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onawah
8th May 2012, 17:53
I have certainly been feeling more transparent lately, and this message describes very well what I also feel is part of the Shift we are going through now.

By Dana Mrkich
May 7, 2012
www.danamrkich.com
http://danamrkich.blogspot.com.au

There is a saying “I can see right through you” and that has never been more applicable than now. It feels like everyone around us, including us, is becoming more and more transparent, as all of who they/we are – and who they/we are not – is laid bare.

This transparency is happening whether we like it or not – it is not as if everyone is suddenly feeling urged to be totally upfront and honest with each other. It is more like a curtain that was once dense is now becoming sheer, and so there is nowhere to hide.

As this process happens, we may not always like what we see. We may have preferred the illusion of what someone or something was, more than we like the reality. Even if we had a fairly good idea of what someone or something was, the in-your-face transparency occurring right now is like someone turning the dimmer light switch up from medium to high. We may have thought we were seeing clearly a year ago or even a month ago, but it’s becoming a whole new ball game now.

The degree to which you are still attached to any specific illusion as opposed to its truth reality, (be it a person, relationship, cultural or religious belief), the greater the emotional trigger as the veil collapses. As something is revealed to you, in some cases for the first time in other cases for the hundredth time, you will feel anything from deep grief or intense anger on the ‘still attached’ end of the spectrum to mildly amused or barely interested observer on the ‘detached’ end of the spectrum.

If you are being triggered, it will be helpful to realise that the ‘truth’ you are seeing is actually serving you in being revealed to you. Your emotional reaction is simply the ego thrashing about, still wanting to be engaged in an old story or drama.

However, if you stop for a moment and get back into your centre you can emotionally disengage for long enough to ask yourself a good question: “Is this truth I am seeing really bothering me, or is it actually quite liberating to finally see this?” If you are angry because certain people are acting a certain way, ask yourself: “Do I really want them to act the way I am saying I want? Or am I being given a gift here? If this is a gift, what is the gift?”

Our freedom lies in realising we don’t have to react, or at least we can consciously choose how or even if we want to respond. Our old karmic ties are ending and so we are not karmically obligated to continue playing out old roles or patterns, or engaging in old relationships and dynamics that are no longer serving us. If someone ‘makes’ you feel not good enough, or ashamed, or judged, know that it is you who is still choosing to stay plugged in to an old story. There is no value in choosing to stay plugged in anymore. It is time to consciously remember that others do not define us.

“What you think of me is none of my business.” – Terry Cole-Whittaker

In the old cycle we needed others to trigger us into remembering who we are, often by others treating us less than. We remembered via overcoming pain, suffering, repression and other difficulties. We had our heads turned from who we are, from source energy, from the fullness of our light, and so we bought into stories around lack, limitation, restriction and disconnection.

In the new cycle we are becoming the ‘living awake’ humans. Our heads are being turned forward toward the fullness of our light once again. Image a hose that was twisted and the water couldn’t get through, but now it is becoming untwisted and so the water can flow freely once again. That is what’s happening to us in this Shift. We are stepping into and embodying our divine identity, power and abilities. Our upside down world is becoming right side up again, and just like those snow shaker things the flipping process makes everything look chaotic for a while, but know that things are becoming right way up.

Some of us are grieving the loss or death of people in our lives who never really existed. Of course, the physical being that they are existed and is still alive, but the projection we cast onto them, the identity that we gave them, did not exist. We are seeing that now, and it might be hard to feel and face.

You might be feeling like every day is an exercise in your buttons being pushed, and you are really over it. The only way to be done with this, is to finally actually get over it. Get over needing someone to be what they are never going to be, or not going to be yet, or don’t even want to be. Get over acting like you are responsible for other people’s actions and emotions. Get over feeling like others are responsible for your actions and emotions. It is time to take full responsibility for who we are and how we are, and unplug from the cords we have stuck into others and had others stick into us. It is time to unplug from the projections we have thrown onto others, and had thrown onto us.

One of the biggest projections occurring right now is the one we have collectively thrown over this year 2012. Many either believe it’s the end of the world, or the year that our star family finally come to save us. Both these beliefs deny any sense of self-responsibility or collective responsibility for the world we have created and are yet to create. As we cross the threshold of Dec 21, 2012 it will be a pivotal, empowering moment for humanity because finally we can be free of prophecies and the incorrect interpretations of them. Finally we can wake up from the illusion that it doesn’t really matter what we do because the world is either going to end or we’ll be ‘saved’.

