christian
1st May 2013, 22:13
Been cool days lately, made good progress on the book project I'm working on, got positive feedback from different friends whom I pointed towards taking a look at Thrive, and I have had some real epiphanies that I wanna share.
I had been reflecting on my life, and to be quite honest, you could argue that I 'wasted' quite a lot of time with base activities of all kinds, really, you name it, also simply mundane procrastinating. Then I was like, "But I'm still here, blessed with all this abundance and wonderful experiences in my life, connected to great people and able to work on wonderful things. God really has impressive patience with me."
And then I thought, "well, how about me having the same patience with everybody?" And then boom, it felt like a whole new world suddenly opening up. I mean, I might have had that kind of idea before—being patient—but in that moment I really felt it. Still I'm sure this was only another step on an infinite staircase, but it just felt so intense, putting it in perspective like that, still does.
Next day I went to the gym, where often things inside me seem to process themselves, it's really a meditation to me. I suddenly had this thought of like, "If I would leave my body right now, just go and leave it all behind, I wouldn't cling or feel sad. I'm thankful for all the rich experiences I had and all the blessings I had enjoyed in my life. And wherever I go from here after I leave my body behind, I will do my best to help others to experience such blessings, too. Existence is just magnificiently beautiful, everbody should be able to experience this."
This feeling of truly being ready to die is one of the coolest things I have experienced in my life, to be quite honest. It kind of automatically destroys fear, craving, and egoic behavior and connected me with the higer self, higher perspectives, it gave me a very distinct focus on my true purpose. Of course, I figure if I would leave my body right now, I'd eventually say, "well, this body is still in good shape, might as well go back and roam about for a little more."
:)
Now I can already sense how everything in my life flows more easily, efficiently, and purposefully. Not because I press harder for things to happen, but because this idea of possibly leaving this earthly incarnation right now cuts away so much unnecessary patterns that have stalled me before, expectations, fears, worldy burdens. I feel more relaxed, and when I do something now, I feel much more like cutting straight to the chase with greater grace and ease.
It has been a subtle fear in my life before that my activities could get me in serious problems or even killed, this has happened to me in my last life. But this fear has decreased now significantly. I know I will always be somewhere to contribute to teach others how to access and experience this beauty that is bursting everywhere. I'm ready to die now. I feel invincible.
ii0B_4E0rGk
PS: Expanding on what I said about training in the gym, it actually helps me a lot with getting my ethereal energy in a proper flow and thus with seeing auras, has never been better in my life really. I recently started to do some exercises in different ways, which really helped me with my knees and lower back. It is said empaths often have problems with the lower back due to a very active sacral chakra. Really a challenge to balance that, hugging trees also helps me a lot there, no kidding!
So what helped me most in the gym were overhead squats, where you got a barbell above your head, spread your feet more than shoulder wide and go for it. Then deadlifts, which I never did before because it seemed to me like one of those exercises that I associated with mindless beefcakes, haha. Gotta keep your back straight! Got properly sore muscles now, but especially in my legs actually from doing lunges with a barbell on my neck, didn't see that coming when doing these, but feels great now!
All of you interested in physical exercises, I can recommend Elliott Hulse's channel (https://www.youtube.com/user/strengthcamp/videos). Got a pretty good attitude and good insights on different exercises. His credo is "becoming the strongest version of yourself and inspiring others to do the same." (http://www.hulsestrength.com/about/) He also inititiated the "non-job campaign," a guide on how to make your passion your living. Here's a video (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cf3R3yzEn94) explaining the idea. It's on his personal channel where he reflects on various questions you could have in life. You may not always agree with him, I surely don't, but he can be quite inspiring.
:llama:
I had been reflecting on my life, and to be quite honest, you could argue that I 'wasted' quite a lot of time with base activities of all kinds, really, you name it, also simply mundane procrastinating. Then I was like, "But I'm still here, blessed with all this abundance and wonderful experiences in my life, connected to great people and able to work on wonderful things. God really has impressive patience with me."
And then I thought, "well, how about me having the same patience with everybody?" And then boom, it felt like a whole new world suddenly opening up. I mean, I might have had that kind of idea before—being patient—but in that moment I really felt it. Still I'm sure this was only another step on an infinite staircase, but it just felt so intense, putting it in perspective like that, still does.
Next day I went to the gym, where often things inside me seem to process themselves, it's really a meditation to me. I suddenly had this thought of like, "If I would leave my body right now, just go and leave it all behind, I wouldn't cling or feel sad. I'm thankful for all the rich experiences I had and all the blessings I had enjoyed in my life. And wherever I go from here after I leave my body behind, I will do my best to help others to experience such blessings, too. Existence is just magnificiently beautiful, everbody should be able to experience this."
This feeling of truly being ready to die is one of the coolest things I have experienced in my life, to be quite honest. It kind of automatically destroys fear, craving, and egoic behavior and connected me with the higer self, higher perspectives, it gave me a very distinct focus on my true purpose. Of course, I figure if I would leave my body right now, I'd eventually say, "well, this body is still in good shape, might as well go back and roam about for a little more."
:)
Now I can already sense how everything in my life flows more easily, efficiently, and purposefully. Not because I press harder for things to happen, but because this idea of possibly leaving this earthly incarnation right now cuts away so much unnecessary patterns that have stalled me before, expectations, fears, worldy burdens. I feel more relaxed, and when I do something now, I feel much more like cutting straight to the chase with greater grace and ease.
It has been a subtle fear in my life before that my activities could get me in serious problems or even killed, this has happened to me in my last life. But this fear has decreased now significantly. I know I will always be somewhere to contribute to teach others how to access and experience this beauty that is bursting everywhere. I'm ready to die now. I feel invincible.
ii0B_4E0rGk
PS: Expanding on what I said about training in the gym, it actually helps me a lot with getting my ethereal energy in a proper flow and thus with seeing auras, has never been better in my life really. I recently started to do some exercises in different ways, which really helped me with my knees and lower back. It is said empaths often have problems with the lower back due to a very active sacral chakra. Really a challenge to balance that, hugging trees also helps me a lot there, no kidding!
So what helped me most in the gym were overhead squats, where you got a barbell above your head, spread your feet more than shoulder wide and go for it. Then deadlifts, which I never did before because it seemed to me like one of those exercises that I associated with mindless beefcakes, haha. Gotta keep your back straight! Got properly sore muscles now, but especially in my legs actually from doing lunges with a barbell on my neck, didn't see that coming when doing these, but feels great now!
All of you interested in physical exercises, I can recommend Elliott Hulse's channel (https://www.youtube.com/user/strengthcamp/videos). Got a pretty good attitude and good insights on different exercises. His credo is "becoming the strongest version of yourself and inspiring others to do the same." (http://www.hulsestrength.com/about/) He also inititiated the "non-job campaign," a guide on how to make your passion your living. Here's a video (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cf3R3yzEn94) explaining the idea. It's on his personal channel where he reflects on various questions you could have in life. You may not always agree with him, I surely don't, but he can be quite inspiring.
:llama: