CrabbyPatty
8th August 2012, 18:07
Many of you may consider yourselves to be the master of your emotions. Many of you are likely very experienced with meditation and yoga. How are you faring against this onslaught of tenacious energy? Today has been a difficult day for me. I am feeling as I felt years ago when I was a child and suffered from severe depression. Exercise, followed by quiet and stillness usually manages negativity very well for me, but today I feel separated from my body and completely disinterested in everything around me.
Today I understand that no stimuli within the five senses will satisfy me. I am a lurker on this forum, and I believe it is fair to say that the majority of the dialogue deals with issues very much outside of the Self. I don't understand what is happening to my Self, let alone what may or may not be about to occur in the world. I tried to explain to my partner the other night that I was feeling different, in body, in mind, in essence. I have recently gone through big changes in my life, and now I am experiencing what I believe are subtle, yet fundamental changes in my entropy. I see it in other people as well, I hear them mention that they feel different, but no one is really talking about it. I am usually an abstract thinker, but that has become difficult to control of late. Some people will say that it is a raising of vibration. That analogy, be it real or not, does not work for me. I feel pulled in every direction, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. Everything I do seems to only provide temporary relief of this something that is tremendous, and I feel completely out of my element because there's no one around me I can speak to about it.
Today I understand that no stimuli within the five senses will satisfy me. I am a lurker on this forum, and I believe it is fair to say that the majority of the dialogue deals with issues very much outside of the Self. I don't understand what is happening to my Self, let alone what may or may not be about to occur in the world. I tried to explain to my partner the other night that I was feeling different, in body, in mind, in essence. I have recently gone through big changes in my life, and now I am experiencing what I believe are subtle, yet fundamental changes in my entropy. I see it in other people as well, I hear them mention that they feel different, but no one is really talking about it. I am usually an abstract thinker, but that has become difficult to control of late. Some people will say that it is a raising of vibration. That analogy, be it real or not, does not work for me. I feel pulled in every direction, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. Everything I do seems to only provide temporary relief of this something that is tremendous, and I feel completely out of my element because there's no one around me I can speak to about it.