Severe Emotional Trauma

[MargueriteBee]

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychological_trauma

I wonder how many of us are suffering from this and don't know it. Once I realized this it became easier to deal with. My awakening began in 2004 and it very traumatic for me. Plus dealing with alcoholics who caused me to loose half my pension sent me into a nervous breakdown two years ago. I couldn't figure out why I would react to certain things with violence and hate in my mind. I realize now those things are triggers. I am better now at reconizing the triggers and can keep from reacting to them. It is a process that takes time.

Anyone else dealing with this?

[bram]

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychological_trauma

I wonder how many of us are suffering from this and don't know it. Once I realized this it became easier to deal with. My awakening began in 2004 and it very traumatic for me. Plus dealing with alcoholics who caused me to loose half my pension sent me into a nervous breakdown two years ago. I couldn't figure out why I would react to certain things with violence and hate in my mind. I realize now those things are triggers. I am better now at reconizing the triggers and can keep from reacting to them. It is a process that takes time.

Anyone else dealing with this?

Have you read Eckhart Tolle's writings on the pain body? He states that every one of us has a ''pain body'' inside us, which is almost like a parasitic presence feeding on our pain and feeding to and from the ego. This pain body increases our suffering, exaggerating our emotions, and makes us seek out pain to strengthen our ego. I think this is the psychological trauma of which you speak.

[eva08]

MargueriteBee:
The Nibiruan Council emotional clearing and especially the 9 steps of compassions have helped me a lot, personally. There is a ton of information on this website, in particular how to transmute and integrate emotional blocks and clear the emotional garbage: http://www.nibiruancouncil.com/html/7_stages_of_emotional_clearing1.html

This is a second website that has helped me gain insight and help modulate negative energies and energy blocks: http://ww.stairwaytonow.com/

Maybe these sites will help you find your way.

[Star Tsar]

When I think of my emotional Trauma now I reliased it had to happen to put me on my path that I am on.
This fact has helped me alot I hope it helps you MargueriteBee!

:)

[WanderingRogue]

I'm going through the process for the 4th time in my life right now...I don't think I feel hate for anything in particular (I have been angrier in the past though), but I do seem to need a lot of solitude because I am easily agitated, become overwhelmed with emotions, and I feel an overshadowing sense of vulnerability. I have many various triggers with many different reactions for each...some are quite perplexing. Each time I complete the cycle I find myself experiencing more mental, spiritual, and emotional freedom and awakening...(like being reborn, its hard to put into words)...than I had before each change. I now refer to my emotional upheaval times as cocooning, because I emerge more beautiful each time. I'm not sure how many more times I will need to transform before my final metamorphosis reveals what I will eventually become, but I'm earning to trust the process and not panic when I am completely confused with myself.

[MargueriteBee]

Bram it seems like the pain body is equal to the Flyer ie don Juan or Archons. Yes, I read his books several years ago will have to do so again, thanks.

Thanks Eva, I will check it out.

K.W.B. I guess I wouldn't be seriously considering moving to Equador if I had enough money to live on.

And WanderingRogue I do crave solitude and I am looking for a cheap place to rent so I can move out of my niece's house. Hard to live with others right now. My niece broke her ankle so I am helping her this month doing the cooking and cleaning and helping her buy quality food so she can heal better.

Thank you all for your responses.

My main trigger was when the drunks (family) would email me so I cut off all contact. They won't get better until they quit drinking and they have no desire to do so. Never going back to California.








http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychological_trauma

I wonder how many of us are suffering from this and don't know it. Once I realized this it became easier to deal with. My awakening began in 2004 and it very traumatic for me. Plus dealing with alcoholics who caused me to loose half my pension sent me into a nervous breakdown two years ago. I couldn't figure out why I would react to certain things with violence and hate in my mind. I realize now those things are triggers. I am better now at reconizing the triggers and can keep from reacting to them. It is a process that takes time.

Anyone else dealing with this?

Have you read Eckhart Tolle's writings on the pain body? He states that every one of us has a ''pain body'' inside us, which is almost like a parasitic presence feeding on our pain and feeding to and from the ego. This pain body increases our suffering, exaggerating our emotions, and makes us seek out pain to strengthen our ego. I think this is the psychological trauma of which you speak.

[Ivanhoe]

My emotional trauma happened when I was around six. It has directly influenced everything in my life since and even though I recognize the root cause I still can't resolve the damage it has caused, so i live with it,... and solitude.