“Midnight will come, nothing will happen except some softly falling snow, and people will awake the next morning to a planet that needs to be taken care of. The clearing of apocalyptical belief systems will be exceedingly painful because caring more about beliefs than about the planet must cease.”- Barbara Hand Clow, The Pleiadian Agenda

Barbara Hand Clow was referring to the start of the new millennium, but these words can apply to the end of this year also. There will be grief as the veil is finally and fully lifted, and people realise that no-one is coming to save us. Those Hopi’s were smart cookies when they said “We are the ones we have been waiting for.” Our star families are watching us, they are close by, and I’m sure they will come and visit. However to ‘save us’ is to defy the whole point of our evolutionary intention: to awaken, to remember, and to realise that we know how to save ourselves.

To the dismay of the doomsdayers, the only waves that are going to wash over the planet are high vibration energetic ones. These waves are impulsing us to awaken, to remember who we are, to remember our power and to remember our true, divine, galactic origins and identities. These waves are cleansing our energy bodies, bringing to the surface anything remaining of the old vibration. These waves are clearing our hearts, our minds and our eyes, making us see and hear and feel more clearly. The waves are not like a magic wand, cleansing and clearing regardless of your own personal participation. They are simply ‘truth-revealers’ – what we each do with our own truth, and how we each respond to the increasing truth we see, is up to us.

For some, this time of ‘revelations’ will feel like a nightmare. For others it will be bountiful bliss.

This is why it has been so important to get as conscious as possible by 2012 – the more willing you are to face all this ‘truth in your face’ the easier the ride can be. It can still be challenging, but it doesn’t have to be painful or scary. If you are feeling pain or fear, ask yourself: What am I resisting? What am I not wanting to face? What am I scared of? Don’t judge or be afraid for people who don’t seem like they are on a ‘conscious’ path. There are lots of spiritual seekers who don’t want to look at their shadow, and so still have a bunch of truth to face, meanwhile there are folks who’ve never picked up a self-help book in their life who couldn’t be more ‘tell it like it is’, know exactly who they are and can see through anyone a mile away.

There will be celebration as the veil is finally and fully lifted, because all those who are ready and willing to take part in the building of a new earth will roll up their sleeves and start (or continue) doing something to make that happen.

“Before Enlightenment, chop wood, carry water. After Enlightenment, chop wood, carry water.” – Zen proverb

There are a lot of emotions, and there’s lot of energy, flying around the place right now, and it will become increasingly important to not get hooked in or distracted by that which doesn’t belong to you, or by that which isn’t even real (ie old projections or illusions). Remember that as we move into higher frequency energy, that which is not in alignment with the higher vibration has to come up for clearing so it will be more visible, it will be more in your face. This will make it seem like things are getting worse, but know that these are the very signs telling us that things are on their way to getting a whole lot better. We can’t know how to make things right, unless we become totally aware of where we’ve gone wrong. We can’t step fully into our power, unless we become fully aware of exactly how and where we have been disempowered.
read more at:
http://danamrkich.blogspot.com.au/

the_vast_mystery
8th May 2012, 19:40
I'm dealing with this right now, my past is coming to face me and I can't say I like what I see. Although in my own case, I just don't think I can forgive myself for my past mistakes; I just don't think I'm physically able to. I can "say" I do, but I can't really act like it without it being painful enough for me to come to the conclusion that some part of my deeper unconscious is still holding on and I may be powerless consciously to do anything about it. It's been making life pretty hellish, everyone tells you "Be authentic, be yourself!" but when your authentic self is a depressing nihilist who trusts no one then that doesn't really help, LOL.

So far I've come the the conclusion that long term it's impossible to truly force yourself to be positive and force is really the only way I know how to do it. I just can't change the things I like or the things I wanted for myself in this life. Which means, lacking that I'll always have to use some trick to not constantly be reminded of the things I'm missing. It's been leading me to just become more reclusive and anti-social since I refuse to lie to people about how I feel, but I don't want to have anymore long conversations that go nowhere with another person who thinks it's as simple as "try X" and I'll just magically be able to release whatever it is that's being held onto. I just may need another life to do it I guess.

