caffeine I consume I'm always ready to go lay in my bed and shut down.

I have two little girls that depend on me and i feel like I'm letting them down.

So this is my cry for help. :help: for anyone who's willing to send me a little push.

peace.

[NeverMind]

Instead of caffeine, try drinking cayenne pepper/chili/hot paprika.
It's proven to be a great mood enhancer.

More substantial advice I'll leave to others. :-)

The best of luck.

[Tony]

Dear Pixiedust

Can you say more specifically how you feel? Sadness? Depression? Exhaustion? Loneliness? Overwhelmed? It might help to clarify before people start making suggestions...just try and be as precise as you can.

If you want to talk privately, please do PM me.

Best wishes
Tony

[Tarka the Duck]

Hello PD
Do you have a support network around you?
Love
Kathie

[amym]

Try dramatically cutting down on caffeine. It raises cortisol levels which stresses your body.

For an energy lift, try Vitamin B12 spray. I noticed so much more energy and focus after I cut down on caffeine from all sources and added B12.

Positive energy coming your way!!!

[moontime]

Anytime I get down. I turn to music and this is my favorite pick me up song. Hope it helps. It's called "Soulshine".
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4L3BYTS8uxM

[Delight]

I read your post and thought of myself a few months ago. Luckily as you have your girls, I have pets and I'd make an effort for them.
I personally was doing an exercise at that time of desire to experience my deep, deep resistance. Whatever is up for you is bound to be meaningful.
This is not advice, just a deep confidence that now you reached out and asked, various help will show up.
That is what happened for me. It may be arriving in seemingly odd ways. Spirit is a bit tricky that way (very humorous at times too). Sparkles felt on your behalf! Delight

[PixieDust]

Dear Pixiedust

Can you say more specifically how you feel? Sadness? Depression? Exhaustion? Loneliness? Overwhelmed? It might help to clarify before people start making suggestions...just try and be as precise as you can.

If you want to talk privately, please do PM me.

Best wishes
Tony

pretty much all of the above... but mostly depression, exhaustion and overwhelmed.

It basically the classic symptoms of depression. aches fatigue sadness sense of hopelessness...

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Hello PD
Do you have a support network around you?
Love
Kathie

No, not really. everyone is too busy with their own lives. my husband is overseas and my parents are out of state and everyone else is swamped with life. people have been coming to me for help and advice. thats why I'm reaching out for avalon to be my support group.

[Ontarioguy]

Hello Pixie, I hear your cry out for help....and there is no shame in crying out....I have done so myself in the past. Sometimes life can really be trying!!! And I too was consuming far too much caffeine in any given day back then. I was at around 15 - 20 cups a day!!! And even though I was laying down 8 hours a night.....was I really sleeping properly??? Most likely not. I simply made the choice to "snap out of it" meaning out of that crazy routine I was in. it really boils down to being a choice. I decided to listen to motivational speakers and such....cassettes back then,lol. But one that got to me was the saying...."it is not what happens to you , but rather HOW YOU handle it. " I knew inside it was up to me to clean up my daily routine.....if you can look up....you can get up! etc. And FRIENDS are VERY VITAL at times like this. You have 2 beautiful daughters there and they are WORTH the effort it takes to give them your all. Time can slip by soooo quickly and it does. Please know you are NEVER alone and have many friends who care about you I am certain. I am hopeful that your cry out becomes answered by many here....and that you find comfort in the replys that come back your way! Beaming prayers out toward you even now.....Many blessings to you!!

[Tony]

Just wondering...how often do you read conspiracy sites? ;)
They can be damaging to your health!
Sites like this can build up our hopes and expectations too much and it's good to wind down to be satisfied with being warm, having food, talking to friends ...

One of the problems with the idea of false positivity is that you feel you should be "up" all the time. That doesn't work.
We have to be realistic.
A bit of depression and frustration and dissatisfaction is all part of being human...that is what we humans experience.
It's a matter of being more grounded, and accept and allow your mind to feel that way.
Can you just relax in your own company, or do you feel you need stimuli?

PS Could it be hormonal? (I obviously don't know how old your girls are).
PPS Let it out! Have a rant! It may clear something.