[MargueriteBee]

I was thinking this morning about all this trauma. It seems like our society is full of hurt, maybe designed to cause pain? Also how much trauma is carried over from past lives?

[Limor Wolf]

Stay strong Margueritebee, you are not alone. I too suffer from PTSD from an early age. or maybe from PAS -post abduction syndrom. and yes, the solitude.

[GloriousPoetry]

Sensitivity to people's energies, sounds, synthetic smells, artificial lighting, and cold air are triggers for me. Like everyone in this world I have had the human experience of dealing with emotional stuff but it wasn't until I recognized and embraced my innate sensitivity to external stimulus that I learned to react differently to emotional stuff.
Back in 2004 I experienced a kundalini energy release that lasted for 4 months. Someday I will write a thread about this cosmic energy but for now what I want to say here is that the root of a lot of emotional stuff for some of us is a heightened sensitivity and a misinterpretation of relating to the world. Therefore I feel the most comfortable when I am alone in my own space. Some of us are more sentient beings.

Wishing you well and understand that we are all experiencing the human journey here which at times it is a struggle .
Many Blesssings,
GLORIA

[M6*]

I send my Love to everyone who has been dealing with the traumas that have been a part of your existence thus far.

Hopefully, this will become a part of your past and somehow a brighter future will emerge and you will be able to
replace some of the pain with more Joy. One thing to be careful about....according to my way of thinking.....concerns
taking on an overload of pain in our own bodies....just because we CARE about the pain of others. Be thankful for each
good moment, knowing that each good moment adds up....sort of like pennies in a jar!;-) M6*

[Sidney]

Great points Marguritebee.. I also want to mention, "chronic" traumatic stress. Where, you don't get a chance to grow past one traumatic episode only to experience another one, then another then another. This seems to be my normal routine. Am I paying a huge karmic debt here?

[eva08]

MargueriteBee: There is a holographic concept of healing that finally sank in. There is a book by Michael Talbot "The holographic Universe" and it gives the foundation of clearing techniques that can be done on oneself and remotely and they are permanent. I felt this was extremely important. I would not have believed it unless I actually experienced the tremendous emotional relief, gratitude and well-being.
Think of it this way: There is an entire universal pool of beings what wish us well -- there is an entire pool of well-being -- if symbols by the illuminati and black magicians can be used in a controlling negative way, they can also be used in a profoundly positive, healing way that allows for free will; the requirement being you allowing the higher dimensional beings and consciousnesses to help you.
If you snip the (power) chords where the various soulless entities affect you from your family, they can no longer hurt you. On the other hand, you can also help permanently remove some of those identities that keep your family members entrapped...
Well wishes on your journey -- I am loosely quoting the stairwaytonow techniques.

[Sidney]

I found this article calling chronic trauma "Complex -PTSD)from Wikipedia- its an interesting subject and it seems to me that this is just one more isolative problems people have that are trying to survive life in modern society. Everyone has headphone sticking out of their head, or cell phone. And isolative disordrs all over the place, and it makes me wonder if "their" main motive is to keep us from having one-ness, togetherness.
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Complex post-traumatic stress disorder
From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Complex post-traumatic stress disorder (C-PTSD) is a psychological injury that results from protracted exposure to prolonged social and/or interpersonal trauma in the context of either captivity or entrapment (a situation lacking a viable escape route for the victim), which results in the lack or loss of control, helplessness, and deformations of identity and sense of self. C-PTSD is distinct from, but similar to, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), somatization disorder, dissociative identity disorder, and borderline personality disorder.[1]
Though mainstream journals have published papers on C-PTSD, the category is not formally recognized in diagnostic systems such as Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM) or International Statistical Classification of Diseases and Related Health Problems (ICD).[2] However, the former includes "disorder of extreme stress, not otherwise specified" and the latter has this similar code "personality change due to classifications found elsewhere" (31.1), both of whose parameters accommodate C-PTSD.[1]
C-PTSD involves complex and reciprocal interactions between multiple biopsychosocial systems. It was first described in 1992 by Judith Herman in her book Trauma & Recovery and an accompanying article.[1][3] Forms of trauma associated with C-PTSD include sexual abuse (especially child sexual abuse), physical abuse, emotional abuse, domestic violence or torture—all repeated traumas in which there is an actual or perceived inability for the victim to escape.[4][5]
Contents [hide]
1 Differential diagnosis
1.1 Posttraumatic stress disorder
1.2 Traumatic grief
1.3 Attachment theory, BPD and C-PTSD
2 Proposed diagnostic criteria
3 Symptom clusters
3.1 Child and adolescent symptom cluster
3.2 Adult symptom cluster
4 Treatment
4.1 For adults
4.2 For children
5 See also
6 References
7 Notes
8 Further reading
9 External links
[edit]Differential diagnosis

[edit]Posttraumatic stress disorder
Main article: Posttraumatic stress disorder
Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) was included in the DSM-III (1980), mainly due to the relatively large numbers of American combat veterans of the Vietnam War who were seeking treatment for the lingering effects of combat stress. In the 1980s, various researchers and clinicians suggested that PTSD might also accurately describe the sequelae of such traumas as child sexual abuse and domestic abuse.[6] However, it was soon suggested that PTSD failed to account for the cluster of symptoms that were often observed in cases of prolonged abuse, particularly that which was perpetrated against children by caregivers during multiple childhood and adolescent developmental stages. Such patients were often extremely difficult to treat with established methods.[6]
PTSD descriptions fail to capture some of the core characteristics of C-PTSD. These elements include captivity, psychological fragmentation, the loss of a sense of safety, trust, and self-worth, as well as the tendency to be revictimized. Most importantly, there is a loss of a coherent sense of self: it is this loss, and the ensuing symptom profile, that most pointedly differentiates C-PTSD from PTSD.[7]
C-PTSD is also characterized by attachment disorder, particularly the pervasive insecure, or disorganized-type attachment.[8] DSM-IV (1994) dissociative disorders and PTSD do not include insecure attachment in their criteria. As a consequence of this aspect of C-PTSD, when some adults with C-PTSD become parents and confront their own children's attachment needs, they may have particular difficulty in responding sensitively especially to their infants' and young children's routine distress—such as during routine separations, despite these parents' best intentions and efforts.[9] Although the great majority of survivors do not abuse others,[10] this difficulty in parenting may have adverse repercussions for their children's social and emotional development if parents with this condition and their children do not receive appropriate treatment.[11][12]
Thus, a differentiation between the diagnostic category of C-PTSD and that of PTSD has been suggested. C-PTSD better describes the pervasive negative impact of chronic repetitive trauma than does PTSD alone.[13][14]
C-PTSD also differs from Continuous Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (CTSD) which was introduced into the trauma literature by Gill Straker (1987).[15] It was originally used by South African clinicians to describe the effects of exposure to frequent, high levels of violence usually associated with civil conflict and political repression. The term is also applicable to the effects of exposure to contexts in which gang violence and crime are endemic as well as to the effects of ongoing exposure to life threats in high-risk occupations such as police, fire and emergency services.
[edit]Traumatic grief
Main articles: Grief and Grief counseling
Traumatic grief[16][17][18][19] or complicated mourning[20] are conditions[21] where both trauma and grief coincide. There are conceptual links between trauma and bereavement since loss of a loved one is inherently traumatic.[22] If a traumatic event was life-threatening, but did not result in death, then it is more likely that the survivor will experience post-traumatic stress symptoms. If a person dies, and the survivor was close to the person who died, then it is more likely that symptoms of grief will also develop. When the death is of a loved one, and was sudden or violent, then both symptoms often coincide. This is likely in children exposed to community violence.[23][24]
For C-PTSD to manifest, the violence would occur under conditions of captivity, loss of control and disempowerment, coinciding with the death of a friend or loved one in life threatening circumstances. This again is most likely for children and stepchildren who experience prolonged domestic or chronic community violence that ultimately results in the death of friends and loved ones. The phenomenon of the increased risk of violence and death of stepchildren is referred to as the Cinderella effect.
[edit]Attachment theory, BPD and C-PTSD
Main articles: Attachment theory and Borderline personality disorder
This controversial area underlines the fragility of C-PTSD as an empirical diagnostic category separate from PTSD.[25][26]
C-PTSD may share some symptoms with both PTSD and borderline personality disorder.[13] Judith Herman has suggested that C-PTSD be used in place of BPD.[27]
It may help to understand the intersection of attachment theory with C-PTSD and BPD if one reads the following opinion of Bessel A. van der Kolk together with an understanding drawn from a description of BPD:
Uncontrollable disruptions or distortions of attachment bonds precede the development of post-traumatic stress syndromes. People seek increased attachment in the face of danger. Adults, as well as children, may develop strong emotional ties with people who intermittently harass, beat, and, threaten them. The persistence of these attachment bonds leads to confusion of pain and love. Trauma can be repeated on behavioural, emotional, physiologic, and neuroendocrinologic levels. Repetition on these different levels causes a large variety of individual and social suffering. Anger directed against the self or others is always a central problem in the lives of people who have been violated and this is itself a repetitive re-enactment of real events from the past. Compulsive repetition of the trauma usually is an unconscious process that, although it may provide a temporary sense of mastery or even pleasure, ultimately perpetuates chronic feelings of helplessness and a subjective sense of being bad and out of control. Gaining control over one's current life, rather than repeating trauma in action, mood, or somatic states, is the goal of healing.[28]
Seeking increased attachment to people, especially to care-givers who inflict pain, confuses love and pain and increases the likelihood of a captivity like that of betrayal bonding,[29] (similar to Stockholm syndrome) and of disempowerment and lack of control. If the situation is perceived as life threatening then traumatic stress responses will likely arise and C-PTSD more likely diagnosed in a situation of insecure attachment than PTSD.
However, 25% of those diagnosed with BPD have no history of childhood neglect or abuse and individuals are six times as likely to develop BPD if they have a relative who was so diagnosed[citation needed] compared to those who do not. One conclusion is that there is a genetic predisposition to BPD unrelated to trauma. Researchers conducting a longitudinal investigation of identical twins found that "genetic factors play a major role in individual differences of borderline personality disorder features in Western society."[30]
[edit]Proposed diagnostic criteria

