My own private hell......

[truth4me]

I haven't been on the forum to post anything since Dec 2nd. People you would not believe the personal hell I've been through. I really can't explain right now but I made it through the "dark days" of last week and as a matter of fact one week ago today I thought my timecard in the cosmic game of life was about to be punched. Family tragedies are so hard to deal with. I know this life is nothing but an illusion yet it's a real illusion and dealing with the 3-d crowd has tested my belief system to the max. There are kind people even while they are asleep. I will tell my horror story later and glad to be back home on the forum .....

[sleepy]

xxxxx xxxxx

[Fred Steeves]

Glad you're back truth4me, and glad you made it through this in one piece. Looking forward to hearing the story when you're ready. Of course you know this will only make you stronger.

Cheers,
Fred

[shadowstalker]

Meditate if you can, if this doesn't work start writing in a journal.
LOVE/HARMONY/HEALING to you. :grouphug::hug::hippie::luv:

[4evrneo]

Healing and strength are yours........

Bless,
Annette

[Tony]

Hello truth4me,

These are indeed challenging times, but you do have us to listen.

Love,
Tony

[spiritguide]

Welcome back! Most of us here have suffered through and along the path to get here. Not only do we share your suffering but we share our heart felt love energies with you.

[RunningDeer]

I'm sending healing energies to you, truth4me,
and whomever else may benefit towards creating
an environment of harmony and support.

Peace and Love,
WhiteCrowBlackDeer
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PS Nice to have you back. :wave:

[Craig]

Mate, welcome back, hope all is getting better and although this is an illusion it is all we have at the moment and it is an amazingly brilliant, beautiful, confusing, dreadful, disgusting place. How can so much be squeezed into 3D? I wish you well and hope you can sustain some inner peace

[Tesla_WTC_Solution]

Remember that when you start to sink, when you think the water is going to close over your head,
that is when the helping hand is apparent -- and all you have to do, is open your eyes,
and take that hand.

May the vision be clear :(

from one sufferer to another

[sandy]

Glad you are back and found the strength to see through all the 3D stuff. Scathing and daunting as your experience sounds sure happy that you found your way home to the loving community in your corner here at Avalon...................:grouphug: from the many who have your back !!

[Vitalux]

Crises are like phases of the Moon, they come and go.
Without the cycles life would get boring :whoo:

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[bram]

Remember, nothing lasts for long and everything is impermanent. Your present suffering is no exception, and you will move on to better times!!

Courage and patience,

Love, bram

[Maunagarjana]

Yes, as you say, this world is a real illusion. Or as I like to say, a "reallusion". I was just talking about this very thing today with a friend.

[truth4me]

I thank all of my family here on the forum and yes as bad as my deal was the school shooting was so much worse. I feel I was targeted now let a few more days pass and I'll explain the event after event that I went through in basically 10 days. I've went trough death of my mother 8 years ago and a nasty divorce 13 years ago but the emotonal rollercoaster of the last 10 days made those above 2 things appear like ice cream and cake .........

[jagman]

This sounds very serious. Keep your mind focused on what you need to accomplish to get through these headwinds.Take care of yourself. Good to see you back

[RunningDeer]

I thank all of my family here on the forum and yes as bad as my deal was the school shooting was so much worse. I feel I was targeted now let a few more days pass and I'll explain the event after event that I went through in basically 10 days. I've went trough death of my mother 8 years ago and a nasty divorce 13 years ago but the emotonal rollercoaster of the last 10 days made those above 2 things appear like ice cream and cake .........

Hello truth4me,

Like you've pointed out, harsh events may serve as triggers for what has not been processed within. Sharing is one way to shine a light on those dark corners.

My guess is that's the purpose for all these horrific events. It's timely and revealing at this 12/21/12 juncture. Which is all the more reason for me to be in my heart as much as I can and process out any remaining gunk. I'm beating them at their diabolical game. They haven't figured out that it only makes me stronger.

Peace,
WhiteCrowBlackDeer