[aranuk]

I have found if you stand up straight pull your shoulders down, I have done it by putting hands together at your back and pulling down. When you do this hold your head up as high as you can without looking at the ceiling, it is very difficult to think negative thoughts. This is not an answer to your present dilemma but it helps in the immediate now time. I am sure our good members here will help in more lasting ways for you my dear Pixie. Keep your chin up as they say.

Stan

[crested-duck]

PixieDust, You are not alone here today, it's perfectly ok to feel overwhelmed, and depressed. Welcome to the human race! We all feel just like you do at different times. Look at those beautiful little girls and know they are loveing you for just being you. Ther is no shame in talking to a counselor and trying antidepressants for a while if that's what it takes to get through. Do whatever you have to do for you. Just know that other souls are thinking and careing about you. Rob

[giovonni]

Greetings young Lady :hug:

Please hang in there ... you are definitely not alone in all this ...

i am a true believer... that the current and ongoing energies coming into our solar system (from our galactic center), as well as its effects on our Sun are (i believe) definitely affecting all of us here. It is truly a time of cleansing and working on oneself. Here is a recent thread post (here on Avalon), that might bring you some solace along with insights and understandings into what might be causing, if not enhancing your current melancholy...?

Sending You Lots of Blessing Love ~ Gio

Here Comes The Sun
http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?39485-Here-Comes-the-SUN-

[benevolentcrow]

I think we have all been there. You are not alone in these feeling. I find that vitamin D3 is excellent for a lot of things. I use the liquid form, (put it in juice or milk) You may just have the winter blues. I don't know what part of the country you are in, lack of sunshine is huge contributor in the North West to SAD Seasonal Affection Disorder. Hope sunny days are ahead for you. Many blessing sent your way. I am ready for spring! We can all get cabin fever by the end of winter..

[jagman]

Hello PD, I'm sorry to hear your feeling so bad. I don't know if you have tried exercising but when we exercise our brains release
endorphins. Maybe a walk in the morning or evening might help. Also exercising helps give you more energy & a focused state of mind.
I hope you feel better.:wave:

[blufire]

Here ya go spizwink . . . . me, you, your seester and who ever else wants to join in tonight at midnight . . . . ;)



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=stQ31X8COWw

[VaughnB]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tdXlcXHbOQg&list=FL6slMj3ggi5LTLWyNBdFPhg&index=25&feature=plpp_video

i've posted his stuff several times, but always good for a laugh.

Here's another health link I made. (http://detox6steps.blogspot.com/2012/02/anti-aging-formula-from-dr-oz-and.html)

[mahalall]

Sit,

Sit Straight,

Now, lets clean this wound,

Breathe

no rush breathe

Breathe-expand

Breathe-lift

breathe

breathe-smile,

breathe

breathe-love

young one your a lot stronger than you feel

it's been heavy of late but it will change

[<8>]

Dear PixieDust..

Without knowing where you are in your awakening stage, it's hard to know how to approach you with the rigth words.
I had a hard time myself a few months, my problem was, seeing the world for what it really was and not be able to do anything profound about it.
I felt cursed to having to sit by and see all the layers insanity this world has to offer, I actually saw no point living on down here.

Anyway I continued my studies and come to the conclusion that the reality we experience here, are not really real..
I had known for a long time that everything is made up of atoms and atoms are just energy, but I had never done a big thing about it.


To make this short and simple, I went down a new rabbit hole and the simplest way to tell you about the information i gathered is.
We are all living in a highly advanced computergame, or should I say, we use this game to experience different lifes.

This helped me to not take everything so serious, it was like the world problems was lifted off my shoulders..

I dont know if this can help you, but maybe Somebody Else...

..8..

[Ineffable Hitchhiker]

Hi Pixiedust

Some great advice and words of comfort from the others.
I echo each and every sentiment and agree with giovonni that the energies around us shifting.
The most important thing right now are your children. How lucky you are to have twins! What a blessing! ( Speaking strictly from a twin point of view. I am sure my twin would agree. :becky: )
Take a moment to rest. You say others are coming to you for advice and help. Perhaps it is time to say no and gather enough strength for yourself.