The following criteria were used while C-PTSD was under consideration for inclusion in the DSM-IV.[1]
1. A history of subjection to totalitarian control over a prolonged period (months to years). Examples include hostages, prisoners of war, concentration-camp survivors, and survivors of some religious cults. Examples also include those subjected to totalitarian systems in sexual and domestic life, including those subjected to domestic battering, child physical or sexual abuse, and organized sexual exploitation.
2. Alterations in affect regulation, including
persistent dysphoria
chronic suicidal preoccupation
self-injury
explosive or extremely inhibited anger (may alternate)
compulsive sexuality or extremely inhibited sexuality (may alternate)
3. Alterations in consciousness, including
amnesia or hypermnesia for traumatic events
transient dissociative episodes
depersonalization/derealization
reliving experiences, either in the form of intrusive post-traumatic stress symptoms or in the form of ruminative preoccupation
4. Alterations in self-perception, including
sense of helplessness or paralysis of initiative
shame, guilt, and self-blame
sense of defilement or stigma
sense of complete difference from others (may include sense of specialness, utter aloneness, belief no other person can understand, or nonhuman identity)
5. Alterations in perception of perpetrator, including
preoccupation with relationship with perpetrator (includes preoccupation with revenge)
unrealistic attribution of total power to perpetrator (caution: victim's assessment of power realities may be more realistic than clinician's)
idealization or paradoxical gratitude
sense of special or supernatural relationship
acceptance of belief system or rationalizations of perpetrator
6. Alterations in relations with others, including
isolation and withdrawal
disruption in intimate relationships
repeated search for rescuer (may alternate with isolation and withdrawal)
persistent distrust
repeated failures of self-protection
7. Alterations in systems of meaning
loss of sustaining faith
sense of hopelessness and despair[31]
[edit]Symptom clusters