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8th May 2012, 20:51
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onawah
9th May 2012, 20:33
From the vantage point of almost 64 years of age, I can assure you that an awful lot can change in one lifetime.
I was never a nihilist, but I was certainly cynical and depressed for a lot of my life (often suicidal), and had big trust issues, and I've spent much of my life in my own, sole company.
I went through a lot of hell, including being hit by a hit -and-run driver and a resulting NDE when I was in my mid-twenties which put me in the hospital for 5 months and left me with some fairly severe disabilities that I am still coping with.
It was very difficult to surrender the expectations I had had for any kind of a normal life, but I think that I have probably grown more for having endured all the trials and pain of what most would probably consider to be a tragic and regrettable scenario.
I really never thought I would live this long or find myself --at this time of my life, especially--being fairly happy and at peace with myself, even though I am living alone and disabled, at poverty level.
There's no particular advice I can give you, as each must find their own way.
But I think for everyone, it's very wise simply to connect with Nature as much as possible, get sufficient exercise and eat a healthy diet.

I've tried lots and lots of things including many different spiritual paths from Zen to Wicca, fasting, herbs, supplements, health foods, yoga, working out, communal living, spiritual retreats, relationships, celibacy, psychic readings,crystals, astrology, co-dependence groups, co-counseling--well, you name it, I tried it.
Nothing completely solved my core problems with my self, but all taught me something of value and helped in some way, if only by making life a little bit more interesting.

The most important thing was that I finally realized that the part of me that just wanted to give up was not really my master at all.
I may still go through periods of deep despair, but I always come out of them feeling better and feeling worthy of adding another notch to my 'survivor belt'.
I finally realized that going into despair was not a sign of failure, it was a sign that I was ready to grapple with some small part of my negative programming that was coming up for release. Sometimes it's a big release, sometimes it's a small one, but if I don't fear or resist the process, it's much easier to get through, and when it's gone, I can laugh at the nasty bogey and give myself a pat on the back for beating it once again.

Wishing you success in your quest for seeing things more positively in this lifetime.
Though we get all the lifetimes we need...






I'm dealing with this right now, my past is coming to face me and I can't say I like what I see. Although in my own case, I just don't think I can forgive myself for my past mistakes; I just don't think I'm physically able to. I can "say" I do, but I can't really act like it without it being painful enough for me to come to the conclusion that some part of my deeper unconscious is still holding on and I may be powerless consciously to do anything about it. It's been making life pretty hellish, everyone tells you "Be authentic, be yourself!" but when your authentic self is a depressing nihilist who trusts no one then that doesn't really help, LOL.

So far I've come the the conclusion that long term it's impossible to truly force yourself to be positive and force is really the only way I know how to do it. I just can't change the things I like or the things I wanted for myself in this life. Which means, lacking that I'll always have to use some trick to not constantly be reminded of the things I'm missing. It's been leading me to just become more reclusive and anti-social since I refuse to lie to people about how I feel, but I don't want to have anymore long conversations that go nowhere with another person who thinks it's as simple as "try X" and I'll just magically be able to release whatever it is that's being held onto. I just may need another life to do it I guess.

the_vast_mystery
10th May 2012, 03:02
From the vantage point of almost 64 years of age, I can assure you that an awful lot can change in one lifetime.
I was never a nihilist, but I was certainly cynical and depressed for a lot of my life (often suicidal), and had big trust issues, and I've spent much of my life in my own, sole company.
I went through a lot of hell, including being hit by a hit -and-run driver and a resulting NDE when I was in my mid-twenties which put me in the hospital for 5 months and left me with some fairly severe disabilities that I am still coping with.
It was very difficult to surrender the expectations I had had for any kind of a normal life, but I think that I have probably grown more for having endured all the trials and pain of what most would probably consider to be a tragic and regrettable scenario.
I really never thought I would live this long or find myself --at this time of my life, especially--being fairly happy and at peace with myself, even though I am living alone and disabled, at poverty level.
There's no particular advice I can give you, as each must find their own way.
But I think for everyone, it's very wise simply to connect with Nature as much as possible, get sufficient exercise and eat a healthy diet.