Nature is a wonderful healer. If you can, go outside and marvel at the beauty.
Here a short video on gratitude. I hope it will uplift you, as it does me, when I´m feeling a bit depleted.

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"May you find the strength to know that you are a part of something beautiful."
And may "God" be whatever you perceive it/him/her to be. :)

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Hang in there PixieDust. :grouphug:

[blufire]

My favorite blessing from your Celtic roots . . . . . to the Irish Pixie and to all who may watch this video.




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7O9OqBd2us

[ViralSpiral]

http://procrastinators-anonymous.org/files/images/cyber_hug.gif

[Orph]

Well, I seem to have an abundance of love that's just hanging around me, so I think I'll just push some of it your way. :hug:

[greybeard]

Eckhart Tolle in The Power of Now spoke of a time of chaos before the New Earth happens.
It will affect all humans emotionally to a greater or lesser degree but the end result will be good.
Sending Love and uplifting energy to you Pixie Dust
Chris

[NeverMind]

That truly is beautiful, Blufire.
Thank you, even though I wasn't its primary intended recipient. :-)

And the same goes for all the other posts here.

[Dennis Leahy]

Hi PixieDust,

My first thought is to deeply immerse yourself into play with your little girls. Sit on the floor. Lay on the floor. Roll on the floor. Put on silly clothes and a goofy hat. Let the little girls make up the games/rules and play. Laugh easily and allow your laughter to overtake you.

For another session, get out several large cardboard boxes (furniture store, appliance store) boxes, scissors, felt-tip markers, and a roll of packaging tape. Make a fantasy building or house or castle of connected boxes. Make lots of windows you can close and open. Make sure the boxes are big enough so that you can get inside the cardboard world. Take pillows and blankets inside. Have a snack in there.

(Be prepared for the possibility that this will be your little girls' favorite place in the world, and that you may need to have the space to leave it assembled for months. We had one for an entire winter, once.

For another session, get a block of clay from a local potter. Clear off the kitchen table, cover it with a sheet of plastic. Play, sculpt, make whimsical objects. Allow it to all be temporary - don't worry about "firing" the clay (but if you really want to keep anything, put it inside of plastic bags so it doesn't dry out too quickly, and take the bagged objects to someone with a kiln for advice.)

For another session, make a batch of simple, flat cookies*, and frost them with white frosting. Spend an hour or three decorating them, making sure to honor your little girls creativity.

For another session... .. .. (insert your ideas, and your little girls' ideas here)

It is not a permanent cure, but is great medicine for the soul. Your little girls will benefit greatly too.

:~)

Dennis

*(Everyone has different ideas about this, but since I'm kinda fanatical about healthy alternatives even for fun food, I'd make the dough and icing from scratch, using organic ingredients. If the children are too young to help with that part, just make and chill the dough... and then invite them to decorate with you.)

[Kindling]

Definitely sending loving, happy energy your way Pixiedust. Love all the responses from everyone!! :grouphug:

[Black Panther]

I'm really bad at asking for help.

Lately life has gotten to hard to handle alone. I've lost my spark to keep fighting. Not that I'm suicidal; I see the light at the end of the tunnel I just need a little extra push to keep walking.

I don't want to go on a bitch rant about all my problems. Most of them aren't probably near as bad as other peoples.

Im always on the verge of tears and no matter how much caffeine I consume I'm always ready to go lay in my bed and shut down.

I have two little girls that depend on me and i feel like I'm letting them down.

So this is my cry for help. :help: for anyone who's willing to send me a little push.

peace.

First of all it's great you ask for help. That means you want to do something about yourself
feeling not so good lately, you appreciate life and you want to be there 100% for your kids!

Today I told myself to drink less caffeine, more herbs tea. It's good for the stomach
and bowels and so it releases stress as amym also said.

It made me happy just by looking at your picture with your beautifiul twin ;)
Or watch Tony sitting on his cute swing :p

There is a thread about alternatives to Prozac with a lot of good tips:
http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?22034-Help-...-Alternative-to-Prozac-needed&p=235399&highlight=anti-depressants#post235399

This too shall pass! Take care of your kids, but also take care of yourself.
Let others know you need time to be alone, for yourself. We all need that
this time. Sleep, listen to nice music, watch a good movie, take a bath and take
a lot of warm showers.