[edit]Child and adolescent symptom cluster
Cook and others[32][33] describe symptoms and behavioural characteristics in seven domains:
Attachment - "problems with relationship boundaries, lack of trust, social isolation, difficulty perceiving and responding to other's emotional states, and lack of empathy"
Biology - "sensory-motor developmental dysfunction, sensory-integration difficulties, somatization, and increased medical problems"
Affect or emotional regulation - "poor affect regulation, difficulty identifying and expressing emotions and internal states, and difficulties communicating needs, wants, and wishes"
Dissociation - "amnesia, depersonalization, discrete states of consciousness with discrete memories, affect, and functioning, and impaired memory for state-based events"
Behavioural control - "problems with impulse control, aggression, pathological self-soothing, and sleep problems"
Cognition - "difficulty regulating attention, problems with a variety of "executive functions" such as planning, judgement, initiation, use of materials, and self-monitoring, difficulty processing new information, difficulty focusing and completing tasks, poor object constancy, problems with "cause-effect" thinking, and language developmental problems such as a gap between receptive and expressive communication abilities."
Self-concept -"fragmented and disconnected autobiographical narrative, disturbed body image, low self-esteem, excessive shame, and negative internal working models of self".
[edit]Adult symptom cluster
Adults with C-PTSD have sometimes experienced prolonged interpersonal traumatization as children as well as prolonged trauma as adults. This early injury interrupts the development of a robust sense of self and of others. Because physical and emotional pain or neglect was often inflicted by attachment figures such as caregivers or older siblings, these individuals may develop a sense that they are fundamentally flawed and that others cannot be relied upon.[3][34]
This can become a pervasive way of relating to others in adult life described as insecure attachment. The diagnosis of dissociative disorder and PTSD in the current DSM-IV TR (2000) do not include insecure attachment as a symptom. Individuals with Complex PTSD also demonstrate lasting personality disturbances with a significant risk of revictimization.[35]
Six clusters of symptom have been suggested for diagnosis of C-PTSD.[2][36] These are (1) alterations in regulation of affect and impulses; (2) alterations in attention or consciousness; (3) alterations in self-perception; (4) alterations in relations with others; (5) somatization, and (6) alterations in systems of meaning.[36]
Experiences in these areas may include:[7][14]
Difficulties regulating emotions, including symptoms such as persistent sadness, suicidal thoughts, explosive anger, or covert anger.
Variations in consciousness, such as forgetting traumatic events (i.e., psychogenic amnesia), reliving traumatic events, or having episodes of dissociation (during which one feels detached from one's mental processes or body).
Changes in self-perception, such as a chronic and pervasive sense of helplessness, shame, guilt, stigma, and a sense of being completely different from other human beings.
Varied changes in the perception of the perpetrator, such as attributing total power to the perpetrator or becoming preoccupied with the relationship to the perpetrator, including a preoccupation with revenge.
Alterations in relations with others, including isolation, distrust, or a repeated search for a rescuer.
Loss of, or changes in, one's system of meanings, which may include a loss of sustaining faith or a sense of hopelessness and despair.
[edit]Treatment

[edit]For adults
Herman[1] believes recovery from C-PTSD occurs in three stages. These are: establishing safety, remembrance and mourning for what was lost, and reconnecting with community and more broadly, society. Herman believes recovery can only occur within a healing relationship and only if the survivor is empowered by that relationship. This healing relationship need not be romantic or sexual in the colloquial sense of "relationship", however, and can also include relationships with friends, co-workers, one's relatives or children, and the therapeutic relationship.
Complex trauma means complex reactions and this leads to complex treatments. Hence treatment for C-PTSD requires a multi-modal approach.[33] It has been suggested that treatment for C-PTSD should differ from treatment for PTSD by focusing on problems that cause more functional impairment than the PTSD symptoms. These problems include emotional dysregulation, dissociation, and interpersonal problems.[8] Six suggested core components of complex trauma treatment include:[33]
Safety
Self-regulation
Self-reflective information processing
Traumatic experiences integration
Relational engagement
Positive affect enhancement
Multiple treatments have been suggested for C-PTSD. Among these treatments are experiential and emotionally focused therapy, internal family systems therapy, sensorimotor psychotherapy, eye movement desensitization and reprocessing therapy (EMDR)], Dialectical behavior therapy (DBT), cognitive behavioral therapy, family systems therapy and group therapy.[37]
[edit]For children
The utility of PTSD derived psychotherapies for assisting children with C-PTSD is uncertain. This area of diagnosis and treatment calls for caution in use of the category C-PTSD. Ford and van der Kolk have suggested that C-PTSD may not be as useful a category for diagnosis and treatment of children as a proposed category of developmental trauma disorder (DTD).[38] For DTD to be diagnosed it requires a
'history of exposure to early life developmentally adverse interpersonal trauma such as sexual abuse, physical abuse, violence, traumatic losses of other significant disruption or betrayal of the child's relationships with primary caregivers, which has been postulated as an etiological basis for complex traumatic stress disorders. Diagnosis, treatment planning and outcome are always relational.'[39]
Since C-PTSD or DTD in children is often caused by chronic maltreatment, neglect or abuse in a care-giving relationship the first element of the biopsychosocial system to address is that relationship. This invariably involves some sort of child protection agency. This both widens the range of support that can be given to the child but also the complexity of the situation, since the agency's statutory legal obligations may then need to be enforced.
A number of practical, therapeutic and ethical principles for assessment and intervention have been developed and explored in the field:[40]
Identifying and addressing threats to the child's or family's safety and stability are the first priority.
A relational bridge must be developed to engage, retain and maximize the benefit for the child and caregiver.
Diagnosis, treatment planning and outcome monitoring are always relational (and) strengths based.
All phases of treatment should aim to enhance self-regulation competencies.
Determining with whom, when and how to address traumatic memories.
Preventing and managing relational discontinuities and psychosocial crises.
[edit]See also