I've tried lots and lots of things including many different spiritual paths from Zen to Wicca, fasting, herbs, supplements, health foods, yoga, working out, communal living, spiritual retreats, relationships, celibacy, psychic readings,crystals, astrology, co-dependence groups, co-counseling--well, you name it, I tried it.
Nothing completely solved my core problems with my self, but all taught me something of value and helped in some way, if only by making life a little bit more interesting.

The most important thing was that I finally realized that the part of me that just wanted to give up was not really my master at all.
I may still go through periods of deep despair, but I always come out of them feeling better and feeling worthy of adding another notch to my 'survivor belt'.
I finally realized that going into despair was not a sign of failure, it was a sign that I was ready to grapple with some small part of my negative programming that was coming up for release. Sometimes it's a big release, sometimes it's a small one, but if I don't fear or resist the process, it's much easier to get through, and when it's gone, I can laugh at the nasty bogey and give myself a pat on the back for beating it once again.

Wishing you success in your quest for seeing things more positively in this lifetime.
Though we get all the lifetimes we need...

Well I know I'll keep trying things so long as I have the willpower to. I'm still here posting about this so I've got to acknowledge that fact. Although in my own case I have to find a means of external validation that will satisfy my ego enough to get it to stop ensuring I remain miserable. Being a bit older (28 in another month) than my childhood I reviewed a lot of my self-harming behavior in the past and realized what it was. It was my own subconscious making use of behavioral conditioning to prevent my brain from synthesizing happiness through acceptance of my present situation. Which, really when people talk about enlightenment that's what it's all about, creating some sort of personal formula to achieve an inner-nirvana not determined by external conditions. In my own case though I rejected fully the all inner approach as I never developed a stable sense of self or sense of self-worth to begin with. If I don't feel it externally for a long enough time I will refuse to recognize it inside me and even go to great lengths including administering profound amounts of self-harm even over long periods of time to prevent that state from naturally occurring. It feels like a "cruel trick" to the ego and it will not allow me to maintain any stable sense of happiness that does not derive from success at achieving the goals or satisfying the desires I had sought to satisfy.

I can understand intellectually the philosophical underpinnings of enlightenment and happiness but so long as this rogue factor in my mind exists it will prevent the acceptance of my situation. This is where I have to cop a little bit to my own personal responsibility. On one hand I technically could, just like everyone technically can choose whether or not they want to kick or kiss someone, choose to ignore this. But I know I can't and I won't because on one level I agree, it is entirely shorting myself in one aspect of life to gain something in another form that is so far and beyond my present state it becomes utterly unrecognizable and entirely worthless to the present me. (Except perhaps as a future achievement) So when given the choice between basically having to entirely abandon everything that arises from my physical mind and physical analysis of life situations for something that is not in any way recognizable as something I know I wanted, it just becomes a bridge too far. This is where the stuckness comes. I can finally recognize all of the equally valid solutions people will propose to these problems and why they will work for them.

In my own case though, I cannot refuse to deal evenly and honestly with myself or my own seemingly irrational passions/desires that have nested within my own heart/mind or I risk giving up the only part of me that I arguably ever developed, a list of things I hoped to achieve or have in my life. Whether or not I can or should doesn't end up changing whether I will and it's distressing to describe because it's really stupid and childish to be this way. But yet again, no amount of knowing this will spur me to action, I won't stop looking for happiness outside myself until I'm finally able to find a situation that fits in enough with my own expectations/desires for me to finally say I succeeded at my first promise to myself and therefore am free to now be happy regularly and to pursue other things. So really it just sounds more like a terrorist holding hostage negotiations with their higher self, eheh.

That's why I say I may just need another life. Since all of the metaphysical material I read first states that complete inner change must precede complete outer change, which would mean I'm stuck in my own self-imposed catch-22 and the only way to get out of that may literally be to do it all over again without remembering this life. Since I can't imagine the present me changing their terms, and I cannot imagine my higher self would give real consideration to ever fulfilling any one of my numerously sought after desired goals (as that would run entirely counter to the supposed modalities of how the higher planes operate, can't ask yourself to change the order of how things are achieved); so I just get the feeling this may be a big bump in the road for me. Still, the winds can change on a dime and every day is another new chance for new things to happen.

Stranger things have happened.