Like Tony said you can also PM me. Have a lot of experience with feeling bad.

And because the veils are lifting and time and place don't really exist
I will give you a big :hug:. Did you feel it ?

[aranuk]

Pixie, if you don't take up what Dennis suggested, may I say if all you do is sit down and imagine Dennis playing with his kids cutting out windows and doors of the big boxes, you will guarantee to laugh. I did when he posted that. I am imagining him sitting inside with a funny hat on and wearing womens clothes, stretching his arm out one of the windows asking for his guitar.:p

Stan

[Anchor]

Hi, you havent given us much to go on, except tired, down and drinks lots of coffee :)

No matter...


Its all going to be ok!
Consider that you may be overloaded with toxins, what can you do to reduce your toxic load? Lots of ways to fix that.
How are you nutritionally? Are you eating nutritional food? Drinking clean water?
Do you get enough sleep - that is to say, quality sleep?

[Dennis Leahy]

Pixie, if you don't take up what Dennis suggested, may I say if all you do is sit down and imagine Dennis playing with his kids cutting out windows and doors of the big boxes, you will guarantee to laugh. I did when he posted that. I am imagining him sitting inside with a funny hat on and wearing womens clothes, stretching his arm out one of the windows asking for his guitar.:p

Stan
Thanks, Stan, your vision made me laugh too! :~)

Dennis

[atlantianferret]

I'm really bad at asking for help.

Lately life has gotten to hard to handle alone. I've lost my spark to keep fighting. Not that I'm suicidal; I see the light at the end of the tunnel I just need a little extra push to keep walking.

I don't want to go on a bitch rant about all my problems. Most of them aren't probably near as bad as other peoples.

Im always on the verge of tears and no matter how much caffeine I consume I'm always ready to go lay in my bed and shut down.

I have two little girls that depend on me and i feel like I'm letting them down.

So this is my cry for help. :help: for anyone who's willing to send me a little push.

peace.

I have felt the same lately. Try not to focus on the whole picture, keep focused on now and things you can handle now. Small victories.

To keep focused and keep out of the negative circle I use reminders, like signs on the wall or a rubber band bracelet with some text.

Just try to keep your mind on good positive aspects of what is going on.

I can send you more and offer support. I know what you mean and have been slowly turning it.

Rememder most of what you feel and think are not truth. It is a point of view on what is happening. There are other views.



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[Deega]

Dear Pixiedust

Can you say more specifically how you feel? Sadness? Depression? Exhaustion? Loneliness? Overwhelmed? It might help to clarify before people start making suggestions...just try and be as precise as you can.

If you want to talk privately, please do PM me.

Best wishes
Tony

pretty much all of the above... but mostly depression, exhaustion and overwhelmed.

It basically the classic symptoms of depression. aches fatigue sadness sense of hopelessness...

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Hello PD
Do you have a support network around you?
Love
Kathie

No, not really. everyone is too busy with their own lives. my husband is overseas and my parents are out of state and everyone else is swamped with life. people have been coming to me for help and advice. thats why I'm reaching out for avalon to be my support group.


Thanks you PixieDust to share your pain, you are loved!, here is a way to treat depression as "Hooded Sage" suggests.


"Depression is Reaction to Failure — Depression is the inability to face external circumstances. You have to accept the circumstances in your life, before you have the power to change the circumstances of your life. You have to accept your failures as being learning experiences. Failure is dysfunction—circumstances that just aren’t working out. Depression is reaction to circumstances in your life that just aren’t working out for you—draining your energy. Accept the Situation. Rock Up. Change your Situation. Evolve".

Hope this will help you in this great challenge you're under.

All the best to you.

Deega

[mind-scape]

Dear Pixiedust,

Sending love your way.
"Be the core of your star...."
Please watch this... and find peace in knowing that you aren't alone...

You've got this.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g2V4VCNwhW4&feature=channel_video_title

[PixieDust]

I want to thank everyone who helped me today. about an hour and a half after i posted it i felt all your energies and my mood did a total 180. i immediately was pulled from my slump and smiling like a fool. Which in my opinion is the best way to smile.