Attachment in adults
Attachment in children
Attachment-based psychotherapy
Hostage
Human bonding
Maladaptive daydreaming
Psychosomatic medicine
Trauma model of mental disorders

[ROMANWKT]

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychological_trauma

I wonder how many of us are suffering from this and don't know it. Once I realized this it became easier to deal with. My awakening began in 2004 and it very traumatic for me. Plus dealing with alcoholics who caused me to loose half my pension sent me into a nervous breakdown two years ago. I couldn't figure out why I would react to certain things with violence and hate in my mind. I realize now those things are triggers. I am better now at reconizing the triggers and can keep from reacting to them. It is a process that takes time.

Anyone else dealing with this?

Hi MargueriteBee

I don't know if you ever managed to read one of my threads called http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?15834-Its-all-nonsense-part-1 it handles all traumas which are held in the body and in the subconscious, as both of them are recorders of traumatic events, please read and try to do it, and better still just do it, it will help you.

warmest regards to you MargueriteBee, nice to see you back

roman

[lookbeyond]

Sensitivity to people's energies, sounds, synthetic smells, artificial lighting, and cold air are triggers for me. Like everyone in this world I have had the human experience of dealing with emotional stuff but it wasn't until I recognized and embraced my innate sensitivity to external stimulus that I learned to react differently to emotional stuff.
Back in 2004 I experienced a kundalini energy release that lasted for 4 months. Someday I will write a thread about this cosmic energy but for now what I want to say here is that the root of a lot of emotional stuff for some of us is a heightened sensitivity and a misinterpretation of relating to the world. Therefore I feel the most comfortable when I am alone in my own space. Some of us are more sentient beings.

Wishing you well and understand that we are all experiencing the human journey here which at times it is a struggle .
Many Blesssings,
GLORIA

Thankyou Gloria- this was a helpful post to me


Kind Reguards lookbeyond

Addit- i will look forward to your thread about this

[lookbeyond]

I was thinking this morning about all this trauma. It seems like our society is full of hurt, maybe designed to cause pain? Also how much trauma is carried over from past lives?

Well you know what MargueriteBee? your thread is helping people right now through the process of sharing of experiences- and i always think it lessens the sense of isolation when we know it is not just happening to us- so thankyou and love to you!

lookbeyond

[MargueriteBee]

I realized this morning that TV violence is a trigger because my much older and bigger sister beat the crap out of me everyday growing up. I don't own a tv but the people I am staying with have it on during waking hours, all day. There are times when I hide out in my room cause I can't stand it, especially that zombie show cause they kill many times during that one hour.

Yes, Starchild111, the trauma has been life long. But today has been a better day. I was able to talk about the 9 months of extremely loud ugly headbanger noise without breaking down.

[bram]

I realized this morning that TV violence is a trigger because my much older and bigger sister beat the crap out of me everyday growing up. I don't own a tv but the people I am staying with have it on during waking hours, all day. There are times when I hide out in my room cause I can't stand it, especially that zombie show cause they kill many times during that one hour.

Yes, Starchild111, the trauma has been life long. But today has been a better day. I was able to talk about the 9 months of extremely loud ugly headbanger noise without breaking down.

Hi little bee,

I am with you 365% on this television thing. It takes over your mind, imposes its own thought pattern on you, it fills your head with ugly images and it is trying to get you to accept extreme violence as the norm. Eckhart Tolle suggests if you get stuck in front of a TV you should concentrate on feeling the vibrations field in your body, but tbh you are better off in your room.

And yes, the zombie thing is REALLY dreadful!!