One of my twins cut her hair so i took her to get her hair cut which was fun. then we played like dennis suggested :)

Its amazing to know the sense of community that total strangers can give you. but yet not strangers. I've read each post and taken each to heart and appreciate them all.

Thank you again. :)

Peace

[Kindling]

Awesome Pixiedust!!! So glad you are feeling better. On no, kids cutting their own hair - yikes - LOL! My kids have done that too, uggg, not pretty haha :-)

[Star1111]

Pixiedust
I'm glad youre feeling a bit better.
It was all the LOVE coming your way :)

IF this ever happens again, and we all feel like that sometimes, try to see yourself observing the feeling be it depression, anger, whatever it is your mind is feeling.

Just observe it , don't judge it or try to analyse it.

By doing this you cease to give the 'emotion' any power and emotions only gain power if they are fed.

Just observe. It will die away if you don't feed it.

Takes practice, LOTS of practice, but it seems to work.

With LOVE to you

[blufire]

Remember to keep some Pixie Dust for yourself . . . . . .

[lindabaker]

Hi, PixieDust, I have returned to this forum lately after a long while, and I do remember you. I want to say that I have been in your situation. Young child, husband overseas, no family to help. The lack of personal time is overwhelming. No woman or man should have to be the only responsible person with young kids! It's nearly impossible not to lose your mind at times. The only time I ever spanked a child is when I was in that Alone with Young Kids situation. I liked Dennis's suggestions. You actually do have adult companionship, even though it will be through the written word on forums such as these. Right now, you may be feeling like you don't have a life. And it's very boring to be trapped with kids, we have to admit it. Isolation is a bummer. All I can say, is, you will one day look back and want to live just one day like you are living now. When your girls are gone, you will be sad about that, too! My point is, is that there is no relief for you, and it's really really hard. I will be thinking about you, and knowing you will get through this. If you can't afford child care so you can exercise outdoors by yourself, see if you can network with other stay at home parents. Trade off the time if you can fully trust the other parents. It takes time to gain that trust, but you can do so by having play groups and your house first. Then, you can see how the other children behave, and that will tell you everything you need to know.

There were times that I would have given almost anything just to have five minutes to exercise, or take a long shower, or meditate. As you know, you have to sleep and clean house when the kids are sleeping, so I imagine you have no time for these things right now. You are on duty 24/7 and it sucks. It's okay to admit it. Linda

[Calz]

What giovonni and greybeard suggest is quite true ... there are reasons for emotional responses to what everyone is experiencing now energetically. Good news is you are most definitely not alone ... not such good news is it will likely get worse before getting better.

Hang in there and take comfort from your friends here to fill in the spaces where seperation from your family members exist. Always know and remember how much they love you. :wub:


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[Peace of Mind]

Take a deep breath, find a large mirror in your house, and stare intently into your reflection, stare into your eyes and then smile. Realize you are here now and that every moment here is a blessing and an opportunity to create a happy moment for self and others. Life is filled with depression because we allow the depression to exist. Too much drama in the news and all forms of media (the alternative is no exception). When you/we decide to smile… and make other people smile, you’ll soon see just how easy life can be.

Depression can easily be remedy by looking in the mirror and having a heart to heart with yourself, make light of the situation, joke about it if need be, recognize your power and where your limits reside and live life doing only what you can do. Joke about the trouble you may have caused or are in and apologize to yourself for creating it….then promise yourself that you will fix it. Don’t worry how it will get done just make the commitment and the matrix will do the rest by way of presenting you opportunities. This always works.

I know life (in general) can be disheartening but it’s us as individuals making it that way. Too much pressure on self and too much expectation in others is not going to work. Life is easier than that. I too struggle at times in this area but I do know we all have to climb our own mountains at our own pace. There are no words to express my love for humanity; I so much want us to live up to our potential. So much so that lately I’ve found myself often sacrificing my own congeniality just to get an important message across. What I hold dear is bigger than me and any one person.

Just be brave in everything you do because the universe grants you what you focus on. Stay positive and you’ll do well. If you keep thoughts of despair/failure/fear…anything you deem negative in your mind you’ll manifest them sooner or later. This is how the elites rule and they will continue if they can keep the minds of the masses in the low energy field….by having them feeling inferior and scared.

As I mentioned in a previous thread, it takes 47 muscles to frown, and only 7 muscles to smile. This fact alone should tell you to look at your reflection, smile and tell yourself “I got this, everything will work itself out”. It will, just as long as you stay strong enough for it to happen. Patience is a virtue but not something easily acquired. It’s an exercise, those with happy lives are mentally fit… and it shows.

Unfortunately, we are conditioned to be sad. Everywhere you look someone is promoting disempowerment. Most of it is being done unknowingly by people who don’t mean to be negative. If only they truly knew about the power of intention, how it works. If only they knew that their focus on what they didn’t want was actually taking away from them what they do want.

Many of my post in this forum points this out. How many people do we see concentrating on what they actually want…most of them say what they want but always talking MORE about the things they don’t want…so how can they succeed?

When I’m in the city I see people frowning (or looking too serious) a lot. Without knowing their issues I tell them “it’s not that bad because we’re still here”…meaning your presence still has the opportunity to make life happier. When I see someone with a look of despair on their face I’ll smile at them until they smile back….if that doesn’t work I’ll usually make a silly face or joke. I haven’t met someone yet that didn’t smile back…actually, I look forward to seeing these frowning faces and challenge myself daily in seeing how many frowns I can flip upside down.

We are just too used to being upset about matters that aren’t that serious, or anxiously pondering matters we can easily fix by being a little more active and gitty from time to time.

If it’s a thought, it can be reality…but that will require your power to bring it forth. Don’t focus on what you DO NOT want, your emotional input is the link from consciousness to reality. Choose to be happy and think of nothing that will hinder that happiness.

Peace

[Sidney]

Hi Pixiedust. I , am sorry I didn't see this thread until today, but I wanted to tell you that you are not alone in what you are going through. We are living in uncertain times(financially and otherwise), and when you have kids, it is even more challenging to live in the "rabbit hole". Also as reminder that the Sun is very active currently, and can and DOES affect our emotional state. I am glad you are feeling better though, but If you ever need an ear or shoulder to cry on, feel free to pm me at anytime!! Sincerely, Starchild111:grouphug::hug:

[Dennis Leahy]

How are you doing, Pixiedust?

For me, emotions can come in waves, with decreasing distance/time between waves, until things are calm again.

I hope you simply turned the corner and put a new perspective on things, but if another wave (hopefully smaller, if at all) rolls in, don't be afraid to express it.

I'd like to point out that you recognized a situation, and you did something about it. Kudos to you!

You empowered yourself to reach out, and (I believe) there is something mystical in the act of reaching out. Maybe another way of saying it is that "we are all one" starts to feel irrelevant when someone is emotionally down. By "reaching out" you expand your "self", and every expansion of self brings you closer to the oneness. (A mundane explanation of the mystical event.) Maybe that sounds kooky, but that's a thought that occurred to me when I examined my own escape from depression once.

Dennis

[PixieDust]

Thanks for checking in Dennis!

Yeah the past 6 months has been an emotional roller coaster and the other day was rock bottom and i needed a little extra push to get back on my feet and keep trudging along.

It is nice that people still hear me out for the simple reason of being sad instead of wanting to know all the juicy details and sometimes just the acknowledgement of "its ok to be sad" is very helpful.

Most people try to "fix" you instead of just giving a hug which in my opinion sometimes is more healing then any advice in the world.

I agree with your explanation of the mystical event... depression grips you and smothers you to the point of complete exile from others, it seems. Reaching out is a way of reconnecting and saying NO. im not alone.

With every life event theres always a lesson to be learned if studied long enough!

Peace

[kizzey]

Please... let me help,for just a moment,think a smile if you can, a Big Smile :) your Family some how~ something happened,you gouffed up! they laughed!!! you felt really silly for a moment,opps,everybody laughed,that was so...so goood.That is one of the most huggable moments of all your lifes~Just about the most indearian hand shakes & Hugs any one will ever have...