Love to you, love to me, love to everyone who is reading this thread.....

Bram

[shomamuva]

Hi MargueriteBee,

I too have been dealing with the same. Almost 2 yrs ago was put through an ordeal at work because someone had/has issues and sent a lot of anger & deceit my direction. Had to go through several traumatic experiences ... escorted off the job, screening for drugs & alcohol, group therapy due to my "anger management" issues which of course are really her issues. I didn't have anger issues before but sure felt a few while going though it! :p

It all ended up to be a wonderful experience though because after a nervous break myself, I finally dealt with my own issues of PTSD from past traumas that I had not dealt with. It is very difficult, extremely painful and frightening ... reliving things that were buried for years ... but in the end dealing with and finishing the process of going through them was a HUGE relief!

Lots of support and love for yourself and from others is key! I found the book "The Language of Letting Go" by Melody Beatty very helpful. Cutting those folks out of your life is also, until you are better able to handle it, if you choose to handle it again .... it is your life and you can decide what you want without feeling obligated, afraid, guilty or any other emotion your mind wants to throw at you. Emotions are just feelings that you can feel and move on from, they do not make decisions for you, you do! One of my greatest lessons, I am who I choose to be and not what I feel or what others think or say I am.

Blessings to you and courage and strength .... Life is one lesson after another whether positive or negative.

Now I call it my personal boot camp for Zen Living. :wink:

[kingmonkey]

Trauma is a fascinating topic for me. In fact the impact of trauma has been a huge influence in my life.

In fact i just wrote a mini essay on this topic but i just lost it prior to posting but i dont have the energy to type it out again!

If anyone is interested in trauma google the following names Stephanie Mines (TARA approach) Peter Levine (Somatic Experiencing) David Berceli (TRE Exercises) Dr Grant McFetridge (Institute for the Study of Peakstates) Tapas Fleming (TAT) Robert Scaer (Traumasoma).

Also the following website is a great resouce for learning about trauma http://www.trauma-pages.com/

[Wind]

How about severe past life trauma? I've had a reading and according to it my earlier traumas have caused me to have severe anxiety on this current life of mine. I'm highly considering about having a past life regression therapy session (QHHT). I've been in a contact with a local hypnotist who was trained by none other than Dolores Cannon.

[OOO]

I did my life between lives regression based on Michael Newtons approach and it was incredibly helpful in understanding my soul essence. Even more it helped me understand the beauty of each challenge I chose to experience. I highly recommend it.

[Hervé]

One might find this thread -- MATRIX REVEALED -- Analysis & Solutions (http://projectavalon.net/forum4/showthread.php?52786-MATRIX-REVEALED-Analysis-Solutions) -- interesting enough and pursue the "trauma relief" method developed by the author?

[MargueriteBee]

Sometimes I wonder if light workers are targeted by negative entities.

Thanks everyone for your posts, it will take awhile to get thru it all.

I never did mind being locked in the closet, it was when I was alone that no one hurt me. I guess that is why I prefer to live alone.

[Sidney]

Sometimes I wonder if light workers are targeted by negative entities.

Thanks everyone for your posts, it will take awhile to get thru it all.

I never did mind being locked in the closet, it was when I was alone that no one hurt me. I guess that is why I prefer to live alone.

I too have wondered that very thing.

[Tony]

We all seem to carry 'wounds' from the past, which has an effect on our well being.
Our reactions to these past 'wounds' creates mental fixations and blockages. These create an imprint in the mind, and act like a mental library, so when a similar experience occurs...up come the emotions!...and round we go again in circles!!!:frusty:

So our reactions are karmically produced, they are products of the past -a residue or reservoir re-actions.

We are constantly doing this, every moment has a past connection, so we have or hold onto this habitual way of responding, and that produces a person-ality.

The good news is, we do not have to re-act! In the present moment when something occurs, if we merely pause, relax...look, see, drop, space is created. In that space, no karma is created, we are complying to our normal chain reactions.

Now we may respond or not, but in a more creative, more intelligent way. This can happen if we no longer take 'things' personally, and look to the welfare of others.
That very action takes 'us' out of the picture.

One may be screaming, "What about my needs!" Well, stop screaming and listen quietly. Silent prayer and meditation does not go unheard.


We are sentient beings, when we refine this mind and our reactions, we just might find we are in fact enlightened.:gossip:........:thumb:




Tony